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#i dont wanna be rude but oh my god. she talks like we are the same but we're not
pinkandlilacroses · 2 days
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Angel - Paige bueckers
part 3
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• summary {when an unsuspecting girl falls for the basketball star}
• warnings {drug use, angst}
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bella’s pov
“ok you can go now” she says, emotionless
“oh”
“i mean, no offence but i have a girl coming soon, so you cant be here” she says laying on her back, breaking our eye contact
i don’t respond and put my clothes back on. this is fucked
“have a nice night”
i haven’t cried this much in months, walking through the halls, ugly crying.
‘paige’ has been blocked by ‘bella’
“bella whats wrong” avery says, empathetically
“i hate her, i hate her so much” i cry, barley being able to choke the words out
i look at avery after my response and i have never seen her that angry, there could fully be steam coming from her ears.
“please dont talk to her, please dont hurt her, please avery, please” i cry out, begging the infuriated girl
“why not bella, she deserves it” she yells
my tears dont stop and i feel like they will never stop pouring.
“tell me what she did”
i begin the tell her the events of tonight and her anger only grows.
“that fucking bitch” is all she can say in response
“but i blocked her, and im literally never gonna speak to her again” i say, trying to make a positive point, to counteract this negative situation
“you are never gonna speak to her again”
“im gonna go off to bed”
i feel broken, i got used. i wanted my first time with a girl to be meaningful, i know i like girls and i wanted to prove to myself that having sex with girls wasn’t wrong, but i feel wrong, i feel gross. i cant believe i would let myself be that vulnerable with someone i barley know. ive never been the one to have one night stands and ive only ever had sex with someone ive been in a relationship with.
i take my valium, something i swore to never use again after getting addicted, but its the only thing that works.
“hey, how are you feeling” avery ask’s, genuinely. i’ve never seen her be this gentle before
“wheres my weed”
“bella no”
“shut up avery”
i walk to the kitchen and unlock one of the drawers, and i see the stash. thank god
i know i shouldn’t smoke as a coping mechanism, but its the only thing that works, every time something bad happens to me, i turn to smoking
after going through 3 joints, im barley able to talk or stand up. perfect
knock
ugh
knock
fuck off
knock
“who is it” i say, it barley even sounded like words
“its azzi, is avery here”
who the fuck is azzi
“avery theres a bitch here for you” i say taking another drag
“oh my god! hey azzi” avery says, excitedly, why the fuck is she acting like that
“why are you so fucking happy” i ask, knowing full well how rude i sound
“this is azzi, shes in my psychology class and we have gotten pretty close” avery says, grabbing azzi and sitting next to me on the couch
“yo dont sit on my shit” i say, mad
“your bella right?” azzi says, happily. i hate happy people
“yeah”
“yeah avery’s told me alot about you” she says
“cool” i reply, dryly
“azzis on the basketball team” avery says, my eyes widen
“of course she is” i say, sarcastically. i hate basketball
“yeah, have you been to any games” she questioned, attempting to continue this boring conversation
“nah, i dont watch basketball”
“oh well you should sometime, avery keeps saying how she wants to go to a game” azzi says, looking at avery who begins giggling. sus
“bella your probably friends with some people on the team” avery says
“you wanna hit” i offer to azzi
“nah, i dont smoke”
“boring” i say, bluntly
“do you guys mind if some of my friends come over” azzi says
“no, no, thats perfectly fine” avery says, looking at azzi. basically eye fucking her
“who” i ask
“ice, kk, aubrey, nika and ashlee” she lists
fuck my life. im to high to care
“yeah whatever” i say, lazily
“ok perfect, ill tell them to come” azzi says, excitedly
“are you sure” avery whispers to me, being nice. for once
“i dont give a fuck, its fine” i say taking a drag
im so high. god damn
10 minutes later all of azzis friends turn up, why are they all so tall. what the fuck
avery introduces herself to them and points them to our couch
“hey im kk, your bella right” kk asks
“yeah im bella”
“hey im ice”
“hey im nika”
“hey im ashlee”
“hey im aubrey”
to many people to remember
until
“oh paige came to, i hope you dont mind” azzi says to us, mostly avery
avery says nothing, myself included
“hi paige” avery says, extremely cold
“come sit guys” azzi says, breaking the silence. i wish i wasn’t so high cause i wanna go to my room
everyone sits on the couch, paige sitting the furthest away from me. funny. not funny. not laughing
conversation begins and everyone is involved. everyone but me, ugh i’m so uncomfortable
paige keeps looking at me, and yes i’m noticing because i’m looking at her to.
paige’s pov
fuck. why do i keep looking at her.
she blocked me last night so obviously shes mad about my actions last night, its just a hookup, nothing more.
its not that deep
“i’m going to bed” bella says, slurring and barely able to stand up. i didn’t know she smoked that much, i guess i don’t know anything about her. but i don’t care.
“paige are you ready to go” kk and ice say to me
“yeah, aubrey, nika, azzi, u ready to go”
“yeah lets go”
“actually im gonna stay” azzi says. sus
“buy guys” is said in unison
azzis pov
“ugh finally” avery says, while smashing her lips onto mine
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A/N: im being active rn lolll. how do we like avery and azzi
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drvscarlett · 26 days
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Sweet Nothings (1)
Carlos Sainz x pageant queen! reader
Summary: All that they ever wanted was sweet nothings but everything changed like midnight rain? Who knows.
Sweet Nothings: 1, 2, 3. 4
A/N: Idea hits me because I remember how AD 2021 was at the same time as Miss Universe 2021. Its supposed to be a one shot but then there was a limit for the photos lol so stay tune for pt2
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YNjpeg (2016)
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Y/Njpeg me being so excited about my first grand prix while carlos is sitting and getting his hair done lol
CarlosSainz55 have to look good when you are the most beautiful woman in the universe
YNjpeg stoppppppp, you're making me blush CarlosSainz55 its the truth
User5 is this how he gets his hair so good after the race?
Y/Njpeg i think so, its a very long process
User6 Y/N you have been so excited and so nice. Hope to see you in more GPs.
User7 i met her too, she was so nice to talk to! User8 oh to be in a grand prix and meet her
User10 she isn't even that pretty
User11 i bet they won't last long User12 get a life!!
Maxverstappen1 is this why he is late to our meeting?
CarlosSainz55 get off her instagram and leave us alone Maxverstappen1 Y/N, he is fighting me again YNjpeg boys please play nice CarlosSainz55 i love you mi amorr YNjpeg love you moreeeeeee Maxverstappen1 cmon even on instagram???
CarlosSainz55 (2017)
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CarlosSainz55 a day off and mi amor joined me!!
YNjpeg always the happiest when he is on his vroom vroom
CarlosSainz55 incorrect. always happiest when im with you YNjpeg really?? you are so sweet
User6 even during his day offs, carlos still goes karting
User7 carlos looks so happy thereeee
User8 is carlos competitive when karting?
YNjpeg yes he is. bro thinks he is in f1 User8 omg lol HAHAHHAHAA
CarlosSainz55 (2018)
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CarlosSainz55 Race day shot. Photo taken by the most beautiful girl in the universe
YNjpeg will always be rooting for you!
CarlosSainz55 i love you User16 lord i want what they have
User7 Vamos Carlos!!
User11 Goodluck for todays race Carlos!!
User19 look at his eyes, he is so in love with the photographer
CarlosSainz55 its because Y/N is my photographer User2 LOOK AT CARLOS BEING SO WHIPPEDT
CarlosSainz55 (2019)
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CarlosSainz55 recharging the batteries with the most beautiful girl in the universe
YNjpeg who is that extremely handsome man?
CarlosSainz55 your boyfriend YNjpeg am so luckyyy
User10 the visuals in this photo
User11 they look so good together!!!
User12 i dont know if i wanna be them or date them
User15 same
YNjpeg (2019)
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YNjpeg where the sky meets the sea
User27 its just a silhouette but why is it prettier than me?
YNjpeg don't say that, you are beautiful sunshine User5 Y/N has always been the sweetest wag ever
User6 enjoy your vacation Y/N
YNjpeg thank you!!
LandoNorris wow no photo credit??? YNjpeg stop stealing my boyfriend first LandoNorris excuse you, that's my husband
User8 I hope Carlos and Y/N stays together forever
User9 right?? they are such a power couple
CarlosSainz55 (2020)
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CarlosSainz55 its day 14 of lockdown and i found some old treasures
YNjpeg OHMYGOD, YOU ARE SO CUTE!!!
YNjpeg wait, where did you get that photo of me???
User7 just imagine if they have kids in the future
User8 the genes of the kids User9 omg i can imagine them as parents
LandoNorris mate please make children already
CarlosSainz55 you muppet, it doesn't work like that LandoNorris cmon im gonna be the best uncle CarlosSainz55 i highly doubt that LandoNorris RUDE!
CarlosSainz55 (2021)
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CarlosSainz55 attending the first party with Ferrari and I have the most beautiful woman in the universe
User6 ohmygod!!!!! the looks
User7 ITS GIVING OLD MONEY
User8 THEY LOOK ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS!!!
User9 name a more stunning couple than Y/N and Carlos
User10 its so fun to see that Y/N has been with Carlos during his Toro Rosso days till Ferrari
User11 we love a supportive couple User12 i hope they stay strong
User13 break up with her, she isn't even that pretty
User14 thank god someone finally said it. she just has too much make up on User16 can you both shut up. your opinions are irrelevant
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YNjpeg i can't believe that it's finally me and you, and you and me
Just us, and your friend Steve #ForeverThirdWheel
LandoNorris Know your place
YNjpeg sidechick Charles_Leclerc fight him Y/N
CarlosSainz55 you know that you are my only one
YNjpeg see that LandoNorris ??? LandoNorris what about us?? what about everything we've been through
User5 Carlos and Lando's friendship is so wholesome
User6 no matter what team they are in, they are friends
User7 loving the banter between Y/N and Lando
User9 Y/N realizing in 2019 that her biggest competition is not Carlos' fangirls but rather Lando Norris User8 its so entertaining hahaha
YNjpeg (2022)
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YNjpeg homebodys for date night
User6 gorgeous couple!!
