#and the curtain stuff is coming to me!

[obstinatecondolement]

Did some fucking masterful salesmanship towards the end of my shift that netted the company a big ten-ish quid. All in a day's work.

#basically someone came in looking for a zip for a cropped corset top that her daughter bought #which she had worn once and the zip it came with immediately broke #but my colleague said that we don't sell separating zips that short #and in fact no one does except this one guy in the city centre who makes zips himself #so the customer was very disappointed that she now had to trek all the way into the city #and I said 'what I would do is take the zip out and put in some ribbon in an appropriate colour and sew on some hooks and eyes' #which we have in abundance #so I found her a ribbon that was a good colour match (the top was an olive green satin fabric) #and a packet of silver hooks and eyes and some green embroidery floss #heroically saving her from taking the train into town #and getting the sale for us and not yer man in the city centre #my colleague and the customer were suitably awed by this quick thinking and creative problem solving #and both agreed that hooks and eyes would look much nicer than a horrible old zip #I am going to get a good grade in retail: a thing that is normal to want and possible to achieve #honestly though they are so fucking lucky to have me at [workplace] #I give great customer service and I am very knowledgable in craft-related areas #and the curtain stuff is coming to me! #it's not rocket surgery #I ordered a blind today all by myself using the manufactorer's online portal #although I did get the manager to double check everything before I converted it to an order and booked it in #so that if I had made any mistakes that she had cosigned them lol #but yeah I am such a good little cog in the capitalist machine #of Big Ribbon™ #werq bitch

[sergle]

I think my favorite thing about doing ginger red hair instead of cherry red hair is: lying to people about it

#I love the cherry red / wine red and I'll probably go back at some point bc it's my Origin. #but for now. #I don't actively lie to people but bc it's a Natural and Plausible hair color #and I'm already pale and I dye my eyebrows to match my hair. ppl figure it's natural #and it has come up MULTIPLE TIMES. and I've recently been rolling with it instead of correcting ppl. bc who cares? #recent examples that come to mind (but I did correct them in this one) my surgeon assuming it was natural #and using my genetics as a natural redhead as a baseline to tell me about what I can expect from my future scarring #and then again later with the anesthesia. they were going to dose me differently #the anesthesiologist glanced at me when I came into the OR and was getting the stuff ready on his cart #and when he heard me talking to my doc and re-telling him that oh the hair isn't natural #he was behind the curtain like FUCK #taking shit off his cart and quietly redoing his setup #that's how I learned that redheads need higher doses of anesthesia than other ppl. #they also need more of the topical stuff like lidocaine. apparently they metabolize it faster(?) #ANYWAY he was going to up my dose thinking I needed it lol #so i almost got way more sedatives and pain meds than i needed bc of my hair dye LMAOOO #other more Normal Life examples was a country dude in full hunting gear holding a door open for me someplace #and I said thank you and he lifted his hat up to point at his (natural) red hair and said ''twins!'' #this one sticks with me because that was such a cute thing to do. what the hell #and at snakefest I was talking to some people at their food truck. there was an older guy who trapped me into a convo for like 30mins #he was Very Nice. and they were going to some type of irish festival next and said I should go too bc I'll be right at home #flat out just was like. this bitch looks irish #and I don't know why all of this is so funny to me. it has no reason to be.

[icewindandboringhorror]

Obligatory fancier outfit that must be present anytime I post outfits 

#self #fantasy costume #If I had the money for a custom tailored fantasy-ish victorian-ish suit instead of piecing together random thrift store items with like walm #rt halloween costume type jackets and stuff.. #unstoppable..... #I would actually lean more straight up historical with my wardrobe it's just that everything I own basically is thrifted aside from a very #small portion of things (like usually socks for example I get from ebay. wigs from ebay. things that it's hard to find in thrift stores. etc #) and I rarely ever find stuff like that at the bins. Your closest bet is like. hopeing that the week you come in just so happens to also be #a week that a church costume department recently donated a bunch of old stuff. but I just haven't really had much luck finding like fancy ve #sts and suit coats and cloaks or like tunics and etc. etc. #Styles like mori kei or cult party kei are pretty accessible and easy for places like the bins (where youre usually digging through piles of #curtains and fabric scraps and doilies anyway). but finding like.. a straight up tudor england costume or something is . VERY rare #Sometimes you do find halloween costumes. Or like. stuff that's clearly like cheap 'Goth' stuff from shein or aliexpress that someone has do #nated and they can be a LITTLE okay in terms of usable for costumes. But you rarely find actual good quality stuff. obviously because like #real very good quality historical costumes are expensive and most people aren't just like 'yeah dump it off to goodwill' lol #In an ideal world though I would have fancy top hats and neck ruffles and stuff .. know this ghhjbhj #Lack of that will not stop me from taking picturesin basically the same outfit 6000 times though. My one single silky black vest and #one of the two solitary ruffly neck shirts I have every been able to find. #Pointy-ish little boots that I put with everything even thogugh they look terrible up close because they're literally like over 10 yrs old #I bought them so long ago and the black fake leather lining is like peeling off of the outside #ANYWAY #he's back again... the same little generic like elf vampire ruffle shirt with vest look.. might as well be the same guy #I support him and his dumbass disintegrating shoes anyway

