#but it's fine... could be worse

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#panic attacks leave me feeling like shit for the rest of the day and that seems illegal #what do you mean i go through th worst feelings ever for a number of minutes and when it ends i still feel like absolute shit #the embarrassment of being seen as you lose all control of your body and emotions #and then your brain staying foggy and shitty all day #panic attacks should be a one time thing #i hate them! #kdfhgdfg #i was researching phsychiatrist yesterday because every day it's getting harder to deal with my brain hating me #but boy oh boy are they expensive!!! mental health doctors are never covered by my health inssurance and they're one of the most expensive #types of doctors out there and you can't just go once. it's a long term thing #so i very much doubt i'll be able to afford it #specially because my stupid work is not regular so maybe i can afford like 2 sessions and then never again for like 4 months... #i hate this so fucking much #and it's sort of a vicious cycle because i can't pay for therapy because i don't have regular work #and i can't find regular work because my anxiety paralyzes me most of the time... #but it's fine... could be worse #we still can afford food and pay for services so it's fine #i just wish my entire wasn't in other people's hands you know? #the people ruining this country the people who politely say ''thanks but you're not a good fit for our team'' etc etc #angel talks #personal #please ignore this post it's actually fine. i'm fine and not in danger of doing something stupid or whatever #it's all fine i'm just venting cause as i said my brain is foggy and putting things out there helps a bit

[bixels]

Bit of a weird question, but what is your overall least favorite thing about MLP? 

Sparity.

#magicalgrimm #ask me #there’s a later season episode (post spike getting wings) that Tulli and I could not finish because it was so awful #where rarity’s feeling lonely without spike who’s grown up and moved on from his crush on her #so she gets extremely clingy and manipulatey to get this. teenage boy to pay attention and worship her again #and rarity gets visibly jealous of spike spending time with another teenage dragon girl #it’s extremely extremely creepy. by FAR rarity’s absolute worst rock bottom moment #actual textbook groomer behavior #and even worse the episode kinda shits on rarijack where rarity tried to replace spike with applejack in helping her #but aj fails and fucks things up and isn’t right for the job. so the episode implies spike is a better match with rarity than applejack #it’s just all sorts of wrong eugh. #sparity just sucks so bad I can’t believe a good chunk of bronies still ship them or consider them a viable ship #I’m fine with spike having a kid crush on rarity it happens with kids #but the more the writers just kept teasing and toying and baiting it. overstayed its welcome #especially because they have no chemistry. spike doesn’t have a reason for liking rarity other than “hot woman in her mid-20s’

[bogkeep]

thoughts, repeating.

#art #sketch #digital art #ocd #wish i could clear my brain cache sometimes! #but no instead everything that ever happens to me is a cognitohazard #anything can be my brain's favourite chew toy #there's nothing more to extract from that thought but sure let's run into it like a knife a million times #and it becomes habit that reinforces itself. i will wake up thinking thank god im not having the thought right now! oh! surprise! #i don't wish my memory was worse but i wish it knew how to let go #one beautiful day when im in a place more long term i will find a therapist that can help hopefully #also im doing fine mostly!!!!!! #ive been meaning to draw this for a while just havent had the time and im slowly smoothing it over

[kagoutiss]

oot zelda doodle i liked :’-)))

#tloz #ocarina of time #oot #zelda #my handwriting is very very bad so i actually added alt text/image description #which i should already be doing with everything anyway. i wanna go thru and update some old stuff with that too #but yeah anyway. all the stuff this series presents about being Fated To Be Something or Fated To End Up Somewhere #even if that thing or place is ultimately Horrible and the consequences primarily occur off camera or post-canon after the Happy Ending #characters who end the story with pretty much nothing and also you find out later they inadvertently cause a far worse disaster #than even the one they gave up everything to prevent #oot zelda’s infinite number of issues and almost guaranteed lack of happiness or normality for the rest of her life #even after ‘fixing everything’ in literally the best possible way she could figure out how. given everything she knew #and then blaming herself for accidentally allowing everything to go wrong in the first place. by trying to fix it #and she was literally just a kid going insane from prophetic visions while simultaneously being disbelieved by everyone around her #except impa but she’s a whole other situation entirely. with a whole other set of baggage on the other end of the spectrum #i just rambled sos so much oops. anyway yea oot zelda #its fine. i throw up when i think about her. its fine

[cupoteahatter]

In the wake of the cancellation of Warrior Nun, I am imploring anyone who has Disney+ to watch Willow (2022).

It features a woman loving woman romantic subplot at the forefront, meaning it’s not in the subtext. Episode 1 has them kiss and afterward the lines of romance exist so throughout the narrative for these two characters that it is current and seen to the point that it cannot be argued away.