User7 anyone noticing how Carlos seems serious?
User8 Y/N is all smiley and Carlos is also serious, is something happening User9 would you just chill out??
CarlosSainz55 the most beautiful girl in the universe
User10 we can all calm down, Carlos commented!
User55 if they break up, i will literally cry
CarlosSainz55 (2023)
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CarlosSainz55 you will always be the prettiest girl in the whole universe, I'll miss you.
LandoNorris so dramaticcc
YNjpeg not my fault, you aren't a romantic LandoNorris he is mine first YNjpeg he has been mine since 2016 beat that! LandoNorris you suck
YNjpeg i love you. always grateful to have you around mi amor
CarlosSainz55 i'll always be here just like you have been with me YNjpeg am currently running to hug you
User7 I made the mistake of looking at the comments
User8 It feels like a good day to lie down in a highway
User9 same girl
User15 why are they being so cryptic?? where is she going???
User16 i dont wanna say it but they may be breaking up User17 breaking up?? they have been together for years User18 maybe they are getting tired of each other
2024
F1Gossips just posted a photo.
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F1Gossips we cant help but notice the absence of Carlos Sainz's long term girlfriend Y/N in the paddock for the past few grand prix. Source says that Y/N has not been spotted after she attended the Suzuka GP 2023. Is this the end of the couple?
User1 Say sike right now.
User2 Its april fools,don't believe anything that they are saying
User3 honey its already april 2
User4 I fear that we have come to an end.
User5 No,this is cant be. How can you drop an 8 year relationship like that???
User6 Right? Im not believing anything till they say something. User21 Don't you realize that they don't have any responsibility to say anything to us about their private life, jeez.
User7 poor carlos,losing his trainer then losing his seat and now losing his girlfriend??? man has a hard year
User8 I never liked her anyway
User9 right??? she gives weird vibes User10 just say you are jealous of her and go
Y/Njpeg just posted a photo
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YNjpeg This year is a period of growth and change. Its difficult but I think I like her a lot better.
User2 Mom what is this cryptic posts???
User4 Im not ready for them
User5 You look beautiful Y/N
LandoNorris i miss you!!
YNjpeg miss you more muppet. Eat your fish! LandoNorris I don't miss you that much
User7 She is glowing and stunning!!! Is this the post-break up effect?
User8 Can we just be happy how happy she looks???
User9 Man, she fumbled real bad
User10 yeaah like how can you break up with Carlos? User11 ohmygod you two are delusional.
ChiliUpdates just posted a photo.
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ChiliUpdates Carlos Sainz is having a brilliant year with weekly podiums and race wins. He is now closing the gap to Verstappen by 4 points. Carlos WDC 2024???
User4 carlos driving like a man without a seat
User5 girl he literally has no seat for 2025 User4 oh my bad. i forgot!!1 this was supposed to be a joke
User6 im so proud of carlos,he deserves this
User7 but you know what I miss seeing Y/N's face when Carlos wins. He would always wink at her and point at her when he is up there.
User8 we are a child of divorce User9 and the fact that Y/N is in the likes User10 heartbroken so many times
User11 carlos is really challenging max this year
User12 agree,its been more and more exciting. User88 Im so glad Ferrari and McLaren are finally catching up on that rocketship of Max User24 RIGHT?? WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT
User13 I hope Sainz wins this year.
PageantQueens just posted a photo
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PageantQueens Presenting the candidate of the Philippines, Miss Y/N Y/L/N. What do you think about her?
User2 she is gorgeous!!!
User45 not only gorgeous, her interviews made her sound eloquent User28 yes QUEEN!!!
User3 im from netherlands but miss philippines is my queen
User4 crown her already
User6 wait hold up that's Y/N as in Carlos' Y/N
User7 omg??? its her! User9 HOW COME WE DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT IT User8 CARLOS FUMBLED A SOON TO BE MISS UNIVERSE???
User11 okay i just remembered how Carlos used to call her the prettiest girl in the universe, he manifested this
User36 what??? User84 and now its not only carlos calling her the prettiest girl in the universe but everyone User44 please dont make me cry rn
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thefatedthoughtofyou · 10 months
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Saw this meme and iiiiii did a thing... a steddie thing... obviously
( Eddie has a small dick in this if you don't like it don't read it. We support small dick supremacy in this house thank you for your time. 😊 )
😅😅😅
I'm picturing them at a bar. I wanna say maybe Steve is the bar tender, and he's been seeing Eddie around. He comes in. Talks a little, he's kinda quiet. Like he's stuck in his head, like he comes there to think. He's always scribbling things on napkins. Steve thinks they might be song lyrics, the way Eddie hums and taps his fingers as he writes.
But Steve obviously sees him looking at him sometimes. It's a gay bar, it happens, but Eddie doesn't leer at him, or chat him up in that way. It's always just friendly conversation.
Steve kind of loves it. Loves being able to just chat and not worry about getting stalked out to his car by a creep. And then one day some drunk dude is hitting on Eddie HARD. Leaning into him and grabbing at his arm and just when Steve is about to say something the guy actually says the words,
"how big is that dick?" Like... in real life. Out loud. And grabs for Eddie's thigh, and Steve watches Eddie catch his wrist, easy, watches him shove the guys hand back at him, saying,
"small. Leave me alone." Without even looking at him. And Steve fucking barks a laugh because that was... fucking hilarious. But also... kinda hot. Like, he's known he likes Eddie for awhile but seeing someone come on to him had sealed the deal, jealousy crawling over his skin, but then seeing Eddie shut it down, in the funniest fucking way Steve had ever seen, had just slammed it into place.
The guy scowls, says something rude, and stalks off. But Eddie is looking at Steve cuz he's still chuckling. Doing that cough thing like he's trying to cover it up but the laugh is still extremely prominent through the coughing. And Eddie watches him with raised eyebrows cuz like... damn okay. Cute bar tender thinks he's funny. And Steve is like,
"Sorry man. That was just, fuckin hilarious. Not the guy grabbing you, obviously, just, how you delt with it. Like that was... the best thing I've seen in awhile. Just... just sayin." He shakes his head to stop himself rambling more, he needs more friends to hangout with besides Robin, she's rubbing off on him. So he just reaches into the cooler and grabs Eddie his usual beer, slides it over the bartop to him, tells him it's on the house.
"Thanks." Is all Eddie says, but he looks happy, small smile still on his face.
And when the bar's closing, and Eddie is still there, just idly talking to Steve all night. Steve takes a chance. Says some cheesey line about letting Eddie walk him home. And Eddie flushes red to his ears but nods, takes the last sip of his beer and helps Steve flip the chairs onto the tables so he can do a quick sweep. Steve's locking the door when he hears Eddie clear his throat awkwardly, like he wants to say something. Steve looks at him, waits.
"I uh... look I know you thought I was being funny... earlier." Eddie scratches his head, nods into the bar. Steve nods, lets him continue.
"But I uh- I was also being serious?" He grimaces, eyes on the ground.
"So if that's like... a deal breaker? That's- that's totally okay. I just uh... I dont know. Thought I should maybe warn you before- before anything...happens?" His eyes widen and he takes a step back.
"Not that anything was gonna happen! Like I wasn't expecting... THAT. I just... oh my god I don't know. People can be assholes about small dicks so I just wanted to be up-front about it in case you thought I was kidding when I told that guy that. Cuz I was being serious and I'm gonna stop talking. Jesus christ." He breathes the last part, shaking his head at himself, his face twisted in what looks like pain. Steve thinks he's fucking adorable.
He steps closer, puts his hands on Eddie's hips and pushes him gently against the brickwall of the bar. Rests his head against Eddie's as he laughs a little, Steve's fingers pressing into his hips tickling a bit.
"I don't care. Honestly I uh..." he pauses, pulls back to look at Eddie, his eyes are wide, his cheeks are a deep pink now.
"I was kinda hopin you weren't kidding." Steve tilts his head, smirks at Eddie, just a little. A light smirk. Not the full thing, doesn't wanna overwhelme him. Yet. Eddie sucks in air, blinks at him.
"Oh. Yeah?" He asks, his voice breathy, pitched higher than usual. Steve nods, sinks his teeth into his lip, and brushes his nose against Eddie's.
"Yeah. Still wanna walk me home?" Steve asks, staying close. Eddie nods, his hands moving to Steve's shoulders.
"Yeah. Yes absolutely. I'd love that. I'd love too." He rambles, swallowing hard.
And Steve can't help himself anymore, ducks forward and presses a soft kiss to his lips. Eddie makes a little sound in his throat and Steve fucking adores it. Already in so deep for this guy. But it's been months. Eddie's not a new thing in his life. Just, this part of it is new.
Eddie blinks at him when he pulls back, steps away from Eddie but holds out his hand. Eddie smiles, reaches out and takes it, lets Steve drag him away from the wall and down the sidewalk. Their fingers laced together, hands swaying between them as they walk through the dark.
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auras-moonstone · 9 months
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OMGOMGOMG WHAT IF JACK CHAMPION X READER AND LIKE THEY ARE READING FUNNY THIRST TWEETS AND ITS FUNNY BUT JACK IS A LITTLE JEALOUS BUT YESSS I LOVE YOUR WORK BAE🤍🤍🤍 
hi, thank you sm!!🤍 this was really fun to write, hope you like it!
i’m so chill, but you make me jealous — jack champion
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pairing: jack champion x fem!reader
summary: y/n and jack are invited to read thirst tweets and jack gets a little jealous of the compliments his girlfriend receives.
