#and then I was thinking about how literal decades later it’s like ppl have to know that the FO is taking kids

[stonegoldsxcrxt]

I have a lot of emotions about the fact that the only era where troopers were actually volunteers serving of their own volition was during the ot. obviously in the prequels the clones are created to essentially just be sheer numbers on the battlefield (though they are people that’s obviously not how they’re seen) and then by the time of the sequels the first order was literally stealing babies to force into the service when they grew up. like how fucked up is that and how fucked up is it we have yet to see a clone rebellion or a stormtrooper rebellion

#Star Wars #sorry I just almost cried thinking of Finn a second ago #because first I was thinking about echo in tbb and riyo too and how like. that situation is so screwed up #like she’s one of the only people who cares what happens to clones like on a governmental level?? #and then I was thinking about how literal decades later it’s like ppl have to know that the FO is taking kids #but then like Finn doesn’t even feel like he can tell Rey about his real past #and ppl react badly towards him when they learn he was a trooper #as if he had a choice???? he MADE his choice #idk just like woah the in universe indifference to these ppl who have had their agency taken from them #DECADES later similar problem different faces

[spacelazarwolf]

y’all i found it, i found the post that originated the claim that i’m a ZionistTM and it’s even more ridiculous than i expected.

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this is, of course, the same person who labeled me a MisogynistTM for making a half baked joke reblog basically saying “jewish standards of masculinity are different than white western standards of masculinity” then cited orthodox judaism, a community i’m not a part of, as why Actually The Jewish Community Is Horrifically Misogynistic And Bad (as if i haven’t faced misogyny from jewish cis men before???????)

anyway, my post in this screenshot didn’t once mention israel. it didn’t mention zionism. it was talking about antisemitism. i turned off reblogs because people were making it about zionism and israel, which was derailing my original point. i set a specific boundary and people kept crossing it, so i turned reblogs off and blocked people who wouldn’t leave it alone. absolutely nothing about that could possibly indicate that i’m a zionist unless you think that diaspora jews setting boundaries about being forced into a conversation about israel, especially one where we are essentially being blamed for the antisemitism we face because of the government of a country we don’t even live in and have no control over (there’s a phrase that, it’s called dual loyalty and it’s been getting jews killed for decades) or if you think simply talking about the history of antisemitism and current rising levels of antisemitism is somehow “zionist propaganda” in which case you might want to get your head out of your ass and question why you’re agreeing with literal nazis. also bonus points for this person literally just blatantly blaming jews in the tags for the rise in antisemitism because we’re apparently not being antizionist enough to deserve basic human decency and safety! not even trying to hide it anymore huh!

and of course it worked like a charm bc now, months later, you have people saying this:

“the jew is trying to disguise himself as one of you to trick you!!!!!! he is actually evil and trying to manipulate you to further his evil (((zionist))) plans!!!!!!!!!! beware!!!!!!!!!!!” which is literally just repackaged antisemitic tropes that are centuries old. i’ve never interacted with the person in this screenshot in my entire life, and yet they seem to think they have insider knowledge into my Evil Zionist Plans to infiltrate the community and spread Zionist Propaganda because they interacted with one gentile witch that threw a hissy fit about being told not to be antisemitic in discourse about gentiles appropriating lillith. this gentile decided that every single jew who disagreed with them was a zionist, and when i told them it was antisemitic as fuck to call any jew they disagree with a zionist they went on about me being a “raging zionist” and “faking being queer” for DAYS. so it’s not a mystery where the person in this screenshot got the “ooh scary (((zionist))) pretending to be queer and trans to spread his evil (((zionist))) propaganda” rhetoric from. it’s word-for-word from the gentile witch who was pissed about fucking LILLITH DISCOURSE.

bc the thing is, these ppl don’t actually care if i’m a zionist. if they did, they would be engaging with what i’ve said (which is practically nothing because i knew the second the word israel touched my blog that this would happen — which is why i didn’t want people going on and on about israel on a post about antisemitism). they know that labeling a jew a zionist is an immediate death sentence in progressive circles. they know it’s the easiest way to discredit a jew you don’t like. because it doesn’t matter how many times you say “no, i’m not” you will be forever tainted in the eyes of gentiles by that accusation. that’s why they made the accusation in the first place. and so i will continue to not share any of my thoughts or opinions other than “i’m pro palestinian liberation” and “i’m not a zionist” and people will ignore that to play yet another game of Zionist Telephone to target a jew they don’t like. it’s not the first time it’s happened, to me or in general, and it won’t be the last time. i just hope people seeing this and reading this will help people understand how fucked up and antisemitic it is.

so yeah. if you see accusations floating around that i’m a zionist, this is where it came from. a situation that is textbook dual loyalty, being punished for setting boundaries on my own blog, and people who hate trans men jumping at the chance to demonize one with one of the easiest tricks in the book as soon as they see he’s also jewish. the fact i keep having to address this when the origin of the rumor is literally just antisemitism should heavily inform how seriously you take random claims online that a jew is a zionist. most of the time it’s just blatant antisemitism, and very often it’s a way to silence an unrelated conversation that person was trying to have.

#jewish #jumblr #antisemitism

[theredpharaoah]

Dare I say we give Giles too much. I think him not giving Buffy the Slayer Handbook was dumb and ignorant. The Handbook didn’t just have rules for the Slayer, it was the definitive guide to magic on Earth and its history. The fact they never pull it out again after the first episode irritates the hell out of me. How helpful would that have been for all the Scoobies - Willow could’ve picked up magic way quicker. It probably would’ve helped Buffy hone the psychic abilities she never really developed. Remember how she’s supposed to be able to sense vampires and stuff? And in the comics, Erin had access to all the Slayer memories(I’m pretty sure) because he inherited the psychic side of the lineage. Again, that could’ve been cool to see and very helpful.

