#big ol' rant here lol

[amiizuki]

it will be forever funny to me how the flashback portraits of Wittebrothers made Caleb seem like he's had packing peanuts for a brain

(this post ended up becoming quite lengthy, and so did the tags somehow, because I kinda devolved into a rant closer to the end of writing this whole thing, so bear with me here)

so we know that Philip and Caleb became orphans when both of them were still kids. after that, they ended up in Gravesfield and, to fit in with everyone else who lived there, picked up witch hunting and started thinking that witches are pure evil. Caleb knew perfectly well that he's the only family Philip's had left and that he even may be his his only friend, since, judging by the portraits, they've only ever hung out with each other and we don't know if those two ever made any other actual friends.

until one day, during a witch hunt he and Philip were both a part in (something Caleb seemed happy to do, judging by his smirk there), he met a witch – Evelyn – someone he's been taught to hate and want dead by the townsfolk. someone who, again, in his mind, should be evil.

but he just suddenly does a 180 and goes "damn, you can make fire with your hands, you're actually pretty cool"

and then a few days (?) of talking to her later, he's running off to live with her in the Demon Realm, while simultaneously not giving a single fuck about the brother he's abandoning.

(he even runs off with a smile, with a literal :D face, I fucking can't lmao)

Philip ends up seeing Caleb get dragged off through a weird portal and later follows along, thinking something like "no, my brother wouldn't just up and abandon me without saying anything. he probably got captured by that witch we saw together that one time! she probably used some demon magic to bewitch Caleb and took him through that portal to kill him or worse! I gotta go save him!". and, after spending god knows how long in that realm, searching endlessly for his missing older brother, he eventually finds him. but he also finds that Caleb is not only perfectly okay and not hurt in the slightest, he's also peacefully walking together with the same witch who "captured" him, even holding hands with her.

and when enraged Philip tries to attack Evelyn, to protect Caleb from the witch who took him from his home, from his brother, still thinking that Caleb's under her control, Caleb just... gives him a hug and goes on to introduce the witch as his new wife to him (I'm assuming that portrait is the same day as the other three, if not the same scene), also adding on top of that that they're having a child. all as if nothing happened. treating the whole thing like everything's perfectly okay and just another normal day, fully ignoring the fact that he threw his brother away with no care or thought, leaving him completely alone, a full orphan, now with zero actual family left (in TTT, during their backstory, it's said that "Caleb did his best to take care of his younger brother", meaning that either they never got adopted in Gravesfield, or whoever adopted them didn't give a shit about the two, so they still mostly had to fend for themselves), all to go smash some random 5 out of 10 witchussy he talked to, like, 3 times. no fucking wonder Philip killed him!

(btw, jokes aside, it didn't seem like he intended to kill Caleb, because in that portrait where he's ready to kill with a knife in his hand, he's facing forward, while Caleb is actually to his left. so it just looks to me like Philip was gonna try to kill Evelyn again, and Caleb either jumped in front of her to protect her and got accidentally stabbed or he attacked Philip back, to, again, protect Evelyn, and Philip ended up winning that fight. but that's just my theory)

my brother in literal christ and literal titan – why in the FUCK are you just hugging it out with a smile on your face??? you ran off while giving absolutely no warning to anyone, especially your younger brother! why do you think he's here and actively trying to attack you and your new wife? you're not even trying to address the fact that you left him! at least when Luz ran off to a different realm without warning, she had a "I'm still at the camp" cover, so Camila wouldn't worry that much about where her daughter is, and even then she still felt bad for leaving her mother and planned to go back home once summer was over. this chucklefuck, on the other hand, just permanently portaled away to the Boiling Isles, knocked up a witch and fully settled down there, walking around with a big ol' smile and no care in the world. "Philip who? never heard of him"

the only thing that would sorta make this situation seem better (as in, not make Caleb seem like an overly naive ignorant brick), in my opinion, is if they added one more portrait – after the one where he meets the witch, but before the one where he leaves. in that portrait, Caleb would look like he's trying his best to convince Philip that witches aren't actually evil, and perhaps even try to get him to go live with them in the Demon Realm, all the while Philip's looking at him with either disagreement/disappointment/disgust or just rolling his eyes and full on ignoring him, while sharpening his witch hunt tools or something. then it would look like Caleb at least tried to make his brother change his mind, like he tried to offer him a chance to go with them. but no. with the way the portraits look in the final version it just seems like Caleb was fully on-board with killing witches since he was young, even pulling his younger brother along to think the same way, Philip also thought that Caleb was perfectly fine with killing witches, but once he actually meets a real witch (assuming they've never met one before) he instantly pulls an uno reverse card and just runs off with her, without so much as telling his brother beforehand.

I'm not trying to say that "Belos should've been redeemed, because he's the victim here and Caleb is bad and it's all his fault". he still murdered his brother and went on to manipulate everyone on Boiling Isles for centuries, with his end goal being the death of all witches, while simultaneously being stuck in the loop of "denial" and "bargaining" stages of grief – repeatedly trying and failing to recreate a perfect copy of Caleb, but also killing each one that came out wrong or went against him. Belos not being redeemed in the end was the right choice (ignoring the "Belos was always le bad" from King's dad), I agree with that. frankly, if he actually got redeemed in the end, I'd probably be seething for the next 3 to 5 years, like how I did after the Diamonds' "redemptions" in SU (yes I'm still pissed about that lol). I'm just saying that, from what was shown to us, Caleb didn't seem like that good of a person either, not as bad as Belos ended up being, but still not that great. and, once again, seemingly had a raisin for a brain.