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“HI! I’M Y/N Y/L/N AND I PLAY JULIET ON SCREAM 6” the girl said to the camera with a big smile.
“And I’m Jack Champion and I play Ethan Landry on Scream 6” he did a little wave while showing his perfect white teeth.
“And today we’re here with Buzzfeed to read…” Y/N said, waiting for his boyfriend to finish the line.
“Thirst tweets! I’m scared, Twitter is one wild app” Jack chuckled.
“I love twitter” Y/N told the cameras, emphasising the word ‘love’.
“She really does, she spends hours on it. And sometimes I can hear her laughter from the bedroom when I’m in the living room” he smiled, looking at her in adoration.
“People are very creative in there!” she defended herself. “Anyways, let’s start this!”.
it’s just rude how jack champion walks around being cute and i’m not there to witness it
Jack smiled “That’s actually really adorable. Thank you so much!”
“It’s honestly ruder when you actually witness it because you can’t just comprehend how someone this cute exists” Y/N said faking annoyance.
“Aw, stop it. You’re making me blush” he let out a nervous laugh, covering his face.
“My favorite hobby: making my boyfriend blush” she’s smiled proudly.
PLEASE I WOULD DIE FOR JACK CHAMPION AND Y/N Y/L/N I DONT THINK YOU UNDERSTAND THE GRIP THEY HAVE ON ME I’D GLADLY WALK OVER HOT COALS CARRYING THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD IF IT MEANT THEY’D BE HAPPY
“I just love how supportive people are about our relationship. Like, especially the fans, they’re always sending us adorable messages and commenting how we make them happy. Honestly, thank you so much” Jack said in a grateful way.
“Yes, they are awesome! And you don’t have to do that to makes us happy. Just send us fan edits of us with Taylor Swift songs, and we’ll be the happiest!” she winked at the camera.
y/n y/l/n in scream 6 is so fine, like she could gaslight gatekeep and girlboss me and i would let her
“Thanks! I guess… man I love this! My self-esteem is going to be on the fucking sky once we’re finished!” Y/N laughed.
“I don’t know how I feel about people thirsting over my girlfriend… but at the same time I get it, look at her!” Jack said, turning his face to look at her profile. She truly was an angel—inside and out. And he honestly, even after a year of dating, still can’t believe how lucky he is.
jack champion has the cutest smile ever i cry forever
“I feel you!” Y/N said loudly. “He says he never had braces but I don’t fucking buy it. No one naturally has that million dollar smile”.
“Thank you for the compliment. And I swear, I never had braces”
“I don’t buy it, but okay. I love you so I’ll let you gaslight me”
y/n y/l/n could stab me 781 times and i would still be screaming thank you!
“Woah! You have some serious kinks, but I won’t judge you” Y/N laughed.
“Y/N! Oh my god” his boyfriend laughed. “I honestly don’t know how to take this tweet, let’s just quickly move on”.
if you don’t find jack champion hot, you’re lying!
“I mean, everyone has a different type, so” Jack shrugged.
Y/N rolled her eyes “Bullshit. You’re everyone’s type. If you know someone who doesn’t find him hot, send me their address, I just wanna talk”.
“I love you” Jack laughed, kissing her knuckles.
“I love you too” she smiled.
no one talks about scream 6 without mentioning how hot jack champion is
“I mean, it’s true! I think we all felt some type of way during the train scene… and when he took his mask off???? I forgot how to breath” Y/N said. She will never shut up about how gorgeous his boyfriend was, because his factions were just too good to not be talked about.
“I’m starting to think you sent these tweets, love”
“I didn’t. But you know what? I’m opening a Jack Champion fan account to tweet about your pretty face every day”
“I’m honoured” he laughed. Jack just loved how she was always complimenting him, it made him feel really loved by her.
i would let y/n y/l/n split me in half like a pistacho send tweet
Jack widened his eyes “Can we leave now?”
“No!” Y/N laughed.
“I feel like every tweet gets dirtier and I won’t be able to handle it”
“Are you seriously jealous about some random people on the internet?” Y/N chuckled “You’re so cute. Thanks for the tweet, by the way! But I have a lovely boyfriend who would definitely not appreciate me doing that!”
“That’s better” he smiled proudly.
i want someone to look at me the way y/n and jack look at each other
“That’s the sweetest thing I’ve ever heard” Jack said, touching his chest.
“We really are part of those annoying couples who can’t keep doing heart eyes to the other. And honestly, I’m not even embarrassed by it, I love loving my boyfriend”.
y/n is so fucking fine i hope her cheetos are FLAMING HOT like her
“And we’re done!” Jack said, doing one big loud clap. “Thank you for watching!”
“Thank you for the compliment and sorry about my jealous boyfriend. Thanks for watching, don’t forget to like and suscribe!” Y/N gave one last grin to the camera before it stopped recording.
“Everybody wants you” Jack frowned, wrapping his arms around her waist.
Y/N laughed “Sorry for them then, because I only want you. Now, can we go to the dressing room so we can make out?”
Jack nodded, and Y/N swore she had never seen him run so fast.
buzzfeed here you go! your favorite couple reads thirst tweets! ❤️
y/nxjack this should be called “y/n and jack read thirst tweets while thirsting over each other” tbh
y/nslover omg the cheetos tweet is mine!!! y/n.y/l/n you are the love of my life
jackchampion no she’s not she’s mine🤬
y/nslover jackchampion can you fight??
jackchampion y/nslover WHY WOULD I FIGHT SHE’S ALREADY MY GIRLFRIEND I’M GOING TO BLOCK YOU
y/n.y/l/n i love you you’re a sweetheart y/nslover 💕 JACK STOP IT OMG
devyn_nekoda i love how jack’s jaw clenches more and more as the video goes on😭😭😭 by the way, the pistacho tweet… i relate
y/n.y/l/n tell me time and place gorgeous :)
jackchampion we are over y/n.y/l/n
y/n.y/l/n okay jackchampion
jackchampion NO BABE I WAS KIDDING I LOVE YOU DONT LEAVE ME y/n.y/l/n
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bitchiswild · 7 days
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More goon central! More goon central! More goon central! 😸
More goon central? 😏
Lemme tell you the story of how the twins don't really like their younger brother Bart. 😒🙄
It all started when Lila @lilacura introduced Bartholomew to me saying how this was now our son and how she gave birth to him (of course i agreed) . During this moment she had also sent the pic to Jade @jade-jini and Keer @keervah oh my god they did NAWTTT like him and called him uglyyy😭 (LIKE DAMN LEAVE THE BABY ALONEEEEEEE HE DID NOTHINGGGGGGG). Everytime Lila and I bring up bart the twins were always like "ugh i thought you forgot about him" or "ugh he's not my brother" LIKEEEEEEE 🥲 ITS OUR BABY WHY WOULD WE FORGETTTTT AND WHY R U SO MEANNNNNNN!!! LIke they gotta learn to love him but they dont wanna CAUSE HE'S UGLY??????? LIKE BFFR. BUT GUESS WHATTTTT THEY ARE FINALLY GETTING USED TO HIM ( they still dont like him) BUT WE ARE FINALLY GETTING SOMEWHEREEEEE!!!!! jade is just being nice cause she wants fortnite things AND KEERRRR THE #1 BART HATER FINALLY COUNTS HIM AS ONE OF LILA'S AND I'S KIDS!!!!! (she was calculating how many kids lila and I have now and she was like 3) GUYSSSS WE ARE GETTING SOMEWHEREEEEEEEEEE🤪🥳🎉 but lila and I welcomed another baby a fur baby (the family pet) named riri :3 and shes is a little flirttttttt 😭 but lila and i love her cs she talks like us 😭. and when Lila and I were telling Jade and keer about their new sibling they were like ??????? ARE YOU A FURRY (like okay. what the actual fuck.) WE WERE GONNA ASK JADE AND KEER TO NAME RIRI BUT NooooOoOOoOOOoo THEY WANNA BE RUDE. so we asked sienna!! @kittyl1z she was no help at first, wanting us to name riri stephen curry🧍‍♀️like okay. no. BUT SHE GAVE US THE NAME RIRI SO WE TOOK IT AND RAN WITH ITTTT (we were gonna name riri Liyuh "Leah" but riri was too iconic and too good) But yesssssss lila and I now have 4 kidsssss. :3
I hope this was a fun goon central storyyyy!!!
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^ this is riri SHES SOOOO CUTIE PATOOTIEEEEE🤭
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madebyrolo · 3 months
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Chapter 9
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ꔮ ⋆ ‧₊˚ ☽ ⋅
It’s been a couple days since the beach hangout, and y/n has been going down to the reservation a lot more ever since. Ever since her and a Paul finally met she’s been itching to see him again. She seen him once on the Rez, he was hanging around then the second time he was just “passing through” just sent a wave then vanished. She’s back at the Rez and she hasn’t seen him since.
“Hey Jake” she said walking into the workshop
“Hey y/n/n” he said working on his car
“Whatcha doin” she asked
“I’m just fixing the transmission, it started slipping and shaking so I’m just checking the fluids.” He said
“Ah yes” she replied
“You dont understand a thing do you” he said with a chuckle
“Ah yes” she repeated answering his question
“So when when are the other boys coming by?” By boys she meant Paul.
“Quil and Embry are grounded so it’s just us” Jacob said
“Cool cool, just like old times” y/n said with a smile “what about Jared and Paul…” smooth y/n.
A part of Jacob tensed up hearing y/n ask “so um they aren’t gonna be here for awhile” he said while grabbing a tool
“Why?” She asked concerned
“Well they’re kinda sticking to them self’s right now” he said turning the tool
“What do you mean?” he sighs and sets down the tools trying to figure out how to tell her without letting her know.
