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2022-08-17 “Hello everyone, I’m Ikeda Teresa. It’s been half a year since I became a 5th generation member and before I realized it, it was already August. I was overwhelmed with all of my first experiences, and everyday is super busy, I wonder if we’re leaving an impression on everyone? We’re still developing so please continue to look after us #Terepan blog” [ENG]

Hello, I’m Meronoʕ·͡·ʔ

I’ve received a lot of correspondences recently for the counseling office 💌

※Ikeda put her all into answer all these questions so brace yourselves for a long blog

Well I guess…the bigger the better when it comes to both blogs and dreams!

Well then first off the, Blog tour, Giganto Hokkaido section, let’s go

*MV🩹

The MV for our new song “Band-Aid HJagasu You Na Wakarekata” is now out! 👏🏻 ˶˙ᵕ˙˶ ))(( ˶˙ᵕ˙˶ 👏🏻

Right now I’m calling in BanHaga

Camera Shy Aya

We shot the video in the fiercely shinning sun 🔆

Ugh…It was legit sooooo hoooot ˣ˷ˣ

The other day when writing my blog the reason I got sunburnt was because of this MV, did anyone realize it? You’re all super sharp!

All of us we’re scorched like well cooked bread

How hot was it on the stage you ask? It was so hot that the shoes we were wearing as the outfit for the song melted! That’s why our shoes kept on making a slapping sound when we were dancing… ehehe

Blue skies, with a acrylic stage that matched the sky, along with our light blue outgit! Very Youthful!

The blue really leaves the impression of a summery song

By the way, my favorite shade of blue is teal 🪞🛁🫧🧊⛲️💙 ̖́-

( I learned this from Aruno)

If you look, please continue to watch it over and over again ̖́-

When it was released we were in the middle of rehearsals for the our Hokkaido performance, I watched it secretly backstage with Io-chan (◜︎︎𖥦◝ )

The hook of the chorus has this rolling melody that really pulls you into the energy of the song! Especially when you’re dancing, and when you’re listening to it the brightness and painful sadness really come out.

For me, including the dance scene, this was pretty much the first time I was in an MV. Of course the video that was uploaded to the official nogizaka46 YouTube channel obviously had me in it but I still couldn’t believe it

When they were shooting the MV for ‘Zetsubou no ichibyou mae” Saku-tan and I were like ‘So this is what it must of felt like to shoot the MV’

The me at that time was probably wanting to look at this MV so much.

I couldn’t choose a single picture so it’s fine to just put them all together right

Digression:

At the part where we say “koi nante seigyo funou’ the camera moves out and inadvertently my skirt comes up and deep down I was like ‘oh no’ but when I watched the MV it looked really good so in the end everything worked out great.

If you want to check it out the time stamp is 3:43 ´▽`)ﾉ

https://youtu.be/NCw7XnJMXhA?t=221

The effort and strength of the staff is huge…I’m so glad that we were able to make such a wonderful MV together. Thank you so very much!!!!

*TIF

We appeared at TOKYO IDOL FESTIVAL 2022!

To the staff at the venue, and to everyone who lined up at the venue to come see us, and to the people who knew about the appearance and watched from the live stream, thank you so very much!

Since it’s summer! We wore a eloquent and refreshing no sleeve outfit

The set list was

Zetsubou no 1byou mae

Guruguru curtain

Kimi no Na wa Kibou

Oide Shampoo

Girls Rule

Band-Aid HJagasu You Na Wakarekata

We did songs that were reminiscent of Nogizaka’s history, Fresh summer songs, so doesn’t that make it the best setlist?

In Oide Shampoo everyone danced along with us during the hook of the song, when I saw everyone dancing, I did my best to use that as a way to show you my smile, but it turned into a laugh. (This is a secret but, when’'m nervous my face becomes stiff and I need to physically push my face into a smile, don’t tell anyone)

Seeing all the other performers and seeing the stage for the first time and being surrounded by all the staff was a fresh feeling. The venue already had this aura of hype and energy even before we came on stage, and so I wondered if there was anybody that had come to cheer us on? And to tell you the truth I was a little bit nervous on the wings of the stage.

I went around to the other members being like ‘I inject you with fighting spirit’ while gently hitting them on the back, but in reality, I thought my insides were going to become my outsides and so that’s why some of the other members were giving me side glances… lol

While still trembling, I managed to wobble onto the stage but when I saw my name on a towel raised up in the audience I felt at ease and all at once I was overflowing with happiness!

