#that was really weird to experience btw

[lab-trash]

I lowkey kind of hate when I’m hit with inspiration, because I know it’ll be followed by really annoying writers block. 

Like, last night, I wrote Forgiveness (Could You Imagine) and now I’m trying to write that Game of Drones idea I had and my brain ain’t workin right.

#it probably doesn't help that when we woke up this morning we immediately wanted to clean #that was really weird to experience btw #lab rat #mighty med #lab rats elite force #trash talks #trash talk #trash talking

[inkskinned]

she says he won't let her get a dog, which is fine, because they're in an apartment, and that's the kind of thing people say about their partners. he won't let me get a dog. and you're at a dinner party and you tilt your head a little to the side just like that dog he won't let her get, because is this the thing that's going to upset you? you don't know every corner of their relationship, she could be joking, they could have had so many healthy conversations about the dog, right, and maybe she's not letting herself get the dog because of money and time and whatever. but, like, she did say let

and she wants to move away from his hometown and he wants to stay and then he tells you with a wink and a conspiratorial stage whisper don't worry i'll convince her and she laughs about it - so clearly this is something they laugh about. but you do just stand there and stare at him like what the fuck, man. you can't say what you want to say which is why do you get the final say on everything because they're both obviously aware of the other person's stance on this and have obviously had private conversations about it and what are you going to do about it except make a scene and then he'll be mad at you and call you one of those bitches behind your back and she'll cut you off, which is a loss that doesn't feel worth it just because he makes you a little skeeved out every 3rd comment

and they both agree he just isn't the type to get flowers which is fine because everyone shows love differently, and are you really gonna judge someone based on their sense of individual relationship responsibility? maybe he's constantly cleaning her car and writing her poems and making her furniture or something. maybe she doesn't even like flowers and this is perfect, actually. and no you couldn't date him, obviously, ew; but like, she tells you she's happy. you almost send her a tiktok that says don't be 25 and the cool girl that doesn't need anything, you'll hate not getting flowers at 30, but that's like, starting drama & you shouldn't start drama needlessly.

and you're a little older than her but not so much older you can pull the whole trust me on this one babe thing and besides that wouldn't have worked anyway (when does it ever) and besides you have trauma so you and your therapist both agree that you're always looking for a problem even when there isn't one. and you tell yourself that just because you see them for 15 minutes every month does not mean you can identify every single red flag based on a single shitty half-joking(?) comment

and besides, what are you going to do? she says i actually wanted another stand mixer but thankfully he stops me when i'm about to spend too much money and you're standing there like are you okay? is this normal? is this just something people say? and again - what are you going to do?

to your therapist you try to language it - it's not, like, any of my business. but sometimes, doesn't it feel like - you should do something. there's got to be something, right? you've tried dropping little hints but they sail right through and you've tried having a single serious conversation and she got upset because why does it matter to you, yes it's different but we're happy, it doesn't need to make sense to you and you're like. really unwilling to push a boundary about it anymore; because the truth is that you know logically it shouldn't matter to you, as long as both parties are happy.

and besides, you've been wrong before. it's just... like, every time you see them both, something else happens, some kind of shiver down your spine like do you even hear each other when you talk. it's their strange, bickering orbit. just the way he's on his phone through dinner or watching sports instead of helping in the kitchen or, fuck, another one of these little throwaway comments he makes about we'll see about that, babe. she laughs when he calls her passions stupid shit and meanwhile she gets him tickets to see the knicks and he tells you well at least she's smart about something and still! it's none of your business.

you say get the dog anyway and she laughs. like, this is is you being funny. and not you saying - no really. get the dog. get the dog and get out of here. pack up and start running.

