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shadowlord23 · 3 months

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Rainy Days ☔

⭐Cg Steve and Bucky X Autistic Y/n⭐

Y/n has autism. Based on how I feel when im overstimulated and what helps me. It is different for everyone so please be respectful of their boundaries❤️

No Nsfw

Warnings: Teper tantrum, autistic meltdown, Non-verbal

Nicknames: Da, Little one, doll

Y/n cried as they sat at the window, It wasn’t fair! They were supposed to go to the fair, but Da said they couldn’t now. They had been planning on going all week! They knew that Tony and Nat were still going with their guardians. Y/n didn't get why they couldn't go with them. They had even made sure to be extra good for Bucky and Steve.

They didn’t even give them a good reason for not being able to go. Steve has claimed it was because it was raining and wasn’t going to stop. Y/n might have gotten mad and started to yell and fight with them, which they were willing to let run its course till Y/n was feeling better, but once Y/n started to get too overstimulated and hit themself, they put a stop to it. Bucky had gently grabbed Y/n and held them tightly till they calmed down.

After a y/n had calmed down a little longer, Steve asked if they wanted to go sit for a bit, they weren’t in trouble, Bucky had reminded them but maybe sitting for a bit would help them. So that is where Y/n was. They got to pick the spot and were allowed to have their comfort item as they sat and worked through their breathing exercises.

“Y/n?” Steve asked kneeling in front of them with a small smile, “Do you wanna come talk to us about what's going on?”

They nodded and Steve picked them up and rubbed their back as he walked to the living room, and sat next to Bucky.

Bucky smiled at them. “Feeling better boll?”

Y/n shakes their head, gesturing for their iPad. Steve and Bucky had been taking the time to learn sign but it was a slow-going process. Buck passes it to Y/n, both him and Steve waiting while Y/n writes and selects what they want to ‘say’. Y/n frowned as they struggled to put into words how they felt.

‘Not fair. Planned to go. Why change?’ The device says as Y/n looks up at them.

“Because of the weather love. We told you that this morning.” Steve replied gently. “It's not good for you to go out in weather like this.”

Y/n shook their head. ‘I dress warm. Tony, Nat get to still go.’

Steve sighed, “I know they are going still, but they aren’t like you, love.”

“Yeah, doll,” Bucky runs a hand through Y/n hair, “Rember what we talked about. You have a weak immune system. You can't be out in weather like this for so long.”

‘I dress warm. Had planned for this.’ They glare at them. They didn't know how to explain what was going on. They had planned their whole week and day around going to the fair. They had planned what they were going to do, and what they needed to do to be able to enjoy the day. Everything was messed up now. Nothing was going right, they had it all planned out, and now… everything feels wrong. They shook their head, flapping their hands.

‘Wrong, wrong wrong.’ They got down and pulled a blanket close covering their head.

Steve sighed unsure how to help them. Bucky got down and sat across from Y/n.

“Im sorry we had to change things so last minute. We just can’t risk you getting sick, love. Do you understand?” He asks. Y/n nodes under the blanket. They understood but they didn't like it. It makes them feel icky. Bucky watches the blanket before turning on a show he knows Y/n likes and sliding the tablet under the blanket, along with some of their favorite stim toys.

Y/n stayed under the blanket for some time before pulling it down. Steve was about to say something but Bucky stopped him, shaking his head. After a moment Y/n talks.

“I-i had planned o-on the trip. E-everything was p-planned, perfectly. I-I didn't plan to stay home.” They pull the blanket close and play with a fidget toy. “I-I didn't plan…” They whisper.

“Maybe we can plan something else to do today?” Bucky says moving closer to y/n, s that their knees are touching. “If you want we could do a movie, read?” He said gently. Y/n thinks about it before slowly nodding.

“M-maybe we could watch the Hobbit movies? And color?” They nervously asked.

“Yeah, we could do that. And what were you thinking we would do for dinner?”

“I-i thought we could get Chinese from that shop we like…s-since it was on the way home…”

“We can definitely order from there!” Steve says with a smile.”They do deliver, lovely.” Steve says as he sits down next to them. Y/n softly smiles and moves so they are being held in Bucky's lap.

“I-Im sorry da’s.” They say as they curl up a little.

“It’s ok lovely. It was a stressful morning. Let's get you in some comfy clothes, ‘k? ” Bucky smiles and rams a hand through Y/n’s hair. Bucky stands up with Y/n in his arms and heads to the room. “Im taking my little one to Isengard!” Bucky says with a laugh.

“Da. That’s Lord of the Ring!”

#age regression #sfw agere #autism #actually autistic #age regressor #sfw interaction only #sfw regression #marvel

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pokemenlovingmen · 1 year

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Hello! I just read the thing I requested and I LOVE IT!!! While reading, I was thinking about how tall S/O compared to Ingo would be. I live for tall s/o fr and dw! I love it when the story is long, it just gets me motivated to read more! so while I still have the chance, can I request tall, extremely calm, and works at the subway masc s/o with Ingo and Emmet? (it can be poly, Not blank shipping ofc) - 🚆Anon

man y’all REALLY want to have a

relationship huh?

I mean… me too though.

I love it, let’s do it!! I just think these pokeguys have had plenty of time to tower over people… if no one is cooking up big spoon reader content, then I’ll do it myself!

Thank you very much for your request, I love the train men haha. And I’m also very glad you enjoyed my previous piece I made for you!! You’re so kind. I’m still very much feeling my way around, trying to figure out what I want from this blog, and y’all have been so sweet. It’s why I feel bad not writing as frequently as I could! I love you guys, my fellow gay yearners out there, y’all are my brothers lmao. I hope you enjoy this one as much as you did the last! (And maybe one day I’ll figure out not just how long I want my actual posts to be, but these intros as well. Too much free space for me to ramble in lmfaooo.) Since you said S/O, I’m going to write this as an established relationship! Also the submas are written as autistic because I’m autistic and I make the rules. Thouuuugh this did end up a little too focused on the twins’ autism coded behavior and I apologize for that. I got a little too into it. But at the same time you can pry autistic submas out of my cold, dead autistic hands I refuse to write them as anything but

The Pillar of Calm — Ingo and Emmet (separately!) with tall, calm depot agent S/O

Emmet

⚪️ — Well, no matter what, the most important thing you need to know about him is he loves you verrrrry much!

⚪️ — You two met when you transferred to work at Gear Station after your first long-running job at the Magnet Train station in Johto. Definitely a bit of a culture shock, considering battles are a BIG no-no on those trains, but you figured things out pretty quick. One of the most important parts of adjusting to your new job was, of course, meeting the subway masters to get the proper rundown on how things worked around here, and that’s where it started.

⚪️ — Emmet is a ball of hard-to-contain energy that he constantly needs to express via stimming or just moving around, and even if words aren’t his strong suit, he has a woeful amount of things he wants to say. You being the strong silent type who can somehow keep a level head in any situation and seldom expresses anything, it seems like your personalities would clash horrifically. But when breaks were called around Gear Station, you were one of the first faces Emmet saw as he hopped off the Super Double Line, and you being your grounded self was honestly reassuring to be greeted with after all the stimulation the constant battling is. The more you hung out, the more it became apparent Emmet could just find some calm and steady his tremendous energy with you there to ground him. It ended up becoming a bit of a behind-your-back joke around Gear Station as other depot agents took bets on when one of you would finally stop dragging your feet and ask about being more than friends.

⚪️ — But that was a long time ago. This is the now!

⚪️ — In the same fashion that brought you two together in the first place, you’re one of the first depot agents Emmet sees when he hops off the train for breaks or for closing, and he’ll come bouncing up to you when he sees you. Right away you lock arms—Emmet loves all the excitement of his job, without a doubt, but sometimes he can just overload without even realizing it’s happening. But you’re so stable and your arms are so strong, kind of locking himself to you brings him back down to earth from all the battling adrenaline.

⚪️ — It’s funny watching you two walk hand-in-hand, or with locked arms. You have a very stiff and simple stride and as calm as you are, there are no points of tension or parts of your body that just need to move sometimes. Meanwhile Emmet takes those big, toy soldier-like steps with perfectly straight legs and swings his arms so much, so walking together you’re perfectly still save for whatever arm he’s swinging around with his motions. You’re never bothered, though. It’s all very cute and you don’t mind your arm getting a little sore from Emmet just being Emmet. You wouldn’t have it any other way.

⚪️ — It’s okay that he’s not great with his words or that he can’t script when apart from Ingo if he’s around you. He can talk as much as he wants with no expectations of making sense or proper sentence structure or correct tone. You’re so laid back, you don’t mind any of it. You feel pretty special for being one of the only people on earth who can make Emmet comfortable enough to stray from his usual script and just talk and talk.

⚪️ — Carry him!! If you’re strong enough, that is. When you two get home from a long day of work, you’ll often find your arms full of giggling Emmet. He actually really likes to be held, and not many people are as significantly taller than him as necessary to do that. (Part of the reason why he’s attracted to guys, to be honest. Hold him with those big strong arms!)

⚪️ — Did I mention your calmness is really grounding? Because it is. He knows there’s no judgement with you and you aren’t a struggle to read when you take so much in stride. It’s so rare and strange to say, but Emmet feels like he can make mistakes around you. And have those mistakes not be a bad thing, I mean. He’s always heard of mistakes being learning tools, but they’ve always felt so punishing to him, he never knew why anyone would want to learn through messing up. At least, not until he met you and he realized he could flub his words and commit any social faux pas when he interacts with you, because he knows you won’t judge. You’re safe. When he’s with you, the world isn’t so harsh and judgmental, it doesn’t pick him apart so severely for being “weird” and “different”. It’s so liberating, to feel so safe in making mistakes and knowing you’ll still love him at the end of the day.