I’m glad I saw it ( Ꙭ)

While performing I got dragged along by the tension and energy of the crowd, so much so that I felt it on my skin and I was so glad and it was a lot of fun. It was thanks to all of you, so thank you so much!

That’s right, in the middle we did an MC where we introduced ourselves, of course there was a lot of people who didn’t know who I was and so I got advice on whether I should try and cram everything into my self introduction (ex. Doing something like ‘I’ve spotted a Teresa Panda!!’) and if I did do you think people would just push me to the sidelines of who they should oshi… incidentally I still used the word ‘discover' in my introduction.

Did you notice it?

Through my self-introduction I was able to discover a lot of you (^^)v

This was the first solo 5th generation event that we’ve done outside of Nogizaka.

To debut at such a major event, and of course it’s thanks to the fact that we hold the name of Nogizaka46 but even still I’m very grateful so thank you so much.

We’re still very far from the senior members but I want to hold the hands of these 11 people and head towards that goal.

Please continue to look after us ‪‪☺︎

*Midsummer National tour 🧊

This time we were in Hokkaido!

Osaka, Hiroshima, Fukuoka and our 4th venue Hokkaido.

It’s gone by so fast and we’re already in the second half of our tour, once this period is over I’m going to be closely following the dates till I feel empty because the tour will be over… (..)

As expected of Hokkaido, even though it’s the middle of August and in the middle of summer the night are so cold that they make me shiver, it’s an irredeemable land that one should experience!

To tell you the truth, when I was in my second year of high school, my three friends and I went on a trip to Hokkaido. We went in April and the temperature was below freezing, and I only brought one coat with me so there I was standing in the snow completely frozen… that’s one of my memories from high school.

Ioki Mao in shocking pink and the messenger from the darkness Inoue Nagi

This pink Mao is probably doing the coreo for BanHaga, I feel like I recognize it from somewhere.

Backstage Nagi was worried stiff and nervous and in order to cheer her on we both become dwellers of darkness.

That’s right, this performance was probably the first? That I was nervous.

Before the 5th generation members went on stage I was given the opportunity to tell the other members about how I was feeling, but like the blog title, I created a script and kept repeating it in my head backstage ( ;,;)

Even still, in the end I couldn’t even say it the way I wanted to…but I feel like I’m able to tell that to everyone right now! What I said up on that stage will be a secret held between me and the people who attended the Hokkaido live ^ ^

To everyone that stood there at that venue I could really understand how amazing you all are, from here on I’m going to do my best to support and get supported by everyone, let’s go 💪🏽( ¨̮ 💪🏽)

Digression:

The food in Hokkaido is absolutely delicious! I read a lot of comments in the comment section regarding food in Hokkaido and I was really looking forward to trying some but it completely blew away my expectations. The most delicious thing I had was ‘Ikura-don’ it was a delicacy that surpasses the category of food and reach the realm of a true treasure chest…

When I was buying souvenirs, Hii-chan went on a binge shopping spree and seeing her have to send them back home was funny and weird, she was extremely generous to the shop staff! Is what I told her, she’s such a good kid!

I bought a single box of cookies and I’ve been eating them slowly, in order to not eat them all I try not to eat too many of them, but everytime I do I can’t help but cry at how delicious they are. Hokkaido is amazing…

“diet recommendation’

I’ve eaten so many delicious things recently and so I’m currently on a diet. Honestly though, my stomach is always growling and so I’ve found that whenever I eat anything delicious I have a tendency to start crying.

On this diet each one of my meals is like a solo documentary without musical accompaniment, everyone what do you think? ^ ^

*TV 🦈

Honestly I just realized my latest ranking is 8th…that’s right 8!

Hooray, like I though I’m loved by the number 8 ehehehe ( ◜︎︎𖥦◝ )

The 8 that I’m referring to is from the 372nd episode of Nogizaka Under Construction, 5th generation sports athlete ranking

I was in last place at the end of the first half and I was really depressed but I’m glad that I was able to make a comeback.

As expected my downfall was due to the 50m dash… I thought my running style was fast but I wasn’t moving forward at all -by mom

To all the patients with Tereru disease let’s give up on running, and if we do then I’ll have one less weakness.

