#maybe okay can be our always

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

the fact that shakespeare was a playwright is sometimes so funny to me. just the concept of the "greatest writer of the English language" being a random 450-year-old entertainer, a 16th cent pop cultural sensation (thanks in large part to puns & dirty jokes & verbiage & a long-running appeal to commoners). and his work was made to be watched not read, but in the classroom teachers just hand us his scripts and say "that's literature"

just...imagine it's 2450 A.D. and English Lit students are regularly going into 100k debt writing postdoc theses on The Simpsons screenplays. the original animation hasn't even been preserved, it's literally just scripts and the occasional SDH subtitles.txt. they've been republished more times than the Bible

#due to the Great Data Decay academics write viciously argumentative articles on which episodes aired in what order #at conferences professors have known to engage in physically violent altercations whilst debating the air date number of household viewers #90% of the couch gags have been lost and there is a billion dollar trade in counterfeit “lost copies” #serious note: i'll be honest i always assumed it was english imperialism that made shakespeare so inescapable in the 19th/20th cent #like his writing should have become obscure at the same level of his contemporaries #but british imperialists needed an ENGLISH LANGUAGE (and BRITISH) writer to venerate #and shakespeare wrote so many damn things that there was a humongous body of work just sitting there waiting to be culturally exploited... #i know it didn't happen like this but i imagine a English Parliament House Committee Member For The Education Of The Masses or something #cartoonishly stumbling over a dusty cobwebbed crate labelled the Complete Works of Shakespeare #and going 'Eureka! this shall make excellent propoganda for fabricating a national identity in a time of great social unrest. #it will be a cornerstone of our elitist educational institutions for centuries to come! long live our decaying empire!' #'what good fortune that this used to be accessible and entertaining to mainstream illiterate audience members... #..but now we can strip that away and make it a difficult & alienating foundation of a Classical Education! just like the latin language :)' #anyway maybe there's no such thing as the 'greatest writer of x language' in ANY language? #maybe there are just different styles and yes levels of expertise and skill but also a high degree of subjectivity #and variance in the way that we as individuals and members of different cultures/time periods experience any work of media #and that's okay! and should be acknowledged!!! and allow us to give ourselves permission to broaden our horizons #and explore the stories of marginalized/underappreciated creators #instead of worshiping the List of Top 10 Best (aka Most Famous) Whatevers Of All Time/A Certain Time Period #anyways things are famous for a reason and that reason has little to do with innate “value” #and much more to do with how it plays into the interests of powerful institutions motivated to influence our shared cultural narratives #so i'm not saying 'stop teaching shakespeare'. but like...maybe classrooms should stop using it as busy work that (by accident or designs) #happens to alienate a large number of students who could otherwise be engaging critically with works that feel more relevant to their world #(by merit of not being 4 centuries old or lacking necessary historical context or requiring untaught translation skills) #and yeah...MAYBE our educational institutions could spend less time/money on shakespeare critical analysis and more on... #...any of thousands of underfunded areas of literary research i literally (pun!) don't know where to begin #oh and p.s. the modern publishing world is in shambles and it would be neat if schoolwork could include modern works? #beautiful complicated socially relevant works of literature are published every year. it's not just the 'classics' that have value #and actually modern publications are probably an easier way for students to learn the basics. since lesson plans don't have to include the #important historical/cultural context many teens need for 20+ year old media (which is older than their entire lived experience fyi)

[ariseastrae]

Why is it that people accept that someone can be certain they want to end up in a relationship, yet they can not accept the idea that a person can be certain don't want a relationship?

#asexual #aromantic #ace spectrum #aromantism #queer #lgbt #lgbt+ #aroace #im just late night thinking about how my brother is always like #/maybe one day youll realise u want a relationship and thats okay/ #any time i mention even the slightest thing thats barely even connected to being aroace #yet if i had told him i was bi or gay he would never say any of that #why can people be certain they want a relationship yet others can not be certain they dont #its bullshit #and im just fucking tired #i understand the whole amatonormativity #i get how our society and media has impacted our way of thinking and acting #i just need to scream this into the void #or it would eat my up inside till the shells started cracking

[katsukikitten]

Sleepy!

