#but i feel like im unable to

[neptunite-stars]

... tired. burnout.

#i have this weird ... urge??? to make an entirely new blog and put all my art there and start over #like. like changing my identity and leaving the country type of thing and not saying goodbye #the insane urge to change absolutely everything about myself #this is not ok #whats up with that #.... also considering making new blog just for following artists i like #im insane ik but like idk what type of insane i am. ha! #im also in like a really insane burnout #i havent touched my drawing program in a week #by proxy i havent touched hiiai comic in a week #i just feel so... tired... #i want to doodle whatever the hell i want #and i want learn how to do things #but i feel like im unable to #i dunno anymore.. i feel like itd be refreshing for me to change blogs but i dont want to do that to anyone #maybe its the fact that i want to keep up with my dashboard and all the posts thats making me feel so drained all the time #+ school and homework obviously #trying to chase after everything thats happening or has happened albeit hours before is just. very tiring for me for some reason #well. maybe im getting burnout for tumblr too. i don't know yet #its all just so exhausting.... #rambles

[freitag1607]

1.05 / Battle of the Labyrinth

#I FEEL SO NORMAL ABOUT THIS #percy jackson #pjo tv show #percy jackson and the olympians #pjotv #percabeth #pjo #screaming crying #mine #100 #500 #1k #5k #im in the middle of packing and this sent me frantically looking for my copies of pjo #anyway #i feel so insane i feel like im gonna die can anyone hear me. CAN ANYONE HEAR ME #annabeth has been so disconnected from the mortal world and just so fundamentally unable to enjoy her childhood #it makes me want to sob like seriously #i hope her and percy go on so many movie dates. like #not even just her and percy i hope percy tells grover and word spreads around camp and movie nights just become a thing at camp #because all these babies deserve it #god im gonna die. im seriously gonna die #WE KNOW THERE'S AN ORIENTATION VIDEO #SO THEY HAVE A PROJECTOR AND A SCREEN #MOVIE NIGHTS COULD HAPPEN!!! #okay bye. i'm going to go scream about percabeth some more

[greatestjubilee]

bleh

#hi all. lucy here #i have barely been drawing lately because ive just been unable to #like i feel like i lost my spark. i dunno #i used to draw so much and make so many comics when i was absolute rock bottom mentally #like the funnier i was the worse i was doing #ive been better lately but i truly feel like ive almost sacrificed my ability to draw or create stuff for some more mental stability #i just....i dont know. i feel like i can't do anything i used to do with art. like im not funny or have no ideas or just think stuff like #oh ill just draw this because people will wanna see it #but i gave that up because not even i wanna see it anymore #i hope that i can feel like drawing again one day i just dont know how to get it back. it really feels like ive lost a major part of myself #this is my rambling here just to let you know i am still around just kind of laying low because im drained

[5hrignold]

this is all i got

#Tiny side ramble in the tags its what i do best #in the interview they mention charlie feeling way more like developed in s2 and I. if that’s really true iM SOOO happy and somehow #even more excited for it bc of that Because ive mentioned this before obviously ive always liked charlie #but like. im unable to really get into him the way i can do with pim. like there’s nearly Nothing about him that tells me anything about hi #character which AGAIN IVE SAID. IK THATS THE POINT and ur not even like. these aren’t even like designed to be blorbo type characters so- #-who cares BUT LIKE. I STILL WANT TO LIKE HIM AS MUCH AS I LIKE PIM YA KNOW #well not As much. he could never compare to pim in my personal mind #but yknow what imean. so im happy that probably means we’re getting more of him kinda in s2 #Aauauuaau so excited #Also i still hate drawing him #never wont #smiling friends #pim pimling #charlie dompler #Dumb name … stupid guy… #💝 #charpim is soo scary to actually tag like woah guys who said anything about all that.. hey now #odieart

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Lights out! Poppy: Ahh I had such a refreshing na- Why is Sally glowing?

LMFAO YEAH. pretty much how it goes...

