#like I’ll really miss him as a friend

[doll-elvis]

I’m just having one of those days…

(crying over a man I never met because I miss him)

#forgive me while I rant #does anyone else have friends or family that tease you over your love for elvis #I got randomly really emotional and sad on a car ride home last night #we were driving by the beach and it reminded me of his last vacation to hawaii in ‘77 #and it made me think about how he passed away so young #how he was stripped of all the little joys life has to offer #like swimming in the ocean #feeling the breeze #relaxing in the sun #almost everyone in his group got to grow old and experience a lifetime of all the little things like that #but he didn’t #it’s just so unfair #and yeah then my whole family teased me and played unchained melody to purposely make me more upset #I know it seems dumb to some people to cry over someone you never met #but I just feel so sad for elvis #I know he had an amazing life and career but he deserved to enjoy it longer #I’ll miss him forever #personal rant #elvis presley #elvisaaronpresley #elvis #elvis fans #elvis photos #i love him

[feelslikegold]

while I understand what this person is saying….the difference in how their partners are treated makes no sense to me lmao. I have seen the other partners (some who might argue are just as if not more private than josh’s) be included in fic??? with tabs kept on all of them to the point where fans even notice *instagram comments* left from them???? it’s so funny that only josh gets this kind of treatment when every other relationship (hannah doesn’t count) is obsessed over by fans…..

we don’t know for sure what jenny was to danny and yet why do I still see people casually mentioning her and posting about what she’s up to when her socials were private too while she was with him????? she was clearly very private and yet……?? people obsessed over talking about them…..

respecting their privacies should be happening, but respect all of them? the same? 😭 josh’s partner is treated like a curse if he’s mentioned which is pretty respectful ig, but why are there tiktoks of other partners along to the sound of “she’s getting that dick” like it’s just SO so fucking weird to me that this fandom does not respect women no matter what and has also treated josh so oddly when he came out 😭

#if ron’s photos were taken from a private account and leaked then that’s absolutely one thing but I will never get over just how weird this #fandom acts towards josh the second they learned he has a male partner 💀 #if you’re going to play the respect card (which is appreciated/should be the standard as fans) you need to respect ALL of their partners??? #if you’re weird about only josh………it’s actually weird :’) #ok rant over #I just cannot handle hypocrisy 😭 #god josh himself is going to post wedding photos one day to his instagram and fans are going to be so weird about them 😭😭😭 #respect josh’s privacy always but don’t basically re-closet him after coming out??? I just do not understand it #(in the terms of him posting wedding photos…not rn because he doesn’t share much of his private life still) #but if he had an issue with ron’s photos they literally would not have been posted ?????? ron adds all fans as friends and his facebook is #very public……..he’d know what josh is and isn’t comfortable with 😭 #also don’t twist my words bc clearly if you’re cropping josh OUT and only posting his partner that is so fucking weird 🧍🏻‍♀️like. #just be normal!!!! just be normal oh my god #you don’t even have to make 3738392938 tweets like this like literally just be normal and leave ALL of their partners alone 😭 #except miss hannah because she might die from lack of attention 💔 #also ignore me bc I have to run my mouth or *i’ll* die #also hate to be that bitch but *some* treatment towards josh really is homophobic lmfao but I will not get into that rn when I have already #yapped this much <3

[wantbytaemin]

hi ana i know this week has been hard, how was your weekend? i hope you had time to relax and regroup.. sending much love your way 💞

hi angel! thank you so much, i did i did! I hope your week was gentle to you and that you had a nice weekend as well 💖 here’s my weekend in a couple pics hehe ofc you get details in the tags bc this IS ana wantbytaemin after all 🥲🫡

#we’re still catsitting and i snuggled w the baby for a while on Saturday morning which was so 🩶 bc he doesn’t like pets very much. he’s got #pretty severe arthritis so whenever he wants pets you best believe he gets them.. sweet angel i’ll miss him so much 🥺 #then saturday morning roommate and i went to this new ramen bar in the city centre and had some mizamen it was SOOOO good #and the painted street is actually a city project of making some of the very narrow central streets pedestrian only zone and so they’ve #just recently painted part of this street and put CATS on it hehehe i loved it SO much #and then on Saturday night we went to an art/design exhibition and i have SOOOOO many pics form there #from* there i loved it SO much! and there was a concert after it which my friend really wanted to go to so we went #and then as roommate & i live close to the concert place we all went back to ours and had some wine & cat snuggles 🩶 #and THEN from today that’s my silly dog aziza with as you can see a totally appropriately sized stick #<- pic from our 3 hr walk in the park #and now im doing chores and chilling and such so yea!!! good weekend all in all i managed to not think about the week and how i went #through all of Dante’s circles of hell LMAO

