#spn the trap

[thefableddestiel]

Do you guys see how goddamn emotionally charged this hug is for both of them? Deans holding on for dear life. This hug is the physical embodiment of “I need you. I’ve always needed you.”

Is this hug not a confession in itself?? This hug feels like Dean finally admitting to himself the depth of his feelings for Cas. Because if he doesn’t, Cas might leave again, and that’s unacceptable.

#destiel #dean winchester #castiel #dean x cas #supernatural #cas x dean #deancas #spn #dean loves cas #spn 15x09 #spn the trap #Destiel hug

[shallowseeker]

Happy "It's-- amazing. You did-- amazing," Monday!

"It's-- amazing. You did-- amazing."

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Do you even realize how amazing you are to me?

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15x09 The Trap (Text Attributions// Supernatural scripts here via @spnscripthunt. Transcripts are located here via SPNWiki. Visit their Tumblr to donate.)

#days of the week script celebrations #spn days of the week #dean + the symbolic giving of the heart #dean/cas + the love got a little smushed #dean/cas + the flower of free will #dean + the imperfect dream #dean/cas + trial separation #dean/cas + the choosing to weather the storm together #spn 15x09 #spn the trap #i know how to Q

[shallowrambles]

It's fascinating to me how much I've changed my mind about Dean in The Trap. I'm waaaaay more sympathetic to the whole Cas-being-forgiven aspect of it, because yes, Cas apologized initially, but the root of the issue was Cas's painful withdrawal of his partnership and his withholding of critical information. Full stop. He and Dean are NOT equally culpable in this one.

It's not just about Mary and Jack, and yet Cas keeps pivoting to "Dean blaming him for Mary." Which oversimplifies the whole thing in a terrible way. Yes, they're all culpable, and yes they all saw that things were wrong with Jack, but next to Donatello, Cas is THE authority on souls and physically the strongest of TFW. To make matters worse, he all but demanded Dean to parent Jack and take care of Jack's emotions, even though Dean expressed discomfort over his memories of soulless Sam. Dean has repeatedly expressed how he wants Cas to be open and honest with him, especially now that they're co-parenting, and although Cas demanded Dean parent Jack, he then turned around and hid Big Parenting Stuff from him and went off to meet Anael.

Barring Cas's one feeble and poorly-timed, "I tried to fix it on my own because I was afraid of losing this family," he doesn't really spell out his part in the communication failures or apologize very well for withdrawing from Dean, specifically. He sorts of sulls up and say, "I already apologized and I'm not doing it again." Yet, Cas has a continued, longstanding pattern of withdrawal from the partnership. I'm floored that my Cas goggles kept me from seeing it before, and maybe I'm a little embarrassed, too. I mean, honestly, it's amazing that Dean takes him back at all. :/ Once you look past, "Oh no! Dean said mean things!" anyway.

I think by The Trap, Dean has given up trying to get Cas to change or hold him accountable for his lack of communication. Cas sort of gave Dean ultimatums over it, if you squint, and Dean rolled over. And Dean wants to get back together. He needs Cas's support and Cas need his. He looks at everything Cas is and decides that Cas's avoidance and want to protect the family is just woven into the fabric of him, and Dean decides to accept that. It's something he loves about him as much as he resents it. Cas's chivalry is a feature and a bug. Dean loves him for it. It makes his life a Hell sometimes.

Occasionally, I still see people harping on how horrible Dean was for "forgiving" Cas, like Cas doesn't need to be forgiven. And with some distance and clarity, I find that pretty baffling now, but I also remember feeling that way when I wasn't looking at their partnership equally and giving Cas too much leeway on his continued absence from the partnership. I almost...respected Cas more. That thought makes me wince. But his bad decisions I was way more likely to stamp as protective or tactically genius, at least compared to some of Dean's similar decisions. Dean's things I tended to group as "too angry/emotional/irrational." :(

I guess I've come a long way when it comes to holding Sam and Cas accountable for their actions, too. Much of the time, my issues with Dean devolved to unfortunate tone policing or not liking him to express his anger and be angry at his boundaries being breached over and over, even when he was taking his anger out on inanimate objects. I balked just because it made a loud sound that made Sam wince (oh noes, not the wincing).

