#healing is awful

[dashingwishes]

I hope everyone heals soon 🌱

Here are your pretty flowers

🌹🌸🌻🌷🌼💐🪷🌺

For trying each day.

#I feel so awful today #I felt like I need to post this #I think I’m nervous about final week #I tried listening to seventeen nothing was making me feel better #healing our own damage #anxiety #sad #depressed #heartbroken #studyblr #flowers #positivity #positive #stay strong #loneliness #dua #islam #pashtun #afghans #quotes #text #healing #muslims #love yourself #1k #my words

[canisalbus]

Looking at your art summary your art has gotten a softness to it that it didnt have before (said positively). I hope this is, in part, because life has been kinder to you than it was before, if only because you deserve a good, kind life. I hope the new year greets you like an old friend.

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#;n; #aw jeez anon #that's such a lovely thing to say #thank you! #I'm going through an unprecedentedly soft and merciful era it looks like #sorry about the clumsy banality and mushiness of it all #but suddenly I'm getting very invested in the concepts of healing forgiveness and self discovery

[werewolf-transgenderism]

the sleepies

#y’all would not BELIEVE the absolute state of the past several days i have just had. awful. #anyway now that I am ✨reunited✨ with my devices here are some sleepy guys to heal the soul #ofmd #our flag means death #my art

[daydreamycrustacean]

Was gonna post this along with something else but this felt elaborate enough to post on its own so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#drawing is slowly becoming easier...healing from college burnout that made me hate art. #art block slowly fixed by drawing my newest awful special guys i am cringe i am free etc etc #dcr art #hannibal #nbc hannibal

[lazylittledragon]

added some neck deeps to the collection

#ramble #tattoos #neck deep #the first one was a couple of weeks ago #it looked very gross and awful while healing so i didn’t show it #it’s one of my favourite tattoos ever but iT’S SO HARD TO PHOTOGRAPH #the second one is from today #don’t get a tattoo right before jumping into a mosh pit #it was covered but cleaning it when i got home. so many liquids

[ashtrayfloors]

When other people I knew in grad school read Kathy Acker’s books they were shocked. Appalled. Particularly most of the budding young feminists. I actually began weeding out women friends by their reactions to her books. The ones that smiled and lowered their eyes with sly understanding and touched themselves, I kept. The ones that freaked out, well, they were idiots. Once I read a paragraph from Empire of the Senseless in my theory of gender class and one of the women began to cry and ran out and barfed. No shit. Pussy, I thought.

—Lidia Yuknavitch, from The Chronology of Water

#quotations #lidia yuknavitch #kathy acker #the chronology of water #i think of this so so often #because i had a similar experience in undergrad #but was thinking of it again recently because i noticed a distinct split in the reactions of my women and nonbinary friends re: poor things #(note: i am not saying ‘women and enbies’ because i think they’re the same obvs #i’m just using it to denote ‘any friend who’s not a man’) #so #some are in the ‘smiling and lowering their eyes and touching themselves’ category #like: ‘i related to bella because xyz and therefore i loved it’ #and some are in the ‘crying and barfing’ category #like: ‘i was super triggered and thought the depictions of sexuality were problematic and horrible’ #i mean i’m not going to weed out friends because of it #but it’s…interesting #makes me think of that post that’s like #a piece of art can be triggering and awful for someone and healing and cathartic for someone else

[uncanny-tranny]

So much love and recognition to the people who don't know how they feel about recovering. To the people whose scars are fading away, and there's a sinking feeling, despite knowing that it's a good thing. To the people who miss when they were "worse," when they felt "broken." To the people who mourn losing their coping mechanisms, even the ones that were destructive, scary, or unpleasant. To those who feel guilty they're healing because their past self wasn't ready.

Whatever it is, there is nothing wrong with any of those feelings. It's a natural reaction, something you don't have ultimate control over. There is nothing shameful about yourself, and I admire the strength it takes to recognize how you feel, even the parts that do feel like the "wrong" reaction to a Good Thing.