I also feel - as stated many times before - Giles completely failed with Faith. People talk about how Buffy built up that rapport with Giles and her friends - that she made their relationship the way it was. But that’s irrelevant because the relationship was present and stable at the time of Faith’s arrival. We see when Kendra comes that even the Giles is a bit taken-aback to her very by-the-book approach to being a slayer. So when Faith came - who is extremely similar to Buffy - how did Giles not immediately feel that paternal instinct he has with Buffy, Willow, and Xander? That sort of instinct comes easier the more people you consider to be your “children”. I mean it’s crazy that The Mayor had to take Faith out of that nasty ass motel. A literal demon had to go “that’s no place for a young girl”. And sure he had a motive but the fact that none of the decent people had already said it? And the way they handled the accidental kill of the evil assistant to the mayor? First of all, the Slayer killing humans is frowned upon but it’s not a hard and fast rule. I’m not saying they should just go around killing ppl, but I’m not going to feel bad that Faith killed a man who was working for demons anyway. And compare that to how they reacted to Buffy Killing Ted(when they thought she had); completely different reaction. And Buffy had exhibited far more animosity towards Ted, than Faith had for some random who got in the way.

Giles as an adult - and something of an educator - should’ve immediately clocked that Faith did not have the same upbringing as the other 3, that the Scoobies were falling into their childish instincts and alienating her, and he should’ve gone out of his way to include her and impress upon the others why they needed to accept her. Especially after they found out about her Watcher’s death and saw how terrified she was of Kakistos. Why did Buffy and Angel have to be the ones to find out Faith needed to be fought for - that she needed help to deal with her trauma. I was really disappointed in Buffy as she’d lost her watcher and relocated just like Faith. She also understood how lonely and dangerous it is being a Slayer. But I can’t blame Buffy all that much cuz she’s a kid. And Giles willing all of his things to Faith in the comics and only the Slayer Handbook to Buffy did not move me. Giles considered Buffy to be the “One True Slayer” was not a gag. Everyone considers her to be that, giving her this handbook after she’s been a Slayer for damn near a decade is insulting. She don’t need that shit no more - she had to learn it all on the job. And giving Faith his money so she could retire from violence? Faith’s violence wasn’t the issue, her relationship to it was. The whole thing read as very melodramatic and self-absorbed.

Giles was very childish and we see it all throughout the series, but especially in the later seasons. I mean when you actually think about it, he’s so ridiculous. Buffy was 22 at the end of the series. 22 and she has to take care of a teen sister, pay mortgage, bills, etc. Could you imagine that amount of responsibility at that age? Our society still considers 22 year olds to be pseudo-teens for the most part. And he left cuz he “didn’t want her to become dependent on him”…what type of shit? She was already dependent on you - you’d been her Father Figure since she was 16 and throughout a boatload of trauma. You pretty much raised the girl. And you know that - that’s why you had a dream of taking child Buffy to the fair. He’s human, but that doesn’t excuse the level of cowardice he exhibited for me.

Also, I think instead of killing Jenny in Passions, they should’ve had her live. I think she would’ve been great as Faith’s mentor. And while she didn’t take the Scoobies to task for blaming her about Angel and alienating her, I definitely think she would’ve gotten them together for their treatment of Faith. I also think she would’ve pointed out Giles’ differential treatments of the two.

#buffy summers #buffy the vampire slayer #faith lehane #jenny calendar #rupert giles

[lorephobic]

the comfort that etho finds in bdubs is so unique and special like i cant stop thinking about him coming up to bdubs and declaring that they race horses and how he literally never talks like that with ANYONE!!! i have so much to say about this but i just started crying

its the way that for as long as ethos been doing collab content, hes been so afraid of asking for things, let alone demanding them. but that bdubs has always seen thru that and very calmly held ethos hand and not given up on him even when he was so quiet about what he wanted.

its about how etho’s rftw went so disastrously that guude just assumed that etho was going to stick to solo content and didnt even bother to ask if he wanted to join mindcrack. but bdubs was watching ethos videos and heard him talk about wanting to join an smp. so he begged guude to let him join. and he did. and he was so scared. and meeting new people went so badly so he just stuck to himself. but bdubs kept showing up and interacting with him without ever being dissuaded by etho being awkward and quiet because he KNEW!!!! he knew that thats not how etho wanted to present. so for years he slowly coaxed etho out of his shell by making sure he was included and making him know that he was appreciated. its that meme thats like “if etho has a million fans i am one of them” except real for bdubs.

he was his only fan (in the cc sphere) for so long, or at least the only one with enough patience and understanding to do the slow gentle work of loving and believing in etho until etho loved and believed in himself. and even now, he won’t ask people for things. he doesn’t ask to be included. bdubs is still the one reaching out, still inviting him along. but meeting new people isn’t scary anymore. he can hold his own, but only because bdubs supported him for so long. and it’s that trust and understanding implicit in their relationship that lets him confidently demand that bdubs race with him. he wouldnt with anyone else in the whole wide world. and bdubs is so!! thrilled by it! he doesn’t make a big deal out of it, but he does make it an immediate priority.

even now, more than ten years later, he is helping etho grow his confidence. with a simple gesture, he’s telling him that he can ask for things!! and people will do them!!! because they love him!!!! because he is so loved!!!!

this is what ppl miss when they talk about bdubs being an ethogirl. he loved etho when it was not easy to love etho. he loved etho before etho loved etho. he has had such a profound impact on etho that he would be completely unrecognizable without bdubs in his life.

there is nothing more loving in this world than showing patience to someone who is growing into who they want to be. and there is nothing more rewarding than letting that person grow into you and take your better parts and become a happier human being because of it. and thats what bdubs has done for etho for a decade and will do for him over and over until the end of time.

#fuck it we ball

[homochadensistm]

Thoughts on this? https://www.tumblr.com/a-queer-seminarian/744322135052451840/the-conquest-of-canaan-and-palestine-today

Not sure why were askin RABBIS, of all ppl, questions about ancient history and reality. I dont go to my mechanic to get a sexy manipedi and I dont ask my cosmetologist for advice on how to change my cars spark plugs.

The first point is ridiculous and contradicts itself. Just because 2 groups of ppl originally start from the same group does not negate the fact that, at some point in time, they started fucking exclusively within a smaller group, which changes them genetically over time, which creates the basis of this mystical "ethnos" theyre talking about. This is without mentioning that absolutely nobody sane denies that Jews and Arabs share common ancestry if u go back long enough, but this doesnt negate the fact that Arabs are a later addition to this ancestry because they came here with the Islamic conquest, which reinforces the ethnic dissimilarity. This is also why Hebrew and Arabic, while both semitic languages, are distinct - Hebrew is a Canaanite-Semitic language, Arabic is not.

