#just things on my mind irl

[dkettchen]

she would've told them unlike her canon! version who decided not to be an ally smh

#one piece #trans!sanji #sanji #kiku #yamato #ワンピース #I'm practicing my japanese shhhhhh #（日本語のペラペラ人：俺は文法とか書く方とか間違ったら教えてください😅ありがとうございます） #translation: #Yamato: I'll be able to get as strong as Oden? #Sanji: Probably... 🤔 #[meanwhile Kiku is remembering the time in the hot spring] #(Sanji: Nami-chan!!!) #(Nami: Shut up!! The women's bath is supposed to be a peaceful place!) #Kiku: I am also ⚧️ ... o.o #(y'all english speakers had me all to yourselves for a decade it's about time I start to also sometimes make stuff in my next language lol #notably for media *from* that language #same as it made sense to make fan content in english for [american superhero franchise we don't talk abt anymore] back in the day #(happy seasonal reminder that Ren Is Not A Native English Speaker and This Is My 5th Language hi 😅)) #while looking up reference for this I learnt that the straps to tie back the kimono sleeves are called tasuki #also I decided yamato get big muscles cause he got them kaido genes in im (I also gave him his dad's young-man-facial hair) #the more I do transition projections for one piece characters while tryna adhere to the style the more I learn that sometimes stylisation #uses bones less as literal determinants for where things go and just kinda exaggerates shapes based on vibes alone instead #meaning trans characters' bones wouldn't literally stay looking the same in that stylisation in the way they do irl #they'd get exaggerated differently based on what the surrounding stuff is doing #I still think oda's transition demonstration when we first met iva was unreasonable even with that in mind tho

[horse-head-farms]

this is the only clothing option that makes sense for hypno’s skin

#i think someone else may have made a post like this before. if so. i am sorry #i still cannot believe the clothing on the right is a thing. saw someone irl wear that one time and was my mind stalled #i am sorry to anyone who dresses like that it just looks silly to me. not bad silly but “HUH THATS A THING?” silly #sky factory 3 pic because its the first one i had on hand #hermitcraft #hypnotizd #hermitblr

[azaracyy]

a lesson on good karma digimon survive week 2024 day 4: supporting characters

#digimon #gomamon #digimon survive #survive week #survive week 2024 #rambling ahead. you don't have to read the tags beyond bc there's nothing that important tbh... you can just look at the art... #exhausted from being out and doing housework yesterday. then got a last-minute job with very urgent deadline today #finished everything but yeah basically i did anything but art so #irl do be like that aint it #anyway it's been a long time since i played survive and my memory isn't that good #but i always remember the part where we had to protect the gomamon #and later they showed us a path via the dam allowing the team to continue exploring #it reminded me of just how important it is to be nice and do good things whenever and wherever possible #and be mindful with the not-so-good things you do and say #be it good or bad. karma is real even if you don't know when it will get back at you #and you know in visual novel settings. whatever choice you make really determines what happens later on #yeah believe it or not i end up thinking stuff like that by helping a bunch of adorable seal mons... #mmm i'm officially behind now so i might as well take my time while also rest a bit haha ;; #this week has been fun with survive week tho fr. even though i came in unprepared (when will i change) #gotta keep surviving #png

[reallybadblackoutpoems]

make your sensitivity work for you (2006) - alice jane muir

“woag much to think about...”

#rahhh #i cant stop saying this #to people i know irl #i am SORRY #i am sorry for giving you all #things to ponder #but there is a lot #in my mind palace #just finished spring awakening #in brainrot #as per usual #anywya #blackout poem #blackout poetry #author #book #poetry

[vse-kar-vem]

