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samantha-and-her-chaotic-desires · 10 months

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The hazbin hatedom is getting out of hand for me it's really cringe. Your thoughts

I have mixed opinions on this. So beforehand, I am going to say that this is a longer post from me, and I appreciate the anonymous message! <3 I will be talking about this specific question, as well as my interpretation, thoughts, and overall feelings on this matter. Please feel free to reblog, like, and comment your opinions and keep it civil. I want to have a friendly discussion, no matter how brash I seem: this is brutal honesty coming from my heart.

For those who have ZERO clue: Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss are dark "comedy" shows for an adult audience, created by Vivienne "Vivziepop" Medrano, originally airing on YouTube. Helluva Boss is currently in its second season, while we have yet to find out anything else on Hazbin Hotel, as it is now a part of A24 and BentoBox. They center on the same setting, Hell, but have two different plot lines.

Hazbin Hotel is redemption focused, led by Princess Charlie Morningstar, the daughter of Lucifer. She wants to help the sinners in Hell become good and go up to heaven to avoid the yearly Exterminartion, aka a Purge. Helluva Boss, however, is about a murdering business called I.M.P., with Blitz, Millie, Moxxie, and Loona, going up to Earth with a grimoire that is provided by Stolas of the Ars Goetia, a prince. So here we go, into the Depths and reasoning of this post: the Hatedom. So lo and behold, my answer below.

On one hand, yes. The Hazbin Hatedom is a bit over the top. Yes, people are assholes. However, the Vivziepop stans who don't want to admit their precious senpai Vivziepop has done some pretty fucked up shit in the past. The hate can be unnecessary, but you know what else can be unnecessary? The toxic stans. I follow #vivziepop for certain analysis portrayals and criticism, or just general news. Sometimes people are tiresome. This is no exception.

I am falling out of the fandom because it can be toxic. I enjoy most of the characters, but other than that? Helluva Boss's current writing is NOT good. At all. The latest episode irked me to no end. I'm unimpressed with Seeing Stars. I am not very happy that they are forcing Stolitz down our throats as an "uwu pwease wove us" type of bullshit ship. I would much rather prefer Blitz and Stolas to be friends. I wished Stolas had his pilot personality and not the "uwu im a gay, tragic prince with a shitty wife, feel bad for me" bird we know in the series.

Moxxie in the latest episode is bitchy. He got on my nerves and was pissed at Millie being happy. This girl deserves more screentime (and I'm glad she got some of it) but seriously...Millie is always there for Moxxie, and Moxxie needs to reciprocate.

They made Stella seem stupid, when in reality, and if written properly, she can be a cunning and calculating villain with her brother. We've yet to see how Octavia and Stella interact, but I'm unsure.

I have definitely tried to keep my mouth shut as much as I could on this matter, because when I finally openly admit how I feel, it's not a pretty thing, especially with something that I'm so passionate about. Animation takes time, writing takes time, scripting, acting, everything takes so much time, and this is wasted potential. We can have so much better than just a fan-ficcy type rom-com, dark humor, sexual humor schtick. It's getting annoying, and I fear the worst when it comes to Hazbin Hotel.

Criticism is welcome here! Let me know what I left out. I'm willing to hear other opinions, so long as they're nice. If anons start flooding my inbox and getting mad, anons are off. Anon is a privilege, not a right.

#y'all this is the first time i really sat down to contemplate this #vivziepop #hazbin hotel #helluva boss #helluva boss critical #hazbin hotel critical #vivziepop critical #critisism #original post

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kuramirocket · 3 months

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I came across posts you wrote a long time ago about Piper Halliwell and had to reach out to thank you. It seems like literally everyone LOVES Piper Halliwell, praising her as not just their favorite Charmed one but one of the best TV characters ever, and finding someone else who dislikes her was honestly the most validating experience I've had on this site! I recently rewatched a bunch of episodes and couldn't get over just how awful Piper is past the very first season. Fans are like 'all hail our sass queen!' like it's somehow a good thing that she goes out of her way to be ridiculously mean and bitter. She never, ever, ever stops complaining about everyone and everything, and it's not just that she's always in a terrible mood---it's that she directly takes that mood out on Leo and her sisters constantly, insulting and criticizing them nonstop. (Can you believe some people here think Piper was "too good" for Leo?! The man is a saint for patiently putting up with that shrew!) And she's always praised for her heart, but while the other three actually care about innocents, Piper is always the one whining about just wanting a "normal life" and throwing literal tantrums over things like wanting a better wedding or which of two great guys she should choose while there are literal LIVES at stake lol. Speaking of which, on a show about women destined to be witches, who thought it was a good idea to have one of the three main characters whine about how much she hates being a witch in Every. Single. Episode?! She's just such a completely unpleasant character with literally the worst attitude I've ever seen, and I can honestly say she ruins the show for me. (Disliking the turn they took with Phoebe's character didn't help either!) She was unapologetically terrible even before Prue's death, and it blows my mind that fans hate Prue for being too "harsh" when Piper is like a million times worse! Thank you for bravely speaking out so that all three of us who dislike her know we're not alone!!

Hello :)

Wow, I cannot believe it's been 5 years since I watched Charmed when I made those posts. And I never did finish watching the rest of the series 😭 So, naturally it's on my to rewatch and actually finish it this time around watch list. Lol

And I'm glad I could make you feel validated. When you, unfortunately, hate or dislike a character for whatever reason, especially one a majority of fans like, it's always nice to find like minded people. It's why I'm not quiet in my opinions. I want people to have a fun and safe space in fandoms even if that's just to discuss dislike for a fan favorite! Which is why if I am anti a specific character I try to tag properly so fans who do like the character can avoid my personal thoughts. And ofc, this means also never directing said dislike towards the fans who like specific characters. I just let people enjoy what they enjoy even if I do not.

Anyways, I'm surprised people view Piper as sassy. From what I remember, I never saw her as sassy, just annoying her complaints and plotline. And yeah! Prue maybe was 'harsh,' but she's the eldest and had that responsibility of caring for her younger sisters. She had a lot of weight on her shoulders. It's why she was serious a lot of the times and seemed to be hit the hardest by their mother's death from what I recall.

I wish I could comment more, but since it's been years don't remember a lot of details.

This ask made me smile, tbh. Again, glad you were happy to find my rants validating xD

#asks #charmed #anti piper halliwell

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frost-felon · 6 months

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221 was mostly fine, and 222 was a valley of highs and lows for me. 222 is perhaps one of the chapters that suffers the most from Gege's hardcuts. I would go from, "Are we actually gonna get a better understanding of Kenny's relationship to Tengen?" to 'I love Ino, I hope he has at least a single line of dialogue.' to "'Regulations'. Are these 'higher-ups' or this 'Jujutsu Headquarters' in the room with us right now?" to bemoaning the timeskip, etc, etc.