[glitterock]

x

#my best friend is going to the psych ward and idk what i’m gonna do until then obviously i want him to get better #and he’s really been through it like he needs this #but i’ll miss him so much :(

[loadsofcats]

Have a feeling that, if more of you read Riders of the purple sage by Zane Grey, you’d be going mad over Lassiter

#the puns with his surname would be insufferable it sometimes sneaks up on me #i love him very dearly #both him and jane #Jane for being exactly who she is; stubborn kind welcoming and seemingly dumb but actually quite clever #she has a ranch all to herself #and for lassiter…… his name is Jim. I was not expecting that #secondly he’s from texas and now i had to figure out how texans speak. #this one also sneaks up on me because i did not earlier have a) a realisation that texan accent Does Exist so i remembered that’s a thing #too and b) i did not ususally connect texan accent with cool people (sorry but i only ever heard it once in a blue moon from tv) #anyway I love him very much because in the first chapters he comes all like “Yes. The Black cowboy it is me. I am very dangerous. #Jane I will protect you and your friend.” and then he does and #Jane later invites him for dinner and the man just… dissolves into a puddle with heart eyes on it like “oh i… really miss #it is a-a-alright; you don’t have to invite me for dinner [insert that emotional crying cat] Lassiter can survive just fine” #He’s twirling his hat all that time in his hands like a nervous teenager #I mean he comes there all strong and brooding and whenever Jane speaks he just. Melts. Babygirl really #he goes to retrieve Jane’s cattle he loses his horse in the process!!! #and he still stays! Even when Jane tries so hard to deter him from killing who he came to kill hes like “oh well. Guess I’ll stay here unti #you… change your mind” and Jane’s like “I will not change my mind”. And he goes #“Oh well ill stay anyway you need help managing a farm on your own” and he just stays to “help” #i could write paragraphs about Jane as well but this is a Lassiter appreciation post <3 #book #books #it talks #tag edition #riders of the purple sage #zane grey

[mayclair]

last day of school today :(

#we had our last exam then our silly little class party and i was so so so happy but so so sad #i brought my uniform and everyone signed it and it’s so full of colors and notes i love it so mucj i’m keeping it forever #alsp half of my friends are leaving :(((((((((( i miss them so much already i had to say bye to like 5 today itself #specifically i had to say bye to Him and i asked him to sign my shirt before i left and he did and we said bye and i’m probably never gonna #see him again and that lowkey makes me want to throw up but whatever #anyway after school our friend group went over to my friend’s apartment and hung out and rolled on the grass <33333 #then i said goodbye to one of my best friends who i’m also never gonna see again. kms #anyway tldr it’s been such a good but bad day i’m kinda really sad and this is gonna sound So cheesy but i’ll never forget these people & #the memories i made with them. like genyinely i don’t think i will ever one of the wildest years of my life

[milo-is-rambling]

Don’t get high and then watch the only team you care about lose

#was this Bergerons last season? I don’t want him to leave. we were talking about missing tukka too and it was so sad and I love our goalies #so much. I’m excited for next season bc it won’t be so fresh with all the shit with my dad bc I basically ignored the team until playoffs bc #it made me so fucking sad bc he’s the one from Boston who loved hockey and we all watched it together and now he’s not a part of that #and it’s just so sad man. I do get really happy at the idea of me living on my own some day and watching bruins with friends and drinking #and smoking and laughing and cheering together and being sad and angry together it’s truly so incredible #one day I will be on my own and I will carry traditions dad made with me even if I don’t have kids I will have so many friends to watch #hockey with and they’ll have friends to watch hockey with and I will host a watch party bc I like hosting and having friends and so I’ll #host a hockey watch party in my shitty little apartment and I’ll apologize to my neighbors ahead of time bc the game is on and we might get #loud #ahhh daydreaming about a shitty apartment anywhere back up north with hearts in my eyes and love in my soul #I am high. and thinking about hockey. and life. and time passing. things change but they stay the same. huge players leave and new players #join but it’s still the same team and it’s got all this history #but just ughh idk #I’m having big feelings in my small tired heart and man’s can’t express #edibles that make me cry why are you making me cry stop it #literally 5mg goes right to my crying holes it’s ridiculous body stop making me cry

[oglegoggle]

Idiot ex expected literally everyone around him to bend over backwards to do everything for him because he’s got ADHD and therefore isn’t capable of doing household chores or not breaking my belongings or responsibly managing his finances. He would throw up ADHD as a get out of jail free card literally every single time his behavior hurt me and I just had to accept it. Outright told me one time that trying to teach him how to do chores properly without breaking shit was triggering for him. But then was upset to see me call him an idiot and a coward in the notes on a post I reblogged about how shitty ADHD folks who use their ADHD as reason to never face consequences for their inconsiderate and selfish behavior.