“In a way they hit puberty. Like not like in a boy way but in a tribal way. They mature and somewhat grew more into their own self. Sam was the first so he kinda took them and made his own little pack” Jacob said.
“So what they’re like the cool kids now? Sam’s the alpha” Y/n joked
“Yes actually, he is” Jacob said
“Oh, so what they aren’t allowed to come here anymore? I haven’t seen Paul in a while”
“They think they’re better than us. The ones who haven’t shifted” the word slipped out of his mouth.
“What do you mean shifted ?”
“Look, I can’t say much but they don’t wanna hang out with the “normies” basically.Now that they have Jared, they formed at little pack, a little gang. now let it go” He scolded her
“Okay! geez chill out” she said rolling her eyes
“Alright sorry that was rude. What’s up with your interest in Paul anyways?” He asked
“I don’t know” she said kicking her legs off the stool
“He’s seems nice. When I met him on the beach-”
“Y/n he’s not nice. Well not anymore anyways”
“What ?” She asked
“Like I said, he thinks he’s better than anyone els, the whole group. Sam has them skipping school and just going off in the woods doing patr- whatever they’re doing.”
“I just thought-”
“Y/n please don’t hang out with them. They’re not the good guys anymore. Emily has that scar for a reason.”
“Oh my god did they hurt her ?” She asked worried
“No she was just at the wrong place at the wrong time. Not saying what Sam did was wrong but you just have to becarful around them now’s. It’s worst this time around.” Jacob said
“Wait what do you mean? With shifted, “worst this time around”, packs?-”
“Enough just drop it! I can’t say much they wouldn’t allow it.” He snarked
“Well for not being allowed to say much you sure do keep on talking.” She said defending herself
“Let’s just do something els alright?” Jacob offered to try to dissolved the tension
“Fine. Let’s make something to eat im starving”
y/n hops off the stool following Jacob towards his homes. They walk in the little red house and taking their muddy shoes off and heading into the kitchen.
“Alright what you got ?”y/n asked
“We can make subs, corn, pasta, fish,”
“Let’s do corn.”
“Grilled or boiled?”
“Grilled. That’s the only way Jacob.”
As they start prepping the corn to put it on the stove. As they cook it they start talking catching up, Jacob trying to make her forget about what they talked about earlier. As the corn finished cook y/n grabs it off the stove and puts them on separate plates going to the fridge and grabbing 2 things.
“Mayo and cheese ? What are you doing with that” Jacob asked
“I’m making an elote, my dad used to make them when we were younger. Here try it” she said taking her prepared elote and giving it to him to try. He takes a bite and his eye light up
“Mhhm this is soo good oh my god!” He said while taking it away from her.
“Yeah sure take mine.” She said sarcastically
She finishes her and they sit and talk while having dinner.
Y/n slowly starting to forget about Paul but she’ll never forget what Jacob said.
“Shifting, pack, alpha” those words slowing gracing her mind. If she didn’t know any better she would say they sounded like wolfs. But that’s just silly.
˚ ࣪𖤐⋆⭒˚‧₊ ִֶָ☾.
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Rewatching Beyond Evil and I’m taking (somewhat) unserious notes! Enjoy my brain worms.
Episode 1 || Next Episode
Ooooo dead body
Mad to think that when I first saw Jihoon’s actor he was playing a bully. This is a complete 180 and he does both roles well.
Intense middle aged running with intense music
(Spongebob style) Flashback~
Ah a church. You will never catch me there
The song they’re singing is oddly fitting to the theme of the show sans the whole God thing
We don’t stan Dongsik slander in this household.
Lee Dohyun <3
The signs in this flashback. The shot of the guitar pick, Kang Jinmuk being seen a lot but in the background, Bang Juseon being rude to Dongsik, Dongsik telling Yuyeon to leave at night (aka he had “motive”) etc
Lee twins crumbs I love it.
The cold filter when Dongsiks mum finds yuyeons fingertips nice touch
The title being “(to) Appear" mwah nice
Love the shots of how everything is “worse”when we transition to Dongsik now
Oct 11 2020 remember that me
HERE HE IS ITS JUWON
Dongsik saying stop in english <3
Pls the dramatic slow mo 🤣
Dongsik is a true justice/law upholder. Never letting things slide if its wrong. He and juwon are alike in that sense.
“Many a mickle makes a muckle” netflix what does that mean???? Like i get it but ive never heard that saying in my life
Everyone turns to see Juwon par Dongsik… that is until he speaks.
Juwon judging people and things right off the bat. Bro is not amused.
Technically Juwon is higher rank than Dongsik because Dongsik is assistant inspector and Juwon is flat out inspector
Dongsik immediately knew something was up as soon as he heard who Juwon’s dad is.
Juwon’s first impression of Dongsik is that he is intelligent and follows the law like rulebook when dealing with people (ofc he also thinks he is a murderer and should avoid someone like him and has already decided he hates his guts)
The tension starts as soon as Juwon drives past Dongsik. They immediately are making notes on each other
YOO JAEYI MY GIRLBOSS BELOVED. She is so much more clever than people give her credit for.
Jeongje and Dongsik being best friends…
OH JIHWA ^^
I love the manyang crew interactions.
“He’s not my type” not now… but he will be. you have no idea whats coming for you, Dongsik
Ew Hna Kihwan
I love these dinner scenes with Juwon. They so clearly reflect him and his attitude at the time as well as his relationship with his dad as well as how they change over the show.
아버지 and not 아빠 really emphasises the father-son relationship they have (or lack thereof)
Their first interaction and they already dont like each other.
Everyone sucking up to Juwon and trying to work with him and hes like yeah… no. Y’all are weird.
THEN GETS OFFENDED WHEN DONGSIK SAYS HE DOESNT WANNA WORK WITH HIM LMAOO
so hes like… two can play at this game bitch and calls Dongsik a nutjob.
Their reaction when Sangbae pairs them up is top tier
Juwons inner thoughts: “Day one… fuck my life”
Dongsik started teasing Juwon off the bat
They both have a super impressive memory wtf
“There are no secrets in this town. You are always being watched by someone.”
Dongsik nags Juwon about his aggressive driving and immediately drives aggressively because he can
Ah the reed field…
Juwon traipsing through the mud was me last week when I had to walk home (our area flooded)
We dont give the score for this show enough credit its so good like
“Why did you just stand there when a gust of wind was coming? You’ll learn once it slaps you in the face.” Metaphorrrrrrr
Juwon is already accusing Dongsik like 40mins into the ep like damn
Fresh out the shower dongsik is so yes.
Juwon in that white jumped is also a yes.
Mate respectfully I don’t think you got how relationships work. “People at my school or in my hometown want to be my friends by showing me unwanted kindness or attention. But at get-togethers they all talk about what I have or my connections. They gossip and laugh about it. In the end they all come to me for favours.” Dongsik is right in asking “Is it that simple?” Because it isn’t. (I will make a full post about this omg)
“What could you possibly have that makes you think you are the most important person in the universe?” THE MEANINGS OMG
Man gets so offended when people are like you have mysophobia then ends up roped into a get together.
Juwon trying to text a fake excuse to get out of the get together is so me because I have done that (its the anxiety for me)
Juwon is so awkward bless him.
“You’re supposed to stay glued to your partner all day, and know the colour of his underpants.” Dw Jihoon Juwon will learn ;)
Everyone clapping for Jinmuk and calling him the most important guy in manyang…
Juwon not liking his dad being brought up and Dongsik joking about it to diffuse the situation and also poke at Juwon
All important scenes happen when it rains.
Juwon quickly learns to not believe what dongsik says half the time XD
“I don’t want you to like me.” “It’s up to me to like someone or not.”
“Leave before you get caught.” What interesting phrasing Dongsik
Ah yes the Juwon and Hyeok brother dynamic. I find it interesting and think its an underrated Juwon relationship.
Hyeok trying be Han Kihwans son and Juwon is like “dont. Trust me.”
We mention Dongsiks wall of notes and stuff on the Yuyeon etc case but we dont talk about Juwons enough. Mf has two. Two fricken boards. One he makes in his closet (?) above his computer and the other next to his bed.
The! Score! Ugh im a lover
It takes a whole day to get to the reed field this time??? Cause he arrived in the morning (i assume) at the police station and then the sun is set by the time he gets there. I think he may have procrastinated bc of the mud or he actually arrived in the afternoon and the sun sets ridiculously early in late october?
Juwon getting jumpscared by Dongsik again XD
I love how this episode brings us full loop to the start of the episode but includes Juwon the second time to add fresh perspective and the aftermath.
Juwon’s step back and shaky hand is a give away that he knows her and Dongsik immediately picks up on it. Yet Dongsik tells Jihoon to leave knowing this must be a secret.
And Juwon doesn’t miss a beat when Dongsik says its a woman. They’re both one upping each other all the time
We give Juwon shit for constantly grabbing juwons collar/shirt but Dongsik did it first! (And it was hot because he smooths out Juwons shirt after) Juwon just copied and repeated.
And Dongsik quickly realises why Juwon is in Manyang and decides to just play with him and be a little shit.