I'm glad we got some character moments, but knowing that moments like these can't properly stand on their own weight stings. That is, the depth of each character is often held back. I noticed it particularly hard with Maki, whose actions are hard to discern (in comparison to, say, how she acted at her introduction, months prior in the story's timeframe) based on what we're given. The panel I'm discussing, for reference:

As told to some of my friends: "Is she making a light-hearted comment because she's grown fonder of Gojo? Because she's uneasy? Because she wants to lighten the mood? Is she conscious that she's still giving Gojo more credit than she did months ago?

"It's a change from how Maki acted earlier in the story, sure, but not one I can point to with analysis to her character or how her relationship to Gojo has (or hasn't) changed. It's just there."

I am factoring in how Perfect Preparation changed her, her discussions with Noritoshi, and the sumo self-discovery (which was less about Maki, in my opinion, and more about Toji haunting the narrative), but I can't really land on an interpretation for this moment, with evidence provided by earlier chapters. With the ~month-long timeskip, it is impossible for me to know if any of the character interactions I can presume happened with Maki and Gojo led to this. Simply because I can't know what those interactions were, or even how many they had.

So this ends up just being nothing. The bare minimum, and maximum, it does is tell me that Maki has returned to a state of mind where she can 'threaten' some good old-fashioned roughhousing, maybe. There are some bits just a little later that could potentially give me more to go on, but she's largely played as having the same role as at least two other people in the following scenes. There are differences in expression for the "Go get 'em, tiger." scene with Gojo, but Maki doesn't affect anything through her action or inaction, and ends up replaceable, as a result. Though not nearly to the extent of Miwa, who might as well be named "Missing", for all her lack of relevance to...anything.

This is fairly light analysis, damn near a vent post with extra steps, but I do think the short supply of character-building moments throughout the manga cheapens both its characters and its pacing. Culling Games, while having FAR more pressing issues than needing more time to flesh out characters, did suffer from the time-jumps that the first half of the manga was prone to, and I hate to see this story convention return so abruptly and damningly.

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sometipsygnostalgic · 2 years

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I'm glad to hear you talk about fandoms even if it's in a harsh light. Fandom is super important now more than ever for people's social development.

As someone who grew up on the internet but was too shy to ever get involved in fandom and just witnessed all these fandom messes from the sidelines, i'm really curious to hear analysis about it. Like people live in fandom to such a strong extent that they don't step back and realize...how repetitive this has all been. Maybe a lot of that is a product of younger people coming up and being in their "first fandom" then being taught certain obsessive or unapologetic mindsets from other people.

It's just such an interesting topic to me, the psychology and mentalities of fandom, they are very consistent. It's an aspect of modern society that is not analyzed, because it's a thing segmented for us "nerds" but like...there are a lot of us! Now more than ever! And nobody really seems to put much critical thinking into why all these internet subcultures form because we are too busy being involved in them ourselves.

I really don't want to start a discussion about any specific media series so I won't specify lol, but on my Tik Tok i frequently had made content about one of my favorite series and got popular from it. After like 6 months of no news, I just recently made a new video about said topic, and you know what a majority of comments said? Stuff like "Oh it was cringe when I liked this" "I don't like this anymore but this is cool" "This series is problematic ://"

LIKE WHAT HAPPENED?! 6 months ago people were so hyped!! Well you know what happened? The same thing that always unfortunately happens, people wised up and thanks to one singular trending post or their own matured-thinking, realized there are some problems with said series. And instead of accepting that and criticizing it, they just decided they as people were embarrassing and dumb and in the wrong for enjoying it in their past and immediately want to find something else instead. They fear the social connotations of having had enjoyed something. And that makes me sad, because with fandom especially, when you enjoy something so deeply it really affects you! You meet friends, you learn to create artwork, you spend lots of timing loving it and smiling about the series! Online culture has taught people to so easily HATE and disregard their past interests, no matter the positive effect it had on them. It's cringe now, they don't want to be cringe, so they jump elsewhere and act like their love and expression never happened. It makes me sad. I feel like the same thing happened with Adventure Time.

...I don't know what point I'm trying to make here. I just think fandom is a very important social phenomenon and most people don't recognize it as one. These are the kinds of things I think about a lot and pick up on since I'm online too much, especially since I make content, I have to study these realms to understand how to market and discuss content. But through that study I am well aware people watching me on YT are really young, so I can't openly have discussions like this despite it being such an important realm to me. I can only talk like this if its with a friend like you or the minimal amount of people who remain on tumblr lol.

What an awesome analysis Nick. I couldn't respond to it all day because I needed a time to sit down and read it properly.

You're absolutely right, though. It's a cycle. It's not unlike kids at high school going through different trends, but when we were younger, bullying didn't usually involve isolating people by calling them morally wrong and condemnable over stupid shit.

I think it's not controversial to argue that the Owl house fandom culture has its roots in Steven Universe. I remember when the Steven Universe fandom first formed, there were some specifically pretty awful people on tumblr who saw this beautiful and welcoming show and decided they would control other fans by telling them what is and isn't morally susceptible, and those fans would listen because they were trying to be Good Allies.

And it's my personal conspiracy theory that this culture actually originated from Homestuck, which was probably the most terrifying fandom I'd ever seen back in its behemoth days of 2013 when people were ripping each other to pieces over the Gamzee and Terezi abuse storyline in A6A6I3.

It's always been my policy to look back on everything that inspired me and remember how it made me feel. Even if it DOES turn out to be garbage.

Most of my old Adventure Time art is saved on my PC, I lost all my old folders when my laptop died however, which made me very sad. I only have the SAI folder now. There is some I think I'm going to delete because it's weird and I will never share it and I made it for someone who was a complete asshole to me, but even that shit is a part of what built me to who I am today. I have kept as much of my art from my school folders 10 years ago as I can.

(Harry Potter is a very sad case of a story that was utterly fundamental to me having this level of writing skill, the first fanfic i ever tried to write when i was about 7 years old and several dvds i used to watch religiously, but unfortunately i cannot talk about it at all in a positive light because the author has directly said that it makes me a transphobe like her and it's still getting millions of pounds every day with no consequence.)

It's really funny how your videos that got you views six months ago are seen as "old hat" now. That'll probably happen a lot in this fast moving world.