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On the other hand, I'm quite impressed that Dean and Cas were finding their way back to each other after the Death of a Child. That's about the hardest thing a marriage can go through, and they were getting back together and trying to heal even before Jack reappeared. Clearly, it's a stress-tested relationship. WAY more stress-tested than your everyday marriages; they've been through multiple apocalypses. On the whole, they often have good communication, even when they disagree, they knew where they stood (like with Donatello). It's just these huge, incredibly unusual horrible earth-shatteringly terrible things that throw them. Chuck's grooming is such a bitch.

#cas + communication issues #spn #spn 15x09 #spn the trap #spn episodes #spn season 15 #dean stuff #cas stuff #dean/cas + trial separation

[icvrusxx]

Oh, you can smirk and joke and lie to your brother, lie to yourself, but not to me! I can see inside you, Dean. I can see how broken you are, how defeated. You can't win, and you know it. But you just keep fighting. Just... keep going through the motions. You're not hungry, Dean, because inside, you're already...dead.

spn 1x01, pilot // why this world, benjamin moser // where to begin?, sue zhao // reaper, clairo // spn 1x11, scarecrow // the metamorphosis, franz kafka // cut, catherine lacy // spn 15x09, the trap // the gods show up, michael kinnucan // calling a wolf a wolf, kaveh akbar

#dean winchester #sam winchester #repression #poor baby needs to feel his feelings.. #spn #supernatural #web weaving #collage #poetry #spn 1x01 #spn pilot #spn 1x11 #spn scarecrow #spn 15x09 #spn the trap

[deanwasalwaysbi]

HEY - You know how we were absolutely right about what Dean was thinking on the floor of that dungeon?

Well.

Loooketmylilrejectedboi

#vancon22 #my manips #my destiel gifs #my gifs #spn 15x9 #spn the trap #you don't need to say it I heard your prayer #i love you too #we're having a normal one #original content #dean was always bi #cas thinking he's telling dean he heard him and dean thinking he doesnt want to hear it i can't #spn meta #dean meta #jensen fucking ackles #jacting joices #dean on the floor

[notdeadyetnatural]

The thing about early seasons destiel is they are SO hot and heavy they have so many emotions and no words to put to them and every interaction has this life or death intensity. And the thing about late seasons destiel is that they are SO tragically doomed they are both already dead there’s nothing they can do to change their ending but god damnit they are going to FIGHT.

#og #destiel #deancas #rb #spn #castiel #supernatural #dean winchester #the trap #spn 15x08 #spn 15x09 #spn the trap

[oliverapologist]

fanart i drew of sam winchester dying in a glue trap.

#supernatural #sam winchester #glue trap meme #fanart #dobby dying in a glue trap #think these gotta look a certain way to be funny #might be overproduced idk #spn art #sam winchester fanart #own

[gaytedlasso]

all the saints and sinners are the same

we’re blessed then we obliterate

that’s how it was written from the start

~

happy birthday to my beloved daphne @saintedcastiel ✨

#happy birthday my beloved 🥰 #lyrics are from end of everything by Noah Cyrus #it’s like. he’s overpowered by what’s inside of him and he can’t contain it #trapped in holy fire but the fire is also inside him #also ringing in my head is Lucifer going #‘what a peculiar thing you are’ #Ough this has been on my to draw list for ages #sketch.art #spn art #spn fanart #castiel #cw eye horror

[suncaptor]

Dean telling Cas he loves him 🤝 Dean telling Cas of course he wanted him to stay: things deleted from the script that change the entire nature of their relationship and Cas's self perception

#spn #incoherents #dean #supernatural #cas #destiel #dean winchester #goodbye stranger #the trap #s8 #s15 #.💌 #k+ #scripts

[bucklebunnydean]

you know what. when azazel was killing Dean in 1x22, he should have started lifting him towards the ceiling. enhance the female coding of dean and parallel him more effectively with Mary. but no. they just made him bleed mysteriously.

fucking cowards.

#1x22 devil's trap #havens liveblogs spn #spn #supernatural

[shallowseeker]

It's my fault. I let my guard down. But it's your fault, too. It's on US. And it...it's more your fault than the others, because--

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I kinda lost my big Dean farewell tour meta, but I still stand by the fact that Dean's decision not to go into the Mal'ak box was very much based on multiple people's support (Sam, Mary, Cas, Jack). That said, it was so so so conspicuous that he actively avoided Cas and Jack the most.

