#i panic... quickly....

[inkskinned]

hey btw if you're in the USA at  2:20 p.m. ET on Wednesday, Oct. 4, they're testing the emergency broadcast system. your phone is probably going to make a really loud noise, even if it's on silent. there's a backup date on the 11th if they need to postpone it.

if you're not in a safe situation and have an extra phone, you should turn that phone completely off beforehand.

additionally, if you're like me, and are easily startled; i recommend treating it like a party. have a countdown or something. be surrounded by your loved ones. take the actions you personally need to take to make yourself safe.

i have already seen mockery towards any person who feels nervous about this. for the record, it completely, completely valid to have "emergency broadcast sounds" be an anxiety trigger. do not let other people make fun of you for that. emergency sounds are legitimately engineered to make us take action; those of us with high levels of anxiety and/or neurodivergence are already pre-disposed to have a Bad Time. sometimes it is best to acknowledge that the situation will be triggering for some, and to prepare for that; rather than just saying "well that's stupid, it's just a test."

"loud scary sound time" isn't like, my favorite thing, but we can at least try to prevent some additional anxiety by preparing for it. maybe get yourself a cake? noise cancelling headphones? the new hozier album? whatever helps. love u, hope you're okay. we are gonna ride it out together.

#watching ppl go from being like ''support neurodivergent ppl~~!" #to being like ''if this is going to give u a panic attack ur fuckken stupid'' #like..... gets me #yeah man. i know im going to be triggered by it . in the old fashioned term. it is GOING to give me a panic attack. it's pretty much certai #and i shouldn't have to tell u about what i have survived for you to be okay with that. #you can just trust that i ALSO don't want me to react to it. i'm not gonna be having a FUN time. #dismissing that bc you think it's stupid.... like is the whole problem. #these sounds are workshopped by entire teams of people to get you to pay attention and move quickly. #they arent meant to be fun and exciting. #OBVIOUSLY it's gonna set ppl off. #but yeah there's something so fuckken demeaning about ppl being like. well that trigger isn't valid bc u haven't undergone X #dude i have ptsd bc i was abused as a child. like plain and simple. the fact im 30 and afraid of the dark tells you how bad it was. #i shouldn't have to ask u for permission to be mentally ill. #the reason it's a fucking disorder and not a fucking choice is that I DO NOT CONTROL IT. #like how is it any different from when ppl are like ''oh public speaking isn't that scary'' like FOR YOU #for YOU this isn't scary. now if i could fucking eat my own amygdala...

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

What was Lights out! Frank's reaction to crazy ass Lights out! Wally?

ah i wouldn't call him crazy, Wally's just desensitized to the Horrors and acts accordingly. which is occasionally a little unhinged. but no yeah Frank has a proper freakout <3 he has a hard time adjusting to certain aspects of.... everything. including Wally yeah

(don't bother trying to read this i know its terrible handwriting lmao, it's p much just to show Frank's spiral <3)

#wally when frank first wakes up: omg!!! im not alone!!! a friend!!! #wally ten minutes later: hey frank maybe you should go back to sleep. just a thought #LISTEN listen when youve been completely alone for ages and you have a Routine and youre Used to it #its a little very much fucking annoying to have it all Abruptly Disrupted #wally is used to quiet. hes used to his version of peace and routine #then frank barges in with his panic and Noise and general Thereness #wally is understandably very quickly Done With It #scribble salad #wh lights out au #they do have a fight over The Arm™️ i think #frank doesn't really get it at first. he will eventually #eddie's hat becomes his version of it #and julie's necktie i think. he might wind up wearing it on his wrist. idk tho still workshopping the wardrobe changes and such #but uhhhh yeah frank reacts Not Well! #its just a long day of continuous: what the fuck? What The Fuck? WHAT THE FUCK?! #theres just such a disconnect between his and wallys experiences #he hasnt had the chance to adjust or even prepare #very jarring for them both...