⚪️ — And for your part, you struggle feeling strong feelings, especially excitement. So when good things happen, Emmet feels the excitement for the both of you, and his energy definitely seeps over to you! With him around, feelings don’t blend together and fade into each other so easily. He never expects you to change, he loves your calmness, and it only brings him even more delight when you do get excited about something, because that something really must be amazing, then!! It’s just so comforting to have Emmet there and watch him emote for the both of you.

⚪️ — Beyond the actual therapeutic, helpful little things about this behavior, it’s also just adorable. You make that well known, because Emmet likes that you think he’s adorable. Him? Really? Even if his smile is creepy and never goes away, or he’s always tense and shaking around, or his eyes seem too blank or glassy, you think he’s cute? He’s rather insecure about his appearance, actually—he’s been called creepy and weird many times before, mostly regarding his smile and his erratic movements, so hearing you like all that about him is just so, so validating!

⚪️ — You better be a good big spoon because Emmet loves snuggling up to you and being in your arms. If you’re having a bad day, though, your height difference won’t stop him from holding you! He’s lived with Ingo his whole life after all, he’s gotten pretty good at reading fairly minimal indicators of mood since he’s used to going off so little so he always knows how you’re feeling.

⚪️ — Expect a lot of quick shows of physical affection. He’ll crush you in a side-hug for exactly two seconds before running off, he’ll bounce onto his toes to kiss you on the cheek, he’ll nuzzle his head into your shoulder before it‘s about time to get off the couch and head for work, he just likes physical affection and squeezes in it whenever possible. He’s just always very busy, and that applies to just his thought process and usual way of conducting himself, too, but you never complain about his style of affection.

⚪️ — Of course you swap train stories and facts! He’s very fascinated hearing about the Magnet Train, Unova really hasn’t got around to utilizing high-speed railways yet. And if you have any questions about the Battle Subway, he’s happy to answer!

⚪️ — Emmet’s a professional, of course, so he’s not going to be all over you at work, but he doesn’t hide your relationship either. If you’re working his line and he gets off the train in time to spot you, he’ll run over and give you a quick peck before heading off to wherever he’s headed.

⚪️ — Since words aren’t his forte, he uses all these quick shows of affection as his “I love you”s. So Emmet has likely seldom or even never said a verbal “I love you” to you, but that’s okay, because you know that’s what every one of his kisses and hugs mean.

⚪️ — If he’s ever getting overstimulated or just plain riled, you give his hand a comforting squeeze that makes everything slow down a bit.

⚪️ — Ingo loves you, by the way (in a platonic sense). He’s delighted to see someone make his brother so happy, and to see Emmet has found someone he doesn’t have to mask with that’s not just him or Elesa. He would do the classic family move and warn you that you better treat Emmet right, but Ingo doesn’t find that warning necessary. He’s seen you working even before you and Emmet got together and knows you’re not at all fickle about your commitments. He’s not worried.

⚪️ — At the end of a long work day, you can expect to find you and Emmet tangled up in each other’s lanky arms and legs, surrounded by all your Pokemon both on and off the bed. And there Emmet will talk and talk, and probably make no sense while he does it, but that’s alright and he’s just happy to spill his thoughts without worrying about how he structures them. He’ll often go until he’s yawning, at which point you shush your beloved conductor and encourage him to maybe go to sleep.

⚪️ — Before burying his face into your chest or stomach, he’ll mumble out a sleepy “well, next stop: dreamland… aaaall aboooard…!” just because he knows it makes you laugh. You’re so stoic, but he absolutely can make you laugh with ease.

⚪️ — He loves that laugh of yours, because hearing it reminds him how free and happy you two are to express yourselves in the safety of one another’s company.

⚪️ — And when you both wake up in the morning and start getting ready for work all over again, Emmet always manages to find some words with so much less effort than it usually takes him as he barges into the bathroom to help you straighten your tie.

“I am Emmet. And you look verrrrry handsome today.”

Ingo

⚫️ — Everything is Emmet’s fault here. I mean… look, he knows that despite what people think, his brother can feel joy and actually feels it quite often, but it can be hard for Ingo to keep up with how upbeat Emmet is and his brother recognizes that as loud as Ingo can get, Ingo is really more built for the quiet and the calm.

⚫️ — (Most of the time. He definitely has his moments, but unlike Emmet he doesn’t have that surplus of energy to always be shaking out. Ingo is just a bit naturally more reserved. He is certainly more verbose than Emmet, but is actually less of a fan of being social than him.)

⚫️ — So knowing he was the personality Ingo spent the most time around, Emmet really got to thinking his brother needed someone who matched his energy levels better. In general, he thinks Ingo needs someone! It makes him verrrry sad, but he knows challengers approach him much more often than Ingo solely because his outward demeanor is more approachable to people. And by god, Emmet is determined to get more people as loud and proud members of the Ingo fan club.

⚫️ — Unceremoniously shoving his poor brother into you, a complete stranger who Emmet deemed to match Ingo’s “vibes”—at their workplace no less!—was probably not the ideal way to go about it, but you guys are dating now so it really is Emmet’s last laugh this time.

⚫️ — Ingo is very quiet and slow with his affection—at least, when he wants to be. There’s a time for words, definitely, but he honestly spins his wheels endlessly when he does talk and considering he has to take charge in that department for both his and Emmet’s sake, he likes being able to wind down with you.

⚫️ — (Definitely not me gay yearning looking up all different types of cuddles but) He likes to sleep in the sweetheart’s cradle position with you. Being nestled in your arms is very comforting for him, and when he can’t sleep, being so close let’s himself get lost in… well, you. He’ll trace his fingers across your skin, just focusing on the texture, listen to your heartbeat as he lays his head on your chest, or bury his head in your side and try and figure out what that body wash you used is supposed to smell like. He can be a restless sleeper, as his mind’s always buzzing every which way, but he always drifts back off eventually when he’s with you.

⚫️ — He does get a little embarrassed about how clingy he can get and how much he wants to be held, though, but you’re just there to love him even if he gets a little flustered about it.

⚫️ — Not huge on PDA because of his self conscious-ness, and NONE at all if you’re at work. This is a professional environment, after all! Of course, you’re so calm and laid back, that’s not an issue for you. Hey, whatever he wants.

⚫️ — Ingo loves his brother, he loves him more than life itself, but despite being identical twins they don’t see eye-to-eye on everything—Emmet’s excitability and energy being something Ingo doesn’t really have. He can get into those moods and does like excitement from time to time, but as much as he adores his job, the constant excitement can be a little much and he can rely on you for some quiet and calm in his life. He doesn’t need to maximize his energy and put on a show to be enough for you.

⚫️ — You’re so quiet, sometimes he worries his lack of volume control upsets you. He’s always so loud, and you’re… not. But you’re okay with him that way, you tell him you understand that’s a hard thing for him to control and the boisterous voice is something you love, anyway. It’s so uniquely him, just something you can hear and smile to yourself about as you think “yep, that’s Ingo”.

⚫️ — Also a bit nervous about publicly being in a relationship, but hey, you’re willing to take it at whatever pace he’s most comfortable with!

⚫️ — You use your height to your advantage, doing stuff that flusters him often—because you know for all his huffing about it, he loves the attention. You swipe his hat sometimes at home and tousle his hair, only to plop it back down all the way over his eyes. You put your arms around his waist when he’s not looking and lift him up, just a little bit—that move is especially useful when Ingo is overworking himself, because he’s literally powerless in that situation and will just hang there, defeated while you carry him somewhere else like you’re a child with an oversized teddy bear.

⚫️ — You and Emmet are some of the only people who can get a real smile out of him. He absolutely still enjoys himself and feels a good amount of joy daily, he just seldom smiles to express it. But you and Emmet are both capable of pushing him into such a good mood, the corners of his mouth twitch up a little bit into his unique half-smile. (Ingo is very self conscious about how unnatural it looks, but you think he’s adorable and it kills him a little every time when you compliment his smile in spite of him growing up hating it. So with how good of a mood he already has to be in in order to get that tiny smile in the first place, that mood only soars higher once you start complimenting said smile. Very pleasant situation he can get himself stuck in.)

⚫️ — Will happily invite you to join him for safety checks on his lines, and even though he’s very much a “no romantic interactions at work” kind of guy, he’s guaranteed to happily infodump about the trains if it’s just the two of you. He’s thankful you’re such a good listener.

⚫️ — One of his favorite shows of affection to you is kissing the back of your hand, especially to say goodbye whenever you need to part ways—and no, he definitely doesn’t go after your hand because he can’t reach your face.

⚫️ — I feel like both he and Emmet need regular reminders to take care of themselves, but Ingo is definitely the more stubborn one in that department, at least when it comes to the business/paperwork side of running the Battle Subway. Emmet throws every ounce of his energy into the battles he loves so much and is so tired by the end of the day, Ingo doesn’t want to make him do it! But in convincing him to step away from work, he’ll at least begrudgingly listen to you.

⚫️ — The only time Ingo’s voice is at its true quietest is at night, when you two are laying next to each other in bed. Your fingers running through his hair, his hand laced with yours, you’re used to him half-consciously mumbling about his feelings when he’s close to falling to sleep, because Ingo’s a sentimental dork and the sleepier he gets, the harder it is for him to hold back rambling like an idiot. He can’t help it! He compensates for his lack of physical emoting by always outright stating what he’s feeling and thinking—at least, most of the time—and though he’s never dishonest about how strong his feelings for you are, a tired Ingo is the sappiest Ingo.

