I think one really interesting juxtaposition is how John Mulaney repeatedly portrays himself in his public vs personal persona. In baby j he tells the intervention specialist to not believe his persona, that his friends say hes nice. In his earlier specials, he repeatedly refers to this - "sorry about last night, I’m mean and loud and it will happen again" plus his mom saying he performed even as a baby. It’s interesting that, as a performer, he’s performing, not just to his audience, who he’s always addressing, but his friends as well. It reminds me of what Jenny slate said about comedy a lot.
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new stills have me thinking the following:
- I think something happened to Marj, based off who we saw in that behind the scenes picture Brian initially posted in the hospital waiting room, but I could be wrong.
- Nancy looks concerned/worried, which makes me wonder if she’s putting the blame on herself for something or if she’s just generally worried about her friend.
- A popped collar on Carlos continues to look great even outside of his AFD jacket.
- I don’t know if Carlos is coming or going between those two stills in the loft, but @actuallysara put it in my head and now I’m stressed.
- Paul and Judd moments are all fine and dandy, but something about it screams shenanigans, and based off those behind the scenes photos, specifically the one of three stunt doubles in a car with Owen’s in the driver’s seat, I’m thinking it has to do with a certain someone.
- Not a still, but Ronen was doing ADR for a scene between Marjan and TK in the helicopter we keep seeing, and I’m stoked to see a rescue mission between the two of them!
- TK and Tommy heart-to-heart moments continue to give me so much life. With how close they’ve gotten, it’s really been a beautiful thing to see. She also moms everyone and I would also like her to be my mom.
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felt like popping in to make an updated version of pre-cultist matty lol haven’t posted much about her pre-joy self and honestly i haven’t thought that much about her past life as a good samaritan citizen lol
i used this picrew if you’re curious ;))
i’ve been thinking about making more lore for her deputy self lately since replaying the game, and definitely ended up simping for sharky again oops so let’s make some trauma- i mean lore about deputy mateo😌 im bouta break hearts with this one, mine included TwT
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does it get any easier to think about death. it’s just way too permanent for my comfort. I think about never seeing my loved ones and holding them close. having permanent loose ends on my timeline. dying without fulfilling big dreams of mine. never looking in the mirror to find the version of me that lived up to all of her potential. what’s really scary for me is imagining myself during. will i be lonely and scared? will i call out for help and have nobody come to my side? i’m so scared. surprisingly, it is comporting to think about the many versions of death. will i become grim reaper among a rag tag group of other reapers processing emotional baggage over morning coffee and waffles? will i fall down a dark void that leads me to my next life in alternate universe? will i be huddled in the corner if my own mind replaying my life like a movie, just watching for all of eternity? these are my top 3 options tbh. i want to stop being sad but i really have to acknowledge how much i just want to hug my brother and sister, my boyfriend, and my ex best friend. i want to cry and save myself because nobody else is going to. but i have no power over this situation and i hate it. but i want to live and i feel like this worry is legitimately shortening my life span.
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Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".
Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"
And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".
Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.
At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.
So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!
Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!
Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!
Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.
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💖 Day 3.5 is now available! 💖
For the last couple of months, only Server Boosters had access to the 3.5 update... Buuuuut now it's available for everyone to play in the 14DWY Discord — and soon itch.io once I'm happy with the QA and state of the game — so please don't feel pressured to join unless you want to!!
The full devlog + even more screenshots are under the cut ^^
What's been added to the 3.5 version?
📺 Streamer Mode!
I've been told that it's difficult to stream and monetise age-restricted videos on YouTube and Twitch, so I added an option to remove the sexual content and strong language used in the demo.
Now y'all can invite Ren into your bed for cuddles without putting your streamer career on the line /silly /lh
This won't affect the 18+ rating or dark themes/elements of the game, however! Although Streamer Mode will prevent you from seeing any "gruesome" CGs in the future, most of the core elements of the game will still be tied to the choices and decisions you make. So you won't miss out on the overall experience by using streamer mode!!
⚙️ Custom Pronouns!
It only took me one entire year to get around to it, but you can finally choose your own preferred pronouns (or use a set of pronouns instead)... At the cost of being able to change them mid-game ^^;
Since the original pronoun screen wouldn't update until a new scene was displayed, I temporarily disabled the feature. But once I find a workaround, I'll bring it back!
💗 Choose how others perceive you!
You can now choose how the cast and narration perceive you! Originally, the narration was kept strictly gender-neutral (outside of pronouns and genitalia picked by the player), but this will soon change in future updates.
For more clarity: you don't get to choose the words specifically, but you can choose between masculine, feminine, and androgynous terms!
📋 Separate top and bottom genitalia!
You can now choose your tatas and pps separately! >:3
Alongside that, you can also choose your preferred body type!
I removed the "both" genitalia option because a few players still assumed it was an obscure version of "intersex". That wasn't my intention and I don't want to mislead anyone, so I took it out for now ^^;
I also didn't want to include a screenshot of the new genitalia choices in action (because it's NSFW), so y'all get the same character menu screen for the nth time instead lmao
📱 Relationship Screen Overhaul!
You can now change your own status for more immersion, and long-term Server Boosters will eventually be able to submit and use their own icon within the game as well!
Stalking finding your friends has now become easier by using "Buddy Maps"; a new app that allows you to see the location of all the cast members!
I want to offer players more incentive to check the relationship screen since they tend to miss the status updates, so hopefully this might help ;v;
It also says it "updates every few hours" so folks don't go overboard and check every 5 seconds to see where Ren is gdsghf (also keep in mind that he's a hacker lol)
🖤 Additional Scenes Update!
Day 2 received a brand new CG!!!!! Originally, I planned on only adding a few CGs sporadically throughout the game, but it didn't feel right to leave Day 2 so... empty... so I added a brand new CG to (hopefully) make things feel more balanced and natural!
If you decline Teo's offer on Day 3, Leon will now call and try to convince you to reconsider. However, players are still allowed to decline, and if they do, they'll reach a dead end.
After listening to feedback on itch, I changed some of the dialogue during Days 1-3 to make it seem more consistent! They're only small changes though, so it's honestly not worth looking for sdgjssga
🎶 Updated BGM and SFX!
I wanted to try out a different style of music to see if it fits the vibe of 14DWY more! The BGM features more acoustics to suit the "beachy" theme of Corland Bay, though I made a conscious effort to include piano elements as well to stay true to the original!!
I figured it'd be better to give players a live example before I make a poll (to see if they prefer the change or not) and publish it to Itch.
Some new SFX have also been added, though it's very minimal and honestly not that noticeable.
How to download and play the update?
(warning: clicking on the following links will open Discord!!)
To download the Day 3.5 update, simply join the 14DWY Discord server, verify your age, and visit the "14dwy-updates" channel!
Alternatively, you can also wait until the update is publicly released on Itch to play it as well!! (It normally gets released shortly after a round of QA testing/getting feedback from the server, though I may release it earlier if I feel like it hehe ^^)
Enjoy!!
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