#this was the First meme to pop into my mind upon reading this ask #also heyyyyy finally Seriously drew poppy - damage and all! #to that one person who wanted to see her! here she is!!! #but ohhhh man oh man have i been having Popstar feelings pertaining to this au... #sally being completely inaccessible #like at least frank can go see eddie and sit with him if he wants. hold his Unconscious Hand. #but poppy can't go anywhere near her shining star.... #also sally becoming something poppy should be terrified of but. but poppy being unable to be afraid #like. nightlight!sally being the One Thing poppy can't muster up any fear of #scribble salad #wh lights out au #rambles from the bog #the PINING poppy experiences in this au... yeah #ough and them in act two???? yall- #the lesbianisms.... the Tenderness.... the Understanding.... #without poppy i can say confidently that sally would Not make it to act three or four #oh god now im thinking about act two and im making myself sad OKAY POST OVER THANK YOU BYE

[stiffyck]

I think I already talked about this and I've seen others mention it but it's been on my mind again:

Is it weird that grian is usually drawn looking like a teenager or just a kid in general while the others look like adults

#stiff talk #ive been thinking about this #and it so fucking weird #ill see art that look absolutely beautiful and then grian just? looks like a literal child? while all the others look like adults???? #so its not an issue of style or whatever #idk i find it really weird #what is it aboht grian that makes people physically unable to draw him as an adult- /silly #i could also talk about the fact that grian. the one whos shown as a kid and who has a pretty high voice. is the one whos usually portrayed- #-as transmasc #which dont get me wrong i like trans grian #but it kinda feels like? why is grian the only one who youre able to hc as trans???? #idk #maybe im just being too bitchy aboht this but its been kinda bothering me DJCJDKFK

[sourscratched]

the hand that feeds

#dimension 20 #my art #acoc #trw #many thoughts about them that im unable to articulate #just thinking a lot about how they were probably around the same age during the events of trw #and i think a lot about karna as far as i know not knowing any other warlocks of the hungry one besides herself #the scene in the inn when she looks in the mirror at the rot growing hits me so hard #something about being so young and all alone with the dread you feel about your own body #who can you tell who would get it #who can you tell that it wouldn’t feel like giving them something to use against you #idk i just think about these two a lot #wonder what it would’ve been like if they could have met each other #(do i have a fic where they meet that ive been procrastinating on uploading to ao3 for months. Maybe) #(i don’t write like Ever and i haven’t had the confidence to share it yet. anyway) #this whole post is just me talking to a wall lmao don’t mind me everyone #a crown of candy #the ravening war

[lokh]

LISTEN... for all that shuro is frustrated by him he really Gets who laios is. it's because he understands him so well that he felt bad about being frustrated for so long

#i went back to read from ch 72 and like. the number of times that hes like #thats not the laios i know #and..... and hang on i think im having a moment #maybe his frustrations ultimately lie with himself.... #HE couldnt save falin (something he expresses shame n regret about all throughout) #HE didnt believe in laios (a sentiment expressed near the end) and so things went wrong #hes the one who doesnt measure up (to his dad and maizurus expectations)..... #maybe he feels Hes also the one whos doing smth wrong for being so frustrated w laios #and for being apparently unable to communicate his own discomfort... #hes too good at making himself small... 😔 #<- asian style babey 🤪 #if white people get to project on laios to justify hating on shuro then i get to project on shuro LMAO

[absurdumsid]

If you still taking requests can I have some error x nightmare?

ABSOLUTELY !! errormare cant kiss ? errormare cant hold hands ? NO, I. WILL ! MAKE !! IT !!! WORK !!!!

Error! Sans belongs to CrayonQueen/LoverofPiggies

Corrupted! Nightmare belongs to jokublog

#when theres a WILL theres a WAY #error will make nightmare a doll of him to keep in his office <- he has one of nightmare #also haphephobia ? rendering them unable to hold hands ? WRONG error intertwines their pinky fingers with his string <- no need to touch + #somehow it stretches when they get apart (they can find each other) + its cute + nightmare can feel what error is feeling better <- it is a #+ direct link to error i WILL. KILL. I WILL MAIN #MAIM ** #errormare #IN YOU FACE !!!!!!! #error sans #corrupted nightmare #nightmare sans #sanscest #sans au #GOD i love errormare #<- the fact that theyre both ? falling apart ? physically and mentally ? but thats literally theyre thing so its actually completely ok ?? #<- i fucking. i need that. i need that in my life #ERROR IS LITERALLY CRUMBLING PIECES AND NIGHTMARE IS SOME HUGE BUNDLE OF GOO #IM SOBBING THEY ARE SUCH FRAGILE BROKEN VESSELS FOR SUCH BEAUTIFUL PEOPLW #also like. whiteboard decided to make me redo this twice (i was trying to move down but it fuckigng REFRESHED and it WASNT SAVING) #anyway teehee i love errormare #sid answers #sid art

