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merakiui · 1 year

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Hi hi, I love love love the way you write for jade and I would love to hear what kind of personality you have in mind when writting for him??

I seem to be struggling to do him justice with my interpretation and I would love to hear your thought process. TT

Much love!! ♡

Hello!! I'm so happy to hear you like my portrayal of Jade! I will share my thought process below. Forgive me for rambling. orz

Whenever I write him, I always envision the >:3c face because I feel like that sums up Jade's sly, smart-ass personality very well. He is quite the scheming devil who will play dumb if it's fun or entertaining, even though he most definitely already knows. He likes to be a very subtle pain, or he'll build up to it with little, seemingly insignificant things until it all comes crashing down on you at once. <3

That aside, Jade is such a complex character with a very interesting psychology! I always imagine him as being leaner than Floyd, whereas Floyd is bulkier/more broad-shouldered, and that perhaps when Jade was young he was the runt of the lot. It is said the twins chose each other when they hatched, so sometimes I like to think Jade chose Floyd in order to offset his own weaknesses and survive because runts don't often survive in the sea. Both of them are strong, although I think Floyd has more raw strength, and what Jade lacks in strength he makes up for with sharp wit and intelligence.

I like to keep a few things in mind when I'm writing Jade: body language, banter, and his upbringing in the sea. Body language is important because it's either very telling or very deceptive with him, and you can play off of both to make him seem oddly genuine or scarily evasive. In the game, he tends to cover his mouth a lot with his hand and he always stands so still and straight. He's also always smiling, and I love characters who can smile while saying the most horrendous things! Jade must always look polite, sound polite, be polite. It's the gentleman façade! Even when he's ruining your life, he will still be so polite. The type of man who appears perfect husband material, but then you look beyond the carefully crafted veneer and it is much deeper and darker.

Banter is another important facet to Jade because oh does he adore banter. I think the best reference of banter between Jade and a darling are the chapters in DRU because that's where the most banter can be found (but there's also some banter in the alpha Floyd story where Jade is being annoying about the jacket and the pastry just to get fun reactions from darling). Jade likes to annoy and push every button he can. Sometimes you'll think he does it just to get the most volatile reactions; other times it's because things have been too peaceful and quiet and Jade likes a little mischief every now and then. Banter with Jade is fun because he's so willing to engage in it. Even lighthearted arguments with him might spiral into nonsensical banter.

As for his upbringing in the sea, I just like to incorporate his being a merman whenever I can, even if it's little glimpses of his views as an ocean dweller. He is a predator, so naturally he would have that mindset even if he's temporarily human. He is also very calculated and patient. So patient!! As long as it's beneficial in some way or very entertaining, he will wait as long as he must. Though Floyd has noted that morays are cowards, so there are parts of Jade that are not as forward as others. I imagine this is why he can be so patient and wait long times because it's best to plan and observe instead of jumping in so rashly. I like to classify him as a persistence predator. Whether he wears you down with brutal mind games or the threat of Floyd or one of Azul's contracts or even with his own intimidating presence, he will delight in the waiting game.

He also has a bit of a mean streak. Like Floyd, Jade can be a bully. But unlike Floyd, Jade is an excellent actor. He's good at veiling his true emotions and intentions. His bullying of you could be lighthearted (little teasing remarks that truly aren't meant to cut deep rather than just sting enough to get a fun reaction) or something like cornering you in the desolate hallways to playfully intimidate you, momentarily allowing you to see beyond his respectful façade just to see you squirm. Of course if you have a problem with his behavior you're more than welcome to bring it up with Azul or Floyd. They won't help, and even if they did you'd certainly be gaslit to the deepest trench and back. <3 Jade has a way with words, smooth as sea glass, but those words often function as double-edged blades. Sometimes they cut; sometimes they're too dull. You'll never know what he's really thinking because he keeps the truth close to his chest like it's a winning deck of cards; even true meanings are veiled in his words, but you're never given enough time to dissect them because he keeps you on your toes.

He's also a glutton! Jade likes to eat a lot, and he eats big portions as well. I haven't really written about that facet of Jade much, but you will see a lot of it in DRU for...um;;;; obvious reasons... ^^;;; but little details like that make him unexpectedly cute. Like his fascination and love of mushrooms and hiking. It's cute and fun! Even big, scary eel has gentle hobbies (even if said hobbies include looking for the most potent mushrooms with dubious effects).

Additionally, I like to think his view of love is different from that of the standard human definition. I like to imagine Jade has very few reserves of love (most are for his family, some close friends, and even himself and his interests), so when he is able to love something he loves it wholeheartedly. Both twins are the same in this regard; when they love, they love. You'll just never know at first because Jade hides it well, but when you begin to pick up on aspects of his personality you'll begin to see his love for you is not as subtle as it once was. Essentially, you just need to get accustomed to Jade and all of his tricks to get to the real Jade who lies beneath. It's like licking a lollipop to get to the nougat lol. All of those candied layers will melt away eventually; you just need to bond with him more and he needs to trust you enough to know that it's worth showing you that deck of cards he keeps close, even if it's only for a quick peek.

Jade likes unpredictability and spontaneity. Life just wouldn't be fun if it was mundane and routine. He lives to be a nuisance. But a subtle nuisance! He still has to be sweet and polite, after all. :)

#twisted chit chat #i also think it should be noted that i often think of the most violent morally horrendous fic ideas for jade #he just has that sinister effect orz

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disabled-stuck · 11 months

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HI ITS ME CHRONIC PAIN ANON BACK AGAIN... here's my thoughts on who of the human cast is Aware That They Have Chronic Pain Issues. srry ppl were discussing and im like, Wow, Time For Me In Hc Central

june's issues start to really develop and get bad post-game (in my headcanons), so for a long period of time she literally has no one to talk to about it bc she's self-isolating. she eventually tells nannasprite about it when nanna is guilt-tripping her into getting up (nanna voice: Whatever works, hoohoo!), and nanna is like. this is my only granddaughter. i will do whatever i can for her. (i love june & nanna's dynamic. could u tell.) jasprose also is like GIRL!!! You Are In Pain!!! nanna & jasprose team up of the century to get june egbert to Acknowledge Her Problems

dave NO clue NO idea WILL not talk about it. maybe EVENTUALLY tells karkat about it but i don't think she ever seeks out a diagnosis or tries to get one. hes got old ingrained trauma about seeing doctors, which is something he's trying to get over, but like, he already has 4 bajillion other things to unpack about his childhood and healthcare systems are not historically good about chronic pain, a dismissal of their symptoms might set them back in that regard. they're just homebrewing this shit for now.

rose: yeah, she knows. she doesn't talk about it in those terms, though. instead of saying "i have a horrible migraine and cannot get out of bed" she tells kanaya to text the gc that she's afflicted by the Broodfester Woes and cannot join them this evening. theyve sort of picked up by now what that means but she thinks it's funnier this way.

jade: HMMM. i think she put herself through her denial paces but actually i think going grimbark essentially caused her to not feel her chronic pain (a side effect of condy's semi-control over her body), and when she got shunted back into her body she had to face the reality where she DIDNT hurt all the time like wow thats how ppl normally feel? what the fuck????

jane: oh absolutely fucking not does not know. unlike jade, his pain got WORSE during crockertier. yet it still takes literally two decades for him to finally acknowledge that his stuff is NOT normal and the fact that her whole friend group has chronic pain doesn't help, which kind of sucks. jane voice: well sometimes i can get out of bed when i have a headache and rose can't, so clearly its not the same (as if jane doesn't force himself out of bed even when he really shouldnt!!!). roxy has to be the one to tell him.

roxy: yeah she knows it's chronic pain. she's been worried about getting cirrhosis for years, and so has been keeping up to date on her physical health as a result. she figured it out pretty quickly after a couple flareups. trickster mode made it worse for her.

dirk: hal has been telling him for YEARRRRRRRRS that his carpal tunnel is just that, carpal tunnel. and yet. AR: Dirk, if you do not take better care of yourself, you are never going to be capable of building me a body of my own. TT: 1. I'm fine. 2. I'm not building you a body anyways, so the point is moot. anyways he accepts it during the game bc he's like you know what. might as well admit it to myself. good thing, too, because it only gets worse after a couple decapitations.

jake: has pretty much always known, deep down, but like. she lives on an ISLAND. the hell is he going to do about it? no, better not to think about it. someday they'll be able to deal with it, but that day isn't today, and theres so much to do. so he represses it DEEPLY. normal action hero jake english doesn't have chronic pain, of course. she's a heroic manly lead, after all... (the deconstruction of that mindset sort of makes them acknowledge it, though.)

ANYWAYS I JUST RAMBLED AT YOU FOR A COUPLE HUNDRED WORDS HOPE U HAVE, A GOOD DAY/NIGHT/WHAT EVER

YYAYYY no you're so good nonnie thank u forever and ever

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twotangledsisters · 9 months

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Hope you're feeling better! I just wanted to say that maybe try to remember that many of the big or notable names of content creators, specifically artists on tumblr for the tts fandom, are also active on other sites. I know people say over and over to not compare your art to others, but some of these people have been online for yearssss, thus building a community for those years as well! And also with your recent art doing so well, I have no doubt you'll be right up with those groups of names in the future!

Oh wow, thank you so much for these kinds words! I'm not exaggerating when I say I teared up! I always feel amazingly touched when people take the time to be this nice!

And I completely agree and understand! I don't really compare myself to big names in the fandom. I do (and shouldn't) sometimes end up comparing myself to smaller creators who I'm mutuals with.

But a lot of my anxiety comes from a series of overthinking. 'Oh, nobody re-blogged this piece, is it because I posted it at a bad time? Is the art ugly? Or is it because they can't be seen interacting with me because somebody somewhere is talking about how I'm a horrible person?'

A very unreasonable and sudden jump. I am 100% working on it!

It's just a lot harder for me to get back into tumblr compared to other sites, both because of an experience I had with it when I was a teenager... and because of the more recent hate I received on this account (the anon asks for those who remember...).

I don't really aspire to be a big name! Mostly cause big names aren't as approachable and my goal is more to chat about the show I love? Something that I think would be harder if people weren't approaching me?

