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A flip through of my second book!!!
I'm so so so SO happy with how it came out...
The whole process going from scroll to print has been so enjoyable (but also has taken me so much time)
If you want this book (or any of the other 3 (or all 4!)) then I'm running a kickstarter right now! there's only 10 days left!!!
#I want to see how much I can do without webtoon#been thinking a lot about my future and my work in general#and I think my ideal is no companies involved#just me and my readers#making what we want to see#and what we need#idk. I dont think I'm doing anything incredible but I still think its important!#and I love it so much#and itd be nice not to feel tied to companies hahahaha#but also I'm disabled and cant do a lot of jobs so (grimacing emoji)#theres a lot. I've been thinking a lot hahahah#anyways.#the books are fuckin good I'm so proud of them#still working on number 4#I'm writing new scenes for it!!!!#kickstarter stuff
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p.u.n.k girl!!
summary: the times you have while dating ellie
wc: 1.1k
a/n: based off the amazing song "p.u.n.k girl" by heavenly! i recommend it a lot!!
p is for the painful way she makes me feel some days.
fighting with ellie wasn't all that common. the two of you were exceptionally good at communicating, opting to talk through problems before going into a full-fledged fight. but there were just some days when ellie woke up with a short fuse. she tried to distance herself during those days, feeling awful for even doing that, but today you wouldn't let her have time to herself to decompress.
she had snapped at you after you continued to be clingy. ellie has asked you to give her just a tiny bit of space. you clambered off of her arm and she felt her body relax. this was all she wanted. when she felt the air suddenly shift, though, that's when she knew she completely fucked up. her eyes trailed over to yours, ready to apologize for her outburst, when she noticed the tears springing to your eyes.
ellie hated when you cried. it made her feel like a complete and total bitch. when your bottom lip started wobbling she knew she had to get over her mood to comfort you no matter what.
you would push her but it wasn't enough to actually move her, "i thought you wanted to be alone!"
ellie's hand would smooth over your hair whispering apologies. you would try to fight it for a couple more minutes but finally, you would relax into her touch. tears would drip from your eyes onto her sweatshirt.
god, she hated when you cried. it made her heart clench in her chest.
"i'm sorry baby," she kissed the crown of your head, "shouldn't have snapped like that."
u is for utopia, the other times with her.
ellie held the spoon to your lips, which you opened with no hesitation. the smooth caramel flavor of the ice cream hit your tongue causing you to exclaim in approval. your eyes were wide as you looked at her.
"fuckin' awesome, right?" she looks proud of her ice cream selection. her spoon dips into the bowl again to get a scoop for herself.
the ice cream parlor was dead except for the two of you. it was the dead of winter with snow twirling around outside. the both of you were bundled up. it made no sense to be here at this time.
the worker looked at you like you guys needed to be locked up in an asylum, but you didn't care.
ice cream was always welcome.
you take a bit of your brownie-flavored ice cream, "next time we come here i'm getting your flavor. that shit is awesome."
she smiles, "wanna come again tomorrow?"
you could almost hear the worker's eyes rolling.
n is for the new-wave dreams she had back in her teens.
ellie has all of her old school projects spread out on her bed, a cheesy smile gracing her lips as she looks at them. they were mostly to do with space. you wondered if that's all she kept. there was one book report but it was crinkled off to the side, it looked as if she had shoved it in the bottom of her closet. the rest were her pristine condition poster boards explaining the galaxies and solar systems.
"whaddya think?" she is nearly bouncing with excitment as her hand touches a random part of the poster board.
you fall over, nuzzling her neck to stifle a chuckle, "god, why are you so cute?"
she grabs your shoulders, pulling you back and shaking you, "cute?! cute..!!!" her voice growls as she strains it, "i'm so not cute..."
you laugh at the pout that replaces the smile, "you are actually pouting right now. you are so cute."
ellie crosses her arms, "you are cuter. like by 100 times- no, like, 300 times!"
you roll your eyes, focusing back on the poster boards, "why did you do so many on space? i knew you liked it but they are the only ones you kept." you notice her pushing the book report off of the bed.
nerd.
ellie leans against the wall, her arms falling in her lap, "i wanted to work at NASA. well, i knew i wasn't smart enough for NASA or close enough to them but i wanted to do something similar. so, i focused on science fairs and stuff like that. i hoped i would get noticed by an organization."
your chest swells. you would do anything to go back in time so you could see teenage ellie putting her entire effort into the science fairs. you could imagine her winning, a goofy smile going over her freckled face. you wondered if she jumped up and down before she retrieved an award or if she tried to be calm. you bet she poured her entire attention over these projects, neglecting everything else. that was the ellie style.
joel had to have been so excited when she would come home with new awards. he was always so proud of her.
"my little space girl." ellie beams at that nickname.
k is for the kid in her.
ellie weaves in and out of the crowd that's separating her from her favorite thing. she has a red backpack bouncing on her back and she can faintly hear you yelling, 'god, els! wait up!' but there was only one objective on her mind.
beat the little snotty kids in front of her so she could be in the first row to see the dinosaur animatronics. it was a new attraction that had come to your city and when you surprised her with tickets she almost passed out. ellie didn't let go of you for hours after. she would say 'thank you, baby' every couple minutes as she planted little kisses on your neck.
she had been anticipating this for weeks, and no crotch goblin was gonna take her spot. there were only a couple more kids she had to pass to be the first person. she slowed her full bolt to a speed walk now as she noticed the mothers giving her a nasty look.
she felt your hand on her bare shoulder, "jesus! you are fucking fast."
ellie still has her eyes on the front of the line but she does slow down a little bit more so your legs could keep up, "i gotta get up front."
your chuckle makes her smile. she loves that sound, "els, you are like a foot taller than most of these kids. you will be able to see."
you were right. she knew you were right.
but her legs kept their pace.
she had to see the dinosaurs up close.
#ellie williams imagine#ellie williams scenario#ellie williams x you#ellie williams x reader#ellie williams#ellie x reader#ellie the last of us
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ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑 𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐊𝐒 !: okay so i'll say it again just to prevent confusion, i have a hc that fuckshits real name is aaron, so reader might be calling him that
𝘀𝘂𝗺𝗺𝗮𝗿𝘆: fuckshit sneaks through your window after getting in a fight seeking your comfort, and for you to patch him up because god knows he couldn't do it himself
you find your eyes growing heavy as they desperately try to chase each word on the page of your book. you're so close to finishing it, but can't seem to find it in yourself. "i'd better go to sleep," you say, to no one in particular. you turn off your lamp, letting the moonlight spill into your room as the only source of illumination. suddenly, there's a tap at your window. then, there's another tap followed by another and another and...you finally get out of your bed, determined to put an end to the tapping noise.
"what the hell?" you utter. once you reach your window, you look down to find fuckshit, pebbles in hand. he looks up at you, and gives a half smile. your brows furrow, as you open the window. "what are you doing here? it's nearly twelve in the morning, dude."
"i know i just..." he trails off, getting lost in the attempt to find the right words. "is there a way up there?"
"aaron i don't think it's a good idea," you say, looking out the window cautiously making sure none of your parents have noticed and investigated.
