#monumental loss

[redreadretale]

https://x.com/calltoactivism/status/1691976696834961548?s=46&t=-DJ9mBlTjux8muLEe_ATnQ

See Fiona Apples heartfelt, sincere, beautiful tweet post about her dog& reason she is putting off a tour- she shared about it beautifully.

( I only have the twitter post link where @CallToActivism reposted Fiona’s post- I do not have the original Fiona Apple Link. If you find it- please share.)

Some blessed ones know this kind of deep, long, unique bond you can have with your dog. Life affirming.

Unparalleled.

https://x.com/calltoactivism/status/1691976696834961548?s=46&t=-DJ9mBlTjux8muLEe_ATnQ

#fiona apple #dog loss #dog grief #deep dog pove #best friends #grief support #celebrate dogs #strong love #beautuful life #senior dog #love #not alone #monumental loss #beauty in death

[sincerely-sofie]

Y’all I am the biggest fool you’ve ever seen. When SmackJeeves went under so did nearly all my childhood hero webcomics, and I never once thought about how there’s a bunch of alternative hosting sites that could be turned to or were already in use by their creators. People asking me about making a webcomic of my AU didn’t even put a blip on my radar that maybe the community survived 2020. I assumed in my devastation that all was lost, gone to pixels in the wind, never to return… And yet the community I daydreamed about joining from the ripe old age of 13 survives to this day— unhindered, undaunted— and I am so friggin’ RELIEVED, you have no idea

#The loss of SmackJeeves was a modern day burning of the Library of Alexandria to me #Me: Oh hey I should reread all my old fave webcomics on SmackJeeves! #Me: It’s been forever and I would love to indulge in the inspirational nostalgia :) #(It was January 2021) #People archived 34K of the 36K total comics on there?? #Excuse me for a moment #I’m gonna go relive my childhood years of binging my rotating selection of SmackJeeves faves after school #so relieved to hear of the preservation of this monument of webcomic history #stuff by sofie #pmd comic #pmd webcomic #pmd #pmd1 #pmd2 #pmd rt #PMD eos #pmd gates #pmd gti #psmd

[dallonwrites]

okay actually looked at the lover boy wip intro again and this has me crazy because the grief in this was meant to all be about bobby but "remember that his favourite fruit was peaches and try not to cry over it" got me because felix's favourite fruit being peaches is like. a recent but definitive part of his character. and i can't remember if i just used peaches as a placeholder for bobby's favourite fruit (he does not give peach to me) and if i first wrote this before or after i decided peaches were felix's BUT now i'm like. what if this passage is him grieving bobby but it spirals around his grief for his relationship with felix??? find a lover the way you found felix and don't lose him this time but also find a lover because you're trying to find a connection as deep as the one you had with your best friend even though you know it can never be replicated. you can never find a lover that will love you like bobby (platonic, to be clear) loved you. find a lover in the fact you are alive even though it makes you nauseous because it just reminds you that your best friend isn't. how do you grieve someone who's still alive whilst simultaneously grieve someone who isnt? trying to grieve two people in two different ways and you feel guilty at the way they blend and blur because it feels like you lose your separate grips on both of them and you don't feel like you have space in you to accommodate all this ache. and like what if i edited all this to make that parallel more clear?? that his primary grief is bobby because he's the one who's dead but he's also grieving felix and probably doesn't even realise it?? and then the two become blurred?? and if he realised this he would actually feel fucking awful about it and like a bad friend?? haha just kidding unless??

#especially the fact that a component of his “find a lover to try and mask the grief” is trying to find a lover in the literal sense. #its near 1am you guys are getting the i dont know if this is coherent infodumping #i wrote an essay in the tags but its gone and i have no idea if tumblr ate it or i somehow put it on a different post but im like oh okay #guess i will just save that analysis for the writing update!! #my lover boy writing updates are gonna be so obnoxious btw theyre gonna be essays theyre gonna be me putting the degree to use #now i can say i actually have one #i wrote a DISSERATION on the exact type of fiction that lover boy is....... #anyway it was about queerness and loss and what loss means thematically in queer narratives #so that whilst the loss of bobby is absolutely monumentally bigger than losing felix as a partner #it is actually not a surprise if beau somewhat blurs his grief for the two #that being said whilst i dont believe in ranking different types of love/relationships #i love the idea of platonic lover and this platonic connection being just as if not more powerful than the romantic one #could essay about that but tumblr might eat it! so!