But the smile it brings to my face that you think I could be one! See, now you're inspiring me to want to draw even more!

But anyway, ending on your first statement (order, what's that?):

Hope you're feeling better!

I am! I'm still limiting my access to tumblr. It's off the phone and I have to log in every time on pc so as to make sure I'm only coming in when in a good mindset.

But I'm still making sure to log in every so often to check messages and stuff I've been tagged in, post art if I have some and feel up to it.

I am definitely feeling better. And I hope to keep on track and be back to my usual self sooner rather than later :D

I'm in a bit of a shy bubble right now but I do look forward to talking to people on here again soon!

Thankyou again for the kind words! I know this answer was long and... well, a bit rambly! I probably should work on that too! But I'm super grateful!

#ask answered #genuinely thank you #some weeks kind words just hit really hard #in a good way

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harmonizewithechoes · 3 years

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(Video by @renegadescienceteacher on tiktok)

This video is making me Feel things that I can barely put words to

I of course had to grab some pen and paper and map out multiple generations after this. 10 generations ago is 512 people. 15 generations ago is 16,000 people. And if you go back 25 generations?

That’s 16,777,216 people. Over 16 MILLION people who lived and loved and had babies that had lived and loved and had babies that lived and loved and had babies and so on and so forth until you were born and made it to where we could all exist at the same time right now.

If any one of those people had had a different life that didn’t involve having kids you would not be here today. That is an absolutely wild concept to think about. Even if I don’t know the names of more than around 20 or so people- even though I have no idea who past that is connected to me- each and every single one of those people was important to me because they made it so that I could exist today.

If they were important enough to still be impacting the world today, long after the world has forgotten their names, then maybe I have some importance as well?

#idk though #the jury is still out on that one #importance of any kind? me? I refuse to accept it #no but thinking about the people who lived and died before me so that I could be here now is making me super emotional #and I really don’t know how to describe it #also how many of those people overlap with my friends? that would be a cool thing to find out even though we’ll never truly know #how many generations would I have to go back to have someone in common with my favorite actor? or favorite author?#it’s wild #I’ve thought about it before but never in this much detail #also I know that tiktok puts the names of the creators in a watermark thing on the video #but sometimes they’re hard to read so I like to be sure to give credit #this is the 4th video in a row on tt that had the message “you’re more important than you realize”’’#and they were all about very different things #still a hard concept to wrap my mind around tbh #it’s just easier to think that my life has no impact and that it makes no difference whether I’m here or not #it makes the ‘easy way out’ a more viable option for one day in the future if things go really sideways and I can’t see the point anymore #if I believe my life has some kind of value that makes it infinitely harder to leave #and my depression riddled brain loves to keep that option in my back pocket at all times #I’m fine btw! I’m not in an unsafe mindset or anything #I’ve just been so depressed for so long that my brain is kind of hardwired to think about the ‘easy way out’ when things are difficult #or even when I’m mildly inconvenienced 🙄

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crowniko-ink · 2 years

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I am alive :D

And to prove that here are some random tts headcanons teehee

• Varian has abandonment issues HAHA

• The gang sometimes low-key forgets that they're all only-children, like, they all adopted each other and forget they're not each other's real siblings LMAO

• Someone: So, your highness, as an only child, you-

Rapunzel: What-... but I'm not an only child tho :/ ....OH YEAH WAIT-

• For someone so small, Varian is able to buy a whole cake and eat it all by himself in one sitting

• Varian is very twitchy is the kind of a person that can't stand/sit still and has to at least bounce his leg or something or do something with his hands

• Arianna teaches Rapunzel french

• Maybe Raps even tries to flirt with Eugene in french GKGJFVJ

• Rapunzel: Tu est très béant :)♥️

Eugene, who knows french: ...What-

• She meant to say tu est très beau/You are very handsome and instead she said "you are very gaping" but she's trying her best okay :(

• Eugene hides his trauma and pain with humor (that's basically canon tho)

• Like, he claims that he doesn't want people to see him cry because he's an ugly crier but that's just a funny way hiding the fact that he doesn't wanna cry in front of people because he thinks it makes him weak :( I guess growing up on the streets just makes you have this mindset

• Lance loves braiding Catalina's hair (cuz he's bald HAHA)

• Rapunzel loves braiding her own hair too, but after she looses her hair, she can't braid it much, so she braids everybody else's that's longer than hers!

• So now everybody in the castle has little braids in their hair <3

• Rapunzel has a special pair of shoes that she wears specially for Varian's lab (cuz of broken glass ect.) so every time she's walking in the castle wearing them, everyone knows where she's going

• Cassandra sends everybody letters after she leaves Corona and they're usually accompanied by some cool thing she found on the road (usually some kind of a weapon tho lmao)

• Like for example a baseball bat with hammered nails in it that she sent to Rapunzel!

• Aka "ur gonna need better weapons that kitchen utensils to defend urself raps"

#tts #tangled the series #varian tangled #rapunzles tangled adventure #tts varian #rapunzel #tangled eugene #eugene fitzherbert #flynn rider #tts cassandra #tangled cassandra #rta rapunzel #lance strongbow #lance tts #rapunzels tangled adventure

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melo-yello · 3 years

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Sunkissed (Florian X Plus-sized Black Reader)

Pairing(s): Florian Munteanu X Black!reader, Plus-Size!Reader

Word Count: 3.6k+

Warning(s): body dysmorphia, cursing, gaslighting, and self worth struggles

A/n: This been sitting in my docs for who knows how long. But he’s so fine and I know he’d be soooooooo sweet if you were having a bad body day. Just angst and fluff. I really wanted to write for the hotties wit all the body tell me if I did y’all justice.

The sun pours down on you as you take a seat at a table outside the cafe. You adjust your hat and sunglasses to shade your face silently hoping your Aunt would hurry up before you got recognized. Kinky h/c coils subdued in a low puff and edges swooped to utter perfection peek just pass the hat's brim. It's so odd for people to know who you are now. Things have really taken off in the last year.

You had just finished filming a couple segments for Vanity Fair's YouTube channel earlier this morning and you're still a little in awe of everything. You never expected to be here at this stage of your life. A up incoming plus-size model with her career on the rise. Big publications wanted you on their covers.

Ebony.

Essence.

Allure.

Even a Vogue feature.

Thinking back to middle school it’s funny how you never dared to dream you’d be here. You are so far from that insecure little girl swallowed up in self-hate.

Your hot pink dress blows gently in the cool breeze. The gold body glitter shines on your exposed

shoulders and plush thighs.

You scroll down your Insta feed tuning out the bustling brunch crowd. A notification flashes across the top of screen. A new comment on the stunning fit you're wearing this morning.

@bignasty

Damn You're Gorgeous🥵...Where's your man?😘

You smile to yourself tracing the smooth baby hairs at your temple as type your reply.

@bignasty Still finding time in between his busy filming his fine ass off to annoy me😚

Your boyfriend just couldn't help himself sometime.

"Hey Honey!"

Your aunt's voice pulls your eyes away from your phone and up to her with arms open wide.

"Auntie Roxie! It's been too long!" You chime popping up to embrace the beautiful middle aged woman before you.

Her deep brown hair finger waved to perfection only with a lone gray swoop at her temple to hint her age. A classic diva if you've ever seen one.

Her lean waist giving way to bodacious hips and topped off with her perfect D cup breasts. She was all you wanted to grow up to be as a child.

Confident.

Poised.

And Beautiful.

You have since out grown the 'only one kind of body is beautiful' mindset. You’d be lying if you didn't admit that Roxie's stunning.

"It sure has! And don't you look scandalous!" Roxie hums as you spin yourself around to give the full effect of your outfit.

"Thanks, TT." You cheese taking your seat across from her.

"Just drop dead gorgeous! So catch me up, Chic! I want to know Ev-re-y-thing!" She stresses each syllable squeezing your hands firmly.

"Okay. Okay, but let's order first. I'm starved." You say scrunching up your face at her as you wave down a waiter.

"Can't say I'm surprised, HoneyBun." She smirks reviving your childhood nickname as she nudges your side. A frown flutters across your full lips before the waiter interrupts.

She didn't mean it like that.

"I'm Anthony and I'll be your server today. What can I get you gorgeous ladies to start with this afternoon?" He smiles unapologetically checking out you.

Roxie stifles a chuckle as she rolls her eyes. Chalking up the slight sting in your chest to you being overly sensitive.

She's not laughing at me.

The appetizers give way to entries as she claws at every juicy detail she can possibly get.

How quickly your career's climbing. How you were adjusting to living in such a big city. How you're adjusting to the limelight. What celebrities are really like. Your love life. Which lead to how you wound up dating Florian Munteanu in the first place.

The pleased expression on your face somehow broadens. You don't know if you loved talking about your man or your dreams more.

You couldn't decide.

This being the most successful time of your life, and the healthiest relationship of your adult life. Florian legitimately cared about you and encouraged your ambitions. You often caught yourself feeling it was all too good to be true.

"Florian is such a great guy! You know, he really cares-" You gush before she cuts you off shrugging.

"How long do you think this'll last?" Roxie stares directly into your e/c eyes. You shift a little in your seat.

"Well, I mean no one ever really knows in the beginning, but what we have is-"

"No HoneyBun. Not that Miracle. Your moment in the sun. I know being 'curvy' is popular now but, how long do you think it'll last?" Roxie cuts you off again taking both of your hands in hers.

"Are you serious, right now?"

"Well yea, it's just trendy. Just like jerry curls and parachute pants somethings just phase out." She nods solemnly as if she's letting you in on one of the best kept secrets in the country.

You swallow hard. Your eyes fall to the half eaten cheesecake on the plate in front of you. You tug your hands from hers to pull the hanging fabric of your dress over your exposed thighs.

"TT, just stop. Curvy Women aren't a trend. People are just learning to embrace natural beauty all kinds of natural beauty." You correct her without looking up.

"Oh come on. At least you've got all the right curves in all the right places," she smiles standing to kiss your forehead before placing a manicured hand on your stomach,"...well maybe not if you keep eating like that."