"please, [name]." you think about it, and how could you really say no?
"alright, fine. there's a ladder on the side of the house." after a few moments of waiting, surely enough he returns with the ladder, fearlessly climbing up. you help him inside, even though there isn't much light in the room, you're still able to make out the dark bruises littering his body and his bloody nose. you rush to the lamp, and turn it on before going back over to the boy.
"what the hell happened to you?" you ask, concern laced in your tone. you place a hand on his cheek, studying his face making sure there are no dire injuries there apart from his nose.
"those fuckin' idiots were talking 'bout you, ma. i dont know where my head was at but i just started..hitting them," he admits, looking down, and leaning into your touch just a bit.
"aaron, baby, i need you to understand that it doesn't matter what they say, okay?" he doesn't say anything to that, and looks back up to your eyes. "c'mon, let's get you cleaned up." he nods, as you lead him to your bathroom. you switch on the light, and gesture to the counter.
"sit there," you instruct softly. he does as you say, and looks at you patiently as you get out the first aid kit. you go to stand between his legs, before you grab a wipe, and reach up to his nose.
"how bad does it hurt?" you ask, as you touch it lightly. he hisses slightly in pain.
"s'not too bad," he answers. you nod, and start to wipe away the blood. as you continue taking care of him, he simply gazes into your eyes, seemingly in a daze.
"you okay, baby?" you ask, looking at him with slight worry.
"yeah i'm good," he responds, as you apply a bandaid to the cut going across his nose. you then tilt his chin up gently to take a look at his bruised jaw.
"you poor thing," you coo.
"i'm tellin' you it's not that bad," he counters, with a small smile. you shake your head smile, and begin to patch up his knuckles. you apply some bandages, and clean up the blood. you rest your hands on his thighs, before pecking him on the lips.
"all done," you say, proud of your work. he smiles as he admires you.
"thanks," he says, before his eyes flicker to your lips. you take that as him asking for a kiss, which you happily oblige to. you lean in, kissing him softly. he kisses back contently, and after a moment you pull away.
"so who won the fight though?" you mumble against his lips. he chuckles.
"obviously me."
"oh obviously, huh?" you tease, with a small laugh. you kiss him again, smiling into it.
"only for you, [name]."
𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟒 © 𝐤𝐲𝐚-𝐢𝐬-𝐤𝐨𝐨𝐥, 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞
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Hii! I hope you're having the best day! I've got a few prompts, if you're taking requests, hardly anyone does Niall prompts and I'm sad:( the prompt I have is something along the lines of "Niall is back in London after a few days away and wants to meet up with his girl but she says she's busy. He's sad but goes to his signing of The Show, his girl surprises him by queuing as the last person in line and getting a CD signed" I went to the signing and met him after 13 years of being a fan and it's made me need more Niall fluff in my life😂 xx
Welcome To The Show
Niall Horan x reader
*pic of this precious baby does not belong to me*
Summary: Y/N surprises Niall at his London signing for The Show
Okay first of all, thank you so so much for trusting me to write this for you! I love writing for our Irish boy and he doesn’t get as much attention as he deserves. Second of all, HOLY CRAP YOU MET HIM?! UMM YOU’LL HAVE TO TELL ME HOW GREAT IT WAS!!! I’m seeing him next year and I honestly can’t wait😭 Okay anyways… I hope this is everything you wanted! Feel free to request more of him or checkout Flicker!
“You really can’t make it, Y/N? I haven’t seen you in six weeks! You can’t cancel this one time?”
I sigh and run my hand through my hair.
He’s right… We’ve both been so busy that we haven’t been able to see each other, barely talking either since we’ve been on different time zones. But he’s got a surprise in store…
“I know, Ni. I promise, I’ll make it up to you as soon as I get home next week! I’m almost done with my book and I send it off to the publisher. After that I am all yours!”
He sighs and I can’t help but frown.
“I know Petal, I know. I just miss you. I’m proud of you, just wish you could be done already.”
I clutch the CD in my hand, my smile not wavering as I continue to talk to him, walking towards the line outside of the record store.
“I know, me too. But I took time off of writing when you started on the Voice! Andrea’s still mad about pushing my deadline… But I promise, this is the last in the series and I should have some time after before I have to think of something new to start. I’ll be all yours babe.”
I hear him let out a small laugh and I sigh.
“Sure Petal, I’ll be holding you to it! I have to go to my signing but I’ll call you tonight?”
I bite my lip but I reply to him.
“Yeah, I’ll stay up. Have fun!”
He hangs up and I let out a sigh.
I had been planning this all week. My book is already done, so I figured I would surprise him. By showing up out of nowhere. At his signing.
The line moves progressively slow, as I suspected. One thing I’ve always loved about him is he cares, especially about his fans, so he takes the time to talk to them. After about 30 minutes, I finally make it inside.
Paul spots me immediately and I raise a finger to my lips with a smile, to which he nods and returns my smile. Niall’s focus stays on the fans in front of him and finally, it’s my turn. It takes him a moment to look up and he doesn’t notice me at first as he takes my CD from Paul, who had taken it from me moments before.
He signs my CD with his elaborate signature and he begins to talk to me.
“How’s your day going? I appreciate you coming all this way and supporting me!”
I hold back a laugh as I respond.
“It’s going good! I just thought I’d pop in and surprise my boyfriend!”
He smiles as he looks up and his mouth drops when he sees me. He shoots up from the table and runs around it, picking me up and squeezing me tight in his arms.
“I missed you so fuckin’ much!”
I laugh as he twirls me in his arms and I hug him tight. He sets me down but he takes my face in his hands and pulls me into a kiss. I sigh into his hold, pulling him closer as our lips move in sync.
He finally lets me go, and I see tears in his eyes. I smile and wipe his tears with the sleeve of my- no, his cardigan.
“Why the tears, handsome? I thought this was supposed to be a good day?”
He smiles and kisses my hands before he squeezes them.
“I just missed you, Petal. And I’m honestly surprised to see you. What happened Y/N? I thought you were behind and had to finish?”
I smile and shake my head.
“That’s what I told you, but I wanted to surprise you. Did I succeed?”
He chuckles and nods as he wraps his arms around my waist and looks down into my eyes.
“You definitely did. And I’m kind of glad you did. I think I’m all done here, should we go home? Catch up some?”
He wiggles his eyebrows at me and I giggle.
“Yeah, we should. I’ve missed you and honey. I need my dose of puppy cuddles.”
He nods and takes my hand and I move to follow him when I stop, turning around. He raises a brow at me and I grab my CD from off the table before turning back to him.
“What? It’s the #1 album in the UK and it’s signed! I’d be crazy to forget this!”
He laughs and shakes his head. We walk hand in hand to the car, and I can’t help but feel the happiest I’ve ever been. With Niall, I know I always will be.
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I hope you enjoyed! I loved writing this!!🥹 Requests are open lovelies!
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So anyway
I finished S2 firmly like "Nikolai and Kirigan should've been friends". Because they want the same fuckin things. They both want to end Grisha persecution, they both want to improve Ravka, they both want to end Lantsov corruption, they're both military, they're both willing to fight on the front lines or sacrifice for their people. Nikolai would've served under Kirigan during his military service, and seen him at court besides. They'd absolutely have hit it off.