Mate you guys are at the first ep and already in each other’s faces
Ok fin see you next episode ^^
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saw your post abt rapunzel manipulating tim in their convo and god hard agree it Is concerning that so many ppl didn't see it. also crazy to me that ppl are mad at tim and defending rapunzel, saying that they would have taken the book too because tim was being rude etc. to me it seemed that both tim the character and ally the player Wanted to believe that rapunzel wasn't part of the plan and was good but just kind of strange, and both are successfully fooled. tim absolutely fumbles the interaction and ally could have played things better, but rapunzel was so clearly in charge of the conversation, leading him into saying worse and worse things and putting his foot in his mouth while tim was genuinely trying to be nice. tim is awkward and blunt and eccentric with Everyone, it's weird that ppl are saying he was being singularly rude to her or patronizing her or that he deserved to get the book taken. that interaction was clumsy as hell and so many words could have been chosen better but tim so clearly was trying so hard to fix his initial fuck up and be friendly w her in the same weird way he talks to everyone. I don't see how ppl came out of that scene on her side even if tim was a little rude and unfortunate w his word choice, and it's concerning to see ppl being like "ha take that stupid old man!!" abt the book being taken + in defense of a character we met an episode and a half ago and who we have been told outright is an expert at deceiving people. the princesses are so so interesting as characters and the morals going on are complex and that's a whole different conversation, but I feel like no matter whether you love rapunzel or not, ppl should be able to recognize that she was manipulating tim in that moment and taking advantage of his trusting disposition. not trying to start discourse in your ask box ofc!!! I've just seen No One Else express discomfort w rapunzel in that scene
anon this ask has been living in my head rent free since you sent it, i've been stewing over how to respond because y e s. for context, check out this post to save discourse on main (this is about to be a long one of fan critic analysis, get your popcorn and settle in if you wanna read, this is the longest post i've ever made), im gonna put my thoughts and response under a read more, sososo many spoilers under the cut read at your own risk
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These were all in the replies and tags and I want to reply to all of them bc they're all worthy of being talked about bc i feel like the majority of the fandom is almost scared to critique?? So like let's talk about it since nobody else seems to be taking this approach from what I can tell (thank you to you anon for being on my side as well as the rest of you who are screaming with me) I will begin by saying that my original post is not critiquing ally the player, or any of the other players. i understand that they were in that dome, filming a session of dungeons and dragons, and improv acting and roleplaying for many hours on end with back to back episodes. i kind of get ally and the rest of the table maybe just wanting to "hope for the best", especially ally as they are quite a "hope for the good in others" type of person. it's frustrating from a viewer perspective sure, but i totally dont blame anyone ever for making a "wrong" or "non-optimal" choice while playing a ttrpg, they just have the misfortune of being filmed while doing so. i myself have made tons of bag fumbles while playing dnd, even when i thought everything through ten times over. so anything i have said or will say forward isn't to put any shouldering on to the people playing these silly storybook characters, like, i Get It
What i do want to critique is the fan response, which is the more worrying one!!! like i said in my original post, i was surprised by my d20 watch buddy having a similar response to ally. the total "oh, maybe she's just quirky bc of the self isolation, maybe she's autism rep" approach. my friend, love her to death, is also one of those "sees the best in others and hope everyone is always aiming to be their best selves" type of person, very similar to ally. i came online after that episode expecting everybody on the fanbase level to be screaming with me in a "i told you so!!" way
instead. i came online and saw people just on the attack and the defense in absolutely skewed ways!! out of NOWHERE, all these fans have come on to post about how "tim was patronizing her, and thats why she stole the book" "wow i would have hated being called girly and honey as well" "wow these conversations really didnt go their way why was tim so mean to her :(" or the opposite of "rapunzel is the evilest person to ever exist bc xyz these princesses are evil villains" or "we need to protect these princesses bc they just didnt know any better uwu"
i feel like, on a fan level, me and you anon (+all these lovely folks in the notes of that post) were the only ones screaming "hold on, that is literally not the same media i just watched"
i've seen before a lot of people be like "wow, media literacy is at an all time low" and i never really understood that until i saw the reactions after that episode. as a fan or viewer watching any media, we have the privilege of seeing more about the media than the people who are creating it. that's the best joy of being a viewer, we get to sit back and spot those foreshadowing moments and bite our nails in suspense when the music goes creepy and see the artwork and overall, we have the privilege of catching vibes that maybe those acting in it do not. this leads to those bonding moments of "i told you so" "wow im biting my nails and pacing" "oh they're gonna REGRET that". and, an "oh my god no no no do not hug her she wants to take your book god now she's feeling you up with her hair she's looking for the book ROLL INITIATIVE!!!!". it leads to glorious moments of ~dramatic irony~, a literary term for literally when something is happening in a story and the readers can catch it, but the protagonist probably didnt bc they're not seeing the full picture. While watching, from my perspective, yeah it was frustrating to watch the player bag fumble turn after turn, but it's a game of dnd, they film so many back to back, they don't get the same experience as us. however.
brennan did a great job at dropping the foreshadowing, to the point of not even so much subtly foreshadowing, he DIRECTLY TOLD THEM rapunzel was a liar and uses her words as knives. like someone pointed out, the players even PAID for that information, with the golden bridle. by the time they met these princesses, they probably knew the most about rapunzel's true nature over all the other princesses, that she uses her charisma to her advantage. the players made their choice to do the diplomatic route, to split up and chat. ally did the right thing for picking rapunzel with tim's 19 charisma stat, it would have been charisma against charisma, and an even playing field for someone they have been explicitly told is a master of words and deceit.
as fans, we've seen these episodes edited and put back to back. clues are lined up in a row. was it frustrating to see ally playing tim in a naïve way? sure. but tim's been pretty naïve this whole time, so you could stack it up to a character choice. what's more frustrating is seeing the responses of viewers being blindsided by the book thieving and chalking it all up to "evil vs good" and rapunzel's choice shaking them to their cores.
by this point in the story, by the time you get to that episode, rapunzel already gave enough bad vibes with the talk of her charismatic deceits and with her hair everywhere spying on them. maybe that last one wasn't explicitly stated, but it was heavily implied to the point of gerard writing the plans on a note instead of wanting them said out loud by elody, a scene that happened way before tim's. by the time we see rapunzel get to the kitchen, she is INSTANTLY catty. someone described her on the post as "eldritch regina george" and. yes. exactly. eldritch regina george. from our privileged spot as a viewer, rapunzel comes in, puts on the fake smile, puts on her fake tone, and says "what are you doing in here? :)". she was already ready to fight timothy. that first sentence was hostile. she was OFFENDED and checking on tim to make sure mother goose wasn't counter-spying. i honestly didnt think that would have to have been explicitly stated, she was in attack mode and plastered the fake smile for a show so that she had the upperhand in the conversation that was about to happen. this is something that fans should have at least caught on to right off the bat, we've been explicitly told that she is fake more than she is honest for the sake of being a "performative person"
the conversation happens, and she starts becoming more verbally hostile. "i dont know, what SHOULD we do hehe. it's ruined now :)" "no use in crying over spilt milk *pours milk with hair on the floor with a smile* oh no :)" "...or if it was on purpose :/ :)" "why dont you go get a mop :)" "i chose to be charming :)"
every sentence she replied with was carefully chosen. as viewers, we can watch brennan's face in full clarity of intimidation. we can have the knowledge that has been provided to not trust rapunzel as she is a charismatic spy who has words for knives. in my opinion, even without those clues before now, her show that she put on in the kitchen should have been enough as is to show that she is acting maliciously and with hostility. the smile is there as to not incite physical violence on tim's part bc then it would make TIM look like the bad guy if he attacked first. by the time she goes in for the hug. im sorry. but ally the player should have caught that, the whole table should have caught that, and-more importantly-the fans should have caught that. we all watched the same thing. we have all been told the same information. to purposefully ignore all of the red flags just to pull a "well tim was kind of mean and patronizing, and rapunzel doesnt have social skills from being locked in a tower, i forgive her, wow i didnt see that coming" is absolutely *batshit*
the lack of people catching on is what concerns me. i've met TONS of people growing up (sorry here, im all for women's wrongs, but mainly cis-girls tbh) who act like rapunzel does. from middle school and high school bullies/mean girls. mean girls at college. from parents or teachers or bosses. from normal adults in my life. they always have the same tone and inflections in the same places. the same faces with the wrinkled nose. the same sickly sweet smile. brennan played rapunzel, a known manipulator, perfectly. to a T. he embodied it fully. people JUST LIKE RAPUNZEL walk amongst us every day. i can guarantee you that even these fans that didnt catch it have met people like rapunzel in their own lives.
rapunzel is a character yes, but she is a character that mimics a masterclass manipulator. she IS the mean girl, the regina george. it leaked out of her every word, tone, and inflection. every single thing told about her and shown was, in no world, some "uwu the sweet bean was locked in a tower and doesnt have social skills". that was her origin, her start point. just like sleeping beauty locked in a castle, snow locked in her coffin. rapunzel directly says "i chose to be charming. :)." she had her origin of no social skills, her sad origin of being locked in isolation in her tower, and said "this is my greatest flaw, so i am going to dedicate my life to improving this skill bc it's what stopping me from achieving my goals." she trained her social skills to be good. too good. so good that she hopes nobody will catch her sweet charming self in the act of malicious intentions. this. was. directly. stated.
it worries me on a psychological level of the fans. yes it shows a lack of media literacy, something is frustrating on a fan-to-fan level. it shows a lack of ability of critical thinking. it shows a lack of ability to participate in dramatic irony, a necessary literary device to instill tension into a horror campaign. but also, and to what is probably my main point in this novel long hot take: it has real world implications. mean girls like rapunzel are a guarantee in life. i'm sorry, but it's true. maybe the person acts differently, maybe they aren't as obvious or more obvious. but these people walk amongst us. they use the same tone and same cadence to their words. these manipulators see what they want, and devise a way to convince the person into giving them what they want. rapunzel did not use the Charm Person spell, or the Friendship spell. She used. her words. like a normal human being. and by doing so, we as the fans were able to catch on and should have had a moment of "RUN GOOSE, RUN AWAY, NO DONT LET HER HUG YOU". but instead, a lot of people turn a blind eye to these manipulators in their lives. they pull a "aw but they have a tragic backstory, they're just confused and need love :/" "they cant be THAT bad..." they see a sweet little smile on the face and an upticked tone of voice, and go "well, they're playing nice, so now i have to play nice bc otherwise im the bad guy here" which!!! you do not!!