together in every universe. or something

#bojan cvjetićanin #kris guštin #joker out #im neglecting schoolwork to draw this but that seems like the norm at this point #hoping if i get it all out of my system now i'll be normal during exam szn (in like. a week 😨) #<<sorry if i keep talking about school btw (semi age reveal ahead) gcses are fucking killing me uuaghhgshhahhhaj #i actually quite like this since i started drawing on a whim this afternoon and its only ten now #i dont even mind the lineart (DONT LOOK AT BOJANS HAND OR ILL JUMP OUT A WINDOW) #only a one storey one tho 💗💗💗 can't die without seeing bokris irl <<pipe dream as im too embarrassed to go to a concert #NO because bumping into jo in london would be my worst fucking nightmare 😭😭😭 #what do i even fucking say 'hey are you jan from jo--' NO id combust on the spot #and what if im bothering them uknow 😭😭 idk but i used to live in an asian city where none of my idols from the west would ever visit #(except safiya love you safiya) so keeping the real life person and fictiinalized versions apart in my brain and/or at arms length was easy #but now that i live in the uk and the chances of seeing them irl are non-zero? and presented with the chance to #actively seek them out and you know go to a concert #im just too scared and awkward to do it #maybe i'll bully my friend into going with me #i feel safer revealing age more in the fucking depths of these tags but another thing that makes me feel awkward about going is age #like ik lots of jo fans are younger than me and there's no shame at all in bringing your parents i just feel so embarrassed?? to??? #like i'd rather go with my friends #but that would require at least us riding the train alone and i am a small east asian girl who never looks up from the floor ever #sooooo #not happening any time soon #maybe next yr?? but probably not #unless i suddenly get a lot more independant and cool #i doubt anyone's read this much of my tags but if you have 😭😭 hope you like the art i guess #at the time of me writing i want to draw more but i'll see #(you will know since it will have been posted) #a tag previously used to say 'queueing to post at school' this is false as i am now in fact nauseous at home #my art

[twinbruizes]

miscellaneous kageyama autism moments

#he's autistic your honor! #haikyuu!! #haikyuu #kageyama tobio #autistic kageyama is the only thing on my mind these days #of course i get into hq two years after all my mutuals get over it #so i am just sitting. brewing. stewing. in my thoughts #well i talk to my irl about it. he is the one who got me to watch it #he is allistic though so there are only so many things i can say that he will understand #hq

[furbyeggs]

drew a thing or something i suppose

#art #robot #robot wires #robophilia #robotfucker #i dont rlly like the wires for hair thing but i decided to test it out for once #if it looks bad that's because i use kleki #i swear im such a good artist #one of my irl friends follows my on here and i will cry if she sees it #she already calls me a robotwhore and a roboslut soooo #would be very very embarrassing #i swear im normal guys #im normal about robots #i am to be trusted with machinery #machinefucker #i am but a humble robotliker who gets called many many horrid names by my friends #(i tell them i want to take apart sun fnaf and look and his insides and they act reasonably horrified) #im literally aroace and they act APPALLED when i say something SLIGHTLY odd abt robots #IM NORMAL #IM NORMAL ABOUT ROBOTS #i swear #when i was little everytime there was a fictional robot on screen id get sucked in. like i wouldn't be able to stop staring until they were #gone #like id just be staring no thoughts #brain completely empty nothing in my mind but “OMG ROBOT!!” #i still do this sometimes actually but its not as bad #i just think robots are neat! they're cool #(on screen as in whenever i was watcing tv) #wires #do i need to tag this wireplay actually

[yardsards]

just read this part of the adventurer's bible and

do you think toshiro was originally attracted to falin (whilst still being irritated by many of her same traits in laios) because he thought his father would find her interesting???

#undescribed #eliot posts #dunme #dungeon meshi #dm spoilers #idk how i feel about him #my first impression was positive bc he had a cool character design (and i found him quite handsome personally lol) #but also he was mean to laios :( #but also laios was asking him intrusive questions and messing up his name #but also he should have just spoken up instead of expecting others to just read his mind #but also dude was a nobleman in what looks like feudal era japan #which to my (albeit limited) historical knowledge had even more intense politeness rules than like. the victorian era #so if the dunmeshi world is like the irl era then it could be a cultural thing that he felt he couldn't vocalize that stuff directly #and also he was in love with falin and seemed to like her weirdgirl tendencies. which i appreciate and respect. like. me too dude. #but also how much was genuine feelings and how much was seeing her as a novelty? #BUT ALSO did his family own fucking SLAVES??? and was he cool with that??? #or did i miss something/am i misunderstanding something? #like is the guy having a sixpenceee moment here #or am i just misunderstanding context/history here?

