#anyways have this brain food

[abyssal-glory]

vector portrait for digital imaging class of RGB!! hey go read The Property of Hate if you haven’t already btw it’s an amazing comic by @modmad that i’ve been hotglued to since my junior year of high school.

big thank you to mod for giving their permission/blessing to wrestle with this horrible tv bastard in adobe illustrator for the express purpose of shilling him and this comic to my unsuspecting class <3

(edit: god okay pls click for fullscreen. hogy shit)

#tpoh #the property of hate #rgb #modmad #there’s a lot more i was planning to do w this but bleeeegggggjhhhh #i don’t own a laptop so i have to do all my hw for this class in the library + i live off-campus + i had office hours that day #7 hours in the library fighting with adobe illustrator on 5 hours of sleep and no food in my body said No You’re Done Now Actually #i have another project coming up that uses this one in it so i’m gonna get to make a diptych of this motherfucker next >:3 #tpoh’s been eating my brain again as of late holy hell the hyperfixation clobbered me #what the fuck is my art tag. do i even have an art tag #my art #nox art #there. perfectly serviceable >:p #btw the working file name for this was actually horribletvbastard.ai so . now you know that i guess #yes the halo effect is intentional. no i don’t no how to use adobe illustrate. further questions may be taken outside #anyway THANKS MOD I LOVE YOUR BOY AND YOUR COMIC AND YOUR ART <33333

[lovesickeros]

☆ words better left unsaid

{☆} characters zhongli {☆} notes cult au, yandere, drabble, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings yandere {☆} word count 0.4k

He sits as still as a marble statue, a moment in time – of power, of the singing of metal against metal that fills his ears, of the smell of blood so heavy he can still vividly remember it, even now – he had long since left behind, carved into stone.

You, on the contrary, are not so still. Your hands caress his body like you are a painter creating stroke after stroke with your brush – up the curve of his horns, mindful of the sharp point, down to the scales of his cheeks and the sharp, jagged edges of his teeth that barely fit in a jaw not made for them.

And he let's you – oh how he lets you. He does not think there is anything in the world he could deny you.

He dares not breathe, fearing it will shatter this moment in such a way that he will never get it back. He is not meant to be a living being, in this moment – he is no Archon, nor even the mortal Zhongli. He is the canvas of which you paint your masterpiece with wandering hands that leave goosebumps on his skin.

And what a feeling it is. Euphoria, he thinks, is an apt description – yet at the same time nothing can truly put a word to the feeling of the Creators gaze falling upon him and him alone, to know your touch and to hear your voice.

His body cramps and aches at holding the position for so long, but it is so easy to ignore, so easily drowned out by the waves of adoration that swells in his chest. It is so very easy to ignore the way his body protests when your hands cup his face, and he feels like he must be the luckiest man in the world.

It is so very easy to forget everything when you are so close he can feel your breath against his lips – so easy to forget that he should stay still when he coils his tail around your waist, his arms encircling your back – mindful of his claws.

There is no word to describe the feeling of your lips, the warmth and softness with which you look at him in the moments before your eyes close, the feeling of your body and his entwined like you were never meant to be apart. He does not even try to put it into words – his actions will do it instead.

And perhaps you will not recognize the possessiveness with which he holds you, but that's alright.

He has all the time in the world.

And so will you.

#sagau #genshin sagau #self aware genshin #genshin impact sagau #self aware genshin impact #fic tag #zhongli #sagau zhongli #yandere zhongli #the yan part is kinda lowkey but. yknow :) #anyway *leaves this after not posting for like a month or writing for like 2 months and doesnt elaborate* #i want to chew on zl like a chew toy yknow. yknow...... #also obligatory transfem lesbian zl mention bc thats my wife :) #one of these days ill actually write it sob #also dont like. expect long fics v often bc i dont have the brain capacity for those like. ever!!! #unless its tsaritsa then suddenly im writing a novel #stares at my drafts #n e way #this is for the dragon zl enjoyers come get ur food or smth

[grissomesque]

The thing about "Worst Case Scenario" is that Seska rewriting a program to torture and ultimately murder Tuvok for his "betrayal" of the Maquis suggests that she was loyal to the Maquis, and not only because of her feelings for Chakotay. She would've had to booby trap the program before "State of Flux," because she's under intense scrutiny then and there's not really enough time anyway. Which suggests to me that she was fueled by real rage: if Tuvok had reopened the program, and been killed by it, how could she have possibly gotten away with it? She wasn't planning to leave at that point, and (!) she specifically depicts herself as Bajoran, not, in some big gotcha moment, as Cardassian:

When Seska returns in this episode [...] the holographic Seska also slightly differs, in appearance, from how the actual Seska ever looked. "We […] see Seska in an incarnation we had never really seen her in before," Martha Hackett commented. "They changed everything – her hair and costume – because it's her creation in the hologram." (Star Trek Monthly issue 34, p. 40)

(Emphasis mine)

This, coupled with her big speech in "State of Flux," makes me wonder whether she would've ever revealed herself as Cardassian, if she hadn't been caught. She seems still to believe in the superiority of Cardassia ("If this had been a Cardassian ship, we would be home now!"), yet follows up with,

"I did it for you. I did it for this crew. We are alone here, at the mercy of any number of hostile aliens, because of the incomprehensible decision of a Federation captain. A Federation captain who destroyed our only chance to get home. Federation rules. Federation nobility. Federation compassion? Do you understand? [...] We must begin to forge alliances. To survive, we must have powerful friends."

We are alone. We must have powerful friends. I don't know how this has never occurred to me, but textually speaking, with the notable exception of Incomprehensible Federation Captain Janeway, Seska seems deeply invested in the community she is ultimately forced to leave. It's, actually, a kind of reverse Ro Laren situation. What a twist.

#this ramble brought to you by listening to the ep twice in the throes of food poisoning #it's true i don't spend a lot time with seska meta #but still i can't believe i've never thought of this #though i'm sure others have who are paying better attention #i sometimes think this is what happens when you watch the show as a kid and forget to later turn your adult brain on #ANYWAY #seska #star trek voyager #meta

[gaycrittercentral]

Ayyyyyy guess who missed Max’s birthday lmaoooo ^^; and after I missed the first one too godDAMNIT

Welp anyway I thought it’d be reeeeal funny if they both just forgot it was happening the same way lmaoooo

#Max is like ‘eh who cares I can just pretend it’s today instead and still get free food and stuff!’ #meanwhile Sam is like horrified that A) he could forget something so important and B) that there’s that many holes in his brain #welp hate to say it big guy but same here it happens 🙃 brain holes be like that #anyway happy birthday ya little two birthday having weirdo!! #sam and max #sam and max freelance police #freelance husbands #my art

[momomallowart]

Imagine if you will... Ray with a tongue piercing ʕ ꈍᴥꈍʔ 💭

A more "messy" version under the cut bc I wanted to practice tears and stuff.. 👀

#Ok I may have put way more effort into this than I should've but I literally couodnt stop thinking about this #I used this as an excuse to practice rendering so technically its productive (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠) #I really enjoy drawing tears and idk what that says about me as a person #I just love the idea that hes just talkin away and suddenly you see a little glint in his mouth and oh my god is that what i think it is? #and hes such a bottom that he would just let you open and pkay with his mouth to see for yourself #he's just my lil sopping wet meow meow I can't help but put him thru situations #I think often about his different sides clashing and being very gap moe #like Ray with a tongue piercing? please someone hold me back bc I'm going AT HIM #I want EVERY version of this man I cannot even explain how deeply the brain rot goes #the day I stop thinking about Saeran Choi is the day I drop dead actually #I wont fill the tags with any more salacious comments about how sl\/tty this man is but just know the thoughts are plentiful #anyways enjoy the food #more art to come as I'm getting back into my artistic groove lately #my art #mystic messenger #mysme #saeran choi #mysme saeran #mysme ray #mystic messenger unknown #unknown mysme #ray mystic messenger #mystic messenger fanart #mystic messenger mc #mysme mc

[sunnibits]

loving reminder as someone who struggles with food: you are allowed to add joy to your food. you are allowed to add a little joy even if it’s a tiny thing, something silly or something weird. you are allowed to do it whenever you want, as many times as you want. anything that makes food easier and more enjoyable for you is worth it!! it’s your food, you can decide what to do with it!! you can add rainbow sprinkles to your ice cream. you can cut your food into little heart shapes. you can pack your snacks into cute little bento boxes. it is not pointless or childish, it is an effective and active coping tool that you are allowed to use.

give yourself a little joy. the little things add up.