The second point doesnt explain what a "palestinian" is. Do they mean the Philistines? the foreign invaders? Do they mean the local Canaanite population that got Arabized beyond the point of recognition? Do they mean the modern "palestinian" identity, which was invented in the 60s? Which ppl of the above are we talking about?

The third point is just a repeat of the 1st with the same issues, but how on earth does it lead to the conclusion in the 4th point?? What kind of reform nonsense.....Besties do we think that the ppl who wrote the torah some 2000yrs ago care for the GeneticsTM of the ppl they were talking about? The torah explicitly states there was a violent conquest. This statement has absolutely nothing to do with Israel today. It amazes me how a country can have literal decades of secular history, a secular foundation and secular founders, yet these idiots will latch on to a fringe minority of genocidal creatures who treat the torah, a book that was written when ppl thought witches make rain and that god uses plants as a walkietalkie, like a handy morality guidebook. Also, sorry to the delusional rabbi, but the conquest did in fact, happen, historically. It wasnt as dramatic as the biblical story, but it also wasnt "a political fabrication" wqejkhbjheqwb you literally suddenly see unique architecture in new villages and towns, unique burial rituals, unique ceramic vessels, a unique writing system, and wow, such a coincidence, in all of these new unique places in the Canaanite landscape, there are exactly 0 remains of pig bones, while in the "regular" Canaanite towns pigs are the #1 animal consumed. Not a singular pig, not a singular bone, zero. In an environment where pigs were consumed as staple food. You can (and should) absolutely argue that the biblical conquest story doesnt fit the archaeological picture 100%, but to say it is entirely false and calling it a POLITICAL FABRICATION is extremely ignorant and is telling me ur looking to push an agenda.

#israel #archaeology #palestine

[transmechanicus]

ough I rlly like 40k but then some things are just. so fucking weird and gross.

Like everything with slaanesh wrt transphobia, or with the grots being literal greedy long nosed goblin slaves and like... 40k is supposed to be sort of progressive and satirical of fascism (I think?) but then sometimes it just is reactionary. It's exhausting.

how do you cope? I don't want to abandon liking the setting.

Unironically i just don't waste brainpower agonizing over this kind of thing. Slaanesh in the current setting is, in my transgender opinion, not transphobic and is handled generally respectfully, I just finished the Fabius Bile series in which daemons of Slaanesh feature heavily and there was nothing in there that struck me as off color or judgemental. Sometimes the demons have boobs or cock or both or neither, im able to suspend my disbelief and not give a fuck if the concept may or may not have been originally pitched in a sketchy way. Aside from the occasional weird cunt online, Slaanesh being andrygynous/trans/ambiguously genderfucked does not generally strike me as something that needs urgent correction, or that perpetuates harm.

I feel like the grot remark is retroactive H*rry P*tter revisionism, considering WH fantasy was conceived over a decade earlier, and prior to a certain British cunt the concept of goblins in general was significantly (though not entirely) less associated with antisemitism. Early grot forces from Fantasy were reportedly in stereotypical Mongol garb, in a move later regarded as insensitive and rectified going forward. I don't play Orks but in 40k afaik they're just little green assholes, there's no defining element of Greed or Slavery, unless that's been established in recent books i haven't read.

My opinion absolutely will not line up with everyone in the community and i fully recognize i could be wrong about what elements or influences are/were drawn from insensitive concepts.

TL;DR I don't feel the need to consume every hobby through a critical lens and if its not perpetuating active harm or disrespect towards ppl in the present it's just not on my radar.

#my stuff #asks #wh40k #warhammer 40k

[dukeofankh]

hey i really really appreciate your posts abt purity culture, desire and objectification and your perspective as an ex-evangelical!! having been born and raised a jew myself i've always been aware of how bullshit all of that stuff is, but not really able to articulate it as specifically as you seem able to, and i find your eloquence really impressive. with that known, i actually have a specific thing that's been bothering me, and i think it's an evangelical purity culture based thing, and hinges on that distinction you made in a post abt a week ago abt how to a lot of people "objectification" = "looking with lust" = "basically adultery"-- okay here goes:

on gay tiktok, there is currently a trend of women (or some nb ppl) who are attracted to women commenting on thirst-traps posted by women the memetic phrase "i am no better than a man".

now this really rubs me the wrong way for a lot of reasons (mainly: contextually this is almost always on videos that are INTENDED to be sexy so why is it weird to find this woman, who filmed and edited this video to be sexy, sexy?? AND what the hell do you mean abt gender by saying this???? women can't desire people?? men can only desire in predatory ways???), and it's weird in that specific way where i'm like. i smell weird cultural christian values embedded in this. but i can't quite articulate the way it all fits together.

this may be way out of line for me to bother you in your inbox like this, but i was hoping to get your take? your ability to explain this stuff clearly and with context i never knew existed is really valuable and while i have seen people responding on tumblr to say "uhhh don't say this", they haven't really articulated what's driving people to say such a specific thing, so much that it becomes a meme.

if u feel this isn't something you want to speak on, that's totally fine! and i just want to say thank you again for your thoughtful posts.

also i feel very weird abt dropping this veritable essay in your inbox so sorry!!

No worries! I love to talk, and I already have opinions on that particular meme 😆.

You've definitely gotten the gist of it, yeah. It's a bunch of unexamined sexist ideas about sex and desire repackaged in the sort of fun memey "it's not that deep, chill out" shell that absolutely thrives on social media. Some of it's Christian, some of it is the radfem repackaging of Christian ideas.

Basically, the version of Sexual Objectification championed by radfem writers like Dworkin was adapted from Immanuel Kant, a Christian philosopher/theologian, so it's not just cultural Christianity, it's also a direct intellectual connection. They just changed the idea from "all people, when overtaken by lust, cease to see people as people and can see them only as means to achieve their sinful sexual gratification. This cannot be avoided, but can be balanced out by keeping sex within a marriage that is otherwise built on commitment and respect," to "Men, when overtaken by lust, cease to see women as people and can see them only as a means to achieve their sinful sexual gratification (due to their patriarchal training to harm and dominate). This cannot be avoided, especially not by marriage, which is one of the main ways the Patriarchy codifies the subjugation of women to men."

