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voxxian · 1 year

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i miss when things were simple

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stil-lindigo · 1 month

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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

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adyophene · 2 months

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I just wanted to draw a little bit more DnD AU familiar Husk and Sorcerer (or Warlock?) Alastor!

#hazbin hotel #hazbin art #husk #alastor #i saw some people who probably know DnD better than me say Al suits being a warlock better and- man #they were so right how did i miss that

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watchingwisteria · 6 months

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listen there really was just something about how in the book, snow’s 3-page descent from hesitant lover boy to deluded psychopath happens entirely in his mind. lucy gray gives him no indication whatsoever that she suspects him, that she’s going to leave or betray him. he’s just sitting quietly in the cabin waiting for her to return when that seed of calculated suspicion, which he has needed to survive the capitol, takes a hold of him and chokes the life out of any goodness left inside him. it really drives home your terror as a reader that “oh my god did he kill her? did she escape? what happened to her? why would he even think that?” in a way that when the movie had to adjust for visualization it lost some of that holy shit this guy has lost it emphasis.

#seeing some discourse and im not saying lucy grey didnt know #im saying she never dropped the kind of hints that she knew like she did in the movie #or if she did snow isnt worried about them until he very suddenly is consumed by them #snow is not concerned about whether or not she believed him. of course she did! hes snow!#but then shes gone…. for a while……#and its the sudden immediate drastic unravelling that comes across so clearly in the book #that i knew wouldn’t translate to screen yet still cant help but miss #the hunger games #coriolanus snow #tbosas #lucy gray baird #not a crime or anything just a note that i cannot stop thinking about #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #this is all from memory of reading it quite a while ago. so maybe 3 pages is an exaggeration #but i remember it happening VERY quickly and without much external cause #like we as the reader have no indication as to whether shes nearby or not.#snow has no idea either. he just SUSPECTS. and his suspicion breeds the hatred that has been bubbling inside him all this time #he hates how she undoes him. he hates that he WOULD run away with her if shed let him keep his secrets #and he HATES more than anything that she makes him WANT to tell his secrets #he wants to be vulnerable and reveal the ugly nasty parts about himself and still be loved #but he does not let himself and it is everyone’s downfall #he chooses cruelty bc it is easy and familiar and makes him feel more powerful than the vulnerable give and take that real love requires

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spirk-trek · 2 months

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I ALMOST SPIT OUT MY DRINK HE REALLY WENT "aww... anyway bye!"

#like JIM #star trek #shitposting #lmao LMAO #AND THEN SHE SAYS I'LL MISS YOU AND HE DOESNT ANSWER GIFKFNFIF #idk why i find this so fucking funny #he's like hm no i'm good #get some birth control on your planet first then we'll talk #also i have a boyfriend #the mark of gideon #star trek the original series #season 3 #tos #spirk

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seaside-cave · 1 year

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entering my benoit blanc era

#ssc art #glass onion #knives out glass onion #glass onion spoilers #benoit blanc #janelle monae #fanart #i saw your chanel boots (ascots) mr blanc!!#also i say benoit blanc era but miss janelle has had my heart for years #make no mistake

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kenchann · 1 month

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king of snork mimimimimi-ing

#hades game #hades #hades 2 #hades II #hades hypnos #mmarts #yall im not normal #with hades 2 stuff back #i need to draw one of my boys of all time #after the vil groovy then this shows up GGHHKK AAAAA #i didnt espect the long hair but i welcome it #oh i miss him sooooo #ineed zagreus to kiss him just saying #i still need my hypzag.... im gonna draw hypzag this weekend i gotta #non twst art jumpscare

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lotus-pear · 3 months

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cringefail exes oh my god

#sry for not drawing skk for four posts here u guys go. eat up #“i hate bsd so much i'm fucking LEAVING” i say as i make no effort to disassociate with the fandom or the show #i miss how i used to view skk😔😔😔😔😔 the silly lovers to enemies who are still clearly infatuated w each other after seven years #their backstory ruined me i hate it here #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #soukoku #skk #lotus draws

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favoure · 6 months

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"do the opposite of what people tell you to do"

#desert duo #grian #goodtimeswithscar #secret life #mcyt #trafficblr #favourarts #ok to tag as ship #so i posted this to twitter first right #and the amount of people i have in my replies saying that they'll kill themselves is honestly Very funny #anyways im back :))#i missed drawing these two GOD #okay life update in the tags for this piece is: something about finals season just makes you want to draw more #<- has been saying this for 4 days straight now #YAAAAAAYYYY i got another desert duo sketch cooking fellas and this one is a Bit more self indulgent if yk what i mean hehe #<- SEE U IN THE SIDEBLOG

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crescentfool · 5 months

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december 31st but i make it silly (based on a tumblr post, below the cut!)

everyone say thank you xenia, i made adjustments for the december 31st context but nyx avatar is still fitting.

original draft of the last panel. i considered putting the bi flag but i didn't know how to squeeze it in. we love ryoji mochizuki in this house.

#persona 3 #ryomina #ryoji mochizuki #minato arisato #makoto yuki #lizzy does art #comic #this was so fun!!!! i missed doing funny little overdramatic lighting for silly jokes.#honestly i just miss coloring in general! so im gonna be doing more of that this year :3 #i think this is a great way to start the year i think. intended for dec 31st but it took some time to work on this #the sketch draft has been sitting around since the end of june 2023... i am not joking when i say i forget to finish things #BUT THATS NO LONGER GONNA BE THE CASE THIS YEAR. hopefully!#im going to do so swag this year and no one can stop me!! i hope everyone will also be swag. stay silly everyone!

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aviomons · 5 months

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All of Grian's signs to other Hermit's in this video.

Excluding Mumbo's because it was kind of a diss on the back of his base. I'm so proud of all the Hermits this season, and i'm so excited for season 10. Can't wait for all the amazing things they will do.