#so do you see the dilemma here

[dinitride-art]

everyday I wish there were more stories about trans people that I could hold and cherish in book/graphic novel form. pls. I want to see trans ppl in space. and as superheroes where the story is about them 100%. and like slice of life gardening. and high fantasy. and historical fiction but like we get to be happy. and I want trans people who have magical powers and the stories about gender fuckery and saving the world. and maybe I want to write these stories too but I can’t be blamed for wanting to curl up with a good book with trans main characters written by trans ppl for me (… and everyone else too. I’m just feeling very miette about this right now) and have a fun and funky journey with a story.

#and by fantasy and high fantasy I mean I want trans people as actual characters #like the metaphors are cool too #but I want to see trans people in the actual story sometimes- most times #THIS IS ALSO A DESPERATE PLEA FOR RECOMMENDATIONS #I know there’s gotta be stories out there somewhere #I just don’t have the energy to search for them #I swear they’d cure my mental illness tho #said mental illness is greatly affecting my ability to search #so do you see the dilemma here #anyways I just know that I’ve got a ton of books with gay people in them #but I think I’ve only got one…. actually I don’t know if I own that book #…I don’t #this is devastating #oh thank fuck I own physical copies of heart stopper #got scared I didn’t have any for a second there #my point still stands tho #I want main characters #and I want them to have a wide variety of stories #thank you for coming to my ted talk

[incorrect-mighty-nein]

Essek: my primary motivators are fear, spite, and aesthetic longing

#I couldn’t decide if I wanted this to be a Caleb Molly or Essek quote #so here we are #the mighty nein #critical role #incorrect quotes #actually beau and jester would work here as well #do you see my dilemma #essek thelyss #the mighty queue

[eternal-reverie]

got the posting anxiety bad tonight

#click clack #ok a peak into my thought process and anxiety here we go #ok so the art is almost done and up to standard I would post onto my art blog #BUT for some reason the thought of posting art of my ocs there scares me #because even tho it’s my art blog in my mind it’s the equivalent to a art gallery that demands being detached????? from the art #like once I share it there it’s no longer ‘mine’ but to the public #and my ocs (plus the stories that go with them) are like the closest to my heart and relinquishing them feels like a lot #a part of my imagination that I spent so much time with developing over the years to be placed up for judgement… #so then the solution could be to put it here on my personal! the online space cozy enough and filled with other posts that could easily bury #the original posts I put here #but there goes my other dilemma. i don’t want them too associated with my personal for if one day i do muster up something for publication #my big fear is that ppl will find this space and go thru everything. the fear of being perceived and judged 😵‍💫 #all the hypotheticals and anxiety for something that may not even happen #dumb mind problems my head made up 🙄 #anyway writing it out helped lol I’m posting it to my art blog I decided 👍 #I have to work on getting that blog to be comfortable space to post… i should lower that silly self imposed standard I set for myself #and be whatever about ppl being aware of my online presences #maybe… [grinding my teeth] I should post my messy sketches onto my art blog… #I should take my friends suggestion and make a website to feature my ocs…🤔 #idk my only other solution that doesn’t feel viable to mitigate the anxiety is to slowly introduce my ocs in the background of setting art #just a slow drip until they are in the forefront #bleghhh whatever much ado about nothing it’s like I never posted my ocs ever when I have indeed posted them before on both places ( º＿º ) #I’m realizing it happens too when I post too much fanart in a row… I have curator disease??? 🫨 #or something I used to be very particular about what order I reblog stuff like it used to be by color and content balanced out #I still do to a lesser degree… but it used to be pretty bad #post order compulsion???? #the fear of being abrupt and incohesive in between posts… #if you read this far thanks you can now see how much this consumes me 🙃

[ozcarma]

Does anyone else feel like the incinerator gun chair room from Zero Time Dilemma would have better fit C Team instead of D Team