Basically, Radfems and Christians get along because Radfems feel the same way about masculine sexuality that Christian men feel about their own sexuality. As for women...both Radfems and more modern Christians are pretty sure that women don't Do Lust in the same way men do. Like, women see people as ends in and of themselves, as fellow Subjects. Men see women as objects. As means to an end, that end being their own sexual gratification.

A few decades later and after a fair bit of social media iteration, we get to this weird point.

What they're basically saying is, "god damn. I swiped onto this thirst trap and I didn't even think about your personality or your accomplishments or anything. I literally just saw big jiggly titties and that's all I can think about. I am sexually attracted to you, and yet it isn't reflective of your soul or a deep connection between us or anything, despite the fact that I'm a woman and I'm supposed to be above just liking your body and that turning me on. Huh. This is what I have heard people describe men's sexuality as being like. You are so sexy that you are causing me to act as badly as men do."

See also: the way tiktok has redefined "the male gaze" and "the female gaze" to just mean "stuff men vs. women respectively like to look at" with most explicitly sexualized visual media being assigned to the former. Women are supposed to like things subtler than that.

Like, saying "I am no better than a man" could be a push to re-examine whether maybe a celibate 18th century theologian/philosopher is a bad foundation for your understanding of sexual desire. I would like to think that for some of these women it probably is sparking self reflection, going "huh, yeah, I guess we all do this."

But as a meme, honestly, even as it claims to lower ones own status I think it still maintains a claim of moral superiority? Like, "yeah, I'm being a horndog, but I am self aware about it. I can tell that I'm being horny on main right now, and it's something that has been conditionally activated by this very sexy thirst trap. Men are like this all the time and they don't even know."

I, obviously, don't like that. I don't like people saying "I'm acting like a man" when they mean "I'm perving on you", I don't like ranking a lack of desire as being better than desire, I don't like ranking genders or better or worse than another. I don't think it's causing problems as much as it's reflecting problems that have been there for a long time, but hey, it stinks.

#me writing stuff

[burningvelvet]

hi can i ask to hear you rant about the 2018 mary shelley maybe

thanks for the ask! this is an unhinged stream of thought & super long of course. will reblog with part 2.

where do i even begin??? 1) its disappointing that the filmmaker is a highly accomplished feminist & role model but then she sells a fake biopic about a historical woman which is twisted to fit a false narrative that mary shelley herself would disagree with. so disappointing! 2) percy shelley wasnt an alcoholic he literally wrote against alcohol consumption in his work on vegetarianism 3) mary literally never even met harriet and if she had the chance she wouldn’t have because she hated her 4) shelley and harriet both saw other people; harriets 3rd child was percy’s; also i dont even remember if harriets suicide is mentioned? why bring her in to demonize percy if not utilizing the main reason why ppl demonize him in the first place? 5) mary didnt like polidori - he literally threatened her partner to a duel & polidori is insulted in the preface to frankenstein - but the film portrays them as good friends omg what 6) all the characters are one-dimensional 7) no offense to byron’s actor who did good with what he was given but the character was written to be like a parody of byron. like a halloween costume gone too far. one review described it as cartoonish & i agree 8) claire is unrecognizable; irl she was firey and bold and funny and she literally asked byron out multiple times before seducing him then followed him across the continent & she’s literally the one who introduced him to mary first then percy!!! percy/byron didn’t know each other prior! all of this is left out!!! 8) hogg is so demonized & rapey; that scene was so uncomfortable and inaccurate; irl he was calm & funny & mary literally was going to have sex with him but didnt bc pregnancy etc. - she wrote all this in her loving letters to him which dont fit the filmmakers agenda; hogg was one of shelley’s best friends etc. 9) most importantly, percy actively encouraged and helped mary with frankenstein & helped edit/publish it and literally wrote part of it & she said she couldn’t do it without him. but in the film they don’t show any of this. 10) shelley was never given credit for frankenstein 11) the actors are nothing like how i would imagine these people but they all did their jobs well and had good chemistry and its so disappointing they werent given a proper script or guidance etc 12) the film was boring as shit, i watched it before i knew anything about the romantics personal lives (so i wasnt even critical when i watched it) & i only got thru the first 20 mins or so then continued i think weeks later vowing to finish it & when i did i was pissed at wasting my time, esp the scene with mary/claire crying ugh it was so painful to watch and not in a good way 13) i was actually relieved when i found out the film was inaccurate & that these events werent as boring as they were presented. like i knew the film had to be wrong & dismissed it before i even started learning about the romantics. like these are some of the most fascinating people in history how do you make them that boring & one-dimensional & insufferable 14) the figures themselves would all hate the movie 15) why is it called “mary shelley” when it should be called “mary and percy” or “the making of frankenstein” bc thats all the film really focuses on tbh! she lived decades after frankenstein and wrote other stuff too. but i dont think the director or the writer knew any of that 16) byron was the only entertaining part ngl (tbh whether demonizing or glorifying him it would be impossible to make byron boring; hugh grants version almost was except he’s hugh grant) 17) no grave sex? cowards. most historians agree mary and percy had sex for the first time on her mother’s grave. 18) shelley/claire were best friends, most historians believe they had an affair, & mary and claire had a lot of arguments until mary kicked her out (they loved each other but didnt like living together). none of this is shown! instead mary/claire are girlbossing against evil man percy. if they wanted to demonize him so bad why didnt they use the claire affair.

#asks #romanticism #me

[thesherrinfordfacility]

(last anon= me, was a bit anxious it might not go over well for some reason- off now bc changing the capitalization was a pain)

i agree on the human aus! love their flexibility, the sorta "yeah, may as well happen" you get clicking on something (with love) completely ridiculous. it's also so much fun to see what people do with crowley's eyes and his relationship to the glasses.

i'm very very early in planning this, but i want a&c to be as close to theirshow characterizations as i can possibly get them (book boys are amazing but i want the drama). i don't know that i'll do a very good job at justifying it with their backstories, but i'm gonna try. (idk. people have different opinions on personality being nature vs nurture. i can claim majority nature if it's more convenient)

i'm thinking here that crowley, personally, would have had to kill somebody or a couple somebodies, in an absolute (it at least appeared so, still does), life or death, them or him scenario (only his life saved). said somebody or somebodies would have attacked first, and out of desperation-- not totally their choice either. i'm assuming for the sake of the fic that he'd be able to do it at all, and then survive a couple decades after, so there's... something.

