#students suffer much

[tea-cat-arts]

Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

#svsss #scum villian self saving system #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #the fact that people think scum villain #-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction- #is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me #especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater #heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series #he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters #(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy) #I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters #like example off the top of my head- #the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx #I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes #side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me #i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation #but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years #like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right? #being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain #the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too #+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu #as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing) #bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people #another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does #also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be #he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students #and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing #+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this #but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy

[podcast-hemocytoblast]

It would’ve been really awkward if Jon had just kept running into former Statement givers in public. Like, imagine you’ve spent months dealing with some fucked up eye creature haunting your nightmares to feast upon your fear, but then you spot him at Tesco as he’s pulling out a calculator to figure out which loaf of bread (on sale!) offers the most bread per pound (🍞/£). How would you cope with that?

#the magnus archives #tma #jonathan sims #jarchivist #i’m just saying. if jonathan jarchivist sims had lived somewhere without a huge population like london. he would’ve 100% had to suffer the #‘teacher spotted by students in the produce aisle’ experience #and honestly i think it was an act of mercy on the Web’s part not to make this happen to him on a regular basis #also i just think jon is the kind of guy who would bring a calculator to the grocery store #it’s his ocpd swag i think. (i know he isn’t canon ocpd but to me. he has ocpd with ppd traits) #(someone has to bring a fuckton of personality disorder headcanons to this fandom. and that someone is me.) #(it ain’t much but it’s honest work)

[tatakaeeren]

Aizawa senseiiiiii 😭

#bnhaedit #bnha spoilers #shouta aizawa #aizawa shouta #eraserhead #bnha #boku no hero acedamia #my hero academia #toriigifs #usergokalp #usergojoana #userokkottsus #useraki #userdabiluna #usermica #dakjdhakhdak nooooooo 💔😭💔😭💔😭 i hate seeing him suffering like thissssssss #and the first thing he asked was about his students 😭😭😭 #i love him so much!

[lady-delamort]

⚠️Spoiler 388⚠️

wings of the same bird 🦅

I’m very fine :(((((((( 💔🥺

#lady delamort #digital ilustration #digitaldraw #fanart #ilustration #hawks #pro hero hawks #hawks mha #mha fanart #bnha fanart #hawks fanart #doodle #mha manga #my hero academia tokoyami #fumikage tokoyami #my boys are suffering so much #mentor and student duo

[oatbugs]

locking in so late but locking in nonetheless

#exam at 9 AM tmrw #i have ritalin and stuff to stay up w . toothbrush etc etc #getting a coffee then going to lib and pulling an all nighter #this exam szn will truly test how built different i am #10 week neural computing course in the next 15 hrs can we do it !! #honestly my brain didnt rly clock that this course was full of maths students as well as CS students for a reason like #ok trying to cram sooo much 3rd yr maths into my brain as fast as possible #anxiety helps coffee helps communal suffering helps iranian techno / deep house helps #also we are not allowed to use graphic calcs AKA we have to do sooo many massive matrix computations by hand for no reason!!! #but i rly dont get the logic . anyway this is sort of really fucking hard actually !!! #consequences of my actions i guess !!

[senlinstudies]

13.11 | Some days are just - go to your classes/meetings -> be tired -> come home after dinner and resolve to make your to-do list and spend the rest of the evening post 7:30pm in your bed

#i did manage to get some of my to do list done in class etc bc i didn’t have too much time outside of studying #i call that time efficiency #now i relax because us uterus havers #we SUFFER #studyblr #study aesthetic #grad school #study motivation #studyspo #gradblr #grad student #studying #student life

[scionshtola]

9. The Warrior of Light has been through quite a lot, but what is a moment, big or small, that bolstered and renewed their spirit? Was it a cup of hot cocoa or a lovingly crafted sandwich? Did someone give them a few words or a gesture at just the right time that meant the world to them? (Of course, this can be a canon event or headcanon!) (x)

Corisande struggled after Haurchefant's death and though she tried to hide it from her companions, Estinien easily saw through the facade. He mostly did left her alone in that regard, but would sometimes sit quietly with her so she was not completely alone in her grief. And even though they hardly spoke, Corisande knew he understood her pain and appreciated his presence at her side. It was enough to keep her going in one of the hardest times of her life, and was the beginning of the deep friendship and respect they have for each other in the present.

