#this post triggered me

[tofixtheshadows]

I've been thinking a lot lately about how Kabru deprives himself.

Kabru as a character is intertwined with the idea that sometimes we have to sacrifice the needs of the few for the good of the many. He ultimately subverts this first by sabotaging the Canaries and then by letting Laios go, but in practice he's already been living a life of self-sacrifice.

Saving people, and learning the secrets of the dungeons to seal them, are what's important. Not his own comforts. Not his own desires. He forces them down until he doesn't know they're there, until one of them has to come spilling out during the confession in chapter 76.

Specifically, I think it's very significant, in a story about food and all that it entails, that Kabru is rarely shown eating. He's the deuteragonist of Dungeon Meshi, the cooking manga, but while meals are the anchoring points of Laios's journey, given loving focus, for Kabru, they're ... not.

I'm sure he eats during dungeon expeditions, in the routine way that adventurers must when they sit down to camp. But on the surface, you get the idea that Kabru spends most of his time doing his self-assigned dungeon-related tasks: meeting with people, studying them, putting together that evidence board, researching the dungeon, god knows what else. Feeding himself is secondary.

He's introduced during a meal, eating at a restaurant, just to set up the contrast between his party and Laios's. And it's the last normal meal we see him eating until the communal ending feast (if you consider Falin's dragon parts normal).

First, we get this:

Kabru's response here is such a non-answer, it strongly implies to me that he wasn't thinking about it until Rin brought it up. That he might not even be feeling the hunger signals that he logically knew he should.

They sit down to eat, but Kabru is never drawn reaching for food or eating it like the rest of his party. He only drinks.

It's possible this means nothing, that we can just assume he's putting food in his mouth off-panel, but again, this entire manga is about food. Cooking it, eating it, appreciating it, taking pleasure in it, grounding yourself in the necessary routine of it and affirming your right to live by consuming it. It's given such a huge focus.

We don't see him eat again until the harpy egg.

What a significant question for the protagonist to ask his foil in this story about eating! Aren't you hungry? Aren't you, Kabru?

He was revived only minutes ago after a violent encounter. And then he chokes down food that causes him further harm by triggering him, all because he's so determined to stay in Laios's good graces.

In his flashback, we see Milsiril trying to spoon-feed young Kabru cake that we know he doesn't like. He doesn't want to eat: he wants to be training.

Then with Mithrun, we see him eating the least-monstery monster food he can get his hands on, for the sake of survival- walking mushroom, barometz, an egg. The barometz is his first chance to make something like an a real meal, and he actually seems excited about it because he wants to replicate a lamb dish his mother used to make him!

...but he doesn't get to enjoy it like he wanted to.

Then, when all the Canaries are eating field rations ... Kabru still isn't shown eating. He's only shown giving food to Mithrun.

And of course the next time he eats is the bavarois, which for his sake is at least plant based ... but he still has to use a coping mechanism to get through it.

I don't think Kabru does this all on purpose. I think Kui does this all on purpose. Kabru's Post Traumatic Stress Disorder should be understood as informing his character just as much as Laios's autism informs his. It's another way that Kabru and Laios act as foils: where Laios takes pleasure in meals and approaches food with the excitement of discovery, Kabru's experiences with eating are tainted by his trauma. Laios indulges; Kabru denies himself. Laios is shown enjoying food, Kabru is shown struggling with it.

And I can very easily imagine a reason why Kabru might have a subconscious aversion towards eating.

Meals are the privilege of the living.

#Dungeon Meshi #Delicious in Dungeon #Kabru #Kabru of Utaya #Laios Touden #Dungeon Meshi meta #you can have him in the tags too. as a treat. #Dungeon Meshi spoilers #this was directly inspired by livelaughlaios's post about Kabru self harming but I decided it got too long to make it a direct reply #this is a theory I've been working on for weeks because I kept noticing this while skimming for screencaps #I'm hesitant to trigger tag this because of the way certain subcultures on tumblr operate #but if anyone needs me to add a content warning please let me know #also I included image descriptions! I did my best #I think they even help illustrate my points but my god were they sad to write. Kabru is so fucking sad you guys #musings with Dea

[stemmmm]

the manga: facing marcille. arm raised. open and willing, but shy

the anime: facing away. arm lowered. closed off. reluctant. no steam

conclusion: yuri failure

#m.txt #dungeon meshi #someone has to say it and that someone will be me #surprise surprise though guy who doesnt like how trigger is adapting the show is over-critical #i wasnt gonna post but talking to a friend drove me to find the reciepts

[lygma-nygma]

Being a batfam fan is funny because people will make a post like “here’s my headcanon-“ and it’s just something that’s directly canon to the story then post about major canon events and get everything wrong.