“Mmh… I love you… so much…”

“I love you too, Ingo.”

“I’m so… lucky to have a man like you in my life…”

“You’re sweet.”

“I just love you so much…! With all of my heart…”

“I do too, Ingo. But you should go to sleep now, really.”

#pokemon x reader #ingo x reader #emmet x reader #pokemon male reader #emmet x male reader #ingo x male reader #blankshippers dni I’ll actually bite you and not let go <3 #🚆

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littleblueberryartist · 1 year

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Genshin Neurodivergent Headcanons!

Note: Most of the hcs I have are ADHD related! I know that there's a lot more to neurodivergency than just ADHD, however as someone with ADHD myself I tend to base hcs off on my own experiences and projections lol so if you were wondering this is why

Anyway on with the hcs!

Venti: ADHD

He is. So full of love. He loves deeply and wholeheartedly and cares so damn much be it romantic or platonic attraction (adhd making your feelings feel so big they'll burst right out of your chest)

I think they used to be a lot more emotional back when they first became a god (he's far from stoic and still super expressive now, but he keeps his true emotions under lock and key)

the NB and the Old Mond Gang taught him to love and care and fight for freedom, but they weren't used to the sheer intensity of human emotion (emotional disregulation go brrrr)

holds strong to his ideals and beliefs

the wind is constantly blowing and venti is constantly moving

tons of dopamine from music fr

Coming up with sick rhymes is really mentally stimulating

fast paced brain + 2.6k years worth of experience is how he comes up with new songs and rhymes so fast

Good with words but can get rambly and a bit long winded (not as long winded as ZL tho)

He would do the stimming hand flaps he absolutely would

wing flap stims in archon form too

vocal stims this guy thrills like a bird and makes wind chime noises

hates the texture of cheese specifically but I don't think he says much about the actual taste?? kinda like me with tuna so sensory sensitivity???? (I love cheese tho)

despite being my most brainrotted character I don't have too much in game evidence for ADHD Venti lol it's all vibes

also he's my comfort character so they're just like me fr (and that includes the they/them pronouns)

Yoimiya: ADHD

Easily excited and feels deeply and wholeheartedly (adhd dials feelings up to 100 and that includes the positive ones)

She talks a lot, runs on sentences and sometimes doesn't even realise that she's doing it, changes topics a ton

talkativeness is a way that adhd can manifest and it's one of the ways it shows up in me

her vibes and how she talks reminded me a lot of myself and I got attached (she's just like me fr)

hyperfixates on fireworks don't @ me

Man I sure am lucky I hyperfixated on my family business and never stopped

the colourful lights of the fireworks are a visual stim for her

vocal stims and echolalia

the latter happens a lot when she's hanging around kids bc I do it with little sister

She runs all over the place and is just generally super active and lively (see: her dashing around in the genshin lantern rite promotional vid)

Albedo: ADHD + Autism

only puts in effort and excels in shit that interests him

hyperfixates on art and alchemy he's my inattentive adhd bestie

absolutely twice exceptional (gifted + neurodivergent)

this entire link: https://www.reddit.com/r/Genshin_Impact/comments/mehjk5/hypothesis_albedo_has_adhd_inattentive_type/

He doesn't exhibit many outwardly hyperactive traits but his mind is constantly going

I've seen the Autistic Albedo hc much more than I've seen the ADHD one and I agree with both. Co-morbid king

He likes Dragonspine bc the snow absorbs sound and helps with overstimulation

Sucrose: ADHD + Anxiety

lost her friends before. I'm a bit luckier in this aspect I think, but a lot of adhd peeps have a hard time making and keeping friends

Past rejections have affected how she views herself and her relationships

RSD from both the anxiety and ADHD god help her

This sense of guilt for bothering people just by talking to them even though she knows logically that that's not how it works (aqua your projection is showing-)

Particularly prone to overstimulation by noise because of her enhanced hearing

ND to ND communication with Albedo (and honestly Timaeus too)

Alchemy hyperfixation. Specifically bioalchemy and sweet flower modifications

either way she's the genshin ver of my biology special interest so I want to be friends

Hutao: ADHD (This hc was absorbed over from a friend bc I don't actually know her lore that well)

Whismy!!! Sillay gal!!!

she pulled a me when she was younger and decided "Oh I'm weird? Well guess what I think it's cool so now I will be cringe and free"

would rather die than be bored (me too)

loves pranking and poking reactions out of ppl

Some ADHD ppl like to start drama for the thrill/stimulation

This entire chunk of her character story 1

A lot of ppl with ADHD study or read better while moving around or standing

Doing handstands can also be her way of making things more interesting or challenging (gamification to get rid of boredom)

She's very whimsy as a character but takes her job as a funeral director very seriously

Man I sure am lucky I hyperfixated on my family business and never stopped

Kazuha: some flavour of nd but also ???

very in tune with the environment and good with slight sounds and smells

adhd brain taking in all the sudden random changes maybe???? nature is his interest so it catches his eye and keeps his focus perhaps???? idk the adhd "hey look at that bug" meme

particular about how his food is made even tho he may not always get that luxury with his life as a wanderer, food/sensory sensitivities?????

yeah not too sure on this one but putting here anyway bc I like him

#genshin impact #Venti #Yoimiya #Albedo #Sucrose #Hutao #Kaedehara Kazuha #headcanon #aqua's ramblings

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c-m-stuff · 1 year

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On Edge

-Description: You and Spencer are married. When Spencer was on edge and experienced a meltdown, you were by his side.

-Warnings: Angst, fluffiness, language, Autism Spectrum Disorder (Spencer), meltdown, stimming

-Word count: 859

-Note: Hey y'all, how are you guys doing? This is a heavy subject, so please be respectful about it. But, I'm sure you all are. Remember also that experiencing a meltdown is for everyone different. That being said, I hope you enjoy this comforting one shot.

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Spencer POV:

I sat in the interrogation room, as Abby Lim sat in front of me, a confident grin plastered on her face. She's the only one who knows where she hid her victims, and for some reason, I'm the only one who she would tell. Of course, this is not easy, meeting her everyday for a week now. Today was the same song.

Only today, I wasn't ready for it. I was overstimulated, and was already on edge. A stubborn unsub, who would constantly tease me, was the last thing I needed.

Abby laughed, her somewhat long nails scraping against the table, making a terrible sound. I winced at it, as suddenly the lights got brighter and the effort to not stim got harder. I took a deep breath, maybe I could make it.

'What? You don't like that?' once again she scraped her nails against the table, causing me to let out a whine and covering my ears.

'I didn't know you were a child, Spencer.' for now the third time she let her nails scrap, tears pricking at my eyes.

I was embarrassed. It was one thing that the team witnessed me in this state, but Abby too? I wasn't able anymore to not stim, rocking now back and fort, as I could feel the control slipping away. I wished, I just could disappear.

'Stop! That's enough!' my wife's voice sound through the room, making Abby only laugh at her. I stood up, flapping my hands in the hope to shake the feeling off. But, it wouldn't go away.

'Everything is going to be okay, Spence.' (Y/N) reassured me.

In the years we've know each other, she learned a lot about my meltdowns and the do's and don'ts. For example, she didn't touched me, and I was more than grateful for that.

'So, is that your caretaker? Does she needs to take care of you like a little child?' she was challenging me, while tears escaped my eyes, and my breathing began to get more uneven. I need to get out of here.

'That's enough, Abby!' my wife called, but before we could close the door, Abby yelled:

'You're so weak, Spencer! Can't even handle a little scraping.' the door was closed, and I couldn't hold back any longer. I ran towards the empty conference room, my wife close behind me.

I sat down on the floor, my hands around my legs, rocking back and fort. I was crying uncontrollably, not being able to hold in my loud sobs. (Y/N) came in and immediately locked the door. She came running towards me, position herself by my side.

'I don't know if you are in the mood for physical contact, but just know that I'm here. Do whatever is best for you.' I contemplated it, but came to the conclusion that I was starving for her cuddles and comfort.

I fell into her arms, trying to get as close as possible, while I buried my face into the crook of her neck, crying. She welcomed my body, her arms wrapped around me, protectively, placing sweet kisses on my head.

'Everything is going to be okay, love. You get through this, it won't last forever, I promise. Please, don't mask around me. You can stim as much as you want, I won't judge you for it. I won't judge you for anything. But, I need you to know that what Abby said was all bullshit. You are definitely not a child, Spencer. And, you are certainly not weak. You're one of the strongest people, I ever met. I know it's hard, but please don't kick your ass and be embarrassed about it. No one's judging you.'

I let the words sink fully in, and eventually, my tears lessened. (Y/N) kept gently caress my hair, while drawing invisible symbols on my arm. I felt at ease again. The words kept going through my mind, as I clenched to my wife's shirt, as if to remind myself, she is not just a beautiful dream. She is real.

'Are you feeling a bit better, sweetheart?' I nodded, not sure if I could speak again. I tried it anyways.

'Only tired.' I whispered, fighting against the exhaustment that overwhelmed me.

'You can sleep soon, I promise.'

'Thank you for everything. You don't know how much you helped me. I love you.'

'I love you, Spence. And, I meant every single word of it. What about, we go home? It's anyways the end of the workday, and you could use all the sleep you can get.'