#oc: corisande ymir #i feel like i write all of these answers in the tone of a student taking a test lasdkfdsa #anyway. i think a lot about that scene right before going to azys la where shtola is like we should be proud of how far we've come #and says the wol is like the hope of mankind or smth and estinien comes up like no. we still have things to accomplish #and i think it was then that cori really understood just how much he understands what its like to be them...the champion of a nation that #ppl idealize and look to even when they're suffering...idk #also i do imagine cori was like ty i appreciate that. never talk to shtola like that again. <3 asldfjsd #endwalker spoilers #ffxiv #cori lore prompts #dont @ me about the armor okay i needed his face to be visible. altho it would be funny if he just sat in silence next to cori #with his helmet on #gpose

[immortalsins]

loop earplugs just arrived in the post and not to sound dramatic or sponsored or anything but its as if a cloud has been lifted and i can feel the sun for the first time

#I LOVE THESE THINGS SO MUCH I CANT HEAR A THINGG #got the switch version because i'm financially irresponsible and it's definitely worth it #i have yet to test them when my housemates are being loud but i know the quiet setting is going to change my life #wait a minute #testing is required but i think #i can eat food with my family now without suffering and leaving early #ohhhh i am about to be so happy #on top of it all they had student discount #my first win of 2024 ngl

[youre-responsible-not-us]

commie ANGST.

Btw. I CAN'T stop thinking about this bit about Steban and Ulixes and can't shut up about it. Can Harry really see the future? (I mean, our man definitely has some… unorthodox abilities) Are they really gonna die or are we just told that there is a… high probability of that? which is? almost as bad? XD But then agan. I LOVE angst. So I'd be lying if I said I hadn't thought through a dozen different scenarios for their untimely demise… like Steban's room and their little hideout being thrashed, the two of them being taken outside and put up against some wall while other people are loading rifles, Steban desperately screaming that it was all his idea and that they should punish only him and not touch Uli, Uli trying to shield Steban from the bullets with himself… Harry and Kim trying unsuccessfully to intervene, shouting "don't hurt them, they're just kids"… I'm totally okay and sane (no)🙃 I will definitely write and/or draw it some day, I apologize to everybody here in advance😂😂😂

#disco elysium #steban #uli #ulixes #echo maker #steban the student communist #I love to suffer so much

[itspileofgoodthings]

so I found a counselor (yay) and when I went in to fill out the paperwork for it after a very hard day I got very overwhelmed and sad and I started to cry, you know the kind where the tears just well up and spill over without any effort, and a man in the waiting room got up and handed me a box of tissues and it truly went right to the depths of my heart.

#it was such a Maria moment in that I would do that for someone in a heartbeat #but at this point I am used to people not doing it for me #(which is fine my tears are my business etc.) #but it killed me #also. i was talking about it to Nina later #because I didn’t know at first why it meant so much to me or felt different than other small kindnesses #and it’s because it was the quick and instinctive compassion of someone who has suffered #and it’s so piercing #like. as soon as I started to cry he was aware of me and immediately responsive #and he didn’t say anything but he didn’t need to #it was just this silent well #in him #anyway I would say it made me cry per my usual parlance but it actually made me stop #I was able to keep going #anyway sorry for making this all about ME on this Easter morning but I have been off tumblr for a week and a half #and I needed to record this moment as fast as possible #there is light in the darkness is such a truth …. but also it’s such a light #and also not to ramble more but it was so different and so specific as opposed to other kinds of compassion #it’s been a hard year and occasionally I’ve cried at school or students can tell I’m close #and their compassion (when it exists) is confused and dazed and shy and like it just woke up #because it probably DID #and it’s precious to me for that! #but the compassion that comes from knowledge is such a sure and steady thing #it is a hand on your shoulder #and it gives people such dignity and such grace that they can’t even SEE #because they’re just trying to get through the day #anyway it meant a lot to me and was like one of those blinding flashes into the depths of things #so thanks for listening. And Happy Easter!

[astriiformes]

Talked about this with the counselor I've been seeing at school earlier today but my intense, desperate need to leave a mark on the world (not even in a fame way, in like a "I need to leave this place better than I found it in a big, tangible way" one) and the fact that I only value myself when I feel like I'm adding good to it paired with the fact that I've been an insane perfectionist since I was a very young child and tear myself to shreds and lose all my confidence over tiny mistakes is literally going to kill me some day