#this post was inspired by me remembering the experience of reading death in the family #after only knowing the fanbase version and realizing oh none of that shit happened okay #like girl you don’t understand it’s so bad #Jason wasn’t even fired as Robin #He’s not accused of murdering anyone by Bruce #He’s not trying to prove himself at all he’s just looking for his mom #The reason Bruce didn’t go after him right away is because he was tracking down a goddamn nuke the Joker stole #Then after he finds it and handles the problem he helps Jason track down moms 2 and 3 #Also Jason died in like 20 minutes?? even less?? #He died in less time than it took his mother to smoke a cigarette #Bruce literally went ‘wait here I’ll be right back’ and was gone for less time than a trip to the grocery store #and then you go into the Jason Todd tag and they act like Bruce pulled the damn trigger on him #Like besties I don’t know how to tell you this he basically did everything right he possibly could have #Even him benching Jason from Robin temporarily happens so that he can get Jason into therapy about his trauma #Like the whole point is that neither of them did anything wrong bad shit just sometimes happens #That’s the tragedy. The drama. #Bruce couldn’t have made better choices in the position he was in and Jason was never going to make different ones #It was inevitable #Anyway rant over please read death in the family before I lose my mind #batfam #batman #jason todd #tim drake #dick grayson #damian wayne #bruce wayne

[hanase]

I am obsessed with Atem right now. It's been going on for a few months. There's a story here but I can't write for shit. I'll upload a lot more soon!

#pharaoh atem #atem #yugioh #I've always loved youuu #destroy me my king #we are in for some fucked up ride my boooooi #Finally #eyes I can get behind after 20 years trying #I tried forever to do some semirealistic eyes and I was never satisfied so fuck them we keep them stylized #I am still bad at his hair but I like the crazy approach tbh #not his bangs tho those are easy #also what a fucking boss you are #a beautiful god yesplz #fair warning #I am going to post triggering stuff with him involved soon #I'll tag properly!

[rkmoon]

PSA: SAID IS NOT DEAD. Said is not an overused word you need to cull out of your drafts. Said is not the devil. Said is a dialogue tag that your reader's eyes glaze over, barely noticed, allowing your dialogue to shine. Allowing your characters to speak without the narration overshadowing them. Said is doing a wonderful, thankless job! Said is not dead, you take that back—

#a tumblr post triggered me #dont remove your 'said's and replace with shinier words just because! #you may be doing a disservice to your dialogue! #writing advice #writeblr #writing #writerscommunity #writers on tumblr #writblr #writers

[neo--queen--serenity]

I’m convinced that Trigger DID animate the “good job, Chilchuck! You’re so cool!” praise/petting scene, but they edited it out because they accidentally made it too horny

#don’t tell me they wouldn’t have jumped at the chance to animate that scene. where’s our chilchuck harem fanservice trigger???? #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #chilchuk tims #laios touden #senshi #marcille donato #chilshi #chilaios #marchil #chilchuck #chilchuck dungeon meshi #neo queen serenity’s posts #senshi of izganda #dungeon meshi episode 16

[marcelinemarcy]

I'm not the only one who has absolutely no idea what their body looks like even after looking in the mirror for hours on end, right?

#ed relapse #tw ed but not sheeran #disordered eating mention #eating disoder trigger warning #disordered eating cw #tw ed sheeran #an@rexi@ #anor3c1a #3ating d1sorder #tw ed descussion #tw ana rant #pro for me not for thee #vent post #@na vent #tw 3d vent #tw eating issues #ed safe space

[edgy-senju]

Head empty, cat cafe collab Ishimaru only

#kiyotaka ishimaru #danganronpa #ishimaru #trigger happy havoc #my art #doodle #dr1 #dgr #danganronpa ishimaru #cat cafe #cats #edgy-senju #if anyone has the post of the original merch collab can they please link it to me? #dangan ronpa #thh

[dragonpyre]

I'm a chronic migraine Jason Todd truther. Except he doesn't know they're migraines. Poor guy will be layed up on his couch for days wondering what wizard he pissed off cuz light hurts, sounds hurt, he thinks he's gonna throw up, his vision doesn't work right, and also there's an invisible rail spike driving itself into his skull. Then his thinks it's a Pit side affect or some other weird thing.

But no. It's just migraines

#they're triggered by his general PTSD and stress #and YES this is me projecting onto my blorbo #shut up #i just think he should have some mundane bullshit that's easily fixable #like just take some excedrin bro #jason todd #dc #red hood #migraines #batman #text post

[5-pp-man]

wait hold on. before i forget.

i had this dream abt sesame street doing a collab with some company that made sleep accessories and beds, and the Bert and Ernie one was this twin bed perfectly separated in the middle with one side themed after each of them.

for the commercial it showed them sleeping in it, but they were lying like this;

#it was the only dream i remembered from that night. it was so cute #sesame street #bert and ernie #unfortunately i think the thing that triggered that dream was me seeing that -yeah we nutting this month- post #since it has ernie in it. #yes their arms are positioned weird but it was like that in the dream. theyre muppets. no bones. #tedpost #tedart #tedreams