[shibaraki]

pls monty i would give u my firstborn if u write even a couple of lines of reader harassing deku for bkg fun facts im laughing so hard 😭 i can totally see izuku sweating and panicking while a deranged reader bombards him w questions at the most unlikely times

but does bakugou know deku wrote his wiki page, or does like a picture collage of screenshots from the page go viral on twitter for being so unhinged and he's just lookin at it like wait how the hell do they know THAT?! before it Clicks

PLSSSS I just know if I sprinted up to him and yelled QUICK-FIRE ROUND:—WHAT IS BAKUGO’S CHEST SIZE?? his lizard brain would kick in and he’d squeak out 102 CENTIMETRES!! before he could think. and everyone in the vicinity would be looking at him like bro… why do you know that…….

bakugo doesn’t care about online stuff my guy is not even aware the page exists until it goes viral. one day denki comes up to him like hey man!! I didn’t know u had the cilantro gene too! and as soon as he sees the wiki he immediately KNOWS. meanwhile somewhere in japan, deku is overcome by an unexplainable sense of dread lmfao

#asks #the utter panic that overcomes u when you have to answer something QUICKLY #I will use it to my advantage #m.bakugo #m.izuku

[evil-city]

Day 107 of making low effort Des doodles until New World Of Steam releases

It's still October

#woke up from my nap in a panic because i realised i forgot to make today's doodle #so i quickly made this at the speed of light but idk if it turned out good #Daily Des Doodles #Desmond Sycamore #Professor Layton

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

someone I just met told me I was cool today and I swear I wandered around shaking with my eyes huge for almost an hour afterwards

#she had stars in her eyes!!! what did i do??? 😭😭😭 #she pauses looks directly at me with a huge smile and says 'you're so cool you know that?' #djhbfsjdhbf??? all i did was explain my work to you!!! i do it every day i should hope i know things!!! #anyways i said 'thank you' like a genuine cool person. and then i excused myself as quickly as possible so i could leave the room #and not be visible. by people. while i combusted on the spot. #please help someone compliments me and i go into a mini panic state for at least twenty minutes afterwards #storyrambles #i should comment that i am usually pretty good at appearing relaxed and chill about things. this does not usually show on my face #i look very composed and put-together apparently. crazy because i am. very much not that.

[aro-ortega]

i think ortega should accidentally get sidestep pregnant

#and of course by sidestep i mean: #milo park #milo x Ricardo #op #fh #i just think it would be funny if step (milo) assumes that they Cant bc theyre a regene why would they #just to eventually put the pieces together and figure out how wrong they are #and i think milo would be funny w it. maybe some initial panic but v quickly flipping to -> #how can i use this to break ortegas mind and/or get him to actually retire

[beforeitrains]

I keep thinking about what Tiffany might have been like before she joined the cult. I imagine that she held a day job as an office assistant (boring!), but was also deeply into goth culture and music (it was the late 70s! the rise of the goth rock bands!), maybe even dreaming of becoming a star someday. Lisa and Tiffany met in an underground lesbian bar, where Tiffany was due to play that night. The concert sucked, but Lisa was enchanted with Tiffany's presence and energy. And Tiffany was enchanted, because Lisa was enchanted (it wasn't often that someone took her stage aspirations seriously). Just a week later though, Lisa's new flame stopped answering phone calls. Her apartment was vacated. Rumor had it that Tiffany got kicked out for performing Satanic rituals. So, yeah, as John later told his friend over a tub of ice cream, Lisa really dodged a bullet with that one.

Years later, Lisa had the misfortune of booking a room in the New Haven apartment complex. The place had leaky pipes and the landlord looked like a serial killer. Lisa was about to demand her deposit back, when she noticed a familiar name on one of the mail slots. Tiffany changed. She lost weight, her fancy gothic outfits were nowhere to be seen. Her room smelled like an animal died behind the wall, and she wouldn't shut up about someone called Gary. Leaving her in this state was not an option, so Lisa begrudgingly settled for the room she originally booked. The landlord was happy with her change of heart. He then asked for a month's worth of rent in advance.

John coughed disapprovingly when Lisa told him about the whole ordeal over the phone. He always thought that loud-mouthed scary-looking goth woman wasn't a good match for Lisa. But upon hearing all the enthusiasm and compassion in his friend's voice, he left his opinions to himself.

#faith airdorf #tiffany robinson #lisa pearson #gary miller #john ward #my headcanons #i headcanon john as being a bit judgemental sorry #i mean he does go through the game waving his cross at everybody and everything #so i think it's fair to suppose that he took all aspects of satanic panic propaganda pretty damn seriously #also i have a feeling that lisa saw through gary's self-aggrandizing bullshit pretty quickly #but he did manage to con her out of some money nevertheless

[jittyjames]

ptsd is being such a bitch to me tonight guys. your girl is not doing well.