#nick #atimers #steven universe #owl house

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the-bi-fangirl-biatch · 2 years

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go bestie expose your feelings about the ending😔✌️

before i say anything, these are my OWN opinions! no one take them as me speaking for everyone. you can either respectfully discuss in the reblogs/replies or make your own post if you disagree that much, thank you!!

everything else is under the cut bc oh gosh this is actually pretty long lmao (dw, I have a TL;DR at the end)

let me start with the LOWS of the episode and work my way to a more positive light :)))

first off, we had no resolution to the fob watch/timeless child arc. I can still understand this bit because it's part of the mystery, but it feels like there's so much plot whose ends they still haven't tied together. did she just drop the fob watch containing ALL HER PAST MEMORIES inside the TARDIS and ignore it?? did the doctor really not tell yaz about the memories? did she do that offscreen? like- what? they set up so many plots and didn't even end up continuing them like they deserve

next is how they handled sapphic ships, specifically lesbian ships. I don't know much about the classic companions but from what i've seen, tegan and nyssa are supposed to be together and ace is lesbian-coded, but what we got was retconned tyssa and ace flirting with graham?? and I also disliked how they implied that tegan's life was so dull after being left by the doctor.

they also didnt resolve thasmin at all like?? they gave yaz SO MUCH character development and it looked like her relationship with 13 was gonna have a better resolution because of how they added more of it in EOTD and LOTSD but no?? what happened to "I want to tell you everything" and "if it was gonna be anyone it would've been you"? they just ended it with a nod and walking away silently? now here, I can understand that they both don't want to say goodbye (the doctor bc she hates goodbyes and yaz bc she's holding out hope that they may see each other again) BUT we deserve more than just that. (maybe this is bc I was imagining a killing eve s3 finale-esque goodbye wherein both yaz and the doctor stop in their tracks and turn around for a final goobye kiss, but that's on me lmao)

in addition to that, why is it that the first sapphic doctor is the only one who didn't get a kiss in her entire run, when she had so much chances to kiss yaz? and please don't say "we know it's confirmed to be romantic so we don't need the kiss" bc we have had enough shipping based on subtext and post-show confirmations. i agree that physical touch doesn't define a relationship but can't we have it this once? would it be so hard to give us this on their final day?

finally, imo they hardly gave enough time for jodie to say goodbye to her role properly. it would still have been ok if the episode was only filled to the brim with classic who nostalgia, but then they made her regenerate to 10. instead of giving her (the first female doctor) or ncuti (the first black doctor) the spotlight, they decide to bring back the most popular (and most used) doctor, david tennant. don't get me wrong i LOVE david as a person, but there's a difference between bringing someone back for a cameo and overusing them. with all honesty, I'm tired of him and ten 🤷.

and not only that, they took their most popular (white male cishet) doctor, aka the one that most if not all NMDs compare jodie to, and put him at the end as a cliffhanger? like he was the one they should have been waiting for? they must know that they're diverting people's attention away from appreciating jodie's ending and ncuti's beginning. I keep seeing stuff on twitter like "finally, the good doctor who! they're gonna restore doctor who back to its formal glory! this will prove that the female doctor was a mistake!" which is UTTER BULLSHIT

now here are the HIGHS of the episode because there were a lot of them too:

I LOVED how this episode gave closure to some of the classic companions, aka tegan and ace. I squealed when ace called the doctor "professor" and I'm glad they didn't shy away from showing that a previous companion was (rightfully) upset with the doctor. and all the callbacks! the nitro 9, ace's jacket, and her bat, too. don't even get me STARTED on the "support group for former companions" because that was amazing. IAN WAS THERE?!?!? and it gives such a good open end to them, not only for future projects but also for fanfiction lmao.

the plot of this episode was impressive and fun. its length contributed significantly because it defo wouldn't have worked if it wasn't as long. I really wasnt expecting it to make as much sense as it did because it was a great undertaking, but I'm glad it did. it showed the best parts of chibnall's take on doctor who (utilizing iconic classic who elements well and his own take on history).

THE CHARACTERS!!! gahdamn I loved how they gave the characters their own jobs that only they can handle, like kate and tegan with the cybermen (bc of their history with them), ace with the daleks (same reason, her history) and yaz saving the doctor (bg their PARALLELS here I wanna bawl).

I was also obsessed with the master in this episode!! Sacha played him as such an unhinged little pathetic brat man (affectionate) but he also proved that he was more than capable of delivering powerful scenes. compare the humour of the rasputin dance sequence vs the master so desperately wanting to be the doctor because he feels lonely. he's one of the consistently great things about this episode. i will be hearing RA RA RASPUTIN on repeat in my head for the foreseeable future (as well as thirteen's theme 😭😭😭).

Yaz taking charge!!! my little badass who's grown from being unsure about facing a potential threat in s11 to kicking (the master's) ass, saving ace, flying the tardis like it was nothing, and reversing a regeneration?!?! and not to mention Mandip's acting. she's proven that she has the range of badass action, deep emotion, hilarious comedy, and just raw heart. she's amazing, showstopping, phenomenal. and out of my favourite companions, yaz is the one I connect to the most, both with her struggles (in her mental health, in growing as a person, and in learning she's queer) and her strengths (hopefully her heart, her love for friends, her courage), so to see her grow at the same time as I have is so special to me.

finally, people may disagree with me on this, but I love thirteen's regeneration speech, due to the fact that she did not do it on her own, she didnt just talk to herself on that cliffside (that was just the last bit). most of her speech was to YAZ, her companion, her friend, the one who's supposed to be the viewer's stand-in. her entire message of "goodbyes only hurt because what came before was so special, and it's been so special. no body else got to be us, no body else got to live our days, no body. and my hearts are so full of love for all of you" was not just the doctor to yaz, but jodie and mandip to us. and idc if yall don't like her last words, "Tag, you're it" is SO THIRTEEN and is instantly iconic.

TL;DR I disliked: the abandoned fob watch plot, how they handled sapphic/lesbian characters, the way they hinted at thasmin but never properly resolved them, nostalgia overtaking Jodie's time to say goodbye, and yet another doctor played by david tennant, who I think is overused I LOVED: the closure this gave to tegan and ace, both of them and kate being given unique spotlight, the Former Companion Support Group™️, Sacha Dhawan as the Master, Mandip GIll as Yaz, seeing how much yaz has grown, Jodie Whittaker as The Doctor, aaand 13's regeneration speech (which was directed to yaz and to us, not just to herself)

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butdriampagliacci · 11 months

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Hello!!! I just wanted to tell you that I just finished reading 'Wildfire' and I absolutely adored every moment. The way you express the relationship between them is also very similar to mine so it was such a delight to be reading this fic.

I wanted to ask if you would be open to having a translation in Spanish of the fic? I would be doing it on my free time so I don't know if I would be able to manage a proper schedule. I would be sending you the chapters so you could post them in your account of course.

This is such an amazing piece that I want more people to read it and appreciate your talent as much as I do.

I will keep an eye out if you respond positively so I could reach out to you and introduce myself properly so we can work things out. And please don't feel pressured!!! I will understand if you don't want to and I will respect whatever decision you take.

First, thank you! I'm so glad you enjoyed it!

Second, you're welcome to translate my work. (In fact, there's already a Russian translation :D ) The easiest way to publish that, however, would be for you to create an AO3 account and post the translation as a "related work." That way credit would be still be clear for both of us (you, the translator, and me, the original author), and the process is bit more straightforward. We can discuss it more if you have questions/concerns about doing it that way!

And no worries about sticking to a strict schedule! Go at whatever pace works for you~

#answered

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bookishfeylin · 2 years

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Hi again! Thank you for responding to my question and for being so sweet! <3 I'm new to your blog and have been scrolling through your posts and I feel so seen and safe here.