#this btw is not including toxic friendships this is legit just something ive experienced MANY times now #writeblr #you ever have a friend in one of those relationships where ur like #u don't HATE their partner explicitly #but ur like. what the fuck y'all #like the weird part of being an adult is that you can't be like . CERTAIN their relationship is toxic #and also if u move too fast or push too hard u can hurt someone who is already in a scary situation so you just are like #frozen there. laughing awkwardly. saying ''haha..... yeah..... couldn't be me....'' #and like u can't tell - is this banter or does he actually think like. he's better than her. #all you can do is be there for your friend and hope they wake up to it #or ... that it really IS good #and it's just odd to you #tbh btw id rather have my friends feel safe coming to me if they have a concern about my relationship #like yes it's not ur business but it also IS bc im making u hang out with them and also ur my friend #it's a weird thing to experience as an adult bc it is such a blurry line and when u spend time #around couples that aren't like ACTUALLY ur friends but instead ''extended friend circle'' ur like #.... i don't know y'all well enough and he just called you a cow. and ur okay with that . and i don't know how to respond. #so ur like :) okay. um. go to couple's counselling i think #but also you are NOT supposed to pass judgement so it's like.... this weird limbo of feeling like you SHOULD say something #but knowing you CANNOT #idk that there's a way to resolve it!!!!!!!! it's probably a different approach person to person #edited my tags bc tumblr's new system fucked em up #PS EDIT: btw i should have said: #the pronouns in this can work in any and every direction. every gender and every sexuality and every #type of relationship tbh. even non-romantic relationships where ur like ''what do u mean ur bff calls u stupid''

[gobstoppr]

Tetris Fanart.

I've been playing tetris while listening to horror podcasts. and yeah

#text #art #eyestrain #cw eystrain #bright colors #cw bright colors #tetris #nintendo #god i dont know what to tag this with. i dont wanna tag it with the podcasts themselves cuz that feels disingenuous. swagever #i actually started this piece a while ago. ok yeah looking at the date that was almost 3 weeks ago wow #but i finally decided to bring it back and finish it #ive been getting back into digital art and its been really nice. its nice having finished pieces. #ive been trying to get weirder with my art. like this piece was weirdly 'personal' in a sense #its been my unique experience listening to these pieces of media. the game in the bg is jsut as important to my experience as the art itsel #the looming sense of dread these podcasts give fit weirdly well with the high tension of some of these games of tetris #i wanted to have that sorta weird ominous vibe to it. have even the pieces feel loud and threatening. #and the gameplay being Past the ds itself is something i thought could be neat #ykno the tetris effect? where you play a bunch and then after you see the shapes everywhere;you play it in your mind? #that was part of what i wanted to channel there. but also like; how your attention works with this stuff #i might be looking straight at the ds but my attention is elsewhere; my brain is in another world #the game is still inescapable tho. tetris effect whatever. these stories stick in my brain just as much. #its all given me some. very very annoyingn anxiety. but i have to go back to them. like a moth to a flame etc. hince the moth climbing out #but uh yeah. that set up was my life for a few weeks whenever i had free time. #the main podcast this is about was magnus btw <- not typing full name so im not on the tag #and uh. #objectum #yeah i think. i think yeah.

[girlyliondragon]

Now kiss (haha Jk... Unless??? (Toby PLEASE make it "Unless"))

Ello Deltarune fandom. Guess what ship has gotten my brainrot now 2 1/2 years later. :P Because ofc I go from one f/f ship to another and cling onto it. But fr tho I love these sapphics sm. I love them so muuuuuch I'm so glad they are semi-canon just 2 chapters in.

Been wanting to draw something with them since February, but because of art block back then I decided to just let my pen go on its own since I had art block and ended up with a rough of this and hallelujah lol ^^

Seriously Toby please. Take your time ofc no rush. But please I NEED to see them together again.

Also I love Noelle's glow-y nose hc so that's mine now too thanks fandom.

Art: Mine

Do not steal/crop/edit/etc. Do not tag as kin/me ty! Suselle haters DNI :U

#Deltarune #Deltarune Fanart #Noelle deltarune #Susie deltarune #utdr #Suselle #This is my first time drawing them ever #I'm very happy with how I draw Susie but Noelle is a different story. My perfectionism is getting me #Been wanting to draw something with them since February #decided to just let my pen go on its own since I had art block and ended up with a rough of this ^^ #It's all about the yearning <3 #her tail's wagging :3 #Em Doodles #I don't think(?) I'll be posting anything outside of art in the fandom tags #because I've had enough extremely bad experiences with fandoms so just art stuff now. Not taking anymore chances! #ya know. unless Tumblr's weird tag system screws me over :U #Btw The kin/me thing is more of a ''if it's not made for you don't tag it like it is plz ty'' to reiterate #More for personal art than anything. If I make stuff for people that do it? Then yeah go nuts xP #Me: Makes a freckle brush just for coloring Susie and can finally really use it. #Textures and lighting: Imma make it impossible to see #couldn't use my paper layer textures thanks to that rip I might do them manually next time #there's a reason I put the ''Suselle haters DNI'' thing from what I saw someone try to do a super wrong rant in the fcking tag but #IMMA KEEP THAT RAMBLING OUT OF THE TAGS TOO because like I said I'm not throwing that sort of aggression anywhere outside my own blog now