But then I found out that Nikolai/Kirigan is actually a ship in this fandom. And I kind of get it? But mostly I'm cackling at the idea that like.
Nikolai is That Kid. The one that's like "I have a crush and I'm going to make it everyone else's problem."
It's like, a cute little hero-worship thing, at first? He's at that age where he's allowed to sit in on court proceedings, because even though he's the spare he's still expected to learn how to rule, and he's either just started his own military service or he's just about to, and unlike Vasily, he's proud to serve his country. And Kirigan is? Someone to look up to. Ravka has been at war for longer than Nikolai has been alive, besieged on all sides, and he knows that it's not his father the king who's keeping the Shu Han and the Fjerdans at bay. It's not Vasily, who's in his twenties now and would rather fritter away the country's coin on whores and horses than ever set foot on a battlefield. It's General Kirigan.
And - well, and the other chap, the First Army General in West Ravka, but Nikolai has never met him.
And like. Nikolai is a little people-pleaser. When he thinks of himself as king - which he knows is unlikely to happen, and he knows he shouldn't wish for it in the first place because the only way he'd ever get the throne is if something terrible happened to Vasily, he knows - but when he thinks of himself as king, he wants to think he'd be a good one. A benevolent one, who'd make life better for the common people and not just his own family. He pictures himself as a brave, respected leader of men. Independent. Strong-willed, driven, self-assured. Handsome. He pictures himself as someone like General Kirigan.
(He'll admit that, one day - the image he had of the Black General growing up, as the hero archetype a king ought to be - and Kirigan - Aleksander, by that point - will laugh himself stupid and say, "You're an appalling judge of character. There's too much monster in me to make much of a king." And maybe that's true - he knows Aleksander's done some terrible things, what soldier hasn't in war? - but he's Nikolai's monster, and Ravka's, keeping invaders away from their borders and assassins away from Nikolai's private rooms, so he'd argue that perhaps that's not entirely a bad thing.)
And, well, he gets a little older, and discovers that people are attractive, and childish hero-worship develops into full-blown hormone-addled teenage puppy love and. He's not subtle about it, like, at all.
It's like...Father invites the General to eat with the family one evening after a late meeting, and Nikolai bribes Vasily to switch seats so he can spend the evening charming his hero with his wit and maturity. What actually happens is that he goes all shy and mostly just Yearns™ across the table while all the adults present delicately ignore the moon-eyed elephant in the room.
He has a servant take some of his favourite books on military history over to the Little Palace, in case the General might like them, because he's fairly sure the Grand Palace library is..well...grander...than the Little Palace library. It literally does not occur to him how patronizing that is coming from a spotty sixteen-year-old with net zero victories to his name. He knows Kirigan must be a bit older than he looks - he swore the Grisha to the crown when Nikolai's grandfather was on the throne - but he has no idea that Kirigan served in the wars the books were written about.
When he's a little older and has more time to himself, he starts dropping in to visit at the Little Palace, which...isn't really the done thing, for some reason - none of his family ever have much call to visit outside of official events - but? Who's going to say no to the tsarevich? He has a tendency for a while to pop up wherever Kirigan is working and pelt him with enthusiastic questions - why did you form the Second Army? When did you build the Little Palace? Why do you bring all the Grisha to live here? Where did you grow up? What's the Cut? Can I see it? Why have you never brought your family to court? Do you have a family? Is there no Lady Kirigan? How long did it take you to make General? What did you do to get promoted?
Kirigan is polite. He answers harmless questions as honestly as he thinks he safely can - which lowkey affects how Nikolai's political opinions end up differing from his family's, because it turns out the General makes a lot of good points about how badly Grisha were and are treated outside the Little Palace, and it's not really Nikolai's place to have opinions on how his father rules but he thinks they should not be treated like that, maybe - deflects personal ones, entertains Nikolai's interest in strategy when he's in a good mood, gives him some harmless busywork tasks to do so he feels useful and lets Kirigan get actual work done. He's a bit flattered, even, that the boy sees him as a role model, because it's surprisingly easy to forget how impressive your military career has been, even in just this "lifetime", when all most people ever see when they look at you is the big bad scary Darkling. But at some point Nikolai does something stupid - tries to kiss him, gets too familiar, idk, he's like 17 and horny - that makes it blatantly obvious that he's misreading indulgence as interest, and Kirigan has to slam up some boundaries sharpish. Nikolai starts finding Fedyor posted outside the war room to tell him cheerfully that he's sorry, but the General is very busy and can't be disturbed.
(Fedyor and Ivan have been finding the blatant crush highly entertaining. Kirigan hasn't - he's fucking cringing on the inside - but he tolerates the subtle teasing from his heartrenders with something approaching good grace.)
Anyway, Nikolai grows up, spends years at a time away from the Grand Palace, has a pretty successful military career with the First Army and then amuses himself by turning privateer and fleecing the Fjerdans as Sturmhond. He grows up enough to realise how deeply cringey he was for a few years there, because he's gone through something similar with an overeager young deckhand who had a real thing for the Sturmhond persona. He's not far off thirty when Father has a heart attack and Vasily has a horse racing accident not long after and Nikolai finds himself recalled to Ravka to take the throne. He has to work closely with Kirigan, which suits him fine, because not only do they have compatible plans for Ravka, it turns out that as adult men on equal footing, they get on like a house on fire, and can even joke about his awkward younger self. And if he happens to...cross some conventions of propriety...well, he's old enough to know his own mind, and he's had it off with enough of his own crew to know how to balance a professional relationship and a personal one. Kirigan understands grief, understands pressure, understands having countless lives in your hands and no way to save all of them, and Saints know Nikolai needs to lean on someone, because Mother's too beside herself to have his fears and hurts on her shoulders too.
(Kirigan - Aleksander - understands that, too. Difficult mothers. Nikolai is learning all sorts of things about his General these days)
Actually you know what I've talked myself into the ship. This was supposed to just be a short post about the comedy potential of long-suffering Darkles dealing with a pampered princeling's obvious crush but have some headcanons instead bc all aboard the HMS Darkolai I guess
#sab headcanons#darkolai#nikolai lantsov#aleksander kirigan#i have not read the books and i am entirely fudging the timeline#but yeah ugh i was so hoping these two would vibe and get along#sab
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So I just finished the ARC of This Sweet Magic, and while I will certainly be leaving a review on Goodreads (and pre-ordering) as soon as I've put myself back together, I just wanted to immediately share with you how absolutely amazing it was.
As someone made the shift from writing fanfic to original fic a while ago (2015), I think the hardest thing is getting people to care about your characters. With fanfic, that's already baked in, so you really have to do a lot of work in OF to explain to people why these two oblivious doorknobs should be rooted for and cried over until they finally get their HEA and then we all stand up and cheer and cry some more. You did such a wonderful job, and your worldbuilding was perfection. I've never been good at writing cozy small-town stories where you fall in love with the place as much as the people (much like Dan did with SC), and where the reader just knows there are a bunch more stories to tell. To quote Noah, you fuckin' nailed it.