Fiddling aimlessly with the embroidered table cloth you swallow the swelling lump in your throat.

"Next time you wear something like this, wear spanx. you look pregnant." She leans in lowering her voice to a whisper while scoping the restaurant.

"Aunt Roxanne, you didn't have to say that." You snap pushing her hand away from your middle trying your best to swallow the creeping feeling of disgust as you meet her eyes. Roxie just rolls her eyes snatching up her Louis Vuitton purse.

"Honey Bun, at least I'm being honest with you." She says placing a hand on her hip.

"You're being hurtful. And I DON’T LIKE BEING CALLED HONEYBUN!" You spit scarcely below a shout while blinking back the hot tears brimming your eyes. Roxanne pokes out her bottom lip as she pulls you into her arms.

"Oh Bunny, It's only hurtful because it's true." She speaks softly letting you go as she turns to leave waving over her shoulder.

…

Silky thongs, bralettes, and lingerie sets start to form a small heap on the soft, white carpet of the condo bedroom as you stare blankly at yourself in the mirror. For the last hour you've been changing from outfit to outfit. Your favorite fiery scarlet set hangs perfectly on your round hips, and gives you just the right amount of shape to your breasts.

Little to no spillage.

The perfect amount of perk.

Not to mention how stunning the deep hue looks against your brown skin.

This is supposed to make me feel pretty.

Why don't I feel pretty?

Your fingertips ghost over the pudge surrounding your waist.

'I'm just being honest.'

Roxanne's words still bouncing around your head like a pinball.

You attempt to press your curves smooth hoping with just enough pressure they'd all melt away.

Would that make me beautiful?

Nothing changed. As soon you move your hands every curve springs back into place.

How could anyone be happy with me...if I'm not happy with me? How could Fl-

Overwhelming shame settles in your chest.

Heavy and Hard.

As you pull the red fabric off your skin all of the day's events replay themselves.

Every compliment.

Every flirt washes itself in doubt and insecurity.

You squeeze your stomach so tight it hurts. Acrylics digging into you. Every fear and insecurity cackle in unison as you stare yourself down in that vanity mirror.

No one really thinks you're pretty.

You're just a diversity hire.

You're not special.

You're such a silly girl for even believing it all.

You're just a fat girl.

Hot tears well up in your e/c eyes. You shake your head in hopes that all the self hate would vanish like lines on an etch a sketch.

Years of hard practice ignoring all the hate and refusing to seek others for validation seems to be crumbling. Your self-worth seemed to be slipping through your fingers like sand. The inferiority that you buried so long ago resurrected itself again.

I never earned a place in this industry.

I'm not a real model.

I'm just a joke.

At this point your e/c eyes start to burn from all the tears. Your head was beginning to really throb too.

It hurt almost as much as what she said.

But even worse than that the fact that she got to you in the first place stings the most.

You wanted...needed someone to contradict it all. Someone to confirm despite all the sly shit Roxanne shot at you that you're still beautiful. That her assertions weren't reality.

She couldn't define you.

You wander to Florian's side of the room. Rifling through his drawers and pulling out the shirt closest to the bottom of the drawer. A simple white tee.

You lift collar to your nose. The gentle scent of him still clings the fabric mixed with his signature cologne. Stealing his t-shirts just kinda became a thing after you two unofficially moved in together. After several not so sly comments about how great he smells all the time Flo started leaving lightly worn undershirts at the bottom of his drawer. You pull one from its hiding place.

You tug it on over your loose curls. It stopped just low enough to nearly cover your ass. Loosely meeting your hips but gave no hint to your shape otherwise. Almost always reverting back to you tomboy swag when you aren’t really in love with your shape.

You shuffle into red Nike gym shorts with ease, thankful that your baby daddy is thicc too. You don't check the mirror. It wouldn't make you feel better anyways.

Enough crying.

Woman Up, and ignore it until it goes away.

A couple bright flashes from your phone draws your attention.

💕😚😜😂Flo-Rida😂😜😚💕:

Filming ran a little over. Gimme a few to get cleaned up.

💕😚😜😂Flo-Rida😂😜😚💕:

Got a few things to pick up. Then I'm all yours😜!

Be home soon, Babygirl😘!

You send a silent prayer up to heaven so thankful he wouldn't be seeing you like this as you type out your reply.

Y/n:

Can't Wait, Big Poppa😜💞!

He couldn't know that you're this fragile.

Flo always said how strong you were and how much he loved that about you. How people never seemed to be able to get under your skin.

No reason to change that.

…

The warm spicy scent of chai sweeps through the downstairs air, mixing with microwave kettle corn. Quincy and Monica are in the middle of their break-up after his parents’ divorce when the door clicks to reveal Florian with his arms full of groceries.

You pop up from the blanket cocoon on the sofa.

"Your definition of ‘a few’ is way different from mine." You smile pecking him on the cheek as you attempt in vain to wrestle multiple bags away from him. Per usual he surrenders the lightest bag to you.

"Says the woman who steals half.” Florian smiles, raising an eyebrow at you as he places the bags on the counter before planting a kiss on your forehead. He pulls you into him sliding a hand down your back to waist then finally resting at your soft fluffy ass. Lustfully squeezing he growls a little bit.

But your mind goes to other dark and insecure places.

Wow he thinks I'm so-No Stop.

He didn't mean it like that.

You frown pushing the doubt out trying to focus on him.

His smell.

His voice.

His body so close to yours.

His desire for me.

He loves me despite…

Why did he suddenly need to love me despite?

Shame bubbles up your chest as you push away before crossing both arms around your waist.

Palms pressed into yourself. Fingers loosely gripping your hips.

You force your lips into your usual cheeky smile.

"Uhh...Lemme help put these up to make up for it." You giggle snatching Lays bags and a couple boxes of snack bars. You pray he wouldn't read into it.

Florian noticed.

His brown-green eyes muddied with confusion then concern.

Something's wrong.

"How was your day, Dragă? How was brunch with your Aunt Roxie?" He breathes slowly crossing the kitchen and resting his head in the nape of your neck. His arms wrapping around you as you close the cabinet.

"Uhh...umm...it was…" You mutter stiffening as your head falls and your shoulders tense and you ball your fist against the granite countertop. The lump starts swelling in your throat.

You weren't expecting him to remember you even mentioned that. Tears edge your e/c eyes.

You didn't want to tell him. You didn't want him to pity you. You feel so inadequate that she got to you in the first place.

Crybaby.

So you stay silent sighing deeply. Focusing on the little golden fleck in granite countertop you try to keep all the hurt inside.

You couldn't.

The more you push it back down the more tear droplets sprinkle the shiny stone finish.

Florian doesn't move. His grip tightens to steady your trembling body.

Stop it!

Stop It Right Now!

Stop Fucking Crying!

Please

You can’t help but wonder how you still had tears left.

Yet the tears keep rolling.

And seconds felt like hours.

Every insecurity weighing down on your shoulders.

Abruptly turning in his embrace to face him and meet his hazel green eyes but deciding on his chest instead.

A smile strains itself onto your lips. Your default facial expression.

A bad habit you'd picked up in middle school.

A small gesture of reassurance.

I’m ok but not ok.

"Today was uh … ok. Don’t worry about me. I'm fine." You croak resting your trembling palms evenly on his chest.

An action intended to put him at ease, and make your words less hollow.

You don't want to worry him or bring down his good mood. You try and beg the tears to stop rolling down your brown cheeks and your boldness to fill your chest. But it doesn't.

"You're such a bad liar, Babygirl." Florian chides gently placing a hand on yours before gently lifting your chin with the other.

A half choked laugh bubbles up your throat. One last attempt to pretend everything was fine.

His eyes were soft and genuinely concerned, much to your surprise there's not an ounce of pity in them.

You wait.

For his judgments.

His disappointments.

His snide remarks.

His attempt to force you into letting him in.

You just needed one reason to shut him out.

One reason to fold into yourself and bottle up the pain.

Just one so you can run up stairs and pretend this crack in your composure never happened.

Go ahead

Let me down already.

Soft brown green eyes slowly examine your features. Slow.

Methodical.

Silently waiting.

But he won't give you one.

No reason to run.

He just patiently sweeps away a few fallen tears off your cheek.

Only to return to rubbing slow circles on the back of your hand, "Y/n, I'm not going anywhere. I'm staying right here." Florian presses an impossibly soft kiss into your cheek.

And that is all it takes.

You throw your arms around his neck as it all begins to sputter out.

The evening brunch with Roxie and everything she'd said and done to belittle you.

His hands rest on the small of your back as he pulls your frame closer to his.

"She's like a mom to me, Flo. And my day had been so unbelievably great until her. Like, I was on cloud nine. And I just let her snatch it all away. The whole time we were together she just kept throwing these shitty little jabs at me. And I believed it all so easily. I let her make me feel small and I let her hurt me. Because if Roxie..., a woman who practically raised me, could see me for who I really am…then then everyone else had to see that too. It had to be true. How long would it take for you…" You trail off squeezing him tighter to be sure he was real. Every gritty detail flutters from your lips.

"You'd see it too, Flo. And realize that I'm still that scared little girl I used to be. That I’m not good enough. That I’m unlovable."

You only recently opened up to him about the living hell of your middle school years and early high school. It'd been brief and scarce on particulars, but Florian noticed how you pulled into yourself when you talked about those days and how you'd laugh or smile but it wouldn't reach your eyes. He could see how much you still hurt, and that some part of you, still blamed yourself.

He moves his hands from your lower back to either side of your thick thighs and gently hoists up to straddle his waist.

"Fețită, îmi pare atât de rău." Florian hums softly squeezing you into him. Your grip tightens.

Flo had made two things his personal goals since you started dating.

First, Picking you up.

Something you always thought was so romantic, but you weren't sure if someone would ever do that for you. You made the mistake of telling him that, so every chance he gets he's sweeping you off your feet.

And second, teaching you Romanian.

You actually could stutter through a few sentences even though you're hesitant to practice with him. Mainly because your accent’s so bad.

A surprised peep escapes your lips as you nuzzle your damp face into his neck. An involuntary little noise you make every time. Even though you can't see his face you're more than sure he's smirking.