But there’s next to no buzz for it, only the Disney+ app really promotes it as something to watch with the odd ad showing up on Instagram of the cast playing mini games.

On top of that, it is a well written show that holds all of the love of the original film from the 80s.

I know that it would appear that numbers don’t seem to matter, but I am begging people to watch this show because it is a fantastic piece of media that delights in paying homage to the source material it comes from.

Also hot women with swords. Hot women with swords who could KILL you-

#willow #willow series #willow (2022) #Warrior Nun #Netflix #First Kill #Netflix cancellation #Twitter #like it’s not subtle and it’s fantastic at showing the Bodyguard Royalty romance / Friends to Lovers pipeline #It’s only up to ep4 with weekly releases but #*Yells* It’s use of fantasitical horror is just amazing #genuinely I am in love with it #Cheesy fantasy mixed with horror queer romance and rock music??? #Plus Boorman is the perfect Blorbo for the ‘I don’t want to fix him but if he could make me worse that would be fine’ crowd #And that’s just the tip of the iceberg #Especially if you want a Chosen One who knows nothing about being a chosen one but is quite literally the only one who can cook #It’s like watching a D&D campaign tbh #Anyway Kit and Jade should get to hold hands and be married

[lesbianlotties]

me @ myself every time i'm being weird during a social interaction

#aka all the time #she could fix me... or make me worse i don't mind... or kill me that's fine too! #tfothou #the fall of the house of usher #madeline usher

[5hrignold]

the picture sucks because he isn’t worth the effort of finding a specific picture of him for this specific post

#just kidding i do really like him. i cried over this show for the first time earlier today i feel. idk the word for it #winded i suppooooseeeee #it was the thing in s2e1 when rick sacrifices himself for morty and goes like ‘im fine with this. he’ll do great’ #and then they went and made it even worse when he saw a way he could live as well and immediatelt started going like God Please #like. do you have any clue how uncharacteristic that is for him. that was how desperate he was to keep living with morty. im so screwed dude #rick and morty #rick sanchez #such a funny last name like sandwiches

[booasaur]

Willow (2022) - 1x01 - “She'll feel like I'm abandoning her when she needs me the most.”

#willowedit #willow 2022 #kit tanthalos #jade claymore #ruby cruz #erin kellyman #willow 1x01 #tanthamore #femslash related stuff #look at them just slow dancing like they do it all the time! #kit really being like it's fine I can get married as long as you're there #and thinking of them as a combined entity ''our life'' #it's only when she realizes that jade will be gone that she starts fully lashing out and full on running away #in that sixth gif she hasn't really taken it in yet and still grasping for a way for it to not happen #and then finally stopping when jade says she got an exception #which! she's actually so proud of getting that first ever exception and wants kit to be proud too #but of course it's all caught up in this marriage situation and what's worse jade seemingly abandoning her #I kinda wish I was caught up with y'all so I could be discussing whatever their current angst is but then I'd never gif these I know :x

[fan-girls-r-us]

I guess AO3 is down again…

#ao3 #archive of our own #ao3 down #fanfiction #fanfic #fanfic reading #fanfic writing #this is fine #could be worse #at least we have tumblr #😭

[witchspeka]

I dont think Mob is naive as much as he's socially unaware, like the reason why he trusts Reigen so blindly is a bit more complex than just him being naive

Cause Mob reached out to Reigen because he was desperate to find someone like him, someone who understood his psychic specific issues, someone that could truly know what he's feeling and going through and give him guidance and support

Post incident Mob's thinking process was something along the lines of my powers hurt people -> my powers are bad -> my powers (my emotions, my instincts, myself) cannot be trusted

So he lost all confidence and trust in his own actions, resigning to being as passive as possible to avoid any further damage to anyone else, thus he started doubting his own perception of reality too

He's a kid already struggling with being ostracised for being socially inept, who just got traumatised and all of his insecurity increased by the tenfold, he doesn't know how to process what he's going through. He needs help.

And here comes Reigen, seemingly reliable, a responsible adult in a child's eyes, someone who claims he can understand him

Even tho Reigen doesnt. But it doesn't matter, because Mob finds comfort in his words and takes them to heart

Even if Reigen doesn't fully get it, even if he doesn't see the bigger picture, even if his advice isn't always the best

Eventually, Mob grows up, realises Reigen isn't as honest as he seemed through his 11 year old perspective, but like most things, he refuses to acknowledge it on a deeper level

Mob knows, but never tells Reigen, never thinks about what all those lies mean to him (ofc until he forces himself to face those doubts regarding Reigen, to properly acknowledge both of their flaws and accept them as they are, I should scream into the void about Confession Arc more God)

Due to his lack of trust in himself, Mob has relied on Reigen for years now to shape his moral compass, his thoughts, his decisions

Because well, Reigen lies, sure, but he isnt a bad person. When he hurts Mob, it isn't intentional or with ill intent, he still wants the best for him, what's the issue?