[oatbugs]

if i had an allergic reaction again will my friend appear to hold my hand again if i get really drunk again will they carry me home if i'm too sick to get up will she call me at 5 AM to check up again if we've missed a flight and we're stuck in city we weren't meant to be in at 2AM will he tell me about philosophy again if i make bad decisions will she almost slap me in the face and hand me a cigarette again if i feel lost will she share shitty kebab and tell me about her life again will we get to play poker together again

#will he text me for advice about girls again #will she let me walk her home and tell me about her love life again #will she bleach my hair again will she cut my hair again will he teach me about jets and airplanes and the armories in his school again #will she tell me about the bell jar will she write music about me will they braid my hair in a hot summer again #will he walk next to me and tell me about how he wants to become an art curator? will he almost fall into a canal? #will she tell me to bite on a menthol cigarette again #will i get to see them smile again #i know we grow around memories and you never get over a person you lost really you just grow into and around the space they left behind #but theres just a lot of space #will i ever be big enough for everyone i ever loved #carrying memoried is so insane like what a monumental task #(id rather die than not carry them at all though maybe that's the same thing twice) #welcome to london paddington . etc etc #my friend cooked for me when i was too overtaken by heartache to do it myself. yesterday she put a blanket on me without me asking #if i lose her one day how will i carry that #idk how we are capable of this but our capacity for loss is so insane #anyway #time to stop grieving in advance #bye time to get off the train

[rawliverandgoronspice]

Even 6 years after botw, and 3 months after totk's release, I have to admit: They're good games, though lacking in story, but they're honestly not good "Legend of Zelda games." Totk being less so than botw. It's not about the shrines, puzzles or temples, or lack of them; the games are just kinda missing that LoZ feeling. I think an anon had a good take: LoZ refers to Zelda's story from a historians perspective, but is actually the story of Link and his adventure for us players. Botw is missing that, and in totk that's completely gone, with everything focusing on Zelda.

Hey, thank you!

I think I try to stray away from what makes a good Zelda game (or a Zelda game altogether) because I think that there is nothing more Zelda-core than fighting about what makes the essence of Zelda, and everybody being convinced they're extremely right about it (not excluding myself AT ALL btw, it's just... for some reason it's impossible to talk about Zelda and what you care about in the series without taking it to weird absolutes and being semi-toxic about it, which ??? it's so strange that it's a nearly-universal thing, why is it such a thing) and it's ultimately very personal. Obviously they kind of lost me with TotK in terms of player values, but I completely relate to seeing this thing you love drifting away from you.

I think what I miss the most is the bittersweetness, this idea that for any act of bravery to become a legend, you have to part with something meaningful and let it rest behind. At the heart of every single one of your adventures, there is this sacrifice that you have to make: be it a relationship, a sense of innocence, a person, an entire world... I often hear that Zelda only cares for happy endings, and I don't think it's that true? Like of course things are good by the end, the baddie is dead or sealed away, you are triumphant, the world is no longer in disarray... But there's always a cost.

I think it's really the heart of why I failed to connect with TotK's themes at the end of the day, if I try to de-intellectualize and take it in a more emotional way (and then of course it resonates with all of the reasons why I'm bothered with depicting any kingdom as worth preserving as is, without questioning anything about it)

#asks #thoughts #totk #totk critical #tloz #when will my brain return from the imprisoning war... #thanks for the ask!! #yeah I can think of something we the player personally lose in any other game I've played #but totk it's... yeah... #I suppose the zonais count? #but even their civilization and monuments seem to be staying there when the game end? so it's not even a case of “the past fading away” #which would have been cool and also emotionally compelling #and thematically stronger #like “you have dealt with the past's weird hangups now go and make your own future” #but here it just... freezes everything in time #I suppose Rauru Sonia and Mineru count?? but like you have no relationship with them #it was zelda's loss not the player's #I guess you lose your arm?? but really you're just restoring what was before the game started #and it's portrayed as a good thing too not like parting with a strong newfound part of your identity you will learn to live without

[dougielombax]

They forgor.

*they forgor*

#dougie rambles #personal stuff #my poor attempt at a joke #i forgor #they forgor #what #no context #analog horror #mister manticore #monument mythos #trinity desk project #American anatomy #the house in the ocean #the shoreside mirages #this sounded funnier in my head #shitpost #forgetting #forget #forgot #memory loss #coma

[aisling-saoirse]

Forgotten ceremonial stone landscape, New Jersey

#this is more to document a loss #notice the broken trail tree in the upper center... you can see the bend break #the tribe maintained these when the forest was new from the field and prior to that as well #this is probably a newer knock down #it was a turtle Monument #they look like rocks in the woods to those who dont know the forms