[lunarharp]

qifrey & the gals

#witch hat tag #more recent things. i already miss the motivation and peace of mind inherent to being offline i was drawing so freely and happily Hahhhhhhh #i miss you i love you i need you (talking to the state of being Officially Offline) coco thinking she's the 5th household member... #and not the 6th makes me think of my irl dad. kid me thought they were his firstborn child and turns out i'm his. 6th. #sorry for the very wild cai lore. qifrey 🤝 my father: Mayhaps i could reveal just how many children there are or maybe not teehee

[clowninthecoffeehouse]

fighting for my life defending jonelias in the tiktok comment sections. you guys just don’t get them like i do </333

#i get it’s unhealthy #it is a horror tragedy podcast #i signed up for unhealthy that is why i listened to this podcast and not a romance podcast #and jonmartin can be unhealthy at times too like basically every ship in tma is #i like reading horror and things that don’t have happy endings #that is why i mostly consume media that isn’t just romance #this is a personal preference of course but like why is this preference so controversial in a fandom that is literally for a horror tragedy #like obviously i do not aspire to have a relationship like theirs irl but that doesn’t make it less interesting #i enjoy reading interesting things #that doesn’t mean i think they should be reality #that is why i consume horror media #because it is interesting #i need to stop going on tiktok #i barely log on but everytime i do i feel like i’m losing my mind #tma #the magnus pod #ramblings #i will not write an essay on my fandom opinions #i am a normal person #/sarcasm

[disposal-blueeee]

guess what ! doodles . again

edgar , nny and devi belong to johnen vasquez (even if i only drew nny and devi at the bottom)

scriabin by zarla-s

#vargas #vargas zarla #edgar vargas #scriabin vargas #zarla s #doodles #scriabin #okee dokee ! time to ramble about my life . you can skip the rest of this if you don't want to read . #started these one day before my first day of school and i just finished them today WOAH #i haven't had time to draw for one reason or another #i've had only two weeks of school and i'm already sick of it #my teachers are okay . #i've been interacting with my friends a lot more lately and i realized that that makes me feel really happy ! #overall . everything's been fine these days. #i pretty much gave up on trying to find people with my interests #los fans irl de jthm son puro invento de los papás #what else hmm #i struggled so much with some of these #my art style is still inconsistent af #trying to fix that ... #also halfway through this i realized that everything i was drawing was SO BORINg #i keep drawing the same stuff over and over again #whatever i want to draw some crossovers next #i have some things on mind :3 i'm exciteeeed #hopefully i'm able to draw them tomorrow . #DAMN it's already 3am good night #sunny's art

[pinkhairandpokemon]

I know it’s a pretty common chosen/kid hero thing to joke about our trauma all like “LMAO yeah I stopped the end of the world when I was in middle school nbd” and Feel numb to it for a while but at some point when your life has actually been going normal for a long enough time you have those moments at like... 5 am where you reflect on how actually fucked up all of that was and then you either want to punch a wall or cry or both

and then you feel like shit but don’t wanna tell anyone bc you think “everything is fine right now I have no reason to be upset or dump it on anyone else”

-Blake

#I wasn’t even like. triggered by anything #I was literally just doing homework and let my mind wander #and felt like crap for the rest of the day #does any of this make sense I’m just word vomitting #just chosen things #I guess #pokeblogging #pokemon irl #pokeblog rp #pokemon #pokemon oc #pokemon rp #trainer blake

[the-converse-high-top]

this is going to sound really fucked up but i just need to say it i think.

I never realized that people could actually care. I always thought that the depictions of friendship in movies and TV shows were over-the-top portrayals, and weren't things that actually happened. This was then exacerbated by the fact that my entire life I always wanted people to just Know How I Was Feeling like they do on TV and I found out that that's Not How It Works. I always thought I was naive for caring so much about my friends and for doing nice things for them out of the blue, and I always resented myself for resenting my parents for not doing more for me as a child.

So when I got to uni, and my friends started caring about me and asking if I was ok when I looked sad and doing nice things for me, I didn't know what to do with myself. It was the nicest thing anyone had ever done for me in a long time. When I was staying with a friend, and she said that she left the window open in the room I was going to be staying in because I liked it to be cold when i sleep, I bluescreened. I didn't know how to respond. It is quite literally one of the nicest things anyone had ever done for me. No one had ever paid that much attention to the things I liked. Every year on my birthday it was either a gamble if I would get something I actually wanted from my parents (spoiler alert: I was often disappointed) or I would just have to straight up tell them what I wanted. I got accustomed to the latter, and now I don't mind, but receiving two gifts from friends about languages this year made me realize that I could have it so much better.