#elaboration in the tags #zero time dilemma #zero escape #ztd #I think of this every time I watch a playthrough and get to that room #carlos ztd #akane kurashiki #junpei tenmyouji #c team #like just about any combination fits with the potential character growth both Akane and Junpei would have from it #I understand the main character is Carlos so if we were to keep it as him making the decision then I would have Akane in the incinerator #and Junpei in the chair #but if we’re going to throw ‘main character chooses’ then you could truly have either Akane or Junpei at the gun with Carlos in the chair #I say all this cuz there’s the obvious Akane incinerator parallels and I imagine it could trigger a breakdown for her #if Junpei is behind the gun would she beg Junpei to shoot Carlos to save her? #would Junpei see that Akane sees other players as pawns to save her own life? and if she doesn’t beg does it help Junpei #see the humanity in her? where he previously thought she was uncaring but here she clearly is to save Carlos at the cost of her own life #but my fave configuration is Junpei in the incinerator and Akane at the gun #it helps them see from each other’s point of view. how scared would Junpei be being in the incinerator and there’s nothing he can do #but rely on someone else? Junpei in characterized as pretty selfish in ZTD so this experience could have him empathize with Akane’s #‘selfishness’ in the previous games. realizing you’d do it too if your life was on the line #and Akane can see just how difficult it is being the one to directly have a hand in how people die or at least see their bodies. #and is it worth it to just save one person? #yes Akane’s games have a way for everyone to survive and win at the end. but in the moment the players don’t know that. #I think that configuration would do SO much for akane and Junpei to better empathize with one another during ZTD #this could’ve been a whole post but I wasn’t confident enough in my coherence to properly format it. so tags you get

[bladesmitten]

god i wanna play wyll origin so bad but i want him to be lv 12 already in act 1

#.txt #bro... i wanna multiclass him to paladin so bad... i miss my buddy ol' pal Divine Smite #there's also the dilemma of wanting to play as wyll but ALSO wanting to romance wyll. do you see my problem here #im also feeling burned out with the game ngl. i played 300 hrs in 2 months. havent even finished the actual ending i want for ajax #ill probably wait for a little while maybe play da2 for a bit then come back #or write the fics i wanna write while im still brainrotted. who knows!

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

dear employers,

if you're running a meet and greet/information day event, and doing interviews on the spot, there..... when you have an EOI form for it, it should just be "i'm interested in attending this event, thanks". I should NOT have to have to upload a whole ass resume and cover letter.. and then answer bs questions like "this position is very KPI driven. please tell us your past experience of achieving kpis" and "what's your perfect workplace like?" for fucks sake. if we're meeting at an event, in person, have a look at my resume and cover letter there instead. I shouldn't have to express interest for the event with my resume.

thanks.

#life #about me #shut up ilona #ilona's work thoughts #ilona's work dilemmas #ilona's jobhunting thoughts and woes lol #but seriously though #i did the last night for a local job provider who's running a meet and greet/information day event next week #so then you can find out more about how being a job coach and their other positions are #for the love of god. imo. the form i filled in shouldve just been 'yes i am interested see you next week' #not 'heres my resume 'letter to hiring manager' 5 questions about customer service etc #fuck sake. im waiting to see if they even let me go to this event or the reject me like they did last year #when i applied to be a job coach #fucking stupid #take my resume and cover letter in person and DO NOT make me upload for a meet and greet/information day event

[rosicheeks]

😬

#I forgot I’m out of soap at the cat sitting place so I need to run to the store #realized the one closest to me isn’t 24 hours #but it JUST opened at 5 #when is a reasonable and acceptable time to go in #just kinda awkwardly sitting here #I mean I know I know I can go in right at 5 #but #snnxksnskdnkdnskdb #my anxiety is like #????????? #but i feel bad for the workers knowing they just started their shift #and I don’t wanna be their first customer lol #buuuuuut they might have donuts out #sooooooooooo #do you guys see my dilemma #shut up rosie

[youngestdaughtersyndrome]

its so funny to me when people ask me what i wanna do because i go Oh i dont really know. and theyre like Well what are you good at and i say Anything that i try to be good at (true) and they say Well what do you enjoy and i say Anything that im good at (true)

#so you see my dilemma here. idk wtf to do w college but my first 2 years r free so im just gonna get like my core prerequisites done and #also figure out what i want to do so i can like transfer somewhere and do it but i NEED TO FIGURE IT OUT #hollyws

[glitteratti]

eternally overwhelmed by the. consequences implications ramifications etc

#.txt #none of these r the world for what i am paralyzed by atm. on vacay last night here all i want is plain pasta i could buy some at the store #but the portions are too big and i dont want to bring PASTA home so i would be wasting some pasta but also if i go out to a restaurant i’ll #spend MORE money because the upcharging. when i could just get a box of dry pasta at the store for cheap. but then i will waste the pasta i #dont finish before leaving tomorrow. do you see my dilemma.