'Please.'

Not much later, we were both sound and asleep into each others arms.

#criminal minds #cm #fanfic #spencer reid #spencer reid x reader #spencer reid x yn #autism #fluff imagine #angst imagine

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b0d1ly-st3w · 1 year

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have my postal 1 dude headcanons because hes so meeeeee

tw for mentions of self harm

• hed just barely turned 20 by the time postal 1 happened

• a bit of a mallgoth, really loved nine inch nails and marilyn manson

• had a really bad self harm addiction back in highschool, he was 2 years clean by postal 1

• actually felt so bad for everything hed done, cant even hear fake gunshots without wanting to throw up

• i believe that the demon was responsible for his breakdown, it convinced him that everyone was poisoned and that he was the only one that could save them

• schizophrenic, has hurt himself before because voices convinced him to do so

• shy and selectively mute

• other postal dudes treat him like a kid because of his age (postal 4 dude is his parental figure)

• asshole dad who was never around

• smokes like a chimney, anytime anyone sees him he always seems to have a cigarette in his hand

• great with kids, thats why he couldnt bring himself to hurt them

• the funeral ending was a hallucination (ik thats redux but they are practically the same leave me alone)

• the most traumatised postal dude

• would probs be a mitski stan

• autistic, bites the other postal dudes

• loves cats

• bisexual and in denial (has a fat crush on every single member of nin)

• just starts screaming randomly, but not in a funny way like a genuine terror way

• stares at people with his autism eyes

• wears his sunglasses everywhere

• lives off cheese and vodka (hes like an alcoholic mouse)

• absolutely loves horror movies, gets postal 4 dude to watch them with him

• scared of corkscrew, but corkscrew really likes him and feels the need to protect him

• suffered from anorexia at a young age, sometimes has days where he literally cant eat anything without crying

• people pleaser, changes his entire personality to make people happy

• loves wool sweaters, practically lives in them

• always cold

• drinks to forget

• gets randomly angry for no apparent reason, will start punching the shit out of people and screaming

• against the big light prefers lamps

• will just sit in the corner and listen while people talk

• loves pepperoni pizza

• still has braces

• probably loves hello kitty but will never admit it

• shoplifts literally anytime he goes into a store, steals things for other postal dudes

• would violently sob to real men by mitski

• bullys postal 4 dudes music but actually likes it (can you tell i love the idea of them being friends?)

i added more because ive got so many headcanons for this emo loser <3

• really picky with what he can eat, will spit anything out he doesnt like

• his family where heavily religious, thats why he wears a cross

• can fall asleep literally anywhere

• defos a stoner

• practically lived at korn concerts

• likes hugs but also despises being touched

• corkscrew carries him about everywhere, gives him piggybacks all the time

• either completely stone cold or really giggly and happy, there is no in between

• uses :⁠-⁠) :⁠-⁠P :⁠-⁠O :⁠-⁠( when texting

• probably likes cannibal corpse

• chop suey! by system of a down is his anthem

• spins around in circles to stim, postal 2 guy joins in because funni

• steals peoples jackets

• would be absolutely cracked at hatsune miku project diva

• has a hyperfixation on music and plays bass

• i think he would be really soft spoken most the time

• when hes drunk hes absolutely mayhem, runs around and throws cushions at people

• tried to give himself a stick and poke and got mad when it didnt look good

• if postal 1 was set in the early 2000s i think hed be an emo

• goes nonverbal often, hardly ever speaks

• claustrophobic, will start crying if he feels trapped

• hates parades (unless its a pride one #ally)

• (⁠●⁠_⁠_⁠●⁠) stares at people like this

• tooth gap<3333

• hates wearing bandages around his arms because theyre itchy and uncomfortable

• probably had an entire bag of bandaids on standby

• ik he canonically has sorta short hair but i like to think its really long

• wanted a mohawk

• wears eyeliner but will deny it even though its so obvious

• he did have a girlfriend at one point but she left him because he was strange (autism making him bitchless💀)

• ik this makes no sense but i think it would be funny af if he was scottish, like all the other postal dudes expect him to sound like them but then he starts speaking in the heaviest scottish accent imaginable (and before you say im only saying that because hes ginger im scottish so im actually projecting get it right)

• gave himself so many piercings but half of them closed up

• likes flavoured tea, his fav is peppermint

• would probably have a crush on tyler durden

• not really a hc but imagine him falling asleep on the sofa and postal 4 dude covering him with a nice fluffy blanket and giving him a little kiss on the forehead like dads in movies 😭😭😭

• wanted to be a musician growing up

• would watch the entire saw franchise in one sitting

• postal 4 dude always checks his arms and makes sure hes eaten, but he doesnt get upset with him if he does relapse or doesnt eat because he knows hes trying

• everyone tells him all their drama because they know he wont tell anyone (he knows everything)

• no one is willing to argue with him because he will either start crying or attack them

• probably bipolar

• signed postal 2 guys petition

• probably rabid/j

• really good at art

• scared of seagulls

• hes really lanky and tall

• (⁠;⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠) default facial expression

• red is his favourite colour

• hes an anti-shaggin moment/ref

• will just lay on top of people with absolutely no care whatsoever

• really bad at helping others, hed probably awkwardly giggle at someone crying

• he likes stuffed animals, has a whole collection of them because he was never allowed them when he was a kid

• if you asked him his pronouns hed probably bite you (he doesnt understand)

• if demon ever got a physical form all the dudes (excluding 1) would team up and beat its ass

• demon still appears sometimes and even tells 1 what to do, but he does his best not to listen

TW!! SLIGHT DESCRIPTION OF S/H

• one time postal 3 dude was just going downstairs to get some water and found 1 on the floor sobbing, hed had an episode and sliced his arm pretty bad, 3 did his best to help and swore he wouldnt tell 4 but he found out anyways

• hates chocolate cake with every fibre of his being

• paints his nails all the time, comes downstairs every day with a new colour

• one of the dudes got him a copy of pretty hate machine on cd for christmas and it was his most favourite thing for months

• loves little insects, willingly picks them up

• collects so much random shit its insane

i got more

• can never sit in pure silence because there always seems to be noise, but really its all in his head (this is based on some of the tracks from the redux soundtrack as obviously some of them are just unintelligible noise)

• picks at his skin alot

• used to skip school alot, but always did well in tests and exams

• cant swim

• actually really loved school

• salt and vinegar crisps man

• actually tried to quit smoking but failed horribly

• uses internet slang and postal 4 guy has absolutely no fucking clue what hes on about

thats all i got

#postal #postal 1 #postal dude #headcanons #tw self destructive behavior

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padawansuggest · 2 years

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Happy birthday!!!!

Have you considered Obi-Wan just melting when someone (Cody) runs their hands through his hair and gives him a hug - I just think they deserve an opportunity to be soft

Thank you so so much!!!

Okay. So. Story time.

I have a spinal condition that until I was medicated for it three or so years ago, it made all my nerves hurt. Even my skin hurt. Not big, I’m not getting into that here. It’s a permanent condition and it’s mega rare so it’s a lot to get into.

But I was still a touch starved person cause it hurt to be touched. Even now days I don’t like it when people touch me cause I like my skin cold (warm translated to pain and discomfort before I was medicated, and now warmth on my skin just makes me feel kinda sick most of the time, some places are good tho) so I still flinch away when someone touches me cause most people have a higher body temp than me.

But here’s the thing. Since I was still touch starved, I liked hands. Not in a sensual way, gross, I liked holding mom’s hand or dad’s hand (if he could sit still more than two minutes lmaoooo got the ADHD from him) and just playing with them. Not holding them, but running my fingers all over them. I also ADORED playing with peoples hair. I have no doubt I’ve annoyed quite a few people by playing with their hair.

But. I. Love. Having my scalp played with. It’s like, yeah, pull that and scratch my skin. It’s fully sensual in that manner, I’m asexual and the feeling has nothing to do with sexuality whatsoever. It’s not a blip on the turn-on radar. But I love playing with peoples hair. I’ve never had someone play with mine tho. Sometimes I take a brush that’s mega squishable and just run it over my scalp a bunch. It feels so good.

Okay, I could go on about that forever. I am slowly learning what touch feels like when it’s not painful. It’s really awesome!!!!

Anyways. My point here. I think Obi-Wan (asexual or not, if asexual it wouldn’t progress much past this but either is fine, depends on what you like, but ace Obi-Wan has a special place in my heart so I’ll be thinking of this sorta in that direction) is touch starved.

I don’t follow the whole ‘all Jedi are celibate and never show emotion’ propaganda, because it’s bullshit and they can do as they want, but I FIRMLY believe that Obi-Wan has major PTSS (it’s no longer PTSD, it’s Syndrome, instead of Disorder now days, because it’s a syndrome of repeating flashbacks and emotions, not a disorder) from multiple things in his past, and it just gets worse over the course of the war, and by the time Cody is there Alpha and Obi-Wan have already gone through Rattatak which is bullshit of the highest order and torture that has truly fucked Obi-Wan up because it involved 100% complete sensory deprivation which would mess with his senses of ‘touch is bad, touch hurts, the elders touch with pain, Death Watch hurt me, everything hurts and I can’t trust them to touch without pain’ to ‘I just want to feel something good and there’s nothing good around’ and it’s confusing and bad and I think one day during a bad panic attack after a flashback Obi-Wan would be sitting on the floor rocking to himself because autism stimming is actually very comforting tbh but it’s really concerning cause he’s not really replying to anyone but Cody just can’t handle it and puts a hand on his head to try and get his attention-

And Obi-Wan leans into his palm, shocked, not quite back to himself yet, but far enough away that the flashbacks can’t touch him at the moment and he’s slowly pushing into Cody’s hand and it takes a minute and Helix is ready with a hypo in case they need it but like any good psych doctor will tell you, if deescalation can work, you damn well better let it, and after that long minute Cody, glove off and hand on Obi-Wan’s soft wispy hair, just starts pulling his palm down Obi-Wan’s scalp, giving him gentle scratches while he does, and Obi-Wan slowly starts to come back to himself, probably a good ten minutes of hair and scalp scratching later, purring all heavy and soft in his chest, he’s surrounded by force signatures that feel like warmth and comfort and love all around him, he wants to curl up in Cody’s arms and never leave his side, just a good little pet. He doesn’t need to think about the touch about what he wants and what he’s scared of because his men are so loving and careful, they would never let anything bad happen to him anyways.