#even if it’s just a teeny tiny thing it’s sooo helpful to get just a little bit of excitement out of ur meal!! #you are allowed to do it!! if it’s ’pointless’ then what’s the point in denying yourself from it?? #I’m being so serious like. put stickers on your air fryer. put your meals into cute containers even if you don’t need them. #cut your food up into little cute pieces if you have the spoons for it. buy yourself Dino nuggies. #try to have at least one thing to look forward to in every meal even if it’s just a little piece of candy #just!! change things up!! be self indulgent!!! you are worth it and anything that helps you be healthy is worth it!!! #there are no rules!!!! you are allowed to be kind to yourself!! #anyways. don’t mind my rambling. I’m just trying to romanticize my own struggles rn #and it’s genuinely been very interesting to learn what helps and how my brain works!!! #idk I just think about it a lot. it means a lot to me rn. #also before anyone tells me I piss on the poor. obviously my experiences are not universal and will not apply to everyone #things that work for me might not work for you and that’s ok!! I wish you luck I love u!!! #tw ed #just a teensy implication #gem don’t look #arfid

[silverskye13]

Man why is writing so hard today? I literally sat down at my computer and typed for a solid hour and a half and it was utter garbage. But the more I looked at it the less I could figure out how to fix it! So I pulled up PS and decided to draw instead but every image just flew out of my head I couldn't do it and really I should be writing and man my eyes hurt. My whole face hurts kinda, actually, but my eyes really hurt and it's so hard to focus and it shouldn't be this hard and-- Jesus Christ it's 1am and I only got 3 hours of sleep last night.

#spazzcat barks #delete later #one of the silliest things about being Too Tired is your brain gets so confused you forget youre tired #and just end up being confused about why youre confused instead #why is life so hard why are my emotions eratic why do i feel like i deeply Need something that isnt food or water why do i long for #companionship but find talking deeply bothersome like im pulling from a dry well why do my eyes teeth face hurt why is moving hard why is #the very idea of doing literally anything so exhausting is this depression am i depressed have i lost joy in life what if my friends hate me #what if im worthless what if ive suddenly lost the ability to live a full and healthy life why are me emotions so eratic right now why-- #-- oh shit i need sleep #huh #how did i manage to forget that? #anyway im going to bed now lol #sometimes the Big Existential Questions have an easy answer and that easy answer is bedtime

[lighthouseas]

as a resident bagel lover and therefore bagel expert, here is how the party eats their bagels. i'm right.

mike: toasted plain bagel with plain cream cheese. he likes what he likes even if it's basic. probably doesn't eat bagels that often but when he does he savors them.

lucas: toasted everything bagel with plain cream cheese. can be persuaded to have chive and onion cream cheese instead on occasion. max wipes the seeds off of his face because they get EVERYWHERE (i eat everything bagels a lot. i promise this is true)

dustin: okay so he's very very meticulous about spreading cream cheese. but the kicker is. he does not actually eat cream cheese on his bagels. he prefers them toasted with butter, which gets him some Looks but it's what he likes and he's happy with it. however, whenever the party (mainly max) is having issues spreading cream cheese, he is always happy to help and proportions the cream cheese EXACTLY RIGHT every time (he's so me)

max: bagel sandwiches all the way!!! egg and cheese on a bagel. sausage egg and cheese on a bagel. tomatoes and veggies and cream cheese on a bagel etc etc. do not make that girl eat open face bagels she WILL kill you

will: LOX EVERYTHING BAGELS (he's so me) with everything on them are his absolute favorite, but since he doesn't always have everything to make them in the house, he's fine w a toasted everything bagel with plain cream cheese and lox :) or just cream cheese. will is the Resident Bagel Enthusiast i think because he is just like me fr

el: untoasted bagels all the way for her (or VERY lightly toasted. but that's pushing it) with strawberry cream cheese. plain or sesame do just fine for this, but she also does like to indulge in the occasional cinnamon raisin bagel + strawberry cream cheese. she is the Resident Strawberry Cream Cheese Enthusiast. she loves it a lot

#now i want an open face bagel and lox #yes i have jewish heritage btw my grandpa was jewish #so i grew up eating a lot of jewish food #bagels and lox is. probably my favorite #also i adore the concept of will being jewish and loving bagels and lox #is this me projecting? probably. but we are the same person actually so no it isn't 🙄 /j #also shoutout to noah for kickstarting this idea in my brain #even though he DOESN'T LIKE CREAM CHEESE 🫵🫵🫵🫵 #it's ok noah i still love u . despite your distastes for the cheese of the cream. #ok anyway #stranger things #mike wheeler #lucas sinclair #dustin henderson #will byers #el hopper #max mayfield #byler #< they eat bagels together ! #st.txt

[bamsara]

Yo! I’m doing a little powerpoint night thing with my friends abt self ship in the fnaf fandom, and I just wanted to ask: why did you start Solar Lunacy? What drew you to Sub/Moon?

I have daddy issues

#/j #AHHEHDHHDFHJAKDH im sor #look the funky jesters just activate the neurons in my brain i love silly funky nonhuman bitches #past followers who have seen my othet fandoms know this #the fact that theyre caretakers is also cool like!! hey yeah maybe i would also like a hug and someone make food for me that sounds wicked #anyway daddy issues gang rise up

[frenchiepal]

10.8.2022 ☀️ there's a construction site right in front of my flat so i fled to a local coffee shop to get breakfast and write down the results of the survey. two more pages to go and i'm done with the paper!