this is exactly how manipulators worm their ways in, this is what ALLOWS manipulation to work in its various forms. it's how people get trapped in abusive relationships. it's how people get scammed. on a personal end, i lived a narcissistic manipulator for a long time growing up, and it was exhausting. once you could put down the rose colored glasses and see right through the act, you notice how every inch of their mannerisms are performative. everything they say and do comes with the caveat of them wanting something from you and are trying to butter you up in the meantime. if you catch and call onto it, they IMMEDIATELY turn on you, they sneer and retreat to their next target who it will fool. the cycle continues, the next target is selected.
on a fan level, if we as fans cannot play into dramatic irony as a practice, if we cannot exit our seats of mind to catch on to those "eldritch regina george" quirks at the bud in a piece of fictional media where the puzzle has been handed on a silver platter, then there is a l o t more work to be done on 1) general media literacy 2) ANY fandom perception on media and 3) general awareness of how to spot and deal with manipulators in real life. if you can't catch on to it in a silly fictional ttrpg media, how do you expect to catch on to it in real life? how many of these same fans are trapped in manipulative relationships around them? how many more will they fall for bc of the "oh no but they have tragic backstory so it's forgiven uwu"? as fans, you cant sit there in the same breath saying that tim was condescending to rapunzel and then follow it up with not noticing what was ACTUALLY happening in real time. if you wanna say that rapunzel was ALLOWED to be a manipulator because of her origin, what other manipulators are you defending in your real life? how many of these manipulators continue their tricks BECAUSE they know naïve people exist and will fall for it? how many have been enabled in the same cycle bc it worked on one so it'll work on the next?
i wish i had a fun way to conclude this absolutely massive chunk of fandom critique gibberish, but i just dont. i wish i could find a more comprehensive way to scream about this, so take this post as me SCREAMING about this, anon my dm's are open if we wanna rant some more
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lolawassad · 2 years
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Okay get it bestie
Hi! Could you please write something with the reader being best friends with Alphonso and Jayme? ^^
YES I CAN THANK YOU I LOVE YOU MARRY ME? /P
this is kinda really awful im sorry anon
Two people walk up to you and try to intimidate you making you frown "Look i dont do fighting okay? so if you wanna beat me up go for it but it makes you a pussy because i wont fight back!" you say making the two people look at eachother before the guy sighs "thank fucking god" he says before sitting down next to you
"Your brother is mean" he says " i know right! im sorry, they can all be so rude, i mean one of my brothers is kind of a gorilla but we dont call him hideous!" you reply, the girl sighs loudly "i hate you" she says before sitting down next to you
You gasp fake offendedly "how dare you be so mean to me?" you ask her hand on your heart "can you believe your sister?" you ask the guy next to you "Jayme how could you?" he asks acting offended for you "so rude" you say
Jayme smirks "your cute i like that" she says making you gasp "ayo?! you are hitting on me now?" you ask shocked "wow" you continue before feeling something hit your face "fuck you doing we need to leave" five says before blinking you away
"FIVE HIT ME!" you yell out to your siblings "she was talking with the enemy thats a her problem" Five replies before sitting down "bitch" you mutter before sitting next to Klaus a pout on your face "Ill have you know Jayme thinks im cute! and i bet... i didnt get his name!!" you yell the last part out
You jump up and go to walk back to the building "what the hell are you doing?" Diego asks "Im gonna go visit my new besties" you tell him in a "duh" tone he goes to stop you but sits down again "dont die babe" Klaus yells after you
When you reach the house you knock on the door, when the door opens a lady with no eyes opens the door "oh you come for an ass whooping?" she asks making you shake your head "no i-" you say but are cut off by a "BESTIE!" and the guy from earlier walking over "you came back!" he beams making you jump up and down "course i did!"
He grabs onto your hand and pulls you inside "BYE PRETTY BIRD LADY I LOVE YOU!" you yell making the lady freeze in place
"Im alphonso by the way" he says while stopping his movements when he sees Ben "Ooh why we stopping for Ben? do we not like him? do we need to avoid him?" you ask him peaking out from behind him "No Ben doesnt like your family" he replies
"Well Ben hasnt met me ye- no he has met me, i bet he liked what he saw, even though i look like i just stepped out of the 60's- which i did" you ramble making someone chuckle behind you "she really is cute, can we keep her?" Jayme asks loudly making Ben's head shoot in your direction "HE SAW ME NOW HES GONNA MURDER ME.. OR KISS ME!" you yell panicked making the siblings laugh
"dont laugh, i am very sexy" you defend yourself offended "hey we didnt say you arent" Alphonso says "why is she here?" Ben demands from behind Jayme making you jump into Alphonso's arms "ay dios mio" you exclaim "how did you" you ask looking to where he just was to where he is now
"are you a wizard?" you ask him making Jayme laugh "oh yeah i really like this one, im keeping her" she tells her brothers with a smirk "no" Marcus speaks up from behind Alphonso "your siblings are so scary" you whisper to Alphonso
"the way hes looking at me he either wants to kill me or kis- hey do you wanna kiss?" you ask Marcus making him scoff "yes" he says before looking at Ben and then back at you "i mean no obviously, i would never kiss the enemy"
"I would totally kiss you" Ben speaks up making you gasp and look at him "just like the old days" you say
"fuck this" Jayme says before she starts pulling Alphonso who is still holding you with her "Stop trying to steal our new friend!" she yells out "Yeah!" Alphonso yells in agreement
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elvencantation · 1 month
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damsel liveblog
tbh my forward arrow fingers are itchy so im gonna be skipping through a lot of this
okay that opening quote was just tacky. we get it. we've seen the previews. youve made the point with the movie title
dude youve brought like twelve people to kill a dragon?? how badly do you want to die?
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ooooooo i do love some mushroom arthictecture!! gimme more pls
also love how the fire almost looks liquid in some spots. or maybe thats the melting armor
oh look she's cutting wood she's not a regular girl
they did pick the right task tho chopping wood is kinda hot (see that one canadian lady on instagram)
why does her maidservant already annoy me? its cute theyre holding hands tho
i like their furs. giving stark family vibes
queen of aurea?? seriously??? queen of gold with ships of gold? how on the nose??? or is that the point
srsly giving reverend mother vibes with the 'your holiness' and matchmaking. or maybe ive just got permanent dune brainrot that's closer to the surface after seeing pt2 twice in imax
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oooooo cool hair!!
WAIT THATS HER LITTLE SISTER? oh okay the side by side shots make more sense now
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more cool hair i wanna see closer!!! and cute sibling interaction
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OMG THIS LOOKS SO COOL I WANNA GIF IT
screen recording aquired, will link when i gif
i'd be annoyed at the parent's reactions to aurea if i didnt think about just how much it weighed on them to not be able to provide for their people
i need to take a break and go walk mom's dog
back after that and yummy dinner and just hanging out in bed with puppy and re-reading star wars time travel fics
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love how the mountains are immediately ominous behind the beautiful manicured gardens and the stately if a little smudgy castle
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AHA THERES THE HAIR!! WHAT BEAUTIFUL BRAIDS IM OBSESSED
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lovely balcony and once again, ominous mountains! so pretty so pretty
also yes i know this is pretty basic symbolism but having her in full sunlight and the other girl in shadow? *chefs kiss* i love it every time
girlie why you drawing a labyrinth? i thought she was journaling or something
GOD I LOVE ROBIN WRIGHT. I WANNA SEE HER EVIL
excited to see what the labyrinth will be. boy be calling it a maze smh
awww i do love a good horse ride!! and they match! too bad he's about to toss her into a chasm like a sack of sacrificial potatoes
oh no did they brainwash her poor dad?? also my god stepmom is on fire with the braids and outfits
the cracks are starting to show. but seriously, forgetting the name of the girl youre about to sacrifice?? thats just plain rude
ahhh here's the scene i saw like five times on instagram
oh god please dont make the corset weird please dont say anything weird about it P L E A S E for the love of marzi!
did they give her a bodice dagger?? or was that just the sheath? i love it
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ahhhh i do enjoy some nature inspired jewelry!!
also the red cloak!!! lovely
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pretty pretty pretty!!!
ahhh the creepy gold masks theyre so intricate!!!
and robin is now a reverend mother too
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ooooo what a pretty shot and i want her jewelry wow
ahhhh i do enjoy how subtly uncomfortable the prince looks
aha there we go. now the fun can begin!
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oooooo look at all those coins
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also a very pretty shot!
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oooooooo i need to gif this bit too
WAIT THE DRAGON TALKS?!?!!?
my god the voice is stunning
MAGMA DRAGONFIRE THIS IS GORGEOUS (pausing for more screen recording)
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looks like the maw of a dragon!!!
wait im sorry why's the other girl burnt and dead if its only 'once a generation'???
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avenging angel vibes pls continue
ok yeah so it was only a sheath. too much to ask for for them to give her an actual weapon
what the heck was in that pretty filigree egg thing?? also i want one. its so pretty. i mean i know it was some kind of scent. convenient that it burns like a lamp XD
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wow this movie is just feeding me lots of pretty visuals tyty
good thing girlie's got lots of upper arm strength from chopping wood!
yeahhhh make a bioluminescent lamp!!! and double win, she got rid of the second sleeve. much better now
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wow im gay
magically healing bioluminescent non-oceanic nudibranches??
thats my new indie band name btw
please tell me shes taking some magic slugs with her. youre gonna be climbing spikes pls bring some healing with you
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such pretty stabby crystals!!
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once again looking like a maw. though this time more like the maw of a sandworm ;)
"three were taken three must be given" ???? excuse me
ah. they were dumb enough to anger a mama dragon. they deserve to die
tell me her dad aint gonna get him and his men killed
also damn she made it all the way up just to have to come back down
oh we finally get to see the dragon!!! goddamn. she looks like a scaly gryfon i like it
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dont you guys dare kill the dad off just as i was starting to like him. dont do it
yeah i guess they realized they had to redeem him so his death would have impact. rude
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girl take chekhov's sword!
