#reality change is vry cool to me

[warmau]

Wow I really really admire your writing and always look forward for your new AU ideas and I especially enjoyed the two enemies to lovers aus you wrote recently, so I wanted to ask you if you might write one for nct's mark? (I feel vry awkward to ask u bc I've never ever asked for an AU, so this is a first I guess? + you don't have to write it if you don't have enough time or inspiration!!!!) 💕

thank you so much! writing this was a challenge because mark is just so,,,nice,,,but here’s my take on enemies-to-lovers!markothers: ten | johnny | haechan 

you don’t mean to brag,,,,but you’re the laser tag champ of your town,,,,,,

like it’s kind of your thing, you’re good at it and ever since you played it for the first time with friends at someones birthday party you,,,,have held the fastest time for the most outs 

even the people that work at the place know you,,,,your names on a board somewhere in the building

and ok,,maybe laser tag isn’t anything to put on a resume or whatever - but it’s pretty cool,,,,and people always get excited when you play because you’re just real good 

,,,,,except all that small town fame washes off when you’re invited to go play and you see a new face - mark lee

he’s sweet, with a enjoyable disposition and a cheerful laugh

people like him instantly and you do too,,,you even agree when someone says he’s pretty cute

but then - the game starts and it takes you longer to blink then to hear the sensor go off and there is a ray of red light aimed at the middle of your vest

the machine overhead calls out your name and says you’re out

and you stare in wonder, and then plain anger when you see mark’s happy smile

“sorry!” he laughs lightheartedly, and disappears around one of the corners

the mist and darkness of the maze you’re in clouds around you so no one can see your blush of embarrassment as you head back toward the exit

the manager at the desk looks at you and shock settles on their face “out so fast? but you’re our record holder?”

you grumble something, sitting down with the laser gun in your hands and thinking to yourself that it’s fine,,,,you’ll get him in the next round - you’ll get mark lee back

but,,,,,,,you don’t

no matter how many games you play, you always get taken out - and not by anyone else but him

even when you’re coming up, getting your fifth out in a row, you hear your vest let out a noise and that beam of red is back on you

mark, laughing again, as he chases after whoever remains

and when it’s jut the two of you, the rest of your teammates and friends waiting excitedly to see who wins it - you tell yourself to focus, this time you’ll -

and you’re out. mark wins.

on the trip back, everyone buzzes around him and you’re left to watch the manager change your name on the board to his,,,

“he broke your record!”

“looks like we have a laser tag king, and his names mark lee!”

it’s all childish,,,and nothing to get upset over,,,but when you think about it all you can see is mark - laughing 

you clench your teeth, and mark suddenly comes over - shy and adorable

“i heard you had the record before, it was super fun to play against you maybe we can do it again -?”

he smiles, so innocently, but you just huff 

“you bet we’ll play again, actually let’s do it next week. same time?”

mark seems taken back,,,,but grins at your passion (which for some reason,,,just makes you more mad)

“sure!! see you then!!”

the whole week your friends say they’re looking forward to you and mark’s game,,,,,like it’s the superbowl or something

but everytime you see mark, he doesn’t seem the least concerned about it

he strolls alongside jisung and renjun, laughing easily and talking about this and that

he catches your eye once, a pink dust settles over his cheeks a little as jisung elbows him in the ribs

you don’t get why he’s acting like that, you just furrow your brows and tell him to not forget your competition

the day of, you and mark along with your groups of friends take the train over to the laser tag place

the manager is shocked to see you back so soon, but you’re unshaken and ,,,,gosh you’re really taking this too seriously,,,,but hey ,,,, you’re allowed to,,,,,???

mark on the other hand, puts the vest on and holds the laser gun almost haphazzardly

he pushes renjun’s shoulder playfully when his friend whispers something and points your way and you feel yourself jerk a bit

they’re probably making fun of me,,,,

(the reality is renjun asked mark if he thinks you look cute all determined like that LOL)

and when the game starts,,, it’s just you and mark and you sneak carefully around the corners and in the mist

you try to listen for his footsteps, but it’s silence

until

“you can win this if you want, i just,,,,don’t want you to hate me.”

you turn on your heel, laser gun pointed to where mark is standing and motioning to his vest

“here, just get me out.”

you put the laser gun down and huff “im not going to cheat, let’s play this fairly - or do you underestimate me?”

“no, i don’t,,,but it feels like you’re angry at me for winning so -id rather you win this and not be anymore.”