#mental health #self harm tw #self harm mention tw #sh tw #mental health recovery #mental health support #i love you i love you i love you #i admire you and empathize with you and want to be your fellow man. i want to share this wold *with* you #and that includes sharing a world that you aren't sure you deserve or are ready for #the world can wait. humans have been here for hundreds of thousands of years. it can wait #when i think about all this what makes me feel better is remembering how many billions of people have lived #and it makes me feel better to know that there has never been a problem too big to have - to uniquely awful #i have my own conflicted feelings about this because objectively i am healing #but it feels like i have boarded on land after surviving the worst trip to sea ever... #...a trip that was plagued with my ship being flung through hurricanes and lightnight and i'm only manning a sailboat... #...and i have found land and that land is good... #...but my legs feel like they will give out underneath me because this is solid land that i have never stood on... #...and you get used to the constant seasickness and sealegs and wondering *how* you'll make it out - If you will... #...the peace feels like a ruse at times because all you've known was chaos. but it's a good ruse and a comfortable one #and so you learn i guess to sink into the comfort like a spft feather pillow

[samarecharm]

I miss goro. Bring his bitchass back

#chattin #thinking of him in strikers is funny #local hermit and murderer out in the sun and living free #i think he would like sophia. not a whole lot but like. maybe hes a lil attached #thinkin about him having to be in a camper w the thieves is so funny #my mans is NOT sleeping in that fucking tent. hes finding some rocks to huddle under for warmth #but also. him and makoto riding up front #hes prob got his license too so they share driving duties #this is purely based off of my hcs for him since i didnt play royal but still wanted him alive #maybe his connections w shido also make him a suspect? i dunno #so by saes suggestion; he begrudgingly goes along w them #i think. it would be healing for him to see monarchs and their reasons for being so cruel #to know that they were in a bad place and acted out maliciously bc of it #and to see them grapple w the consequences of their actions #they did awful things even if they thought it was worth it. and now they have to start over #and guess what; life doesnt just end or stop; they gotta keep going #obviously this would make goro gag and block it out. he would hate it. #but it would still be healing #the guy at the boiler room who believed that maybe…..he could change……..hes still there

[miraculouslumination]

Some of y'all are so desperate to create Gender Binary 2.0 based on your rules and beliefs, even if they don't reflect the complexities of real life, and then get upset when people Don't want to be forced to partake in this new Gender Binary (this time painted with a trans pride flag!!)

#Jean mumbles #I just had to scroll through some. God awful takes on a certain post #And like. wow some of y'all are just full of so much hate #And I can only imagine and understand that a lot of it comes from your own fear and/or trauma #But that is not the fault of your siblings #And it can't simply be healed by making something like this up #It is healed through Actual Activism #Not a few letters of an acronym slapped together #Or with vague muddied phrases that have less defined edges than a circle #I don't know. I'm tired #And I just am so sick of all the infighting that doesn't have to be a Thing

[redstringraven]

sunflowers 🌻 adoration I hope you know that I see you as the moon to my sun and stars. I know it sounds kind of cheesy, but it's very true. …cheesy. But … I think I like it. It is the sun that lights up the moon, after all.

some more breenie for my health. bree belongs to @plantdonutwrites, and the lil dialogue snippet is from our on-going rps. c: it's unrelated to the drawing, but the sunflower/adoration theme reminded me of it!

#tmnt 2003 #tmnt oc #tmnt donatello #kiss art february #kiss art february 2024 #;hannah draws #;tmnt #;donatello #;tmnt oc: breanne o'neil #;breenie #[ listening to the wingspan soundtrack while finishing this up was extremely healing ] #[ this is the energy i needed in the studio today ] #[ terrible awful nerd-flirting ]

[montydrawsstuff]

He a lil dramatic

#sonic #espio the chameleon #sonic the hedgehog #my art #team chaotix detective agency #my face healed after I did something awful #I mist hide in shame #*doesn’t turn invisible *

[canisalbus]

Your art is so poignant and skillfully executed. I'm always excited to see what you create, and all the various influences that are revealed(or hidden) in each art piece.

That being said, I was not prepared for the sudden influx of Sad Dog x Bright Dog art you've been sharing recently! Machete having the potential of being loved and enjoying tenderness despite himself is one of The Best reveals of 2023. I enjoy how you express his relationship and struggles just as much as i enjoyed the stand alone pieces you've shared.