[trashmakerarticle]

I just know that Kate and Bruce have seen the most embarrassing stuff of each other and hold it over the others head when they try and fight each other. They have the most unlimited blackmail that not even oracle could get her hands on.

#bruce: all I’m saying is that you’re wron- #Kate: October 15th 1930 the downstairs laundry incident #Bruce: oh really? February 25th 1932 the curtain incident #then Alfred comes in #Alfred: do I need to remind the both of you about the dancing incident? #and if this happens infront of everyone ? 100% more funnier #all bc they refuse to elaborate #ALSO #i had to search up when Bruce was born and it said 1915 LIKE DAMN #and so I assume that Kate is around that date aswell #if I’m wrong then #no I’m not #bc canon doesn’t exist to me #Batman #Bruce Wayne #batwoman #kate kane #alfred pennyworth #dc #I think I tag more stuff then I write

[neige-leblanche]

btw the aliexpress winter sale starts in 4 hours fellow bad decision makers

#txt #i swear this stuff is gonna be necessary for me tho. ive hated venetian blinds my whole life im so excited to get cute lacy curtains #im like a butterfly coming out of the chrysallis & bro it is costing me so much

[adamshallperish]

i've been going down a rabbit hole with youtube videos discussing the shining, and while i dismiss those "theory" dudebro youtube videos that talk about the shining being code for kubrick faking the moon landing or whatever just on principle, there's something that i need to say.

so, there's this poster that literally just appears in the background of a scene in the film. that's it. it's just there. it's a silhouette of a skier with the only legible words being "ski monarch" at the bottom.

for some reason, so many people have come up with all these super involved theories about how "monarch" is actually the name of like a government mind control program. or how the skier's legs bend backwards, signifying it's a supernatural creature and therefore "monarch" is actually code for "minotaur", which should be at the heart of the hotel's hedge mage.

but as someone who's actually from colorado (where the shining takes place), these theories just make me cackle like a witch on adderall.

guys, guys. it's literally just a ski resort. it's a relatively small ski resort deep in rural colorado that's been there since 1939. it's been called monarch mountain since 1939. the slogan that they use in most of their advertising is "ski monarch". the reason the skier's legs look like that is just because that's what people's legs do when you ski, the silhouette just removes the definition. some prop director probably brought that on to add authenticity to the set because the shining, famously. takes place in colorado. in the winter. where and when skiing is known to happen.

#my ski bum dad taught me how to ski at monarch mountain when i was three #and i got my shit absolutely wrecked as an 8 year old by someone careening down a slope without looking where they were going #i also can't stress enough #i'm not a huge 'the curtains are just blue' person #i love david lynch's work #and a lot of appreciation from that comes from finding hidden meanings in set dressings and things that may not even be intentional #but the genre of the shining fans who fixate on this kind of stuff tend to be the ones who miss the point of the shining #idk #also justice for shelley duvall she did not deserve to be treated the way she was on that set #the shining #horror film #the shining film #stephen king #stanley kubrick #room 237

[the-maddened-hatter]

The battle of the constant desire to obtain blatantly queer goodies (clothes, stickers, mugs, ect) vs the need to stay low-key in my deep south state :(

