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miiukkaa · 9 months

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i wanna hear him give absolutely horrible speeches (everyone would go apeshit nonetheless)

#miiukkart #sorry for not posting as often as i wish did. been fighting depression (no worries. im a seasoned fighter)#(ik i dont have to feel bad for not posting but i just miss drawing silly turtle stuff and seeing ppl enjoy said silly stuff!!)#hope yOURE doing okay tho!!! if not no worries. slay one day at a time #*patting you on the head while offering you your comfort food(s)*

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lomlompurim · 1 month

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IM BACK WITH MORE WHITE LOTUS BINGHE JAPAN EDITION BC I LOVE HIM SO MUCH 💕🪷💚

and some other bunhe sketches to warm up and draw some more

The prettiest boy that ever existed, I want to bite him until he squeaks

#svsss #人渣反派自救系统 #bingqiu #luo binghe #svsss fanart #shen qingqiu #mxtx #heeey im alive sorry i was just busy and depressed #and broke but im working on all that #anyways enjoy the binghes pls i love him so much im using my brainrot about him ti fight my artblock #because he is everything to me #my baby my princess my shoujo girlie trapped in a stallion novel #using that brush to make it look more “anime” was hell btw #but i kinda want to make fake screenshots now #to cope

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nokkiart · 1 month

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"I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it's like to feel absolutely worthless, and they don't want anyone else to feel like that."

This quote from Robin Williams has always stuck with me.

There's a reason I mostly make cute, wholesome art, even when things are dark and I'm crumbling inside. Its because I love making you all smile. And I hope you never have to feel as sad as I do.

#im having a rough day and decided to illustrate one of my fav celebrity quotes #helps to fight off the loneliness and depression a bit #genie youre free #genie #aladdin #disney #digital #artists of tumblr #illustration #art #character design #painting #robin williams

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fxil76 · 3 months

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#tw vent #tw blood #tw sensitive content #tw sucidal ideation #i hate my brain #i'm fighting for my life here #im so tired #I hate being depressed.#art

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ikaishere · 12 days

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the gods are trying to nerf me but im being so brave about it. just yall wait for a comeback

#i swear im #alive #trying to fight the demons #(depression)#(and a terrible artblock)#havent touched drawing supplies in a while #i miss making art #i will come back i promise #i guess i just need time #love u all #take care

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hatsunevitu · 11 months

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okay so since the Cupid Ye was aired i’ve been constantly thinking about cartman’s mental condition. we know he’s probably taking medication now, so i hc him having antisocial personality disorder and bipolar disorder. and i’ve been imagining him having his depression episode for the first time after he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. he’s not used to it, he has no idea what’s going on and why he suddenly feels so tired and numb all the time, so he just stays at home skipping school and avoiding social contacts. he’s scared and the “it’s all because of your illness, poopsikins!” from his mother doesn’t help at all.

and sooo i wrote a short moment about this?? i’m sorry for any mistakes because it was originally written in my native language, not in english :(

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Ever since early childhood it was clear and obvious to everyone that Eric Cartman had problems. Not even like that, Kyle corrected himself in his thoughts. Eric Cartman had Problems. Sociopathy, sadism, aggression – all that a person could notice in Cartman after only half an hour of communication.

And Kyle wasn't too surprised when bipolar disorder was added to all of the above in a sloppy psychiatrist’s handwriting.

By the time Cartman was finally diagnosed he had already gone through several phases of mania. Kyle even did a little research on the disorder. "To know what to prepare for the next time I meet this psycho," he told Stan. "And to know how to help him if necessary," he added silently to himself.

By the age of fifteen, Stan's company was already used to Cartman's regular explosive mood swings, which were accompanied by crazy ideas, aggressive behavior, and, if absolutely unlucky, deaths of a couple or more people.

It was typical: after a short break, Cartman would burst into Kyle's room (often through the window), start showering him with business plans, startup ideas, and opportunities to have extreme fun. Kyle was silent, trying his best to ignore him and frowning irritably when Cartman smiled ecstatically and rushed to Kyle, tugging at his sleeve and almost shouting that everything would be better this time and that it’s a one hundred percent successful scheme.