(off topic, but during Masha's retelling of Wittebane's backstory, their "sounds like big bro got a hot witch girlfriend and little bro got upset" line was so fucking cringe, it gave me a fever for 3 days the first time I watched the episode)

k, rant over, I dunno what else to add

TL;DR: I think Caleb was dumb as a brick, because, from what was shown to us in their backstory, he seemed to have run off to Demon Realm and abandon Philip without telling him anything beforehand. when Philip came to BI to look for his brother, who he assumed was under control of the witch who "took" him, since he thought his last living family member wouldn't just abandon him, and when he eventually found him, and it turned out he wasn't in any danger at all, Caleb just brushed the whole "I left you for witchussy" thing under the rug and pretended everything was and is perfectly fine, even though it clearly isn't. rip bozo

#toh critical #toh criticism #big ol' rant here lol #ever since we saw those portraits I've always thought it was kinda weird how Caleb just ran off with no warning #I thought it'd be adressed in the 3rd season at some point #like maybe there'd be a scene of Belos and Hunter talking #and Belos starts getting angry and going on a rant #“you're ALWAYS leaving me Caleb! and for what? for a witch you've just met?!” or something like that #and after Belos started hallucinating Caleb's ghost I instead thought there'd be a scene of him talking directly to it instead of Hunter #but nah it all just kinda got thrown away #and Belos turned into “always been le bad” kaiju #meanwhile Hunter is just 404 not found #lol #lmao even #rant #♤mizu.txt

[blaithnne]

ok i forgot that goldie isnt canonically 5'1 on a good day so i have to restructure this ask

1) thoughts on short goldie

2) is heron short also

3) (contingent on answers 1 and 2) thoughts on scrooge and beakley both falling for tiny evil women

1) & 2)

I think the toxic yuri polycule height chart is something like this—!

They all wear heels so it’s not exact (also I whipped this up in like 5 minutes lol)

Huifen is tall, she’s a black heron after all, and though they’re not the tallest birds ever they’re still pretty long! But she looks short standing next to Beakley, because everyone does (also I undersized her a little bit in my first human drawing by accident, whoops). Goldie is a short queen LMAO, she’s not minuscule, only slightly shorter than the average person, but she looks tiny next to these two (she might be slightly shorter than I drew her here, idk, I struggled to scale her LOL). Scrooge, for the record, is around the same height as Goldie!

In terms of their builds btw, Beakley is, obviously, very muscular! Though she might seem like a tank, she’s actually very soft — big ol squishy teddy bear! Heron on the other hand is a gangly mf, long, skinny, and sharp. Goldie is sort of in between them, an hourglass build like Huifen, but with more muscle on her (not half as much as Beakley, though).

3)

Heron might not be tiny but Beakley treats her like she is, picks her up like a feral cat when she’s being too much 😌 Scrooge and Goldie only have a very slight height difference, but I think he’s very smug about it lol

Also, my funniest headcanon ever is that Beakley has a thing for bad girls, and she HATES IT. She’s so embarrassed about it and fully intends to take it to her grave. This also leads to her hating the aforementioned bad girls even more, bc she’s so frustrated with herself for liking the in the first place. So Beakley can spend 24 hours a day ranting about how much she hates someone, and be blushing the entire time. All this to say, Beakley might not technically have a leg to stand on when it comes to criticising Scrooge’s relationship, but that doesn’t stop her.

I think they’re both massive hypocrites about it, bc they wanna protect eachother despite the other really not needing the help. They’re also endlessly frustrated with eachother’s toxic Yuri partners. Beakley to a much bigger degree because she definitely has a thing for Goldie, which only makes her hate her even more. Scrooge is more annoyed by Beakley and Heron than anything else bc he just does not understand what the hell is going on there, but he’ll also occasionally be all,

In conclusion, Beakley and Scrooge being a disaster sibling duo is my favourite thing ever. Scrooge is practically immortal, nothing can take him down. Beakley is a walking tank, she could walk off a bullet. They looked at eachother and went “that idiot needs me to protect them from their own love life” and they were kind of right??

#TYSM FOR THE ASK #I LOVE TALKING ABOUT THEM #I’m so glad more ppl are appreciative of this area of the show/these characters now #especially beakley #love of my life #ask #ducktales #ducktales human au #I NEED TO DRAW BEAKLEY AND SCROOGE SHENNAGINS BTW GRRR #I have so many ideas for this lil au #it’s kind of my way of doing a ducktales fix it fic and also just. slamming a buncha fun things in too #hella self indulgent and I’m so happy people seem to be enjoying it! #daffodil—lament #art #my art #digital art #fanart #doodle #drawing #sketch #LÙ Huifen #black heron #bentina beakley #mrs beakley #beakley #Goldie o gilt #Goldie O’Gilt #beakheron #scroldie #btw goldkey and scroldie co exist in this au! scroldie have an open relationship and goldkey have some sort of toxic yuri going on idk

[toffeesbabbles]

To save my main from my deranged art rants I will be posting about it here.

anyway some design features I really like :)

the bottom of dream's cape is supposed to emulate the sun haha

his outfit was inspired both by his current and his old one, which is why he has a big ol' cape!! I just love both, so...I incorporated both designs into one!

the stars on dream's jacket? trenchcoat? thing. I just thought it looked cool tbh LOL. I just wanted to incorporate more stars into dream's design specifically since dreams and stars kinda just go together.

the gold on swap sans outfit is supposed to mirror the gold on papyrus' design!

Swaps belt, as it stemmed from the crack idea that swap likes wrestling? Don't ask idk how I came up with it either. the initials on swap's belt is actually inspired from dream's belt!! I really like how it came out even if it's kinda like...from nowhere. given he doesn't like wrestling in my head he just thought it looked cool. haha

inks gap tooth, it just feels right!

I added more pinkish purple into dream's design!! just cause I wanted it to be in more than just one place.

I tried to make their faces look distinct ish from eachother!

Edit: One thing I forgot to mention cause its kinda hard to see!! I had this idea that because it looks like dream's unitard would be a struggle to get on or off he eventually got it tailored to have a zipper!! You just can't see it's tracks because its an invisible zipper. so he no longer struggles to take it on or off

Also i got to add all my ink headcanons as well!! similar to dreams i think ink would have a little bag of holding just for convenience lol. Also pretty colors for his scarf just because :3

#toffeesbabbles #ummm i just like talking about my ideas lol #hope u don't mind :3 #dont mind the goofy markups #eepy rant

