#im glad i was finally able to say this.

[squirmydonnie]

TW/CW: Suicide, suicidal ideation, self harm, unreality, unnecessary guilt, knife

I don't think I have much else to say.

I made this in 9th grade, but it makes it easier for me.

Because as much as I've wanted to say it now, I couldn't figure out where to start.

I just ended up saying thing sporadically without any direction.

Basically you couldn't even tell what I was talking about.

While this doesn't fully explain what Cookie 12 is for me, it does say what it made me feel.

I think its probably my main deterrent from daydreaming. Because otherwise, I think I would just go back to it.

Reality has not been appealing for me today.

I don't feel suicidal recently, but I still remember all of this.

This was still.very recent.

#cheeseburgerboy #i was afraid my world would go away. but its still here. #i can remember it #cookie12 #hopefully tumblr lets me keep this one. #suicide tw #suicide mention #tw self h4rm #unreality #im glad i was finally able to say this. #its the only thing ive wanted today #they only thing that made me excited for the day #so im glad its finally worked #its all i wanted

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

WIFI IS MINE ONCE AGAIN as i sit on a mattress on the floor

#it feels like ive been without it for so long... #it has been... three and a half days... i am Weak.... #nah jk i wouldve been find without it for much longer #but boy howdy am i Glad to be able to use my dear beloved laptop again #i am In The New Place i am Beginning To Settle #tomorrow i begin unpacking my own stuff!!! exciting!!! #i cant wait to admire all of my Things! #ohhhh and i finally have a spot on the wall for my combo whiteboard/corkboard.... #im still very stressed and i want to lay in a hole but!! #i am doing slightly better than a few days ago! #the weather has been nice... cool and rainy... i am not used to cool and rainy #its also cold and i am - unfortunately - a desert creature #suffice to say i am wearing hand warmers a hoodie and a blanket #absolutely unprompted #the place's last owner Didnt Fucking Clean though #so there have been many spiders. and cobwebs. and general Grime we will have to scrub #like seriously today i was dusting the ceiling. THE CEILING. #had to dust & vacuum the windowsills... gonna scrub my bathroom tomorrow... #theres a large tear in my bedroom carpet too... #ugh and the cabinets are Small so organizing all the spices and shit has been Rancid #stuff has to go out of place and you cant see it all and MY ORGANIZATIONAL SYSTEMS ARE CRUMBLING #sometimes it feels like my adhd and autism are fistfighting but during a move? #lockstep babeyyyy. they are Streamlined. lots of things and lots of sorting & placing and eeheehee #i have also killed most of the freakishly huge mosquitos in the house so! things are better! #that first night was Rough! its better now! this shell is becoming a House!

[mrpsychokiller]

time and time again the only things that take me out of deep depressive states are having fun and spending time with people and yet everytime i get so shocked like wow! love and fun and laughter sure made me feel like life is worth it again. who would've thought

#🧃 #phew. im so tired but im very relieved #today was a good day. it feels so rare to ever be able to say this but it was #i went to sleep properly and woke up early and took a shower and had breakfast #my brother got to skip school and so he stayed home and we hung out together #i figured out how to make my headphone's mic work so we played lethal company together #then we watched the entirety of the snapcube sonic rider fandub together (because i never saw it) #then my mom had to go out in the city and celebrated her new paycheck by getting us ice cream #then at night my friends and i did our weekly dunmeshi watch party and izutsumi finally showed up #and now im here. and i feel very nice. im glad to be here today

[todayisafridaynight]

any hopes for kiwami 3? like things u wanna see added or changed stuff like that

if they dont keep kiryu's goofy walk stance and the hoof-like walk sounds i dont wanna play it