[fuckdamn]

everytime i’m faced with wild overt misogyny that’s just platformed like it’s nothing i remind myself that people don’t actually have to feel this way about women. men are fully capable of treating women like human beings and viewing them as such. “but socialization but male fantasies but patriatchy speaks through us even when we don’t recognize it” sure but actually regardless there exist men who are fundamentally not raging misogynists and they generally seem happier and better adjusted. misogyny to me isn’t disappointing because “oh i can’t believe Men, as an essentialized category of person, are like this” it’s disappointing because people make the choice to be like this. “it’s my biological imperative as a man to dominate you” okay well it’s my biological imperative as a freaky bitch to dominate you so what now. what biological imperative is making you comment “onlyfans detected opinion rejected” on every picture of any attractive woman. i think i will always be understood by most people as a woman and i’m learning to accept that and trying to like it but misogyny makes me feel very trapped of course. but misogyny is a choice. which means some people make the choice to be misogynistic which is profoundly frustrating. but many other people choose not to be actively misogynistic and i believe anyone could choose not to be actively misogynistic if they wanted. so it’s a whole thing

#lotte.txt #womanhood is a fun thing to participate in with women who do not hate women. otherwise it’s very stifling and starts to not be worth it 4 me #for other girls — cis and trans btw — i think relishing in womanhood still feels worth it even when it’s very difficult and i admire that #but apart from my fashion sense and bloodlust i feel very detached from womanhood as like this primal animate Essence #but i don’t really want to be a man either. i like being a Weird Girl i like being a Hot Weird Girl #i’m more of a Hot Weird Girl than a Hot Weird Boy and i’ve discovered that through trial and error #and calling myself nonbinary/fluid accurately describes my experience in a lot of ways. but i also sometimes feel like the label doesn’t.. #serve me? if that makes sense #like i got really into kibbe in 2020 and it was like oh shit i’m a soft dramatic. how cool that there’s something that describes my body #but after a while i got exhausted with kibbe because yeah. by the logic of the system of course i’m a soft dramatic #and i operate with that knowledge in the back of my mind. but also so what. i am aware of the shape of my body now #and now i feel the label has very little left to offer me #like if you’re asking? sure i’m a kibbe soft dramatic. but i don’t hold kibbe’s system as law or view it as crucially important #that is very much how i feel rn about calling myself nonbinary #like if you want me to think about it? yeah i don’t strictly conform to the gender binary #but i don’t believe gender itself is useful for my growth - i don’t hold the institution of the gender binary sacred - why bother #why draw attention to where i exist within the system when i’m tired of defining myself in terms of the system at all. yk #aUghj. anyway

[pepsicoughdrops]

hey girl. you are full of centipede venom. (infodumping in taaaags heart emoji 🫶)

(click for better quality)

#reworking some timeline stuff with mokji n elizabeth ^_^ #i think instead of her being on the island for a few months she’s there for Almost 2 years #a year and like 4 months. so almost 2 👍 #just because i want her and mokji to be more attached than you would get out of a few months #also that bite is gross and bloody because the aforementioned venom mokji has has an anticoagulant #it only Really works on humans but one bite mark on a hip wouldn’t kill someone #she just gets incredibly ill afterwards for a few days 👍 #which isn’t something you want to experience after having sex so you can imagine how that went down #^ this confrontation on if gods can get humans pregnant incident is also how ilima finds out they’ve been sneaking around #and he’s not happy! not out of jealousy of course but because he knows elizabeth isn’t staying on the island forever 😔 #ELIZABETH IS 21 BTW. mokji is also an adult but gods age weird but they are both adults #my stuff #my art #oc #monster oc #nudity