And don't even get me started on online friends. I sort of thought that everyone was lying about them? Or that it was something unattainable, and reserved only for God's Chosen Favorites or something. But no, there are little people in my phone who care about me. They legitimately care about me as much as I care about them. I've been nervous to ask them about their well-being because I'm still nervous about being naive and getting a wake-up call that no one cares again, but after being told that they were worried about me when I overslept, I think i should know that I'm in the clear. And that's not even including all the times they tell me to go to bed when it's late, and when they ping me about things I may enjoy or things I was involved in.

All this is to say I guess that I'm touched that people remember my existence. It makes me feel good to be wanted. I will be eternally grateful to both my irl and online friends who made me realize that just because my parents or my friends from home didn't care enough to remember what I like or to go out of their way to do nice things for me, it doesn't mean that no one will. I need to step up and do more for you guys. I trained myself to push down my desire to help and check in with people because I thought I was betting on something that I'd never get in return, but now I know I can.

Thank you all, and I love you 💚

#uf this is a long one sorry 😅 #i put it under a cut so it wont clog up your dash #btw if you are an online friend and you do something nice for me #what you arent seeing is me squealing and crying and bluescreening before giving your message a heart emoji and possibly the 🥹 emoji #the 🥹 emoji to me is a dear friend #🥹 to me in the context of accepting nice things means that im basically already crying #i am so incredibly appreciative of you all #i will not stop saying it #and i need to say it more to my irls faces #if you know me irl and you see this expect me to tell you very soon that i fucking love you #and if youre an online friend and you have vagueposted about something happening to you since ive met you #you may or may not get a message about it (depending on how chicken i am) because i fucking care about your well-being goddamnit #idk idk idk i just #it still amazes me that this isnt fake #that you actually care #i keep thinking that ill say something wrong or whatever and ill lose it all #but in the back of my mind i know that isnt true #i should probably be telling all this to a therapist but therapy is expensive and posting online is free #there was something else i wanted to say but i forgor so ill edit and add it when i rember #ok to rb #long post #personal

[hammill-goes-fogwalking]

wanna hear this? I'm a late bloomer. And I just read this term exists. All the worries about autism, asexuality, low libido, comparing myself to people, feeling left out, rejection, lack of self worth, reproaches, envy, depression- have this one reason: I'm a late bloomer, the reckless truth. ☠️

#my inner world has just collapsed #I never knew this word exists. As well as I never knew many other people have it as bad as I do #actually I always thought I'm normal because I started puberty with 10/11 years #but- #my body now looks the same as it was when I was 13/14 #and *that* is the thing that scares me #:/ #am I ever going to change?! 😭😭 #praying every day for it #you can't imagine how this frustrates #oh goddd #I don't wanna stay a child forever #I want metamorphosis but it doesn't come #next year I'll turn 18. and. if I don't look older by then this will be the end of the world for me. #nobody wants a kid like me #:0 #*sobs* #most of my irl friends are younger than I #they're 13 and are taller than meeee #why is everything so unfair #who gave me these genes?! #*dramatically staring into the void* #*cries* #I just needed a place to let out my frustration :( #tumblr my safe place #random mind

[manofthepipis]

One thing that I’ve been thinking about is a possible route(?) this story could go, and that is Spamton’s trip to the Ambyu-Lances’s office. And boy do I feel bad for the Addisons because it’s gonna be hell on earth for all of em. Spamton has the mentality of a feral cat and this feral cat is going to the vet in the first time in forever. I don’t think Spamton is a big fan of large syringes, and when you have one of those chasing you down because well, look at him. He’s a walking talking corrupted program. If masters his glitches like Survey says, I can totally see him glitching through the doctors to make his grand escape™️. I feel like all the Addisons are gonna have to be here for both moral support, as well as making sure that he doesn’t attack his doctor. (Maybe they’ll sedate him a little? I know that’s what some hospitals do with rowdy-er patients LMAO, but then the Addisons have a whole new problem on their hands because now Spamton is high as a mf kite or something 😭) the last time I was under anesthesia my doctor said I wouldn’t stop laughing until I burst out into uncontrollable sobs and then I immediately blacked out💀

god a trip to the doctors office would be hell in a handbasket for this guy ;v; because he 100% has the energy of a feral cat finally being checked out

though i think once he gets closer to the addisons he'd agree to go, just to see if he can be set back to normal (spoiler alert: he can't cuz fate has handed his ass the bad luck card from square one) but he immediately regrets it and the addisons have to calm him down

them sedating him would probably be the best course of action as to actually get ANY results (because he will bite and attack on instinct hfjkkdjfkks)

though i feel if i were to write an ambyu-lance scene in the future this is how id imagine it would go:

#im a giggly hysterical laughing mess under anesthesia until im out #but i can 100% imagine spamton in ur experience #like hed be uncontrollably laughing sobbing glitching just the whole board of emotions until- bam- hes out #but not without a couple escape attempts first #but also my hcs about his corruption is truly it cant be reversed #and that the man on the phone changed him in a way that no darkner can help- at least in their world #a lightner thats like very good with computers and code could fix him maybe but then again hes pretty fried #its not entirely a bad thing infact id feel hes been like this so long that going back to the guy he once was would even mess him up more #thats just my lil take on it like im a fan in healing but not completely-going-back-to-the-way-things-were-type thing #maybe thats just irl bias like after going through something traumatic and everyone expects u to be like u were but youre not #but again your changes aren't bad just as long as you're healthy and healing and happy #thats why i keep his hair black in my fics :D also bc he thinks he looks great with the different hair color which he does #oof these tags got outta hand srry anyways thx for the ask!! i loved this idea so i hope u dont mind i doodled it fjjfhfjkkfhhsj #asks #my doods #fanfic

[lecliss]

The choice from Sunday is kinda weird cuz the options are build a cage in the house for the bird or build a nest where it fell and one leads to the bird growing up but dying once its set free and the other one probably leads to it dying much sooner. They both feel like the same option and even tho obviously the most kind, caring, morally right thing to do is keep it inside so at least it lives longer even if it's in a cage. But like to me both options suck and are basically nothing cuz I'm sorry if I look like a bad person for this, but I'm not sorry, but I'm not fuckin touching a wild animal. Even if I knew it was there even if I bothered to check out the sound to find a bird, which I wouldn't, I'm not touching it. I'm not even getting close enough to find out it's too young to fly yet. Whatever happens to it happens man and I'll never know what happens to it cuz I'm not even gonna look at it. Like, where's the 'you seem like an asshole but really it's quite a normal choice' in this whole trial thing??? That's usually an option you can pick. Sunday!!! Sunday, listen!!! There are more than two choices!!! You don't have to always do something!!!! You can just walk away!!! You don't have to try to do something for everyone all the time!!! Think about yourself sometimes!!! It's not selfish I promise!!! SUNDAY!!! OH MY GOD HIS WINGS ARE COVERING HIS EARS HE CANT HEAR US!!!!

#i genuinely dont wanna pick anything #like okay. i know they dont have animal control or a shelter in this setting. but irl genuinely just call some people and see if theyll take #it if you wanna do something about it. #you are not getting my ass to touch a wild animal of any kind. i dont care what the situation is #i was asked once if i could help take care of some baby mice a friend accidentally ruined the nest of and a shelter wouldnt take them #and i was like. im sorry but no cuz i know for a fact im not equipped to handle something like that and i dont wanna touch wild mice and #i KNOW at least some of them will die and i wanna now have to deal with dead mice. and you know what happened? #the friend couldnt keep up with how often they needed to be fed and they died. and now you have dead mice. #something could have happened where they survived outside like the mom came back and fixed it maybe or at least one fended for itself #like its a shame the nest accidentally got ruined but it was an accident and things like that happen all the time #yes its an accident you caused but in the case of something like that i really dont think its suddenly your responsibility now #and i know itll make you feel better to try to make up for it but now you have dead mice #and i know for some people at least trying to help makes them feel better but now we're at the point where i just dont understand #i just cant comprehend the feeling or the idea or the thought. #so its like. i get sunday feels like he HAS to do something for everyone all the time but its genuinely turning him into a monster and he #cant see that. like trying all the time despite getting nothing done will tear you apart. let yourself rest #do the small things you can do around you. dont put the weight of everything on you all the time otherwise you wont get anything done #and youll start thinking not doing anything isnt even an option anymore #i promise its okay. take a break. #im not even referring to sunday anymore. you 🫵 its okay. take a break. make yourself feel better #then come back to things with a clearer calmer mind and do the small things you know you can do #dont force yourself to do everything because you feel like you have to. itll be okay. i promise #hsr 2.2 spoilers #hsr spoilers #oh right this is a spoiler post ifnfjfnfk #long post