The key to me pulling myself out from last place was the relay… team natural spring water did their best 🚰

As expected the pressure put on by Saku-tan was amazing, to stay so energetic all the way until the goal! I’m glad that I did trip and fall during the race (sweats)

The first time I participated in a recording for Nogizaka Under Construction, Bananaman-san called Saku-tan Bike Kawasaki Sakura…I now understand what they meant! It was just foreshadowing for this event right?

When I become a Kamen Rider I want Saku-tan to be my bike, you probably have no idea what I’m talking about.

The reversal happened after I lost a close battle…but after watching things look up for me Io-chan decided to create a dirty strategy, I was super shocked at that Ioki Mao

(TL Note: what she actually says is Odoroki Momo no Ki Ioki Mao which is a pun on a pretty much dead idom ‘Odoroki Momo no Ki Sanshou no ki’ which means to be very surprised)

…It was a really good battle, fueh (whipping sweat pose)

Thank you to everyone that watched it (`•∀•´) smug

New Nogizaka Star Tanjou!

Everyone, did you watch?

Last week’s broadcast we sang Rats & Star-san’s “me Gumi no hito’!

Team Soft cream was Naonao, Aya, Saku-tan and me. I was the Ice cream cone 🍦

It’s been a while since I’ve done half twin tails, probably not since Over Drive?

I’ve received a lot of requests in the comments and at the online meet and greets to do it and I’m glad I was able to. If there’s a hair style you want to see from me please let me know.

On top of that, next week! Will be my highly anticipated ani song special (≧∇≦)

It was so much fun to record !!!!

Make sure to check it out.

We’re taking requests currently on the program’s official Twitter ☺︎

In the comments as well please let me know some songs that you recommend, I’m always excited to find new things. Recently I created a playlist called ‘blog’ and it’s become relatively punk rock.

I’m glad to be able to be introduced to new songs, and through New Nogizaka Star Tanjou! I hope that everyone is able to be introduced to new music as well. I would be very happy if I were able to sing a song based on everyone’ requests! That’s why please keep sending songs to me 🫶🏻

For today I’m going to end the blog here!

It’s probably become very long but it was a fulfilling summer! So please forgive me

I hope that you have a wonderful day tomorrow! Teresa Power injection ̖́-

Mero “Sorry for the delay, welcome to Merono-san’s counseling room. As mentioned at the beginning of the blog we have a lot of questions to go through so let’s get started 📮”

First let me introduce to you some songs that I’ve learned about recently 📮

For some reason, my favorite songs have been unexpectedly recommended to me recently, maybe it’s because we’ve been spending so much time together that our hobbies are similar ehehe I’m glad.

Reunion/ Radwimps

For some reason I can’t find a proper word that fits this song but the feelings of really caring and treasuring someone are really well conveyed! The main character of the song that thinks this way must be a really good person

Hello/Yui

I feel like whenever I open my playlist this song is one that I often play first! The chorus of the song is really good and I always listen to it. If you like Paradise Kiss then this one also has amazing lyrics and you can identify with the song. To people who don’t know they’ll surely fall in love with it

Seifuku to Taiyou/ Keyakizaka46

In a world where I didn’t audition for Nogizaka I would listen to this song and cry, I’m glad that while in a position as a member of Nogizaka46 I was able to learn about this song.

By the way today I’m listening to LiSA-san’s Homura while writing this blog. We moved around a lot during the tour, and so I’ve had a lot of time to listen to music. I’m thankful for all the recommendations from everyone!

Finally the much awaited Q&A

💌 Tere-san how long does it take you to write your blogs?

(Blog name: Ioki Mao)

When you upload your blog I still have a blank page… :( ;´Д`;):

💌In the future my daughter wants to become an idol! She’s been really going on about it recently, Tere-pan can you give her a piece of advice ^ ^

(Blog name: Tere-maru)

…Work on smiling!

Mero “earnest”

💌Tere-pan uses ‘Nanoda’ at the end of her sentence quite a lot, is it okay if I call you Hamatarou?? 🐹

(Blog name: Tanoshi Jagaiimo (Fun potato))

That’s right, my name is Daiwa Scarlet 🐹

💌1, What’s your favorite section of choreography from BanHaga? 2, What app do you use when taking pictures? 3, If you have a recommended horror game what is it?

(Blog name: ten)

1, The part in the chorus of the song where we do a heart breaking pose 🫶🏻 ← this

2, normal camera

3, The one I’ve been watching recently is Witch’s house (Majo no Ie)!