I hope it's not weird for this internet person to say how proud they are of you, but I know personally how hard it is to create original characters and put them out into a world where you're not sure if people will like them. So I'm so, so proud of you, and you should be incredibly proud of TSM. Looking forward to all the places you'll go. <3
Just one question - even though I don't think Andrew has magic or is a witch himself, are the brightly colored jeans (mimicking the hair of the other magical citizens) a bit of a hint that he might have it in him?
Oh, gosh, thank you so, so much.
Tossing this story out into the world has been such a different experience from writing fic, and as you say, trying to find an audience isn't easy.
I am very proud of This Sweet Magic, and seeing people read it and enjoy it doesn't quite seem real and gives me all the feels.
As far as Andrew goes, I really just wanted to give him a bit of unique personality, but now that you've planted that seed, who knows?
~💙🖤💙~
For those who don't know, I wrote an actual book! It's called This Sweet Magic and it has magic and baking and two idiots falling in love and you can learn all about it on my website.
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ARC Review: The Notorious Lord Knightly by Lorraine Heath
5/5. Releases 6/27/2023.
For when you're vibing with... Peak angst hours, people who adore each other but oof pain, defiantly proud heroines, and big "I was half a virgin when I met you" energy.
Knight--otherwise known as Lord Knightly--has an issue: there's an erotic memoir circulating around the ton by an anonymous source. And everyone thinks the "Lord K" that corrupted Anonymous in the book's pages is him. Bigger problem: it totally is him, and Anonymous happens to be Miss Regina Leyland, the woman he left at the altar five years ago. After years of avoiding Knight, Regina has had enough; but she can't be revealed as Anonymous, especially if she's to move on with her life and marry a good man. Knight offers to help her on that front--by publicly making nice with her, despite the fraught tension between them. But with every polite and platonic dance, Regina wants to claw Knight's eyes out--and fall into his arms. Both. Both is good.
MAN. Lorraine fuckin' Heath. I don't know if anyone does pure shots of emotion like her. There's just something about a book wherein you can feel how much the leads want each other, where you're actually thinking "Why can't they just figure this shit out and be together?" She does it so well.
Quick Takes:
--Regina Leyland is one of my favorite heroines, maybe ever? She's so proud and so wounded and self-righteous, and so like... in denial. She's not a nice girl who's just sitting there weeping over her broken heart, or a classy broad who's Risen Above in the five years she and Knight spent apart. Nah. She's pissed. And she should be! Her anger and the verbal lashings she gives Knight really serve to underscore how much she adored him and how much she gave him. Like, I don't know, I think we often see this tendency among romance readers to feel like heroines should just get over it. Because we are in the mind of a hero like Knight, and we of course know he loves Regina and has his reasons for acting as he does. She doesn't have that. She's suffered. He needs to fix it.
At the same time, Regina has also done a lot in those five years involving forced responsibility and growing up. She lost her innocence (.... in every way ...) to this man. So you get this sense as you read that you're seeing her reawakened, and kind of... allowing access to a part of herself she's neglected for a long time. What I'm saying is--she is horny. And he's hot. And honestly, the fact that she's so horny makes it more believable to me that she keeps coming back to go "AND ANOTHER THING". Girl is hard up. It adds a dash of humor to what would otherwise be kind of dark, and balances the book perfectly.
--Knight is very hot, and very much worthy of Regina's horniness. Honestly, I kind of get how losing him broke her brain a bit and sent her own a rampage of revenge. This guy is... sexy, in a way that Lorraine Heath nails so well. So many of her heroes are really not asshole alphas, but they're like--smooth as fuck. They rattle off lines or throw smiles or do something that is so incredibly slick that you're like "God, this man FUCKS". Knight is one of those. Also, he does creepy shit like keep her ribbon in his pocket for YEARS.
--This book is actually really fucking meta. Regina wrote a book that is a memoir, but is anonymously written and fictionalized on some levels. What people--especially women--love about this book is its eroticism and passion and focus on women's pleasure. We see attempts to ban the book, attempts to shame the writer and the women gleefully reading it, attempts to dismiss its importance. Reading a historical romance focusing so hard on this during an era when the US at least is becoming increasingly puritanical, with calls to shame ethical sexual content in fiction and to outright ban expressions of sexuality and sexual autonomy for women and queer people in particular... It was really cool. I love that Lorraine's past couple of books in particular have used their historical backdrop to make a commentary about issues that plague us to this day.
Where this book is better over The Counterfeit Scoundrel, in my opinion, is in its ability to maintain a searing romance. Counterfeit's romance was good, and it was a very romantic book. But this book had me feeling the way books like Waking Up with the Duke and When the Duke Was Wicked did. The romance is that good.
--Another interesting thing this book brings to the table is its focus on illegitimacy. Regina is illegitimate, but her mother was her father's long-term mistress, essentially his wife of the evening, and he was an involved figure in her life who recognized her. Bastards and mistresses are often a thorny topic in historical romance. The goal of most historicals is ultimately marriage--but the reality is that, among the nobility at least (which most historicals still focus on) love was reserved for paramours. Bastards were perhaps more likely to be born of love, or at least passion, than legitimate children. And while we often scorn mistresses to this day, mistresses functioned (and... let's be real, still do) as different types of wives. In this case, Regina's father's wife was the one who hosted balls and attended functions (important!). While her mother was his emotional refuge and partner (also important!).
Lorraine executes a really interesting analysis of these roles. Regina is not to be pitied--she's had loving parents and her father always made sure she had cash to spare. But she also has three siblings she's never met, who resented her. She's also shamed more for losing Knight because she is a bastard. Her mother was a badass woman who taught her daughter to prioritize and not be ashamed of love and sexual pleasure (a note I adored) but she also didn't get everything she deserved from the man she loved. The gray is explored really well here.
--I've seen some criticism re: the "why we broke up" of it all... And I suppose it could've been a bit more high stakes? But I personally love an internal conflict, where people kind of act stupid because they're human beings and human beings rely on emotion and issues like insecurity and the sense of obligation and can ultimately make a big impact. So for me, it really didn't affect my enjoyment of the book. I love it when people make realistically bad decisions and have to deal with the consequences.
--You do get flashbacks to Regina and Knight's original courtship so--two romances in one! I really adored the contrast to the heady, innocent days of the virginal Regina's seduction by this rake, against the more jaded Regina trying so desperately to deny her feelings for Knight, who clearly loves her and has always loved her. Them coming back together as angsty people who've Seen Shit was everything.
The Sex Stuff:
There are a few different sex scenes in this book, scattered among the flashbacks and the present. I always feel like Lorraine's books are truly sensual. The sex scenes aren't as explicit and are somewhat more euphemistic than those by other authors I love, but she conveys passion and wanting so well that I don't need it to be as graphic. It's hot. One of the sexiest scenes in the book is literally a kissing scene.
But also, he fucks her real good. So. No worries there.
She's done it again! I loved this book, and recommend it wholeheartedly. Peak second chance.
Thanks to Netgalley and Avon for providing a copy of this book. All thoughts and opinions are my own.
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hello i was wondering if i could participate in the match up event?
