I just got an updated tracking status on the delivery of my HRT. It is now out for final delivery and could arrive any day now.
Which means I'm probably going to have to hold off on taking it for a little bit after it arrives so I can donate my sperm to have it banked. Otherwise, I'd start the instant the pills arrive.
Speaking of which, here's the GoFundMe again for funding my initial banking and storage. Because this whole thing just HAD to happen when I'm in a slow job placement process via Vocational Rehab.
I have heard many times that living my life as a trans person; I am asking for it. I am asking to be verbally assaulted in public. I am asking to be physically assaulted in public. I am asking to be murdered. Am I?
Does wearing clothes I feel most comfortable in mean I want to be beat? Does using a name that reflects who I am mean I want to be killed? Am I asking for it? Or am I just alive, living? For what reason should I hide? Why must I hold shame over who I am? Why shouldn't I exist as do others? Why would I hide? I feel no shame in who I am. No regret. No hesitation.
Am I asking for it?
I can tell you what I am asking. Not happiness. Not for your kids to be trans. Not for you to be trans. Not for gender to be eradicated. I love being a man.
I am asking for comfort in a body that has never brought me peace. I want to be able to leave my house on a whim and not need to get dressed first. I want to walk freely without being hunched over. I want to be able to sit without the discomfort. I want to be able to lie on my side without misery. I want to wake up without feeling like peeling my skin off with a vegetable peeler. I want to be able to speak without whispering. I want to be heard. Not your idea of me. Not her. But him. Me. Does my pursuit to comfort condone my mistreatment? My rape? My murder?
I certainly did not ask for this. An instinct as old as time. Oft erased. Ignored. But very real. I am not a parade. I am human.
I am sorry if other's peace brings you such discomfort. I implore you to start living for yourself and stop seeking comfort in the conformity of others or conformity of yourself.
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La sensualità, come l’eleganza, non è da tutti.
Sensuality, like elegance, is not for everyone.
La sensualidad, como la elegancia, no es para todos.
A sensualidade, assim como a elegância, não é para todos.
Senzualitatea, ca și eleganța, nu este pentru toată lumea.
La sensualité, comme l’élégance, n’est pas à la portée de tous.
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Offically got my clinical license today so to celebrate I did my makeup and felt cute. Enjoy the selfies ❤️ #mtf #mtftransition #mtftrans #mtftransgenderwoman #mtftransgender #lgbtq #lgbtqia #lgbtq🌈 #makeup #makeupoftheday #cute #selfie #mentalhealth #lmhc #woman #redhead #redhair #pnw #washingtoncoast #washington (at South Bend, Washington) https://www.instagram.com/p/CmdGOkILWDs/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
Recently started to looking for clothes set I coukd wear outside. Near end of March i have appointment for starting HRT. I want to look as best I can without looking fake af. So when ever possible I try different clothes to find something that will blend in crowd. Also hoping that will stop being that cold outiside till that day.
Turned 30 today can't believe it time flies full of up and downs, many more to come! #transwoman #transgender #transgenderwoman #tgirl #mtf #mtftrans #alternativegirl #altgirl #alternative #goth https://www.instagram.com/p/CdjDRjLI94a/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
Per il nuovo anno vi auguro molto amore, baci, abbracci, sesso, verità, gratitudine, nuove esperienze e rock 'n' roll.
For the New Year I wish you much love, kisses, hugs, sex, truth, gratitude, new experiences and rock 'n' roll.
Para el Año Nuevo os deseo mucho amor, besos, abrazos, sexo, verdad, gratitud, nuevas experiencias y rock 'n' roll.
Para o Ano Novo, desejo a você muito amor, beijos, abraços, sexo, verdade, gratidão, novas experiências e rock 'n' roll.
Pentru Anul Nou vă doresc multă dragoste, sărutări, îmbrățișări, sex, adevăr, recunoștință, experiențe noi și rock 'n' roll.
Pour la nouvelle année, je vous souhaite beaucoup d'amour, de baisers, d'étreintes, de sexe, de vérité, de gratitude, de nouvelles expériences et de rock 'n' roll.
في العام الجديد أتمنى لكم الكثير من الحب والقبلات والعناق والجنس والحقيقة والامتنان والتجارب الجديدة والروك أند رول.