[your-local-uwu-artist]

wip dump :3

evil art style! my art style has quite a lot of range but I decided to default to chibis for this. I also didn't want to like, just draw one character bust up like i see most people do for it, so I wanted to come up with a way to show multiple characters on one page in an appealing manner

sonic drawing practice! I've been procrastinating this one because the lineart I've done so far on it is almost too good. I'm not sure If i can keep up the standard set

jame-joe doodles! really wanna keep developing this concept: I think it has decent potential! i don't remember how much I've shared about him but i don't think i've talked about it much beyond the base premise. Jame-Joe is inspired by characters like Dipper and Wirt, he's clever, is serious and studious in the pursuit of his goals, can be rather emotional and is prone to cowardice and insecurity, but can be determined when push comes to shove. I set myself up for a challenge here, as I want him to be expressive but limited by his doll body. It's a fun challenge though!

more 'i should start an etsy' drawings. i've seen people make like 'gacha blind bag' keychains and thought of the idea of those with aimaina-chan designs!

fdanfsdjk I almost feel bad for spoiling this one because I'm so excited to share it!!!! But i guess the sorta person to read through this post probably don't mind spoilers lol. I realized 'Timmy's a 2000s kid' and decided to go ALL IN on that. I dug deep into my memories and decided this kids going to need rainbow looms, slap-wraps, silly bandz, and those rubbery braclets where theres one white segment and one black segment and i have no clue if this is true but when i was a kid everyone always said the white segment was snow from mount everest and the black one was like sand from the bottom of the ocean. anyway! I had so much trouble wiht finding the right shade of pink that if i go trhough making a youtube video on these designs you guys will definitely here my color theory rant.

my main goal i can only describe as 'arcade carpet'

he thinks he's cool but knows he's lame. I gave him a fnaf shirt also, i dived deep into my brain as asked myself 'what graphic t-shirt from hot-topic would timmy turner wear' and i decided on fnaf because i think it's funny. so far these extra outfits have been going up in the amount of projection I'm doing. It started with spongebob's sweater vests, continued with Dannys stereotypical-transmasc fits, and now I'm lowkey just drawing stuff I've worn (actually danny's fit with the flannel I've def worn before but like, i assigned timmy a sanrio character(i gave him keropi because it's an easy way to incorporate green accents into his design lol)) anyway!!!

i had 'i want it that way' stuck in my head again and turned to queeries he proceded to give me the solution of chipi-chipi-chapa-chapa. this was not a solution obviously but whatever. i decided to use my new problem to animate myself dancing. sure. why not. if I upload this to youtube i think i should title it 'me at the function' of course i don't actually go to any functions so perhaps 'me when i' would be more fitting

Haku with his starter! the shy kid to eccentric adult pipeline

more of baby Haku! weird part-mimikyu child wandering alola before discovering ghost-type communities and being like 'finally! someone that doesn't look at me weird when i mention demonic possesion!'

with the timeline I'm going with Haku's younger than Acerola so she's like a big sister to them :3

He stares at you with his big ol eyes awkwardly lowkey steals your malasada and gives you a flower in return

rf4 art!!! I love rune factory enough that I own a throw pillow with vishnal on it >:3

frey my fucking beloved!!!!!! lest is here too also. btw frey is a demigirl and lest is a demiboy this is true you can trust me

sketch design for one of those cd keychains with alvin and the chipmunks!

I plan to caption this '1k notes and I voice+animate my yumehoshi beam' as a bit, not because i want 1k notes, but because 99% chance it won't get 1k notes, but if it does then it'd be a really funny way to break my shyness with sharing my voice to the internet

smurtsune miku smurf my BELOVED

need more character for this btw!

#kyukyudraws

[squeiky]

Oldies Au (Silvamy & Blazamy) lore dump:

So, when they were younger, Silver had a big ol' crush on Amy Rose (she wasnt aware of it untill later lol) and so did Blaze (though hers was more of a "slow-burn" type crush where feelings developed slowly, whilst Silver's was kind of sporadic).

Blaze, being Silvers best freind, wanted him to be happy, and ended up sacraficing her chances with Amy so Silver could be happy.

She tried to subdue/repress her feelings for Amy but it kind of went a little south for her.

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Bonus rant:

I like to think Amy and Silver have this very wild type of relationship, juxtaposted to their later relationships- in where its a very rollercoaster type thing.

Soemthing about the childish, yet wholesome aspect of the two, mixed with the extremly passionate type energy i like here. They can both be tunnel visioned in a sense (Amy with romantic/social and Silver with his goals or more physical stuff) but catch eachother in a way im unsued to with the more level-headed Espio or Blaze (hell maybe even Sonic).

Not only that, but i can see how they can both get along, as well as clash with eachother (as seen in sonic 06). So it works out.

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Now that im writing this, im seriously wondering if having a "pair the square" (but its technically not because there are single/never dating characters in this au), but ngl it would be funny to make as weird as polycule between the Blazamy and Silvespio ships here. Though it would look like a whole ass Amy harem + Espio ngl.

Blaze just learns "hey lets not surpress that shit i can be happy too" and Silvers like "girl we can share" and Amy's just like "finally!! My HAREM HAS ARRIVED!!!"

But again, because theres more to this.. maybe the polycule happens... later on? (Also hey, Flare and Greybell having sibling rivalry is so funny, ngl i might actually do this)

#oldies au #silvamy #blazamy

[sandboy-advance-sp]

I don't remember why I started following you years ago and this is totally random, but how/when did you know you were trans and if your parents know, how did they react? I'm scared because I know even some progressive parents get weird about it. Thanks!

It took me a loooong time for me to realize I was trans. I didn't even really start truly grappling with the idea until I was well into my 20s and living independently. As a kid I'd definitely wondered what it'd be like to just wake up as a girl one day, those thoughts definitely got a lot hornier as I became a hormonal teenager lol but I digress. In general I never really gave it too much thought until I started to see more and more transfem people here on Tumblr and just thinking "Damn I want that". Also sorta helped that I had multiple transfem friends at the time who were more than happy to answer my questions, kinda similar to how I am now lol.

Once I really kinda beared down on the idea and fully committed I did genuinely feel a lot happier. Also having a fursona to dump all of these ideas onto has 1000% been a contributing factor towards how I perceive what I am, kinda lets you draft up where you wanna end up.

That being said I've definitely got a ways to go before I'm happy with where I'm at transition wise. I have yet to really come out at all at work since a number of coworkers/supervisors/etc all have wildly varrying views. Sort of waiting until I'm truly in a strong position before I tackle that mountain.