#bouts of insomnia with no ryhme or reason #but at least i got to dream of memal for twi nights in a row #I thought maybe she was done visiting which is okay maybe its hard #sometimes its hard to see her in dreams although these have been ones where shes fully mobile like when i was real real little #except im always my age no matter how young or old she looks #but had the baby dream back to back too it was real hard last night I dont even remember what the baby looked like she was a girl I know tha #t and memal held her which is all I ever wanted if i had kids I worried i wouldn't have them before she met them and she died just after i #got our of highschool she held my sisters kid irl so thats good she snd my children can be happy in my dreams

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

why does writing doctor who fanfic always ends me up googling british railways

#always is an exaggeration #but it's weird that it happened twice #and like i have to get so indepth every time why #i mean i dont Need to #but it feels important #me 14 in one hand yaz in the other in...........wait where is the support group #i kinda assumed london since most companions seem to live around there but that kinda sucks for our sheffield-liverpool team doesnt it fhkg #this is the reason yaz gives for never coming #not even unreasonable #maybe they move around #they probably move around #also everyone: we can just use facetime! yaz: i cant read suddenly i dont know #anyway me with 14 in one hand yaz in another sneaking out of support group like how do i get these two to the doctors house now #okay they GOT here. and im assuming yaz doesnt have a car but does the doctor #probably right? #yaz watching 14 drive: this is just wrong. who are you. alien impostor. i dont know you #14: i can drive! ive had cars! #yaz: dont believe it. never told me #shes so mad its really fun to write #as gracious as she is when she wants to be. when she DOESNT want to be. she uses all those same things she was gracious about earlier #and shes like AMMUNITION #i love her

[raeofgayshine]

I wish I could go back and tell younger me that I would in fact find that place one day full of people that I adore deeply and who I know love me in return. Who make me feel wanted and cared for and appreciated in a way I never thought would be possible. And none of it required hiding, or forcing myself to be a person I’m not. And I still have that space even though I’m aroace.

For the first time ever, I see a future where I’m not alone. And I wish I could go back and tell my younger self it would happen. It’s possible to not be constantly lonely.

#ravenpuff rambles #I’ve been lucky enough in my life to make amazing friends several times #several of whom are still in my life now #but it’s only been recently that I’ve felt like I truly found my place #I don’t know how to explain it #I guess up until now I have always gone into friendships expecting them to end and holding back just a little bit #and this is the first time I don’t feel like I have to run because I don’t feel like these people are going to leave me #maybe it’s just because one of them is also aroace and we’ve talked a lot about those similar feelings of being left behind #never had someone quite get that before #and maybe it’s just I feel more willing to open my heart #admittedly this group of ours went through some shit together and that’s how the friendships really started forming #and so maybe that helps #but it’s like #Have you ever met someone who is so much like you in so many ways that its like the joke of ‘ #‘can I copy your homework?’ ‘yeah just be sure to change it so no one knows’ #It’s a weird thing of feeling so completely and totally seen by somebody sometimes without having to say a word #anyways #I’m really happy with this little place I found and I wish I could tell younger me #and also tell xem that no it doesn’t look like a fanfic dream #no im not their person but yeah they’re kind of mine but that’s okay #its nothing and everything like I always thought of #and for the first time in my life I don’t feel a crush sense of loneliness #yes I wish I could see them in person #but I can be okay with everything I do get

[abluescarfonwaston]

I want the kids to find some old compilation videos of Wild Tiger preforming his "signature move" Cat Nap. Tiger falling asleep on the couch during interviews or on his feet during group ones. Swaying to the side sometimes and "There it is folks! The Tiger special! And it seems like he's gone for his favorite pillow again! Rock Bison!"

There was a whole website dedicated to keeping track of the Tiger pillow rankings. Bison might not win with points but he's got a small but dedicated group convinced that he must be the comfiest pillow of a man once he undoes his unbreakable skin all thanks to Kotetsu.

The end of the video is a highlight reel of the unofficial sign off for that season. "And there's wild tiger taking a cat nap on a wall/a bench/a spare gurney. The danger must be passed folks. Goodnight!"