#lgbtq+ #queer #I'm like ''oooh that's so pretty and that's so sweet! I want it! But I'll get fucking shot in the street if I buy and use it D: " #like my friend gave me this adorable trans cat sticker and I want to put it on my phone or my car #but like I'm not out to one of my main friend groups and they're super nice but like I'm not about to test the waters #and loose otherwise cool friends bc they're great as far as the south goes but like #and like I can't just ''just only use it at the house'' like people come to my house sometimes and can see the things that I own #so it can't be like the most blatant thing in the world #I do have rainbow socks and a rainbow shower curtain but they aren't obviously lgbtq+ rainbows if you know what I mean #so I think I could get away if questioned by just being like “I like rainbows! :D ” which is tbf actually true #I liked them long before I knew other stuff but like now I like them even more #so yeah anyway fuck the south but I live here #oh and sneaky rainbow stickers for the back of my phone I do those too #right now is Kermit with a rainbow

[creature-once-removed]

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#once in english class we watched A Study in Pink and had to take notes on the filmmaking details we noticed #I think about that specific day pretty often because I so suddenly discovered I had so much fun noticing all of this stuff #and there was a lot to notice #minute details where you can't be sure if they're there or if the curtains are just blue #like light and dark in a frame foreshadowing the morality of people in that position in the next frame and the like #stuff where you can't tell if it's intentional but even if it's not it's still doing something #and that so quickly and clearly nailed it for me what I myself like in visual storytelling in films and would love to do myself someday #and come to think of it that's exactly why Lucky Number Slevin is my favorite movie #(one of the reasons) #because it's on a whole different level #it's chock full of details that on the surface are just pretty #then below that they have a pretty solid function that's not too hard to make out #and then below that there's a fucking world of 'look what this is also doing' that makes my heart race when I spot a new one #there's load bearing convoluted wallpaper for fucks sake. And that's by far the most obvious #I still notice new stuff about this movie that leaves me sitting there like 'shit that's so smart' #not in a 'this is genius' way most of the time but a very solid #'yeah this was a good choice; #you could have easily done it differently but this way you sidestepped the hint of a vibe based problem three scenes down the line' #and I freaking LOVE that #anyway I just found out. same fucking director. #somehow... this keeps happening #yes I'm currently watching it again. fourth or fifth time this month I don't remember exactly

[idlyingabout]

I spent some 10 months working in this retail supermarket shop that's close to home and after quitting the only experience that's stayed with me is those rare few times when i would see other queer people just existing in public. Maybe it's because I'm kind of a coward and could never be that openly out, or the environment in this area of the city that I know is very christian and very hostile (the things that i've heard my coworkers saying...) but I came to treasure those rare moments in a very special way. It can feel kinda lonely here, where sometimes it seems like it's just me and the friends I met in artschool and the people in other areas that i see on instagram, weirdly far away from me, and knowing that it'll be decades before we achieve anything meaningful in this country, but seeing someone being so open and brave like that makes me wanna keep going y'know? Maybe someday I'll live in a future where my teacher from artschool didn't have to travel to the USA to get married, and I can go to the beach with my friends and have twin scars on my chest.

#i say stuff #trans tag #idk it's just that everytime i would see someone and know they were queer my heart would shake in this weird way #i can remember like two lesbian couples #two men that asked me about curtains and as I was walking away heard one of them call the other 'darling' #this trans girl that was shoping with a friend and she had beautiful green braids #a couple of other trans women who asked me about what comforter sizes we had #i feel like i would see these people and in my head chant 'please look at me please recognize me please' #maybe i'm being weird idk #also i was working in this store as like a temporary thing #after graduating here with an associate's i applied to this artschool in the USA to like finish my full degree #they accepted me and I spent almost a whole year looking for help to actually study there #i looked in many ways and help never came sadly #a part of me also just wanted to escape from here #maybe some weird karma from that prevented help from coming idk #anyways maybe things can get better. maybe #i started tearing up just writing this

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

some of you guys are making the dragon show sound so fun it’s making me wish it were not composed of like everything my brain refuses to engage with (TV starring british people, shows with historical settings, any stories about royalty, dragons)

#this is to be clear quite thoroughly a Me Problem and i would even say a personal #flaw of mine #like i think it would be better to be more open-minded about these situations #there’s good stuff i’m missing in the world because of these allergies #such as this show #but these things show up and my brain draws the curtains like it spotted jehovah’s witnesses coming up the road

[orangetintedglasses]

( rubs face I've done these last three fights at least four times in the span of my 400 hours in this game and boy howdy it's STILL NOT FUN )

#( arr is such a fuckin slog and it's only gonna get worse with the mandatory rando stuff that's coming up OTL ) #( just let me back to HW please I wanna go back ) #( anyway wol vash loses his arm in this fight I decided a while back ) #( also he's getting partially-tempered like my last wol did ) #( aka I'm turning his hair white ) #( for Reasons ) #curtains down ✧〗( ooc )