As for friends, family, and other personal relationships, it's kind of a slow roll, I've been out to my closest friends both online and irl since I decided this is who I want to be and they've been super supportive every step of the way. My parents came shortly after that, first my mom who was honestly thrilled it was kind of funny, then my dad later on when it sort of came up in conversation, he was also happy for me, much more curious about it than I had anticipated which was nice. But my parents are pretty progressive as far as I'm concerned so I'm really unsurprised by their reactions. I know they just want me to be happy. I've always maintained a good relationship with them and they respect me for who I am, whether I'm their son or daughter or something else.

Coming out is always kind of a complicated question since everyone has pretty highly contrasting experiences with it between friends, family, and work. All I can really say is you do you, and if anybody gives you shit for it then fuck them. It's not gonna be easy, even if you really think you know a person they can always still flip around on you over something like coming out as trans, so prepare yourself for that eventuality.

You probably weren't expecting that big ol' rant but that's what I got for you lol.

The best advice I can give is that you should do whatever makes you the happiest. And never let anyone else get in the way of that, no matter what.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #queer

[long-suffering-little-spoon]

I JUST REALIZED THAT YOU WATCHED THE OFMD FINALE

H-

How are you feeling 🥲🥲🥲

Pahaha not swimmingly, I'll just say. First I have been doing a bit of the ol' menstruating which means everything is immediately more extreme lol. I've been very conflicted and I'm still not 100% sure how I feel about *THE THING* especially, but this is where I stand right here right now at like 11PM lmao

Under the cut cos this ended up being exponentially longer than I thought it could ever be sorry

Overall I've loved season 2!! It has been so much fun to interact with the community and convert everyone to the Izzy hands cult engage with the fandom week by week. We've had some incredibly beautiful high moments and some lovely refreshing queer joy. I adore the new characters and the developments of our existing ones. I know my negative thoughts here are much more substantial than my positives but this doesn't mean I didn't like it!! I just don't feel the need to describe the positives because I feel like they're pretty obvious and universally recognised, agreed upon and beloved, y'know? (if you want a purely positive thoughts autistic happy flappy hands rant™, i can oblige dw)

Izzy's death is not the only reason I have mixed feelings on the finale. Obviously the episode cuts were a result of HBO'S meddling and isn't the fault of the crew, but the pacing still felt off and everything that happened just kinda washed over me like white noise (haha will wo-). The loose ends were tied up in wholesome ways and if we don't get a season 3 this would be a mostly decent way to end our characters' journeys, if a bit rushed. But then...

Izzy's death. A lot of people feel very very betrayed and hurt by Izzy being killed off, some people don't feel the comfort they used to from this show because of it and no longer want to engage. I don't wanna discount these people's views, more power to them; I cannot stop them from feeling what they feel and doing what they choose. I haven't given up hope on this show but Izzy's death just felt pretty unsatisfying to me?? Putting my bias towards him aside, I get the "killing off mentor at end of second act" trope but I just feel and wish way more could've been done with Izzy. I wanted to see more of him being happy and secure in himself and his found family and his queerness and his disability!! But now I don't get that and it very much stings. I think I could've come to terms more with his death if there had been more time to dwell on it all and get to see the individual characters mourn, but again episode cuts, thanks HBO!! /s. And I know they had the funeral but it still feels like we didn't really get a chance to mourn or treat Izzy's death with the weight it warranted. And I am far too tired especially right now to engage in "is this/is this not bury your gays/disabled character" but I will say I've seen pretty compelling arguments on both sides. As an able-bodied disabled person I don't feel it's fully my place to dictate, but I am upset Izzy was killed right after some big moments in his healing process and being a disabled person and in general just enjoying his life.

Personally I'm not giving up on the show as a whole because the finale left a sour taste in my mouth. I still very much like this show and I'm willing to stick around for a potential season 3 and on future rewatches I'll be able to see the stuff I loved separate from the stuff I didn't. But since looking back now, the latter is most recent, it kind of casts an unpleasant shadow on a very enjoyable season of television.

RIP Izzy Hands you deserved better sweetie, you would've loved Drag Race. And also shoutout to Con O'Neill for a fucking phenomenal performance last season, but especially this one. Izzy was absolutely iconic and a fan favourite for a very good reason, even if imo the writers did him dirty. He was hilarious and a petty little bitch man but then deeply broken and compelling and a genuinely beautiful character with a beautiful journey despite an unfortunate and unjust end?? He slayed.

Wow this was a lot!! Sorry if you were expecting silly goofiness lmfao I got very analysi-ish and a bit melancholic. Thank you so much for the ask JJ, it was a good opportunity to try and express all my thoughts and squish them into something cohesive for both you and me. (And thanks to my friend who I was discussing this with earlier; they helped me get a new perspective by sharing some of his thoughts. Dude, if you're reading this you know who you are, thanks a bunch!!!!)

#wowie zowie this took a long time and i am too tired to proof read it lmao it is LATE #but i probably will anyway for the fear of accidentally saying something that is the exact opposite of what i mean #i am still rather conflicted and a bit upset #ofmd #our flag means death #izzy hands #ofmd spoilers #ofmd s2 spoilers #asks #lovely moots tag

[asktheoger]

Happy Munday! I know you're onto the Genshin Impact lately, so here some questions:

What's is your favorite place?

Who's your dreamie? (as for now)

Which Genshin fan character(s) you've created is/are your favorite(s)?

From the one who isn't playing it. /lh

Omg people are asking me about my hyperfixations holy $hit holy $hit-

My favorite place is actually quite hard to decide!! Genshin's known for their gorgeous graphics and breathtaking landscapes for a reason, lmao..... in terms of design, I really like the recently added Chenyun vale!! It's just absolutely beautiful, and I love the fantastical elements and overall vibe it carries....

In terms of exploration, though, I really like Fontaine! The fact that you don't have a stamina bar for swimming and diving is HUGE (making traversing the big ol' oceans a piece of cake- and gives me peace of mind, knowing I can't drown) and just. Um. The underwater areas? AMAZING. GORGEOUS.

My dreamie is a bit confusing, lmao? I actually already have my favorite character; Freminet! (He's the silly little guy I've drawn 5 million times recently on my art account) I also already have my favorite character when I started the game, Venti (he was the first 5 star I got, and I got him in my first pull on the banner)! I am saving up for Furina rn, so probably she's my current dreamie lol?