i just can't figure out exactly how he'd have coped with it, and whether he'd, later, think of it as justified, like how much guilt there would be. don't know what's even plausible.

my biggest problem is that framing him as 100% Good and Pure (and weirdly helpless?) like ppl do sometimes is literally my biggest fear writing this (huge mischaracterization in general). i don't want to go for the exact same indifference as in the show, for reasons you mentioned (and also that level of apathy would fuck up the entire rest of the fic), but not too far in the opposite direction, either.

tysm for the first response and considering a second, this seems a whole lot more solvable- and sorry if it's a lot to ask to go over all this (although your ability to hold a shit ton of information at once and then respond eloquently is impressive asf, looking at like every chain with LWA), i just drew a bit of a blank. also my bad if it's got a little heavy for your blog, just realized looking at the tags 😭

oh @aq-uatic you silly goose!!!✨ im absolutely fine with asks like that, please feel free to sling them my way anytime!!! ultimately tho, that's what the tw was for; just in case it was a bit heavy for someone else, but for me, personally? there's not a lot of themes that i feel uncomfortable discussing, almost all topics are welcome and i'll soon say if they aren't!!!💕

ooooh okay, so a self-defence angle!!! i think that that could be interesting to explore, because - well, you could take it from the perspective that crowley is initially very righteous in defending himself, rightly thinking that he deserved to protect himself, and the use of force was proportionate. he could initially come across as quite dispassionate and apathetic about it, "me vs. them? well of course it was going to be me!", and ultimately not want to address the whole concept of having committed murder because, on face value, it was justified. and maybe he privately doesn't want to examine it bc he's apprehensive about what he'd find?

but then as plot (and character) develops, turns out that because the whole thing was so fast, fuelled by adrenaline and the instinct to survive, crowley ends up... not being able to remember much of it? and as details start to come back, i think that's where the cognitive dissonance element would play - that he then has to reconcile himself as being someone who he feels is morally sound, 'would never harm another human being', a good person... but then is starting to remember his fear in the situation, confronting his own mortality, and what it says about him to be able to take another life with little thought other than his own self-preservation? as well as remember the specific physical details of what happened? the sounds, the smells? looks in the mirror afterwards and sees a different person looking back?

obviously without knowing the full motive of the person attacking him, who they are, what their story is etc.,... i think crowley could end up dealing with it in a way that he accepts that he cannot control others' actions, only his own. that that person chose to put him in the position of having to defend himself, and whilst, yes, that person may have had a family, friends, potential... when he's in a position of ensuring his own survival, he may have actually made the best decision he could have at the time. idk if you're planning to explore the attacker's circumstances in any depth, but if - for example - they were trying to rob him out of their own desperation (e.g. homelessness/austerity, fund addiction, peer pressured/gang context, mental health), maybe crowley would deal with that by exploring charitable work, or good causes, that seek to alleviate that very desperation? and that's how he heals from the experience?

again, hoping this might be some food for thought!!!✨💕 please do link me your fic when you've posted anything, i really admire how you're exploring this concept and it sounds really interesting and promising!!! i'll reiterate that i love getting asks, especially when they explore topics like this; i feel the LWA ones are a little bit of an anomaly, for being really analysis-heavy (which i love, let me clear), but getting to be a bit creative is exciting for me too!!!✨

#good omens #ask #tw: death #<- again adding this just in case!!!💕

[blueiight]

I don't think any of your other anons have mentioned this yet but if they have correct me! But a really key difference between book and show Lestat is his age not just in pure number [150 vs 30 something when he first meets Louis] but the age when he was turned [~35 vs 21]. Cause show Lestat even as human would've already sown his oats, lived it up and is basically middle aged for 18th century France life expectency before he's even turned. Then on top of that, he's spends another 100 years or so fucking around, going on adventures, trying to find a companion, having failed relationships, dirt napping before he finally meets Louis. Book Lestat's life was very much cut short due to his youth when turned, he goes from a bad relationship with Nicki to a bad relationship with Louis and then spends many decades barely alive and napping. Show Lestat at 35 should've been settled down, married with kids already during his time? [whether he actually did that or not is irrelevant, that's what was normal for men of his age]. Like I think that's why show Lestat is so much more of a patriarch in the show?

I don't know what else they plan to do with this change in the show but its one of the most fundamental changes to his character I'd say!

before i go along id like to correct the rl perception of life expectancy u have. a lot of ppl (not just u!) conflate ‘average life expectancy’ with a vague notion of the ‘average adult life span’. what life expectancies account for is the societal underpinnings in health namely the sheer numbers of maternal, infant and young child mortality due to the sheer risk of pregnancy alone& infectious diseases prior to the advent of germ theory, clean water systems & the widespread use of vaccination/s. chances are, if u lived past the age of say 5-10 and/or survived ur pregnancy, u already beat a number of odds & could very well live to old age [certainly the numbers of ‘respect ur elders’ hierarchies in cultures worldwide support this. but i get ur point& im being the pedantic ass i complain about. adolescence did not exist in les time as we know it so hed be considered a man in his teens-early 20s, and in fact in most of human history ppl got married 20s& above so if book les didnt get hitched idt show les necessarily had to neither? esp cuz hes still the younger of sons.]

i agree! i do think og iwtv lestat was a force of nature & a manic figure, but he was certainly more pitiful than his amc counterpart [in no significant part due to 1976 iwtv lewis narration] and being aged up certainly can play a role into how much of a firmer authority figure he is in this version of the show so soon. i think this change is fascinating, and imo draws both from iwtv/tvl as well as subsequent [consistent beats of, an exploration of] characterization of lestat as the pinnacle of vampirism, the brat vampire prince lording over in later works of the chronicles. hes not only stronger in a patriarchal sense but also in the literal sense of what hes capable of doing as a vampire. much to think of! louis also being an older man [33-34 as opposed to his early 20s] when turned also has sweeping implications for his character, and performatively equalizes their dynamic in the eyes of the viewer. & louis himself in s1 selectively likens himself to both lestat’s equal, yet u have the ‘lover, murderer, maker’ line being repeated & louis saying ‘could the children murder the father?’, likening himself to claudia in that they are both lestat’s children & claudia in the rue royale timeline compares louis to a pitiful housewife or something like that .. not to mention this👇🏾