[casdeans-pie]

Oh good my insomnia is back

Love that for me

#well.... great. scream #i would just like one(1) night of decent sleep pls #anything over 3 hours would probably revive me #i havent missed this at aaaaall #seeing the sun come up through my curtains and knowing i need to get up for work in a couple of hours. gross gross gross #pie says stuff

[bloodsbane]

really wild to be reminded of the sorts of things my mom thinks/cares about and how her priorities can be sooooo wildly different from mine

#banebabbles #i say in a gentle way bc i do understand where it comes from #but she was like. we were walking right. just up n down the street #for pikmin bloom stuff #and she was like your curtains and half-open windows make the house look raggedy from outside #and was talking about how i could fix it to make it look more neat? #and im like........... WHO CARES?? I DONT CARE? #she's very ... ID say overly conscious of the perceptions of others #and again i get where it comes from #but also i sooooo dont care i dONT care how do i help my mom understand how little i actually care #about what random strangers think about wrt how i look or act #i cant afford to care lol im a queer little freak and being willfully oblivious to how others must perceive me is how ive survived

[crescentmp3]

btw i should be able to hold every single bird i see . like a hamburger

#they look very holdable . no they ARE holdable actually i've held a ringneck dove before #i've told this story before but here i go again #so i was in math class and the teacher was saying some stuff i dont even remember anymore #ok so suddenly there is some flapping coming from the closed curtains along with the chirps a dove makes when trying to fly #so the windows we have have little locks on them right . the little dove somehow fit through that #and is now trying to get back out #everyone else in the class was literally screaming while i just #stand up -> go to window -> grab dove -> help it squeeze back out through the window -> everyones clapping for me for some reason #it was terrifying to be percieved but it was worth it . i got to hold a bird #my insight is that they are indee very holdable and perhaps squishy . #the lil guy i held was very injured though :( was probably escaping from something #washed my hands and was right back into class like nothing happened #that was a pretty decent day #🌙birdposting #🌙nightblogging

[sensitiveheartless]

Where do you get all your ideas for these drawings and how do you actually find the strength to do them? Also what happens if you finish a piece and aren't satisfied with it?

Oof, oh man let's see...where I get my ideas from is a tough one, because I get bits of ideas from a lot of different places, and then they just ping around in the circus of my brain until they combine into something I want to make. And with soukoku specifically, there's something about them that appeals very strongly to my sense of humor (not just my sense of humor of course, but it was that aspect which drew me to skk initially), and that makes it easier for me to go "oooh, I want to draw them doing this", or "wouldn't it be funny if they—", etc.

Basically, because I think about them a lot, that leads to things like, say, me listening to the Little Mermaid soundtrack one day while cooking and thinking "Hey, wouldn't it be funny if Chuuya was Sebastian and Dazai was the french Chef" and then running with it and writing a very very weird oneshot. Or, me taking a walk in the snow and thinking "hey what if soukoku were walking in the snow and then Dazai flopped over and started being dramatic about being Snow White" and then my Snow Day comic happened.

As for how I find the strength to do them (and unfortunately I feel like this isn't going to be a very inspirational answer): for me, drawing is a way that I process, calm myself down, and just...express myself. Ah, for example, that recent "Operation Quiet Heart" comic I made recently! I binge-drew that in about two days, because several things had happened to make me Very Stressed and Upset, and so I drew something silly but also comforting because I knew it would make me feel better. And it did! By the time I had sketched it out I had gone from a state of "I am about to either start biting people, or burst into tears" to "Okay I can manage this actually, it's not that big of a deal".

At this point, honestly, it's worse for me when I don't draw. A while ago I hurt my drawing hand while gardening and had to rest it, and in less than a day I started trying to teach myself how to draw with my non dominant hand, just so that I could make something. That's how feral I was going, not being able to draw anything. (I'm actually slowly getting better at left-hand drawing! Can't really do lineart very well yet, but I've occasionally used it for very loose coloring/non-precision stuff when my right hand needs a break.)

It's probably not the healthiest, but...I figure there are worse things I could rely on. Drawing daily has helped me get through some of the worst parts of my life so far—even at times when I couldn't express what I was feeling in words, I could still draw. I think that's just how my brain is wired, sometimes visuals are easier than words. (I like writing a lot, but it's definitely harder for me.)