[hella1975]

made my first dnd character ever and she's a total cunt and i love her

#her name is kaia she's a half-elf bard btw. if u even care #the DM came up with a backstory with me bc i CANNOT invent shit on the spot so i basically let him take the wheel #which im not mad about bc it's my first campaign and i was nervous and im still Weird about anything writing-related in front of others #so i kind of accepted that me just being open about my own ideas wasn't gonna happen anytime soon and will take time #and he was really good about it like didn't give me shit for not contributing he just on the fly came up with a whole ass backstory #i love being around writers it was genuinely very beautiful to watch BUT it's also very funny the backstory he came up with #bc now kaia by chance has an absent father and an incredibly close but complex relationship with her mother #and she expresses all of her emotions and anger and hurt towards these things and other experiences through her art form (music) #like? lol. lmao even. like why did he come up with that backstory SPECIFICALLY im giggling #hella goes to uni #it's our first session tonight im very excited <3

[martyrbat]

im so considerate.... (<- guy not ranting about a thing it hates before its friend is done with the media)

#can officially say i finished the arkhamverse. didnt watch anything about that suicide squad one but i read all comics #a d watched the complete story & side mission gameplay for origins asylum city and midway through my refresher for knight #the biggest takeaway i have is wow these people are weird about convicts and addicts and love their toxic masculinity #but the gameplay and nostalgia impacts peoples opinions on it. maybe an enjoyable experience but for the story or universe itself #its a complete failure in every regard i can think of—only having glimpses moments of quality that makes the rest of it #be frustrating because the potential can be there. theres interesting premises occasionally but the execution and payoff doesn't make it #even worthwhile to get to those premises because of what you must wade through to reach them #<- thats me being my nicest and most spoiler freeabout it btw. #my other big takeaway is that tim is canonically older than jason and i think a grown ass man saying fuck that kid is really funny #[SPOILERS LOOK AWAY CJ] #<- tim currently works as a highschool science teacher while jason was shown to be adopted and made robin at 15 #where he was then promptly captured and kidnapped by joker. he escaped half? a year later during asylum and AK takes place 2 years afterward #i think. the entire timeline for this shitty universe is awful and confusing. dick was robin for like 2 years its ridiculous. #and i think primarily so they can go noooo see bruce is a hot late 30 year old instead because you become dust at any older!! #but. back to the age thing. hes about 17 maybe early 18 during AK but because tim is a private school teacher he needs a bachelor's degree #and most people get it at 22/23ish and then theres the actual teacher application and being hired (or not because hes a nepo baby) #so hes early mid twenties or so. compared to a (presumably dead) teenager who he called a loser more or less.

[kakusu-shipping]

Last year I started this huge project of redrawing a bunch of my Self Inserts in my more plump body style, a few of which I posted sporadically as I made them. The plan was to full a whole page with all my old S/Is and then full color all of them and post them all together.

I recently picked that project back up and added a few more S/Is but.. The longer I look at my massive canvas the less motivated I am to color it and then the less motivated I am to do other art

So! Here's the clean sketches for all the ones who go together, the rest I'll be posting as before, just random bunches of unrelated S/Is, uncolored until someone asks about them.

#Emile's Arts #Self Insert #Feel free to ask about any of these btw I've talked about all of them before #But now they're all New and to keep myself sane I won't color them unless someone shows interest in them #Because my coloring game is off recently kfjgkdfjg #Anyway! #I wanna thank everyone who follows this blog for hanging around #I know I go through weird bursts of creating a bunch and then reblogging a bunch with a few days of radio silence every here and there #So I wanna thank you for you patients and more importantly for your encouragement #When I started this redesign project and was posting just 4-5 unrelated S/Is at once I was always so excited to get asks about them #I really only ever want to do something if someone else is interested in it so my motivation waxes and wanes with what y'all interact with #So just. Thankyou for interacting so I can have the motivation to create! #It really has been an uplifting experience self inserting like this with y'all here with me #So thank you once again

[amrv-5]

survived Badly (argh) but going to work on fic for as long as I continue to enjoy doing so then switch over -- see if I can find somewhere to watch The 400 Blows and probably cry forever and dehydrate and feel soooo sad and then feel better after. Thank you French New Wave