[i feel like ive talked about this scene ten times. from claudia being the exact age/close to the age louis himself was here when he was turned, to lestat denying claudia her adulthood , louis selectively playing up her adulthood, and claudia attempting to neutralize this family dynamic & claim her own sense of maturation by making all of them siblings… levan akin ur everything to me 😵‍💫🫣]

i do wonder how nickistat will be adapted for s3 with these age shifts in mind, and what implications that holds for nicki , armand & co.. hell, even gabi. especially gabrielle. [also i time traveled & spayed les he will not have no babies on lou]

#yn. #yn answers #iwtv #louis de pointe du lac #lestat de lioncourt #claudia #family from hell

[thesquidkid]

Movie Meme

post seven comfort movies and tag seven people

I was tagged by @infp-obsessing-over-everything ❤️

Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975). This movie is my feel good movie. Idk how many times I've watched it, but I still laugh and for the duration of the movies all problems go away

Monsters, Inc (2002). We had this movie on DVD growing up, so it's ones of the movies I've watched the most. I just love the concept of it, and even though I haven't watched it in a while, I still regularly think of it

La Guerre des boutons (1962) (and 2011). I have nothing bad to say about these two movies, and while some ppl way say that the original is better, or the remake or whatever, I like both, they are different and equally as good imo. They make me smile, and cry, and laugh and that's really what matters

Kaamelott, premier volet (2021). I would like to extend this to the entire Kaamelott universe, but this one is the only one that counts as a movie. It's the first movie I saw in cinema after lockdown, and it was so worth it. The movie in itself probably doesn't count as comfort movie, simply cause I only watched it once, but the show definitely does

La Marche de l'empereur (2005). Great documentary about penguins, absolutely fascinating. Very soothing too, but also it's a documentary about wildlife so there is an appropriate and realistic leven of violence.

Wallace & Gromit: A Grand Day Out (1990). This movie made me fall in love with stopmotion, and I have spent hours watching it on repeat. And also, The Curse of the Were-Rabbit (2005), which I also absolutely loved and watched a thousand times. I think all of studio Aardman counts as comfort movies tbh, but those two have a special place in my heart.

Avengers (2012). I remember going to the cinema with my mum to watch it, and coming out of it with literal stars in my eyes. It was the first time I saw a comic book on a screen and it was amazing. This movie is the MCU movie that brings me the most joy, even now a decade later

Tagging @the-magpieprince, @gritkitty, @garnetrena, @dagss, @maeglinthebold, @tasyfa, cause I'm curious what your comfort movies are ❤️

#this was actually hard to do lmao #cause i dont often watch movies tbh #i tend to zone out a lot #so even movies ive watched i need a reminder that i did watch them #also i probably forgot movies that i love

[maiiyahh]

competitive swimming & blue lock

was thinking about how the blue lock philosophy is literally everything i've learned (and am still learning) during my years as a competitive swimmer and how the 'believe you're the best to become the best' motto is literally PREACHED in other sports, but have it show up in football and you're literally the devil. huh, what's up with that?

so i've seen blue lock gets hate (from what i've seen) from not having 'team dynamics' and shredding the 'value of friendship and camaraderie' but in reality a lot of 'team sports' like swimming & tennis, where ppl ALSO work together (relays, doubles matches), have the most toxic mindset possible when it comes to teamwork. like i was taught if i dove in too early during a relay (you can't dive in before the person in the water touches the wall) then it wasn't my fault, but the person IN THE WATER who had slowed down somewhat imperceptibly before touching the wall.

honestly, the lack of a team dynamic in blue lock makes it better?? to me, at least. blue lock to me is like... how free! should have been. now, free! fans leave me alone. i watched 3 episodes of that shit and ran away in fear due to inaccuracy. but in the short amount that i watched, the show felt really weird. i've been a competitive swimmer for a decade now, so trust me when i say i know what i'm talking about here. one of things that felt really off to me was the fact that everyone was so... okay with eachother. i've been on 4 swim teams in my life, and none of them were as happy as that itawobi club. sure, there's only 4 people, but there is 100% going to be conflict between them, especially since there's no coach?? like idk if they get one later on or smth but like,,, how u gonna get better if u got no one teaching you?? idk but that shit confusing man.

anyways back on topic. blue lock. i love blue lock. the fact that everyone gets along on the surface but in reality is trying to beat the other people is exactly the feeling i get during a competition or even just practice. it's real, not just a manga special effects thing that the author made up to look edgy. i just know that if blue lock was about like,, track and field or swimming or some shit it would not be getting compared to high school slice of life anime like haikyuu. no hate to haikyuu i love it, but blue lock is just... on another level. like the way that everything is executed feels so real and gives me that sense of competition that i only get from sport. like i KNOW that these characters feel the same as i do, and that's why it makes it fun.

#maii rants #team sports #competitive swimming #blue lock #team dynamics #anti free! #tw opinion #maii's thoughts #if you don't like this pls dni i don't like arguing on the internet #anyways stan muneyuki kaneshiro #if blue lock is the squid game of sports anime it can be the non-competitive swimming competitive swimming anime too #mildly anti haikyuu #you've been warned

[spaciebabie]

that post 100% sums up how i feel about springtrap's later designs like, you're telling me that the franchise's main overarching villain and antagonist, a sinister and menacing person who was genuinely terrifying (at least personally) with actions and a design to prove it (his purple era jsjs and ofc Springtrap), got reduced to THAT????