To answer your question, the reason I think Bryce is a WOC is because her biological father is white and her mother's skin color was never described. Her mother's description is very short and vague (long black hair, dark eyes, full lips) I think SJM did this intentionally to leave it up to the reader's imagination (If it's supposed to be her idea of representation, it's poorly done) But Bryce must have gotten her naturally tanned skin from somewhere, so I assumed her mom was either brown or black. There are only like two artworks of Bryce's mom and she has brown/tan skin in both of them so It's nice to know I'm not the only one who imagines her like that.

Aww, I'm glad you feel welcome here anon!

So based on your response, it seems like there are several issues at work here:

A) Fandom defaulting to view undescribed characters as white. Due to white supremacy nearly all of us (in the west, at least) default to believing a character is white when they aren't properly described. We are raised thinking of white people as the default human being, and sadly this has dangerous real-world ramifications, like doctors often struggling to identify signs and symptoms of some diseases on darker skin, because they were only taught how to do so on white people, and pulse oximeters (what we use to check oxygen levels in the hospital) being more likely to get incorrect readings on darker skin because they were designed with only white people in mind. This combination is deadly in healthcare. It's not intentional malice, it's simply our society so deeply entrenching in us that the default human being has pale white skin that we don't think about developing technology like pulse oximeters that work for dark skin, or expanding medical practices to correctly identify the symptoms of certain diseases on darker skin. It's systemic racism. So yes, we live in a society that teaches us all to view white people as the default human being, and people assuming Bryce and her mother are white when they very well could not be is a minor expression of that.

B) Stans and Sarah alike using Bryce to undermine POC when we discuss the racism in her books. Sarah's books do not... treat POC well. At all. I've discussed Sarah's racism, predominantly in the ACOTAR series, here, here, here, and here, but if you want more stuff about Throne of Glass specifically I recommend checking out @battlestar-royco's old posts tagged anti sjm/anti throne of glass from around 2018 or so. The point is, Sarah is not... well she ain't doing well in the diversity department, and it's one of the main criticisms she receives. And Sarah stans despise any criticism of her books or writing. So when Bryce was described as "golden skinned," some stans used that opportunity to insist Bryce was a woman of color, despite no textual evidence to indicate that, so no one was allowed to complain about the racist writing plaguing Sarah's books anymore. As you said, it may have been purposeful on Sarah's part, but not because she truly wanted to leave Bryce's race up to the imagination--but to deflect any criticism she's faced for her poorly written characters of color.

So it's a multifaceted issue. Bryce's race isn't ever fully elaborated on, so she can be imagined as a woman of color, and the fact that most people default to seeing her as white and pale regardless speaks to a larger culture that views whiteness as the default. But some stans argue that Bryce's mother's race not being elaborated on=a person of color=amazing representation. Which it's... decidedly not.

#ask #anon #sjm critical #on media #racism #crescent city

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honey-beann · 1 year

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I'm so in love with ur Ruiner, Ruination fic omg ヽ(o´3`o)ﾉ i love how you actually put a case inside so it felt like i was solving the case with him... love when i have to actually use my brain sometimes. And gwyneth girly noooo.. rlly love how the way she asked reader abt connor before the thing happened :-(. sorry if this sounds like a Canvas discussion post I just rlly rlly love ur fic hahaha.

Also love the aesthetic posts u reblogged :3

Omg thank you so much for all of your kind words, and no worries about this sounding like a canvas discussion post lol, it totally doesn't!

Also, I'm super glad to hear you enjoyed the case-based chapters of the series so far! I definitely spent a decent chunk of time planning that whole thing out (I'm more of an illogical thinker than I am a logical/sensical one, so trust me, my brain was in sport mode trying to think up an interesting case that would make sense lmao) , so it makes me really happy to hear that it felt like the two of you were actually solving the case together like I intended :)

I also am super surprised at how many people liked the little detail about Gwyneth mentioning Connor! I was worried it would come across as a random, so it really makes me happy to know that I was able to properly convey the idea that he was a hero to her the same way that human revolutionists are heroes to those they help revolutionize!

And thank you for appreciating the aesthetic reblogs :) I try to collect the things that inspire me and have them in queue so people can see some of the ideas, factors, and imagery that may drive the stories I write forward in the future! I thought it would be a cool way to show people what might be coming up fic wise without writing out a bunch of posts about ideas, excerpts, etc.

Anyways, this is a long ass response, so I'm sorry for the word vomit, but I really appreciate you taking the time to let me know all of your thoughts! It really made my day when I read all of your kind words, and I just wanted to acknowledge how amazing it is when writers get feedback like this.

People like you are what keep us writers writing even when we don't get a ton of engagement, so thank you for helping keep the inspiration and drive alive! <3

#not fic related #asks #thank you!

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lutawolf · 2 years

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Hii Luta, it's L again 🤗 Sorry it took me a while to get back to you, universe decided I don't deal with enough and decided to yeet some more drama in my life… But here I am!

And based on one of your answers, I could be also narrowed down to 20ish people because I also started following you since KP analysis. 👀

Thank you for being so kind and supportive about my journey! And the reason I really enjoy all of your posts and interactions with us is in fact because you're so blunt and get to the point. I think it makes it so much easier for everyone to understand you're being serious about the topics you cover.

In my case, I didn't get cancelled (yet) anywhere because my mantra is to keep sush about topics I didn't do proper research on, but it's true that way too many people get cancelled so easy and it's just sad… Imagine we started cancelling babies for not knowing how to hold fork properly on their first day. The example is ridiculous, but we're kinda heading that way, aren't we? Cancelling teens for some stupid thing they said without even trying to educate them before deciding "yeah, this one really deserves to be cancelled because they refuse to be educated".

And one more thing before I ask my question - takhunpetestan SLAYED THAT ENGLISH ASK! They should be proud! Another win for bilinguals!

Now, my question, and I'm sorry if you talked about this before and I missed it somehow, but can two switches function well together? Does their compatibility also depend on who leans more to dom and who leans more to sub or did I totally miss the target?

Hope you're having a good day :)

Hey Hey L!!!

Hope everything has calmed down.

If you joined me after my first Kinnporsche post, you are one of twenty. Anyone before Kinnporsche is one of thirty. When I posted my first D/s post is when I blew up. Went from a few followers to holy hell what just happened! 🤣🤣🤣

I'm glad I can be helpful. While I have walls a mile high, I try my best to be there for people. I know what it's like to figure things out on your own. Luckily, I didn't have to do that with the Kink community so maybe I'm just giving back. Either way, I'm glad that you've found a safe space.

The direct to the point and blunt is the Dom. If you think about it, we can't be miscalculated or misunderstood. It has to be clear cut to the point. Usually I form my commands as asks, especially because I Dom in public and it doesn't need to be that clear to outsiders. It's also why I repeatedly ask if something make sense. I can't move forward if it doesn't make sense to you. So it's become habit, lol.