He loved you close to him. And you can't help but wish it was under better circumstances.

He strides slowly across the kitchen and takes a seat on the couch with you in his lap.

By this point you feel like such a whiny little bitch for unpacking all your bullshit on him like this.

"Babygirl, look at me please?" Florian pleas giving you a reassuring squeeze.

Those e/c eyes flicker to his features soft and puppy dog like. You can’t help but melt into him.

“Dragă, you know you’re beautiful, right?” He says matter of factly as he cups the side of your face squishing your cheeks for added emphasis

“Most days...yea.” You nod sheepish.

Today turned out not to be one of those days.

“Dragă, you know I love you with my whole heart?” He smiles a Cheshire sized grin leaning his forehead against yours.

“All the time, Flo.” You sigh giving him the same shiteating grin he gave you.

“Dragă, you know you deserve everything you’ve worked so hard for. You’re not an imposter or a poser. Right?” He states in the same reassuring tone.

“Damn straight, I have worked my ass off.” You mutter with the slightest sass thinking on every mountain you had climbed to get to this far in your career. Florian promptly pecks each side of your face as he sees the fire burning in the back of your eyes. Then he continues his pep talk.

"Prințesa, Roxie is an absolute bitch."

A half choked chuckle flutters up your throat.

Out of all the things you expected him to say, that wasn't it.

Not to say Florian never uses the B-word, but you’ve never heard him say it. Actually this might be the first time you’ve been present to see the syllables have fallen from his lips.

"I'm sorry to say that but it’s true. You're an absolutely stunning woman at the top of your career. You’re fiercely determined and way too stubborn to quit. You’re insanely optimistic and bubbling over with confidence and joy. You are so fun and surprisingly gentle and witty. You're amazing whether I tell you or not, Ibui. You’re a goddess in your own right. Anyone can tell by looking at you. You are more than deserving of love and being loved. Babygirl, I just want you to know that you don’t have to pretend that nothing ever gets to you ...at least not with me. You’re allowed to be hurt and broken and falling to pieces if you feel like it. " He hums, brushing the slowing tears off each cheek before delicately cupping your face again. Florian places small soft kisses on each temple before a long one in the center of your forehead.

"A lot of people call their cruel remarks, honesty or tough love, because most people don’t know how to love. And I want you to know I won’t ever hurt you and call it truth. People close to you don’t have the right to hurt you. Here. With us. That’s never ok. I will always be your soft place.” He. He pulls you securely into a bear hug. Firmly to his chest. In turn you snake your arms around his waist. You find so much peace in his arms.

“Promise?” You sigh letting a man that loves you unconditionally hold you while you try to piece yourself back together.

You feel fragile.

Torn.

Vulnerable.

But not beyond repair.

Not beyond lovable.

“Yes. I promise.” He smiles as you relax in his arms.

Footnotes

Dragă - Darling

Prințesa - Princess

Fețită, îmi pare atât de rău - Babygirl, I’m so sorry (roughly)

#black reader #florian munteanu x reader #florian munteanu x poc #florian munteanu #florian munteanu x black reader #plus size reader #plus model #florian munteanu fanfiction #fluff #cute #angst #love #soft place to land

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sexy-opium-ravioli · 3 years

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Dating Huntress Wizard HC's

*Hey babes! This one is gonna be a lil long, lol. TW for brief mentions of blood, vague injury to the thigh, drug use, and NSFW under the cut ;3*

Dynamics:

Honestly, HW is a tough character to analyze, especially with how little we're given throughout the series.

She seems vehemently focused forward, on one goal and one goal only. And the fact that she is a wizard (which, in this universe, means madness and sadness) only contributes to that goal-oriented mindset.

So you'd have to make a pretty big distraction for her to actually take notice of you. And in Ooo, that can happen in so many ways that I'm *much* too lazy to list them lol-

Anyways. No matter which way you get her attention, initially she is going to treat this as a negative. Whether it be winning the wizard tournament or summoning the forest spirit, she's going to get annoyed at you. Even if you don't really try to get her attention. See: Appendix Finn the Human

Either way, her calm and collected nature will eventually win her over. She'll ask herself questions, like 'What are they doing to distract me?' 'How can I stop them from distracting me?' 'How can I hide a body with no one noticing-

But after awhile, when you've made yourself useful in your own unique ways, she'll ask herself, 'How can I accept this person into my life?'

And it's easier than she thought, accepting you. But it's also terrifying. Let me explain:

The entire reason behind her madness and sadness is the base fear of going soft, of not having a goal in mind, to not be the best in her field. What if she loses her powers when she befriends you?

She does *not* want to go through what Ice King went through-

But at the same time, if you'll let me speculate, that was a different situation. She can still achieve her goals while maintaining her powers, and even broaden those horizons because even though her madness and sadness comes from the fear of going soft, that's only a part of it. The other part is her drive to become the best at what she does, the drive to attain.

So, when she realizes this, it's a small step away from writing another goal on her checklist: you.

Romance:

After that whole crisis, it doesn't take long for her to come on to you. She is swift in combat, swift in spirit, so it only makes sense that she will be swift when courting you.

It's another day in the woods picking apples to help Tree Trunks bake her pies when she visits you. There's a rustling in the bushes, and even though it gives TT a fright you're all too familiar with the sound.

This time, however, Huntress Wizard isn't here to whisk you away on an adventure she needs to get done. She hands you a basket of granny smiths, perfectly ripe yet unbruised throughout, and then she leaves.

Tree Trunks says "Thank you!" But you're left standing there, bewildered. It's always you helping her out, but never the other way around. Not one to look a gift horse in the mouth, (I honestly don't know what the fuck that saying is but I'm using it), you wave in the general direction she left and went back to Tree Trunk's home.

Another time, you were walking through the forest in which Huntress Wizard called home. She smelled blood before she knew who it belonged to, time for another feast-

Oh, goodness, it's you. Your thigh is trickling blood all the way down your leg and you're still trying to walk home.

She will have. None of that.

It's getting dark anyways, and you knew it would probably be in your best interest to stay at her's tonight. As soon as you said yes, she picked you up like you weighed nothing and glided through the trees.

Her hut was comfortable, if not a little cold. But the fireflies that constantly made their way through the home served as a distraction.

Huntress Wizard always had amazing salves and natural remedies that could make you feel as right as rain in no time. Usually she would grumble about having to waste them on other people, but she doesn't make a peep while she's patching you up.

Hm. Weird. She's blushing???

You decide to look at her and make eye contact. And although HW is one of your closest friends, there's no stopping the animal instinct of a predator/prey relationship. Especially when you're injured and her name is literally Huntress.

But that moment passes and blossoms into a new one, because she kisses you. Swift in combat, swift in spirit, swift in courtship.

Honestly, the feeling's mutual. HW is so globbing cool, very pretty, extremely laid back and she's been kind to you. What's not to crush on?

And that's the start of things between you two.

NSFW:

Look, I've already said it twice- this lady is fast paced. She wants to love you wholly, completely and with reckless abandon. She hasn't really experienced these relationships before, so there will be a slight dynamic shift between you two.

That doesn't mean she is totally clueless about sex. C'mon now-

But still, there are elements that are new when it comes to that as well. When sex usually meant some sort of release to HW and nothing more, you teach her about intimacy, lovemaking, taking time to learn about each other.

At the same time, there are some things she can bring to the table ;)

Being in tune with nature and the forest around her usually means that she knows where the best shrooms are I'm just saying-

(NOT saying you should do this illegally kids please don't-) but it goes hand in hand with the lessons you're trying to teach her.

High sex is best sex. It allows her to feel so many emotions while giving you pleasure, to strengthen her bond to you, and indulge in the type of intimacy she's been missing.

When things are said and done, she usually likes to stargaze with you. She doesn't need much rest, so when you finally pass out, she'd rather look at you than the skies above.

#huntress wizard x reader #huntress wizard #adventure time #blondie's adventure time series #finn the human #tree trunks #fluff #character analysis

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bestworstcase · 3 years

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The tts fandom "rewrites" the series by adding Varian and trimming the kiddy/filler episodes. They rarely address any actual problems with the shows characters, pacing, etc, nor do they ever really rewrite much beyond those two points.

So it still sucks, it just sucks in fast forward and also Varian is there now.

that’s tangential to what i’ve been gnawing on actually, bc like--hm. i think a lot of varian-in-s2 fic is mediocre for the reasons a lot of fic period is mediocre, ie it’s being written by amateurs in their spare time with zero quality control and is often like, kids having fun while testing the waters of longform fiction. and like, writing a novel length story is HARD! ive been doing it fairly seriously for FOURTEEN YEARS! and feel like i’m only just starting to truly get the hang of it. and the mediocrity of your average varian-in-s2 or v7k longfic is largely the mediocrity of being, you know, new to this.

[& frankly: the reason so much mediocre tts longfic is varian centric is because the varian side of the fandom is actually writing longfic, which um, is not really the case in other corners of the fandom gfbfndbk]

anyways no it’s more of the… mindset undergirding like, metaposting and fan discussions that got me thinking about this + the attitude towards tts itself + the specific tropes different corners of the fandom seem to gravitate to when the subject of ‘fixing’ the story comes up--like there’s. varian fans + moonvarian obv but there’s also new dreamers + benching cass and cassunzels + ‘cass took the moonstone to protect rapunzel and YEARNING’ and so on, & of course a big part of it is folks just wanting their preferred character or (sigh) ship to hog the spotlight which, fair, but-- wait ive cracked it i think

tts DOES HAVE an extremely clear and tightly focused narrative through line which acts as the keystone holding the story together, and that is of course the conflict between Rapunzel Growing Into Her Power and Cassandra Struggling For Her Freedom. that is what the story of tts is…about.