For some time Broflovski genuinely believed that everyone in their friends group was going through such tortures, but after a short questioning, he found out that they had not seen Eric's mania with their own eyes. Kyle understood — and they won’t, when Cartman just chuckled at the outraged "What the fuck, Fatass?" and replied, "I guess you're just special, Kahl. They wouldn't understand." His eyes flashed especially maliciously, and Kyle looked away hastily so as not to give Cartman the opportunity to start another fight.

Well, all in all, no one's world collapsed when Cartman was diagnosed with a new mental illness. Over the past months of insane hallucinations and obsessive intrusive thoughts, he managed to make everyone sick of him. He refused to go to the therapy sessions for a long time, shouting, running away and trying to get into a fight, and Liane was too afraid to find out another unpleasant truth about her son, preferring to go with the flow and shut him up with the fulfillment of every single of his whims. Kyle doubts that anyone would have done anything to help Cartman if he hadn't intervened. Why – it was unclear to Broflovski himself, but Cartman's first depressive phase hit them both unexpectedly too hard.

Disappearing from everyone’s sight for two weeks, Cartman ignored calls and messages (although Kyle had a serious doubt that anyone other than Butters and Broflovski himself texted him) and skipped school despite Mr. Harrison's threats of expulsion.

Liane avoided answering questions, pursing her lips in frustration and talking her way out with a trivial "He's sick." Kyle didn't believe a damn second, knowing that if Cartman was sick, Kyle would have known about it the very first. Something was wrong. For some reason, the desire to find out what exactly was much stronger than it should have been when it came to Eric Cartman.

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Perhaps Kyle really shouldn't have worried so much — not to the point of climbing into Eric's window at night. But the Cartmans hadn't opened the front door all day, and by that time Kyle's nerves were so stretched that they threatened to break if he didn't get answers to his questions in the next few minutes. Disturbing thoughts and images of possible turn of events appeared in his head. Perhaps Cartman was dead? Or, on the contrary, has killed someone and had been dissolving dismembered body of his victim for two weeks? One option was no better than the other, but nothing was even close to what he saw in Eric's bedroom.

Haggard, seven kilograms thinner, with an unhealthy skin color and bags under his eyes, he looked painfully wrong, not Cartman-like. He didn’t look exactly ill — more like lifelessly tired. But that wasn't even what hit Kyle so hard.

He did not suspect how much had been hidden in Cartman's eyes before – lively fire, hatred, anger, enthusiasm, passion – all this was gone, dissolved, buried under this empty, dead, unblinking gaze. For a second Kyle even thought (hoped?) that he was really dead, but the heaving chest under the blanket and almost inaudible sound of breathing exposed life in Cartman. He was lying on his back, his head slowly turned towards the window. Kyle sought recognition on his face, but did not see a single shade of any emotions.

He froze in the window, making eye contact with Eric, feeling like he saw something he shouldn't have. He tried to revive the old familiar hatred that usually boiled in him as soon as their eyes met, but Cartman’s emptiness totally killed all the anger. Kyle climbed through the window – Cartman didn't react in any way, lazily closing his eyes – and walked up to the bed, touching his shoulder timidly.

“Hey, Cartman?” he said, shuddering at the way his voice echoed throughout the bedroom. Cartman didn’t open his eyes but smiled hardly visibly.

“Hey, jew”. His voice was empty and emotionless and Kyle pursed his lips with a bit of a pain.

“You need to see a doctor, Cartman”, he said firmly as Eric finally opened one eye disinterestedly. “I’ll help you. I promise”.

And he did.

