Hello tumblr! Once again it's been a while. I deleted the tumblr app off my phone a while ago (along with instagram) because I was spending way too much time and energy scrolling mindlessly, and I've been feeling a lot better that way. I do still occasionally check on people on the browser version haha but I miss posting on here and collecting all these little details of my life, so maybe I'll come back a bit more again. Idk.
Anyway, work is still a lot - I'm in the final six months of my PhD now and I'm really, really ready to get this thing done so I'm just working as hard as I can right now. It actually feels good to really put my focus into it and just do my best to take care of myself otherwise instead of always pushing everything at once. I do miss having more time and energy for other things, but when I try to work my hardest at work, skiing/climbing/cycling and writing all at once I just get burnt out, and after two years of essentially killing myself with all the things I wanted and did, it's been nice taking it a bit slower now. I haven't skied anywhere near as much this winter as I did the past two years, but that's okay. I'm finally starting to feel some psyche for running again - been a very long time since that fire has truly been there and I'm just enjoying it right now, even though I'm not running anywhere near as much as I used to. And I'm having a lot of fun climbing without trying to push too much. So it's all good.
Ben took three months of unpaid leave this winter to do a ski season and compete in freeride competitions, which was pretty awesome and I'm so happy he got to do that. It meant we spent most of the winter apart though, so when he came back last week I decided to take a few days off so we could spend some time together. All pretty last minute but we found this incredibly nice cosy airbnb chalet, in one of the most beautiful areas of our mountains that I've ever been to, and had a perfect mini holiday. Had lots of fun skiing and ski touring, but also resting and eating nice food and sitting by the wood stove and playing boardgames and catching up on time together. I came back feeling a lot better mentally, and more ready to give my all for work again.
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GABRIEL “GABE” GOODMAN
i am more than memory, i am what might be, i am mystery.
NAME: gabriel goodman. goes by gabe.
AGE: 17
D.O.B: april 15, 1992
SEX: male
ORIENTATION: bisexual
OCCUPATION: figment of his mother’s subconscious
FAMILY: born to diana and dan goodman (both alive). only sibling is a younger sister, natalie goodman (alive). partners and children are verse dependent.
PHYSICAL APPEARANCE: tall and skinny, but with some muscle defenition. brown hair and blue eyes. typically wearing jeans, a t-shirt and sneakers.
EDUCATION: none
RELIGION: agnostic
ALIGNMENT: chaotic neutral/chaotic evil
ZODIAC: aires
PERSONALITY:
cause if you won't grieve me, you won't leave me behind.
volatile. caring towards his mother. antagonistic. loyal. selfish. dedicated.
HISTORY:
Diana Goodman never expected to have children. But when she and her husband, Dan, got the news that she was pregnant, she was overjoyed. She spent the whole pregnancy eagerly waiting the arrival of her baby and when he came, she fell in love instantly. She named him Gabriel, after her father. Unfortunately, when Gabriel was one and a half, tragedy struck and he passed away.
The loss of her only son and first child took a toll on Diana and she sunk into a depression. Dan did everything he could to try and pull her out of it, but nothing worked. Their daughter, Natalie, was born six months later. Gabriel would've been two. Diana tried to be there for Natalie as she grew, but it was hard. She kept thinking of Gabriel and how she wished he was there instead.
By the time Natalie was sixteen and Gabriel eighteen, Diana's depression had become a constant. She saw a psychiatrist every week and took the medicine he prescribed to her with minimal questioning. At Gabriel’s urging, however, she stopped taking it and attempted suicide. She wound up in the hospital and underwent electroshock therapy that caused her to lose the past nineteen years of her memory, including her memories of Gabriel. She recovered these memories and decided to leave Dan so that she could heal and recover on her own time. Gabriel stayed with Dan and Diana didn’t see him very much. Eventually, she stopped seeing him at all.
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if you try to deny me i’ll never die ; verse - canon. the events of next to normal. gabe exists as a figment of diana’s subconscious. she is the only one that is able to see him and interact with him. he interacts with others, but they are never able to see him nor hear him.
the darkest skies will somehow see the sun ; verse - post canon. diana is slowly recovering from her depression. as she recovers, so too does gabe. he becomes a figure of hope instead of pain and eventually, as diana continues to recover, will fade away entirely.
he died before i was born ; verse - ghost verse! basically the same as gabe’s canon verse, except he’s a ghost and not a figment of diana’s subconscious. he can interact with the living world to an extent and he’s able to be seen by other ghosts and supernatural creatures, as well as those who are more in tune with the supernatural world.
so my son’s a little shit ; verse - gabe lives. gabe does not die as a baby and goes on to grow up and have the life he should’ve had. he adores his mother and annoys natalie to no end. his relationship with dan is a little strained but they’re working on fixing it.
you just don’t know who i am ; verse - any and all interactions with muses that do not exist in the next to normal universe. this includes fandomless ocs. it does not include next to normal ocs.
dynamics
i’m a perfect stranger who knows you too well ; dyn: gabe/diana
superboy and the invisible girl ; dyn: gabe/natalie
why does he hate me ; dyn: gabe/dan
miscellaneous
i’ll hurt you; i’ll heal you ; aesthetic
i’ll tell you the truth if you let me try ; headcanon
he’s been dead sixteen years ; faceclaim
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