#had been thinking about applying for a leadership position in our university ostem chapter for a while now #but psyched myself out of it last night before applications closed #because with everything that's gone wrong in the student group i was involved in this year i no longer trust myself to be a good leader #or frankly even a good person #i also had a slightly soul-crushing talk with a professor yesterday about my grade in her class #because even though she clearly thinks i'm brilliant (and basically said as much) i missed like two weeks of class #specifically because something happened with another student who i know i managed to make upset #(on accident. but it seems like she found my apology wanting) #and i feel so awful about it that i decided the only way to handle this was to avoid her so i didn't make her uncomfortable #so now my grade is suffering in a class i could've gotten an 'A' in #and it's just like. what am i even doing #i care so much about making the world a better place but i feel like such a bad person and trying makes it worse #and i know i'm under no obligation to put myself through this kind of stress but i don't know how to value myself if i don't #lately i feel like i'm beating myself up for being too fragile and unstable to even make a good martyr #and i know it's not healthy but if i try to step back i just get sad #like how now i feel awful about not sending in that application. and at least half dozen other similar things #i just want to make a real impact but it feels like the only thing i'm good for is making things worse #i'm not even fun to be around most days. i'm just.... sad

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#head instructor to the TAs in the lab section i TA for: how r u guys feeling abt the workload? #me who hasnt graded anything since week 1 and spent an hr that morning filling out a patient safety plan: 🙃 #listen. we r experiencing symptoms that make us shitty at our job. which is not helpful for a positive outlook #i was also experiencing horrible cramps at the time bc i lost my ibuprofen and 2 days ago i stopped the birth control in a desperate effort #to stop feeling terrible. but in this moment i feel alright. its wild to go from drastically unhappy to like lol wtf was that? anyway stop #being a bby loser. for no obvious reason. im gonna start the birth control again to see if i get depressed again or if that was just me lol #i dont think my therapist understands the depth of my executive functioning issues tho. bc im a grad student and can meet deadlines. like #let me tell u im a fucking disaster abt starting things. i will go back and forth and get nothing done forever. or i do things halfway and #make everything 30 times more difficult later bc no one else understands how my brain works #ah well. itll b fine. sometimes i just get freaked out that i wanna b better and i dont kno how to do that. so i spiral in despair a lil #ill b fine. im good at catching myself before i get too out of control. annoyingly tho i am not currently beating the bip0lar allagations #bc whatever tf is wrong with me i do probably fit the diagnostic criteria for bip0lar 2. i dont kno y that freaks me out so much. i guess #its bc it feels like something i cant just make better thru force of will and i grew up in a home that was very obsessively #health conscious to the point my dad gets anxious abt taking a single ibuprofen. so like ive been conditioned to get freaked out by #medication. literally my grandma will call me and tell me to b suspicious of doctors and to not take medicine unless absolutely necessary. #like lady u r the genetic reason i have 0cd shut the fuck up. also it feels like something that would more negatively affect how ppl think #of u than saying oh yea i get depressed or i have anxiety. like the connotation feels worse im used to just telling ppl whatever tf #my problem is. so the idea of holding something back feels weird. which annoys me bc i dont think there should b so much of a stigma. its #bullshit. anyway idk. im tired. i was trying to think of a comfort tv show with my therapist and all i could think was the terror #when im depressed i wanna watch those English mother fuckers suffer and die. i just lov that show so much. harry g00dsir my beloved. the #most me coded character to ever exist #unrelated

[thecultoflove]

this has got to be one of my favorite shrignold accounts because you somehow capture his character a bit too well.

if i didnt play shrignold correctly i would absolutely despise running this account because it would of wasted the opportunity. i dont know if my intentions from the start was to even play into the character but now that i started i have to mostly keep it up as long as people follow

there are only some occasions i think others perfectly capture shrignold at least in a setting where they'd run an account (speaking as) them? the fanart is almost always correct though. most every piece i've seen drawn is so good i need to restrain myself from reblogging it all

#im not a shrignold fangirl or anything either its more like. you like a character so much they are “just like me fr” but obviously not 100% #i dont own.. a cult or manipulate people into whatever.. you know what i mean. i love joyous and whimsy things (twisted fucked up) #i think shrignold fans are either really fucked up from some form of religious trauma or they just like the symbolic nature of religion #or both. yknow. a lot of people write characters to sacrifice themselves to “god” sooo not really a new unheard of thing #like a lot of games go over it as well.. its just something that people take particular interest in all together #and while i realize shrignold isnt. SHOWING visible signs of being traumatized.. we dont know what their life was BEFORE the cult?? or anyo #we dont know what any of their lives were like before that so best assume whatever. most dhmis fans just go WILD with that in mind #some of the fanfictions i've read cause my body to want to collapse on sight people are a bit too dedicated to hurting these teachers. like #you guys have the traffic light trio of students but you choose to make the teachers suffer more than jesus christ