like this dude was a cold blooded murderer who built killer machines and after getting killed by his own creation, his corpse fused with it and was revived by sheer will. this mf who just refuses to fucking die turned into a weird looking burnt ass rat which at this point it's pathetic like bro was LIMPING, he's literally hanging by a thread and you want me to take him seriously?? lol

maybe this is a fitting end for him, an old rotting man who once was an ambitious and well respected man who used his talents for harm and got away with it for decades, now sits as a joke, a pathetic corpse who refuses to die due to his cowardness, completely powerless and not threatening, just a damn cockroach. serves him right

but yeah THE FOOT DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE???? LIKE WHAT WERE GHEY THINKING?? ANYTIME I SEE IT I JUST SEE REDRDRRDRRDDRRDD

yah y'see i wouldn't have minded it as much (although i would have been disappointed) if it felt like they were going for that lol. the whole, "goodbye pathetic lil loser bunnyman uwu" thing. like there's a good way ta write an end ta an evil extravagant character like him where he fizzles out pathetically and make it GOOD,,,,but i just feel like there was no forethought abt it,,,,like they TRIED ta make him menacing in the bossfight and ending!! they built his miserable ass up!!! ugh

it happened just really abruptly like as soon as he came back he was gone, which is just. really pathetic. and if they wrote it better i might have enjoyed that but as of now? with security breach having little to know story as it is? its pathetic in a really embarrassing way. its like they didn't know what the fuck ta do w/him and just slapped something tagether

like i get that for ppl who hate him its like a fistpump in the air ta be like, "haha! fuck u man!! die again!!" but,,,,,putting aside my obvious thirst for him,,,,,,its just a really hollow end for a character that has so much chutzpah narratively yk? is there a term for the opposite of fan service b/c thats what it felt like lol. hater service? LMAO

like hello? pizza sim was his perfect physical end???? what they were doing next w/him infecting ppl's minds was really interesting why did they stop that!!!!!!!!!

FUCK THAT FOOT. FUCK IT TA HELL I WANNA BEAT BURNTRAP OVER THE HEAD W/A TREE BRANCH IM SO SERIOUS AND REAL RN WHY DO THEY KEEP REDESIGNING HIM SO AWFUL YOU HIT GOLD W/SPRINGTRAP AND GLITCHTRAP ITS ENUFF!!!

#GOD #spacie splains #spacie gets heated abt an old rotting man not getting an end they think he deserves #he deserves ta suffer in the worst way imaginable. and you just let him get grabbed by a tentacle monster and call it a day. wow. #sorry im just mourning what could have been #(again) #i made a whole ranty post abt it when sb got released last yr #i was so pissed dawg #being a longtime fan and seeing this game........if the characters werent interesting enough for me ta want ta make content #i would not be making sb things AT ALL #the story sucks balls but the characters have potential at least #i hope they fix it #but i mean i dont think that anything they come up w/now will satisfy me :/ #they really hafta pull out the stops w/this dlc or im gonna b even more pissed #fr fr

[neuroticboyfriend]

ty for the “we don’t have to consider the dui ppl evil monsters forever.” This you can skip I think now if you don’t want a story of why your post is gonna change my life a little bit.

I have a owi from a boss getting drunk as hell with me and I very much went along with the evening for like idk stupid professional relations reasons I guess, and ended up in a ditch etc. I unfortunately received another dui after I was drinking at home in my backyard two years later sorta mid-meltdown, and after an exchange with an equally intoxicated neighbor was chased about 120 ft to my car which I drove to some neighbors (rural area) about 2 min away l, but literally got pulled over by the cops along that stretch as they kinda park-camp there.

My life was ruined. I was not well in jail for 90 days after the second one, as was denied anti-psychotics, sleep aids, and anti-depressants so stuck in a suicide suit and in solitary. I had worked for the state for a decade but no longer could, and I was stuck in the county that had no mental health services for me due to the limits of our CMH. I had to live with friends for two years of probation because I couldn’t drive or work without being able to drive. I did some wfh stuff during Covid (thank god wfh surge saved me tbh) but had to bike 10 miles each way or get a ride a couple times a week for drug tests, support meetings, classes etc for 2 years. I had to borrow money and pay ppl back years later for covering the costs of the drug tests and classes.

I had worked for the state for nearly a decade, graduated with a degree, had an apartment, boyfriend, the whole works: but I had no mental health access for a decade and had essential emergency services trying to toss meds at me, when I would ask to be hospitalized or finally was, and after about 7-8 years I was maladaptive as hell unable to get counseling or med management, drinking with bosses and melting down in my backyard.

I finally got mental health and other services: I have Tourette’s, autism, adhd, and ocd. And a nice helping of the cptsd but idk that one’s pretty managed. I have a bunch of broken teeth from clenching from stress and Tourette’s. The only help I got out of that county was Christian substance abuse services in classes that I had to do for probation for two years. I cannot imagine how different my life would be if I could have gotten the services the judge said I had complete access to.

I have never felt like anyone could be capable of understanding that I’m not a monster and I didn’t want to do anything bad. I understand very well why ppl are so aggressive against drunk driving as I’m in one of the worse states for it and we have some of the strongest laws for it. It’s a felony in Canada and I can’t go there anymore because of it. And it’s been idk 5 years now that I’ve never seen or heard a message like this and it is just so moving.

I’ve been holding myself back so much because I did a bad and I don’t feel like a deserve to like use social services or anything anymore like anything that could burden the state or community. I fell so far like possessions wise, asset wise, materially, professionally, in housing etc. that I need those services frankly. I don’t do things or try to interact with people, I’ve done like 5 years of shame vs regret exercises but it doesn’t matter I just don’t feel like I should get to be part of society and that no one wants me to be anymore. And I think if I saw things like this just once in awhile amongst the regular dui messaging it would be really great.

I do run a smart recovery meeting which is like science backed substance abuse program very much online nowadays but I want to do more but I’m still very in my head about it. I’m gonna try to think about this perspective from time to time. So thank you.

Anon I am telepathically giving the biggest hug ever, and if you dont want a hug then. I'm sending so much support and understanding your way. I'm so happy you found my post, especially since I've gotten a little bit of hell for it. Knowing it comforted just one person makes it worth it.

You're not a monster, and what the state did to you is not okay. It's inhumane, and you didn't deserve a single part of it. It's not even remotely fair that your right to health and safety was so grossly violated. And I'm glad you seem to be doing better than you were. I hope as time goes on, you find more of your place in this world.

I know things will never be the same, and I know how much stands in your way - even though I can't truly conceptualize it. But there will always be more people than you know who see see your humanity. Who want you in this world with us - not just tolerate it. And I think it's really wonderful you run the recovery program. You've probably changed a lot of lives, for the better. That's awesome!

And thank you for trusting your story with me. I've been struggling with some substance abuse lately, and I think getting this ask is gonna get me through another night of not. Fucking up. Sometimes people just need to feel connection, I think. So you changed my life a little bit, too.

#asks #anon #substance abuse #substance use #alcohol tw #drugs tw #abuse #neglect #prison #institutionalization #institutionalization tw #ableism #sanism #drunk driving #driving under the influence

[cheridraws]

hello i would like to know more about Patrick his story sounds interesting!