Except that it stunts Mob's growth. He doesn't develop as a person, doesn't have goals or wishes or ambitions, can't make choices on his own, he doesn't even let himself acknowledge his own emotions, he refuses to let himself exist

But Mob realises in time that he wants more than that, he wants to become better and be independent and feel again

Still, he puts the acknowledgement of the lies on hold for as long as he can, unwilling to question the way things are

This can make him feel a little naive, he constantly relies on Reigen and trusts his decisions and raises questions rarely until separation arc when he finally puts his foot down

And I do think that moment is the most resounding proof we have that Mob knows and allows himself to be used by Reigen, not wanting to shake the status quo, until he gets fed up

I mentioned the social ineptitude at the beggining but idk if I should even elaborate on that, you've watched the show, you know what I mean

He's blunt and can't read social cues or tonality that well and can't speak in front of crowds and is overall pretty awkward and I do think some people conflate that with naivety

Mob is still a child, he doesnt fully understand how the world works at the ripe age of 14 years old, but some folks take that as him being inherently naive/innocent/whatever which I don't find true

#ppl do a similar thing with seri but for different reasons but i do think in his case its worse cause thats a whole ass adult #anyway. i dont think im saying anything new i just wanted to ramble <3 #i missed mobposting what can i say #ik i saw somebody talk about this in a more eloquent way but i doubt i could find the post cause i dont think i rbed it so rip #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #kageyama shigeo #that ova needs to come out already im going insane #cine te a intrebat #also hope i didnt come off as too negative towards reigen or smth #but like. my favourite part of confession is him saying (i didnt know!) LIKE YEAH. U DIDNT. LMAO. #ppl treat him as a bit too reliable sometimes and dont give him a lot of room to grow like Reigen isnt even 30 yet!! he aint that old!! #he still needs to get HIS own shit tgt before giving out advice just saying. also he totally doesnt understand mob fully. how can he?? #he never mentions the incident with ritsu and considering mobs inclination of never telling anyone anything unless prompted #i doubt he knows... like reigen genuinely doesnt know the extent of mobs trauma!! when he said I Didnt Know he meant that shit!!!!!! #which is like. fine. cause to me whats important is how he always wants to protect mob and support him and help him #even if he doesnt always know how. even if advice backfires. hes always there and hes always trying and hes just as human and flawed as mob #himself #ig what im getting at is just that im bothered by the Flavour of reliable adult fandom is giving him. hes a lil pathetic and #fucks up sometimes and thats fiiiiiine. i feel like i talked shit about reigen but i do think hes a good guy and IS reliable just not in the #gives great advice way. but in the Knows How To Talk And Bullshit His Way Through Everything and Has Genuinely Good Intentions (usually) #and will throw away all of his self preservation if the situation requires him to. his advice is good but can be vague idk ONE rlly managed #to balance his pathetic side with his helpful reliable side and i dont think i articulated it the best way but like.... hes simultaneously #pathetic and sad but also the most sane and reliable adult in this show. rant over see u next time byeeee

[xwonderlandresidentx]

Started NAtLA and just watched the Scarf Scene with my brother, who is not at all a shipper by any means, and his jaw literally dropped because why was that so intimate. He doesn't even care about Zutara and yet almost had me rewind that scene because it had him genuinely stunned.

#zutara #the ship is just undeniably powerful 😌 #even just a split second got my bro questioning everything #on another note #i think the show in general is just... #fine #could be worse #could be better #overall just... #okay i guess

[lenaellsi]

sorry i am willing to give aziraphale the benefit of the doubt to a point but. to say that CROWLEY abandoned HIM? like. what did you want him to do. yall want crowley to go back to heaven? to make himself an angel again??? go back to the assholes that cast him out and change everything he is??? crowley was angry and mean and inarticulate and pushy in that fight but he was not WRONG.

(related: I have no idea why everyone's suddenly decided that crowley doesn't give a shit about saving the world. he's against working with heaven and hell obviously, but he was the one who wanted to stop the apocalypse in the first place. he only tried to jump ship last time when: 1) the end was only hours away, 2) from his POV he had no idea where the antichrist was or that aziraphale had found him, and 3) he was being actively hunted by people who were planning to torture and destroy him. that's not the case in s2. you can't just heap fault on him to make this a 'both sides are wrong' thing so it's easier to fix. his words were "you can't leave this bookshop." that's not something you say if you plan to leave the bookshop.)