Cancel culture really bothers me. If I make a mistake, I say it and own it but that can't happen if we can't talk openly. What happen to educating and discussing? I used to try and have discussions with other blogs on here but I think they mistook me for being an ass cause of how I come off? I come from the racist and bigoted South and if you think there isn't those two things on the reservation then you would be sadly mistaken. Growing up, I didn't realize how problematic some of the things I had been taught were and it took being educated by others to come to this enlightened state, I am now in. That said, when it involves the safety of others then yeah it's time to do something.

Example: An actor that doesn't believe in homosexuality. That is someone I'm go to try to educate. Am I going to cancel them? No. They are allowed their opinion no matter how wrong I think it is. The minute they start with the hate speech though, it's a far different matter.

They really did slay that English ask. Did amazing.

Two switches can absolutely work. If they are compatible, it's beautiful. Yes a D/s relationship is about imbalance but there is still a counter balance to us. The right Dom with the right sub, compatibility probably is the best word to use. That said, switches that don't balance are a nightmare. One of my besties is submissive to me and her partner in every day life but when she is with her partner sexually. She is the Dom. They are a beautiful couple. It's just about finding the balance. I've seen two very Dom switches together and the fights, lawd. Then I've seen the same thing in another couple where they had a little more control so all that Dom energy when clashed together was passionate! There is a lot that goes into the dynamics and how they fit. Again, this is lifestyle D/s which isn't the same dynamic as scene D/s.

Sorry this got long. Hope it was helpful. 💜💜💜

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azulas-daddy-kink · 1 year

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(bi man anon) thank you for answering! it's horrible that both of us, and certainly many other bi people, have to go through this treatment just to exist in fandom spaces as ourselves.

you certainly did nothing wrong with the azula post. it was properly tagged and didn't cross tag into actual ships. it's just how the biphobes are. when i was younger, i had once tried to run a blog not engaging in discourse but simply supporting headcanons, and i still constantly got hateful messages and threats for going against 'canon' even though they all but had to go out of their way to find my blog, if i remember right i hadn't even maintagged anything. it's long since deleted by now though, and i never saved any receipts, so take it with a grain of salt i suppose. needless to say, i understand your story and i believe you acted rationally. the one who brought it back up after you de-escalated and left the conversation was incredibly childish and seems to be a reoccurring situation in general with this type of thing.

i do wonder how much of it is tied into other discourses, i most frequently see this kind of behavior with antis. i wouldn't be surprised at all if some proshippers did the same. there's a lot to be said in general about exclusionism and the treatment of bi folk (many gay people wish for us to water ourselves down to nothing more than gay and lesbian, just with a different word. seems to lineup a lot with anti-aro/ace and forcing nonbinary people into binaries ie transmasc or transfem, denying the existence of transneutrality and pressuring them into outing themselves, or the usage of amab and afab in casual discussion rather than medical contexts or other cases where it's actually relevant) a lot of it all seems to circle right back into radfem ideology. unfortunately, a prevalent ideology even in fandom spaces.

thank you, again, for sharing one of your stories. i have never harassed anyone either, over anything, much less headcanons. it seems incredibly common that people will take someone disagreeing with their headcanon as a personal attack. you can say you don't mind a lesbian or gay headcanon, but prefer a bi one, and people will still get mad. it's unfortunate. thankfully, we have stubborn bi people who'll hold their ground even through the harassment and poor treatment. i hope you'll hold tight onto your bi azula headcanon, and every other bi headcanon you have. i'll be doing the same for mine.

Hey, nice to hear from you again! I was honestly more than happy to make that post, and I'm especially glad that my experience and the way I handled these things was validated.. I'm always made to feel like I'm doing something wrong by reacting accordingly to the disrespect, and I'm sure I'm not alone in that either.

I really think that you're absolutely right in some of these other points you brought up. Namely it being a common theme in online spaces now that people are just plain immature and rehash arguments for no reason... but also I think you're onto something about this tying into other types of discourse, and certainly aphobia and enbyphobia as well. These types of discrimination (biphobia, aphobia, enbyphobia) are pretty socially acceptable, sadly, even in queer or majority queer fandom spaces... it sucks. And we're not the only ones who've noticed it either.

You're also 100% right about people in general treating disagreement like a personal attack. You say you have a different headcanon and they act like you ran over their dog -__-

Anyways, feel free to send asks any time, I think it's important to talk about this stuff! And I'll be holding onto my bi Azula headcanon as well, they can pry it from my cold dead hands<3

#ask response #anon ask #lgbt #bisexual #biphobia #atla #azula #bizula

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wxtchpilot · 1 year

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hello you are now on the receiving end of the Unexpected Bryn Positivity Hour

I actually don't know what to call you so we should fix that, but nevertheless! Oh my gosh, your passion and love for Suletta shines through with absolutely everything you do, whether that's headcanon posts or replies or just light musings about things. As a fellow Suletta Mercury-adorer, I'm so glad to see her written by someone so interested in exploring her story and doing her justice.

You're also so much fun to talk to and write with! It's honestly a blast just chilling and talking about the Old Days Of Anime hahaha, but also plotting out interaction ideas and looking forward to future threads. I'm so glad that you've accepted Niko so warmly, and I'm having a truly wonderful time with everything. I honestly don't know when the last time I had an AU go so well and so smoothly, and so much of that is down to how easy you are to talk to, and how wonderful all your replies are. Thank you for everything!

[ I NEVER DID POINT OUT WHAT PEOPLE CAN CALL ME, that's my bad!

Can call me Kia. ^^

But seriously, thank you so much for this! We haven't known each other long but I agree, you're such a fun person to talk to and I love hearing your ideas about Nikolette, she's such an interesting and fun character. I can tell you put a lot of love and thought behind her too and that's always so fun to see people do. Makes me want to learn about her in all your verses honestly haha. Something about her is so captivating that it has me so curious and interested to learn as much as possible. ^^

I'm really glad you're having fun too, I am too. Despite my nerves about writing Suletta, you've been so understanding and patient with me. Wish I could properly express my appreciation for that since its so hard to do in text.

I look forward to having more interactions between Nikolette and Suletta, and us talking too! Whether it be about random non-roleplay stuff or discussing things about roleplays/our characters.

I've been having a blast and once again, glad to hear that you are too. Thank you for everything as well. ♥ ]

#OOC #nobleburn #ask #[ I wasn't expecting this at all and I appreciate and am grateful for every single word ♥ ]

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historyhermann · 2 years

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A blue-skinned wizard and the library on the bowels of a spaceship

The Librarian worrying about his library in episode 11, "Ragnabook: Part One"

In the past, I reviewed the Australian animated series, Prisoner Zero, mentioning an old, frail character, named the librarian (voiced by Gary Martin) has a library buried deep inside of a spaceship called the Rogue, how he has magical powers, and his interactions with the story's protagonists, even though his appearance fulfills usual librarian stereotypes, although he once was younger. I am glad to report that apart from his appearance in the episode "Librarian" (the show's sixth episode) the library first appears as a flashback in the episode "Schism" (episode 8) and there are two other episodes specifically focused on the library: "Ragnabook: Part One" and "Ragnabook: Part Two." Unfortunately, while the Librarian becomes a main character, the library does not appear in episode 9, nor in episodes 12-26, almost half the show! So, that's a damn shame. Anyway, I'd still like to highlight the three episodes I didn't focus on in my last post and talk about the value of libraries, and librarians, which are emphasized in the episodes.