Aaaand as for what I do when I don't feel satisfied with a piece—I'm gonna put the art ramblings under the cut, since this is already getting long—but the tl:dr is that it depends on how stubborn I'm feeling at the time :D

For example! Sometimes I finish a piece and go "eh", and then I just leave it!

Like this one! I don't hate it or anything, but after a while of messing around with it, it still wasn't quite what I wanted. Close, but not quite. Didn't quite like how Chuuya's hair turned out and such—so, I decided it was a learning experience and left it at that. Maybe I'll come back to the idea at a later point, but honestly I had no plan when I started this one and was just vibing, so I didn't take it as much of a loss.

And then sometimes I get really, really stubborn about a piece, and keep working at it until I get it to look how I want. For example, this one!

This one took me a WHILE, even just to figure out how I wanted the poses to work. I kept drawing sketches, turning off the layer and then trying again on a new layer. So first we had this:

But I felt like adding Dazai to this pose would be awkward, because he would be so eclipsed by Chuuya, so I tried again.

And nope, still didn't like it. having the profiles like this felt too stiff somehow, even though I liked how Dazai was holding on to him. (Also here's an example of me coming back to an idea later, because I recently made a side-profile-facing-corruption-piece that I ended up actually vibing with)

So, I tried again.

I don't have the full undersketch for this one, because I mangled it while drawing, but here—you can vaguely see what I was going for, mostly with where Dazai's arms are positioned. So I had the pose, but then of course there was the process of actually coloring it, and that was a whole other thing. Oh also Chuuya's face took a WHILE for me to get to a place where I didn't hate it.

Here I was mostly just trying to figure out base colors(and the background), and I ended up redoing almost all of it because I was being really sloppy—especially with Dazai's bandages and the curse marks on Chuuya's arms. Also Chuuya's head was a bit too large in proportion to his body, so I ended up selecting all those layers and shrinking it.

Getting closer, I fixed the curse marks and messed around with Chuuya's expression more (but I still didn't like it). Only now I felt like Dazai and Chuuya's heads were too zoomed out and small in this composition (also I tipped them too far back and now it looked like they were falling in a weird way), and also I wanted to add something else because I felt like Chuuya's hands were drawing a bit too much attention (plus it was a messy hand and I didn't feel like fixing it), so I decided to add a graviton to cover the hand and make that lower corner dark. I really wanted the focus to be Dazai's arms holding on to Chuuya.

So I changed Chuuya's expression again, adjusted the angle, zoomed it in, added the graviton, and then messed around with filters to get the colors more how I wanted them to look. And THEN I decided I was done, because I didn't want to overwork it, but yeah! That was one of the times where me being very persistent with a piece actually wound up with something I really liked.

Long answer short: sometimes when I don't like a piece I keep trying until I do, and sometimes I just let it be a learning experience, and try a different approach the next time.

#ask box #these were really interesting questions #thank you anon! #I hope this wasn't too much information aksdfjskdfjks #so much of me doing art is just throwing stuff at the page/canvas until something sticks #ESPECIALLY when it comes to painting #I'm getting better at doing quick and simple comics in my style but paintings take a lot more effort and time for me #*draws back curtain on my process* behold: a parade of clowns #...side note but #honestly I have really lucked out by finding people who appreciate me being weird #like #I was not expecting people on here to enjoy my stuff when I first started posting #but then people were really nice! #if i can make literally anyone laugh with my comics I'm absurdly happy #I really appreciate how kind people have been about the shenanigans I draw

[quibbs126]

You ever think people go too far when analyzing aspects of a story

Like, I’m not sure how much dolphin sonograms relate to the aspects of Buddy Bolden’s life and music. He’s (sorry, my World Literature teacher) been talking about a squawk (at least I think that’s what he said, sometimes his accent is hard to understand) representing some sort of singularity that Bolden’s music is

Like my dude, you think you might be reaching a bit?

#like yeah there’s probably a reason the author put that there #but I really don’t think it’s that deep I can say from experience #of course I can’t talk like I’m much better trying to squeeze lore out of literally any scrap of info #but I’m not trying to find themes and deeper narrative meanings in every piece of the story #I get this is his job #but it sounds a bit ridiculous to me #I don’t think authors really put all this amount of thought into their work #like yes they put thought into their work and deeper meanings #but come on man #it sounds like the blue curtains meme #I forgot this was in my drafts #literature #literature analysis #we’re talking about Coming Through Slaughter #random stuff #real life stuff