#outsider looking in

[shadow0-1]

Wander the earth

#call of duty #modern warfare #call of duty modern warfare #MWII #CoD MWII #CoD MWIII #MWIII #blender renders #Johnny Mactavish #john soap mactavish #go towards the light/trapped in purgatory and whatnot #outsider looking in #Or waiting for ghost if you will

[bemtevis]

It's past midnight and I'm in my enneagram feels, deal with it.

Outsider Looking In

I have gotten used to getting answers from within

The only place that I'm myself is underneath my skin

I can't help but wonder if there's something I'm missin’

Just an outsider looking in

I have gotten used to only living in my head

The world is overwhelming anyplace outside my bed

Don't wanna come off it then start wishing I was dead

So I close myself off instead

I have gotten used to opening the door with caution

The light is pouring in and it's honestly exhausting

I'm starting to wonder if I should sleep inside a coffin

A small place I can get lost in

I have gotten used to the way the world spins

Wonder if I'm ever gonna stop spinning again

All that I can do is to keep on wonderin’

Just an outsider looking in

#sol rambles #enneagram #type 5 #poetry #do I have a poetry sideblog? yes #did I make the conscious decision to abandon it? no #it was unconscious #but it happened anyway #outsider looking in #don't hold me accountable for this in the morning #ok to rb tho

[the-dragon-girl-27]

It is the middle of a Sunday afternoon. You have nothing on, and aren't expecting visitors, deliveries or post.

Unexpectedly, there is a knock at the door.

you are greeted by...... her

#fairy vs walrus #walrus vs fairy #walrus #why is this so well textured its fucking shitpost art #like why cant i pull this off in my normal art it had to be the walrus fairy #meme art #things that would give people outside of tumblr a heart attack #maybe #has the fairy vs walrus debate breached containment yet #also that generic girl i drew ended up looking a lot like how i look irl (yes i look like an npc) #also that door is unreasonably large but i needed you to be able to see the walrus in all her glory #i wanted it to be bigger so you could see her wings #fairy walrus #dragon draws creatures

[may12324]

this is your reminder to give Shadowheart all the pretty armor

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #shadowheart #bg3 spoilers #baldurs gate #shart #my art #yes astarion looks pretty in it #but SHART #looks so hot #in this armor #it kills me #the armor is elven chainmail and you can find it in myrns corssing outside of baldurs gate #wyms crossing #wYRMS CROSSING #oh my goodness

[mylittleredgirl]

even if you're not a supernatural fan, if you've been on tumblr long enough you are, like, culturally. like cultural christianity in america except it's the cw's supernatural. you may never have watched an episode or set foot inside the tag but your regular life shuts down on their holidays and all of your world news is delivered through that point of view. something to think about

#while i'm making equivalences we could look at the comparable impacts of the bible on the western literary canon and supernatural on ao3 #edited to add: y'all i have never seen supernatural either that's the post #yes my brain has been rotted by this fandom but the call is coming from outside the house #that tumblr lyfe #containment breach #spn

[dragonomatopoeia]

i've died on smaller hills, so i can't judge. but i do think it's funny whenever posts about the proper definition of a poor little meow meow circulate, considering none of them mention that the origin was a kpop fan's absolutely bonkers tweet about not being able to protect a full grown man who was getting backlash for including audio from the jonestown cult leader jim jones in one of his songs

#cults mention #i don't actually expect people to know this the internet is very large and it's hard to trace the origins of things #but this is always a wild one to look at from the outside

[captain-mozzarella]

I headcanon that all of Yoda's finest teacups were made by younglings

In fact most masters of the order's finest teacups were made during crèche crafting time when the kids were learning pottery.

#what im saying is that if one jedi is mad at another #they will serve tea in a normal store bought boring looking teacup and not the wonky colourful child made ones #like they can feel the joy an creativity flow from the cups in the force amd it just makes tea time just so much better #so receiving tea in a store bought cup feels more lifeless (unless its a gift from a friend outside the temple or sth idk) #you know youve made it as a jedi when a youngling gifts you a teacup #yoda has multiple of those vitrine shelves to showcase his gigantic collection #Star Wars #obi wan kenobi #mace windu #shaak ti #plo koon #yoda #jedi council

[d-e-w-p]

Vent

sometimes I want to crawl into a hole, curl up and never come out with how obviously I DO Not Fit. With how blatantly i do not belong and am not wanted.

I have friends. 8 don't know how or why but I do have them. Yet it's not lack of friends that stings but community. Being part of a larger whole. That fucking hurts. Knowing I am outside looking in and will never ever ever be welcome inside the house. I'm a dog in a kennel and I'll never be allowed inside becaue Dogs aren't Allowed Inside.

I'm just. So tired. Of trying to be Acceptable in the eyes of people that just. Do not see it. I'm tired and hurt and stupid for being upset but what the fuck else can I do?