[loversgothic]

THEATRE OF HELL / ULTRADANSE

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this has been buzzing around in my head for a while esp after watching a few ballet recordings im just uuuuuuu ILL DRAW MORE LATER

#WHEN YOU ARE UNABLE TO EXPRESS EMOTIONS THROUGH VOICE THE FEELINGS MUST BE EXPRESSED THROUGH SOME OTHER FORM AND DANCE IS ONE!!! #UNDERSTADN? ask me more im crazy #ultrakill #v1 ultrakill #v1 #ballet #illustration #art #digital art #new blood #by the way even though i drew an elegant pose trust me that v1 dances like a little freak in this scenario. like its ridiculous

[ghost-proofbaby]

do you ever just feel the depression fog settling in and suddenly feel like all your words, spoken and written, just aren’t making sense? like oh i’m just spewing nonstop nonsense aren’t i.

#it feels like someone’s cut off a fucking limb when i’m writing and suddenly stare at the screen and just #it’s not what i want it’s not coming out right and it almost feels as though ive completely disassociated #but if im not writing i feel entirely useless? #idk #ignore me #is there a way to disappear into the void until this brain fog figures itself out so no one else has to deal with it lmao #wanting to write and being entirely unable to leaves me feeling very very hollow inside #ghost talks too much

[nikikikiko]

still thinking about that scene where noah finds kid after beating up mosquito and kid throwing liz and patty away so they could be safe. thinking about how liz initially tried to get kid back but then recognized the threat level and understood immediately that she couldn’t do anything without making kid’s sacrifice in vain. thinking about how patty insulted liz because liz wasn’t doing anything and how patty desperately wanted to ignore the dangerous situation just to get their pseudo brother back.

thinking also about the fact liz & patty had to break the news about everything, and how useless patty must have felt snd that’s why she’s training physically harder to be a kind of pseudo-meister. thinking about how liz might have so much guilt over needing to do the necessary thing for her and patty’s survival and how that might have been a reoccurring thing in her past.

i have so many thougjts abt that particular arc can you tell

#i know i know its baba yaga’s arc and book of eibon arc #but #i am this close to calling it Noah’s Arc #because . i mean. #that’s funny #soul eater #liz thompson #patty thompson #liz and patty are REALLY underutilized im realizing #like as characters #i feel like they shouldve had a bit more importance during those arcs #or at least a bit more focus #if tsubaki and blackstar can have their own character arcs separate from the main group #why cant they #esp bc it RELATES DIRECTLY TO THEIR PAST ??? #how many hard sacrifices did liz have to make for patty #how many times has patty felt useless and unable to do anything to stop those sacrifices? #how many times #and now they are fighting to protect someone close to them #patty is pushing herself by dueling everyone in their class EVEN BLACKSTAR #she’s trying to take up a meister role by practicing in the shooting range #and liz is proud and supportive of patty #liz understands how much this means to patty bc it means that same amount to her and rescuing kid is their priority atp #THEY LITERALLY ASKED DIRECTLY TO BE LET IN ON THE MISSION #soul eater manga #soul eater manga thoughts #soul eater manga spoilers #technically ?? #is it spoilers if its been out for a while now

[lemongogo]

can i ask.how u guys practice ur creativity <3 how u practice ur imagination or like.. how u experiment with ur art, how u come to ideas and how u develop them.<3 pretty please <3