💌 I’ve been recently working on my drawing skills and I want to draw Tere-pan-chan! Am I allowed to draw you? 🥺🥺

(Blog name: Teeresa)

Really? I’d be pleased to be drawn

Can I do one as well? (≧∇≦)

💌To the Tere-pan answering question right now, how are you feeling? (2022/08/06 18:13:39)

(blog name: me-ro-me-ro-be-am)

I’m feeling releaved that my blog is being uploaded without issue💌

💌It’s a battle!!! There’s no way you’ll ever see this comment right? If you see it then it’s your win!

(blog name: Ebi------)

Tere “Our”

Pan “win! 🤍🥰”

💌 If Tere-pan was Anpanman what would you do first??

(Blog name: yo- yo-)

I would try eating myself

Mero “honestly speaking of Anpanman, has he ever eaten himself?”

💌When I went to look for a Teresapanda-chan on the mountain I couldn’t find one. I know you said that they were in a place with a air conditioner but do you think if I put some juice and ice cream and snacks in a room with an air conditioner a Teresapanda-chan will appear?

(blog Name: NAGI)

To tell you the truth they’re already there

💌About the 53 ducklings, Daniel, Oscar, it seems like there are a lot of ducks with Western names but there are some with Japanese names right?

There’s a Genjiro-chan 🦦≈

💌I know that you’ve already named all the ducks that you have a home, can you give a name to the two ducks I have at home 🧸Please lend me your wisdom Teresa-pan, Merono-san (bow)

(Blog name: Komugi no Kioku (memories of flour))

Meron and…

Mero “suika!’

💌 Around August 15th in the afternoon at 12:30 Nau (2022/08/15 14:48:59) recently what’s a vocaloid song you’ve been addicted to??

(Blog name: Pandai)

Rasberry *Monster /HoneyWorks 🍓

💌Since you have 53 ducks is it difficult to remember their names?

(Blog name: Koi uyu)

Honestly the real person (main duck) doesn’t know either so there’s no problems

💌I just got a pet Clione on my phone but I don’t what I should call it..Which means, can you please give it a name!! Please Teresa-pan and Merono san (*ᴗˬᴗ)

(Blog name: Mi-pan)

Nyoruko

💌Merono-san, I’ll be going to a meet and greet with Ikeda-san in September and I’m already nervous, what should I do??

(Blog name: Ebikura pandas ↑Naming sense nasasuguri no mo Nayami no hitotsu desu)

Moerono-san please!

Mero “Ikeda is also nervous so you also shouldn’t worry about it? Looked at the fixed camera and do warm up excercises

💌Teresa-pan isn’t worn out of summer is she? I’m worried about her.

(blog name: Mozzarella Teresa)

Mero “She is”

…you have a keen eye

💌Ring Ring…hello? Is this Merono’s counseling room? It’s difficult to sleep at night, Teresa-pan are you also using a timer on the air conditioner? What time do you usually set the timer for? Every night I’m always troubled about what time I should have it set for? Teresa-pan what time do you set your timer to? Or are you the kind of person that leaves it on till morning?

(Blog name: 1003 Rinkyoukan)

I leave it on throughout the night, apparently people that leave the aircon on overnight are loose with their money

💌 In BanHaga during the chorus where they sing “koi nante seigyo funou’, what is the correct way to call that moment “Super Teresa Time” or “super Tere-pan time”.

(Blog name: Nanka Tekito ni kimemashita)

Is that what you’re calling it? Lmao

YaaY Supeeer Teresa Tiiime (´>∀<｀) ̖´-

💌There isn’t much time left on the National Tour! Teresa-chan and Merono-san, what was one of the gourmet foods you had in Nagoya?? This might just be an appeal and preparation but I heard a rumour about it on the wind so please tell me ( 'ω')/ ﾊｲ!

(Blog name: Yu mg)

Hitsumabushi

Ever since I saw a picture of it on a episode of Nogizaka Under Construction I’ve been wanting to try it ∈'＾'∋

Misokatsu, I also like chicken wing

💌Hello, Tere-pan’s blog are always really long and they’re really enjoyable to read, do you type out your blogs or do it on your smart phone?

(Blog name: Hanyou pan-gata kessen heiki tere pan-ge rion

´▽`)ﾉ iphone

💌What’s something I should prepare for the meet and greet! Are you a loose fried rice or soft fried rice? I personally am all for the fried rice made by Teresa-pan.