#i don’t want to feel this way #but i don’t know how to stop it #i just feel myself spiraling out of control again and all of these thoughts keep coming with it #it wont leave me alone #i want it to leave me alone #i don’t want to go on more meds bc they fucked me up even more and i want to be able to think #but my heart has started pounding so quickly again that i can’t focus on anything else #i feel so empty and weird and vague #december is always a bad time and it’s hard when i don’t have class or work as a distraction #i’m always on the verge of crying and #i just do all these breathing techniques that don’t work #and i just lay in a ball on my bed shaking and hurting #you know it’s bad when even writing doesn’t calm me down #ocd combining with ptsd is a hell of a thing #how can you calm yourself down when you’re not thinking rationally and it won’t leave your head #part of me just wants to panic and get it over with but i feel like if i start i won’t be able to stop and just simply fly into hysterics #idk #just haven’t felt this bad in a while #i just want to get out of my head so bad #i wish i could turn thinking off #sorry i know y’all aren’t my therapist and i should get my own #but im still on my parents insurance and i don’t think they would allow that #i don’t mean to vent #i just feel really hopeless and shit rn #anyway #i’m going to try to sleep and hope it will be better in the morning #it wont be tho lol #nothing is ever better #bc the universe and god hate me

[amethyinst]

okay i do have an insane exotic animal fear and it is recreations of extinct animals. they freak me out so much. i hate hate hate pictures of like old megafauna and fish and stuff oh i HATE aquatic creatures. not the creature itself but the drawings of them. here is a sample of what i mean:

not kidding when i say looking those up was giving me the beginnings of a panic attack. i cant look at drawings of mammoths they freak me out. this is not a joke i am fucking bone terrified of this shit. i dont like how they look at me.

and i am fuckijgn terrified of the dodo bird. i hate that fucking bird so much i hate drawings of it especially. 'it looks so derpy" "haha dodo funny" IT MAKES ME WANNA DIE!!!! do NOT bring it back stop trying to bring it back.

#im sweating i was so scared clicking into google images i escaped quickly with the little i could grab before The Panic set in #yinnie

[soft-girl-musings]

WIP Wednesday

gosh, feels like it's been ages since i've done one of these

still trucking away at MK Bingo, still brainstorming for Dieter, still working on some other things. f i n a l l y started on the next chapter of PPP and we're a long way from finishing but we are making progress babey!!

from Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps chapter 5 (Something's Gotta Give):

Maybe years from now, society adopts stricter rules for how soon you should call on a lady. Even today, some would advise against showing your hand too early. Some men wouldn’t want to seem too eager, too desperate. But Jake Lockley is not a liar. If “desperate” is the word for the incessant drumming in his chest each time you come to mind; if it’s what has him cutting corners and driving recklessly, ushering customers along at double the pace so his thoughts can return to you; if it’s why his palms sweat and nerves ache at the memory of your face that night, that morning… then Jake Lockley is desperate. It’s hardly been a day and a half since he left your apartment cold and injured. The suit stitched him back together in seconds; the only ache that remained was at the thought of you. You, who scooped him off the pavement and took pity on him. Who stained your hands with his blood to make it stop. You, who set his skin on fire with the smallest touch and had him convinced he would burn with or without it. Screw the three day rule. He has to see you.

...needless to say, i'm excited.

#the panic at realizing i write a lot of meet cutes and established relationships but never explore intimacy growing over time #girl (gn) does this count as slow burn #how quickly do things burn these days what's the exchange rate #anyway #my works #my wip #wip wednesday #moon knight #jake lockley #jake lockley x reader #jake lockley x fem!reader #jake lockley x woc!reader #noir!jake lockley

[shirogane-oushirou]

fighting off a little panic attack (yay yippee) and i'm soooooo tempted to start working on the poke!ren tag to keep myself distracted even though he's still so /gestures vaguely/ right now kJNSKJFNJK ARGH!!!!!!!