& what i see happening a lot in fan discussions + metaposting + actual rewrites is people looking at the bad structure and plot contrivances and weak characterization stemming from the writing being very plot driven and going “this is a mess” and then kind of papering over it all by slotting their favorite character into whatever arc they wanted that character to have, but they do that without meaningfully changing the through line. so they are--bear with me i’m going to make a reference comprehensible to Me Only--it’s a wonderland uk tour problem where the skeleton of the original story is left intact and the meat is kind of awkwardly shifted around in an attempt to make it a different story and you end up with bad literary taxidermy.

so like--i promise i’m not trying to pick on varian fans here gkfhdkd it’s just, again most of the longfic in this fandom is varian fic--a lot of moonvarian concepts that get tossed around rely on his efforts to save his dad but then just kind of peter out into…well there’s a conflict with rapunzel…and zhan tiri… manipulates him… and half the time you end up with “tts but varian is cass and cass is on a bench” and varian being railroaded into cassandra’s canon arc because…well that’s what the person who takes the moonstone is supposed to DO. (this gets even more egregious when it’s new dreamers shoving eugene into that role but then also refusing to commit to the conflict mbgnfnsh) or else there’s a series of contrivances to let moonvarian happen so as to “fix” cassandra’s villain arc while also not actually changing much and then there’s this weird vibe of varian is a main character now but also irrelevant bc the story is still cass vs rapunzel.

and all of that feels very weird to me because! why is the first thing you do when you sit down to do a rewrite not asking “what is my version of this story about?” not in a thematic way (theme comes last) but in the elevator pitch way--what is the one-sentence pure distillation of the story’s central conflict? like for bitter snow i would say it’s righting past wrongs vs an oppressive status quo--the cass vs rapunzel conflict still exists but is in no way the centerpiece of the whole story, and that’s what allows bitter snow to be SO much wider in scope than tts, i’m not trying to have a very tightly focused interpersonal through line and a sprawling revolution story at the same time

everything is just bones. rewriting is literary necromancy and the tts fandom refuses to open its cadaver

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pemprika · 3 years

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hnk 95 spoilers

the developments in hnk 95 effortlessly flipped my whole brain upside down.... i’m genuinely shocked and confused overall, and extremely devastated on behalf of phos like jfc... the events were not at all what i had expected, but nevertheless, ichikawa has managed to keep the story unpredictable as ever and still remains to be incredibly interesting to me! i have more questions than possible solutions/answers like everyone else here, but i wanted to voice out what went zooming thru my head as i was reading the entire chapter

phos spending 10,000 years in pure solitude, isolation, and loneliness, on top of not understanding the whole picture of what is happening to them...is insane. i honestly can’t imagine how phos must feeling ;; after realizing that they had been betrayed by aechmea and instigating a violent massacre against their gem family, i can assume phos is undergoing a lot of regret and guilt, and feeling hopeless TT MAN. this is so much worse than death... thank you ichikawa for never failing to top phos’ suffering as each chapter goes on!

it seems like phos is well on their way to becoming the next adamant. during this long period of 10,000 years, as adamant’s divine powers continue to transfer over to phos, there is a very big possibility that new gems will be born. if they will, then phos could follow a similar path as sensei and coexist with or lead new gems within their society. just interesting to think about. i assume phos may mellow out somberly during this long time period, and we will def see some kind of time skip again soon.

i’m also VERY curious about new development with the gems turning into lunarians. like how wild was that? really didn’t see that one coming, and i was already mentally prepared to end the story with the gems never making a reappearance, but of course, ichikawa said wait. let’s make phos suffer in extremity! but i think it makes sense to have the gems go this route... makes me wonder that this will be how they will be prayed away in the end? ^_T i’m mostly anxious to know how much of the gem-lunarians have changed in terms of persaonlities and what their thoughts are on phos being situated back on earth, alone, for that long of a time span. will they keep their mindsets or will they change significantly to mimic the lunarians? i personally see the gems being complacent about these new changes, observed in the way they based their decision on euclase’s answer (finding comfort in following a leader figure). this is their opportunity of peace and since gems were never taught to empathize properly, i’m not sure if they would put a lot of perspective in phos’ situation. plus, the way phos had become warped and judging how they had misinterpreted phos’ past behavior may offset their perception

i am sincerely wondering if we’ll get a glimpse of the gems’ perspectives at all... i think shinsha has the most potential to understand phos’ isolation and loneliness, but i’m not sure if they’ll even manage to voice an opinion if they were able to anyway. also, the way antarc came back shook me to my core... antarc waking up on the moon and being confused as hell as we all are like damn you’re living like this i’m sorry ^_T and the parallelism with cairngorm/aechmea and antarc/adamant was so good too... anyway, my brain’s barely functioning now. we have a hiatus until further notice and i hope we’ll get to know what ichikawa is planning for the ending soon... i need my phos closure now TT

#houseki no kuni #hnk 95 #hnk spoilers #i had a little bit of a crisis while tweeting about the latest chapter lol #like seriously merry CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE... except phos #god.... the hiatus might be a blessing in disguise #my brain needs to heal #time for AUs cranked to the max

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franeridart · 3 years

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Anon said: [Spoilers for non-manga readers] opinion on Baku's hero name?

Very Bakugou, honestly don’t mind it at all! Mostly just surprised it’s, like, legal in the bnha universe for heroes to call themselves stuff like explodo-kills (and also that there isn’t a character limit for hero names??) but that Bakugou would stick with it is pretty damn in character for him so I like it xD still, I’ll probably just call him Dynamight if I’ll ever need to use his hero name lmao

Anon said: not to be the most romantic sap but uh just a kiss by lady a is killin me

Nothing sappy about letting romantic songs get to you!!!! I say, as I’m constantly crying over romantic songs so this mindset benefits me as well lol

Anon said: i may or may not have stumbled across some of your older kiribaku art, the stuff with akane, and she's the best child oc tbh. i actually like her and i tend to not be a fan of child ocs but she's just the cutest darn thing 🥰

I’m so glad you like her!!!!! She was a lot of fun, what a good gremlin ;;;

Anon said: uve heard of dragon!kiri w his hair spikes up, now get ready for dragon!kiri w his hair dowm lookin like the softest boy

AW HECK I think I’ve drawn him in the past, actually!!!! Spike-haired Kiri will forever be my fav Kiri, but there’s just something about hair down Kiri isn’t it!! What a cute boy ;;;; all sharp edges and soft curves, what a lovely sight

Anon said: can i just say your itafushi art is so cute? these two already make me feel and then your art just (つω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)

THANK YOU SO MUCH I really need to draw them more, don’t I! goge kinda monopolized my attention there, but the way itafushi makes me feel..........boy the way they make me feel ;;;;

Anon said: good day, poké au thought: 12 y/o bakugo somehow catches a dreepy as like his 2nd pokemon and never questions it

WHY NOT WHY NOT I have a whole team in my mind for the boy tbh but dreepy is so cute ;;;; and anyway, I like my poke!bakugou with as many dragon types as he could possibly get his hands on hahaha

Anon said: Please know that, amongst other factors, you were one of the maon reasons I stsrted Jujutsu Kaisen two days ago and there isnothing more to say except thank you and I'm absolutely in debt with you for that, thank you so much 😍

I’m so so SO glad you’re liking it!!!!!! It can get kinda heavy but it’s such a great story.... honestly I’d been wanting to start it since I saw the first pv for the anime all the way back last year but I was like, you know it’s a mappa anime! so I wanted to watch the anime as a new thing, cause I love mappa, but three episodes in I couldn’t hold back and just binged it. It’s kind of story that just makes you wanna drink it all in one go, isn’t it? so good so good

Anon said: makeup artist kirishima and model bakugo or makeup artist bakugo and model kirishima? :0c

Hmmmmmmmmmmmm can’t say I see either of them much into fashion tbh, but if I had to pick probably model Kiri and artist Baku? I just don’t think Baku would be able to stay still enough to get photographed, and he wouldn’t like the photographer bossing him around anyway, and catwalks would be impossible for him to stomach imho, he’s too restless for it! At least it’s the way I see it haha

Anon said: fdgdhdkfhdafs i had a thought, what if bakugo prefers dogs and kirishima prefers cats and when they meet each other and become friends it's like, "oh." because they have some striking similarities to their fave animals

That’s been my headcanon for a while now, actually!! I think for me it came from two characters in a manga I like that are a lot like a dog and a cat but have inverted fav animals and when I read about that I was like “oh, right, makes sense since they like each other” and then my brain turned it krbk because when does it not lmao

Anon said: your art is the soothing balm to my soul recently, thank you for posting so much beautiful content. i hope you have a lovely week. ♡

sob thank you so much, I’m glad my doodling can help you feel better ;; <3

Anon said: Friendly reminder anon from last time: that post I left last time I had only eaten 7 gingersnaps that day and hadn’t drank any water. So that encouraged me to actually self care. Thank you.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well I hope you’re taking care of yourself today too! And as fair trade, I’ll do the same myself! <3

Anon said: Hi! I'm an artist and I'm thinking of making a sideblog for my art. Do you have any tips?

Ah man, I’m sorry but I’m not the best person to ask this to! I started this sideblog cause I had too many followers on my main and I didn’t want my stuff to be seen by that many people at first, so whatever I did probably isn’t what you’re looking for :( but really there isn’t much to it, just post whatever you like to draw, tag it as best as you can (but remember that only the first five tags appear in the search page) and be patient, since whatever you do at first you won’t get much attention anyway - the only real advice I can give is to draw something that makes you happy and that you’d draw anyway even if no one were to see it, it’ll make keep posting despite a possible lack of activity a lot easier!

Anon said: Your goge art🥺🥺

I just love them so much ( TT’’’TT)9

Anon said: how the fuck have i not been following you? I remember seeing your bakushima art in the bnha tag and always thinking it's so cute. Now you're into JJK too??? and the satosugu art??? fuckin, diabetes incarnate. I love it. I love you. Your art 10/10. I'm tired lmao.

WELL thank you for the follow!! And for thinking my stuff is cute!!!!! I do my best with that, I want all the soft things for my favs 😌

Anon said: Are you gonna draw Gojou/Getou comic?? 👉🏻👈🏻 WOULD LOVE TO READ IT

you mean an actual doujin? I don’t think I will, sorry! I’m really no good at long projects orz but thank you so much for wishing to read something like that from me!!! ;A;

Anon said: Hello! YOUR ART IS SO FREAKING GORGEOUSSSS!!! I love them so much!! If I may ask you one question. Between Getou amd Gojou, who do you see as top/bottom? Just curious

THANK YOU!!!!! And I honestly don’t care as long as they’re happy and together!!! please let them be happy and together 🙏🙏🙏

Anon said: i want you to know!!! i followed you for your kiribaku art but!!! i love your art so much that idc what you post because it's all just!!!! incredible and wonderful and stunning!!!