(blog name: Edogawa Sanpo)

Don’t forget your fixed camera!

I like loose fried rice, a long time ago I would put it between bread and eat it. While on this diet just hearing about it makes me want it… Carbonated water punnnnch (꜆꜄꜆˙꒳˙)꜆꜄ oraoraoraoraora

💌The other day at the midsummer national tour in Osaka I left my penlight at home and I waved my towel from beginning to end. In order to not forget something what should I do? Teresa-san have you ever forgot something important at an important time?

(blog name: Tere salsa sauce)

On the day before the tour I always pack my bags and then I make a list of things I’m going to bring and I check it everytime ✔︎︎︎︎

During the audition phase I was going to bring a drawing with me but I forgot it and I went empty-handed (´>∀<｀)ゝ It’s a moment I want to forget

💌There’s a lot I want to ask but for my first ever question I’m going to keep it simple. In high school were you a fine-arts person or a science person?

(Blog name: Tereru shindoru-mu)

This will come as a huge shock but I was a fine-arts person

💌I’m thinking of making my meet and greet debut at the next meet and greet. If I go to Teresa-chan’s meet and greet what’s something that happens??

(Blog name: Tere Eru)

At the meet and greet I was imbued with Tere-Power and now my back which used to hurt so much no longer hurts, it’s almost as if it never happened. (60 year old male)

I couldn’t sleep at night but since I was given Teresa-Power I’ve been able to fall fast asleep (30 year old female)

After I was Given Teresa-Power my skin feels moist and it gleams, I feel like I’ve become young again

(50 year old female)

Mero “that’s what it does, or so it seem”

💌 Merono-san! What do you think about Teresa-chan’s hatred of Melons? Are you sade?

(blog name: Kirarin croissant)

There are all kinds aren’t there

💌 What is the most delicious thing you ate in Hokkaido?!

(blog name: Ebiten)

The soup curry that catering gave us to it was really delicious. It tasted like shimp!

There was also uni (sea urchin)! It was sweet ( °_° )

💌 Merono-san, is there any times you go ‘wow Teresa-chan is still an otaku’?

(blog name: Haken Kibou Teresa Panda)

When I think ‘I understand how you feel’ aren’t we all just otakus

💌 Teresa-pan have you ever been to a stone sauna? If you have, did you like it?

(blog name: Unagi nagi)

I haven’t! I want to try, honestly I do

💌 If I comment every day I wonder if Merono-san will answer my question?

(blog name: tanpopo)

Mero ‘well that is what they call destiny’

💌 Did you see any fireworks this year? If there are any, do you want to see them together at Jingu? (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)

(Blog name: Pain ame ni pan o neri komu)

Large fireworks are good but wouldn’t sparklers be better for just the two of us?

💌Has there been a movie that you’ve wanted to see in theatres recently?

(blog name: panda)

One that I went to see recently was Kingdom 2!

Because I read the same scenes in the manga comparing it to watching it on the screen made it really enjoyable, General Ou ki was awesome (≧∇≦)

Other than that, One piece film red

Because Ado-san’s song ‘Shin jidai’ was so awesome in the CM I became interested in this movie. I want to see this chance in the manga. Even if you don’t follow One Piece it’s still enjoyable

Although it’s not out yet I feel I want to see Paradise Kiss, recently I’ve been listening to YUI-san’s HELLO, maybe it’s subliminal messaging?

💌 Did you drop a gold duck? Perhaps a silver duck?

(Blog name: Terezaato)

It was a yellow one (even though it’s the real thing)

💌 In the MV for BanHaga you were dancing quite a ways above the ground, was it scary to dance so high up. Do you have a fear of heights, or fear of tight spaces?

(blog name: Nihon umi no ringo)

Ikeda is simply scared of things like ghosts :( ;´꒳`;):

More than the MV stage the heat probably was worse, everyone was like ooh hot hot hot, they were just like popcorn ⸝⋆🍿⸝⋆

💌 I find it hard to make friends. I want to be friends with other patients with the Tereru disease. Merono-sama, Panda-sama, please save me.

(Blog name: yome-pan)

Mero ‘Ikeda doesn’t have a lot of friends in the first place…’

… let’s both aim to have deep and tight bonds with others!!!

💌 Tere-pan, which is better, meet and greet or hand shake events? ← Even if you can’t answer you won’t abandon us right? Right?