Like yeah ADHD sucks and it requires a lot of difficult managing. But legit if you’re gonna say that it’s “triggering” to be expected to put away dishes without breaking them or take the used kitty litter to the dumpster outside every single day you’re just a pathetic self absorbed piece of shit. ADHD or not behavior like this has consequences and sometimes those consequences are the people you’re living with think you’re a selfish moron they don’t want to live with.

Your RSD is correct here dude, acting like this will make people drop you from their lives. You’re in your 30s and can’t do basic household chores. I had to walk on eggshells literally constantly with him because expressing even the tiniest amount of being upset with him would trigger a full blown self loathing meltdown and then he would be upset at me for hurting his feefees. He’s got ADHD, he’s got RSD, he’s got bipolar, it’s oooobviously my fault for triggering him and I need to calm him down and coddle him and reassure him that I’m not going to leave just because he hurt me repeatedly and did nothing to make up for hurting me or stop that behavior that was hurting me. He’s not capable of doing better and it makes him feel insecure that I deserve better treatment he’s not capable of giving me. I better reassure him that I’m okay with his shitty treatment of me or else he’ll fuckin kill himself. No he doesn’t want to go to couples counseling, that would be a waste of time and money.

Wow I’m such a shitty partner for not getting rid of all the glassware in my home so he won’t break it constantly. Wow I’m such a shitty partner I didn’t remind him to maintain his friendships outside of our relationship, obviously not telling him to remember to talk to and spend time with his friends is the same as somehow forbidding him from seeing them. Wow I’m such a shitty partner I don’t want to cook literal goddamn chicken rice & veg meals for his fucking dog and foot the bill for it, just like I was paying all of the other household bills as well as our entire shared food budget and cooking our meals every day because he would break shit and set fires if I didn’t. Wow I’m such a shitty partner for expecting him to actually pay the landlord his portion of the rent. Wow I’m such a shitty partner for smoking so much of his weed. Wow I’m such a shitty partner I won’t allow his awful cat in my home again after it slashed my fucking eyeball and put me in the ER. Wow I’m such a shitty partner for being constantly made sick by the filth and squalor he created faster than I could clean up without help. Wow I’m such a shitty partner for expecting to be helped with the cleaning. Wow I’m such a shitty partner for not accommodating his ADHD and letting him treat me like garbage without consequence. Wow I’m such a shitty partner for having needs and boundaries. Wow I’m such a shitty partner for not tolerating his abuse forever.

It was abuse.

He abused me.

Having ADHD does not make your behavior not abusive. ADHD does not absolve you of being an abuser. There are plenty of ADHD folks in this world that have actual honor and dignity about themselves. Don’t act like ADHD is a free excuse to abuse others. That’s not RSD talking that’s your conscience, listen to it. Treat those who care about you with genuine respect and they won’t reject you.

#this is goggles #bleh I’m cranky and lonely but at least I’m not dealing with his idiocy anymore #I would very much like to be held and loved #not loved for how silently and gracefully I can endure being abused #I want to be loved gently #I want to feel safe to express negative emotions with them in a healthy manner in ways we can work on solutions and build a better love #I want to feel like I don’t have to be the only responsible person in charge of everything all of the time #I want to live in a clean home that doesn’t make me sick with masses of spilled soda and cat piss on every surface and bugs and mold #I want to have my belongings regarded with care and have them replaced when occasional mishaps happen #I want to not have to constantly be parenting someone older than myself because they completely lack basic skills and emotional regulation #I want to be able to rely on my partner not just be a totally reliable rock to them without support of my own #I want to relax and feel at peace in my own home not constantly stressed by their behavior and shit pets #I want to have people in my life who make me feel secure and safe and supported and seen #I gave up everything to leave that life behind me I deserve and need better from the folks around me #it sucks and it’s lonely but I’m going to find better #hopefully in Seattle I’ll be able to find friends and love and support I need #I really hope so this life is so lonely and my body aches so much #When I feel like I miss him it is not because he was a good partner it is because I haven’t ever had a partner to live with before him #I will find a new partner who will want to live with me and will treat me better #I will get the love and respect and support I need elsewhere he won’t give me what I need #just gotta ignore that irritating feeling of missing him it will not benefit me he will only hurt me and make me feel like I’m at fault #even his friends think he’s a douchebag I wish I would’ve listened to them early on when they were trying to warm me #bleh my body aches I really need some touch and affection #I hate possessing this almost esoteric knowledge that being held reduces the pain in my body this was so much easier to handle before #I’m going to be 27 in a couple weeks I’m still so young but I feel so old #I have never been good at dating and I loathe having to date to find a partner can I just skip ahead to the part where I have a kind lover? #I want to have my back rubbed and neck kissed I want to be held while I sleep and feel safe and at ease #I’d take it even for a single night right about now it’s been months and I know I have months more ahead of me before I’ll even be hugged #wish I had the dough and know how to hire a companion for the evening #not even really for sex just like I really need to be held for a little while being held is so important for my mental and emotional health