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!!! this means a lot to me so seriously thank you so much!!!!

Anon said: d'you think bakugo has like headaches or migraines after training or battles because of how loud his quirk is? like, i listen to music slightly too loud and my head is sending me to hell. (unless you go with the hoh hc which is also 👌)

I like to think Baku’s body is attuned enough to his own quirk that he wouldn’t get drawbacks of the kind tbh, though that wouldn’t be a bad thought for when he just starts to increase the output/width and strength of his explosions............ well, I myself suffer from chronic headaches and migraines so I’m always up for projecting on my favs ngl lmao

Anon said: so like... dragon kirishima's eyes glow right? like, if we equate his dragon-ness to unbreakable his eyes glow? they also glow when he's half shifted? honestly i just live glowing eyes

Oh hell yeah I’m all for that, definitely definitely, I love glowing eyes with my whole heart and Kiri’s eyes in unbreakable are just so!!!!!! NGH *chef kiss* the more of unbreakable there is in his dragon form the happier I am ( TT^TT)9

Anon said: me, scrolling through your blog: ah shit guess im gonna have to start watching jjk

!!!!! hope it won’t hurt you too much, anon!!

Anon said: dragon!kiri and bakugo having a tug-of-war match over a piece of meat. both have it in their mouths. both are determined to win.

Kiri is turned into his dragon form and Baku still wins, hell yeah

Anon said: your satosugu is top tier!! it's hard to find stuff for them that isn't straight up angst so your art has been super cool and also very very cute!! (tho if you went with angst, it wouldn't be a bad thing obviously)

AH I’m so happy to hear you like them!!!! but also happy you wouldn’t mind angst, as I do like them the best happy and soft but my brain, my brain has been throwing sads my way for a while now 👀 I got some ideas

Anon said: What program/device do you use??

Easy Paint Tool SAI and a wacom intuos!! Though I got myself an ipad+procreate just yesterday and I’ve been messing around with it, let’s see how that one goes!

Anon said: *inahles* i am simping for mohawk man please tell me everything about your ocs immediately or i will detonate

THANK YOU FOR LIKING HIM HE’S CALLED DAVIDE Dav for short, he’s a cat of a man and a music instrument enthusiast (mostly string ones, but he’s very good with the piano as well) - he works in a music instruments store, and he’s a uni student majoring in philosphy! He doesn’t like bothersome things, he isn’t very good at taking anything seriously or putting effort in stuff, but he’s very chill to spend time with and generally a nice chat both if you want mindless thoughts or deep conversations (he’s a philosophy major after all). He can’t sing for shit, he’s got two cats (tago and schelly!), and he just wants a quiet life to laze around but all his friends are hurricanes in human bodies, but then again, he picked them himself so he can’t complain. He’s a good boy!! I’m planning a comic for him and his boy Ross >:]

#fran answers #SORRY FOR THE DELAY #i wish i could say i was busy but actually i just got distracted #ah also #jjk spoilers #cause my sis has a habit of readin my asks and she can't know about the otp just yet #lol #is the readmore for this showing? this is pretty damn long....#long post #just to be sure

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lesbiancarat · 3 years

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PREACH IT!! SAY IT LOUDER FOR TH3 PEOPLE IN THE BACK!! *stands up and claps*

Just your comment, please I want to tattoo that entire response on my forehead so people could understand some stuff fjshdhsh. I very much agree with everything you have said, like I do think the bighit deal was more so with the help of say with western connections (which again does NOT mean pledis could have done this without bighit. They clearly could but I saw a theory on a YouTube comment where someone said they focused on the core fanbase aka in Korea which is their main market and it paid off imo) from helping with buisness side of things like we do have merch to buy directly (which I have my opinion on some merch ideas like why the fudge is bighit selling us water!? Bro you thought that worked with bts doesn't mean it will with seventeen) which wasn't common in the past or being able to film concerts with ease during the pandemic. Bighit clearly acknowledges that seventeen is a monster group in their own right I mean as you said, they break records and are 2nd behind bighits own group. They are EXTEMELY big in Japan. They are their own song makers, bang pd confirmed this when pleids was first announced in a press video so the fact people brush all of their achievements and statements because why, their streaming numbers are low?

And oohh such an interesting point as well! Very much i think the current mindset of kpop fans (or at least some) is that streaming is what equals success which to some degree, yes but as you said, many ignore the casual side of listening. People that find the song due to it being viral for whatever reason, a fancam getting popular like in the cass of hani from exid or whatever reason. Dwc is a great example and I saw those comments under their recent performance of that song and it makes me proud that the boys have a song like that. That it has its own "fanbase" quote on quote with how well loved that song simply is and well known. You don't have to have fans doing crazy streaming to be considered "popular", I mean I could give more examples but I don't wanna make this too long nor cause unwanted fandrama lol. Those casual listeners are extremely important and powerful I mean brave girls is a great recent example of that I think! It very much does seem like that when looking at the views, its mainly the core fanbase which isn't bad nor should we feel bad for not having crazy numbers. They seem more organic if that makes sense? Plus I agree, we can stream and can explain how it works, clearing up confusion about it like no emojis don't take down views and yes youtube does take away views but that is due to it making sure it isn't bots only viewing the video. Explaining that streaming should be done with a chill mindset and its ok if you don't stream. But hey, maybe we're too weird of fans to think like this fjajdjajs.

But some few updates! Seventeen is back on Instagram, fully everyone is posting away. Makes me happy hehe m, a bit funny it took so long for them to comeback but am happy nonetheless. The interactions that seungkwan does makes me super soft. Seventeen are also back with doing proper promotions so yay (also pledis is S Wording people over the mingyu issue finally so bless). As for me on the personal side of things. I have OFFICIALLY finished that video game ^_^ it took me a while but I have finished it, my last goodbye was completed and am at ease so to speak? Lowkey am planning on beating all the trophies in the game cx also may I ask about your thoughts on the album? Favorite songs, have you bought the physical cd?

ok finally getting around to this lol!!

and yeah that's absolutely true, pledis focused on kr promotions/fanbase first and foremost (and then expanded to Japan and is now looking toward the US/western promos in general). which i agree was a good thing. i think some companies get too greedy with wanting a group to be ~internationally famous~ that they ignore their Korean fanbase a bit too much and I've seen groups that have failed bc of it, so I'm glad that didn't happen w SVT

and yeah in terms of merch I'm genuinely grateful as an american that for this cb at least there was a US distributor which made things super convenient but wtf is going on w hybes merch those water bottles are not it TT it just sucks to see bc it's clear that at least as far as merch goes hybe doesn't have an interest in like. doing market research to figure out what carats want. which is funny bc they don't even have to start from scratch they could literally just ask pledis?? and tbh what's sad is i don't think hybe is like. purposefully trying to sabotage SVTs merch from my limited perspective i get the feeling they treat all their groups merch like that :( but since us carats have seen in the past what kind of merch we're capable of getting it's disappointing to see such a downgrade. and like tbf pledis's merch decisions were never perfect like that time they tried to sell replicas of the SVT rings and carats were rightfully pissed bc those are something the members earned, not something to be bought. and i also don't think hybe never has or never will make good merch, I'm sure they're fully capable of it. but it just seems obvious that they've put WAY less if any effort into understanding both the market (ie carats) and seventeens brand compared to pledis so like of course most carats aren't gonna like it :/ i really hope they step up their game and do better research or bring ppl onto the team who better understand svt's brand

and yeah i very much agree with everything u said about streaming! tbh i think this mindset isn't as uncommon as you might think, I've actually met a fair number of kpop fans who are critical of streaming culture but as u know there also are a lot of ppl who are really into it and those ppl tend to have the loudest voices. and unfortunately part of streaming culture is that if you question the methods or don't participate you must be a bad fan or secretly an anti or something ridiculous like that. so ppl who aren't into streaming culture end up learning to not be too vocal about it bc of how bad the backlash can be

yes! I'm glad to see insta line (+ now dk!!) active again. i still wonder why pledis made them stop using their ind instas, like I know all the theories people have as to why but honestly none that I've seen seem to fully make sense. it will probably be one of those things where we'll just never know the full story. but i digress!! regardless of the reason I'm just glad to have them back after all this time ^^

congrats on finishing the game! I'm glad it was able to help you work through your grief a bit and that you feel more at ease now ;-; and good luck with the rest of the trophies if you end up trying to get them!

as always I'm answering this a bit late so you may have seen already but i did get the physical album! it was a birthday gift so i only got it the other day, but according to my mom it arrived almost immediately after the album was released so as i said before, I'm very grateful for the US shop this time around ;-; as for the songs usually it's easy for me to pick one or two favorites but this time around it's genuinely a 4-way tie between heavens cloud and all the unit songs TT (i also love anyone and RTL, they're just slightly lower on the list in terms of preference if u get what i mean). i really hope some time in the future we get some kind of performance or special video or something for heavens cloud, since so many carats and the members themselves seem to really love it. i also think it's a song that brings up such beautiful imagery that it would be a shame if it never got any type of visual representation, you know? I'm also really curious to see a performance of wave, since iirc the members said the choreo is a lot more laid back/different from other perf unit choreos?? + that song also evokes such great imagery for me that like... makes feel like it needs some kind of movement so I'm just itching to see a performance. kind of like... even if i didn't know it was a perf unit song i would think it would be great to choreograph to if that makes any sense dhfkf. but yeah overall i think it's just a really solid album, as expected from summerteen ^^

#melia.ask #📖 anon #long post

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fearfulkittenwrites · 4 years

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“You know what? Fuck you.” and “Fuck you batman”

Word count: 2070

Warnings: Physical Abuse, pretty much child abuse (but lightly, i promise), vomiting

Notes: Okay, so this work needs some rather long notes, I think. If you don't want to read this, you can totaly skip it though. This is... pretty much the only angst thing I ever wrote that turned out actually good. And if the ending seems kind of... unfinished, in a sense, it's because it kind of is. Most of it was written when I was really down, and I can't give it a good ending. If anyone has any clue on how to make it better than this, by all means, go ahead. I'd love for this to have a happy ending instead of this. Also, I wrote this as some sort of catharsis for me? Most of my writing has some very personal element, but this is one of those pieces that if I handed my therapist, she'd laught at how obviously I'm projecting, so if anyone seems a little bit poorly characterized, that's probably why. Aaaaand this was written waaaay before I recieved my bingo card. But one of the two slots was filled by it, and the other fit so very nicely, that it pushed me to post it. Lastly, thank you for clicking this! And final warning to my emetophobic friends to walk away from this one. Good reading, and stay safe out there, it's a crazy world.