#smthing i have always struggled w.is feeling like i can only draw things that r handed 2 me. #as in.an idea or concept that already exists #chara or conflict that already exists.Scene that alr exists. #and i think it can be soo limiting bc when i have that sort of creative desire but nothing 2 reflect off of it #i feel like im unable to do anything/get anywhere bc im unable to do that mental legwork myself ykwim #like comic artists r SOOO JAW DROP INSPIRING TO MEE bc not only are u envisioning ur own sequences/situations #but u are able to imagine even the most MUNDANE interactions within those scenarios u know #like the transitory panels and the quiet moments and the every day stillness #and i feel like.its not even a poor attempt on my behalf its like.i cant Even attempt it.like my brain is soo empty #and soo static and noiseless that i am like gauhh...... #i can practice lines all day long and practice colors and practice anatomy or Whatever bc its something concrete #and its in front of me and i can pry apart the physical technicalities until i understand it better #but my MIND???ABSTRACTION>? THOUGHTS .ough its so hard #and i really want to push past that but i dont know how and its so .. demoralizing to think that ill get there One Day but i feel #one million and two days away.and not making active process towards it. #i know the first step is to build ur visual library and i feel liek. idk i FEEL LIKEEE theres more 2 it that im missing #but also im depressed as hell n my job is killing my creative drive and the seasonal stuff isnt helping #so maybe i just need 2 give it time (true) but i also like.man i dont know. i want 2 do something w my hands #but everything ive been doing so far has felt soo .hard and fruitless and i definitely dont want 2 turn art into such a stressful thing #fruitless as in like.i dont get any personal satisfaction w it.idgaf abt monetization or algorithms or any of tht #but smtimes thats just what happens and i have 2 weather through and know ill be more equipped 4 this some other time #SAWRYYY IM ALWAYS GOING ON AND ONNN im nromal im normal<3 i just rly like art and it sucks balls whn it feels out of reach #sigh cry fart scroll.(:salute:)

[bandtrees]

reblog to gently feed him a cheese puff out of the palm of your hand

#scribbles #bungou stray dogs #bsd #goncharov bsd #ivan goncharov bsd #ivan bsd #ivan goncharov #blood #head trauma #gore #hes my fav minor character of choice #i love characters who have fucked up brains. the dominus fan says #i have a highly specific vision of after the cannibalism arc goncharov is taken to some government ability hospital-prison #because i think something a lot of ppl miss with him - or rather what compels me to him - is his mental vulnerability and lack of autonomy #whatever fyodor did to his brain? FUCKED UP!! i honestly just feel Bad for goncharov more than anything else #im rly not a fan of the whole shippingbrained take that hes just another like. villain yaoi guy you can ship with fyodor #when his circumstances of like. all things considered being completely unable to think properly much less consent #make him waay more dubious to ship with than like. idk shibusawa or whoever #i love goncharov tho hes really intriguing. ik he just kinda exists for shock value and a fight scene and making fyodor scarier #BUT i like him:] and people have been obsessed with characters for less so i get him #he gets a pov scene in a fic im writing with my friend dark and im excited to get to share that

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

im so Normal. totally not shaking and crying rn

#its nice to be this excited about something again! to the point of nausea! #and i Mean That #this is the good kinda stress. tis a welcome break from the usual brands #all week i've been having moments of 'ohhhh god New Information Incoming' and i have to sit down every time #and measure my breathing to chill tf out #is this unhealthy! maybe! i am trying to keep it Contained!! tightly leashed if you will #BUT OH FUCK ITS ALMOST HERE AGH AGH AGH #absolutely unprompted #welcome home #i will probably be unable to discover secrets bc i am bad with computers and the like #but hey! ill try! #if there's like... a spoiler tag yall want from me ill make sure to tag any Update Posts with it #then again wh is a unique scenario of like... Are there spoilers #bc it feels like a 'a couple people uncover stuff and then show/tell the rest' thing #but what would i know! this is kinda the first update! #LETS GO GAMERS I HOPE THE NEW STUFF IS TRAUMATIZING FOR BOTH US AND THE CHARACTERS #alright im getting to excited again im gonna go lay down #gonna be refreshing pages every ten seconds even when its completely illogical and meaningless to do so

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

im not autistic but i believe in their beliefs (because i share like 80 % of symptoms typical for autistic women with yall)

#overstimulation? check #bursts of anger? check #overwhelmed in social situations and needing a lot of downtime in my safe space? having comfort people? check #seeming ‚weird‘ to other people? check #always feeling like i dont fit in with the girls? check #overly excited over small things? check #sensory issues? check #never knowing when its my turn to talk in conversation? check #people reacting weirdly when i interject in conversations? check #monologueing about my special interests? check #special talent? semi check because i dont think im that good at drawing but i used to get in trouble in school for drawing too much #often say inappropriate/inappropriately frank and honest things unintentionally? check #extremely analytical thinking especially regarding social relationships but unable to make me less weird? check #having been the odd one in my family and school and at work all my life? check #having specific rules how everything has to be done? needing rituals and structure and a controlled environment? check #social anxiety as a result? CHECK #the list goes on… #its the adhd/bpd mix i think #personal