#will i finish this paper #or will this paper finish me #studyblr #langblr #aesthetic #photo #study aesthetic #study inspiration #studying english literature #café aesthetic #study motivation #i still have three weeks until the deadline #but my brain goes hnng ur lazy if i don't work every day #anyway #studying linguistics #studyspo #academia #tw food

[sleepyblr-heart]

カ・カ・カ (ka-ka-ka) 乾杯したいじゃない？(Don't you wanna kanpai?) 大宴会にしたいじゃん、ね！(Wanna have a big party, right?) 乾杯したいじゃない？(Don't you wanna raise a glass?) 夕方から朝方まで！(From night until the morning!) 発散したいじゃない？(Don't you wanna let loose?) ちゃらんぽらんでgood! (Being happy-go-lucky is good!) 軽快なミュージック鳴らすのはあなた (The one who'll make the music sing is you!)

plus a version with the color palette from the videeo that i dont like very muchh

#heart art! #adventure forward #af2 #signol #arrolin #ploque #i have listened to. too much kanpai funk. over the past like. few weeks. #and i have been thinkin about these three a lil bit. so you know. mash it together like im a kid who doesnt wanna eat their food. #bam. sillies #in my beutiful mind they are all besties forevsies. bc its what they Deserve. ok> #anyways i need to draw ploque more i think. they are a Silly Billy. you know #arrolin too. they are also silly #unfortunatly tho i can only have like a max of 3 guys in my brain at once #and they have not been able to have a turn on the rollar coaster that is my brain just yet #anyways. bye

[dailykugisaki]

Day 189 | id in alt

She does not want to see your grilled chicken audaciously seasoned with JUST grated ginger.

#dailykugisaki #jjk #kugisaki nobara #fushiguro megumi #its part of her daily routine. she gets up. looks pretty and then Fushiguro has to show her the most disgusting thing he made himself #it ALWAYS includes ginger and its disgusting to her #she hates his skinny ass she hates him so bad stop showing her your white boy food shes tired #anyway i know for a fact Kugisaki stole that shirt from maki who got it for absolutely no reason but just to have it #i feel like impulse just shits itself sometimes with any sorcerer #Kugisaki makes wonderful amazing food. only for herself. absolutely nobody else #i lied. its not Maki's shirt she got it randomly bc she thought it was funny to her blood dehydrated brain

[itsahotminuteinbetween]

this is mostly in jest but heads up i might not post official art besides small doodles for a while because my drafts ran out and these past two weeks have genuinely been destroying my mental health so I don't have the capacity to do anything seriously art-related right now

#personal #random #blog stuff #might join a magma but i think that might be it #i have one small witch eclipse doodle but after that i'm gonna have to restock #and i unfortunately can't cuz my brain went kaput after a 17-page essay and too much stress on top of fasting #i'm a little under the weather as a result cuz my immune system took a hit from lack of sleep and sudden decrease of food #and also the idiots i'm forced to interact with have been stressing me out so #that combined just kinda ruined my ability to draw #i have a break coming up soon so i should be able to come up with something by then but #if i don't here's why #that's why i opened up art requests for whoever wants to do that #cuz i don't really have the ability to come up with stuff rn #i'll still be on tumblr cuz i like it here but #no non-doodle art this week and prob none next week too #so uh yea sorry bout that #anyways #will prob delete this later #(also sue and salty i absolutely love your aus they are very dear to me)

[suffercerebral]

me having gone to bed at 6 am every day for the past week and generally spiraling mentally while rotting in bed waking up this morning: a 4 mile hike in the heat is a really good idea right now, and while we're at it let's start like 3 art projects