[aestheticallynotdeerlightful]

Idk what it is with me a sheriff characters but they’re very fun to draw

#well- it’s only like three #but you know #i havent thought about Sheriff sherman in 2 years because my dsmp days are pretty much over #but damn I miss sheriff sherman Thompson #silly old retired pig man #and then jimmy and the old sheriff #maybe it’s just the three of them that I like #i can’t recall any other cowboys currently #i wonder if sheriff sherman and the old sheriff would be friends if they somehow knew eachother #both retired old sheriffs just tryna settle down #maybe I’ll redraw sherman again sometime #it’s been a long while #try my hand at piglins again #better at drawing stuff now I think akdjajd #although I have no intent to really get back into the dsmp ever again #so who knows #maybe I’ll just make him an Easter egg in the background of tumbletown art for fun

[fallingappleshurt]

Goodbye Techno, thank you for everything you’ve done, not just with charity streams and donations but for helping to creating a wonderful community. You did so much and is Truly one of the biggest inspirations and it’s sad to see you go. The best wishes to his friends and family, and to everyone else, please remember to talk care of yourself

#Technoblade #tw death #I’m gonna ramble for a minute #I’m really gonna miss him- it feels weird to say that because like- content creator and fan but he was such a big inspiration to me- #i looked up to him- he was so smart and so funny and he had this calming energy to him- it never felt like he was this big creator #when he talked it just felt #I dunno- relaxed #i wish the best for his family and friends #goodbye Technoblade #I’ll always love you- that’s sounds weird to say but you’re amazing

[robotwrangler]

Man I am so excited to move out with my friends later this year.. I can’t wait to finally have a life, and a nice new home for Pigeon, and a new job..

#and my roommates both really want cats too so even tho she’ll miss her mum and dad Pigeon won’t be lonely & will have friends :’] #she’s very sociable and friendly so I’m sure she’ll get along with any kitties my friends get #god it’s going to be so nice to have responsible roommates for once too. my dad lives like a slob #the house is always filthy again within a day of me cleaning it and I’m constantly criticised even though I do everything #so it’ll be good to move out with two guys who actually know how to cook & clean and are responsible reasonable people #as for the job? my current job pays shit-all compared to the hours #it’s a generic carer job where my hours are described as a loose ‘minimum 20hrs per week’ #but since I live with dad I do wayyyyy more hours than that. but I don’t get paid for them #literally a minimum wage job like McDonald’s would pay higher than this #and this work sucks. dad admits himself that he’s at a point where he doesn’t really need a carer #he just likes not having to do anything #so that.. on top of the fact he’s constantly a mean bastard to me WHILE I’m doing stuff for him… really sucks!! #so I’d rather work pretty much anywhere else and I’ll get paid better anyway #anyway negativity over I’m really really happy things are finally shaping up well for me after basically living in purgatory for 3 years

[somaligovernment]

“Right now I listen to Jimmy Eat World a lot.”