I am afab and nb, I use any pronouns :) I'm cool with being any gender or being with any gender neither matters much to me
I lov the ghouls and their silly little shenanigans :)
I'm pretty feminine looking, I'm 5'1 and I'm built like a comic book male superhero like broad chest and shoulders but a straight line from the ribs down like a upside down dorito w legs
I'm asian so my eyes and hair are dark, my hair's like a shoulder-length wolf cut ish thing... idk I just hack at it. sometimes I wear glasses, but sometimes I just feel like being blind. When I get dressed I pretend like im dressing up in a fun little costume so my day is more whimsical and silly my go-to is like sailor uranus prince-type girl crush but a wizard or a wizard who is going on an epic expedition to recover lost artifacts but no matter the outfit the key is that I look like I'm secretly a merlin-style cartoonishly evil wizard. So i guess maybe like goth grunge academia something something pinterest buzzword Oh and I have major rbf, and it makes ppl scared of me
I'm an introverted person and I tend to be very logical but. I think different from a lot of ppl apparently. I've been described, to paraphrase, as "sort of ominous and mysterious but actually funny", "uncanny and unsettling in a good way", and "awkward and weird but its endearing" which just sound like insults. I like to live in my head and make silly stories and things to play with. Like every tumblr user I've got fucked up mental health and bad parents so I am kind of like one of those freaky ass chihuahuas that is always scared and shakes and bites people and has digestive issues. I tend to be hard to read or sort of deadpan so I like fucking w people since they can't tell if I'm joking bc i love mischeif and japes. I want to be a silly not-quite-supervillain like Dr doofinshmirtz or like a trickster archetype sort yk
I was a pretty intense synchronized swimmer for like 9 years I competed at like opens and nationals and all that when I was in school but my university doesn't have :( I'm on the rowing team now but I would rather do synchro esp since being my main thing was being flexible and it has no advantages in rowing lmaooo I've been a huge vocaloid fan since elementary school so I've been around in that community for a while (I am so well-adjusted). I like to make vocal synth covers and draw, especially when I'm able to work with producers to provide art for their vids it's so cool hehehehhe I mostly listen to vocaloid music but I like a lot of metal stuff as well that's how I found out abt gonst. I also like 2 play video gamez, I'm so fucking bad at them but I think it's rly funny so I just spend hours giggling and watching myself get mauled over and over.
I love horror a lot but I'm less a slasher girlie and more of a supernatural psychological tormet girlie esp if its got mythology or religions shit involved. Im majoring in history bc all good history ppl like silly metal and I wrote this instead of my abstract that's due in like an hour bc I have no idea what to do for the topic 🥲🥲
- the fuckin wizard
This post is part of the 1000 followers match up event. Entries for the event are now closed.
Your match is... Zephyr
They like listening to you talk about your major and interests. He's a very good listener.
While they might not be the best swimmer, they enjoy the activity and if you want to show off, they'll absolutely let you and be super proud.
He doesn't mind how unique your style is. He probably wouldn't really try to match clothes with you, but they'd try their best to buy you stuff you'd enjoy.
Since he doesn't really walk much, they picked up drawing and started doing it with you. They're surprisingly good at it for someone who just randomly said "I'm bored, maybe I should start drawing".
Also, horror movie date nights! They're also much more of a psychological horror person, but his favorite is of course the paranormal (he finds it hilarious) so you two take turns picking the movies.
Video game dates included, too. He's got a PS3 and the first three Uncharted games, as well as some others. Their favorite is Uncharted 3.
He'll insist you wear your glasses. He knows the consequences of ignoring his health. It's not fun.
~
Written by Nosferatu with the help of the wonderful and of @ask-zephyr-ghoul (ilysm pookie).
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what’re your favourite fics you’ve written and why?
You asked me this forever ago, and I had every intention of answering and then I kept forgetting because I opened it and the notification went away lol... Anyway, here's my favorite children:
Feels Like Home - a Mass Effect mShenko fic about a mechanic with PTSD and an ex-cop with addiction issues. I love it so much that I also wrote a Destiel version called Man in the Wilderness to share it with a new fandom. It’s so soft. All the conflict is external, and The Boys (pick your flavor lol) are supportive and loving and fall into each other so easily <3
There are things I like better for each versin. For FLH, Shepard is an OC, which I'm normally bad at creating, and I did such a good job with him. I love how insecure he is about his scars, and how he has tattoos of yellow flowers to remind him of his mom. For MitW I love how it still works for Dean and Cas even though I had to tweak quite a few things, and it also showcases how much my writing improved between the first and second version. It makes me really proud to see the progress I've made.
Dreaming in Digital - a cyberpunk Destiel fic where Castiel is a sentient sex bot, and Dean’s a huge fucking nerd about it. I consider this the coolest story I’ve ever written; it took me like 6 years of world building before I came up with a plot lol
Hunter’s Caress - a Western AU Destiel fic based on one of my favorite books when I was growing up. This is also one of my earliest ideas, but I put it off for many years because it required me to get better at writing before I could pull it off. Which seems like a weird thing to say about a story that I wrote while I had the original book open on the desk next to my keyboard, but seriously it took a lot of work to adapt! It just turned out so good though, and it gives me the ability to re-read a gay version of one of my favorite childhood stories, which is really fuckin' neat.
Satin and Sawdust - Destiel + panty kink, I mean…. what else could you ask for? Skilled men who love cats, that’s what. This is the first fic I wrote where I knew going in that it would be over 100k…the others were all surprises lol… but I took a bunch of prompts from those prompt posts that used to float around Tumblr all the time and smashed them together, and it turned out FANTASTIC. I just reread it last week, and I'm still so impressed with how it pulled together.
No Such Thing As Ghosts - a kid!Destiel fic with MCD. The idea made me cry, and I had to inflict it on everyone else. It makes my readers cry. Their tears taste like butterscotch.
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And we're back for V4! Honestly, I'm making it through more than I thought I would. I was sure I was gonna bail after 2 lol.
Anyways, the new engine was really a breath of fresh air for this volume, and it's impressive how much animation is still getting better every volume<3 RWBY makes me proud in a way no other show or just thing has ever done. I just wish it wouldn't hurt so bad lol.
Anyways, time for random thoughts!
I gotta go ahead and say that V4-6 is my favorite outfit for Blake. The pirate vibes on her are *chef kiss* and I'm just in love with her white coat RIP the coat, another good thing Adam ruined *sighs*
God, the yearning separated bees are so angsty <3 I love it, the payoff will be so great.
God, Sun was so annoying this volume, poor boy has a good heart but definitely is too eager for Blake to match him and things get aaaaaawkward lol I'm happy the managed to get into an understanding by next volume tho, Blake needed him, I can see that now.
It's so interesting to hear all the bits of story we get to learn each volume and how eventually it all falls apart with Jinn's story in v6. I don't blame Qrow for how hard he took it, poor man has been through a lot, and he really believed in Ozpin through it all.
I loooove the tale of the two brother's animation style<3 it's one of my favorite parts of the season.
The ship captain is another favorite part lol I don't know, I just think he's neat. Wouldn't be opposed yo seeing more of him.