They know who to call when Obi-Wan starts getting that twitchy look like he needs a good hand to be under.

Cody also gives good forehead kisses and back rubs (soft ones, just light petting because actual massages are supposed to hurt a little to get the muscles out, they can work out Obi-Wan’s muscles when he’s not having pain and torture flashbacks) and full body cuddles.

I truly believe these two are soulmates and life partners. Sexual or not. Romantic or not. They are perfect. Obi-Wan gives Cody care too, but everyone needs different care tbh.

So many fics be like ‘Cody gave him a cup of tea made just right and it made his depression go away’ and I’m like. That’s not really how it works. But. Okay. If anyone is interested, this is an actual form of coping therapy and can be considered exposure therapy. You get the thing you’re fearing and the better the outcome, the less you fear it. It def helps Obi-Wan cope when he thinks ‘wow, I sure would like to give someone a hug rn’ and it doesn’t make him panic about touching someone.

#star wars #obi wan kenobi #commander cody #codywan #clone wars

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i sent an ask about a month or two ago about mygos rep and my ideas about it and now that mores out i can confirm it’s so much :))))

tomori is so so autism coded. she reminds me a lot of myself and while she has some “stereotypical” traits (liking to organize and collect things, social anxiety) she also has ones that i haven’t really seen portrayed in media before ? one is her rsd, she often literally runs away from situations that make her upset which i want to do quite a lot lol. a lot of her character surrounds around her wanting to feel human, she often relates this to her ability to cry which just gives me so much low empathy vibes? i see myself in that a lot too it makes me really happy to see a character like that and they’re not seen as broken. the only person (iirc) who has said tomori is not human for her behavior and personality and everything is herself. her band mates completely support her, they don’t see her traits as wrong it’s just tomori. also she does eventually cry, it’s a big turning point in the show but it’s never directly said that that’s what makes her human. tbh it makes me kinda upset bc she doesn’t need to cry for that but it’s whatever i shouldn’t expect that much lol. she’s just so. also her special interests make me really happy, she’s portrayed really well i think with how she feels about them and how excited she gets when talking about them it makes me really happy :>

rāna is also quite autistic coded? tbh she is still quite a mysterious character but she got the most development i think in the last couple episodes. she is quite aloof and seemingly reserved, she only focuses on things when they interest her, she is generally seemed as “odd” and is often referred to as a cat/catlike, she struggles with change, and has a safe food (matcha flavored things). there’s some more specifically but i don’t want to give spoilers jic. i love her sm she’s SUPER silly.

then anon.. she isn’t really autistic coded but i think she still very much is as well as having a pd. she stims using her hair, focuses heavily on her reputation and how people view her, often wanting to be the center of attention, she tries Very hard to fit in with her peers (to the extent of even creating a band) and shows some symptoms of burnout after doing this. i realllyyy think this is masking. she also really likes fashion and makeup and i think those are her special interests. i think she’s really neat she has every disease i cannot like properly explain her tbh.

and then taki autism and bpd methinks. she has a special interest on pandas, comes off as very blunt, has trouble expressing emotions, she gets jealous easily, tomori is her fp, she is very protective of her and it gets in the way of reality at times, i feel like im forgetting something lol. she’s soooo so so. :•)

and then SOYO. soyo the bpder ever she has 97 mental illnesses and is banned in most public spaces. she masks so much. she has a very strong longing for crychic (previous band w tomori and taki and others) similar to an fp and will do anything to revert back to then, she does a lot of things to get to this and ends up going into a depressive burnout when it doesn’t work, she has a history of instability in her house and her mom is quite distant and she had to take care of her at times, this also led to her being the “mom friend” a lot of the time, she completely unmasks and her personality doesn’t really change but she is much less upbeat but also other circumstances relate to that, she also fidgets with her fingers a lot, again i feel like im forgetting stuff but she’s just. She’s so.

there hasn’t been too much development with the ave mujica characters, but mutsumi remains semiverbal/often non speaking, she gets pushed into in between students with different people/friends which i find very relatable, it feels like a common autism experience being used to mend relationships and act as an in between, she refers to this as being a “carrier pigeon” she also grows to get out of these situations and become her own person. i realllyy hope (and also think she will) she gets more development with that later. as for the other ave mujica characters i don’t really have anything else to say but nyamu autism bc i say so just look at her.

and as for stuff not really gone over in the show but my own thoughts, i love love love cane user tomori, she uses it to deal with chronic pain, she also has cfs, and so does anon. i also think mutsumi often goes fully nonverbal and uses communication cards. this show makes me feel so many things it’s the first hyperfixation ive had like this in a long time /pos. sorry for this massive thing of text and thank you for reading it!!!! i tried to break it up ik reading this myself would be tricky >_< but anyways i think everyone should watch bandori it’s mygo it gives you super autism

I LOVE HEARING PEOPLE TALK ABOUT THEIR SPECIAL INTERESTS!!!!! We still haven't seen My GO but I want to watch it, It makes me happy to see these headcanons and canon interactions that make them autism. I wish there was more assets so I could make icons.

#mod posts #disabled headcanon #bandori #bang dream #autism headcanon #my go

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tealeavesandthorns · 10 months

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OOC Post | How the 'tism affects my rping!

// I wanted to create this post to try and help people understand how autism and to an extent adhd can affect my RPing abilities.

In the past both of these things have negatively affected my ability (though to be fair I wasn't aware that either of those were problems I suffered with).

To be entirely honest, I'm still figuring out a lot about autism, about the way it affects my brain, about how it's both hurt and helped me in the past. I suppose the biggest thing I'm asking for is patience and mostly direct speech.

This post got long and a bit rambly. So the long and short of it is:

I sometimes struggle in group settings, especially where the focus becomes on the personal rather than a specific subject

I sometimes struggle with communication, including setting boundaries.

Due to masking I sometimes struggle with setting boundaries

I sometimes struggle (not autism this one but anxiety), with expectations I perceive people to have built up around me, especially when I am having a hard time.

Under the read more though there is a rambly post about struggling with rping and realisations I've had.... for those who want to read or are interested. If you have any questions too please feel free to message me.

Communication and masking are the biggest two things I have seen affect my roleplaying in the past, hence focusing on these.

Like many autistic people though I have things that run alongside my autism - anxiety, OCD, occasional depression and there's a high probability of ADHD. Whilst these have also contributed to certain breakdowns over the years I feel like the autism has been the biggest cause and now understanding it, I think, will stopped me getting burned out as easily.

COMMUNICATION & MASKING

Roleplaying is a communicative hobby - I know this, you know this. RPing requires communicating and building intricate relationships for characters with worlds and partners.

Where I struggle is when the focus switches from story to personal lives. I'm going to be direct here because it's the only way I know how to say this; I have loved every organic friendship that has come about because of tumblr and the tumblr roleplay community. However because of masking I have often put too high demands on myself or cultivated relationships where I feel I need to be available at all times. I have quickly burnt out. Because I didn't understand why I was so frustrated and upset with those relationships when they have broken down. I have disappeared or ended up alone.

I'm not just blaming my autism here, I hope that comes across. I take full responsibility for those breakdowns but the fact is I didn't understand what was happening to me.

Due to masking all my life I was unable to set proper boundaries and I began to struggle when people were talking to me about personal problems more than we were ever writing or talking about writing.

That probably sounds harsh. Writing is my special interest though and in some ways I guess it could be considered a stim. I love writing, it's all I want to do and plotting and talking about characters and headcanons and meta brought me so much joy.

I really struggled too because I felt like I wasn't being fair to people who were actively, clearly, trying to befriend me. I struggled in group settings when people tried to organize socials and even more so when there were chaotic games of cards against humanity.

Part of it was me not wanting to miss out and I absolutely could not keep up with a shedule of nights being up til 4am and then back awake for my job.

And this is where the potential ADHD comes in because inspite of all those things I LOVE a million threads, I love a million threads with different partners and with one partner. I love a million universes, I love building little universes in our corners of the internet. I love making friends and talking to people and my god if I like your character and you I will go to the ends of the earth for you. I'll help you and love on you and suggest a million threads.

That's intense right?

But see the problem is I then can't keep up that level on intensity and I burn out.

I also struggle with a strong sense of justice. I never thought I would say those words but it is now becoming abundantly clear to me that my strong sense of justice, that moral compass inside me has bitten me on the ass a few times for things that were relatively minor and that normal people can brush off.

Like I said I'm still figuring out a lot about my autism and how it impacts me in all areas of my life. Rp and writing is one of those areas I need to tease apart. It's not been as easy, as say, understanding how it effects my senses.