It was a stupid argument. They were yelling their faces off in the batcave, angry, nearly foaming at the mouth, over some serial killer. (It might seem like that’s a big deal, but c’mon, this is Gotham we’re talking about) It’s not like it had never happened before; both men were strong-willed, stubborn and hot-headed, they were bound to argue all the time.

“I’ve had enough!” Batman shouted “You’re staying out of this!”

“Are you insane?!” Nightwing shot back “You’re so deep into your own empty hopes you’re gonna get everyone killed!”

“I know what I’m doing Nightwing! And you’re staying on the ground tonight!” He pointed at the other’s face.

“You seriously think that I’ll just stay put, like a good little dog?!” He seemed incredibly offended. The volume of the conversation kept getting louder.

“You are gonna do as I say.” Now the man’s voice was lower. Dangerously so.

“No! I don’t give a damn about your skewed view of this city, and if you want to walk straight into a compromising position because of it, fine, go ahead. But if I let you go out there with them, following this stupid mindset, I’ll never forgive myself.”

“You think they can’t protect themselves?” He said, before shouting “You think I haven’t taught them well enough?!”

“I think you can’t protect them from what you refuse to see!” Nightwing shouted back. And then it happened.

The arguments were regular, sure. But this? This was unexpected, to say the least.

Batman slapped Nightwing across the face.

Except... That isn’t what happened. Or at least, it wasn’t all that happened.

It’s not as simple as that.

No, those weren’t simply two masked heroes getting caught in an argument that had gone physical. It wasn’t just Batman hitting Nightwing.

That was Bruce hitting Dick.

The silence that fell over everyone’s ears was deafening. No one in that cave even dared to breath, everyone waiting for the other’s retaliation. A retaliation that never came. Dick stared at the floor in the direction his face had been forced towards, breathing heavily. No, not heavily. He let out shaky breaths, although Damian was certain he was the only one able to tell the difference.

Nightwing then shook his head slightly, still looking at the ground, smiled sadly and let out a little huff that resembled a laugh. He left, walking past all of the other masked heroes, his brothers, with his eyes fixated on the ground. Damian never though he’d see Dick Grayson, the personification of confidence, staring at the ground. Now Bruce had a room of vigilantes staring at him in a way none of them ever did before. Even Red Hood seemed horrified. Robin scowled at him, before leaving to chase his brother.

“You know what? Fuck you.” Red Hood let out, before leaving the cave too, headed for the city “Don’t...” He stopped, gun in hand, pointing it up at the sky as he spoke “Don’t contact me. Just... Fuck you, Batman. And fuck you, Bruce.”

“I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I’m with him.” Red Robin said “I’ll check on the Titans. Good luck with the case.” He jumped out into the night as well.

Bruce turned to Steph, slightly.

“No.” She said turning to Cass “Look, you wanna stay, that’s your decision, but I can’t.”

“I’m not staying.” Cass stated, pulling her own cowl on.

His comm was static. Oracle had left too.

Bruce breathed in. He pulled out the cowl. Alfred stared at him from the door for a minute, and left before being noticed, heading for the kitchen.

...

Jason was sitting on a rooftop, looking down, when Red Robin landed next to him.

“You should go check on him.”

“Don’t you think he’d rather be alone?” He asked, looking up “Also, Gotham needs our patrols.”

“To the second point, sure, but me, Spoiler and Batgirl can cover the city for tonight, and we don’t know for sure that Batman’s not coming. To the first, maybe.” He sighed “But Damian went after him. He’s probably talking to Dick as we speak, and that’s not exactly a bad thing, but Dick won’t be able to drive him away, and we both know that tonight it’s gonna get ugly. Real ugly.” Red Hood turned to look at him, wondering what was his point “Damian looks up to him. He’s a parental figure, whether they like it or not. He shouldn’t have to see Dick like that, he won’t have the proper tools to handle it. You on the other hand...” Jason sighed too.

“Yeah, I see what you mean.” He nodded “I can handle it.” The Red Hood slowly stood up “By the way, you see him tonight, put that bo staff to good use and shove it up his ass. Then tell him I send my regards.”

...

Dick stormed into his room, slamming his door shut and hurling his mask against the wall. He pulled off the top of his costume, but that was all he managed to do before he broke down sobbing, sitting on his bed, hugging himself. He had taken many hits in his life. He handled all of them. This one... He didn’t know how to handle it, didn’t know where to start. His cheek still burned. It was probably red, maybe there would be a perfect mark of his palm and fingers on it.

He screamed, rubbing his face harshly in a fit of rage. He woud have scratched the skin off his arms if he didn’t keep his nails so short, but he had to settle for rubbing instead, fingertips digging into the flesh without breaking it. It went on for a minute, before he managed to calm down.

“I know you’re there.” He said trying to keep some composure “Leave.”

“It’s not him.” Damian answered from behind the door.

“I know. Leave.” Dick heard a ‘-tt-.’, followed by the sound of his door opening. He had his back turned to it.

“No.” He answered, closing it behind him.

“I don’t wanna talk about it.” Dick turned to face the wall, keeping his back to Damian.

“Then don’t.” He replied, sitting on the floor, infront of him “I’m here to make sure you won’t do anything stupid.” Dick knew that was his way of saying ‘I care about you’. He did a piss poor job at showing affection, but no one could blame him.

Damian slowly lifted a hesitant hand, setting it on the other’s shin, stroking his leg. Dick offered a weak smile, looking down; once again, this was a code. It was Damian saying ‘I know I don’t like hugs, but if you need them right now, it’s okay’. The boy looked down at his boots and helped him out of them, watching as Dick instantly curled in on himself once he was barefoot, pulling his legs to his chest, hiding his face between his knees. Damian sat down next to him, placing a hand on his back as he cried once more.

“It’s just...” He tried “I never thought...”

“I know. None of us did.”

Dick felt sick. He wanted to thow up. Maybe he would throw up, if he kept sobbing like that. Damian rubbed circles on his bare skin, trying to calm him down, to no avail. There was a knock on the door.

“Hey, Bird Brain.” Jason’s voice came from it, soft and wary “Can you open the door for me?”

Damian looked at his brother, who nodded. The boy got up and slowly cracked open the door, already scowling at Jason, who raised an eyebrow but kept quiet.

“Hey,” He kneeled in front of Dick “Calm down okay? I’m sure Alfred is knocking some sense into him as we speak.” Dick nodded weakly, and Jason pushed some strands of hair away from his forehead.

There was another knock on the door. This time Bruce’s voice was heard.

“Dick, I...”

“Leave.” He replied, voice cracking.

“I’m sorry, I...”

“Leave!” He yelled. They heard footsteps, walking away from the room. He turned to Damian “Dames, you should go too.”

“I’m not going anywhere.” He crossed his arms.

“Seriously, thank you. But... I just... Jason’s here and... I need to cry. Really cry and I don’t think I should put you through that.” Damian stared at him, unsure on what to do.

“It’s okay Damian. I got him.” Jason reassured. It wasn’t worth much for the kid, but he thought it best to give his brothers some space, so he walked out of the room.

Dick broke down again, and Jason held him through it. He held his brother for almost fifteen minutes. He knew there was nothing he could say that would make any of this better, so he kept his mouth shut, listening when he eventually gathered the strenght to speak.

“I can’t... Why did he do this? I’m- I was worried. I just wanted to protect you.” He cried against the other’s shoulder.

“I know Dickie.” Jason stroked his hair.

“He was just so – so blind. He’d walk you straight into the crossed fire, and-and... Oh God.” He pulled himself away from Jason and tried to run into the bathroom, covering his mouth, but there was no time. He threw up on the floor, and the only reason he didn’t fall face first into it was Jason’s fast thinking, wrapping his arms around the older man’s waist “Fuck.” He murmured, spitting on the ground “I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay Dick. It happens. I’ll get Alfred.” He said, setting him on the bed.

“No, it’s fine, I can clean it...”

“Don’t be stupid Dickie,” He handed him some tissues “Look at your state. It’s okay, he can handle it just fine.” He shot out of the door, dashing through the stairs, finding the butler in the kitchen, making some kind of chicken soup “Dick puked.” He stated, going for a glass and filling it with water.

“Oh dear.” Alfred exclaimed, lowering the heat on the stove. He turned around throwing his apron on the marble balcony and grabbing cleaning supplies. Both of them ran to his room; and after all these years, Jason still wasn’t used to the idea that Alfred could run through the manor just as fast as him. He slowly opened the door “Master Dick?”

“I’m sorry Alfred.” He murmured from the bed.

“It’s quite alright, my boy.” He said, kneeling down to clean up “It’s not your fault.” Jason handed the man a water glass.

“Thanks.” Dick whispered “I feel awful for putting you two through this.”

“Nonsense, master Dick.” Alfred said from the floor “My job is taking care of this family.”

“Besides,” Jason sat down on the bed “You’d do the same. You have done the same.” He grabbed his bare foot, squeezing it before letting go. Alfred soon left, as quickly and discreetly as he came “C’mon,” Jason said, standing up “Let’s brush those teeth.”

“Yeah.” Dick let himself be led out of bed, going into his bathroom. His brother stood next to the sink, leaning against the wall.

Jason followed him back into the room, where he put on his pajamas but didn’t slip into bed.

“I don’t really want to sleep yet,” Dick said “Maybe I should go patrolling with you.”