When Cas cornered him in Prophet and Loss things got, "an awkward beat / So this is goodbye?"...weird fast.

via @spnscripthunt

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In Ouroboros, all Cas has to do is catch Dean's eyes, and he just...falls right open. It's very clear that Cas's opinion on the matter is a quiet, powerful unsaid-thing.

Cas's hope is important here. More important than perhaps ANYONE is willing to admit. When he reassures Dean, Dean feels more at ease. More hopeful. And with most hopeful things, it feels a long way down when you fall from it.

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(Aside///Love how Dean throws Cas this cheeky little smile and Cas glares at him btw.)

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Later, when Dean wakes up after his injury, yes he's talking to all of TFW, of course he is. (He's talking to his brother, his best friend, his foster son.)

Here we have Dean lamenting that, like the chicken in Noah's story, he let his guard down, and now the snake is loose in the bunker.

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And here, we have such a subtle thing. The first of many cracks. Cas jumps in to talk to him, and Dean immediately fires back. He's reacting to Cas.

The camera focuses on Sam, gets Sam's reaction. But Dean? Dean's squared up to Cas. He's invoking his fresh conversation with Cas in the diner.

Cas is holding Dean's gaze evenly, and they're assuming their usual battle positions. Sam holds up his hands like he's getting between them, de-escalating the thing between them on gut instinct.

(it reminds me of this one)

Already, there's an insidious, human emotion seeming to take hold. Or at least, the seeds of it.

Somewhere deep is the burgeoning blame Dean's going to eventually put on Cas -> putting on him "the things he can't take," expecting him to protect everyone from everything, to be safe and keep them all safe.

("It's your fault I stayed. Because I stayed, [OMITTED, people I loved died]. It's more your fault than the others.")

But why is it more Cas's fault? Why is the reaction so outsized in Dean?

He doesn't just blame Cas for Mary, for the loss of Jack's soul that lead up to it. (Cas was supposed to succeed where John failed.)

He blames Cas for being a big part of why Dean wanted to stay in the first place. Cas made Dean want things.

And Dean's historic willingness to sacrifice himself is built on not wanting things for himself.

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Heroes die.

JOHN E. WINCHESTER 1954-2006 LOVING HUSBAND & FATHER REMEMBERED FOREVER DEAN: It's like my old life is, is coming after me or something. Like it like it doesn't want me to be happy. Course I know what you'd say.,,, So go hunt the Djinn. He put you here, it can put you back. Your happiness for all those people's lives, no contest. Right?" But why? Why is it my job to save these people? Why do I have to be some kind of hero? (begins to cry while talking) What about us, huh? What, Mom's not supposed to live her life, Sammy's not supposed to get married? Why do we have to sacrifice everything, Dad? (pause) It's... (Dean's lips tremble. Silence. We hear the sky rumbling. Tears begins to falls on DEAN's cheek.)

2x20

When Dean was willing to blow himself up in season 11, he was rewarded with his Mom coming back. When he wasn't willing to do it in season 14, his son stepped in to do it for him, losing his soul in the process and leading directly to the death of Mary. How horrible.

#wanting things #dean and wanting #the blame game #spn absense #spn game night #spn the trap #spn ouroboros #on heroes

[youre-only-gay-once]

i'm collecting bunker pictures for a neocities thing and...

damn winchesters, you live like this?

#this is like the saw trap of stoves #spn

[deanwasalwaysbi]

LET MY BOY SPEAK

#Cas I- #spn scripts #spn 15x09 #spn the trap #destiel #deancas #season 15 destiel #destiel was always canon #dean was always bi #look at his little face look how sad he looks #like no no no he didn't say it all cas #caaaassss!

[samsrowena]

1x06 transcript // 15x09 script

#SICK AND TWISTED #spn #spnedit #scripts #spn web weaving #spn 1x06 #skin #spn 15x09 #the trap #destiel #dean winchester #altarofedits

[gentlemancowboy]

We were never lovers, and we never will be, now. I do not regret that, however. I regret the conversations we never had, the time we did not spend together. I regret that I never told him that he made me happy, when I was in his company. The world was the better for his being in it. These things alone do I now regret: things left unsaid. And he is gone, and I am old.

—The Wake, Neil Gaiman

#back to clowning #no actually I'm not okay #spn #destiel #spn parallels #(if you squint) #15x09 the trap #15x18 despair #my edits #spnedit #destieledit #spncreatorsdaily #cowboycoven #kitchencule #useralison #donestiel #emeraldcas #userkels