#so for now i'm catching up on some drafts while i listen to music for poke!ren inspo u_u;; #i just want to draw myself riding my bug horse next to him KJANSDKJ #i also want to start revising his team bc playing x has made me realize he's probably just kept froakie unevolved. #idk greninja never seemed like a very 'ren' pokemon... but froakie? weird little guy with a couple of hang-ups??? love that beast. #also i LOOOVE the image of him w a delibird who uses its tail to safe-keep samples or quickly deliver things to the lab #but like. in that case maybe he'd be better off just bringing a faster flying type like pidgeotto or pidgeot with a sample case attachment. #(totally not influenced by the pidgeotto currently on my team who goes by the name of a kind of mushroom. nope. nah.) #(also dw about the panic KJNAKJSN it's only Simmering. just my usual health worries!! nothing new to see here kjsdnfkjn.) #📌 [ my posts. ] #🐸 [ look ahead. ] #✏️ [ my scenarios. ] #pokemon -

[plan-3-tmars]

playing patho 2 is so humbling cuz I'm really bad at fighting mechanics on a keyboard so everytime someone starts chasing me I just run away and pray like the little bitch boy I am

#playing marble nest and almost fucking dying on the tutorial fight was extremely embarrassing #i have a mouse though now and thats making it a little easier #i still pretty bad at it though i panic very quickly #pathologic 2

[asukiess]

I also think the difference between Ladrien and Ladywalker is that like.... the repression goes from implicit to explicit (but still unspoken). Adrien is repressed, yes, but he stops with the repression and he still goes by the same name, he still wears the same face. Catwalker stops and he no longer is. He must cling to that repression for the sake of the relationship.

There's something about the stunted state of growth for Ladybug and Catwalker - Catwalker can't change for the better because if he does, he no longer exists. And maybe that traps Ladybug a little bit, too. Maybe she can't be pushed in the right direction by a partner who can't step a toe out of line in fear of changing the status quo. Maybe they'd both be so afraid of the way they can't seem to break the pattern that they both realize something has to give.

anon you have my whole heart. you GET it.

#miraculous ladybug #read this last night in awe and I was like #oh I’ll have something good to add onto this #but no that’s so It #there’s so much interesting room to play with with them #and with ladrien: they’d get together pretty quickly #and there’s the satisfaction Adrien has always wanted: ladybug saying/knowing his name #and she can be there to comfort him #cat walker is gonna reject all that and be the Perfect Partner #that we knew DOESNT work #and omg. that status quo line wow. #and the ‘something has to give’ can be SO MANY THINGS…..sigh #there’s that comic where ladybug gets hurt and cw kinda freaks out bc he doesn’t wanna be replaced either fjjfjddjjd #and then like what happens with lady&walker when ladybug has her first panic attack in front of him #fjdjdkmdmddm #it’s the fact she’d still fall for him bc of course she would he’s acting like a mix of her two favorite ppl #and then a prince type that can’t show their love back #fave #ladywalker

[rainbowkittyblossomwings]

Idk how to do these fake group chat things properly, but here have this, (will delete if this is not proper fake group chat etiquette) 

#zombieland saga #just had a panic attack/bad time at hospital so brain is fuzzy so if this is in the wrong I will delete quickly #fake chat #meme

[gideonisms]

figured out a new hot tip today which is that if you are a chronic book/fic/project unfinisher, you can just start more and more things and then eventually you'll get bored of what you're doing and remember one of those things and finish it leading to a 50/50 chance of making it all the way through something Eventually versus like 30/70

#and if someone asks if they can see something you've written you can. quickly finish something vs being like. no for reasons that are secret #today it is working on forms as well #for some reason if i think i am going to have to fill out a whole form i panic but part of a form? fine #this is also why ppl get responses from me either right away immediately or 3 days later #gotta do it while you're thinking about it #i am reading 3 books and listening to a pocast bc at any given moment *one* of them will distract me enough to make it worthwhile

[meganechan05]

Nobody asked for it but I know many would appreciate it:

Love Spell but Rita learns nothing changed and gets Queer Panic щ(゜▽゜щ)

#Rita is dense when it comes to having Himeno and/or Morf liking them #but once they realize they themself caught feelings #they go right into panic #not shy and cute panic #full on “holy fck! i caught feelings! what the fck?!” rolling on the floor panic #most likely bc they suck at handling their own feelings compared to putting others' in consideration #episode 30 and 31 are proof considering how they had to quickly push their feelings aside to deal with Grodie and Jeramie's issues #I hope Morfonia and Himeno can help them improve on that tbh. They're the ones Rita opens up to the most #kingohger #king ohger #ohsama sentai kingohger #rita kaniska #rita kanisuka #himeno ran #hymeno ran #himerita #hymerita #fanfic #kingoh fanfic #super sentai