I'm not told to leave. I'm not told to stay. I have no verbal confirmation of what is wanted from me. Of what 8 can and cannot do. I constantly treading on eggshells and feeling so fucking nauseous that one wrong thing will send me out and I won't know why.

I feel. Sick.

What do I have to do to belong there?

#vent #sad hours #social anxiety #Nausea #negative #Stress #Outcast #ostracism #Outsider looking in #emotionally exhausted #I don't think there's anything I can do #pointless rambling #put me out of my misery #Take me out back

[alaiostoudenfan]

Oh god😭😭 laios from other peoples perspective is actually terrifying 

#I love his ENG voice actor so much🤣 #that laugh actually perfect #the shows is so silly u don’t realize how the things theyre doing looks from outsiders #Shuro is actually terrified #kabru is disgusted but intrigued at the same time #This scene was perfect #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #laios touden #anime #kabru #shuro #laios #funny

[punkitt-is-here]

swear to god ever since bethesda started writing fallout games ive been like this

#fallout #not you though new vegas baby you are perfect #also this does not exclude games outside of 1 and 2 but i havent looked much into brotherhood and shit #my posts #shitposts #sorry for the longwinded stupid meme btw U_U

[opportunity-strikes]

Gamers this has been on my mind for a while, and I've been Going Through It so I can't thoughtfully articulate it yet but: the little things can, and absolutely will, save you.

#sara speaks #i am grasping at thin air trying to concisely explain that sometimes looking outside and noticing a common bird flitting around #can absolutely be the difference between getting through the day and not

[veliseraptor]

have realized that while i am not a fan necessarily of "people meet and immediately fall in love" i am a fan of "people meet and are immediately obsessed with each other." the love can come later but the absolute fixation should be immediate

#important text posts #about me #vegaspete and xuexiao in particular come to mind #it's the 'how unhinged does this look from the outside' question maybe #if it just looks like two people hitting it off and being cute together right away then eh not my thing #if it looks like two people who have suddenly zeroed in on each other in a way that makes others go 'oh that doesn't seem good' #i'm there baby

[chloesimaginationthings]

Michael has a hard time retelling FNAF sister location

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #michael afton #fnaf vanessa #vanessa afton #vanessa shelly #ennard #fnaf #fnaf movie #sister location #fnaf fanart #five nights at freddy's #You guys ever think about how popular Michael was #like in the mini game cut scene his whole street was outside waving at him #the dude was popular and well liked #I wonder if he misses that at all #that whole scene is still one of my faves fr fr #Ennard Michael is so cool and freaky I’m glad Ive designed a look for em #he got his life together since his bully teen years #Michael actually doing some mini therapy with Vanessa good on him

[im-still-watching-anime]

apollo’s confidence in court: oh my god i’m the worst lawyer ever my client is going to go to JAIL because i can’t even do my JOB

apollo’s confidence outside of court: i’m the only smart one here, i’m the most normal guy in the world and NO ONE is doing it like i am, investigations are EASY, klavier gavin wants me carnally

#ace attorney #apollo justice #klavier gavin #klapollo #ace attorney incorrect quotes #the last one isn’t even his confidence tbh it’s just a fact #he says it like he doesn’t ALSO want klavier gavin carnally though which he does #alternatively: #apollo at klavier in court: *sweats* he’s so hot and competent #apollo at klavier outside of court: um…hello….you are kind of really nice🥺👉👈 #disgusting #im obsessed with them #preordered the new trilogy of three games i already own today😌 #$60 of my very hard earned money right into that #and i cant even regret it im SO excited #all the extrassssss #PLEASE go look at the aa twitter account to see the art extras btw #they’re SO fun #apollo justice trilogy really being about 75% of my will to live rn

[thehmn]

Are you a “I miss being a child with no responsibilities” person or a “Thank god I’m no longer a child with zero freedom” person?

#I’m personally the second #I walk by a kindergarten every day #and there’s always a kid clinging to the fence #looking longingly at the outside world #always gives me flashbacks #don’t worry buddy #you’ll get out someday

[why-is-it-always-autumn]

Love a self-inflicted time loop. The main character isn’t trapped.  They can stop whenever they want.  But how can they when things aren’t perfect yet?  They can do better than this.  They need to try again.  They can get it right this time.  They just need to try again.  They can stop anytime they want.  Just one more time.  They can fix this. They just need to try again.  There are still things to fix.  They just need to try again.

#time travel #its about the tunnel vision #its about losing sight of what a win condition even looks like #its about writing off the entire timeline at the slightest inconvenience #its about increasing alienation #its about failing to notice that youre destroying yourself and in some cases making things worse #its about the atrophy of your own problem solving skills #its about treating your friends like unskippable cutscenes #its about gradually forgetting everything outside the loop #its about the fact that you arent even really trapped #its about making the same choice over and over again #its about falling hard into the sunk cost fallacy