#maybe my mom was onto something all these years telling me i'm bipolar #no i don't think i am but i do technically have a bpd diagnosis so like. mood swings up the fucking wazoo are not new #but i am not one to be like 'exercise will fix me' #i've also just come to terms recently with the fact that i didn't kill myself already so might as well start thinking of the long term #so not being in constant pain when im older is something im actually thinking of now #so like. gotta move more which i was doing during this semester! walking like 3 miles a day which didn't help brain but #it's gotta be good for you anyway even if i don't get the endorphins everyone says you get when working out #that's neverrrr been me bc also chronic illness w exercise intolerance #so it's like. wah i have a desire to move my body more and know it's beneficial #but chronic illness + mental illness + trying not to think about exercise in terms of weight loss bc i'm trying not to make that the goal #although certainly wouldn't be mad if that was the result but if i prioritize it over just overall health it's gonna make me obsessive #i'm saying a lot of words. i have no one to really talk to so i once again come to tumblr as a public diary #ANYWAY. trying to find balance with wanting to exercise for overall well-being but dealing with other factors like chronic illness #which has actually been under the most control it's been in years i barely even consider myself (physicslly) disabled these days #and also balancing the fact that while my disordered eating has never recovered and i still have extremely bad relationship with myself #im in a relatively better place with that. i'm not starving myself and im not going through binge/purge cycles #but my relationship with food and eating is still very much unhealthy #and i don't think that will ever really change bc it's so ingrained in the everything about me #i don't really know what i'm talking ahout anymore or what prompted this #i can't simply just say 'i'm gonna go for a hike today' and be normal about. always gotta psycho analyze myself #im in a very weird stage in my life where i feel like i have control over nothing and i barely even exist in my own body #im just like a cacophony of voices trapped inside a meat suit but im not in the drivers seat im stuffed in the trunk and tied up #and the guy driving is an old blind mind who should have lost his license his ass is NOT road safe! #so it's like i have all these ideas and desires and feelings and ahh!! but hey i'm locked up here let me out please #and also the state of the world. so bleak and hopeless and paralyzing that i've just kind of shut my feelings off so i'm rapidly switching #between numbness and overwhelming agony #what the fuck am i talking about

[svtskneecaps]

ok folks this lives and dies between us but i swear to god with every passing moment and every new fact i learn i am more and more convinced that had i spoken portuguese at age 11 when i got into minecraft youtube the first time i would BEYOND A SHADOW OF A DOUBT have had a tiny little baby 11 year old celebrity crush on pactw

#qsmp #pactw #qsmp pac #cute? check. funny? check. smart? check. #did a roleplay series; does funny minigames; MAKES funny minigames #like shit dude if i hadn't worked extremely hard to draw extremely thick lines separating myself mentally from content creators i might now #but i've beat myself over the head with the 'being parasocial only ends up with your favs going to jail' stick #i'm cured. no more unnecessary mental turmoil for me #anyway this is secret shhhhh #shut up vic #block game brainrot #like i don't know how he did during the legendary rp serieses he did back then but holy MOTHER OF PEARL he's an amazing rp'er now #this is not a controversial statement and if you think it is meet me behind the chili's and prepare to forfeit your teeth #question; in brazil what restaurant/food joint/location is the designated brawl zone #like usa tends to be waffle house or chili's or denny's or like. a cracker barrel if you're feeling wild #if you're a brazilian inviting somebody to fight you irl as a meme what do you tell them #(if you are not brazilian but read these tags and want to answer with your unique location go for it i love learning) #long tags #i should be asleep tbh but my brain is like 'heeheehee 2012 never left us <3' #gnight friends like this post if you too would have had a celebrity crush on pactw at age 11 or would theoretically have one at age Now lmao

[sigskk]

happy holidays :)

[ID: A reddish monochrome drawing of Sigma and Chuuya from Bungou Stray Dogs. They are standing side-by-side and looking into the camera.

Sigma is on the left and is noticeably taller than Chuuya. He's wearing a reindeer headband and is dressed in a light turtleneck sweater and a thick overcoat.

Chuuya is on the right and is wearing his hat with a holly leaf and berry decoration on it. He's dressed in his standard button-up and trench coat.

The background is a muted, dark red with lighter snowflakes drifting down. End ID.]

#[ my art ] #so chuusig brained you must understand #i tried to make their height different accurate but :') getting them both comfortably in the frame #it's a few cm proportionally more than this #anyways oh my god #sigma's first winter after joining the ADA and getting dragged around by his boyfriend(s) #chuuya driving him around on his motorcycle to see the lights #are malls popular places to go sight seeing? the malls near me don't decorate a lot :( but i know it gets wild in the big cities #not that this is relevant but chuuya helping putting on his headband after he takes off his helmet #and sigma still isn't familiar w yokohama despite having lived above it for years and in it for a few months #so it's just chuuya leading him around by the hand #'oh do you want to get something here? [food court]' 'alright. but i don't really know what i'd like...' #'... that's fine. try this. I think you'd like it.' #(spoiler: he probably does) #how much do you think chuuya's income is #... i mean he'd want to spoil sigma regardless but like. #'hey. no looking at the price tag. if you like it we're getting it.' #i'm so ill about them #bsd #bungo stray dogs #sigma #chuuya #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #sigma bsd #chuuya fanart #sigma fanart #bsd fanart #sigchuu #chuusig