And as for my favorite fan characters, I'd say (original, w/out an au) is Babiole! She's a silly little Melusine who's a reporter! :D

As for favorite overall/favorite with an au, I'd say easily Aya! :D She's an Oni from Inazuma with a Dendro Vision! Since she was adopted as a baby, she doesn't know which faction (crimson or blue) she belongs to, so she just decided to dye her horns green because they're her favorite color!! I also imagine she knows Itto- I think it would be so cute if they had like a sibling-esc or familial relationship? Itto being like her big brother or cool uncle or something....Maybe Aya's even the unofficially mascot of the Arataki Gang! Still figuring all the details out, hehe ^^'

Anyways, HOLY $HIT THIS RANT ENDED UP BEING SUPER LONG UM.

Thanks for all the questions!!

#ooc #lav speaks #munday #RAMBLING YIPEEE

[taylorswiftstylequestions]

Hi it’s the I-hate-pockets anon! I couldn’t bring myself to type out my original rant that tumblr did not choose to send to you. So I was just going to let it go. But that very funny IG reel someone sent to you has re-inspired me!

Ok. So I know I’m the only one who feels this way. I’ve never met anyone else who is completely dismayed when they see pockets on clothing! I find a cute dress and it has pockets and I’m like noooo. Cute pants with big ole pockets noooo it’s ruined for me. It’s so hard to even find yoga pants without pockets anymore.

I truly hate them so much. I do not want to load up my clothes with stuff like a pack mule. Lol. I don’t like the lines, bumps and bulges they create even when they are empty.

I actually took a bathrobe that had those slide pockets to the seamstress and asked her to remove the pockets because they were so ugly. I bought the bathrobe because it was so perfectly lightweight in a gorgeous coral color. But those pockets could be seen through the material! Ugh. She asked me twice if I was sure. Lol. It looks sooo much better now.

I’ve always been this way. Back in college when I was a tiny little curvy pear shaped size 2 girlie all the way to me now as a curvy pear shaped size 14 girlie. No pockets please!!

I accept back pockets on jeans but do not ever put anything in them. And I cut off the bottoms of the front pockets in jeans so that line does not show up on my thigh. Which means nothing can go in them because it will fall out. The little pocket at the top I accept as decoration but it stays empty.

The only item of clothing that needs to have pockets are jackets and hoodies so I can put my freezing cold hand in to warm them up. That’s it!

If there is anyone else out there like me I would love to know!! And I also appreciate all of you pocket loving girlies out there. It is very cute to see your eyes light up when you find pockets and are so happy. I feel the same way when I find something without them!!

This entire message made me so happy and giggly to read for no reason other than you guys are cute and just so … fun. Ty for sharing parts of yourselves here and all your fun little quirks that make you you.

#tsser

[sea-saur]

gender rant under the cut

ok here's the thing i've been on t for a little over a year now and i had top surgery back in september of '22 so like i'm cooking right im a little guy in an incubator and my voice has changed for sure and my bottom growth is growing and im getting more hair in places etc etc so like things are happening right. but i'm also 5'2" and have a big ole ass and while my voice has changed it isn't changed enough to pass and while yes i have more body hair plenty of cis girls have more body hair than me and like basically i'm getting on and off dysphoria for not passing. i don't even WANT to pass as a cis man, i just want to NOT be read immediately as a girl. you know? and frankly i'm happy with the body hair and bottom growth and it'd be nice if my fat redistribution kicked in a little more but i'm comfortable with my weight etc etc like....frankly i think it's mostly the voice. the voice and the face. like if my face looked more boyish and my voice sounded more boyish i think the rest of my body would coast cause i've seen enough chubby guys of various shapes to not really feel that self conscious about my body. it's the face and voice that sell it.

and the other thing is like....i have this thing where it's like 'i don't pass as a boy therefore i'm not one' when i don't put that requirement on any other queer person but for ME living it mentally? it's hard to put together the 'i walk around and am read as a girl, and i was raised as a girl, and hell i frankly WAS a girl up until my 20's like that's a part of who i am and im not ashamed of that, i love child me she is important to who i am as a person and frankly i'm grateful to be trans in that way, i think growing up a girl can make me a better guy" (and yeah there's a lot of privilege to be able to say i love being trans, i'm in a large city and work in an industry where queerness is accepted and often celebrated so like. i know. i'm really very very lucky and im extremely grateful for that) but mentally, it's hard for me to even see myself as a transmasc person when i don't SEE it physically, AND because my insides are still me. like i'm still me. and i didn't grow up as feeling like a boy in a girls body. i'm still some kind of nonbinary, still very queer in general, like being bi puts an interesting spin on this too since i have never been and don't associate my personal self with lesbian spaces, or gay men spaces, i sort of float in any queer generalities that people are into. but yeah, never really clicked with lesbian specific environments. i love lesbians but im just not one.

BUT i was raised a girl, so i feel COMFORTABLE around women, often times more than men. queer people in general of any gender are number 1, but ya know. the gist is coming off of a gig the last month that was very queer coded in the musical we were doing, and being surrounded by queer women making lesbian jokes, i felt...simultaneously left out (no one was leaving me out, to be clear, i mean within my own personal identity crisis lol) and also too included. i don't know. a lot of it is in my head, people are often good about my pronouns and frankly i don't KNOW how my usual colleagues see me as a person, if they have to work harder to reframe their interpretation of me away from "girl" and into "transmasc person" since i worked with a number of them before i started medically transitioning. thankfully i always read as a queer person haha. i have that going for me, which does feel very affirming.

idk. even my own apartment decor gives me dysphoria sometimes, which drives me crazy!! i like my apartment decor! I keep trying to do little things to "masc" it up, neutralize it a little, even tho i love all the things i've put in my home. i need new curtains.

there's nothing more to do about it right now i guess, besides try and take more active steps toward my legal name change, and potentially switching from t gel to injections, but that scares me because i'm afraid of doing it wrong and hurting myself. the gel is safer that way. and the dose is daily so i think it gives are more consistent level throughout the week. i also don't know exactly how much i want to pass as "just some guy" even tho this entire rant is literally about that. i think that my fear is that i look cis/straight, which frankly idk that i ever even would based on how i am as a person, so idk why i'm worried about it. basically, i want to stop feeling like i'm 'pretending' to be transmasc. cause sometimes it feels like it's all a lie and im actually just a girl who doesn't want to be a girl but is stuck as one. especially since i don't want to be a cis guy either. i also don't want to lose my ties to my past - i don't connect with womanhood, but i don't want to lose the "sisterhood" for lack of a better term? But also really want to be part of the queer "brotherhood" that i feel like i can't be based on where i am as a person? idk i feel a lot of the time that when im in my own home, im just a little goosey guy. the second i leave my apartment and im percieved, i'm a masculine woman to the world. and even tho masculine women are the fucking shit, im just not that!! and so. dysphoria.