(blog name: omi-kun)

There are people that you can meet at handshake events, but there are also people I wouldn’t have met if not for meet and greets so I want to do both! They’re both fun

💌 Which Asuka from Neon Genisis is your favorite? By the way my favorite… is the one you like.

(blog name: Kachi kachi French pan)

Shin: Which Asuka was which?

Mero: ‘You’ve been looking at too many websites…’

💌 Speaking of which, have you gotten any further in Jojo yet? I was thinking about squeezing in somethings about Jojo at the meet and greet. Please tell me.

(Blog name: Kunikida)

You can look forward to finding out after coming to my meet and greet?

💌 The shirt you were wearing on the Nogizaka official Twitter was the t-shirt from the 29th under live right? Do you often wear it during rehearsals and lessons?

(Blog name: Greater Dog)

It was given to me!

I also did go to see the 29th under live.

I couldn’t tell her at the time but the mirror ball that came down from the stage and it looked like Sato Kaede-san was holding the moon on her back, it looked so cool🌙

Mero “maximum comfort!’

💌 Before going to sleep do you have a routine that you follow, if you do please tell me (I wonder if Merono-san could answer…)

(blog name: Merorianne)

I eat and go to sleep right away! If my blood sugar level isn’t high I can’t sleep. It’s probably not good for my health so I don’t recommend it

Mero “or so it appears’

💌 Please tell me what part of BanHaga you sing!

(blog name: Panda chocolate)

♪ ‘Mune kyun to shiteshimatta’

♪’boku ha your no sora wo miage sagashita ano seiza’

♪’koi nante seigyo funou’

♪ ima ni natte kimi wo konnna suki da nante kisetsu ha sugiteru no ni

As well as the chorus which we all sing ´▽`)ﾉ

💌 What does the number 1003 mean?

(blog name: Sensei!)

10 (te) 0 (re) 3 (sa)

💌 I want to go to a meet and greet with Teresa-chan so please give me the strength and courage to apply ; ; !

(blog name: ₍ ᐢ. ̫ .ᐢ ₎)

Teresa-power injection 💉 ̖́-

💌 You had short hair in high school?

(blog name: te)

Indeedge

💌 Teresa-chan, what’s your favorite scene in the BanHaga MV. Also in the #terepan blog that was posted on the 15th of July it was written that ‘Ikeda got really really sunburnt’ was this due to the filming of the MV?

(blog name: Terechi)

Ohh, you’re a sharp one!!!

You get 5 hundred million Tere-points

Hmmm… my favorite scene… . Right after ♪ Koi nante seigyo funou the scene with Iroha-chan, hii-chan and me at around 3:45 I think?

We shot it in a home-economics room at a school, and I couldn’t stop looking at this bug that got stuck in the wall and couldn’t move lol

💌 When handshake events start back up again I’m thinking about lining up in Teresa-pan lane but I think if I ever see the cute and adorable Teresa-pan in real life I’ll just end up opening and closing my mouth like a fish.

(blog name: Garnet)

Before handshake events come back you just need to practice and one way to do that is you can practice at one of my meet and greets (●︎´▽��`●︎)

💌 My hair right now is probably the shortest it’s ever been in my life and I wanted to match with Tere-pan and so I’ve been consuming a lot of zinc. Tere-pan does you hair grow fast,,? In order to catach up I’m going to sleep early and getting up early to be a Morning Tere-pan (?) ; ;

(blog name: Chara Meru Macchiato)

Throughout the year Ikeda is Tere-pan

My fast growing hair is one of the common points I have with Higuchi-san (≧∇≦)

💌 Chocolate flavor and coffee flavor, and what’s your favorite ice cream flavor?

(blog name: ᕙ( ˙-˙ )ᕗ)

Chocolate!

I can’t drink black coffee

PS: I thought my Soft Creamz’s outfit was a limited brown color! But I understand now, I was just cone colored 🍦

Fin!