Let's start with the episode "Schism." Tag and Prisoner Zero go through the library on the ship in hopes of changing time back to its usual course. The librarian helps him (Prisoner Zero) regain his memory. There is then a final scene in the library at the end of the episode. This serves as a major part of the episode. I would include the images in this post from that episode, but I don't want to make this post too image-heavy, as I used to do in some of my early posts on this blog, so I'm trying to be mindful of that. Instead, I'll probably add the images to my newsletter. With that, I'd like to focus on the episodes "Ragnabook: Part One" and "Ragnabook: Part Two." The thing that made me so sad about this was the piles of books we see here (and in other episodes in the series). Those books should be properly organized, rather than just be in piles. How can anyone find the books or access them when they are in these piles? That is never answered, of course.

We then get to the episode "Ragnabook: Part One." A monster escapes from the "forbidden section" of the library; they (Zero, Tag, and Jem) all go down to the library and find it in a bad shape, with every room a dangerous place with the monster on the loose; the librarian tells Tag that libraries aren't just for storing books but for retaining information in all its forms (artifacts, public records, images, living creatures). The monster attacks them all and only has one purpose: to rewrite history and to know all knowledge; Tag and Jem travel into the forbidden section to help defeat the monster. Zero fights off books with a book insider the monster which wants to destroy the universe. It turns out that the monster is a living, thinking book from the "dark times" which documented the achievements of victors. The librarian is exhausted by caring for his library for thousands of years, fighting off people/intruders in the process. Later, the books try to attack Tag and Jem and eat them, like cookbooks. The fact that the Librarian is exhausted by his duties (as he says explicitly) is the first time I've seen librarian burnout in a show, whether live-action or animation. As Jade Geary and Brittany Hickey wrote, in the publication In The Library with the Lead Pipe, "librarians need to be able to openly discuss burnout and know that they are not alone in dealing with it" and noted that even with the "overwhelming number of librarians who have experienced burnout, it is not a topic...mentioned in lectures or assigned readings in library school" even though the profession is "rife with burnout."

Jem in the library in the episode "Ragnabook: Part One," worrying about the monster. Tag, Zero, and the Librarian are in the background. This is NOT a way to organize books. Librarians are bound to organize books correctly and in an accessible way, not in literal book piles. Lazy choice by animators here.

In the episode "Ragnabook: Part Two," the Librarian continues to fight the monster with Zero, while Tag and Jem try another way, going through different rooms of the library. The Librarian says there is power in knowledge and that it should not be destroyed. He also tells how he became the librarian, started his life, and wanted to make his "mark on history." He built the library from his mind, apparently. Zero says that the library was even more incredible back in its heyday but the Librarian got old. Zero notes that a library is not redundant with all these stories, plays, and so on. Zero says that he just needs new visitors, noting that members of his crew are patrons who go to the library to explore "endless possibilities" in the books. Zero later pleads with the librarian to remember his past, who recorded the truth in his books; he shared stories of the library across the cosmos, leaving it open to everyone! Jenn says the best thing in libraries is books, although this implies that libraries are only books, which is wrong. Sadly, the whole library is destroyed so the librarian has to start over. That sucks. For some reason, the producers of this show never feature an episode where he rebuilds the library. BOO!

Let's analyze this librarian. He is definitely providing "the highest level of service" to library users, along with "appropriate and usefully organized resources," as mentioned in the ALA Code of Ethics. He is also providing access to information, supporting people in their information sharing (by making the library open to everyone in the cosmos) per the short version of the IFLA Code of Ethics. This is despite the fact that he considered ownership over the library, which is why I called it a personal library. He, and Zero, make clear what Moya M. Mason pointed out in a 1990s article: "Libraries are repositories for humanity's knowledge; they are our past, our present, and our future. They are much more than storehouses for books, and include many other forms of data." That is something that animation should make more clear in the future. I'm not sure he has to endure any ethical dilemmas, however. Even so, the library is shown as an important institution and its value is emphasized.

In 2017, Sadie Trombetta, a freelance writer and book reviewer, of Bustle listed seven reasons why she believed that libraries are essential:

They offer free educational resources to everyone.

Libraries are safe refuges for the homeless and underserved populations.

They help boost local economies

They play an important role in English language learning.

Libraries make communities healthier.

They preserve history, and more importantly, truth.

Libraries help connect communities.

In this animation, since the library is on I'd say that #1, #6, and #7 are most relevant, but so is, perhaps, #5. I'd like to end this post with one of my favorite parts, from the episode "Ragnabook: Part Two" which shows patrons from the cosmos in the library on the Rogue:

With that, this post comes to a close.

Reprinted from Pop Culture Library Review and Wayback Machine.

#prisoner zero #librarians #pop culture #reviews #libraries #ala #code of ethics #ifla

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pxper-cranes · 2 years

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Some thoughts on Monster High 2022

When I first Heard that Monster High was going to get a live action treatment I was really scared, and while the film is yet to even properly release, It seems that the negatives outweigh the positives. I mean as far as live action reboots have gone, we've all seen worse, but there's a lot so things to discuss.

Ok so starting off with the positives; The notion of getting canon non-binary Frankie Stein played by a non-binary actor is so slay I'm glad it gave us that at least. I feel like it is a really natural and interesting way to take the character, and any queer rep in monster high of all places is welcomed with open arms, now all we need is for Clawdeen and Draculaura to hold hands perhaps as well.

As far as the fashion is concerned, I'm less excited. Now while I'm not a fashion expert, I feel that the outfits chosen haven't been curated to the level they could have been. While they remain 'vaguely accurate' to each character's aesthetics, I feel as if more could have been done. For instance, drive up Frankie's chaotic academia look, mismatch socks and shoes, go thrifting, dive completely into the gothic lolita fashion for Draculaura, and maybe be a little bit less on the nose with Clawdeen, perhaps instead going for a leather jacket with a fur trim instead of that large bushy coat. outfits are important to a character, it can show how they strive to present themselves and can tell the audience what a character has access to and what they are equipped and prepared to handle, and so far the costuming looks rather cheap and not as natural as it could be, which could all be because of possible budget constraints

Something else I'm a bit gloomy about is the unavoidable lack of a lot of prominent fan favourite characters. Abbey and Clawd specifically come to mind as two I haven't seen yet and will be greatly missed, especially after their lack of appearance in the last monster high reboot. I know monster high has a lot of characters and this is just one movie, but its a bit upsetting that some favs wont make the cut.