Ilia <3 Love of my life, best lesbian Chameleon girl <3 good how I miss you!
Again, when is Ilia coming back so she can finally meet and fall in love with Weiss?? RT is homofobic to keep these two apart! /Jk
But seriously they are fuckin' perfect for eachother I won't get tired of saying it. Schnee x Faunus? Both sides of the Atlas/Mantle coin? Rainbow x white? Trying to live their families legacy without letting it consume them? What's not to like?
Ahem, anyways. The Kuroyuri arc had me biting my freaking nails. Seriously after v3 I was so sure someone was going to die!
Remember that couple days we were all terrified of the nuckelavee and then someone compared it to the wacky waving inflatable arm flailing tubeman and since then we just laugh about him? Lol this Is why I love this fandom.
Maya Zwei <3
I can't imagine how horrible it was for the girls all that time we didn't get to see in between volumes. Weiss being completely alone in Atlas, with no way to know if Yang and Ruby had gotten better, just knowing that Blake had ran into the night. Blake wondering everyday if Yang was thinking about her, so sure that she was hated, heating herself too much to ask for help or just company... Ruby missing the friends she had come to trust so wholeheartedly and seeing her big sister broken and depressed and not knowing what to do because Yang had never been nothing but bright and strong and perfect. Yang looking at books and thinking of Blake and wanting to hate her because it would be so much easier. And that's not even counting all of them mourning Pyrrha and Penny and everything they lost in the blink of an eye.
On that note, Ruby's outfit for this arc paying homage to both Penny and Pyrrha still hurts me so much</3 this is also probably my favorite outfit of her, thought her Atlas outfit is quite good too.
The moment we learn that Blake is practically a Princess lol I love it, I love seeing reactors get to that part.
But honestly my favorite part to see reactors will always be Taiyang's 'lost a couple braincells along with that arm' joke lol honestly I hate that joke, but the sheet shock on everyone's faces is just epic lol.
Honestly I feel I've slept on Yang's v4 outfit btw. Yeah, her final/v5-6 outfit is extremely badass and I love it, but the sweats + orange tanktop looks so good on her??? Honestly this was the first volume I looked at Yang and was atracted to her lol.
So yeah Yang please join the line of women who could step on me and I'd thank them.
Also: *puts Ilia there too*
Specially once she paints her arm yellow <3 I stan by my previous statement that Yang looks so much better with her new arm. It feels like her design is finally complete.
V4 villains really, really make me miss v1-3 villains lol. I'm sorry, but I just think Hazel and Watts are unninteresting (aside from the Emm-Hazel plot but I only like it because Emmerald) and while I find Tyrian kinda funny because he's an obvious theater kid lol it was not enough to put team WTCH in my good graces after getting rid of my two faves from team CRMNE lol. Also, Cinder being too hurt to cause chaos was a negative</3 I loved sassy overconfident world destroyer Cinder.
It is also extremely painful for me to watch Cinder slowly dig her own grave after seeing her backstory. I always had a soft spot for Cinder and that really made it worse.
Baby Nora and Ren<3 good they were cute! And god did the timeskip did them good lol this is also my favorite Nora outfit <3 she looks amazing.
That moment in Kuroyuri when baby Ren gives Nora the hammer while boop play in the background? I tear up every fucking time. It's literally imposible not to love them together, just as It was literally imposible for Nora to not fall for him <3 my babies
Qrow being bandaged over his clothes while injures will never not be funny to me lol oh, the joys of working with 3D models!
Weiss learning to summon <3 also just... Weiss <3 She's the best. This volume wasn't kind on her, but she rose to the challenge and got so far!!
Also, can I just say that I feel Whitley... Is what people thinks Draco Malfoy Is? Like... I always remembered Draco while watching Whitley, but Whitley is an actually cool character as you get to know him, while Draco just... disapointed me. He's also my baby and I demand him to be protected.
Seeing Raven oficially was one of my favorite parts of the volume <3 She's a bitch, she's the worst, I love her so much!!!!
Again with the controversial and refuted headcanon... Qrow getting a song that includes the line 'you don't want the burden of my name', talking to Ruby about how his semblance makes things hard on family... That delirious 'Tai, she's not coming back' while poisoned... Seriously it would've made so much sence if Ruby was his daughter lol. At this point it's just hilarious.
The Jaune - Ruby moment in Kuroyuri </3 seriously give these poor kids therapy, they need it.
This Is the only volume where I actually have a score saved on my Spotify playlist: the first part of The next step where you can hear the music box version of Divide. I would pay for a full of that song <3 I adore creepy music box covers.
The way Blake's voice breaks when she finally says Yang's name? I'm ok, I swear! I'm not.
If you didn't cry during Ruby's letter scene... You're lying!! It's not possible to not cry! Specially with Home in the background. Home is another special song to me, it was one of the first ones I memorised back when my english wasn't great <3
That part when Ruby talks about people who are still lost and people who wants to take advantage of them and it shows Ilia with the Albains? I loved it, that's why I never doubted of my girl<3
And so it became the long journey to have Winter back... I remember how annoyed I was during all of v4-5 that we never got to see her outside of the Weiss trailer lol you don't just introduce a character like Winter for two episodes and then take it away like that RT! I say, as if I didn't knew v5 at all lol
I'm still curious about Tyrian and the fact that he apparently couldn't fight while Qrow didn't have his Sword/Scythe? Did we ever got a reason for that yet?
I think that's all that comes to mind right now lol also, I watched the v5 trailers and I just had to say how much I love them <3 Blake's probably my favorite, but they were all great!
O better keep watching now lol I gotta watch as much as I can before saturday!
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GOOD OMENS S2E3 STUFF
this queen at the coffee shop calling out nina for her shitty partner owns my fucking heart
muriel my darling dearest....they are perfect
aziraphale demonstrating how to drink tea for them, oh bless
crowley rolling up all delighted to fuck with them, you funny fuckin dickhead
the metric for miracles being based on lazarus is perfect to me
the james bond bullet hole transfers are still there, my beloved
oh of course aziraphale is just as bad a driver as crowley
HE HAS A DIARY HE'S KEPT A DIARY SINCE BEFORE THE 1800S 😭
natural scottish david tennant fanning his feathers, good for him honestly
i don't like this conversation for aziraphale, actually, it doesn't feel right for him. his whole thing is that he's never really agreed with the ineffable plan, he just lies to the head office and Says he does. but i guess he did have to learn to not agree, so we'll let it slide
CROWLEY CAN FEEL WHEN AZIRAPHALE DRIVES UNDER THE SPEED LIMIT?????? also, validation for my personal headcanon that aziraphale drives too slow while crowley drives too fast.
that's their marriage car motherfuckers she's a sweetheart who loves her dads -- IT IS BANANA FUCKING YELLOW
crowley throwing the books :(
crowley's got these upper arm bangles over his shirt that are Extremely gender of him
this bit with the doctor and the dead bodies, his little "we have to cut off the demand side of things as well as the supply" is Very gay angel mafia
his detective hat is so!! he is everything to me
oh christ he and muriel are just the same. crowley's right, how the fuck did heaven keep itself together this long
gabriel the freemason???????????
crowley losing his fucking mind on laudanum and turning assorted different sizes what in the ball-tripping alice in wonderland
aziraphale being completely in love with high-as-fuck crowley in this scene. you're so me
HE DIDN'T SEE CROWLEY AGAIN FOR YEARS AFTER THAT?????????? I'M GOING TO SCREAM
using a cell phone, even if not conventionally, i'm so proud of him. evolution babey
aziraphale a.z. fell fucking said grindr. i don't need anything else in life.
oh my fucking god he's got to stop doing that creepy purple prophecy shit i'm fucking FREAKED
oh my god he's being lured into a trap isn't he. run baby boy run
crowley threatening goob if anything happens to aziraphale.....