Thomas didn't want to engage but he's got a nack for finding the best videos from back then and everyone's huddled around him. They're almost a decade old so it's not easy. Kotetsu arrives and asks what they're watching. Gets excited that they might be watching his Best of clips. Nope.

"it's hard to imagine you were actually worse at your job before."

Tiger's pouting. Bison laughs. "Kaede sure gave him the run around, that's for sure!"

"Huh?"

"Nghnn... Kaede had really bad colic after she was born. So I'd sit up with her when i got home so Tomoe could rest and then go to work in the morning."

"You ran on like two hours of sleep that whole season."

"Yeah." He says with the utmost affection. "I kinda miss it."

"Mmhmm. Tomoe was always the sensible one."

#sleep like tiger with our sweet dreams mattress #kotetsu t. kaburagi #kotetsu Kaburagi #tiger and bunny #it was actually one of his best seasons sponsors wise #pillow mattress companies sleep aids caffeine drinks #tiger who would like these adds better if they actually let him sleep: ...zzzzzzzz #Tomoe watching the videos but just as tired: oh kotetsu... #he always showed up at home with a smile like he wasnt about to collapse though #cause of course she has it worse he can't complain she doesn't need that right now #his mom comes over and lives with then for a few weeks and they nearly cry with relief #kotetsu as soon as kaede was sleeping through the nights: ... how much harder would two be? please? shes so cute tomoe please #Tomoe: under No circumstances #kotetsu: ... okay.......... #Tomoe: ... maybe when shes older #kotetsu brightening like the sun: I can wait!!!!! im so good at waiting!!!!!! i love you!!!!!! #this goes out to diatago thank you for playing with me

[nordicbananas]

oughogh i have death, thrice drawn stuck in my head rn..

#HOTSHOT HAVE YOU GOTTA CLUE HOW #LONG I'VE BEEN PINING FOR YOU #SPENT SO MANY SLEEPLESS NIGHTS I UNBAPTIZEDDDD DELCINEEEE #BUT IN OUR PARALLEL LINES #WE WERE JUST KILLING TIMMEEEE #TILL OUR COLLISION CATALTST. YEAH. YEAH. #ough i love so many parts of that song #that was the first verse but the chorus is also really really good #i hope you knowwwwww that you can trust me. baby it's just meee #gfxfhyxf... #ohhh the order being sleepy head -> termite king always gets me. #ending with “please don't forget that I'm your friend” #and then the first line of termite king starting with “oh no” #just fits so well I think #oh no. looks like it's come round again. your vengeful parasite rearing it's headddd #i think that song also suggests that jeanine has had at least 6 exes??? #“seems like six blissful lifetimes ago” #like. she had six relationships that went well. or maybe six years of being okay??? #and then #sylvia. oughh..... #sleepy head i love you too you are an amazing song #this got to be quite a lot. if you read all of this i love uouuuu <333

[maddy-ferguson]

fun fact about me: i'm insecure about so many random things that i've never flipped anyone off in my 22 years of life because i think my middle finger looks awkward and ugly by itself