And last concern, or perhaps just observation, is the cinematography and stage stuff. Now I am by no means an expert, and can bet money on this being because of budget constraints, but a lot of the clips I've seen so far make the movie look a lot more like a stage play/musical rather than a film. It looks like they're on a stage most of the time with minimal or cheap props and a lot of smoke machines, specifically in the 'Thee of us' number, which also seems to insinuate a decrease in musical quality from the animated films, at least in my opinion. personally I wouldn't have been opposed to this being a stage play if that would have been more applicable to the kinds of thing the people being the movie would be able to produce, which would alleviate many of my concerns.

But in the end, I'm just kinda glad to see the Monster High fandom alive and well, you guys really are troopers for sticking it out this long, and while I most likely wont follow the production for the new film or seek it out once it releases, I hope it gives a new generation the same kind of love it did to people like me when I was younger, and I comment the people behind the film for following in what I hope is for many of them a passion project.

Edit: Learned the directors a racist, which sucks. There's tons of info about all that on here under the monster high tags rn, alongside the controversy about the actors of Clawdeen and Cleo being more light skinned than their animated movie counterparts specifically, which sucks to see, especially in this fandom. I mean, monster high has tackled racism in media before, their whole thing is about unapologetically being yourself, even when other people don't like it, and for a series which is supposed to stand for marginalised groups like that failing to reach these standards is disappointing. I didn't bring it up in the original post, because A. I'm white myself, which means I am by no means the person to throw in two cents on issues such as this and B. there are many blogs by creators who are POC and who have the authority necessary to comment properly on this issue. But that's basically, all I hope, sorry this was such a long post out of nowhere.

#monster high #clawdeen wolf #frankie stein #draculaura #monster high 2022 #rambles

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xphanuel · 2 years

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the reason it's not really kind to go on someone's post about being happy about HRT and bringing in immediately about how badly it affects people it doesn't work out for is because we hear it Constantly, as a way to stop us from becoming ourselves through transition. I agree detransitioners go through a lot and are deserving of support, but when someone else expresses joy and you damper it using the thing that people used so much to prevent them from doing what they wanted for years, they won't like it. making a new post is actually good because that way you can post in multiple tags related on the topic and get input from them and discuss & seek support instead of just telling someone the way they altered their body of their own volition for their comfort is not cool to you. i hope you are more understanding in the future.

Show me where I said it wasn't cool they felt happy with their transition. Please.

I specifically wrote "I'm glad transitioning was right for you" SPECIFICALLY so they understood I wasn't being malicious. I hope your reading comprehension gets clearer in the future.

I'm able to comment on whatever I want to, they left their post public. If you don't want people commenting on the post, make it private for your mutuals. I have made posts on this before, they don't gain traction and starts no discussions. Asking me to stop interacting with people in general because THEY got offended is just bizarre. We can all talk about both of these truths; trans people do exist and HRT is necessary to lead a normal life as trans and some trans people aren't actually trans and will detransition and made a huge mistake. I jumped through all of the "HRT hoops" with flying colors and I STILL made a mistake. They didn't address my blatant cPTSD. None of the doctors. I can't even sue because I signed the informed consent forms. I knew what I signed obviously, and made peace with it, but I'm talking about how to properly get trans people the help they need, while simultaneously, how to get non trans people the help they need BEFORE altering their bodies under a false pretense.

You guys can stop "explaining" what happened, I understood after I got attacked. No matter what I say people are going to be upset, so fuck em. Let em be upset, I'm going to continue talking about this shit until the day I die. If they felt attacked by being told a literal fact, that's their problem, not mine.

I tried to start a discussion and found someone who didn't want to have one. That's all that happened.

#Asks #Answer #Yall can go home now it's been almost a week #At the very least 3 days #I have no perception of time lmfao #I love cptsd

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rabbitindisguise · 2 years

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It took me 24 hours but I came around to figuring out I messed up, how, and how to fix it, but it's . . . it's a lot. It's something that has been a very integral thing to becoming a better person and taking responsibility for my actions, and not causing conflict. And so this post is much longer than some others.

I've been using this:

And I thought because I had made a lot of progress I was okay with something that I wasn't okay with- and over confident that if I wasn't I could handle it. I ended up messing up the first step of having a good discussion and had an argument as a result of that (something I'm trying really hard to avoid).

The other mistake I made was projecting and focusing on the mistakes of other people, which is common result after I feel defensive and start an argument that wasn't happening before I caused it. One of my primary goals is focusing on changing myself, not trying to change other people, and taking responsibility for my actions as an adult so that I don't hurt anyone I care about. Projecting doesn't succeed at doing any of those goals, and it deflects blame for my actions into other people without me properly holding myself accountable for them.

I realized this around dinner by examining the facts and evidence (other conversations that have gone well, and this conversation that made me uncomfortable). I eventually realized what I did on my own before I was told what I did by someone else which is- unfortunately- progress. Since I've done that, I can properly apologize without all the defensiveness getting mixed into the attempt at an apology . . . though not right now because I'm too upset and it would be more self flagellation than it would be helpful. I think tomorrow maybe I'll check in with myself and compose a couple drafts. I'm hoping that the impact was bigger to me than it was for other people, but I'm preparing myself for having enough energy to do more than getting told it wasn't a big deal. I'm not sure if being told it wasn't a big deal is an affect of being proactive, or if I make people too uncomfortable to be honest, but solving this problem should address some of the reasons I could be making people uncomfortable.

I know being willing to come around, remorse helping motivate my change rather than entrench me in my behaviors, placing the responsibility squarely on my own shoulders, and feeling the urgency of the problem acutely is all very important to making progress on it (and awareness that I didn't have before) so I should feel better about this than I actually do. It is, strictly speaking, a kind of progress.

Unfortunately it's those very things that make it so difficult to acknowledge the good things. Logically, this is like anything else I've done this past month. The topic is much more emotionally charged though because of how much of a problem it has been in the past. I think that's part of what's contributing to the feeling that this isn't a victory, though I'm glad I could figure it out myself using the methods I have been using and eventually coming up with a possible solution that's a concrete step to the problem I can work on. The things I needed for progress when this happened before were something I lacked, because I justified my assumption that I was being argued with rather than realize it was baseless. And everything else I justified with the idea that I was mentally ill and convinced I couldn't change it (and my psychiatrist telling me that these things were normal concerns was a revelation that let me get started on these problems). Being past that has made the effort on changing more effective I think, along with the medication, sleeping regularly, and eating regular meals.