[servospawn]

I miss zero and Matty

i do too, friend.

i actually tried working on Zero the last couple of days but he looks fucking garbage & i can't bring myself to accept this.

#im so used to have my ocs look in sl that anything less than is unacceptable #zero looks like his daddy in sl #and his daddy looks like god in sl #so you see my dilemma here #until i have something im happy with they don't exist #i'm sorry to do you this way

[bronzepatriarchy]

Oh yeah, it's all coming together

#ramblings of a crackhead #lncgtv #guided hands au #luz noceda's comprehensive guide to vigilantism #I'm procrastinating again #Soooo I'm learning obsidian but it's so confusing ngl #Also yes #I *AM* teasing a few upcoming projects #I have IDEAS man #But I can't post them until I do some more reveals in LNCGTV... #Which I'm procrastinating #You see my dilemma here right?

[s-lay-ing]

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#so uh #when *that* event happened last week i felt strange #sad obviously but you see. i was more of a casual 4stro fan than a proper roha #but still idk. this kind of hit a nerve???? #like the whole thing made me very emotional that day. as you do #add to that the countless interactions between him and boo. meaning he in particular used to rotate around often in my radar #as in I'd hear more about him so i guess that's why his passing affected me more than it should've #but anyway. my point here is #i was never really a super fan. but on that day i kind of wrote a song late at night #which was somewhat directed at him? or inspired by him? not really sure #and i heard there's an ar0ha who volunteered to print letters to bring to fantagio's memorial #and idk... maybe i should send it? #i mean what else am i going to do with that song? words. lyrics. poetry #whatever #so idk... should i? #my dilemma is that i feel it's not my place to do it since i wasn't a proper fan #but again. the way i see it those words will sat in a draft with no proper use in the future so... #rambless #will delete this later

[peeta-pocket]

Rainier was out and gorgeous earlier today, and I thought of you. I tried to capture it, but the pic absolutely doesn’t do it justice.

Hi darling!💚

Ugh, yes, gorgeous indeed!! Such a perfect day to actually see Rainier and all of its beauty. Thank you for sharing and thinking of me!! :))))

#just two ladies admiring an active volcano :))) #daydreamsandcaffeine #⚠️ lovely human alert ⚠️ #PNW feels #I swear every single time I get pissed at how expensive it is to live here I look outside and get more angry because the nature surrounding #us is so beautiful but housing and gas and food and e v e r y t h i n g is so expensive but as a nature lover IT'S SO PRETTY UGH #DO YOU SEE MY DILEMMA #ask #⤹⋆⸙͎۪۫｡˚۰˚☽˚just PNW things⁀➷｡˚⸙͎۪۫⋆ ༄

[cursedbcrn]

the urge to dump most of my drafts and start anew while also knowing i do not have the brain power to plot things out rn

#[ ooc. ] #do you see my dilemma here? #i just want to cry about hope #without stringing multiple words together #the world is so hard

[devotedlystrangewizard]

ok so we have 2 ps5s. because i kept hogging it when my stepmom wanted to play she just bought another one. the one for the kids was eventually moved upstairs, into the room that is now my room. it was in my room for a while. i could safely hide out in my room and do the weirdest shit in bg3 and no one would know unless they deliberately look at my trophy list.

they recently moved the kids ps5 downstairs to the main tv in the living room.

#ramblings #having mindboggling alien sex or not being scared my parents will walk in on me having mindboggling alien sex #personal #im sorry for being an emperor girlie i will not stop i cant its just such an entertaining character #i dont have to fuck the mindflayer #like im almost 20 i dont really care if they catch me doing 18+ shit in games. its whatever yk #kinda weird but im legally an adult #but with the mindflayer... #my parents after 5 years finally finding out why i went to see venom twice when it was in the movie theatres godbless #im rambling for the sake of working through my dilemma #its so funny how most people point at the mind blown achievement as a 'everyone knows what you did now' thing #when for me im just glad it doesnt show how many times you got the same achievement. sorry #once is for the achievement. five times- #anyway my parents are in bed and my stepsiblings arent here so its fine this is fine #after that ill beat the game with good el #ive been meaning to try evil el destroy ending for the bhaalpossessed durge epilogue but for now i just really want him happy

[ervotica]

please don’t go, i love you so

pairing: young!coriolanus snow x reader

warnings: a lil toxic!coriolanus, he’s rough with r, possessive talk, quite tame in this but imma tamp it up soon, a bit of making out and being lovey

note: i do not careee about who likes this character or who doesn’t okay i am writing about him because he is literally one of the hottest men i’ve ever seen, kay? i’m not here for moral dilemmas thank u, enjoy (yes i will follow up w smut and my young!coriolanus snow reqs are OPEN!) please please remember to comment and rb, it helps me so much!

hunger games masterlist

Coriolanus is possessive.