"it's too late now, isn't it? it's always too late."
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𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐂𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐒𝐲𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐦𝐬
𝐅𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐥𝐞𝐟𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭: Ace Of Potions, Strength, New Moon In Capricorn, Self Love.
𝐃𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐫: take what resonates, leave the rest of what doesn't & don't force anything if it doesn't fit your situation, keep in mind that energy and outcomes can always change & nothing is forever set in stone, you have free will in every choice you make !! keep in mind that this is a general collective reading so the messages here may not apply to everyone. this reading is also for all systems coming from a system myself, but some messages may be intended moreso for traumagenic systems & if you're a singlet & stumble across this reading, that doesn't mean any of these messages aren't for you & as a general message: my readings are for entertainment purposes only and don't replace professional medical/legal/business help. feedback and a review after a reading is given, whether public or private, is obligatory. you can do that by reblogging, dming or emailing us privately on the matter. if you do not provide this, you will be added to my greylist and won't be given anymore readings, free or paid, until you give feedback which you can fill out in the form listed down below. don't just leave this in the likes, reblog and support your tarot readers, my time and labour aren't for free. while it isn't necessary, if you'd like to tip, it's below. i have personal paid readings available which you can fill out the form below so tips, bookings & feedback are highly appreciated considering i plan to do this for a living!
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𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐤𝐬 𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐝: The Nightmare Before Christmas Tarot & The Dark Wood Tarot & The Moonology Oracle & The Threads Of Fate Oracle: Shadow Edition.
Ace Of Potions / Pentacles: okay. i& need y'all to know that you're so loved, okay? you being here makes you valuable. you existing in the first place makes you a good person. there is someone out there who loves you. maybe for some of you don't see them right now, but i& love you for one & you will meet people who will love you. i'm really sorry that someone made you believe you were unworthy and uncapable of being loved, cared for & respected when that just isn't true. whether it's a friend or a lover or a family member or a pet or even just a total stranger, this person loves you. i'm& getting a message to drink your water & seeing how this is the ace of potions or ace of cups, yeah, please drink some water for me& !! seeing as the potions (or cups) in this deck are ruled by the water element, so cancer, scorpio & pisces may be significant to you, you yourself can have these placements or someone significant can have these placements, or alternatively something could happen in any of these zodiac sign's respective season. pretty straightforward! ily, okay?? <3
Strength: y'all are so fucking powerful, y'know that? i know this can come across from nonsurvivors, especially if you're a t.raumagenic system, as condescending but from one survivor to another if this resonates with you, i& genuinely mean it. but the fact that you're reading this message makes me& so proud of you. some of y'all reading this could be brown skinned, some of y'all could be women, particularly darkskinned women of color reading this & to that i& say i'm& fiercely proud of you. i& don't know who you are, but especially if you're a system of color who're so often overlooked in the p.lural community, you're fuckin' FIERCE! i& get that just by looking at this alone. alternatively, this could be a protector of your system. strength is ruled by leo so that may be significant to you. also very straightforward !!
Your Hard Work Is Paying Off; New Moon In Capricorn: okay y'all. i'm& not sure what you're working on, but whatever it is, if this resonates with you, it's paying off and i'm& really proud of y'all!! capricorn may be significant, whether it's in your natal chart, someone significant to you or something could be happening in capricorn season which is the end of this year. hella straightforward, i& like it !!
Self Love: i& need y'all to do a favor for me&. pat yourself on the back for making it this far. do something for yourself and/or your entire system if you are safe to do so. do an activity that makes you guys happy. there's absolutely nothing wrong with loving yourselves as a system and there's nothing wrong with you the way you are. be like the peacock here, bold & brilliant & SLAYING like the bad bitches y'all are !!
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I'm so concerned that I'll NEVER finish a novel-sized anything.
I mean, technically, I have. I've finished about 23 novel-sized things. It's just that most of them are shitty and the one that wasn't shitty was still... not very good. A very long process, this. But the idea is, I would like to end a story and have that story be good all the way through. This is the dream. Doesn't matter how good the ride is if it terminates in a brick wall.
So my BioShock hyperfixation has been gradually winding down for the past... oh, two months? I have managed to ease my fall by sliding down the fireman's pole of "adjacent interests." Anyway, I'm heading toward a drawer period with this story--totally normal for me. Having a hyperfixation for a literal fucking year is the weird part. Just six more weeks and it will truly be that old. Unfortunately, it's a sign that nothing is quite right in my life, but at the same time, I ain't wastin this fuckin impetus, ok
Now consider this.
A Summer for Saya. TMNT fic. Leorai. Exceptionally cursed. I've known how it ends for years. I have easily written about 150,000 words just trying to get the thing to the finish line. I end up skidding on my face into a compost pile EVERY. FUCKING. TIME.
At this point I've formed a goddamn complex about the dumb fucking thing. And by forming a complex about Saya, I've formed a complex about Uprising. I'm terrified I won't complete it correctly or worse--at ALL. There's a reason I haven't posted much of Uprising: I do not want to get hamstrung by feeling like there are Expectations. It's Expectations that get me most hung up--no matter how I try to push them out of my mind.
I know very well what I must do: ease up :) Relax :)) Think about what's gonna be fun. Forget everybody but myself. Turn on the good music (or none at all). Go to a strange, new, and/or comfortable place and write with a coffee and a biscotti. Follow my excitement, my passion, whatever interests me. Go re-read some old comic books. Just read some books full-stop. Try to get excited about it. And so on.
It's at times like this that I remember a scene from Rick and Morty in that stupid-ass "Get Schwifty" episode, where Rick tells Morty that he has to stop worrying because that just fouls up the creative process. Granted, the final product is, "Take a shit on the floor," which may be a sort of wisdom in its own way, but I can't even take the goddamn shit. It's impossible to trick myself. I have no idea what to do. I am my own worst enemy.
One of the problems that hit me with Saya was that its drawer period came RIGHT AT THE END. Just right there at the climax. I was just done. We needed space from each other. And every time I come back, I'm just not able to get back into the right headspace.
So right now I feel like I have got to try and finish Only Man before the drawer slams shut or I may hit the same horrible, impermeable wall. My biggest fear is that it'll turn into a forever wall. This forever block. My own ability to screw up my own creative process so goddamn badly that nothing ever ends and I'm just writing and writing forever.
It may be good for me on a private level, but I'd love to share my work someday, you know? I'm proud of these things for a goddamn reason.
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Hi kitten me again wondering what yours and Izukus favorite pastime is.