Thank you much for sharing the broader stories and pictures of your characters 💓

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#aw dangit you're making me all emotional #thank you! that was such a lovely comment #sad dog x bright dog art has been the theme of this summer that's for sure #and I'm really moved by the overwhelmingly positive response my dogs have gotten #people genuinely seem to root for them and wish them good things #not to sound too sentimental but Machete has functioned as a misery sink for me for so long #I've spent years putting him through the meat grinder over and over again and while it has been cathartic in itself #it feels almost like a healing moment to give him some hope and happiness and someone to be with #and it's very rewarding to notice that this hasn't gone unnoticed by people who have been following my art and characters for a while #character growth #answered #anonymous #“having the potential of being loved” broke me just a little bit #like yeah who knew

[andrewwtca]

Ash Lynx deserved better send post

#banana fish #ash lynx #the ending was a huge disservice to the entire narrative #I'm tired of pretending it's just me coping it genuinely was awful #points to my 'bananafish and banana fish' analysis #shoutout to the anime for correcting it #ash and eiji deserve peace together #peace and healing

[add1ctedt0you]

What's your version of Jiang Cheng Gives Up? *chinhands*

Hiii! My version of jc gives up is very boring: he gives up on wwx and their shared past and moves on.

An overexposure to yunmeng bros reconciliations has brought me to one conclusion: I don't necessarily need them to reconcile. (Not because: 'jc/wwx is so toxic!' or 'jc/wwx deserves better than that selfish asshole!'. Like, I always roll my eyes. They are two horrible human - fictional- beings who deserve each other!).

But imo, post-canon jc has two priorities:

Jin ling

Himself

First point: he needs to be there for jl. Not only politically! But emotionally too. jl is going through a rough time jc too experienced: a loved ones betrayal. jc knows what it does to you. And listen, one of the things I love about jc is how he is trying his best. Always. In particular when it comes to people he loves. ('but he did a lot of things wrong', thank fuck! He is a traumatized character who behaves like a traumatized character. This scene explains so much about jc imo: jc knows that not having an adult in your life who believes in you is shit. So he tries to give space - in his way- to jl, while fighting his urge to protect him, because the last time every one of his family member was on a battlefield, they died.) So yeah, he is going to try being there for jl, in his imperfect way. And that brings me to point two.

jc has to recalibrate himself, to be there for jl: what he thought were truths, are revealed to be lies. All his life was a lie.

That's my favorite jc's speech. It's visceral, it's painfully honest. He is literally saying to us his state of mind: he is feeling guilty, wronged and confused.

'who am I?' hits hard, because who you are when you have built your life on lies?! Should he feel guilty?! wwx has made this huge sacrifice for him, but he has hurt him too: what should he feel?!

So, because I interpret jc as someone who overthinks, I want him to lose his mind over his doubts and start a journey of healing (or, what realistically someone without therapy can manage).

I want him to look at Lotus Pier, his home, and think: 'dang, what I have managed is incredible'. I what him to realize: 'what wwx made for me was an huge sacrifice, but my feelings are valid too'. I want him to be, not happy, but satisfied, when thinking about his life. And I don't need him and wwx to reconcile, because I like the bittersweet taste their broken relationship leaves in his mouth.

So, my jc gives up is: he learns to live with himself and jl, peacefully.

#Spriteofmushrooms #I also think jc will be sect leader until his last day. #It's fundamental to his character imo #I am a sucker for characters bonded by duties #Also probably I find yunmeng reconciliations so unsatisfying because I disagree with their interpretations of both characters #wwx is always described as this healthy person who accepts his past and moves on.. Denial isn't acceptance. #wwx is still 23. The world against him. #jc is almost 40. Years of leadership and endurance have shaped him. #Character shaped by their trauma and on a self-discovery/healing journey is my favorite trope to write. I like to leave things open-ended #Because healing it's awful. it's made of up and down. And it requires a lot of time #Tbc I still read fics about them. Now only sugar_shoal fics. They are my favorite! Their wwx is my favorite wwx! #Uh I got off track. sorry. :-/

[caliblorn]

I can't believe they killed Necro once more

#it's so over #eso #update 41 #all I see is ANOTHER slot in the bar taken by a no damage ability #also when im healing this is particularly awful since I can't place the necro healing AOE with corpses if I get the magicka morph

[sincerely-sofie]

Would Kip and his posse come across the ruins of a Human bunker during their expeditions? I imagine that it would both be incredible to find and also terrifying depending on how the humans inside died out.