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sleepyminty · 4 months

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Now that i think about it, excluding canto I and canto II bc they’re not fully fleshed out, i started to notice the trend in every canto we play

Canto III and V is pure adrenaline rush whereas canto IV is just pure depression (and soon will canto VI i know i read wuthering weights i know for the fact that heathcliff canto will be fcking miserable)

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fortunatelyenchantingtaco · 20 days

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Hehe

Satoru always: im just a little guy i did nothing wrong DO NOT look at all the war crimes my clan spent a fortune to erase from history

#jjk #gojo satoru #jujutsu kaisen #sukugo #sukuna #satoru ‘im just a little guy’ gojo #he played his part so well #sukuna went ‘oh im too bloodthirsty #while hes so sweet’#and now satoru has to elaborate on some #fun war crimes #mister ‘i will marry only the person who will fight me to the death and we will kiss drunk on each other in the dirt’#sukuna: why didnt you say so sooner #i care them a lot okay #exams and depression are eating me alive #but they make me feel a bit better #wip #my fic

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bunabi · 6 months

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also dentist update if anyone was curious:

I enrolled in an insurance plan and I have an appointment tomorrow for a consultation at a trustworthy place 💕

I have to waste time fighting the previous dentist into releasing the xray records they promised to send me days ago, but after that I'm evergreen baby

#disclaimer before you read these tags: im fine lol #but weirdly this ordeal has made me terribly depressed #nightmares moodiness dread sudden intense sadness; I have not felt so low in a while #logically speaking honestly not that big of a deal but its triggered something in me ? maybe because fighting for adequate care hurts #or maybe because ooough tooth hurty and its mind controlling me into destroying this planet one trillion times

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anotherferalrat · 1 month

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You know who this mf look like lowkey?

LOOOOOOOK

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eremin0109 · 7 months

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My heart just absolutely breaks thinking what if Majima knew beforehand that Kiryu's days were numbered but he was in denial, refusing to believe that a fucking illness of all things would put the nail in the Dragon's coffin. So when they finally meet in that shack, he starts their conversation with a taunt, because he needs to see it for himself to believe it. To come to terms with the fact that Kiryu is actually dying.

And so, they fight. It gets real ugly real quick and by the end of it, Majima's eye is glazed over with a terrifying realisation as he stands over Kiryu's beaten body, his breathing more laboured than it had any right to be.

Going into the fight, Majima wanted to be absolutely crushed by those large hands, years of pent up feelings and frustration being pounded down onto him. That way he'd know that the Dragon was still alive and kicking. That his Kiryu-chan was not actually dying an excruciatingly slow death.

But his victory rings like a funeral toll in his ears. This is all wrong. Kiryu Kazuma is supposed to his perfect rival, his true equal. The only one who could tame the Mad Dog. Not the bleeding, coughing mess of a man that laid underneath him. This couldn't be happening.

But when Kiryu looked at Majima, he felt more than saw the remnants of wildfire in the Dragon's eyes, flickering away more and more by the second. It took every single fibre of Majima's being to not end the poor bastard's life right there.

What was the use anyway—the Dragon was already dead.

#i just wanted to write how Majima would be absolutely devastated over his win in their duel #because that would hammer home just how weak the cancer was making Kiryu #and make Majima come to a heartbreaking realisation that Kiryu was in fact dying #if he couldn't beat Majima how was he going survive whatever the fuck he'd gotten himself involved with this time?#and then another realization would dawn on him: Kiryu never planned to make it out of this alive #that he really wanted to die—after everything Majima had done for the past two fucking decades just to keep him alive #and that realization'd draw all the fight out of him cause just how long had Kiryu been planning this?did he ever mean to tell him about it?#afterwards they just sit in silence for a while because that is all they can do at this point #fuck #this is just so depressing im gonna go lie down somewhere #yakuza #yakuza 8 #like a dragon infinite wealth #kiryu kazuma #majima goro #kazumaji

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nyrovie-ii · 21 days

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I’m not depressed, I’m just a girl

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harpuiaa · 7 months

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i've been dead and gone bc of school and jobsearching and everything happening all at once but ive been playing the boktai series games lately and i'm enjoying it a lot. I just got past the third boss in boktai 2. I don't know why but i'm enthralled with these games, i highly recommend them