“huh, why do you care if im angry?”

suddenly the speaker above head statics to life and you hear the voice of jisung

“mark, just tell them you like them!”

you hear a chorus of laughter, then chenle takes the mic

“yeah mark, it’s dark in there and it’s you two so don’t get any ideas - unless oh my gosh what if they’re already -”

the mic gets passed between a couple of people till the manager snatches it away and mumbles that kids are way too much

your wide eyes drop to meet marks and he scratches his neck nervously

“i,,,they,,,,they’re just,,,being du-dumb but -”

“you like me???”

he jumps a little, but he doesn’t deny it,,,,,,

at some point you know you’re going to have to get out of here so you point your laser gun at mark and tell him to do the same

at the same time, you let the beams go off and the speaker announces a tie

coming out of the maze, everyone jumps at you with questions but you and mark are bright, cherry red

and when’s all and said done you guys hang back from the chattering group and mark gently, but nervously takes a hold of your hand

“next time, let’s just go somewhere but just,,,, you and me?”

he asks, eyes flickering to yours 

you grin “ok,,,,,,,but not laser tag because - one day i will beat you at it. but not on our first date!”

the word date makes mark flush again,,,,but it’s cute and you grip his hand a little tighter 

#nct scenarios #nct 127 scenarios #nct dream scenarios #nct u scenarios #mark lee scenarios #mark lee imagines #mark lee au #nct mark scenarios #nct mark imagines #nct imagines #nct 127 imagines #nct dream imagines #nct au #nct #mark lee #mark scenarios #mark imagines #sfw

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Behind The Scenes 4 (7/?)

Author’s note: I last minute changed a part of this scene so i am not use how much i like it or how it is going to effect everything. (technically i took a detail out so yeah i don’t want this to change things too much)

*The part i took out was because the topic was a trigger to me, so i only scratched the surface the whole thing. You still get the main idea, i just imply more that what is written. I am sorry about that*

Genre: fluff? (but with suga)

Word Count: 1793

Summary: Suga and y/n bring up kinda bring up somme deep stuff.

ALL PARTS

( i am debating making a new gif for this part. I still don’t know how far i will go with the story but this gif is like a bit over a year old haha)

You heard a loud thud right next to you. You opened your eyes and searched of the source of the sound.

“Aish.” He grunted. Immediatley you recognized who it was

Your eyes adjusted to the dark room and you saw the silhouette in the fetal position grabbing his knee.

“Yoongi are you okay?” you whispered

“Yeah” he groaned as he crawled up to you. “Scoot over and don’t hog the blanket this time.”

You moved to the wall, giving him enough space to join you

When he situated himself next to you, he fixed the blanket over the two of you. His hand went to your wait and you scooted closer to him.

You could sensed his body heat and already felt so much warmer. You could smell his faded cologne, happy that you weren’t getting any hints of beer on him

“Hi.” He said with a bit of frustration in his voice

Things had changed over the past week and a half. V went back to his room, jimin fnially able to sleep in his own bed again. Jin’s resentment towards you had come down a tiny bit and he only stuck to the enraged stare if you ever encountered each other in the living room on those late nights watching tv with v. Suga and Jhope were actually trying to cut down again. You could see it. They were still struggling but they were trying harder than they were the first time. Jungkook… There was more space between you and Jungkook. According to V, Jungkook felt you wee a bit mad at him over the argument with your dad. V said that he therefore advised Jungkook to give you some space (because he remembered how annoyed you were about Jungoook and Suga). Jimin however denied this. Jimin pointed out that Jungkook never listens to anyone so he wouldn’t listen to V’s advice. Jimin said that Jungkook was just going to the gym more because he wanted to make sure he looked good for the comeback. You weren’t too sure which was the real reason and you didn’t really care. You liked that he wasn’t around because it made everything easier with Suga. Suga was the one sneaking into your room every so often so you coud talk some more(*cough* make out a bit *cough*). Tonight was probably his third night coming over to be with you.

“Hello Mr. Grumpy.”

“I am sleep deprived, hungry, physically drained, going through withdraws, stressed, and I just tripped and hurt my knee do you really blame me for being grumpy?” he said with a tired smile “I want to get drunk so bad!” he whined. “ Remind me why I am not blacked out right now.”

“Because you claim to love me.”

“Oh yeah.” he remembered, as he leaned in for a kiss.

You let him kiss you, unable to deny his lips. But you left it at just one to let him know you were trying to be serious about not wanting him to drink.