#transmasc #gender rant #it's really train of thought under there #basically a diary entry lol like i needed to get this out #like why do i still feel like a girl in my head!! #it drives me crazy! #fuck!

[forcebookish]

tbh I feel bad for jojo and the other writers cuz they have to constantly explain the most simple scenes to people and have to deal with the story they wanted to tell being misinterpreted all the damn time. and it's not even their fault it's just these people literally have zero comprehension skills and also don't wanna see anything besides their fave characters that they love to baby. anyway sorry for this rant I'm just really fed up right now.

me too!! don't apologize!!!

i try to never post on twitter these days but i think i'm going to start @'ing p'den and p'jojo (i haven't seen p'best on twitter? i might be just missing him, but if he isn't it's probably for the best lol) every week to tell them how good of a job they've done, because they really are phenomenal writers. there are so many delightfully surprising elements i wouldn't have ever expected from a bl, which is probably why so many (idiots) are struggling to understand or straight up willfully misunderstanding the material. while the characters are complex, the story isn't all that complicated (which in this case is a good thing!), but since it's not exactly what they wanted (bad writing lol) they reject it. as a writer, i know that must be incredibly painful and disheartening for them. they tried something new and some "fans" can't handle it. i hope it doesn't lead to backlash that makes it harder for more groundbreaking works from gay writers and directors. because i definitely want more, not just a screaming crying sexy boy show but honest storytelling, new ideas, and real intimacy.

(side-note: i do have a hard time believing that all this shit has nothing to do with homophobia... at least just a little bit....🤔😒)

we joke about brainrot around here, but for some people in this fandom it feels literal. if they're this unsatisfied with the series, i wish they'd just leave instead of making it everyone else's, and especially the writers', problem.

i just wanna give them a big ol' hug!!!!!! they're very talented!! they deserve praise, not having to explain the most basic of concepts!!! hugs for everyone who sees this drama for what it actually is!! you too, anon!

#so far the only issue i've had with the writing is how poor their understanding of how weed works lmao #and even then there being so many cookies and joints could be direction idk #anonymous #asked and answered #ofs liveblog #i did go @ p'jojo p'den and forcebook before posting this #they need to know how much i/we love them😭

[capnhanbers]

Rant person here, mod how could you like- okay. Okay, bit by bit.

First of all - grilby! The dude!

Also I love how everyone's happy for Asgore and for SunDay you made it feel like a little atmosphere of a small town like finding out someone's married, which the underground basically is just on a larger scale. Close knit is perhaps what I'm looking for.

But IT STILL SOMETIMES BOGGLES ME THEY AREN'T MARRIED YET JWJDM

anyway, flowey time!

Flowey confirmed Introvert, that's me at parties right there, hi Flowey

Also, also. Frisk. Or uh, Chara? I couldn't... Quite tell, I'm going to assume Frisk but I'm leaving a question mark there. Frisk(?), cmon they were having a moment!

I feel like those 2 will *never* leave flowey and Naya alone like I don't think there was one time where they were alone for long enough

I mean, I know why but.. It's always like Frisk having a feeling and going there, like, let Flowey get some air man

Additionally, after that, MARRIAGE MARRIAGE

Are they like, married now? Genuine question, I have no sweet clue I haven't been in a relationship (ah the wonders of AroAce) but like, that seems like they're married, are they married?

If so: KEKSKISSJNFHF

THEY EVEN LIKE DID A MINI DIVE THINGY! DIVE! WOOOOO!

Also I am going to say that lil like feeling that made Naya say yes to going to the haunted house was Gaster because I feel like it's funny if he was tinder, but also because it's an neat HC.

But still!!!!!!!!!!!

Man! Like invite me to the wedding mod like, I'm waiting for my invite/j

But all in all, BANGER chapter, 10/10

THANK YOU FOR THE RANT everything you pointed out makes me so hapy :3

they're casually engaged now lol!!! i'm actually glad you asked about it so i have the chance to say: hey. this isn't typical guaranteed romance formula where now that they've proposed, it means we're gonna end on a big ol wedding and that's their happily ever after. sanaya's like.....they've already made the commitment to be together. i actually consider this exchange from ch94 to be a way heavier capital c Commitment moment:

this is just them saying "know what?? we DO wanna get married! at some point!" they don't have rings. there's no rush. yes it was a proposal and yes they're engaged but this doesn't mean they're gonna launch into wedding plans right freaking now.

#for a long time i wasn't gonna have them get married #but joat has become a receptacle for things that make me happy #and my marriage makes me happy! #so they're engaged now yay hooray #joat talks #answers

[danteadredkin]

Okay I have a lot of gnender questions but here's the big one that bothers me a lot:

I identify as a man, but I still like presenting femininely. I know that men can be feminine but for some reason when I wear a dress and do up my hair I look at myself and immediately see a girl. Sometimes I like they/them and other times I prefer he/him but I've never liked she/her, so whenever I wear those clothes I just feel yucky even though I love dressing up. And at first I thought I might be trans but then i realized that I didn't want to transition so I thought I might be genderfluid but something about that label just feels not right for me.

Sorry for turning this into a gnender rant but the gist of it is this: I don't think I'm trans but I know I'm not genderfluid, so is this just good 'ole confusion or is there an actual label for what I'm feeling>

I've had a few somewhat similar feelings before, with some labels feeling almost right but not quite, and sometimes two different ones feel right but they're conflicting labels, sometimes the labels that fit me change day to day, ect ect. What I eventually settled on that made me happy is just calling myself 'queer'. It's the word that I decided best describes me, encompassing everything and committing to nothing. I can be asexual one day and bi the next and trans the day after. It's lgbtqa+ all in one simple word.