#snap chats #no one understands how much i love that from y3 and y4 its genuinely one of my favorite things about the game #oh but i guess i have to give an actual answer now. HMPH. #id scream if they revived kanda calling mine limp wristed. homophobia in 4k #OK BUT TO BE SERIOUS uhhhh i dont know. im a real simple guy i think #my only like. If This Isnt There Im Leaving deal is mine's palette and im so serious #rgg's scaring me with all the black-hair/purple-suit mine stuff as of late and i cant stress how hard ill vomit if thats in the final #HYPOTHETICAL final anyways. yk3 isnt coming out for. IDK A WHILE #i wanna say i hope they highlight daigo and mine's relationship more but i dont know how theyd do that #i really like how mine's handled in y3 as is so i dont think i want scenes injected like what they did with yk1 and nishiki #someone said a Mine Saga after the game and... hm ... sounds too unrealistic for me to hope for it #like im REALLY trying to think how they could possibly reference the rggo stories in y3 since those are EXCELLENT but #i think . MAYBE. you could reference the story where richardson calls mine as he's driving to the hospital #the only thing you'd have to exclude though is mine stopping by the bar- like JUST keep the phone conversation maybe #cause in that scene that subordinate does question mine if he can really kill daigo and i think thatd be neat. in my opinion. #yeah i dont know. in regards to rggo its hard to think of what i want without intervening things i already like about y3 #its a real head scratcher ... #a really good epilogue addition would be adapting that RGGO bit where daigo ruminates on mine. that's a fair ending for him i think #it also fulfills the need to see how daigo saw mine even if its just a little #and to non-rggo readers it could start to answer 'how does daigo feel about everything that happened' #im still so curious as to if daigo was briefed on EVERYTHING that happened but .... anyways.... #sorry all my hopes for y3 are just mine/minedai centric fLVKELKA BUT LIKE. i really am content with everything else with y3 surprisingly #idk. i want kiryu fucking up that curry in high definition tho. thats important to me #THEY HAVE TO KEEP THE QTES DURING THE RICHARDSON FIGHT ILL BE PISSED #i need the fight to be AS CAMPY and unnecessary as it was in the og. INCLUDING richardson's voice acting i need it wack as hell #is it weird i actually appreciate the Diet Building Loredumping being like. in replayable-cutscene form #i thought id prefer just One Long cutscene but im glad theres the option to skip those segments #BUT being able to get a refresher in case you missed something somehow #im running out of tags jesus christ i shouldve put this in the main text but vjALjlagj those are all my thoughts for now bYE

[ha-youwish]

i know twewy really isnt the greatest when it comes to subtlety but man neo really just goes “The Next Scene Will Contain Character Development” huh

#shitpost #twewy #ntwewy #any time kanon spoke to fret i was like man y’all are really laying it on thick huh #and the conversation with fret and nagi (as much as i love it) its a lot of This Is The Character Development #same with rindo. i think my least favorite part of neo is when rindo takes haz’s offer and then you go to the final boss #and if youre in the fight long enough (like i was) they just say in the fucking dialogue ‘wow im glad i finally made a decision this time’ #or something like that. just to make sure you really got it in case you missed that whole fucking section of the fucking story #thats the problem. its a lot of telling instead of showing #and knowing the production process they mightve just not been able to work in enough Showing for the whole cast #since they weren’t focusing on one specific character yk #anyways #rant #tag rant

[1ovestay]

just saw twice . i need jihyo so bad actually

#they were so amazing gorgeous wonderful beautiful talented im so glad i got to see them #i’m glad they were able to come back even tho they were just here in may cuz last time they came i had just flown out of the country 😭 #so i’m glad i finally got to see them!!! <3 #wahhh that was so fun i love twice #p #back to edit: take a shot every time i say the word glad in the tags #jihyo melted my brain sorry there’s nothing left except the carnal need for her

[littledeadling]

My new dincobb fic is finally up!!! It’s called Everything In Its Right Place. It’s a whole 12k, explicit, & from Cobb’s POV. Here’s da link :•)

“In which Cobb Vanth is forced off-planet, roped into a rescue mission, and made to stew torturously in his feelings.”

Enjoy!!! :•)

#fanfic #dincobb #if u like banter and shenanigans & Cobb being like ‘I think I hauve covid’ any time Din does anything then. this fic is for u 😎 #I worked so hard on this oh my gor im so glad to be able to share it finally #just saying but ppl rly like my first one 😏

[coridallasmultipass]

TRIANGLE SHRIMP ALERT !!!!