#and like i say: brf slt #i felt like this especially when i would have been likely to do it semi-regularly like in middle school. but like i was thinking about this #the other day and i did it in front of a mirror just to check and it looked as bad as i remember like it's just not for me #i have a story abour middle fingers though or just about what one would call the finger #when i was in what an american would call the 5th grade (i can never do when i was x years old because it's not an accurate representation #of the class i was in since i skipped a grade and the grade is what matters more to me. when i was 9 and my friends were 10 i was saying) #we would always play this game called girls catch guys or guys catch girls where the girls would run after the guys and like tap them on #the shoulder and then they would go to prison and they would line up and another guy could set them free by like touching one of the #prisoners it was a very fun game except it's way more fun to be like the ones getting caught than to be the ones catching and we would #ALWAYS play girls catching guys and it was very unfair we would be like okay in the morning we do guys catching girls in the afternoon #girls catching guys so it's fair like normal system but the guys NEVER wanted to do it (and we would always give in because like we still #wanted to play ig and idk guys. female socialization) they never wanted to be the ones doing the catching it was so unfair because we also #didn't like it as much and we did it all the time? #and i remember this one morning we were fighting about this we had literally all agreed that it was fair this way but they didn't want to #do it and my second best male friend flipped me and my best (female) friend off and (very #important detail) he did it with both of his hands so like two middle fingers and i don't know why because i'm not even sure that that's a #thing but one middle finger meant fuck you and two middle fingers meant go fuck yourself and to us that was very different? and i remember #my friend and i we like knew what it meant but for some reason we were like. he did do the one finger before doing the two does this mean #he...loves us because it literally means he wants to have sex with us #but what's funny is we never talked to him again after that and i don't even know why that was our last straw because i remember i #genuinely liked him before that like i said he was my second best male friend! so like maybe sixth best friend overall that's not bad #and he's not the only guy friend who flipped us off that year like it was so random to stop talking to him after that😭 #like he was an actual enemy we really did not like him we talked about him in letters we'd give each other using a nickname etc #and what's even funnier is in our last year of middle schoold FOUR YEARS AFTER THIS a friend of a friend told him he should become friends #with well my friend and he was like hm i don't think so have you seen who she hangs out with? marianne *last name* like why do YOU hate #me😭 it was so funny like wdym it was mutual this whole time. i had literally moved on by then i didn't even care about hating him #anymore like wow...i think he's the only person i hated who actually hated me back

[dxmnsvoid]

ive heard of "cameo shifts" or smth before , but seeing as phantom shifts are rare for us , the fact that wed get them for something we dont have a physical form of seems kind of strange .

twice now have we gotten a phantom wolf/dog muzzle . it felt somewhat like what these look like ? if that makes sense ? i tried finding pictures and these felt accurate i guess

we do not have a physical canine form . sure we can take the shape of a canine as a void but thats not a physical form we can take , like cat or vulture . its not something we should be getting phantom shifts for . weve never gotten any other phantom shifts for forms we dont have (or for non physical forms) , this has been the only one as far as i know .

so what does this muzzle belong to , and why does it appear ? it might just be nothing , but now that its happened twice im beginning to wonder . it was strange the first time , but i kind of brushed it off and forgot about it until now when it happened the second time . if it happens again ill start exploring it more .

#this is not something we usually post about #mostly because nothing interesting ever happens lmao #but this happened last night and im still thinking about it #sure its just twice but considering i can count most of our specific body part phantom shifts on my fingers this is quite a big deal #fr confused bc i never felt like any sort of canine . ive always been more of a feline #sure i absolutely love canines and sometimes definitely want to be one but i dont think i am one #it could be something else but the muzzle feels exactly like a wolf or wolfdog or maybe just some big dog muzzle . mostly wolf i think ? #its weird #okay im gonna shut up now #void.mine #void.txt #void.shift #void.nonhuman #nonhuman #phantom shift #cameo shift #otherkin #alterhuman #therian #wolf theiran #wolfkin #dogkin #<- adding these so maybe some of you could help me out idk lol

[zemnarihah]

my best friend has been very distant w me lately and i asked today if she wanted to hang out and she said she probably couldn't bc it's her brothers birthday but she would let me know if she could and i have her location and i just looked and she's at her boyfriends house rn....

