BILLY THE KID x F!READER
listened to bite the hand by boygenius and am thinking thoughts of angsty sex with billy. (17+)
you didn't want to call it quits with billy.
you knew the type of man he was, the type of life he had, but you loved him dearly, wholeheartedly. he got into brawls before, but it doubled when you became his girl. it got so bad that it happened almost nightly. he'd show up at your doorstep with bruised knuckles, and you'd learn it was because someone spoke ill of you, and billy being billy, he couldn't just sit there and not do anything about it.
"honey, it's not gonna happen again," billy rushed to say, words bleeding together, a sense of urgency in his voice. he may be an outlaw, a killer, to many in the public, but right now, he was just a man, soul-bared and eyes pleading. "i swear, it won't."
you wanted to believe him. "you said that last time."
billy stayed silent, tongue-tied.
"i'm doing this for you," you whispered. were you? or were you just afraid? "i don't want you getting hurt 'cause of me, billy—i bring nothing but trouble."
your words stumped him. trouble? you were the best thing that ever happened to him.
"we can talk about this more in the morning, yeah?" billy prodded as he tried to buy some time. when you seemed unsure, he cradled your face, palms rough with callouses, but his touch gentle. "c'mon, let's sleep on it, okay? let's go to bed."
oh, how were you supposed to deny him?
once your back hit the mattress, he kissed you—soft and desperate—his strong arms wrapped around you in fear you would run off, but like always, you melted into him. as he stripped you of your clothing, billy whispered to you, to the gods above, about how much he loved you.
"i love you, baby," he breathed, smoothing the goosebumps on your skin with his large hands. "i love you so much."
he spoke the words so softly that it ached your heart. you couldn't love him how he wanted you to. the worst part was that billy didn't care—as long as he had you, nothing else mattered.
he peppered you with kisses, lips dragging across every inch of your body, each one a silent plead for you to stay with him. you felt overwhelmed, undeserving. you didn't deserve him. billy held you tightly, his hands molded into your flesh where they belonged. and he fucked you nice and slow, too, his face tucked away in the crook of your neck, his hands holding yours. he fucked you as if it was his last time, trying to remember how you feel wrapped around him, all snug and warm.
"stay," billy whispered, pressing a kiss on your neck before leaning back. you swore, even in the shadows, you saw tears in his eyes. "i'll do better, baby, i promise."
you didn't say anything back. if you did, you would utter, "i'll stay.” a lie, and you couldn't lie to him. so you captured his lips with yours and gave him a kiss that said everything you needed: a goodbye. billy must have understood because he only kissed back you harder.
author's note: you might be thinking: sunnie, this doesn't match the song AT ALL!! and all i have to say is..... yeah, you right. but i'm so tempted to write a proper fic with this concept, like i'm gonna stay up all night writing.
— NOT PROOFREAD : 01.14.2024
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So given my last meta and the thoughts on gg s1 and mirror structure, i wanted to clarify a little—because it’s got a complicating factor, and that factor’s name is Blair Waldorf
There’s a version of this story where it works out neatly:
Dan and Serena, our leads, Lonely Boy and the It Girl, come together and realize that they’re more similar than anyone, themselves included, thought
Rufus and Lily, their single parents, are mirrored themselves. Rufus has his marriage collapsing around his ears, and he’s stuck clinging to the past. Lily, on the other hand, needs to learn to accept hers, even as she has a (less than perfect) marriage coming together
As the lightly estranged childhood friends (and kind of sort of secondary romantic interests), Nate and Vanessa make another pair, also sharing between them their families’ high expectations. What separates them is, firstly, that Vanessa did the leaving and Nate was one the left, and secondly, that Nate tries much harder to be what everyone wants
Rounding out our protagonists are the younger siblings, Jenny and Eric. Where Jenny is an outsider pushing her way in, Eric was born with privilege and has been pushed to the fringes
And then there’s Blair
Gossip Girl is not just a story about Dan-and-Serena, it’s a story about Blair-and-Serena, with Serena forming a relationship to Dan and rebuilding her relationship with Blair. This makes Blair Dan’s mirror, even before Bad News Blair’s famous hallway scene between them—Blair’s cruelty and the mask she wears for the sake of popularity are cast in sharp contrast to the awkward authenticity of Dan from minute one. As the scorned best friend (ft. subtext), Blair also mirrors Vanessa, and they have their own conflicts regarding morality and self-serving behavior that might leave them more similar than they’d expected (season 2’s historic building plot, season 3’s Enough About Eve)
Blair has a mirror in Jenny, the would-be queen. They are the same, clawing in hopes of being seen by those around them and approved of, but Blair begins on the top and Jenny at the bottom of the heap.
But Blair’s most prominent place is always as Serena’s foil. She is the calculation to Serena’s natural charisma, the cool to her warmth, the moon to her sun—the Darth Vader to her Sunshine Barbie. They are, always, trapped in a binary orbit. And this breaks the rule of mirrors even further, because Blair does not reflect on the interrelationships between Brooklyn and the Upper East Side, the prominent theme that these are all just people dealing with the problems people have
Instead, Blair’s status as a foil to Serena shows us that Serena doesn’t belong. Think of A Thin Line Between Chuck and Nate—Serena begging Blair not to do what everyone does, to be better the way she’s trying to be. Blair tells us that Serena, for all her It Girl glory, isn’t as much of the UES as everyone thinks
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I'm not sure if you're still active through this medium.
I wanted to ask if it is possible to use your art on facebook for Roleplay accounts, with a close friend we love your ideas and wanted to use them for reference, but we need to consult you first
I'm assuming this is about fanart, right? As long as it's fanart, find a way to credit me somewhere visible and I'm cool with it 👍
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