“Dick, no offense, but you are the king of bad ideas.” Jason responded “And I’m not going on patrol, Replacement said they’d cover the city for tonight.”

“Okay then.”

“Are you hungry?” Jason asked “Alfred was cooking, maybe we can have some.”

“Yeah, let’s go pester him.” Dick answer, smile lacking the usual life.

The next morning, Dick didn’t go down for breakfast. Bruce tried finding him in the manor, but none of it’s inhabitants and usual visitors were anywhere to be seen. Even Duke, who wasn’t even in the cave when it happened, seemed to be avoiding him, not answering his calls. He decided to leave a letter for his son, but when he sat down in front of the paper, he didn’t know what to write. He was overwhelmed with guilt, and knew that he had crossed a line he couldn’t come back from, not entirely.

He had been so worried about deaths and killings as Batman, that he neglected the lines he shouldn’t cross as Bruce Wayne. And now that he crossed one of those, he had no clue on what to do about it.

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pizzabiscuitwithglasses · 5 years

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Sequel for Team Buccellati & the Crush(ing) Confession

For context, please check in here.

@nevershoutnani , I know I’m the one who requested the confession of bucci gang cause I love angst but now I feel sad for them, I have to fix it. I want my boys to be happy TT^TT. I spent like 4 hours writing this instead of working on my paper which is due tomorrow but I don’t care. I had to get this out!! Let’s say their crush feels bad for running away like that and tries to find them like, the day after in order to explain why they did it.

Undercut for length:

Bruno was surprised to see his crush and hesitant to talk with them. He was still not over what happened last night but he still listened to them, curious for what they had to say. They apologized for what they had done to him, saying they didn’t mean to hurt him. They had feelings for him too but they couldn’t be with him right now.

- I got out of a toxic relationship not long before meeting you and I’m still dealing with the scars left.

- But, said Bruno. I would never hurt you, I love you and I will take good care of you, I swear.

- I know. You’re amazing and you deserve an amazing person too but I can’t be that someone right now. I need time to work on myself so I don’t let my past cloud my present and future. If waiting doesn’t suits you, I understand.

Bruno was both relieved and sad to know his crush didn’t reject him because they felt nothing for him. He comforted them, saying that he didn’t mind waiting for them to get better and he would even help achieve that. His heart fluttered when they hugged him and kissed him on the cheek, thanking him for being understanding.

Even though they wanted to talk with him, Abbacchio avoided his crush. He didn’t want to deal with them anymore, yesterday was more than enough. They had cornered him so he was obliged to listen.

- I just want to explain myself.

- Why? You were pretty obvious that night, don’t you think?

- No, I wasn’t. I will just tell you what I have on my chest and after that, you will never see me again.

- Fine.

- I love you too Abbacchio but when you confessed, I panicked. I want to be with you but I can’t but I don’t want you to suffer but all I can do right now is hurt you. All those contradictory feelings were spiraling inside my chest and the only way I found to deal with them on the moment was to leave you behind. I’m truly sorry. You opened your heart to me and I insulted you. I’m so sorry.

Abbacchio felt a pang in his heart when he saw they were fighting back their tears. He knew exactly how they felt. He felt the same when he was pondering if confessing to them was a good idea or not.

- I still don’t understand: What are you afraid of?

- I’m afraid of messing everything up: I’ve never had a happy life to begin with. Every time I have something good, I always end up losing it. But I’ve come to realize that with this kind of mindset, I will always stay miserable. I want to become a better person, to be free of these toxic thoughts. I’m working on it, my progress is slow but sure. I love you Abbacchio, I really do but I’m not ready for a relationship right now. I need time and I understand that you don’t want to wait for me. You have every right to.

Abbacchio sighed. He couldn’t blame them for what they were going through. He put his hand on their shoulder, trying to be reassuring.

I know you didn’t mean to but you deeply hurt my feelings. I have to think about it. But while I’m thinking, get better, okay?

It was very hard for him to not blush when his crush brought his hand to their cheek and thanked him.

Mista was stupefied to see his crush again. After how they left yesterday, he never expect to see them again. He tried to be first one to talk but they didn’t let him.

- Please, let me say something first. Listen to me until the very end. It’s already hard for me to talk now so if I stop at one point, I don’t know if I will be able to continue.

Mista nodded and was waiting for them to speak. They took a deep breath.

- First, I’m so sorry for what happened yesterday. I didn’t expect you to have feelings for me… It’s just… I can’t even love myself, I can’t see why someone would love me. But you do and I still don’t… and there’s this… voice inside my head that keeps telling me you only love me because you don’t know me well enough… that you will leave me once you find out who I truly am… because… because it’s not the first time and I… I...

It was painful for Mista to watch his crush battling with their emotions. He only wanted one thing: to hug them, to comfort them, to tell them they didn’t need to explain themselves if it hurt so much. But his desire to respect their wishes was stronger so he let them speak.

- I love you so much, I don’t want to you go through this… Guido, you deserve the best and I’m not the best… I’m not hoping that you understand, I don’t really either. I just wanted to tell you the truth about me. I’m sorry.

Guido approached her carefully.

- Y/n, it’s okay. There’s no need to pressure yourself like that. I don’t know you well. I’m aware of it and I confessed because I want to get closer. You’re not perfect so what? I’m not either, nobody is. You don’t need to beat yourself like that. If we love each other, I’m sure we can work this around. There are always problems in a relationship anyway but in good one, the partners care about each other enough to fix things so if we care about each others, in the end, it going to be alright. If you still don’t want to though, I will accept it but at least please, promise me that you will try to be less harsh on yourself. It’s not healthy and if you wouldn’t let anyone do it to you, why do you treat yourself this way? You’re so kind with others, you need to be kinder with yourself too. Okay?

After hearing his words, his crush couldn’t keep their tears anymore and let it all out. Mista started panicking that he might have said something wrong. When his crush muttered thank you as they hid their crying face in his chest, he held them close and rubbed their back.

Narancia couldn’t show his face in front of his crush anymore. He was too broken, too ashamed after what happened last night. However, he had to when they didn’t leave him any choice. They were in front of him but all he could do was to look at his own shoes.

- Narancia, I was horrible to you yesterday and I can’t express how deeply sorry I am for that. I said that neither one of us has time for this but that was a lie and after you told me about how you truly felt, I owe you the truth.

He didn’t say anything. He was holding his breath, waiting for them to tell him how they found someone else, someone better than him.

- I’m going through a delicate situation. It’s not that I don’t want to date you, it’s just that I can’t date you right now. Everything in my life is a mess. I have feelings for you but I need to put some order in my life, in myself before I get involved in a relationship. If I were to go out with you as I am now, it will only bring problems. I don’t want to waste my chances with you but I can’t date you either. It’s not the right time for me to be with anyone, especially with someone like you whom I care about very much.

- So… This is it? Asked Narancia as he finally looked at them, surprised.

- Yes, I’m sorry.

- I totally understand and I can wait! But why did you have to make things so complicated? You should have just told me sooner!

- I’m sorry. I’m telling you now because you were honest with me so I decided I should be honest with you too.

- So you haven’t fallen for someone who is actually smart and strong?

- Of course I did… And that someone is you, Narancia.

When he heard their answer, Narancia couldn’t help but cover his face with his hands, blushing furiously.

Fugo was pissed off beyond imagination that his crush wanted to talk with him. What did they want from him? They already took a dump on his feelings!

- I don’t need your pity, he said as he was gritting his teeth. Just tell me you don’t like me and don’t make up excuses, it would be even more vexing.

- I am not. I have feelings for you too but I can’t date you. Fugo, I know it sounds like a poor excuse but it’s the truth. Please, hear me out.

He didn’t say anything which prompted them to continue talking.

- Before I met you, I was in relationship with someone else. That relationship was... cut short when… that person died.

His anger melted away as guilt overtook him.

- I’m always serious about dating so… whenever I choose to engage in a relationship, I want to do it right. If I know it’s not going to work out, I don’t do it and Fugo, I can’t be with you right now. I’m still not over my grief and you know what they say? If you don’t heal your cuts, you will end up bleeding on those you love and I love you.

- Oh my god, I’m sorry… I’m truly sorry… I couldn’t have imagined… I…

- You couldn’t have known. I wanted to tell you but when you shouted at me, I thought it would have been better to wait until you cooled down.

Fugo felt like an ass. He ended working himself up for a reason that existed only in his mind.

- You need time and I understand that. I’m sorry I lost my temper like that… You mean so much to me and… while you are processing your feelings, I will do the same with mine and try to handle my anger issues better.

Fugo felt blessed when he saw his crush softly said thank you, with a bright smile.

Giorno was unprepared to see his crush. He thought he would never get a chance to see them. He just wanted to know, what went wrong? He was good at reading people and he could have sworn they were interested in him too.

- I know, you need an answer and that’s why I wanted to see you. You were not wrong, I do have feelings for you but… It’s complicated.

- Is it because I’m in the mafia? Asked Giorno, his tone slightly betraying how hurt he was inside.

- No. I knew it from the beginning and if it bothered me, I would never has spent time with you in the first place.

- Then, why? said Giorno agitated.

- I told you… I’m the problem, not you. I… have had many bad experiences in the past with people abusing my trust. I want to believe it’s going to be different this time, I really do but sometimes, my demons are stronger. I love you Giorno and that’s why I can’t be with you. I don’t want to project my insecurities on you. You deserve someone who can do better and that person is not me. I’m sorry. You can hate me now.

- I don’t hate you. I could never hate. I was just confused, that’s all.

- You’re too kind, Giorno. I’m sorry for hurting you. I don’t want this either but it’s the only way.

-I don’t agree. You may think that being with you will cause me pain but so is being away from you. I want to be with you.

- But there will be times just like yesterday, there will be times where all I can do is hurt you.

- I don’t believe it’s true. I was serious when I’m said I’ll always be there for you when you’re falling and I still am. Plus, if I’m not here when you cry, I don’t deserve to be with you when you laugh.

He only felt admiration when his crush took his hands in theirs, saying the following words: “ I’m still full of doubt, but for you, Giorno, I will try.”

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