[mymarifae]

prsktwitter is literally a nuclear waste zone rn if you’ve ever lost someone to cancer or if you just have a singular ounce of compassion and know how to think about how your actions affect other people

#people are being ASSHOLES over seeing tweets asking them not to make jokes about an's new card or nagi's death #i'm. trying to be positive and i hope that when most of them see the event themselves they'll realize why people are so hurt by this #and they'll apologize and grow and be more mindful in the future but i also know some people still won't give a shit #and that's very sad. #people ask for respect about a very sensitive topic and get cruelty in response. i just don't understand it. #this event is incredible like literally it's Monumental it's so special it's so well written #and it's being received by a fandom that would rather joke about cancer and a teenager grieving the loss that cancer caused. #awesome. #these are technically leaks but i don't give a shit anymore like if that's what it takes to reduce the jokes #nagi died of a particularly horrifying form of cancer. and i just want people to be kind right now.

[paladinnether]

shoutout to the guy who had the "samoa joe is my tribal chief" sign at collision during the punk/joe match. you know what's up.

#it was very funny #i laughed a bit #even funnier considering they both just got handed monumental losses #aew #aew collision #samoa joe #cm punk

[marstyler42]

A moment dedicated to those souls lost

#legend of zelda #breath of the wild #totk #zelda #loz #loz totk #digital art #idk man something about these monuments scattered around hyrule in memory to this calamity that has permanently changed their lives #really got to me #its such a quiet way to recognize the loss of life #this was supposed to say monument but i misspelled it as moment #but i like moment more actually. #monument is what the textbox in game says though #tears of the kingdom #i think youth by daughter fits this piece very well

[aceghosts]

OCs as a Siken Poem

I was tagged by @voidika, @nightwingshero, and @inafieldofdaisies to take this uquiz for my OCs. Thanks!

Tagging: @sstewyhosseini, @marivenah, @detectivelokis, @baldurrs, @jinfromyarikawa, @nightbloodraelle, @direwombat, @bluemojave, @allthearchetypes, @purplehairsecretlair, @clicheantagonist, @indorilnerevarine, @commander-krios, and anyone else who wants to do this!

Blue Murphy

Saying Your Names

"I came to tell you, we'll swim in the water / we'll swim like something sparkling underneath the waves." this is the poem i send excerpts of to the people i love. when i read this poem it makes me cry because it reminds me of the beautiful things in the world and also the beautiful things of love. bonus poem: Lovesong of the Square Root of Negative One

Commander Rooney Shepard

Straw House Straw Dog

"I don't really blame you for being dead but you can't have your sweater back." this is a poem about grief, a poem about loss. poem that makes you think about how people leave you but you still have everything you've ever known about them and you don't know what to do about that. bonus poem: Still Life with Skulls and Bacon

Hunter Delaney

The Torn Up Road

"I want to tell you this story without having to confess anything." poem about having a hard time, the kind of hard time where you don't want anybody to see you like this, but somebody is seeing you like this. and somebody is doing everything they can to help you but you are reckless and they are young and you both are just trying to get through it one day at a time. bonus poem: Landscape With a Blur of Conquerors

Riley Callahan

Scheherazade

"Tell me about the dream where we pull the bodies out of the lake / and dress them in warm clothes again." poem about the terrible and beautiful intensity of love. makes me feel like i'm sharing a space with a significant other and we have many new and beautiful moments together. and it doesn't fix everything but it makes it easier, bonus poem: Self-Portrait Against Red Wallpaper

#tag meme #Blue Murphy #Commander Rooney Shepard #I won't let fear compromise who I am #Hunter Delaney #Riley Callahan #I'm loosing it over Rooney's and Hunter's results #so much of Rooney's life is defined by loss and grief #they remember so many who longer exist #and sometimes they feel like a monument to all those who have died #especially when it comes to Mindoir #and Hunter is trying to hide how rough everything is #but they're so angry and griefstricken that they can't

[thatweirdtranny]

there’s so much to be said about younger trans and queer folks lacking a large demographic of living breathing queer and trans elders to look up to

it’s an ache

an ache that doesn’t go away because you know the reason we have so few queer elders is because so many died from AIDS, poverty, queerphobic violence, and suicide

every queer elder is so precious to every single one of us

#queer tag #trans tag #queer #trans #queer elders #every other marginalized community pretty much has elders to show that there is a path forward #but most of us queers don’t have access to elders without some major searching #i just want every queer elder to know how precious they are #queer elders are so fucking important #idk i’m just thinking about the fact that i’m 26 and have never had access to queer elders and how that feels like a monumental loss #it feels almost like grief