It would be a major archaeological discovery— from the perspective of pokemon, humans were elusive beings that weren’t something you’d spot every day, but you could still catch a glimpse of them every now and then… until one day they realized that no one had seen a human in years. It’s a huge source of debate amongst pokemon scholars— what happened to the humans? Where did they go? Why?

After pivoting careers, Kip has, on multiple occasions, tried to pose the “theory” that humans aren’t extinct but are actually living in a network of underground bunkers, but didn’t have any materials to support his theory beyond the unfounded testimony of his old exploration team partner with no academic background. The second an empty human bunker is unearthed, the archaeological scene is erupts into shock— and the fact that it seems like the humans inside died within the last 50 years ago is even more surprising.

Kip spearheads the documentation process after the initial discovery of the bunker, and he’s able to figure out the purposes of rooms that no one else can make sense of (thank you, Twig!)— he tells the archaeologist’s guild that he noticed this room has very high ceilings that are covered in metal pieces that would rain water down and glass cylinders that would light up to simulate sunlight— so this was a tree farm, and was likely used to provide food and purify air.

At one point, Twig would be stumped by his questions about the things that they find in the bunker. The remains that are uncovered raise more questions than answers. There’s too many femurs in one area for the number of skulls in the room. In more than one case, there’s marks on the bones that don’t make sense for the story they’ve been theorizing— the humans died out when their because their underground gardens failed and they starved to death. A recurring question amongst scholars is why the humans didn’t leave the bunker in search of food. No one is able to figure out why.

It eventually occurs to Twig that the network humans used to communicate across bunkers historically lost contact with Bunker 1801-D around this era, and that the second-to-last message the network received was a distress signal. A fungus in the greenhouses had spread faster than they could contain it. Their crops rotted and made the soil unusable. Their exit doors had failed a few years back and they couldn’t get out. They needed help. The last message to ever come from 1801-D ran for 117 hours before the other bunkers disconnected it from the network.

That last call— made by a crying, frantic soul who said he was the last member of the bunker, that there was nothing left, that he was hungry, that he didn’t want to die alone with the memory of what was done— was answered by every bunker in the network. It didn't matter that he only spoke French and couldn't understand the bunkers who spoke something else— people banded together to keep him company. Those who he couldn't understand sang to him. Sometimes he'd sing back. It became more and more rare as time went on, as did his responses to conversation, but the line didn't go truly silent until 112 hours after it was opened.

The network was silent across its entirety for five hours more afterward, an informal vigil for the poor man they couldn't give anything more than their voices as he was wasting away, before Bunker 1801-D was permanently disconnected from the network— the closest thing to a burial that they could give those who had died. That final call haunts humanity to the point that the phrase “waiting 117 hours” is a euphemism used to describe the way that one may feel responsible for a tragedy despite their inability to prevent it.

Twig takes a trip to pay Kip a visit outside the ruins as people mill about, recovering artifacts and discussing theories. She sees bones that had been picked clean instead of charred black. She relays the story of 1801-D to Kip.

The five hour vigil is resumed, for a few quiet, sorrowful minutes, years after it was made, and they wait 117 hours together.

#it's only after she mourns 1801-D with Kip that Twig truly accepts that her bunker's ultimate fate wasn't her fault #'117 hours' she reminds herself. #'117 hours.' #'you were only a child and yet you act like you could have done anything more than wait 117 hours.' #it feels awful to take comfort in a phrase that exists only because of a tragedy akin to the Donner Party or Jamestown Starving time #but that tragedy helps her heal from her own. #the present is a gift au #pmd2 partner #pokémon mystery dungeon #pokemon mystery dungeon #pmd explorers #pmd sky #pmd eos #pmd2 #pmd #sofie answers asks