#boooo whatever saying nonsense nothing matters delete later #somebody should invent a proximity to your parents that doesn't immediately make you so emotionally weird forever #overdramatic. Im feeling fine im eating some crackers and lying around chilling. Just. Weird. Off Balance.. #Mild Disturbance in my Year of Exceptional Emotional/Mental Chill #not gonna let it break my 2024 streak of feeling generally Pretty Freakin Good and mostly Recovered From The Lost Year #Which btw. can I say... have i said...? Genuinely having one of the nicest years of my life so far... feeling really pretty good #mfw having more control over your life + surroundings + choices + living circumstances means you can genuinely #meaningfully improve ur day-to-day lived experiences and find what works for u to keep u happy + healthy + excited about life... magic #anyway. brief Huh I Feel Kind Of Bad And Sad In A Deeper Way Kicked Off By But Unrelated To Events Of The Day moment earlier #really made me realize how exceptionally good I've had it so far this year... i think... it's possible... things Do Get Better #anyway. ok done Tag Blogging now. just hope everyone enjoys a nice treat or something. get good sleep enjoy ur time change if it applies #watch a movie or something. idk have fun guys have a good night

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

Song of the Six Realms

a magical YA fantasy romance

follows a girl who’s an indentured musician at an entertainment house, with a talent for playing the qin

when her uncle (her only family) is killed, a Duke buys her contract with a promise to end her contract after one year - and reveals she might be the key to unlock the magical secrets tied to her uncle’s death

not to mention that he’s actually the Duke of Dreams, and she is whisked away to the Celestial Realm which is on the brink of disaster, plagued by demonic monsters

#Song of the Six Realms #aroaessidhe 2024 reads #first. the tragedy of having a MC with a significant scar across her face and then not showing that on the cover….. #(I doubt that's the artist's fault btw. it's very nice otherwise) #this is okay. it’s pretty slow paced but then also has a lot happening at the end. I found some of the pacing weird like: #the first chapter just explaining the MC’s life up until now; when they travel for 3 weeks ‘and often sleep on the side of the road' #- damn that’s so different from her life experience up until now and you’re not gonna expand on that???. #and overall a lot of their relationship is told to us like “and then we had a really long conversation about x”. #I’m not sure I super cared about them or their relationship. and yknow; teen x immortal man #I read this because I saw the author say that she wrote the MC as demi - which I guess I can see if I’m looking for it #but it’s basically just in the sense of she’s not immediately attracted to the love interest and has never had the chance to think about #to be fair she’s mentioned it more in an offhand way rather than actively promoting it as being demi so I’ll accept that #I did enjoy the descriptions of the monsters and some of the celestials! that was cool! I wanted more of it. #I also appreciated the casual queer side characters and the way that queerness was accepted in the human world #(but the gods are weird about it - I feel like more often fantasy is the opposite)

[dolokhoded]

simon peter is the funniest apostle to work with because in theory he's the most loyal, most by-the-book of the apostles so you'd expect him to be the most logical and collected one but 80% of his concerns (pre crucifixion then everything went downhill and they all died) are that he has a crush on every person he encounters

#🧅 #im not religious just insane.jpg #true poly disaster. funniest shit ever. #cause yknow simon p's a fisherman he's married he's a very poster family man #and he loves his wife he really does. im not gonna make the only guy who's married fucking Hate his wife and want to like. go have gay sex #instead cause mlm good mlw bad. but he does have his. Issues. concerning how he views women #he's gonna work on that though i'm not leaving him like that don't worry. peter already knew the torah by heart probably for peter turning #to god meant learning how to respect women. and yknow people he considered 'ungodly' in general. to respect humanity as he respects god. #tee hee i love this arc. i love all of them but i dont ever rlly talk abt this one. #but anyways yes he does love his wife. #then some strange guy shows up while he's fishing and he's like follow me son of jonah i will make you a Fisher Of Men. and peter's like #TEE HEE OKAY JESUS i will come fish men with you. #which......okay....simon....... interesting that u wanted to do that..... with zero context.... #and then cue weird thing with magdalene. which. they don't end up together by Any Means. #they hate each other. they have not spoken in a civil manner once. but they do have a weird bond between them than only aromantic people #can understand. #WHICH BTW i already knew there's a thin line between polyamory and aromanticism. but it really showed when while trying to #explore how peter experiences polyromanticism i found myself projecting a lot of my own aromanticism on him #(is polyromantic a correct term? i'm not sure these terms really confuse me especially considering the time period cause like. polyamorous #describes a relationship with multiple people which peter obviously wasn't in in 30 AD. but he Did have romantic feelings for multiple #people so is that polyromanticism? or is that a completely different term? idk. bare with me.) #very interesting. anyways yeah there's that. magdalene is aro also to me. so yeah this is one of the most fun dymanics i have in this lore #cause like. polyromantic person and aromantic person somehow having the same mutual not platonic not romantic but a secret third thing #connection with each other. i love thinking about them

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

man I really would love to see an (explicitly) religious companion on Doctor Who. esp one who's written in such a way as makes their faith relevant to the storylines and challenges and tests it but ultimately remains respectful and keeps the theme of it relevant within the specific science fiction setting that Doctor Who occupies. I personally just think that would be great.