[parvuls]

we don't have a single professor!jack/student!bitty fic in this fandom

and on the one hand, can't fault us for shying away from problematic power dynamics. on the other hand, I'm willing to turn a blind eye if I can get a scene where bitty tries to bribe his way into professor zimmermann's class with a pie. just for funsies 🙃

#omgcp #omgcheckplease #zimbits #prof/student relationship trope subversion: bitty is actually jack's least favorite student #because of the bribe and because he spends all class texting and because he always hands in his assignments .05 seconds before the deadline #but unfortunately bitty's left with no choice but to ask jack for help halfway through the semester because he's not doing well #and jack's TA is pretty useless #so bitty suffers through jack's presence outside of class #and jack suffers though having to recognize that bitty is a bright student with undiagnosed learning disabilities #actually I was tricking you there's no way I could develop an undergrad/prof relationship #but maybe when they meet much later in some convention? 😂 #if someone is braver than me feel free to write the problematic just-after-finals sex scene these sorts of fics demand #prompts #text

[melon-bunn]

I keep thinking back to Alec and how he is somewhat like what Himmel. How he could have been what Himmel is to Frieren towards Faust if he did not burn him.

Alec leaves bit and pieces of himself—- well practically the whole central country for Faust to come back to. The stained glass. The painting. The religion. The tale of the hero, Saint Faust. The whole central country. but unlike Himmel, where he leaves his mark behind eg statues and all so Frieren won’t feel lonely, this one it just comes back to haunts Faust.

Thinking back to Alec, the guilt Alec has is one thing, the stuff he does urg he believes(?) Faust will see or notice them one day. that Faust will even come back to Central country. I think he knows it’s beyond forgiveness. maybe it’s just for himself. That at least he done something, that he did what he could to make up to Faust. A place for him in central country (bitter laughs)

There’s also something about how Faust can never escape his presence because central country is literally Alec’s country so there’s part of him everywhere. worsen with the fact that Alec actually leaves stuff behind for Faust. then there’s Arthur.

But Faust still holds those days close to his heart.... Alec still lives in Faust's memory just like how how Himmel is to Frieren despite Alec and those days being the cause of his trauma.

#listen current Frieren party with the Eastern wizards 😭 #Shino who wants to be a Hero too.. #Heath who is Faust student before reuniting with Shino… #Nero who joined part way through like Sein… #URG #A Frieren AU is practically a what if Alec did not execute and burn Faust ahahahahahaaa #Faust missing that era so much and feel lonely not being able to go back those days urghdf #mhyk #mahoyaku #sorry someone suffer with me #rambles

[superconductivebean]

#543

WELL.

SPAMMED TAGS WITH AN ESSAY?

im very proud of these rambles but i can't understand why do i love to spam tags sm

#днявочка #днявочка: hlegacy #eng tag #днявочка: фандомное #damn wright #so i was peacefully asleep and then it came to me that wright is clingy but attaches Value to every hug she received or asked for #because when she was little her parents were too busy so any moment of Family Love was cherished and of gold and -- #-- slowly wright was remembering it all after The Battle. what her life was like before everything or what she thought was it like #i couldn't just kill off her mom off-stage i had to implement her in-full somehow so; not to overshare much but sharp will come to know her #and he'll tell everything he learned to wright as he'd originally planned but rookwood intervened and well it's a long story #by the time of that convo blorbos developed bonds over some things already but at that moment -- it was a rubicon ahead of them #wright felt lonelier than ever and sharp couldn't just leave her there for the sake of keeping the subordination up #wright entrusted him with the knowledge and her life and sharp stood by his word; she was *his student* after all and sought his help #so that how it started; still a mentorship but deeper. heavier. *falconry metaphors here* #they did become very close after The Battle but here's the catch: both of them didn't realize it right away #wright's clueless but sharp is always vigilant; he didn't want wright to have too much on her already cluttered mind especially -- #-- family related bc the topic is very dear and personal to her. for sharp it was more like 'family what family' -- #-- it's tied to scarborough incident (it took his hopes of having any family along with the ship but tshhh oversharing) #so. imagine a loop of suffering; wright seeks comfort and when she finds it in his arms she feels hardly any better because -- #-- it reminded her of her father of her mother but sharp is neither of them and the thought of it alone brought wright down very much #sharp isn't a substitute either -- and fear of losing him lingered and ohmygod how much talking they'd go through #self-indulgent part of it: when you're thick skin you tend to oversee many damaging things and may not even know smth has gotten under #wright thought she overcame her losses but in reality she never did and all these events only uncovered her lingers