“If you are so tired, why are you in here again?”

He gasped at you. “Again? You think I am in here too much? you don’t want me here or what?”

You laughed and slapped his arm. “You know what I mean.”

He shrugged. “I can’t sleep. You know how it is.

“You have really deep bags under your eyes from not sleeping. I am sure the stylists are mad at you. Have you tried sleeping medicine? Being sleepy isn’t gonna help with your writing either. Hobi told me that Namjoon was on your ass the other day and had a melt down at the studio.

His eyes shifted a bit. You could feel his body get tense. “Last thing in need to to get myself fixed on pills like Hobi.” He mumbled. “I just got a lot on my mind and getting drunk is the only thing that would help.” there he was bringing up the beer again. He had done well with going cold turkey so far, but by the way he was whining, things were getting harder without it.

“What do you keep thinking about?”

He rolled onto his back, putting space between the two of you. “Nothing.”

“It doesn’t seem like that. Is it the deadline? The solo?”

“No”

“Is it jin? You all have been good in keeping him away. My bruises are gone now. I am fine… except for my pa- Is that what is getting to you?" Lately that is where your mind always went. Being alone in the room, all you would do was think oof your parents. Thankfully the guys were aware and they would try to cheer you up, this being now of the reasons suga snuck in. He never said it, but you knew he went back to this tactic of sneaking into your room and coming into your bed as a way of keeping your mind off your parents. But maybe this was putting alot of stress on him, maybe you were the reason he was feeling this way.

“No!” He rolled back on his side and pulled you into  hug. “you aren’t stressing me out. Don’t think that way.”

Still, just bringing them up made you sad again and you coudn;t help but start crying.

“Hey don’t cry. It’s alright.”

“I just miss them.” you whimpered.

“I know I know. But remember what we said the other night. We know that they still love you, they are just upset because that dickhead down the hall lied. And we agreed that was for the best! It means that they aren’t going to be on his radar anymore ad they are going to be safe.”

“…Yeah”

He wiped away the tears that trickled down the side of your face. “ What’s bothering me is nothing, don’t worry about it ok.”

A very stubborn you shook your head at him. You weren’t going to let yourself get distracted with your own problem “No. I know you want to talk about it. Don’t feel like you cant tell me anything anymore! I can take it. I am here for you. Tell me. Talking about it might help you sleep. It might keep you from wanting to drink. Tell me.”

You could make out his features from the light coming in between the curtain. You could see the creases on his forehead, the uneasy look in his eye as he looked at you, his quivering lip. He was conflicted. He opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out.

“Yoongi, tell me.”

“…It’s Aiko.” He said to so softly you could barey hear him despite how close he was to you

Hearing her name broght back a waved of memories and emotion. You let out a deep breath “Oh… ok” you said as you tried to hold back that tears that were forming in your eyes again

“I can’t get her out of my head.” he sniffled. “I can’t stop thinking about how her family is feeling right now. I can’t stop thinking of what things would be like if I just did one thing different. I can’t get your words out of my head. You were right, she trusted me! I hurt her when all she did was want to do something for me! And- And the little sleep I get, she is in my dreams! And- she- she talks to me and-“ that’s when he broke.

He shoved his head in to the pillow. He was crying so hard, although muffled, his sobs filled the room.

“What’s going on?” Jimin’s sleepy voice asked.

You saw jimin sit up from the bed

That’s when Suga tried to stop crying.

“Yoongi?” Jimin turned on his lamp. “Yoongi are you crying?”

“It’s nothing Jimin.” You told “Can you just give us a few minutes.”

“…Yeah… I- I have to go to the bathroom anyway…” Jimin said as he slowly got off the bed. His confused eyes were glued on suga as he left the room. “Are you sure everything gis ok?”

“Yeah we are only talking

-

JK POV

Blood. Fire. Guns. The nightmares wouldn’t stop. How could he sleep with dead eyes staring back at him.

Jungkook stood up from his bed in a cold sweat. He looked at his phone, 2:17am. There was only five hours left before he was supposed to wake up.

He took off his shirt, just a way to try and cool down. His fingers ran through his damp hair in an attempt to calm himself down and remind himself that everything was a dream. (of course it didn’t help since he knew that although, yes it was a nightmare, it was still a reality that he was causing)

“Water. I need water...”