[bookwyrminspiration]

i do wonder sometimes! i think having so many desi friends here also reminds me of it too because like. idk it feels similar, some people grew up in the mother country, and then sometimes people talk about how they grew up in places where there is an abundance of street food, which is something my dad talked about getting when he was a kid... but like. i can't really fathom what cambodia would be like now without the khmer rouge. like. there's so much history we wouldn't have lost? so much music and so many movies and like all of this art and history and all these statues that were destroyed? it kind of just makes me feel angry when i think about it now lmao because as much as i wish i could be wistful and imagine what it might have been like. i don't even KNOW. and we can't know because of how many records and films and documents were burned to ash by the cpk. that shit was stolen from us and it wasn't from europe or the wider civilized west, but our own people who decided that they were better than everyone else, and now we are a third world country that is basically just a tourist attraction 👍👍👍 it kind of sucks a lot haha. there's a lot my parents lost too since they were really young when they left, so it's just like, even if they met they wouldn't be the same, so i don't know if i would actually be able to go up against the beauty standards and stuff the way i do now. and also i don't even know if i would have met you guys which would be a whole different kind of sucky tbh!!!! net loss!!! even as much as i wish i knew all those languages from a young age i don't know if it would be a good trade. even if i got to grow up with chickens :/

No yeah that makes a lot of sense! It's like...you want certain aspects of both, the now and the what could have been, but some of the way things and who you are now as a person are are only possible because you lost the what could have been. And trying to reconcile the two and imagine what you lost is still present is near impossible, because they fundamentally cannot exist together. But you still want them to? If all that makes sense

And being around people does remind you of it, because you each have different experiences, different pieces of the overall community/identity, and you can see pieces you wish you had but if you did have them. You wouldn't be you. Yeah I wish I grew up with more mexican foods at home and was taught them instead of learning on my own, but that wouldn't be me, because the me I am has learned the language from scratch on my own and found resources and recipes on my own and etc. so like...to want those pieces and the different options is like wanting to be a different person, and do I want to be a different person? very complicated feelings

Then at the end of the day it's like should I even bother thinking about it when there's literally nothing to be done about it, history and my connection to everything is already in place. I can't change what languages and food I grew up with, where I was born and raised, etc.

Because it's a very emotional topic! There's anger, like you mention, but also so much grief and loss...it's quiet overwhelming. And of course the specific histories for each of us is very different, so I in no way mean to speak for or over your own experiences. This is just what you reminded me of based on what you said and my own reflections. I try not to think about it too often because when I do...oh boy is that a nasty hurt on so many levels

#quil's queries #soryasongsaa #long post #less recent than the rouge i sometimes think about. if mexico hadn't been colonized. all the culture and people lost... #but then we get into the like 'you CAN'T' imagine it #because its such a monumental loss that has shaped everything after it #and then you can also get into the conflicted feeling of being descended from both colonizer and colonized. so it's like #dude how am I supposed to feel about that #anyway. very complicated feelings and topics #that I sometimes indulge in to feel alive. you know how it is #I don't know if I've made any sense in this at all

[ahaura]

OH MY GOD SO THOMAS *DID* TECHNICALLY CHOOSE SATAN FOR THE LATTER HALF OF HIS LIFE?

OH MY GOD??????????? OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#inbox #i know they probably had to cut stuff and choose what did and didn't go into the movie but like #we were DEPRIVED of this background and this window into his choices and feelings behind his decision to leave the priesthood! #like they said he lost his faith and implied it had to do w his visions but like he suffered a monumental loss and #in his greatest time of need there was only silence so who did he turn to? the one who heard his prayers #and would lend him aid in his time of need and defeat evil (if only to claim evil as his realm) #and then (even if it is hell. whatever hell actually is.) to say 'come home with me' #also the whole 'heaven is closed to humans but hell is open even on christmas' LIKE #he fell first he hated humans first but in a twisted and ironic way its HIS gates that are open to humans and not heaven's. #also them describing hell not as fire but as being out of god's sight does make me wonder what lucifer's realm ACTUALLY was like then. #INSANE MOVIE IS INSANE. some bangers in the script and some actually good questions it asks #but the padding that would have bulked up the story more and made it more tangible (?) was scraped off which is a shame.

[muscosoviridi]

“Taylor sang Haunted as the first surprise song tonight! 🥰”

#don’t even have tickets #but I’m still mourning this monumental loss #screaming crying throwing myself against a wall #what if that was my last straw #taylor swift #eras tour #taylor swift eras

[sexybabystevie]

ohh starlight is so <333

#idk not like. monumental of a loss BUT shes cute!! #em speaks #taylor swift