#shrimp #shrimp tank #aquariums #aquarium #inverts #pets #neocaridina #orange bee shrimp #shrimps is bugs #crustaceans #if a shrimp wore a thong... #triangle shrimp #finally a shrimp i can name again this tank has so many #once my named shrimp died off a while back there were too many babies to tell apart #well. now i see a unique one. good. im gonna look for her every time #oh i was gonna say 'Triangle' bc thats kinda cut but... #had to check the spelling lmao #what if i name her Isosceles? #anyway im so glad i got a random aberrant coloured orange bee (she was Miss Yellow) bc now all my shrimp have mixed.. #..colouration bc Miss Yellow was like an irl shiny or something she had like the gold dust thing goin on too so now i have ones with.. #..like friggen stripes and speckles and ones that are reddish orange and ones that are yellow orange #Miss Yellow was an Orange shrimp but like... so yellow in comparison with what she 'should' have been when i bought her #if i put a yellow shrimp in there youd be able to tell these are all Orange but next to each other theyre so variable #my og female shrimp were Miss Yellow. Miss Carriage. and White-Nose. lol i couldnt tell the males apart #MC and WN were in lesbians and didnt wanna breed (hence MCs name lol) so most of the ones i have now came from Miss Yellow #so hopefully the aberrant colour genes keep going without reverting to wild bc the babies are still so vibrant #anyway lol #Cori.exe #Image.exe

[aastarions]

i was so productive today after work i made dinner we went for a little sunset walk after dinner i showered i did my dailies on genshin AND i made progress on my durge run in bg3 hehe

#c shut up #time to hop into bed which i shouldve done like 30 mins ago but oh well #!!!! #oh and i blow dried my hair instead of letting it air dry so it looks rly nice!!!! #im so serious when i say this is like peak productive for me #sometimes after work i get so overwhelmed with all the things i want to do i do none of it #so im glad i was able to finally focus on bg3 again especially

[simelune]

hi! would u ever share the house nanako lives in? it’s beautiful

hi friend! i didn’t build it, it’s by tiny sim bee, here’s the speedbuild with download info (available only through the gallery tho 😔)🪴💚 i agree!! it’s a very beautiful lot – all of their builds are really nice!!

#i had this lot for so long im glad im finally able to use it #i will say that it did give me some lag! i had to remove a whole section of the sunflower farm bc it’s A LOT of items in one area #just a heads up 🫡 #anon #wcif

[motheatencrow]

beepie bo, just rambles

#so glad i eventually learned tagalog bcuz now i can actually understand what my family is saying #(one of the things that held me back was just not being able to find good sources that taught tagalog and were free) #(my biggest motivator was actually my partner saying they were gonna learn tagalog and- #-my brain decided 'this white boy is NOT gonna out-filipino me') #but anyways i dont feel clueless and out of place (as much) anymore #also i can read rlly funny messages in filipino now LMAO #i cant speak it. i definitely still need to practice that. but im glad i can finally understand most of what my family says now

[turnaboutchaos]

hi fellas i jst finished DGS2 i am. going to sit on the floor for a while

#wtf is The Duel. what is it #i am openly and bitterly weeping genuinely i have not been able to stop crying since the last scene #i gotta go sit for a while and just go. man #WHAT A GAME. WHAT A GAAAAAAAAAAME #i love it with all my heart. all of it #WHERE DO I BEGIN WHAT DO I SAY????? #the final 2 episodes seriously rocked me bro i was. so tense the entire time #and the PLOT TWISTS??? I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR THOSE #i got spoiled on stronghart being the big bad but tbh that wasnt even the biggest spoiler imo and im SO GLAD i wasnt spoiled on that #particularly with um. klint and genshin #i kep seeing ppl on my dash talk abt The Duel and i was like #and now im like AH. THE DUEL. THE DUEL...................... #AND IRIS CALLING SHOLMES DAD JUST. AUGHHHH #kazuma im so happy for u tbh. uve had a rough time im glad u got some closure on that #idk bro im just sittint here w tears streming donw my cheeks #hgnhhghhhh. lie on the floor try not to cry cry A LOT #dgs2 spoilers #im goinf insane. there is so much i want to talk about #fav game ever. THE GAME EVER..... #shutuplance🧡

[todayisafridaynight]