His sore legs moved moved him out of the room and down the hall. In the dark hallway, the light coming from under the bathroom was enough to light the way to the kitchen. He didn’t care who was up, his mission was to go quench his thrist

In the kitchen he dug himself into the fridge in search of a bottle of  water. Once he did, he chugged it sown in a good 10 seconds

It was when he hunched over to catch his breath, the idea came to him to go to y/n’s room. A week had been long enough to give her some space. Things were probably better now.

He was a bit more awake as he waddled down the hall. He reached for the door knob when suddenly it moved. In a panic, he jumped back and shuffled in the direction of the kitchen.

“What are you doing?” Jungkook heard a voice ask him just as he was a few feet from the kitchen

He stopped, it was time to be cool. He “yawned” as he turned around to the source of the question. “What?” he grumbled, scratching a fake itch on his chest.

“What are you doing?” suga asked more harshly

“I thought I lived in south korea, when was it illegal for me to get some water.”

Suga scoffed at him

“But I think I should be the one asking you that. Why are you coming out of y/n’s room?”

“That’s none of your business.”

“I said it before, if it involves y/n, it is my business.”

Suga walked up to him, stucking his jaw out all smug like. “So just becuase you are her fake boyfriend you think you can starting interrogating me as if are her real one? I think you are forgetting who it the hyung here, let alone your actually relationship to y/n.”

Jungkook looked right into Suga’s bloodshot eyes. “Just because you are older doesn’t make you any better than me or any better for y/n. Leave her alone and let her sleep instead of bothering her with your drunk ranting.”

“I’m not bothering her if she wants me in there. Not like you would know, she doesn’t even look in your direction.” Suga said as he walked off to his room

#bts #kpop scenarios #kpop rections #kpop texts #bts scenarios #bts reactions #bangtan boys #beyond the scenes #rm #rap monster #suga #jhope #jimin #jin #jungkook #v #namjoon #hosoek #taehyung #yoongi #fluff #angst #kpop fluff #kpop angst #bts fluff #bts angst #fanfic #kpop fanfic #bts fanfic

[moshfeghpilled]

Poet ask meme: answer them all? Pretty please?

sorry for being so late with this it just kinda surprised me someone would care enough to want this but i’m happy 2 answer (all the one’s i skipped were already answered)!!

a. what other poets style do you emulate the most?

probably some mixture of rupi kaur and a-lan holt, they’re both really awesome women of color poets who do a lot of really cool stuff with rhythm and very specific poems that are so personal they’re pretty much just stories, and i like that style. also @jupiterreed, @wildfairy, and @nobodysflower, they’re all really amazing poets who i discovered within the past two years who definitely changed my writing a lot. i could write essays abt the depth of their writing honestly but mostly i rlly like the way they talk abt girlhood in their writing, that’s something i always come back to. 

d. do you have your poetry organized or are you more likely to write half a stanza on a one dollar bill and then spend it by accident?

organized. i have a fear of forgetting stuff i think of and thereby becoming a shitty writer so i’m really meticulous abt that.

e. bird imagery or ocean imagery?

ocean imagery. i like large scenes i can pick apart.

f. what was the last poem that you loved?

this poem, by @goodnightsorry. it’s really simple but idk man i feel it vry heavily

i. who do you write for?

the aliens so that they’ll come nd take me away before that volcano in yosemite explodes

j. what is the worst thing about your writing? what is the best?

i feel like i compensate for lacking skills of clear articulation by using a lot of rlly drawn out imagery and wording and run on sentences describing in even further detail something that in reality i don’t fully understand. but at the same time that’s kinda cool? i mean it’s honest u kno. 

l. how much do you edit a piece before you consider it complete?

until i read it and feel it i guess. i try to imagine im someone who has not experienced the things im talking abt in the poem? and if i still feel something then i consider it done. 

p. soft or harsh?

soft, but made soft by harshness. in a seaglass kinda way.

q. safety or happiness?

happiness can’t be achieved w/o safety for me. 

v. slow or frantic?

frantic. it’s easier for me to write frantically cause my anxiety can just take the wheel for a little and wear itself out. 

x. who, if anyone, do you send your new poems to?

no one at all, the only people who know i write in real life are my parents and a few of my friends but i don’t send them anything really. it’s just kinda my personal thing. 

z. write a couplet (a short poem with just two lines) about pulse points

your tangled veins taste carbon on their tongues

and drag their sleep blue legs finding your lungs

#really crazy someone wanted me to answer all this but it's also vry nice :.) #asks #anonymous