#we have it bc we're roomates so we started sharing locations when we first moved in like in case someone doesn't come home at night or smth #she recently told me that she wants to move out bc she has always wanted to live alone and she can finally afford it. and i asked her #directly like is there an issue because she is so non confrontational so she has never ever mentioned me doing anything that bothers her #and i said please tell me if there's something wrong because it would really suck if there was and i never got a chance to fix it because #you never told me. and she said no it has nothing to do with that i really just feel like it's time for me to live on my own. and a couple #days ago she was like okay i'm next in line for my apartment i'll probably move out in april. and i try to get her to hang out still and #she always has something else going on and i swear every night this week she's been at her boyfriends. #and if i see her around our apartment and try to make conversation at all she's so like short about it and barely responds like will only #give one word answers. i feel like it kind of started when i started dating e but i realized that i was spending less time with her and i #didn't want to be the girl that loses all my friends bc of a boyfriend so i started specifically reaching out to hang out with her and she #says no most of the time and never asks me. like i don't know what else i can do. #i'm like maybe it's bc of her boyfriend? bc they've been on again off again for a long time and previously when they were together it was #really distant with her like i barely saw her EVER. and they were mostly broken up for the past couple years and have been together i think #for a while again... but she knows i don't approve of that relationship and so she would like not say when they were talking again. so maybe #since lately they've been hanging out or dating or WHATEVER she doesn't fucking tell me what's going on with him. maybe that's why. #i literally like try to think of ways it could be my fault and maybe i'm being crazy but i cannot even think to blame myself for more than a #fleeting second bc i'm like. i have ASKED HER directly if there is an issue or something i do that bothers her and she says no. so even if #i'm somehow pissing her off would i ever know to change anything?? i just feel so frustrated bc it's like she's an entirely different person #to me. like this is not the person i know. and i don't know what else i could possibly do like i feel like we need to sit down and have a #conversation about it but what good does that do if she just acts like nothing is wrong. but i don't want to lose my friend i have such a #hard time making friends. i've known her since i was 14 like i can't imagine my life without her. we were the only two in our whole friend #group in high school to get out of the church i still love those other girls but we have so little in common now.

[meltedhorror]

I always hoped we'd rot together, that the day the earth reclaimed my bones it'd be by the side of you. . . Maybe if I close my eyes and believe enough, it'll come true eventually. . .

#my art #own art #oc #ask to tag #wewo #ik I'm drawing wewo a lot rn but he's just become my comfort character atm #comfort character that I hurt and project all my hurts to <3 #it hurts so fucking bad when you just want things to be okay for once and want to get a chance to breathe and then it just... ends up worse #a friend told me recently they didn't know whether I forgive people easily or if I'm impossible to get forgiveness from at all #and at this point I don't know either #I'm a puzzle even to myself at times and it's frustrating when at least I should know what's going on in my own head #to quote a great game #now all that remains are our regrets #and I have a lot of them for a lot of things #can never take back what happened but can at least try to look towards the future and make the best of whats to come #if I pretend enough maybe it never even happened and everything would be okay again #could have life back to normal again #it would be easy to just lay down and never have an opinion again and take the fall for everything like I've always done #depression is a vile thing that only ruins everything it touches and I wish I didn't have it

[gregmarriage]

always sunny was actually soooo sick for having dee tell mac that he should get a boyfriend (while glancing at dennis)

then, literally the NEXT season, mac has a boyfriend and it’s DENNIS.

except, it’s dennis posing as someone else, and getting jealous of HIMSELF. truly incredible television fr

#‘i’m just a boy in love. a boy in love with johnny.’ *dennis eye twitch* #trust always sunny to have this kind of batshitness happening on our screens #like okay it seems like they might actually be planning something. they perhaps have a trick up their sleeves #they took forever to have mac come out which makes sense in his character arc and everything #and also are having a big convoluted arc for him even after #so it tracks that maybe they’re doing the same for dennis? #dennis’s whole character is to hide himself #he hides behind make up and he hides his true feelings #he’s been hiding behind johnny #‘i just wanted to get you out the of the house’ sure jan #so why are you disappointing mac with johnny but having him come home to you? #like he’s clearly doing a scheme to make mac rely only on him again #or rather he wants mac back with him #he fucked up by pushing him away and he knows it!!! #dennis’s true feelings are at play here #but with johnny he can say things he’d never say to mac as dennis #rcg realise the macjohnny text chains bc i KNOW that shit is CRAZY #literally how long was he planning on being johnny? was he ever gonna reveal himself or was he eventually gonna have johnny break up #with mac? truly crazy that maybe if mac hadn’t said he was in love with johnny dennis might never have told him the truth #i’m sooo interested in what comes next for them #ESPECIALLY after dtamhd #like they completely ignored that shit after fvr?? will johnny be brought up again in s17?? #my guess is probably yeah bc that seems important imao #i’m scared but excited #rcg i am in your walls #what are you doing?? i need to know!!! #gwen rambles #gwenposting