AHHHHH hello yes!!! I would love to talk about Patrick more!!!!!

So Patrick is an oc in this little story i've been developing over the last couple of years!! He's my main character (one of four) and is the most Fucked in my opinion, haha, so you know he's my favorite guy to talk about

Patrick is a character that has deeply fucked up in the past and spends sooooo much of his present trying to atone for those mistakes

So, beginning info:

broke as hell

was kicked out of his house at 18. this was mostly due to said family's struggle with poverty. this is important

has a twin bro (that i will get into later)

He spent some time in debt trouble with no help and was living on the run for a couple of years before he met this entity called Lasair (aka, a Spirit, which are basically the gods of this world). They bond, and it extends an olive branch to Patrick. Aka the guy basically desperate for connection and love. Lasair is an asshole who uses this to its advantage. I'm summing up a lot here, but in short, Patrick winds up helping Lasair with its plan to burn the world to the ground bc humanity sucks ass and we’re all terrible and deserve to be destroyed (but not actually!!!! The whole story is abt fighting this worldview). Eventually, after a lot of thinking and some convincing from some of their victims, he starts to have doubts,,, and oh well shit he’s got a brother doesn’t he. There might be a few ppl worth saving,,, oh no…. So he realizes that he needs to stop this right now actually (again, this is summed up, but that whole process takes a good few years of doubt in order to kick in. bestie's been thoroughly indoctrinated into lasair's thing for a while)

Patrick runs away, and vows to destroy Lasair's whole operation. Unfortunately, he's back on the run and is being chased down by some of Lasair's assets. Back to square one, basically.

BUT, he does have one hope!!! His twin, Philemon (Phil, who I often misspell as Phile, lol), who he has been estranged from for about a decade now, is still kicking, so Patrick runs over to him for help because who else is he supposed to ask. From here, the two of them begin to travel together (Phil, unwillingly at first) and try to find a way to defeat Lasair, later recruiting two more friends!! (who i'm still developing jskfjlj)

His character is sooo fun for me to talk about, mostly because he kinda fits most archetypes of characters i adore haha. Deeply fucked little guy who's learning how to love again <3 and is having to unlearn a loooooooot of stuff, holy shit

Speaking of which: he's got some real bad martyr issues, and believes that his actions during that decade he spent with Lasair define him; he thinks he is irredeemable. In life, anyways. His whole plan is to kill off or seal away Lasair in some big, grand, self-sacrificing act so he can a, destroy the monster he feels he created and b, somewhat redeem himself in death. Like,, he believes that this is the only thing that can redeem him to both his loved ones and family, so he's dead set on this ending despite his loved one's objections. Of course, over the course of traveling with Phil and the later members of their group, he sort-of begins to see the beauty in living, which becomes a nice contrast to Lasair's view of the world!! His whole character arc ends with him realizing that he wants to live and it makes me sob

anyways here's a few things I don't know how to work into this coherently but want to mention anyways:

he literally befriends the spirit of death. they're besties bc he nearly dies a lot. also death might kinda be into him,, bc apparently he’s a magnet for weird godlike creature’s attraction

is my ace icon <3

fucked a literal fire. like it was lasair but,, that spirit's made of fire my guy…. how are you doing….

O yeah,,,, him and Las were kind of in a relationship. I say kind of bc it didn’t have a label but like. Yeah. And it wasn’t good

actually yeah ask me abt lasair its design makes me unwell /posi so do all the other spirits

he decided the best course of action into getting phil to help him was a, break into his apartment, b, accidentally terrorize him with the people trying to hunt him down, and c, kidnap?? him??? (but only for like a minute)

those assets are called the Illusionist and the Mirror btw and i like them too

Actually Pls somebody help Phil all he wanted was to escape his hometown and become a big shot engineer he did not want to be roped into whatever the hell this is

anyways. I am completely unwell for him and think about him way too much,,, i really need to work on developing it more than i have,,, especially since i've got a whooollee lot of worldbuilding to do hehe. Thanks for asking about him though!!!! I hope this was coherent, haha, i've been dying to talk abt this fella for ages

(and feel free to ask me more i could write essays abt him)

#ask me anything #my rambles #oc stuff #EXPLODES #he means everything to me #as do most of my ocs #and i didn't even get into the stuff about spirits.... aobut the worldbuilding.... #THE SONGBIRD????? LASIAR'S DESIGN?????? #phile's own shit he's got going on and how he literally caused all of this too bc he released lasiar to begin with... #patrick and philes struggles bc the last time they ever spoke to each other was a huge fight... they both felt abandoned... #the fucking daddy issues #how they were both raised in poverty and how that affected them throughout the entire rest of the story???!!!??? #scREAmS #i get so nervous talking abt my own ideas haha... i hope this is coherent

[selfundiagnosed]

When i was 10 i would get really fucking overstimulated with how dry my hands got in the winter and the feeling of specifically the side of my palm on paper and i hated it if i washed my hands in the bathroom and immediately went to write with a pencil and paper it would make me scream and cry and throw up. it was an incredibly overwhelming and disturbing feeling to feel my hands on paper at this age. My mental illness also took full affect at this age & kind of made me fucking insane for the first time so it might of had something to do with it. It was literal torture like it made me want to scratch my skin off and scream i cannot emphasize how irritable & overstimulating this sensation was. A decade later I still wince when im about to use a pencil and paper. very quickly i was able to alleviate this problem by wearing fingerless gloves to school which worked with me i thought i was emo the year prior so it was pretty cool to have black and grey striped fingerless gloves in class. A lot of the things i did drew attention to me and my peers asked me about it and never seemed to understand whatever answers i gave them and chalked it up to me being weird for attention . I still to this day have no idea why someone wearing fingerless gloves to school would make you think theyre seeking attention but OK. it was a rural small town in iowa so idk ppl stuck out like sore thumbs for a number of reasons (reasons you’d find listed out on a westboro baptist church sign🤦🏻). I just remember people thought i was being weird to be weird. To this day i still dont know why that was a big problem for me but eventually i grew out of it. Although its kinda always been one thing or another growing up that i had weird gripes with. i had a lot of issues i was was too focused inwards on myself to care about the people around me, especially because i had little to no connection with the people from that town. i wasnt even supposed to be there 🙄