It sickens him to his very core, sends nausea rolling like a wave through his chest; he’s not a child. Yet, the mere sight - thought - of you engaging with any other man, even innocently, is enough to have him seeing red: white-knuckled, muscles drawn taut like a bowstring, ready to eliminate any and all threat standing between him and his girl.

It's the way those boys look at you. As if you're a piece of meat, a toy to play with that they're just begging, aching to sink their teeth into, to leave a permanent mark on. The boys in this district are barbaric- that's what Coryo thinks anyway. It's disgusting, the things that he knows they think about you.

It's been a long day in District Twelve. Coriolanus' grey jumpsuit rubs and itches and his skin crawls with an uneasiness settled at the pit of his stomach. It's a warm day, his skin sticky as he peels the top half of the jumpsuit from his slender arms and ties it neatly around his waist. The grass by the lake is damp with the leftover dew from the morning.

He catches sight of you amongst the trees, weaving and bobbing through the undergrowth as you do, your lithe fingers brushing against leaves. Your head dips and then raises as his tall figure creeps into your peripheral vision. A smile graces your features, real and earnest with all your teeth.

There’s a slight waver in your countenance when you catch Coriolanus’ own expression; his brows are knit, pushing his forehead into a crease, lips pushed together tersely.

You walk straight into his arms, balancing yourself on one leg and pushing your shoulder underneath his armpit. You needle your way in, your forehead rested against his chin, so close you can feel his breath against your face.

“Hi, gorgeous,” you murmur. You reach up to push out the ridge in his brow and your thumb traces the bridge of his nose in a way that couldn’t be perceived as anything other than unbridled affection. “Something wrong?”

His slender fingers settle against your waist. You shiver at the contact when he spins and pushes you back into a tree. The bark digs into your back as you shuffle to meet his eyes— his eyes that have suddenly clouded with something dark and possessive.

“What is it?” you ask again; your voice is becoming more strained the longer he stays quiet, your own hands snaking up his arms like vines and squeezing.

He shakes his head and drops his face to look at you properly.

“Nothing. I have you.”

“Okay.” You click your tongue, tilting your head at him. His face gravitates towards yours, breath hot and mixing with your own. “You gonna kiss me or what, handsome?”

He doesn’t need any encouragement, surging forward to catch your lips between his own; his hands are rough, kneading the soft flesh of your hip. His other makes its way up to your jaw, fingertips pressing so hard you’re sure he’s branding you. You’ve never been kissed like this, with such fervour and passion and need. You gasp into his mouth and your arm wraps around his neck to pull him further into you.

“Coryo,” you pant.

“Shh,” he forces out, his fingers suddenly an iron grip around your neck; the hollow of your throat is bared to him and bobs under his cruel touch.

“Coriolanus, that hurts,” you say, strangled. His eyes are alight with a fire, a blazing inferno roaring in his head as he squeezes your throat and laughs.

You wheeze, clutching at his wrist in an attempt to loosen his grip. He obliges you, running a thumb over the indents he’s left in your soft skin to smooth them away.

“You know I’d never hurt you, right?” he asks. His head drops to the juncture of your neck, arms hooking loosely around your middle as he relaxes into you. “I just wanted to feel you. To know you’re mine.”

The incident is forgotten as soon as it ends. He has a charm in that sort of way; you don’t see his faults even when he shows them to you clear as day. You’ll never see what’s right in front of you even if he wants you to.

“Of course I’m yours, Coryo. Why wouldn’t I be?”

“The way they all look at you here…” He falters. “Like they all want you. Like they want to take you away from me. You’re mine- they have to understand that.”

“No one could take me away from you,” you giggle, your temple resting against the tip of his shoulder so you can duck your head to meet his eyes. “I know where I belong. And that’s right here with you.”

“Good.” He mouths at your neck like a man starved, arms coming right up until they’re hooked just underneath your own. He pulls away heaving for breath.

“Wanna show me just where you belong?”

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