As well as Katsuki and them together for the poly 🥰
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Me and Zuzu like to go for a walk. Either around our neighborhood or somewhere downtown but no matter where we are Izuku always tries to find a place with a lot of nature as a stop on our walk so we can sit and I can lean against him and read my book. Sometimes he'll read over my head and he can read faster than me so he'll stare out into the landscape while he waits and other times he'll ask so quietly and a little blush if I'll read aloud to him.
So I do and he's so into the story, gasping at twists or connections from earlier chapters I said would happen, sighing when the enemies are in the first stages of turning into lovers. The sun feels good on his freckled cheeks and he's just happy to be with me.
I think Suki is a home body. I think he'd enjoy doing our chores together and one of his days off is a lazy day. But he'll make a small list of chores we've both want to tackle. We'll do the task together til we debate over who's method is right, mine obviously, and he'll roll his eyes and kiss my hair before he goes to the next room to clean, usually the one right next to where I am so he isn't far. He has the music playing and when a "sappy fuckin love song" comes on he's behind me, arms wrapped around me while I'm wrist deep in suds at the kitchen sink, he's swaying me to the music, kissing at my cheeks and throat telling me how much he loves me. And when the songs over he's Suki again pinching my ass and pawing at my tits cause he knows I can't swat him away with sudsy hands. I'll spray him with the water and he'll laugh telling me I've done it now and pin me to the counter when he finally catches me. He'll turn off the sink as he leans down to kiss me fuckin stupid.
Poly would be a combo of those things. Suki would join our walks, Izuku would join Suki's domesticated mundane things that make life, life. He'd cook a lot with Izuku and they'd have me on the counter cause I'm the "best snack" and I'll roll my eyes but watch Izuku chop a lot slower than Suki who presses a kiss to Zuzu's cheek as he sets down a stemless glass of wine for him and then comes to do the same as he hands me my own. He'll step back and smile, one of his rare real ones when he's looking at something he really likes and is proud of. He'll set his own drink down, snap and picture and Izuku and I will both go "heeeeyy" in a whine cause we "weren't ready" or "look rough" and Katsuki will smile as he looks at the photo on his phone and go.
"ya look perfect to me."
#kitten chats 🖤🐈⬛#🍓 nonny 🖤🐈⬛#you're so sweet strawbs sorry ive been sitting on this one 🥺#kitten selfships 🖤🐈⬛ 💣 💚
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Ok please do not feel pressuredto answer loads of these
You can do like a few
And if you want to do more you could reblog later
Andromeda - Describe your main characters
Aries - Share a line that you’re proud of!
Cassiopeia - What’s your favorite scene so far?
Draco - Who’s your favorite character to write?
Hydra - Tell us why you love your project.
Libra - Which relationship dynamic do you enjoy writing the most?
Pyxis - Are there any major themes or messages you’re writing to show?
Ursa Major - What scene are you looking forward to writing?
Writer Asks:
Canis Major - Do you like writing character-driven stories or plot-driven stories?
Pavo - Where do you get inspiration from?
Phoenix - How do you develop your ideas?
Virgo - Describe your favorite tropes.
I am so sorry I am very indecisive
i did all of them anyway! because i have no chill and i like them
andromeda: doing this one for death and taxes! Nathaniel Ash is a rich man's son who is by day an engineer for the spaceship and by night a mysterious & suave theatre performer for the upper class. Winifred Storm is a politician's daughter who is, on the surface, perfect--and is, underneath the surface, about to absolutely snap.
aries: Sometimes, there is no deus ex machina. Sometimes, there is no last-minute change of heart. Sometimes there is just a boy with a gun, a girl with a bomb, and a single choice to be made. (from DAT.)
cassiopeia: hmmmm ever? I think my favourite scene (that i've written--i have ones in my head i'm super excited for) is, probably... this scene in GFW2 when the magic in the air makes everyone's thoughts audible. aaalllll their thoughts. it shows you what all these characters are feeling, what they're trying and failing to repress. (It's also the first hint that Tasya, a character who wasn't nearly as important in book 1, has some hidden sides to herself.)
draco: Corey :D
hydra: i'll do this for Secret Wip >:) . i love it because it's this epic-scale high-stakes fantasy, and i'm having much fun with the magic system. (Plus, i'm having a good time figuring out the characters.)
libra: it's hard to pick, but i think either Charlie & Eleanor (from rose librarians), Tasya & Rowan (from GFS), or Oliver & Corey. I can't really describe why, I just Like Them and their dynamics.
pyxis: in GFS, i just kinda want to show, like. even if you're struggling. even if everything has gone to shit. you can still find happiness. your world is ending, but the sunset is beautiful. you're alive. In Val Saintly, I want to show that... idk. you're allowed to feel things! it's not healthy to try and not feel things. And in Oddities, I want to show that there is always, always a place for you, whether you know it yet or not. Everyone belongs somewhere.
ursa major: the scene in gfw4 where Tasya gets to break down and cry in the rain and no one judges her. she deserves it.
canis major: it depends on the story, but usually character-driven, i think.
pavo: e v e r y t h i n g . tv, movies, books, family, friends, things people say, things people wear, things people do, songs, the weather, fuckin. everything. i cannot stop being inspired. i have more ideas than i can count and idk what to do with all of them lol
phoenix: it varies, but the general way i develop things is just... get some ideas from that Inspiration that's everywhere, then keep asking myself questions about it. what if, why does, why is, who does, who is, what is, where does, etc.
virgo: i'm a diehard fantasy fan so i LIKE the chosen one. especially the twists on it, such as reluctant chosen one, evil chosen one, and chosen one who chose themself. i also absolutely adore the wise old mentor trope.
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I DM'd for the first time this weekend (sort of. It was for a one page RPG so is that just GM? Lol idk I only started playing dnd last year so I'm still learning about all the other systems), and I couldn't help but thinking man I'm gonna make Joey Batey so proud by doing a good job at this lol and it went well overall so yay! 😅
And honestly like every time Joey mentions anything about his DMing or how he's like written books with their adventures detailed in them and Madeleine writing about their games together, I'm like.... you need to stop, you nerd. Because I'm literally going to die. How can he be such a talented actor and musician and naturally funny and charismatic and a huge fuckin nerd and does carpentry and writes and DMs and is beautiful and smart and does so much cool stuff (and then gets all shy and adorable if he gets complimented on anything because God huge mood)?
This started as me talking about doing something and then turned into my whining about having a crush on a celebrity like a fuckin weirdo! So yeah lemme just go crawl into a hole and proceed to not be witnessed by another person because if no one sees me being cringe then it doesn't actually happen right?
#i dont have a problem#im not even gonna tag this because like no. main tag people dont need to see this#i was just like... im gonna run this silly little game. it was the himbo treasure hunt 1 pg and it was fun#and like stupid dumb dumb brain was just like.... im running a game... just like joey batey.#look at us having more things in common. wow.#wheres that other post that was like my toxic trait is thinking joey batey would fancy me#because like yeah. but like for pretend though#because i dont do anything in real life with anyone anyways. just like surfing on ace vibes forever and loving on people#that ill never actually interact with from afar#thats healthy right#anyways#ignore me
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