The confluence of events that preceded it made it harder to focus on what I could do about it, and caused a panicking sinking sensation that the stuff I wasn't doing wasn't enough- which fed into my guilt and self imposed helplessness about the situation. It occurred after a period of stagnation where I was making very little progress. I loosened up on holding back from saying anything more than active listening because things had been good for awhile. I justified this by thinking that maybe I could consider harder, more difficult conversations since having a detox from activism. I ignored the fact that I noticed my emotions were murkier and more distant from my awareness because I assumed it something that would pass, or wouldn't impact me. I dismissed my concerns that there would be another shoe that would drop soon since it typically does after a big event happens: I feel bad, and then I work through those emotions, and I make the same mistakes (and before I would double down and get upset when criticized- I'm hoping being proactive and apologizing has helped prevent that, but knowing this is still I problem I need to come up with a way to intercept me doubling down. I also should figure out a way to handle topics where I have a disagreement but it's not about topics I can avoid). I wasn't as cautious as I could have been of the depressive episode I'm slowly slipping into. I can't dwell on these things too long because I need to make the apology I give about the other person. However I need to record that they happened and make a note to notice these things going forward, and maybe make a habit chart to use to be cautious of tackling new or difficult things in the future.

Ultimately I've come to the conclusion that the way I was trying to say things to reflect my intentions (being clear about my uncertainty, trying not to talk loudly, trying it redirect the conversation to stuff we agreed on, and leaving as soon as I realized the conversation wasn't going anywhere) didn't work to change my behavior. Doing these things can't blunt the impact of me arguing too much when I disagree, and I need to remember that saying an argument nicely is still an argument. Since I've had better success with not arguing with people on Tumblr since not engaging with things I disagree with, I need to treat all disagreements in person like posts I don't agree with on Tumblr. By blanking it out entirely, beyond paying attention to who said it so I can avoid talking about it with them or around them, hopefully I can stop starting conflicts in person as well as I did online. It sucks that I'm so bad at this I can't handle it, but it's better to stop doing the behavior than to try and fix it while risking hurting people's feelings. I'd rather be incompetent at disagreeing than making that everyone else's problem. I want to be a person people are comfortable around. I want to be the kind of person who can have amicable conversations about things that mean a lot to me while being willing to change my mind too, but this has shown I can't do that yet (and I might never get there), and so I have to let this goal go to solve the more pressing problem.

And just to combat my doubts from earlier today: this is worth doing and I am making progress, no matter how difficult and slow and tedious it can feel or how much it can hurt to know I hurt others in the past many magnitudes more than I realized. I think it's worth doing regardless of any rewards because there's no way I can let myself give up until I can achieve the bare minimum of not being mean, and eventually strive for achieving being nice. Everything I'm doing is worth that security and reassurance with myself.

It's a relief to finish this post. It's probably not perfect, but I'm glad it's done. It was cathartic to write, and erase all the things I said that I didn't agree with physically by deleting them. I removed whole paragraphs and rephrased some sentences at least three or four times. Even if the first time I didn't say it in the way I needed to, I got there eventually.

#personal #mental illness #Lex don't read yet please?

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space-kitten-606 · 2 years

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Oh oh oh I have a request! 🙋🏼‍♀️

This is oddly specific and I’m so sorry if you’ve done this one before and I missed it! I literally just thought this and then couldn’t stop thinking it.

Saeyoung...teaching you to drive??

Like say maybe MC lives in a city where lots of people never learn how to drive (I live in a place like this) and he finds out they don’t know how and is like ??? let me teach you~

Anyway I bow down to you and your writing and I’m excited to read any and all requests you do 😍

It's basically been a year, if not longer and I am SO sorry!! So much happened and I'm honestly just glad I am still here. I actually had this finished for quite a while, but lost my notes too so I could never actually post it....until today because I finally found them!!! Who would've thought that I was literally walking past them every single day ;-;

Anyway, here it is. I hope it is alright, especially since I can't drive myself so I have no clue how driving actually works. I am pretty sure I looked it up as I wrote it though, so I hope I didn't misunderstand uwu

Saeyoung teaching Mc how to drive

you never thought much about learning to drive

sure, most of your friends had cars already and plenty of jobs even required it, but it never seemed too necessary for you

all you ever needed to reach in your day to day life you could easily get to via public transport

and if you really ended up in a pickle, either Uber or friends and family had your back

now that you lived with a car enthusiast however, things changed a bit

while Saeyoung was more than happy to drive you wherever you wanted, he was shook to hear you had no license

how empty must your life be without the love of a sweet baby car?

without the experience of having it’s motor purr beneath you, and follow your every whim??

no matter how many times you told him that you were entirely fine with the love you received from your boyfriend - him, he was relentless

you discussed it back and forth with him, when saw his eyes shine at a thought flashing through his mind

“I could teach you!!”

you thought he was kidding at first

but the sparkle in his eyes and the twitching of his leg told you he was dead serious

“I…I don’t know about this Sae….”

“It’ll be great! I’m the best driver you’ll ever meet and I’ll get to take out one of my older babies I don’t use so much anymore!!”, he paused for a moment as you raised your brow. “Listen, sweetie. I love you more than my life, but if you can’t drive there are just some cars that are off limits for you.”

you couldn’t argue with that.

In fact, you felt a bit apprehensive about him allowing you to touch any of his cars.

or at least putting you behind their wheel

no matter how much you tried to talk him out of it though, he wouldn’t budge

Saeyoung was going to show you how to drive, and you had no chance to begin with to change his mind

thus, only a couple days later, you found yourself in the car with him, on a backroad he promised had hardly any drivers coming by

though he had given you a bunch of theoretical information since he was set on his idea, your heart was racing in your chest

what if you did something wrong and broke the cars? Or worse?

next to you, Saeyoung was completely relaxed. He was your polar opposite.

“Okay, what first?”, he asked

his voice was soft and calm, fitting his demeanor

you bit your lip. “Scream?”

Saeyoung chuckled at your suggestion

“If my memory serves me right, you already did that at home and on the way here, so I think you can go for the next step.”

“Scream some more?”

“You can do that later. For now, adjust the mirrors.”

Sighing, you nodded to yourself and did as you were told

“Can you see properly through each one?”

you checked carefully; then, when you were sure, nodded

“Next….,” he started, prompting you to continue

“Start the engine?”, you asked carefully

reluctantly, you turned the key, making the engine “purr” as your boyfriend always called it

except it didn’t purr at all and lunged forward instead

you let out a yelp as the car came to as sudden halt again and turned off, several lights glowing in a dreadful red before fading

eyes wide, you turned to Saeyoung, scared that he might scold you for treating his baby like that

you weren’t sure if you were relieved or annoyed when you saw him grinning from ear to ear instead

“Why didn’t you say anything?!”, you asked, visibly upset

He chuckled lightly at your outrage

“I’m sorry, I just really wanted to see how you’d react. And it was pretty great, not gonna lie.”

you huffed, removing your belt and reaching for the door to get out

Saeyoung lunged over to you, grabbing your wrist

“Wait!! I am sorry. Please try again, I won’t leave you on your own again, I promise!”

you frowned as he searched your eyes, his face making it clear his apology was genuine

lips pursed, you sat back properly again and reapplied your seatbelt.

“If you do this again, I am out.”

“...and walk home? That will be quite far.”

you squinted at his remark.

“I’ll take my chances.”

a sly grin rushed over his face, before he leant back out of your sight and instructed you on what to do - making sure that from now on, your experiences in driving were as positive as possible.

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