#;out of teaandplants #ooc #//post about autism got long and rambly so there's a top short bit and a long rambly bottom bit

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werewolf-transgenderism · 1 year

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i must know any and all merlin opinions please

ok this is LONG sorry I have many thoughts about this!!!!

Robert de Boron’s Merlin gives us a more in-depth look at Merlin’s odd childhood: he’s the child of a demon and a mortal woman, and the resulting magical powers that he possesses make for a childhood where he is simply out of time and out of place. He engages in a sort of “crip time” where everything collapses backwards and forwards simultaneously as he performs the tasks he needs to perform in order to fulfill his fated role, marking him as an other and not allowing him to fit neatly into the spaces he occupies in the present due to his looking toward the past and future.

Merlin as a child kind of freaks out the people around him, because he’s got all of these timelines converging in his mind and he’s got this skill for precocious speech that one wouldn’t expect from, like, a little kid. Jes Battis, reading these scenes in de Boron’s Merlin, argues, “a lot of hyper-verbal kids on the spectrum will get this portrayal of a kid who tends to unnerve adults with non-traditional language. Non-verbal kids on the spectrum run into similar problems as a result of their silence, which is never actually silence, but rather non-verbal interaction” (Thinking Queerly 35). Merlin, in de Boron’s text, is unable to connect with other kids his age due to his very apparent difference, and also finds himself often needing to withdraw from society into isolation to regulate himself, which Battis suggests we might read “as the strategy of someone who is easily overwhelmed—someone who flees to the woods in order to escape the sensory overload of court” (34).

From its medieval origins into modern medievalist adaptations, Merlins across the Arthurian tradition also experience an inherent neuroqueerness coming from the prophetic position they occupy. Merlin simply does not interact with the world in the same way that other people do—he can’t, when he’s got the anxieties of the past and the future weighing on him at all times, lifetimes of knowledge condensed into one person who is necessarily both within and outside of himself. He’s unpredictable, a bit unhinged, and often, as a result of his prophetic and magical powers, he’s seen by others as cold, unfeeling, and uncaring, but that couldn’t be further from the truth—he’s bursting with lifetimes of feeling that he simply cannot express in ways that are easy for those around him to interpret. (And here is where I go on my personal tangent about the inherent feeling of being out of time/out of place as an autistic person interacting with a neurotypical world that is simply not made to accommodate the ways we differ from the norm. I’ve been told I’m unfeeling and emotionless and that I speak weirdly and think in ways that don’t make sense to allistic people and I just!! have to scream!! I am SO full of feelings and emotions and love, etc., I just don’t express myself in the same ways as allistic people do!)

Merlin, across traditions, displays a neurodivergence where he’s always out of place, engaging in the kinds of neuroqueer rhetoric that M. Remi Yergeau describes as coming into being “through movement and the residues of movement, through creeping, sidling, ticcing, twitching, stimming, and stuttering” (Authoring Autism 76). Think of Sword in the Stone Merlin! He’s always stuttering, always having difficulty expressing his ideas verbally, always running into communication failures because he’s got so much knowledge from so many times and places bouncing around in his head that he simply interacts with the world in different ways from others who don’t share these experiences. Or even Merlin Merlin, with all his gumby awkward weirdness that he’s always getting into trouble with because of his magic and his destiny! Merlin’s a weird little guy, variously mad, always misunderstood, always living through a world that’s not made to accommodate his ways of thinking and being—which echoes, for me, the experience of being autistic SO clearly.

#sorry this is very long but you did ask lmao #I don't know how to put text in a readmore sooooooo #merlin my beloved weird wizard I could have written waaaay more about this but I figured one single-spaced page was more than enough #long post

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gun-powder-milk-shake · 2 years

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me and my mom are planning to ask my psychiatrist for a full psych evaluation and advice on how to get an autism diagnosis and it’s crazy how many things i’ve been describing to people that i never realized were apart of autism:

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sensory overload:

- i have an insane sensitivity to sound something that i’ve been trying to explain to people (including about 7 therapists) for years. i can feel it in my brain like in my ear IN my brain. it physically pains me and i’ve literally dropped to my knees in the middle of a school tour because i heard a random ass scraping noise. i also cannot stand pencils for one thing, the feeling of it hitting the paper is unbearable. i physically cringe everytime i see one being used and especially using one myself. istg my younger brother purposely tries to set me off and that gets me angry as fuck. this usually ends in me just screaming at the top of my fucking lungs (no words just screaming) and at times becoming physical. it’s just literally my brain doing anything possible to get rid of the sound

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masking:

- i’m still trying to find out the definition of this but i literally just talked to my therapist about this the other day. i had to permanently move from in person to online school mainly because of sensory overload but because i always fucked up socially. i pride myself on being well mannered, polite at all times, wary of other people’s needs, considerate, analyzing facial emotions, but i’m only able to do those things with people i actually know and i’ve learned over the years how to handle those people and myself around them. i never realized that until i got out of the insanely small bubble i was in. i told my therapist that “i can’t help but be myself” and by that i mean i always wanted to change myself into just being more friendly and able to keep up a conversation without being unbearably awkward, but i always fucked up.

- this has resulted in me trying to be aware of everyone around me’s needs and i try not to offend anyone. this usually ends in me breaking down because no matter how hard i try i usually end up failing and “feeling mentally ill af” as i usually call it. this is only really a problem for me with in person situations. online i am more myself and unafraid to do so because online i feel like i don’t need to hide if that makes sense?

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stimming:

- YOU WILL NOT UNDERSTAND HOW HAPPY AND RELIEVED I WAS WHEN I RESEARCHED MORE ABOUT THIS. i for a stupid amount of time have certain things i do to calm down. these things have been noticed by family friends, my mom especially, friends, and random ass people because of how strange it apparently is. what i usually do is shake my hand in an orderly manner if that makes sense. like i shake it back and forth like a tambourine. i used to do it in the middle of soccer games and that’s when people started to take notice, but now i use it in breakdowns and when my senses are overloaded. i just recently was doing it to calm myself down after a failed social attempt that was thrown at me while walking my dog (my safe space usually)

- i’ve never brought up that method before because i thought it was stupid i suppose and i have a hard time talking to people about something that matters to me without thinking that they don’t fucking care. i’ve been taught for a decade now how to do deep breathing and grounding exercises but nothing compares to that random ass jazz hand i do 🤷🏻‍♀️

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mutism (sometimes):

- something i’ve done for a long ass time now (that has gotten me into a lot of fucking trouble btw) is shutting up completely when i’m super fucking stressed. actually sometimes i just don’t feel like talking? i will stop mid sentence, like i run out of juice. even my thoughts get tired of moving, it’s relaxing sometimes. unless it’s almost involuntary, for example me struggling to form anything other than hums and grunts when spoken to. humming is a habit of mine that people point out and associate with me on a daily basis. i just hum out words and sometimes people get what i mean and sometimes they don’t. if they don’t i ignore them entirely because of how fucking pissed i get of having to repeat myself (even tho i have people repeat themselves to me all day because i always drift off)

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special interest:

- okay this one was hard to deal with because i always talk nonstop about “you’re just mad you’re not interested in anything! i’m not obsessed it just makes me really happy!”and they may have a point but at the same time fuck off because it makes me happy so leave me alone. i go into like hyper focus on really random shit. for example i’ve had years worth of phases (or current ones): sims 4 (obsessed with the control), minecraft (easy to drift away into), certain musical group (i don’t even know how to explain this one), hot wheels (holy shit i lost my fucking mind over these things growing up), etc. the thing is when i get into something, i get into it. i learn everything about it, i make whole notebooks, i make focused playlists on spotify, i daydream about it for fucking years and lose my sense of reality, etc. it becomes a staple for who i am and i guess i do get a little obsessed? but i really don’t see it that way. it’s just normal for me

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twitching (?):

- time for the “this isn’t right but i also don’t know if this is apart of asd?” i’ve read something about tics as some people have describe them? my face and body repetitively twitches hard. it usually starts when i start to get triggered but gets progressively worse as i go more into it. it can be painful at times because i can’t really control it and i knock into things (the anemia already has me knocking into things but this is different lmao)

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advice please:

- i really don’t know much about this, but i do know that autism can be genetic (i’m still researching) and both of my brothers (21 and 10) have been diagnosed with autism and it’s never really been considered for me? i have been diagnosed with all the same mental disorders as my older brother, we’re very similar when it comes to how we perform as human beings, but nobody has bothered to check with me. they usually just try to add another mood disorder, ocd, or bpd to my list.

- i’ve actually been told i display ocd tendencies by my psychiatrist and looking back at it i think it was just repetitive movements and intense bursts of energy caused from me having a breakdown

- i’m going to ask my psychiatrist about what to do and get some advice about where to go from here especially with everything i’ve learned because these basic ass anxiety and grounding coping skills aren’t working anymore and i just need something more, something that is actually helpful for what i’m going through, and i honestly believe that this is it

- please let me know any info you have, i’m researching a lot and am hyper focused on this shit like a mf but i still have some stuff that i don’t know and some paper online isn’t gonna teach that to me

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transmasc-wizard · 2 years

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Hey so nico I realise now that I copied way too many options from the ask game my apologies

If you have any, what are your special interests?

What are your most common stims?

Do you headcanon any characters as autistic? If you want, tell us why you headcanon them as autistic.

Do you find it easier to get along with other autistic people?

What kinds of things are sensory hell for you?

Are your friends and/or family accepting of your autism?

Do you enjoy hugs? Or are they sensory hell?