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ohhhh this is so pretty i think i gotta screen record it too
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this is some pompeii shit. oh i should watch that movie its got two hot people in it
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even cooler!!!
theyre just killing everyone?? thats boring
the mulan hair thing woulve been cool if i didnt daily put up my hair in a very secure bun without any pins or hairties that only works when your hair is like mid back length at least XD
its a miracle you didnt hurt your leg with you fell elodie
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oh noooooo oh god that was so awkward i cant
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why is this so awkward?? whats happening
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like you ever did what you were told?? whats happening? whats with the pacing, the dialogue the blocking?? w h a t
why did they have to show the queen with her crown melting off for so long??
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oh they match! nice
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ooooooo pretty pretty
overall kind of a fun movie. dont think i'd watch it again. still need to watch i am dragon
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fvirytips · 11 months
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What to do when people are gossiping
(how to make them stop, what to say, xtra!)
ahh gossiping. how I loved it. Notice how I said loved? yeah, gossiping is terrible! it spreads lies, makes people feel bad, and also makes you feel bad afterwards. It has literally 0 good effects.
Proverbs 11:13- Gossip betrays confidence, but a trustworthy person keeps a secret.
excuses!
Of course, it's a sin to lie. So we can't just make up a lie to get away. Instead, we can be telling the truth, and avoid this horrid sin!
There are 3 ways:
Change the subject
Q) "Did you hear about ____'s Mom?"
A) "No, please tell me later! and do you want to get lunch"
Q) "Isn't ____ so annoying?"
A) "Eh, I don't really talk to them, but shouldn't we go to our next class?"
Q) "Look at ____"s hair!"
A) "Wow.. oh, and do you wanna walk around a bit?"
See! So simple! Just say a word such as "Oh" or "Wow" or anyhting else that doesn't agree or disagree. Then change the subject to something you usually talk about.
"Confront"
In quotations marks because your not actually confronting them, more like showing them that their on the wrong.
Q) "Woah.. isn't ____ so ugly?"
A) "Well, we are just teens so you know, we're still developing and stuff.."
Q) "Did you hear that ____ is ____?"
A) "No.. and I thought you didn't like them, why are we talking about them.."
Q) "Ugh! I hate ____"
A) "Yeah she can sometimes be rude, but I don't think she means it, maybe we should just tell her?"
This one's risky, and you'll probably have to adjust it depending on your friends personality, but if they keep on gossiping. especially negatively, then it's best not to be friends
Ignore/Divert
Q)"Omg did you see ____?"
A) "Let's get lunch, the queue is short!"
Q) "Did you hear about ____?"
A) "No, I don't get into drama and stuff.."
Q) "Urgh.. I hate ____!"
A) "Isn't the sky so pretty today?"
These are my techniques to stop being a gossip! But how do we stop our friends from doing it?
Tell them it's wrong, and that imagine if they were in their shoes. You don't have to perform a Maryin Luther King Jr (love that guy) type of speech! Just drop it into conversation:
"Hey, you know how we always talk about ____, well, it's old news now, plus we should be planning for the summer!"
Or you just don't engage in it! If the gossip is really bad, get out of there!! Don't get tempted by its pretty face. It's all lies. Lies and deceit!
TL:DR- DONT GOSSIPP! Just ignore, confront, or change the subject! Remember that we aren't living for this stinky world 🤢 we are living for God, our Spirit, our Svaiour and Heaven!
Amen!
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thelastwalkingsoul · 1 year
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How is it the season finale alreadyyy ahhh
Ep 1 | Ep 2 | Ep 3 | Ep 4 | Ep 5 | Ep 6 | Ep 7 | Ep 8
- ASHLEYYYYYY. God she sounds like Ellie omg
- Nope, I can’t. I only hear Ellie.
- Babe it’s so impressive that you’re running that hard when you’re pregnant holy shit
- THE SWITCHBLADE YESSSS
- Oh god that’d be terrifying
- Woah that happened fast holy crap.
- This is beautiful. An Ellie giving life to another Ellie 🥹
- Oh. She was holding it to her neck. Oh honey.
- OH SHIT MAYBE THATS HOW SHES IMMUNE?! ANNA CUT IT AFTER SHE WAS BITTEN.
- The switchblade ahhhhh
- Woah they actually knew each other. I love that we get more backstory.
- Marlene NO YOU GOTTA KILL HER. Good.
- Oh no I wasn’t ready for Ellie post David 😭
- Not him saying he’ll teach her guitar IM DYING
- Is this the scene I think it is?
- IT IS YESSSS
- OH NO IM CRYING ALRESDY
- THE SMILE ON JOELS FACE FUCK ME
- “Man you can’t deny that view” AHHHHHHH. SCENE FOR SCENE. LINE FOR LINE
- God. Ellie being even more insistent about going makes Joel’s decision hurt even worse.
- “I was the guy who shot and missed.” JOEL. JOEL NO. OMFG 😭
- I WANNA GIVE YOU A HUH JOEL FUCK
- That’s such a mean angsty addiction omg I love it
- They’re both so bad at emotions and communication fucking hell
- Oh shit this is how they’re doing it
- OH ELLIES IMMUNITY IS PROBABLY BECAUSE ANNA GOT BITTEN BEFORE SHE CUT THE CORD AHHH
- The look on his face when he realises THATS A GUT PUNCH
- Oh my god they didn’t tell her this time THATS EVEN WORSE
- Fuck off Marlene you didn’t even want to TAKE ELLIE
- NOT THE SWITCHBLADE THATS SO RUDE
- We about to get brutal Joel I can’t wait
- He grabbed her switchblade 🥹
- THE SLOW VERSION OF THE THEME?! OH MY GOD
- WOW. THEY ARE NOT SHYING AWAY FROM HOW MANY PEOPLE HE ACTUALLY KILLED
- THAT HALLWAY SHOT. SO SIMILAR
- The way he carefully picked her up vs how cold he was just moment ago?
- That lingering shot on the doctor Joel killed? If you know, you know.
- Even the way one of Ellie’s arms is lying outwards. The detail and care put into this.
- Him looking at her face? 😭
- YES THE CUT WHERE FOR A SECOND YOU DONT KNOW
- GOD I LOVE HOW THEYVE DONE THIS
- The way that ‘I’m sorry’ was for a lot more than just that.
- Woahhhh her bite up close. Sickkkkk.
- Joel feeling ok talking about Sarah ahhhhhhh
- YES HERE WE GO
- THAT LAST SCENE WAS SO PERFECT OMG
- Ellie’s “okay” and then cut to credits? YEESSS
I’m gonna do a final thoughts post eventually so look forward to that.
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for82sy · 2 years
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i know I’m not someone who shares my sexuality on here but I need help.
I really need some supportive comments and some help.
Please follow me and do help me.
I really need help because I've been struggling and I feel like I should seek out now.
Warning: this is kind of a let out but a rant so please help me and don’t be rude.
And I'm still new to tumblr so I'm sorry for my post history.
I'm trying my best here I can't try much and I'm trying.
I'm a kpop fan page on here so please help me.
I can’t tell if im a lesbian or bi.
I can’t seem to help staring at girls nowadays and I keep brushing off my feelings.
Today I saw this girl and she's so cute.
I so badly wanted to say hello but I was scared. In my mind, I wanted to badly be her friend. Like so badly. I kept looking at her until one point someone called my name and since I wasn't paying attention, they touched me so when they did, I got scared. My heart jumped out my chest so I snapped out of the thoughts quickly. But looking at her is just a dream like I wanted to so badly say hi but I couldn't. I had no time.
I don't feel any interest in men. I was walking around men lately and I didn't find anything interesting as I used to when I was younger. Nowadays when a guy would talk to me, I would get excited but I wouldn't find myself to date him. I was nervous but no butterflies in my stomach.
I've been wanting to kiss my friend ever since we first met ( a week ago ) and now I'm just like, every time we talk, I just always thought of kissing her.
I sometimes feel bad and deal with negative thoughts with this whole thing and sexuality because I can't tell if this is real or just a lie.
I feel like I'm still straight or I'm lying.
I really wish I could be together with a man but now I can't and I feel bad because I feel like I shouldn't be this way. I really wish I could be with men as what my family are expecting but now I can't.
Sometimes I'll be like "men <3" as I used to do when I was growing up and younger (In reality still but not anymore now?) but now I'm like "girls so pretty" , "I wanna be her partner"
I can't tell if im a lesbian who's experiencing comphet (which is valid) or a bisexual struggling.
I just wanna be with a girl but at the same time I'm scared.
+ I would always stare at a girl's butt or her upper part and then look away so she or anybody doesn't notice.
One time I stared at her for about an hour at her upper part.
I dont know what was there satisfying. But I dont know how to explain my facial expressions when it happened.
I would make a face like my eyes widening and then my mouth opening, then I would be like "oh my god.. her .. ahhh" under my breath in this whispering voice or like mouthing (covering my mouth though or something) then be focused on it.
Or look at her butt and be like "oh wow, that's.." like I can't help but stare there.
When I spoke to her, my fingers weakened and she understood that I was nervous.
When she hugged me I immediately panicked (in my mind) because I was so close to her upper body.
I just.. it's getting too much.
I don't know what I am..
Lesbian experiencing comphet or a bisexual with a lean ???
I feel like a bi with a leaning but this attraction is something else.
I just wanna touch her. No one understands me. So I need help with this if you don’t mind ?
Anybody who's bi or lesbian, please reply.
I can't explain properly but I tried.
Please leave a comment and help me out.
I'm lost.
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chokkito · 8 months
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🌺- Do they have any love interest(s)?
Any OC of your choosing!
You FOOL you gave me the perfect opportunity to talk nonstop about my oc ships!