aziraphale is walking into an obvious trap because of his skewed views about heaven and hell and that is the truth of it. it's a mistake. he's not a 'bad person' for it because people aren't BAD for making mistakes, but the idea that crowley needs to apologize to him for not wanting to go back to heaven is fucking ludicrous. it was a horrible thing to ask of him, good intentions or not. that's it.

imagine if crowley had told aziraphale "hey great news! we can be grand dukes of hell together and really make a difference. all you have to do is become a demon :)" like. aziraphale would have been furious. and rightfully so! what is the disconnect here i am baffled

#good omens #aziraphale #crowley #gos2 spoilers #good omens spoilers #good omens meta #this MUST be in response to the hate aziraphale was getting in the first few days. which like. fine. people were mean about it #but this is simply too far the other way. this is not a both sides are wrong thing. one side is wrong and one side reacted poorly. #crowley has flaws. his temper and his inability to express himself made that fight worse. but he is absolutely right about heaven. #'crowley didn't offer any long-term solutions' he was panicking. he had no idea what to say. he said anything he could think of. #it could not have been more obviously a trap i just. what?

[chayannesegg]

im so glad empanada, even after a tough day, got to have that talk and hug with richas and then bagi where em got some lovely advice about dealing with grief from richas & talked about what went wrong during the day

but i can't help but contrast this with sunny. sunny who empanada still hasn't seen. sunny whose been alone for days. sunny whose talked with almost no one. sunny who doesn't know bad is dead. sunny whose pretending tubbo isn't dead. sunny who got no goodbye. sunny who got no long talks about grief. sunny who got no explanations. sunny who no one visited today. sunny whose birthday is tomorrow. sunny who no one will wake up for first tomorrow

#qsmp #qsmp sunny #qsmp empanada #it's giving em and sunny being separated so long post em's first death #but also 50 times worse #they're sisters your honour they should be together #idk if sunny and leo will have talked off stream or not #but presumably she's done something with her mystery friend #we are for sure going to get angst from sunny tomorrow if only someone stays long enough to see it #also off topic but i think the em interaction with mike was fine #yes he clearly wasn't successful in cheering her up but she seemed to appreciate the attempt #even if it probably left her feeling a little like her feelings were her fault for not being able to cheer up #and he did apologize for barging into her room and left #i don't think he's in her bad books at all #she could definitely tell he cared and she was much more visibly frustrated with bagi #which they luckily had some resolution over #me once again writing one post in the text and another in the tags lmao

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here #i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral #texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet! #here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress! #you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better' #i Immediately started doing Worse! #i think i stressed myself out too much #pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3 #ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block #mentally i am banging my head into a wall #but its fine Its Fine #i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail #which is something i should be used to by now! #okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so #i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh #well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um. #i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive #not gonna tag this with anything actually. #love treating tumblr like my personal diary #ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me. #perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day #buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that! #with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!! #gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent #i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain #ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts #just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3 #look away look away

[xenomorphicdna]

@aluminum-angels i made an entire doodle page just to prove a point

Their relationships do not fail, they get along just fine and they love each other very much

Peace and love among my rw ocs

#auugh you people will not belive the shit i've been through today #ok so basically i was grabbing some food out and i sprinkle the cheese and im like huh this cheese kinda stale #so i give it a sniff and it STINKS and im like aw fuck well its already on my food so uhhh in the microwave this all goes maybe it will be #ok after its heated but SPOILERS it does not and actually now it smells worse so im over here trying to figure out if its worth to eat this #thing and if it will taste as bad as it smells luckly it tatsed just fine but auughh couldnt breathe while eating that but it doesnt end #there because after gulping all that stuff down suddenly everytime i breathed i could smell that stuff augh it was horrible #worst decision of my life so i needed a cure for this rancid ass stench so my lord and and saviour garlic comes in to save me #and you can just chew on that stuff no one will stop you (altho maybe someone should because eating garlic raw kinda hurts) #anyways posion neutralised but i am rather weary of cheese now #rain world #iterator #rain world oc #iterator oc #oc four blue flames #oc vision of a past #drawins

[stardial]

SECOND TO LAST DAY OF SCHOOL….. edit: got so caught up in the excitement that i forgot to also say good morning. good morning!!!!!!

#yknow how i mentioned a bunch of my problems just randomly happened to get solved like. at once last week? #there was ONE PROBLEM left #a single one #which is that i’m fucking out of estrogen AND adhd meds. #but i ordered some online! cuz i was so exhausted and i remembered i could. #compleeeetely forgetting that hey! dawn! you might move out before the meds arrive!!! #and even worse! you might be going to romania before the meds arrive!!! #BUT!!! #i got a notif that they’re on their way and might even arrive today….. SO ITS FINE I THINK #and like aside from that i think that actually for once in my life there’s just a brief lil break…. it’s awesome #sorry this is so rambley i woke up one minute ago #arambles