As for gender labels specifically...the equivalent might be just calling your gender 'gender' lol. Personally, I would consider using 'queer' as my gender, if I was feeling what you describe. You also might find happiness or satisfaction in being one of those people who just say 'what are you, a cop?' when asked their gender. You might be happier trying to learn to live with and even love a concept without a name for your gender, leaving it unnamed. It doesn't have to have a label, if it's causing you more stress to look for one that's perfect than it's worth.

You might also try aiming for androgynous fashion, or looking male with your body but feminine with your clothes. Personally, I actually really liked experimenting with makeup styles meant to make female faces look more masculine, you might try that. I've also been thinking about trying male voice training, I think that would be similarly satisfying, you might try that.

You said something about not wanting to transition. I can kind of feel that. On the topic of my own gender...if it was a perfect world, and I could switch my body's gender with the flick of a button, and transphobia didn't exist, I think I would. I would pick a male body, but I would probably still dress it pretty feminine quite often. But this is not a perfect world, and transitioning is difficult and painful and expensive, and most of the world is some degree of transphobic, and honestly I barely have any body disphoria worth mentioning. So I choose to stay a woman most of the time, because it's the easier option. I often think that people who choose to transition are tougher and braver than any marine.

One place I think you might also find a kind of kinship is actually with drag queens, I think. I've met a few before. Now from what I understand, most drag queens won't answer directly if you ask their gender, but from what I understand, a fair number of them aren't actually trans women. They're just men who present feminine, sometimes or all the time, men who look like women, which sounds like some of what you've described. You might seek out your local drag queens (and kings) for further wisdom on the subject.

I also have a little brother who is trans, but he still chooses to present as very feminine. Most people look at him and see a girl. He's had a lot of mental health struggles around his gender. It feels to me like you have a lot in common with him. If you want, I could ask him to make a throw away account, and you could message him, or annon him? He might have better answers than me.

And also one thing that makes sense to me, that's helped me make sense of some gender things, is this thing that I heard once. It goes something like: "I am a man. And this is my skirt. And sense this skirt belongs to a man, that makes it a man's skirt, not a woman's skirt." This line has helped me make sense of a lot of gender things. That might help you too, when presenting feminine? Go through things one by one, and say 'I am a man, so that is a man's skirt. I am a man, so that is a man's ponytail. I am a man, so that is a man's makeup.' Or substitute they/them, when the mood strikes. Make it a kind of morning affirmation, maybe?

I kind of got all over the place with this reply...sorry about that. The end question was on labels, wasn't it? I'm sorry, but if there is a single, perfect label for what you are and what you're feeling, I don't know what it is. I've had some similar feelings, but the *not knowing* has never bothered me enough to really dig into it with a lot of self examination and research. I hope something of my experience helps though, and I hope you know I care about you no matter what your gender or clothes are. Even if there isn't a word for you, or if the word changes every day, you're still *you* and I still like *you* behind all the labels and the clothes and the body. I hope you likes *you* too. And you can feel free to ask me any time, though I'm sorry if I don't quite have the right words.

[tomatoluvr69]

useless complaint post literally you don’t have to bother reading this it will just help me to rant a bit

This is sooooo not a real issue I’m just in the throes of pmdd but like I have a bunch of semi-expected (but way earlier than I’d thought) unemployed time so I’m using its alignment with the warm weather to go backpacking/live out of my car in [nearby national park and national forests] but right now I feel zero enthusiasm and I really hope it’s not gonna suck bc my heart’s not in it…like if I’m kind of doing it out of obligation bc it’s unusual to have such an extended span of time off when you’re an adult, then am I going to have the drive to get thru the parts that suck, like the exhaustion of steep trail days, the days when it storms so hard you have zero dry gear, etc. but really the part that I’m the most trepidatious about is the loneliness. But it’s so weird bc I’m struggling socially here and I really think some extended alone time would help?? But it’s always hard and I don’t want to lololol. Honestly what would help this the most is to just wait until after my fucking period. But as it is right now I feel like I’m just going thru the motions. If I could fucking live in my house for the equivalent amount of time without my social life encroaching I absolutely would but I’m so burnt out from my close friends leaving and from my last dear relationship here being at times really tough (it’s one that feels like my well-being rides on it— when it’s good, I’m on top of the world, when it’s not I’m hurt and confused and crawling out of my own skin). I still have a community here but it feels like it’s my roommates’ world, and I’m a guest whose presence is like…anodyne at best? And I really think I’ve just latched onto the idea of my trip as a vague mental escape hatch and haven’t really grasped the idea of the fact that I’ll still be present in my ailing brain and treacherous body when I go on the trip— I’m not just taking a nap from my (admittedly spoiled little baby) problems. And when I did the same thing for 3 or 4 weeks last summer I was dropped off & picked up, which created a really nice incentive to stay on trail— to leave, I’d have had to somehow communicate & coordinate with the relatives who’d agreed on a set date to come pick me up, i.e. effectively trapping me in the woods so I’d stay when I got all grumpy or sad or began semi-hallucinating human voices or was ready to throw it all away to get my hands on a slice of pepperoni pizza and a big old kombucha lol.