#WOE TEN THOUSAND TAG MUSINGS BE UPON YE (this is a warning)#boktai #(pointing) the battle network fan has fallen for the crossover marketing 20 years late #the first gif is bc i imagine the bosses waiting all polite like for django to finish eating healing items when heal scumming in fights.#twenty apples a day keeps the damage away #django is like a son to me hes just a little guy #if the text is hard to read in the third image it says “The tick damage in sunlight brothers”#i find it funny that vampire django still gains his energy from sunlight after turning. his voiceline changes too #it's hard to tell if it's bc hes supposed to sound gruff or like hes in pain. but it makes me feel bad for recharging energy like that #i figure he'd be wound up abt this since it seems he views any connection to his father with a lot of weight #(e.x: zazie pointing out he's crying just after the gun del sol got stolen at the start of 2)#hence why he's depressed in that image #also all the official art of him looks very cool but im incapable of seeing him like that his sprite makes him look like a scruffy dog #im torn between thinking it's cute nd wanting to make fun of him with doodles. least typical vampire appearance with the most typical power #the way you kill immortals (vampires) in this game is so metal i need to rant abt it Somewhere #so like boktai is a game series abt vampire hunting but it's rather sci-fi abt it. instead of more typical weapons you use solar energy #the immortals resurrect after being killed #but this can be prevented via purification. the way this goes is #after winning a bossfight the enemy will get sealed in a coffin. that you then to drag allll the way back outside the dungeon #(often with new puzzles thanks to the coffin being an extra weight)#all the while the immortal inside tries to escape #the objective is to get the immortal to a. summoning circle i guess?#housing devices called pile drivers. they're more like lenses or mirrors though.#they focus sunrays on the coffin purifying the immortal after a brief fight that's like #preventing the boss from attacking the pile drivers until it dies #like. this doesn't sound all that special but most bosses you fight are sentient and i just think it's a bit of a brutal method #for a main protagonist to use #i keep thinking of how it must feel to do it for a living. something like a funeral driver but you're the murderer and the corpse isn't dea #and instead of a funeral you're taking them to a mega death laser array that'll slowly chip away at their health #and then boktai 2 inflicts that on django and im like. is he ok (he's ok but he died)

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bitchfitch · 4 months

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joy of joys that definitely isn't going to be detrimental to my health and ability to function over the next few days: the post office lost the box containing the next months supply of my meds. and the pharmacy I get my pills from won't be open again till Monday. and getting them delivered will probably be another three or four days after that. Boy howdy is this going to be a fun and relaxing week.

#None of the pharmacies in my town are like. any amount of reliable.#this is the First time in a year of just getting my meds delivered that its failed to arrive before the last bottles were out #anyways im off my adhd. depression. anxiety. blood pressure. inflammation. pain. sleep and allergy meds for the next few days.🫠#im hoping all my comorbities going untreated at the same time makes them fight each other to the death. rendering me cured.

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unironicallycringe · 4 months

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me in my pretentious gamer era (every day) watching an old dark souls 3 boss fight video in which the player defeats the dancer of the boreal valley while miraculously tanking a bunch of hits: ok but did you DANCE with her? did you create art together from your fated meeting in battle while the choir swelled in mournful cries? can you really call this a dancer fight if you were not entwined in haunting choreography, balanced precariously between life and death atop her blades? I think not

dust settling on the arena because the player beat her and left within the time it took me to write dark souls poetry: 🍃🍃🍃

#this is so unserious but im the dancers number one fan #she was THERE for me in 2016 when i was depressed and high playing her fight over and over at level 20 #until i memorized her moveset enough to leap between her blades #and then. then we were truly dancing.#anyways i bet if i replay it now she'll kick my ass 🥰#dark souls 3 #dancer of the boreal valley #ds3

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loniirstar · 24 days

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Oh yeah right, here are the doodles. They're just stupid doodles of Rick, but eh, whatever. Funny how I posted these everywhere and yet forgot to post it here on Tumblr, the main reason why I even drew in the first place.

Again, thanks a lot, Lollerpo. That actually meant a lot to me.

#pink floyd #rick wright #doodles #mfw im actually fighting depression holy shit

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