(don't have to respond i just wanted to ramble somewhere) AUGHHHHHHHHHH YAKUZA FIVE. that game...that game is so good....the twists...the mystery...the taxi driving..*head in hands* the emotions torn from me...baba...rooftop daigo multiple times...what a banger game it so lovely its so incredible its sooooo long too so much content i've consumed in the past week ahh so lovely..i wish i could wipe my mind and play it for the first time again oh my word the fights were enjoyable (minus kanai i dont liek him.) WATASE. wow <3 i love this game i need to absorb this game i need to become this game there will never be another like this game i think it should be framed in a hall of fame for best game ever created *sniffle sob* y5...my darling darling rpg... it's tied itself as favourite game with y3 wow i need to play both of them at the same time for 100+ hours a day i will create more hours in a day to play for 100+ hours a day

ngl when i first got through Y5, it was. An Experience

BUT IN REVIEW it really is such a lovely game- kiryu's taxi segment is definitely one of the higher points for me lest i forget shinada's entire existence :)

#snap chats #oh i KNOW you said not to respond but i'd feel weird deleting this or just posting it without commentary #ive come to respect Y5 for what it was and again its not like i didnt have fun playing it either #my main gripes are just saejima's city segment and the difficulty with haruka's story- or lack thereof #and nerfing akiyama was kinndaaaaa lame #BUT the game was still enjoyable #it was fun being able to explore new cities with kiryu and shinada #and i liked how akiyama and haruka got to have a friendship #i mean aizawa being the twist antagonist was. ok cringe we can agree on that please #but kiryu crawling through the snow just to get to haruka was a powerful scene i enjoyed #i remember people saying kiryu shouldve actually died there anad lowkey. kinda agree #idk maybe its just cause at that point it finally felt like haruka was going to be fine or like. kiryu was done taking care of her #tho that just makes it seem as though kiryus only purpose was to protect haruka.. #im prattlin too long POINT IS im glad you loved the game !! im always happy to see you guys love things so much #theres too much negativity in the world so i love bouts of passion like this- always feel free to send your rambles #i love readin em its like catchin up with a friend and they got a new interest or somethin #speakin of my friend was supposed to call me yesterday while i played ishin..... #speaking of im gona go play it

[consciouschunkofmoss]

yo guess whos finally back <33

#literally this break is killing me #i need to talk to other gays or else ill just die #but anyway #i was planning to get back on tomorrow given that my chem project would be ready to be delivered by then #but i didnt get any close to starting it yet and the deadline is already here so i dont really mind anymore lol #also im sick now so chbevsuebs #though i have to say #im glad to finally be able to let myself loose and be back on tumblr again #my brain would not handle that for much longer #(but as for discord i realized i can live pretty well without it haha) #i have so many things to say and ramble about since ive been gone. but honestly i forgot pretty much everything by now #so ill probably just talk about eva and rocky horror for a while #ah e tbm ! adivinha quem fez pavê tipo. 90% de maizena no meio da noite enquanto cantava frank sinatra haha #foi uma noite muito boa <3

[un-pearable]

3/4 games down, sonic 3 & my best boy here we come >:3

#excuse my absence as of late i’ve been all in on playing origins with my bro #honestly miracle sonic has a franchise at all sonic 1 is torture /j #they’re all good ass games but the immediate jump in enjoyablity from 1 and cd to 2 is crazy #though partly just being able to do co op only after you reach 2 is part of it in story mode #sonic 2 is so well designed though we did 2player the entire time and it is painfully obvious that 3 was not designed with it in mind while #2 was. anyway what i’m saying is good video games im glad i’m finally playing them :] #NOT looking forward to having to go back and get all the emeralds i misssed lmao. i got like half of 1s #missed all of cd bc i forgot it had them. and worked my ass of getting all seven in 2 only for me to realize i had no idea what we actually #we’re supposed to do with them. but anyway #had fun :] i had a birthday doodle i should post so keep an eye out #hope you all had a fun day for the 23rd! we are pretending nothing bad happened on the 24th <3 happy bday sonic #see y’all soon once we finish 3&K tomorrow :]

[rafeandonlyrafe]

borrowed clothes

words: 800

warnings: 18+ only, smut, female receiving oral, unprotected p in v sex, mentions of male masturbation, friends to lovers

“rafe, can i borrow your panthers jersey?” you ask, walking into his closet without even waiting for permission.