Anyways this is such not a real problem but me ol’ paranoid ass is convinced a whole passel of my irls have this blog’s url so I can’t freely complain about what’s really bothering me, which is that I’m starting to see harbingers of the devastating dissolution of my closest relationship. Or, even worse, my relegation to a much more distant connection. And I’m trying desperately to convince myself I should stay in this fucking town, because I’m suuuuuuuuper prone to just fleeing when I start to feel [inaudible], which is a super unsustainable way to live my life and o know it’s not [city] I’m trying to flee but myself which scientists are telling me I can’t physically do…but is that the truth?? Or is the truth that I actually do need a clean break from [redacted]…or is that just a convenient lie I’m telling myself so I can flee again. Or is THAT a convenient lie I’m telling myself so that I can keep my head in the sand and keep [redacted]. It’s so cool how you can’t trust your own heart and mind and you might just suffer from uncertainty forever and you’ll die chasing happiness with the grass always greener but also like pmdd and I don’t really want to go on this trip but I think I must. I think…

#like. even this trip itself is evidence that my nature is just a fucking flee-er. #and I think I’d settle for love but like that would require someone to love me. lol #and I’ve got some semblance of it here but it’s not enough and it’s very fucking painful. like what happens if the strongest ties you may #ever render are just enough. bc you’re not enough. lol #also I think I have to leave when I said I’d leave bc my internal shameometer prevents me from telling my male roommate I’m staying #solely to use the toilet during um well you know. #and also the more I come to terms with the fact that I’m almost definitely autistic the more I really can see how much masking fucking #drains me. #and the friends who left were the ones around whom I didn’t really feel the need to mask. but these social things the past few weeks have #fucking walloped me and I’m just :-( ;-( :-( #oops did not mean to make him wink. #and it just feels like the rest of my life is going to be a cycle of masking for long enough that someone likes me. and then being #abandoned by them for romantic relationships or some geographical distance reason or like ummm fucking liability by lorde reasons #ugsjkskwnenwjsmz :-( :-/

[unicornachos]

Another personal post

Hellooo so because I wrote an update here before I thought I'd just keep ppl updated re health things

So last night the pain I feel when I turn on my side or rest my head on my hands got worse again 🙃

I couldn't sit normally on chairs without feeling horrible nerve pain, but it was getting less and less? But now it's almost back to where I started in fucking December :')

So I guess now I know the cbd oil that I've been taking for the past month affects my nerves because of its role in serotonin reuptake, which means I have to stop taking it and now I'm back to square 1 once again hah. But I'm just like. Several hundred dollars down than I was before lol

I'm so tired guys. I'm so tired of being in pain and doctors being so frustratingly useless and yet still expensive to the point where they're not even worth seeing. I'm so frustrated that things that seem to work normally for everyone else continuously don't fucking work for me???????? Every time I try and do something for myself mental health wise I just kind of get a kick in the guts and months of chronic pain that doctors don't want anything to do with because it's beyond their current understanding and idk... They don't have the capacity to do research for anyone who doesn't fit into their boxes????

Sorry for having a big ole rant but my god. I'm just so angry and tired and sad tbh. Would very much like to just become a blanket burrito for the next 5 years. Working fulltime while dealing with all of this is just exhausting, but I need to pay my HECS debt off somehow ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

[coralsgrimes]

The ALMOST complete list of Benny Boy’s doing while I was away

almost complete cuz I probably missed somethinggies?

Okie the first thing I could find was that boy was partying with Will Poulter in some fancee members only club in London. No luck out there I suppose cuz he still a naked faced rat x.x also just a personal note, that Will guy seems to be a smart one? Apparently he was in Ireland the other day and he went through the Shannon airport and not through that shitfuck factory which Dublin airport is. Which like smart big brain decision, so Benny? I do approve of this relation 😘 

THEN OMG!! ACTUAL NEWS WHICH I MISSED? Soooooo we actually starting very fucking wild? CUZ BOY GOT HIMSELF AN ACTUAL JOB? sorry if I’m not making any sense here whatsoever but I was expecting to come back to see his flat ass unemployed? Unless someone is pulling a pisser on good ol’ Coral and he still bitchless and jobless ;c oh and this explains the instagram follows of Ian and Mark a while back cuz they are both in the film too. ANYWAYS!

So there’s this film... The Critic is the title. It’s based on a book by Anthony Quinn. Here’s like the three articles I found on it at Deadline, Collider and this lil piece by Heather who is clearly into Benny! All of them articles are putting Benny aside and as supporting character but like lookin at other actors involved Imma not surprised he’s pushed more to the back. So I checked IMDb and what the book is about, and what it says is that Benny’s character is named Stephen, and the book has a character named Stephen Wyley. From the couple of reviews I seen it’s hard to say how big his part in the book actually is but yeee I’d say not extremely big. And there are going to be changes to the material anyways cuz Mark Strong’s character, from what I can tell, is not in the book? Or at least he is not mentioned in any of the pieces I looked through. 

ANYWAYS! So Stephen is a painter, he is also a married man with kids! And he has an affair with Nina (Arterton’s character). He is also beardless. A crime as the film is a thriller or crime something something. Checks out! ALSO would say that life imitates art but that’s..................... Boy was doing some method acting I guess x.x

ONTO THE NEXT! 

So to celebrate (lol) Benny took his lil ass to Wimbledon, cuz as we all know Benny has four character traits (one more than a TS4 sim!) and these are Queen, When Harry Met Sally, his shitty degree and... TENNIS! So it’s weird alright? Cuz he posted a selfie (on July 3rd) and then another boy’s definition of cute diy collage three days later. The latter was SUPPOSEDLY a thankies to Ralph Lauren. What I could spy with ma lil eye was what Imma pretty sure are the exact fucking same rags he wore before. None of them are by any of RL labels as far as I can tell x.x and yes I do have boy’s whole wardrobe memorized, cuz he has like two pair of pants and two cardigans. So it’s nothing impressive. Hold them applauses. And here is his naked face (a rant about that Im gonna post separately cuz here Imma trying to be informative lol, also the rant is like 9k words as of now sooooooooo) 

Couple days later his naked ass was caught on tape in Camden

And his new hunting ground seem to be Camden. He livin his Rocky dream at a gym there! Can’t post the video ;c gonna post separately ;c 

AND NOW ONTO INSTAGRAM! 

Soooooo boy was pretty active there. A lil I love ye to Dead Poets Society and ofc he could not stop himself from tagging Ethan xd he keeps doing this right? I mean tagging famous folks but they do be ignoring him every time... Remember the West Side Story post? 

What more...... He liked this post of Taron Egerton as soon as it was posted x.x oh and he followed a singer Eliza. 

So yeeeeesh that would be it from our boy x.x the duckie face will not be discussed here as I found out it might be a health hazard ;c will answer the pucker up queries separately in ma pink hazmat suit 🧚‍♀️

#ben barnes #the worst benny boy updates blog is back from retirement #for today at least #how do ye like my detective work? #😘😘 #the fan pic is from twitter and the original poster me thinks is PapuCaro