#I don’t that’s a lie but a lot of corny rock I feel like tacky rock music doesn’t get enough hype #near perfect weather today #was supposed to go somewhere with a friend but he’s mia 🫤 kinda my fault I could’ve messaged him but it’s whatever #I had on okay day except something happened and I thought wow I wish I could cry when I’m sad bc I was a crying moment but I didn’t and #it meant a confrontation that should’ve happened didn’t like I missed out idk I should just fake cry in these situations I’m actually really #good at fake crying… this is an epiphany moment fake it till you make it right? #like my parents raised me to be so emotionally numb and now they don’t see how that caused like 90% of the relationship issuers we have now. #anyways idk what my fitness goals are at this point like I’m happy with where I’m at any progress at this point is just a bonus but it’s #inevitable considering how much sports I do? so like it feels whatever you know? I hope I can keep this up with my work schedule tho🫤 #anyways I’ll message my friend that I missed him today bc I did #SoundCloud

[killedkennys]

the fact that no one is technically kenny’s best friend in the main 4 haunts me

#stan and kyle have each other right. THEY are best friends. the two of them. #cartman doesn’t care about kenny 💀 he only pretends to when it suits him / when he can manipulate a situation pretending to #kenny likes all of his friends and he is very loyal and clearly can’t handle it when they’re not friends / are all arguing #but like… none of those assholes are actually close with him :( #he flies under their radar a lot i feel like… thinking so deeply about them trying to replace him during his semi permanent death #like evidently they missed him to an extent! he’s just not… special to any of them 💀 #AND IT’S REALLY SAD… #LIKE I COULD ACTUALLY CRY 💀 #i’ll make a more intelligent post about this once i’ve got my thoughts in order

[munamania]

i work with my manager for the last time today :(((

#before i met my like best friends at work he was the only person i really talked to #and he’s just so chill and fun and i’ll really miss him. thank god i’m not there very long after he moves #abby talks

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

Oh my god thinking about women who’s vibes r just immaculate and how I absorb traits and how that turned out at college

#literally I just saw a picture of 2 characters one fixing another’s tie and my only thought is oh missed opportunity not pulling that #and like #i had a scene right?? #that I got some help blocking but most of it was going this feels good does it look good #and there was a time where I #pulled the other guys tie. pushed him to his knees. and then pulled him up by the tie #we didn’t end up keeping it. i got some nicknames for that #also having a friend use those types of nicknames and then having someone go what’s a dommy mommy is perhaps one of the worst moments ever #but like. that was so fun. 10 out of 10 would do again #also chatted with a classmate a good 2 months later and she was like. idk if u heard us but there was a very audible gasp each time #she was like i didn’t expect that from you but it was really fitting #i really just see women that I like and unconsciously emulate it #I’ll blame this one on playing bayo 1 and 2 #unfortunately I’ve figured out that I like having that sort of effect on people and I’m good at it #soup talks

[floral-hex]

me… sad boy

#I was going to whine a lot but why lot word when few word do trick? #I have been… soooooo anxious and depressed and I feel like I’m going to die soon & the world is ending the world is empty & I’m alone in it #I feel so sick #I need to get out and do something. I always need to get out and I never do and I’m dumb #so maybe I’ll just get messed up and stay in my room #I can’t sleep. I wake up tired and hurting. I can’t do anything. #woe is fucking me amirite? #also I just finished Black Sails and I cried a lot. why did I think getting emotionally attached to a show and finishing it was smart? #that’s not important. I mean it is but not really. what’s important is I constantly feel like the end is always looming over me #I miss my therapist but I’m scared to ever see him again. #same reason I’m scared to be around anyone outside of my immediate family: I’m a failure & I can’t bear to see that reflected in their eyes #so he joins a long list of people I can’t talk to anyone along with my dad and countless old friends #hey wait why did I segue to this? #boo hoo #analytically. logically. I can look past this and see how irrational these thoughts are #but goddamn if there’s not something chemical that just makes me feel sick and scared and I’m having a doozy of a time living with it #because Ian you need to work on long term goals. not just quick fixes like I dunno fucking eating pizza or playing video games #sorry. just wanted to vent. it’s been building up in me for days and I needed a quick whine #I shaved. I’m gonna get a haircut maybe tomorrow. if only to stave off my unhealthy feelings of ‘just shave your head at 3am’ #my mom is finally reaching the point where she doesn’t need me to chauffeur her around all the time #and my brothers are finishing their semesters at school and also both have licenses now #so I think I can stop using those as excuses and try to… I dunno. live for myself now. that sounds cheesy. #gonna go get a low paying job doing something mindless so I can have extra cash for being alive #god I need a hug so bad #that’s not even… like… not even a lighthearted joke. I think if someone sincerely held me for a few minutes it would fix me. a little bit. #this is too much information #sorry I love you goodbye forever #but hey… really… I love ya… I mean maybe. not really. kind of. I appreciate ya and I’m here for ya… in spirit. like a ghost. a cool ghost. #you can ignore this #text