[urostakako]

its so odd thinking back to my life a few years ago compared to now

#like. my life really sucked. its so weird to think about that. every second before i thought 'its not so bad' even when it was bad #and now i see shit it really was that bad. i really did have a reason to want to kill myself all the time #maybe i dont have to blame myself for the person i was before while i had was dealing with all that stuff. who could act normally in that #kind of situation. of course i did bad shit and feel bad about it but i was a kid. and now im treating her the way that i was always treate #back then. i was in survival mode the entire time and just never realized it #and its so strange to think about how my life sucked and i was scared and alone all the time from the perspective of myself now #im not without support anymore. im not walking on eggshells anymore. im not afraid of violence all the time anymore #i dont believe my family hates me anymore. im not ready to pack up and leave because i think theyd be better off without me anymore #before i got good at anything my hobby was thinking of all the ways i could die and who would care. i spent all my time doing this #my daydreams were only about how people would react if i died. i dont do this that often anymore. close to never. and its so odd to remembe #since i was 6 i used to think this way. and up until a year or two ago i hated every version of myself and blamed them for me #but how was that fair. my life doesnt suck anymore. people i was without came back to me and love me #i see my cousins all the time. when i text them they text back. they ask me if im okay. they know when im not eating even when theyre not #around. i dont walk on eggshells around my mom as much as i used to. her attention isnt as divided as it used to be. #my brother is more of a brother than a stranger or an enemy. the image of him now and our relationship compared to what it used to be is #crazy. i had so much reason to be sad back then. i dont know why im still sad now when i got out of that life. #even now the reasons i have to be sad have dissolved. i used to feel like i was going insane without anyone to say the things i want to to #but i can say them to my cousin now. i have places i belong. its so strange to think about. idk #aricouldyounot

[pepprs]

also the favoritism thing is still making me so fucking mad and insane btw. im not jealous / resentful of my brother bc he deserves her love and is also burdened in his own ways by it and bc i think my drama w my mom has shaped my life in profound ways and given me friends i cherish and i would never trade any of that for the world but jesus fucking christ. why do i have to beg you to interact with me like a mother. why do i have to talk to me at all beyond asking me to do you 847439473 favors a day. why do i have to beg you to take an interest in my life and apologize when you hurt me and be nurturing and perceptive for once in your fucking life. like it hurts to hear her asking him about his classes and whatever bc she didn’t think i was stressed out w school but i had to talk to a ****** hotline last decemver when i couldn’t take it anymore and my mental health was crashing and burning and it doesn’t even fucking matter to her at all and she’s going to get him the nice gifts and throw him the nice parties and whatever because she hates me and my sister for… and let me get this straight… being complicated and anxious and depressed and also girls. lol!

#purrs #delete later #sorry i knowive been insane about momposting but this shit has me screeching like an ape. the way when my brother was born she decided me #and my sister would be okay with each other bc we were twins and meanwhile she was leaving my sister to have anxiety attacks and me to take #care of her and all of this happening at like 7 years old and she would come into my brothers room every single night and kiss him goodnight #and talk to him for a long time and she wouldn’t even come in and say goodnight to us. LOL. ok. like our room being a depression nest is not #an excuse. us not helping out much in the kitchen or around the house (which is bad but also we have reasons for it that i think are valid #and i only do it here and not elsewhere btw.) is not a good excuse. you can’t decide you love your one kid more because he helps out and #keeps his room clean and whatever. maybe he is normal because you made it very clear from the time that he was born that he was your top #priority and you gave him your attention and didn’t take it away meanwhile my sister and i have always had to share bc we’re twins and she #cast us aside when he was born and has fucking tormented both of us for years over who we like what we want where we go all of that shit and #then has the AUDACITY to call herself a good mother. being a good mother is more than feeding your kid and projecting your childhood trauma #onto them by preventing them from ever developing cancer to the point where they’re afraid fo like. go outside. you have to be patient and #nurturing and kind and like.. motherly. ans i know no one can be a perfect mother and she has been hurt so badly and she is dealing with a l #lot right now but COME ON. for gods SAKE. i am right fucking here. why don’t you care about me? why do you make it clearer every day? #ask to tag #like the way she would say when my sister and i were growing up and going through it that she wished she could book a hotel and live there f #far away from us and miss out on us growing up so she wouldn’t have to deal with us being anxious and hormonal because we were teenage girls #LOL. totally did not impact me at all. totally is not a wound that informs every breath i take and every thought i have. not at all #* like maybe he is normal because you uh… idk. just a guess here. actually gave him the motherlove people need to be functioning healthy #human beings? idk. just a silly thought. haha