Tell us something about your special interest.

If you could have any item related to your special interest what would it be?

Are you generally a loud or quiet person?

What's something you find hard to do because of autism?

no problem i like to Answer Questions

what are you special interests:

i have two!!! the long-running one (ive had since i was 10 or so) is just like. fantasy stories? in general? epic fantasy first and foremost but it also bleeds into urban fantasy and more fantastical horror. this manifests mostly in writing, because the mechanisms of fantasy stories in particular capitivate me, so. writing them is fun. i am less unhinged about this one but still unhinged

the second one, which i am EXTREMELY unhinged over, is the magnus archives!!!!!!!! this special interest really only started to develop a few months ago but i know it will have its hooks in me for a very, very long time kjdhkdfg

most common stims:

listening to really loud music with a lot of Noises in it, sort of like shaking in place, hand flapping, making the motion to snap but like with all my fingers at once

headcanons:

jonathan sims, head archivist of the magnus institute, london !!!!!!! reasons: he canonically had a tendency to run away as a child (eloping), preferred books to making friends, has a very specific sense of humour others dont always get, often doesn't realize other people are joking, tends to show signs of low empathy but high compassion (not realizing people are upset, not knowing why they're upset, but wanting to help them Not Be Upset), likes things to be ordered & logical, tends to have rather black and white thinking at times/a strict (if admittedly... very strange) moral compass, and, most importantly: he is my skrunkly and i say so

i also hc Gansey from the raven cycle and Katniss from the hunger games as autistic! gansey mostly bc of vibes and parallels (the way he acts around most ppl vs his friends reminds me a lot of masking), and katniss bc of her horrible social skills, one-track mind, and. also vibes

do you find it easier to get along with other autistic people?

yes and no. other autistic people tend to be more understanding of the way i think and act, and we often share a lot of more Odd(TM) traits. but also. like . i have lived with an autistic person for over a decade (my brother). and i love him, he is my brother, but our needs as people are so incredibly clashing that it is hell to spend more than a few hours with him at a time. so yeah sometimes the answer is "yes" and sometimes it is "no" skdhfksdskdjf

sensory hell:

most noises? aksjhkdshf. just. yeah. most noises. also very light touches, they actively hurt. i also dont like the texture of velvet or anything with a strong smell.

are your friends/family accepting:

hmmm lets separate "friends" and "family" into 2 separate boxes there

friends: mostly ! sometimes they say/do stupid things abt it (like when my one friend got upset at me for losing speech and made it about her) but for the most part theyre fine.

family: dad? great. he and i think the exact same way (tbh hes probably autistic too). mom? ... sort of. only when my traits are convenient for her. rest of family? yeah mostly. they dont actually Know i dont think (except my cousin) bc no one's bothered to tell them, but theyre like "oh haha thats our nico, hes just really weird but it's fine".

hugs:

i am like a cat in that my preferences on any sort of touch change randomly at all times, but i ALWAYS need to be the one initiating it. if i want a hug, theyre great. if someone else tries to hug me without permission, i am going to bite them

tell us something about your special interest:

when season 5 of the magnus archives was begining production, it was the start of the pandemic and a bunch of people were starting up podcasts since they were bored. Alexander Newell (voice of martin, a soundscaper, and the director) was like "oh shit the microphones i need might get sold out, this is bad" (bc he had to get multiple microphones to every actor in season 5, needed backups, etc) so. he just. went (in person or online) to every single store in the country that sold them and bought EVERY SINGLE MICROPHONE OF THAT BRAND. like, he owned every single microphone of that brand in England except the ones people had previously bought. people were asking on podcasting forums "hey do you know where you can get these mics???" and he would read those and just be like. ha. hahahahahaha

if you could have anything related to your special interest, what would it be:

the official Rusty Quill "The Spiral" themed spiral notebook. 1 because i love the spiral, 2 because haha spiral themed spiral notebook, 3 because its so pretty, 4 because i have a notebook problem <3

also maybe the spiral or eye hoodie, the What The Ghost hoodie, the extended sounds of brutal pipe murder shirt, or the ex altiora shirt !! those all slap. but theyre more expensive skdhfksdfj

are you a loud or quiet person:

around new people? quiet as hell. when i'm tired? also quiet as hell. when im comfortable and not tired? pretty loud skdjfhkdhf

what's something you find hard to do:

remembering to do shit like brushing my teeth and eating 3 meels a day. also, stuff like making friends, knowing how to interact with people in what way, comforting people, etc.

#asks #will/lee #ask game #autism ask game

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fanfictionconsumer · 9 months

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i was just browsing the web and came across a few adhd and autism things

and i thought "cool maybe ill learn smth maybe ill be able to cross it off the list of shit i might be" (i recently learned neurodivergency runs in my fathers side of the family)

and some of them are fun, like the ones ab stimming(lowkey relate to those but only some)

but then there are the ones like "oh yeah i dont understand why people [blank]"

and im here like ??? so what if i dont need to understand it, if everyone around me is doing it im doing it

and now im wondering if i just have a very misconstrued way of processing things

because if i am surrounded by people, doesnt matter how long ago it was, it could have been yesterday, it could have been 5 years ago, if i have learned a behavior i will not unlearn it

like im sorry but thats just a thing i dont do

for example, sometime the past few years i got the habit of, when im in a group of people, to just. look around. and if one of the people moves their head or their hand, i stare at them until they stare back then look back down or i get bored

and it has persisted

youd think it would stop once i got out of school but no

i did that with a dog

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curiousskelekitty · 1 year

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Hey, I'm sleep deprived and blasted on weed, let's see the reasons why I think I'm autistic

I'm awakemd super from a super high nap. And it's by the smoke and smell of incenst and can't get back to sleep until incest was out and fan on

Eye contact? Either really focused on making it and not listening or focused on conversation and eyes Drifting away

Say exact same way of hello at job

And other things

Sensitive to wet and cold so much that made it part of her image

Staying awake to make this list

Even though I'm supe r high and running on 3 hors sleep, latte, and pizza and 4 hb eggs

Adhd

Special interest in pokemon most of 26 year life

Creative

And loves child things like video game sand toys, special plush toys

And weird sex too

Like even when child me MASTURBAGED WITHOUT KNOW WHAT IT WAS

sorry tmi

Holy ahky I discovered something abot me that I didn't know

Wow

Anyways

Loves reading

And loud music during loud lunch during hs

Sensitive to loud noises like toilet as child

An dlole sonic

Oh shit

It late

Waited blanket for win! Special as adult

Fighting slep to write this once again

Super shy

Talked in labg with sister when

Adhd

Goes to speech therapy

Because I don't talk

Or maybe lisp

Idk

Imaginary friends until second grade

First friend grade younger

No friends in my grade until MIDLE SCHOOL

I think

Sorry no remember

This list loooooong

Writing still very clean

Nose so dry

Oh shkt Don her

He didn't say anything about me being up

I'm supposed to be asleep

lol

Argue with my self

Like all the time

I even fight with my ocs

lol

Autism brain go

Special cartoon likeys

Just explained idea for video for YouTube to boo and we might collaborate

My mouth so drunk

Suuuuuper sensitive to socks on feet at night! Even in winter

But can't walk out iputaide without shoes

Can feel EVERYTHKNG

Loves swimming

BUT NOT RAIN

RAIN MAKE USBWEY

sinuses dry as hell I can feel the air coming in my nose and down my throat

Hereditary

Also likes anime and furries

Has phases of certain likes or Dislikes

Like love reading but then don't love reading

Hating spicy for most of life

But finding a love from some as long as there's flavors

Mexico is so pretty

Making list like this

All the time

Will hypet focus on certain things for maybe a week

And it goes in curses

Ow though hurt for typing

Do stretches kids

Never admitted to watching porn whe her life insists of romances

Daydreamer

Ever since litter

First lover

Cucumber Larry

When he gets suck on by giat alien ad hero

That turned me on

AS A KID IN CHURCH

not even four years old

wft

This might be really revealing about me and my life

…

Okay

This Is where I add more to the title of this video

To warn me of the dangers

Of whatever the fuck I'm on

Could probably make this list over 200 points

Listn3s to music at night

Might be slightly dyslexic

Swimming

Vocal Stimson

When found out about stimming

Showed more stimming

So mad

Just took like 1 min to fix stimmong to swimming

Make little songs whole life

Wow hide in DC bathroom. And sing sad songs to my self

Don't really to that anymore

Ah shit it's late

I need to pee

Sleeps with toys still

Like stuffed animals

Once could not fall sleep until Carla into toybox

Only woke up because got hot

BISEXUAL AD FUCK

when I was little I was looking g in the mirror and ask if I was more otm boy or girly Gil and decided I was in the middle

If that not nonbinary as FUCK than what is

Thinking g about if the video went famous and FIL saw and reacted

Whole family know

Please be warned

Really sensitive about certain flavores in certain tempt

Those might go on Tumblr though

Incous make a lookout of people laugh

And no one would know

Damn thos list loomg

STRETCH TIME

often godb what if whole world kno

I could go on and on

But I think I will conclude here

Thank you everyone for reading

Good night

LoL

You wish

I'm very empathic

I forget words all the time

Especially with age

Always had bad memory

Selective hearing

Forms who they are around eho they with

But my baby let me be me❤️

Sinsirve tk sounds

I'm probably going to talk to my therapist about this list next week

Realized made horrible ablist joke in my head and realized it and was like tf why

Intrusive thoughts

Holly fuck

I can do this

And this

And

This

So easily

I love animals

Dep3ndent and independent at the same time

Anxiety

Depression

I'm still making the list dumbadd

My bad

Too much of a topical thing like lotion makes me feel icky

Hated mosquitoe spray because of sticky residue and smell

Hayes perfume

Sensitive to some smells, like perfume

Body pray okay tho

And candles

Loves sweets

LOVES TO READ

Can't focus on reading

Super aware of body

Hates being touched unexpected or by stranger

Said loved all colors and didn't have official favorite color until like first grade because didn't want to hurt other colors favorite

Still doesn't have least favorite color

"Lazy"

But I'm not suppsoes to coll me that

Realistic

Made day dreams befo3e bed every night

Had one going on for about a month

Googles everything

Okay I'll go to 200

Then I'll go to sleep

Lover of computers when little

Still love them

Have several unwritten stories to tell, including like three books and three or more wannabe books

Wrote toriko slitty fanfiction church

Drew a the time

Sonic the hedged hog fan

Loves pun so much

Made up "Copper later" for funny goodbye

Lives all her sisters

And all bet peanut

Hates pumpkin guts and still hate the feeling of them

Picky eater

May13b first 2023

Special interest in music

Went into band for school ad a trumpet and played for most of life until high school graduates but was never good at it.