“you know, you always steal my clothes and never give me any of yours in return.” rafe points out, following you in to the walk in, seeing you already looking through his shirts, trying to find the nfl jersey.

“its sports night, rafe.” you roll your eyes. your favorite bar does themed nights that allow discounted drinks if you come in theme. “you have a million sports things to wear, and i have none.” you remind your best friend.

“all im saying is its unfair.” rafe smiles at you as you find the jersey you were thinking of, knowing his closet better than he does. it’s just a part of being friends for your entire life, best friends.

“okay, here.” you tug your black tshirt off, having planned to wear it underneath rafes jersey, but you can deal with just your bra. rafe looks away from your chest, despite having seen you in just your underwear or swimsuit a million times.

you toss the material at him before tugging the oversized jersey over your head, tucking the front into your tiny miniskirt. “how do i look?” you ask rafe, who is now holding your discarded tshirt in his hand.

rafe nods. “good.” its all he can force himself to say. better than sexy, hot, so good that he wants to bend you over right in the closet and shove that little skirt up and bury his cock in your-

“great!” you smile. “now we gotta find something sporty for you.” you hum, turning back to his closet.

--

“rafey?” you call, entering tanneyhill without knocking. you haven’t asked permission to enter since you were a child, with rafes house being your second home.

“he’s in the shower.” wheezie calls out from the living room.

“thanks wheez!” you ruffle her hair as you walk past, teasing her like she was your own little sister.

you head up to rafes room, flopping onto the bed as you pull your phone out, waiting for rafe to finish up in the shower, hoping he won’t take too long.

you scroll through tiktok, letting out a yawn with a big stretch, readjusting and sliding your hand under rafes pillow. you frown when realize your fingers graze over a weird material, feeling oddly stiff and not something that belongs on rafes bed.

you sit up, moving the pillow to reveal your black tshirt, now covered in white stains. you frown and move it closer to inspect the fabric, eyes widening when you realize what you are holding in your hands.

your mind moves at a thousand miles a minute, realizing that rafe has been jacking off into your shirt. the implications are clear, the one piece of clothing item that he has of yours, and he uses it to get himself off?

you toss the piece of fabric back down, slamming the pillow back on top of it right as rafe opens the bathroom door, towel wrapped around his waist.

“i-i can explain.”

--

“f-fuck!” you shout out, rafes head buried in your cunt, tongue lapping over your pussy, finally tasting you like he's long awaited to. “why did it take us so long to do this?”

rafe just smiles against your cunt, glad that he didn't need to give a real explanation as you hopped off the bed and kissed him, realizing that your feelings echoed his after seeing your tshirt, suddenly feeling just as pent up.

“should have just fucked me instead of cumming all over my shirt.” you whine as his tongue flicks over your clit.

“ill buy you a new one.” rafe sucks your clit into his mouth, determined to make you cum. you let out a cry, your high building.

a shiver spreads throughout your body as rafes mouth brings you to orgasm, a scream being forced out of your body, not caring that there are other people in the house that could hear.

“fuck, you taste so good baby.” rafe moans into your cunt, tongue swiping out again until you gently push his head away, not able to take anymore on your sensitive clit.

rafe rises up, draping himself over your body. he gives you a deep kiss, your arms wrapping around his shoulders.

“i can't believe you were jacking off into my shirt thinking of me.” you giggle. 

“oh god, you're never gonna let me forget that, are you?” rafe groans, moving lower to rub his cock between your folds, soaking it in your wetness.

you laugh before it's cut off by rafes lips.

“can i fuck you y/n?” rafe asks, lining himself up with your entrance.

“yeah.” you nod. “yeah, need you.”

“last chance to rethink this. because once i enter you, we can't just be friends anymore.”

“i know, i know.” you peck a kiss to rafes lips. “hurry up and fuck me already.”

rafe smiles down at you as he slowly presses forward, your walls giving way to his thick cock.

“i love you.” rafe admits with a gasp.

“i love you too.”

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