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I'm not gonna put oc x oc ships here cause i dont wanna make any of my friends unconfy but 💪 just know there are a lot
Anyways most of my ocs do not have a love interest, the only one that i can think that has one is Juliette, who has her wife, but!!! I have a lot of shipps!!!! And im gonna talk abt them down below!!!
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Angeline x Orpheus
"Oh hey this guy seems neat-...Oh hes a bit fucked up!"
- I'm not gonna explain this one. I just think they are very neat and would make an amazing couple in my head
- Angeline would love to read anything that Orpheus writes and also give him small tips on stuff, like how some plotpoints were confusing in her vision as a reader, but at the same time do so as a way to motivate him instead of trying to make him feel bad about it
- Angeline composing a song for Orpheus even if she is not the best at it but still doing so to make him happy ueeuee
- They would have a lot of angst with all that thing of Orpheus being >a bit< crazy and related to the manor games and she would feel very betrayed and and ueeeueeee
- Also side difference because Angeline is very tall (2.50m/8'2) and i imagine Orpheus being around 1.70m/5'7ft
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Angeline x Frederick
"Gosh i hate this dude why doesn't he get out of my head"
- One-sided rivalry that slowly turns into love (real?!)
- I imagine Angeline finding Frederick a little too pompous and rude at first, mostly because she mostly goes by body language to understand people and Frederick doesn't show a lot
- But i imagine Frederick not having a lot agaisnt her so they just start talking and? Have a lot in common?
- Obviously composer x musician ships are very good so!!! Angeline playing Frederick's songs on the piano!!!!
- Again size difference because hell yeah (you'll see it a lot in here just a warning)
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Dianna x Keigan
"Gosh i hate this ripper guy" "Girl me too!!!" "OMG LETS DESTROY HIM"
- I think the quote says it all.
- They both have a very similar sense of justice, thinking that sacrifices are sometimes necessary for true justice to actually happen, and are not afraid of making said sacrifices
- Both saw the justice system failling in their own ways (Keigan by seeing her brother being bribbed to free some criminals and Dianna by seeing the police not caring about her mother's death because of their social class) and decided to take the matter into their own hands
- Dianna would see Keigan as what true justice stands for, thinking she is like an angel brought to earth even with all the corruption in the justice system, and Keigan would see Dianna as a woman that, even though has her questionable methods, is also seeking justice just like her
- Jack would NOT survive a game where both of them were together i'm telling you that
- Idk i have not talked a lot about Dianna's lore but if you guys knew it YOU WOULD AGREE WITH ME!!!
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Olivia x Hastur
"Be not afraid" "Sir this is the sexiest moment of my life."
- Workshipper x God i don't care about anything anymore
- Olivia 100% simps for Hastur, canonically sleeping for days straight sometimes just so she can hear him talking to her in her head
- She abandoned her life and everything she had just so she could workship him, idk seems pretty simp to me
- Their relationship would not be 100% healthy and i know that, but i just think their dynamic would be very cool and interesting
- Hastur taking a liking to Olivia because shes different from the other workshippers and is actually in love with him (real)
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Yelena x Capitano
"Boss i don't think we can mansplain manipulate manwhore our way out of this" "Manslaughter then."
- Again it's not 100% healthy but at that point if the dynamic is interesting i like to do it sorry not sorry
- Capitano literally saves Yelena's life, so they would spend all their life by his side, even sacrificing themselves for him
- Yelena having a crush on Capitano but knowing they cannot pursue him because he's a harbinger and she's just a random fatuus.......
- They're like that one "he asked for no pickles" image yknow
- Capitano having a soft spot for Yelena and actually caring about them 🤲
- Yelena being very thin and weak and Capitano being strong as hell is just very fun to imagine
- Also size difference once more appears in here! Cool!
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Eir x Wriothesley
"...Yeah so that was the history of how my nation got destroyed and i got traumatized for life anyways wanna hear about that time a ghost touched my ass" "I think you need to see a psychiatrist"
- Size difference makes a comeback!!!
- Eir is a very extroverted person and i see Wriothesley as a more quiet one, so they would just make a great couple overall because of that
- Eir would give nicknames for Wriothesley related to wolves because he reminds her of them and she finds it very cute
- Wriothesley getting flustered easily but trying to hide it x Eir noticing and provoking him on it
- Eir commiting small crimes and all just so she can go to prison and see Wriothesley teehee 😋
- After her nation got destroyed, Eir had a hard time trusting people again, so when she is with Wriothesley she finally feels safe because she knows he won't harm her in any way 🤲
- Eir would 100% try to change Wriothesley's entire wardrobe because she finds it too boring
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Eir x Dainsleif
"Same trauma?" "Same trauma."
- Bounded by trauma yippie!!!!/j
- Size difference once more but well ignore it
- Anyways they are both from Khaenri'ah and have a similar fashion sense so they are very neat
- Once more a quieter guy x eir who literally is not afraid of screaming and showing her frustration for everyone to see
- Idk the idea of them both losing everything they loved and finding confort in being with each other even after everything and healing together is very neat
- Eir being a little goblin who eats insects daily and Dainsleif having to tell her "hey maybe dont eat insects that are poisonous just because youre immortal!!!!" UEEEYEEYEEUEEEE
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thebigfudanshi · 8 months
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TRAUMA RANT
TRAUMA RANT
TRAUMA RANT
I always wonder why ive been dissociating since January, and why my mental health is so fucked, and why I'm so anxious, and why I have zero social skills, and why I'm so lonely and sad and hurting all the time and pretty much resorting to one person nymphomania...
And then the one time I try to speak my mind for once, my true, honest mind. I don't even know who I am, but I was trying. I love my dog so much, and it hurts me to the core whenever SHE just can't seem to see it. My dog is a person, she is a BABY. Dogs will not bend to your will because you hit them. And she hasn't thank god, but god does she threaten to sometimes. If I have to hear one more time that if my dog slips out of her harness that's she's gonna be put down I'm gonna HURT HER BEACAUSE I ALREADY LOOST A DOG THIS YEAR AND IT STILL HASNT SUNK IN AND SHE GOT RID OF OUR OTHER TWO DOGS BECAUSE SHE DIDNT WANNA TRAIN THEM ANYMORE. it's not hard to give a dog a treat and tell her to sit so she doesn't jump on you, but SHE has to keep insisting she can't walk around with treats. GO FUCKING GRAB ONE ITS NOT HARD. SHES NOT GONNA STOP JUMPING ON YOU IF YOU DONT GIVE HER A TREAT, POODLES ARE GOAL MOTIVATED!
so yeah, I spoke my honest mind to HER just fifteen minutes ago. I just got out of a whimpering sobbing fit beacause of HER. So I'm just, downstairs, yeah? First of all, I'm greeted to not a hello, never. I was greeted to HER coming up to me to complain a out a flea on her this morning. And yeah, i really do get it, nothing against being told that. I told HER I'd give Phoebe a bath cause I was already thinking of it. Fine and dandy.
I come into the laundry room. SHE follows to do laundry. I get Phoebe ready to go outside because she has to wear underwear cause she went into heat early before we could get her spayed. She's jumping on HER. SHE is complaining about the jumping. It stops after a moment and after I keep telling her to sit. She doesn't, but she stops.
I tell HER for the third(?) Instance this week that "Phoebe would probably sit more if you got a treat and told her to sit." And SHE rounds at me like "*Complaining complaining* I don't walk around with a pocket full of treats." And I'm like, sputtering, just a tad taken aback and I tell HER "they're on top of the fridge" barely 15 feet from us. She says nothing as she leaves. Phoebe doesn't go outside but it's an oh well cause she didn't eat yet.
I go inside. I make something to eat. As I sit down to wait for it, HER girlfriend, N, who I have no qualms with even though it might sound like it. So N asks me if Phoebe needs a new harness, because she's had two recent issues with slipping out. I say yeah, presenting that she slipped out on a walk recently. We continue by briefly talking about how's she's been slipping out. I say we probably should get her harness fixed, beacause I have to train Phoebe with strangers by giving strangers treats to have her sit and then get pet when she's sitting. And that she would definitely tackle a kid if she got loose and saw one because my dog ADORES my toddler nieces.
SHE chimes in by saying "you know if she gets loose-" and I cut her off, because I've heard where it's going before. Rude as it was, but the family kinda talks over eachother anyway. "Yeah, I know, she's gonna get put down." And SHES like "NO. She could get put down and they could sue ME. I don't know why youre getting like "I know."
And I'm sitting there dumbfounded, with my dog sitting two feet from me. Saying like, "I value my dog's life more than money???" And SHE starts backtracking all offended I said something back like "I do too, but..." And then SHE scoffs. I talk to N a little more but my attention is on HER when SHE huffs and says "I'm gonna go smoke." Like I stressed HER out by speaking my mind and she walked past me to the basement and shut the door with more force than was needed. Im sitting there with my hotpocket folding the damn thing, and I look at N, who isn't doing anything, and Im jawdropped like, wtf. So I just go over to my dog, i tap her side so she gets up and goes to the stairs where I reside %99 of my days, and as I'm leaving I'm muttering trying to get N to hear me like "alright, can't even speak my mind in this house, okay." Cause this has been an issue for YEARS. So I take my mad ass upstairs, and as soon as I get halfway to my room I'm sobbing.
Normally I wouldn't post something like this for my SOUL. But I literally can't talk to anyone about this because the problem lives in my house and I'm gonna forget this like the rest of my life. MY MOM STORMED OFF LIKE A TEENAGER. ill be all fine and dandy by tomorrow because my mom's gonna ignore it even happened like EVERYTHING, and I'm just gonna be the bad guy in her head. I'm fine with that. But I'm really not. Y'know? She's just sitting down there now. Completely fine. When I'M NOT. Thanks.
Thanks for listening to my Trauma-Talk
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