[apoloniaspiegelgold]

Now that my boss has hired a new PhD student, he literally straight up kicks me out of my office by the end of the month with no warning just so that the new girl can move into my office instead. So now I have to move into an office at the far end of the corridor whose inhabitant was at least asked if he'd be okay to move out of there into an empty office. And I'm just sitting here like ... why? Why not put the new girl into the empty office? What is this insanity?

#i practically live in this office and it's right next to that of my boss who is basically NEVER THERE so WHY #he's literally forcing two people to move out of their offices just so the new girl is right next to his own #our secretary came by today after she got the news to see how much stuff we are going to have to move around the entire institute #and she also said that she doesn't find this okay in any way. i just don't get it. i doubt the new girl is happy about this either like ??? #and he didn‘t even tell me anything about this he literally just put me in cc of an email that was like ‚yeah let‘s just kick her out‘ #the thing that's bugging me the most about this actually is that my office is opposite of one of my favourite people in the whole world #so we always know when the other is there and we can always hear each other coming and always just pop by to say hello #and now i'm supposed to move like a mile away from him and for what? #maybe i'm overreacting i mean it's just an office but it's MY office i've spent thousands of hours in there and he could've at least asked #ramblings

[the-trans-dragon]

Me using humor to disguise the fact that I am telling them how to do it correctly because customers can get so defensive if I point out they don’t know how to use their card’s new tap feature, and I kinda have to say something because they will get frustrated and start jousting at the reader with their card, and we just got new card-readers that actually work and I am not about to let someone break my brand-new easy-to-use card-reader just because they don’t want to admit that they have no idea how it works and need to be helped at least once to figure it out: “It’s more of a sit that a tap, haha.”

#my autism gets overly attached to tools. especially ones that are overlooked or damaged or need maitenece. #I maybe accidentally named one of our broken shopping carts Hamburger (cos hes smashed but he’s still okay-ish) and it’s #still referred to as Hamburger and when it goes missing people say ‘who fucking took hamburger again.’ #one time I found hamburger way in the very back of the warehouse (not with the Too Broken To Use carts; it was just left in the back with #some stuff in it someone forgot to put up) so on my lunch break I went and put up the stuff and then wheeled ol Hamburger all the #way to the back room where I kept it. I did use it! there’s always one or two shopping carts back there for moving product around. I just #had a peculiar one that I befriended and perhaps there was a time when my mental capacity to not quit was indeed held together only by Hamb #Hamburger’s rusty and squashed frame. #ANYWAYS. I love my card readers 🥺 I love the broken ones and the new ones. #the new ones have a very fatal flaw: older cards are a little thicker so they need a tiiiiny extra nudge to fully insert. and oh my god. #I have to walk on eggshells to explain that. because if i don’t explain they will decide to shove the card like they think it’s a carnival #game of ‘how hard can you push this? are you strong enough to win the stuffed cat for your girlfriend?’ #so far it works if I just…very…slowly…hover my hand over to their card…and very lightly nudge it. and then I make SURE to say. #‘I appreciate you being gentle with it #it’s new and actually works really well compared to our old ones and I don’t want someone to break it pushing too hard; so thank you.’ #and I’m so sympathetic to the card reader 😭 like DAMN. I couldn’t read your card either if you slapped it against my eyeball for half a sec #like it needs a moment to scan. like an eyeball. just set it in range and it will beep when it’s finished. it’ll take a full second or maybe #even two or three. but it’s going to take even longer if you start whacking your card on it and then give up and put the chip in and then it #has to show the errror message and then reset and then try to scan the chip and hopefully you found some patience for that otherwise you #took your card out already and are now staring at me like I’m an irresponsible Card Reader Handlef #for not properly training my equipment to work. #sorrrrrry for rambling!!! #sorenhoots #wait this is my post. not sorries.