That sucks

I could've learned how to song better

Now that I realize my voice is good and can be better

Hates needles

Squeamish

Spiritual

Loves crystals Spiritually

Believes in a carefree, unknowing god

Two more to go

AUTISM BLAST

Weird obsession with sex since really little

Oh shkt

Just remembered something

That I never told anyone! Fucm

I won't tell you guys

Never

Okay

Good night

I love you

#long #list #autism #weedlife #personal

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pyroclastic727 · 4 years

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Is Amity autistic?

In the Owl House fandom, we hear a lot about how Luz is written to be ADHD. Now I would like to present the flipside: Amity is coded as autistic.

Here’s the breakdown.

Amity is touch-averse. “BuT aMiTy ToUcHeS LuZ aLL tHe TiMe” nice try. The key to autistic touch-aversion is only being okay with touch when she initiates it. And that totally matches up with Amity. See, Amity is really happy when she initiates touch with Luz. She’s also cool with it when Luz holds her hand after standing near her for enough time that Amity can predict an incoming touch. That’s because Amity consents to that touch and expects it.

But when other people touch her? She doesn’t take kindly to that. When Luz initially bumped into her at Covention, she snapped at her and degraded her. Even when she bumped into Luz in Enchanting Grom Fright, her initial instinct was to snap at Luz, since she didn’t expect to be touched. When Hooty touched Amity’s face without consent, she flipped out and beat him up. Not even Lilith beat Hooty up when he wrapped her up in his mucus-filled tube, but Amity gave Hooty the injuries we all wanted to see him with, because he breached her boundaries without her consent. Even as late as the last episode, Amity fell over when her face got close to Luz’s on the bleachers, because she didn’t expect it.

Amity stims. Okay, this one took me a while to catch, since most of the time, Amity is very controlled with her actions. This symptom isn’t very intense; her senses aren’t understimulated too often, and she really only does it when she’s really excited.

Mainly, when Luz offered to carry her. While she adorably scrambled for words, she also flapped her hands against her legs. At first I thought it was just a cute thing she did, but there’s more to it. She was so excited to be held by Luz that it showed up in her hands flapping...a common stim. With Amity feeling more comfortable around her new friends than the old ones, I wouldn’t be surprised to see more stimming in the future.

Amity always has The Mask as her expression. You know, the one with her eyes half-lidded, eyebrows raised, mouth slightly downturned. I also call it the Resting Blight Face, for...reasons.

At first I thought it was just a way to hide her true emotions, since her parents are assholes. But even though Luz makes her feel accepted, she keeps doing it. It’s more like...you know that feeling when you’re thinking really hard, or uncomfortable, or ashamed, or even just relaxed, and you can’t think of which expression to wear quickly enough, so you put on an unreadable one to tide people over? Apparently most people don’t do that, since allistic people tend to have expressions for those feelings, ones that arise naturally.

Another symptom of autism is having hard-to-read expressions, or being less expressive. In Amity’s case, it’s the fact that she doesn’t see a need to have an expression in calmer moments, so she just uses her usual expression.

Amity hyperfixates. This has several facets, so I’ll break this down.

She initially hyperfixated on school. And that’s how she became top student. Amity Blight is who you would mistake for a “gifted student.” But make no mistake...she is not gifted, and gifted is a bullshit label used to overexert people and force them to keep school as their special interest for their entire lives (and I may have a bit of a vendetta against it). Anyways, we already know she’s a perfectionist. My theory is that Amity originally was hyperfocused on school--the Abominations track, to be exact--and that’s part of how she got so good. Then, her focus shifted, but the school expected her to keep being top student. Cue the perfectionism; she was no longer able to focus on school like she wanted to, but everyone expected her to, so she got insecure about it.

She hyperfixates on Azura, just like Luz did. Yeah, she keeps it secret from the world, for most of the time. But she definitely likes Azura a lot. I mean, she started to reconsider her opinion on Luz when Luz offered her an Azura book. She destroyed her jock career because she tried to use an Azura move in real-life Grudgby. Her interest in Azura is long-lived, starting about the time that her interest in school would have expired (which would explain why she stayed closeted). And we can’t ignore the fact that she sees Azura in Luz and is definitely enjoying the parallels between herself and her fictional counterpart. (Which might not be a coincidence, but that’s an entirely different theory).

She hyperfixates on Luz. Yes, part of this is a crush. But a lot of us have watched Amity’s personality go from alpha bitch to cutest little bean in the Boiling Isles, all thanks to Luz’s influence. Lumity is not a rivals-to-lovers speedrun due to bad writing, it’s due to Amity hyperfixating. She’s already extremely introspective, going so far as to keep a diary where she analyzes and makes sense of herself. It’s not a stretch to say that she identified the faults that kept her from Luz and worked hard to change those off-screen.

Amity keeps a journal. To me, this seems like masking. You see, Amity is what people would consider to be high-functioning, since she can pass for allistic. But in order to do this, she has to put in significant effort on her part. See, when she does something that makes it so she doesn’t pass, she just sees it as a problem (since she probably doesn’t know about autism, and she passes well enough that she would totally be undiagnosed). Then she tries to fix the problem, in order to keep being perfect.

Amity has awkward body language. Thanks to the journal and other ways of masking, you don’t see this early on. But once she feels comfortable enough around Luz to let her guard down...she completely forgets boundaries. To review: in episodes 15-17, she throws herself at Luz, holds her formal rival’s hand for 24.71 seconds, blushes every time she sees Luz, and loudly declares her thirsty thoughts about Luz in uniform before literally running away. While some of this can be seen as normal gal pal things or crush things...you’d think a repressed wlw like Amity would try very hard not to touch Luz, so as to avoid being outed. Or at least she would do less of that stuff, so as to respect Luz’s boundaries the way she wants her boundaries to be respected. But that’s not the case, since she straight-up misses a lot of social cues. And since she feels comfortable around Luz, she doesn’t feel the pressure to be so paranoid about the cues, and can be her awkward self. From her point of view, she probably sees it as being freed from her parents’ judgment.

Amity takes things literally, sometimes. Now, this doesn’t happen all the time, since she isn’t heavily affected by this autistic trait. But when Luz says “I’m picking up what you’re putting down” and Amity says “I’m not putting down anything” and looks down...she not only missed the conclusion Luz drew from her words, but also assumed a literal meaning from her words. I can’t come up with many other instances of this, mostly because this doesn’t happen often. I would assume that Amity missed these a lot early on, and learned how to mask/identify them.

Amity is easily upset when things don’t go as planned. Let’s review these. In the library, she gets really mad at Luz when they end up stitched to a book, and it takes Luz’s sweet personality to get Amity to loosen up and laugh over it. When she goes to practice magic, and Luz steals her wand and uses it to get her siblings kidnapped, Amity locks Luz in a cage and assumes that she will get badly injured if she tries to fix the problems she caused. When Luz comes to her school, she panics and focus on how that doesn’t change anything. When she burns Willow’s mind, she appears absolutely terrified of being punished, flinching and bracing for impact when Luz finds her near the memories, constantly trying to distract Luz as they work together to save Willow, and hiding behind Luz when she confronts the Inner Willow. When Luz asks her to join her in Grudgby, Amity doesn’t initially agree, instead taking much more of the episode to come to terms with her involvement in it.

Amity likes predictability. She’s not attached to routines, but she does like being able to expect things. If she makes a plan for the day, she expects that day to adhere to that plan, and she doesn’t respond well when it changes. When Luz comes to her school, she focus on how that doesn’t change anything...not how that would ruin things or complicate things. Whenever she gets involved in Luz’s shenanigans, she either gets angry, scared, or takes a while to accept it. In a broader sense, she takes a while to accept that Luz and her shenanigans are a permanent fixture in her life--sixteen episodes, to be exact.

Finally, it would make for some excellent representation. An ADHD Dominican-American bisexual protagonist is pretty groundbreaking. But an ADHD Dominican-American bisexual protagonist girl who dates an autistic wlw witch girl from another dimension is exactly the kind of intersectional representation you’d expect to see from an unrestricted Owl House crew.

...Now, this might just be me hardcore projecting. I’m a little scared to post this because I don’t know how much of this is me reading into imaginary things, or trying to convince myself that Amity is like me. Feel free to debate/disprove me or support me in the comments.

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