[kkoct-ik]

i dont think i will ever forgive what the internet did to DID because please explain to me how "your sense of self is so torn apart you think youre multiple people" turned into "youre actually multiple people"

do you understand what i mean? please understand what i mean

#kostik speaks #yes cat 3 are real things ive been told and things that honestly really traumatised me and ruined my relationship with myself & disorder #some reassurance im not the only person who finds this super upsetting would be nice #my mental illness: causes harrowing feelings of disconnection from my life and a tendency to disown and/or reject my identity #some people for some fucking reason: reinforces the mental illness in ways never thought possible #i love and appreciate everyone who knows about my bullshit and yet doesnt deny me my personhood or treat me like some freak #i got really triggered about this yesterday so ive deleted the bulk of the tags i wrote (dehumanisation trauma when) #but i stand by this and ive been assured i make sense so sure. posting #this is the real reason i hate giving my disorder by name if you even care. it is specifically this treatment

[rotyolk]

my vision for badobarm bc god knows he deserved better

#p #pretend u didnt see me post this on the wrong blog #digital art #clip studio paint #fragaria memories #badobarm #his hair really bothered me and that triggered this drawing heehee #cant believe i considered not drawing his little friend (the caiman) #id in alt text

[the-unseelie-court-official]

Hey folks of tumblr I’ll put this plainly, I’ve got about 5500 dollars of hospital bill leftover from when I got hit by a semitruck and shattered my skull. I know what you’re thinking, wouldn’t you get a huge settlement? And the answer is yeah, unless the police saw a bunch of trannies got hit and never found the guy who hit us.

And so please, I ask, if you have the money to spare please throw some my way. Anyone who donates 25 or more let me know and I can give you a reading for your support.

Venmo is @Frankie-k-1

#please pass this along #didn’t want to post pictures at risk of triggering ppl #if you would like them send me an ask off anon so I can respond privately

[nite-puff]

ummm….. so. the mondoblr server made a joke, and i liked it a little too much.

the kiyotaka ishimaru iceberg!!

of course, i wasn’t the only one who worked on this. big thanks to @pompadorbz @chinchillasinunison @mini-mecha-cowboy @cryzono and @ecogirl2759 for all the help, whether it be contributing entries or finding sources!! we had a ton of fun putting this together, and i hope you guys like it!

reblogs are greatly appreciated because all of these lovely people (and i) put a lot of work into this!! they deserve it!!

(under the cut will be a link to the document with all the entries and some links to sources for most of them. HUGE thanks to eco for popping the absolute fuck off and finding all these links for us!!! (and thanks to mark and @panicuriprince for helping us out towards the end!))

#my mom seeing me typing away on my laptop: are you doing homework?? #me who's been working on this iceberg for the past few hours: uh... yeah! #anyways. i love mondoblr server #ya'll are so cool for helping me with this dumb idea. #danganronpa #danganronpa trigger happy havoc #kiyotaka ishimaru #kiyondo ishida #ishimondo #lots of this info has to do with the ishimondos so... #danganronpa meme #danganronpa shitpost #ramblepuff #also what a strangely fitting thing to post on this account’s 2nd birthday

[derpiedoxie]

Tw: eye contact

I paint what I see

#HEEEEEEEELP I HAVE BEEN DRAGGED INTO HOME AND I CAN’T GET OUT #A NEE HYPERFIXATION HAS BEGUN #EVERYONE WHO HAS FOLLOWED ME FOR FNAF BE WARNED #I had so much fun with this drawing- #it was an extremely fun experiment! #and to anyone who doesn’t know who this is: His name is Wally and he’s from an ARG Project called Welcome home! #Hightly recommend you check it out #derpiedoxie #digital art #fanart #welcome home #welcome home wally #welcome home fanart #wally welcome home #also I actually recorded the progress for this one so I’ll be linking the speedpaint in a reblog as soon as I’ve posted it! #edit: aaaaaa I should’ve put the trigger warning there earlier I’m sorry I forgot :’)

[neo--queen--serenity]

Fellas is it gay to kneel between your friend’s legs and beg him with tears in your eyes to pause the mission, just temporarily, so that one no one in your party dies in the effort? Is it gay to plead with him and tell him that you’re afraid to lose him, that all 3 of them matter to you, but that your fate is ultimately in his hands?? Fellas????

#catch me shipping all the dunmeshi ships idgaf THEY’RE ALL GOOD #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #chilchuck tims #laios touden #chilaios #i was so certain that somebody had to have made a post about this by now and NOBODY HAS??? #like trigger follows the manga but they EMPHASIZED the angles on how close chilchuck is between laios’ legs #i wasn’t even thinking of them in a shippy light until this scene #chilchuck #laios dungeon meshi #chilchuck dungeon meshi #chilchuck x laios #laios x chilchuck #neo queen serenity’s posts