#:) can't wait to see what kind of reaction this one provokes :) #also btw I know that Yaz is Muslim. I was actually kind of excited when the show officially confirmed that bc I was hoping it would #dig into themes of faith surrounding her and how she as a person of faith is dealing with her experiences in the TARDIS #learning all this new knowledge that's supposedly outside the realm of her worldview and having to figure out how to incorporate #these new perspectives into her relationship with her faith #would've been absolutely thrilled to see that happen at all in literally any capacity. and then it absolutely completely Did Not. #her faith was mentioned like... what. once??? in a passing reference about racism/Islamophobia #which of course are relevant themes of course! but they were brought up exactly once. and then permanently left there. #and yes I do have to say that Thirteen's era actually revolved quite heavily around themes of faith and religion. and it treated religion #in general much better than any previous era of Who really has!! I'm appreciative for that. #but I would really enjoy not having to dig so much. I'd love to see the explorations of faith be as tied into a character as #the explorations of identity were tied to Bill's sexuality and the Master/Missy's gender change and moral crisis were in s10 #anyway! :) have fun with this one. I will delete it if people start being weird and dumb in the notes. #gurt says stuff #doctor who #religon #faith #storytelling #science-fiction #(totally ok to reblog and add comments on btw. 'being weird and dumb' does not mean interacting with this in a genuinely #conversational and good-faith sort of way at all)

[x-crowmancer-x]

little shitstain bastard child fuckin shit up

#made for the many moments someone's gotta AFK cuz their cat's being a stupid asshole somewhere #its really funny when they forget to mute and i just hear #WHY DID YOU SHIT ON THE CARPET #or YOU LITTLE BITCH #i frickin love cat behavior cuz i dont have a cat and only experience their chaos vicariously through my friends online and irl #these guys are so goddamn cute but they will not hesitate to start the greatest war in human history #thats not true i lied #but i think if they had the ability to they would #just for funsies #cats #cat behavior #cats being weird little guys #dumb little bastard #btw cat youre adopted #crowmancerx #ms paint #doodles out of context

[sonknuxadow]

i will not lie . that whole incident of sontails freaks taking my platonic sonic and tails art and passing it around as ship content on other sites without my knowledge is making me nervous to post any more art of them together i desperately do not want anything like that happening again

#ask to tag #this isnt me making up a guy to get mad at btw it actually happened. i just made one post about it and then deleted it a few hours later #because i was still in the process of getting the reposts taken down #and i was afraid theyd go through my blog and see me complaining about them and the situation would be made worse by that somehow #because in my experience s/ontails fans and people who are into weird stuff like that in general #really love harassing people for being uncomfortable with certain things #and before anyone tells me to just put a disclaimer on my posts that its not ship art. i already did that. it didnt stop them #plus i shouldnt HAVE to do that when the characters in question are siblings with an obvious big age gap #and theres nothing in the caption or tags or the drawing itself implying that its ship art #the people who see that stuff and treat it as ship art are obviously the weird ones in this situation #and son/tails people will act like this and then wonder why half the sonic fandom hates them. like

[jorvikzelda]

Aroace ppl can still have relationships and stuff. They are still gay-

Oh yeah of course, I know this! sorry if it came across another way!

#was moreso trying to acknowledge the complexity of aspec identities and experiences than trying to erase it #and like. be fully clear on my Linda hcs across the board #so again. sorry if that did not in fact come across! #also I'm not aroace so I don't wanna speak over anyone but I feel like 'they're still gay' is a bit of a. blanket statement? #like i agree that aro & ace spec people are queer i am NOT an ace exclusionist but idk if every aroaspec person would identify as gay #anyway. not really my place probably. just rambling at this point #z talks #sorry if I speak about things in weird ways and places that arent mine to also btw #I am coming out of identifying as entirely ace for like 7 years and realising i might not be even acespec and it is an adjustment #in the whole. internet sphere #not trying to make excuses just explain why if i say weird shit lmfao