The glasses from the MV were elegant so these are necessary glasses,

Good night

22.08.17 #Terepan blog #11

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resquest: hii! may i request a wonho angst fic, please? 🥺🥺 thank you in advance!! (i've translated to english)

a/n: hi love! ofc you can, here's your request, by the way, i hope you like it!! ah, and you don't need to be like this with me, we're friends!! (i was going to write it in portuguese but idk if there are people who use to read this, and i did something with ain't about you and with you, that are your favorite songs!! <3

pairing: idol!wonho x idol!fem reader

genre: angst, but with some fluff and smut undertones

contains: wonho can't help but remember about you, lee y/n, the love of his life, his wife and the mother of his beautiful daughter, in the middle of an online concert he's holding, specially when performing his new song flash, which was made just or you (the songs are not in order of albuns!! it's all mixed)

flashbacks are in italic!!!

tw// death, car accident, sasaengs!!

the concert started out with the 'smutty songs', so he wouldn't cry at the beginning, but he couldn't help but remember about when he wrote with you, thinking about you two, loving each other until the morning, or having some rough sex, it depended on the mood, but it was about you two, and he couldn't help but remember; your blissed out face, the sounds you made just for him, mewls, whimpers and moans, just for him, the love bites and scratches you leaved on his skin at hidden places so no one would figure out, your scent, your taste... everything came back to his mind in that moment

hoseok wished he could be at least turned on from the memories he had, but he was broken, he couldn't be nothing but sad remembering about his love, his sweet y/n, who's not here anymore to comfort him after a bad day, to take care of him when he's sick, to make love to him, to kiss and cuddle, to cook his favorite ramen flavors, and to help him to take care of your newborn baby, to help him to change diapers when he don't know what to do, to see you breastfeeding the sweet embodiment of your love... how he wished you were there at that moment, he couldn't believe that you'd left him, that you had left your family

he swore he lost his energy after singing open mind, thinking that he couldn't handle that anymore, he just wanted to lay on the ground and cry, hoping you could hear him and come to cuddle and comfort your husband, but wonho knew you wouldn't come

when lose started to play, he smiled a bit while singing, remembering how you got moody when you entered the set to support him and saw your man hugging the actress by behind, the same way he used to do with you while cooking or doing something important, or when he wanted to talk with the baby during your pregnancy

your pouty face was the death of him, he remembered exactly the texture of your lips on his when he was saying how sorry he was

"you're not going to say a word to me, baby?" you shook your head no "okay, so..." he leaned forward to kiss you, taking care of your growing stomach "do you forgive me now?"

"u-ugh, fine" you blushed, hearing his giggle "but please, do it with me the next time" you laughed

"i swear that in my next mv, you'll be the actress, and our little princess needs to be there too, right?" he smiled

when the sexy concept songs ment ended, a vcr came out, and he made sure to include you on the behind the scenes of the concert, the few last clips of you two together, you helping him with choreographies and figurines, a long video of you guys choosing the right outfits for open mind mv (yeah, he did some of them without the help of his staffs) playing while he changed and prepared himself to the other ment

when lost in paradise started to play, while he sang, hoseok couldn't help but remember that day in which he asked you to marry him, he asked you to be the woman of his life, and he also remembered about your wedding day, smiling widely while thinking about when the two of you started a life

'i got a feeling it's you' said the lyrics, and yes, he got that feeling, and he was completely right, it was you, the love of his life

the wedding ceremony has ended, you two were at a hill, even though he has acrophobia, he insisted to have a wedding at that place, he felt safe in your arms, and now, the two of you looked at the place, seeing the lake below you, and the beautiful view you had from the little forest, his hands still on your hips

"how does it feel to be finally my wife, love?" he smiled

"i feel like... i feel like this is all a dream" you said, caressing the hand on your hip with your other one "and i don't want to wake up. never."

he smiled widely, turning to face you, his hand still in your hip, while the other one caressed your face, carefully wiping the joyful tears that escaped from your eyes, trying his best not to ruin your makeup

"i wanted this dream to come true so bad... i feel like i'm in paradise now" he said "and i'm so happy that our dream finally came true, y/n, i love you so much, and i'll love you forever" he whispered, kissing you

yes, it was true, maybe he was really lost in paradise with you, but now, you weren't there anymore, just memories about you

even losing you seemed to have a different meaning now..... how he wished he could be there to save you, he wanted to protect you

now, it was the interview time, and he wasn't all smiley like before, and the interviewer wasn't helping that much

"so, wonho-ssi... some of your fans noticed that you're not smiling too much today... what happened?" she asked him

"i wasn't going to talk about it, but i can't hide it from wenees anymore..." he sighed "it's just that... every single thing i do here remember me from y/n, my lovely wife, who's not here anymore"

"and what happened to her?" the interviewer didn't seemed to be aware of the situation

"there might be some wenees who don't know what happened... okay, i'll explain" he felt himself getting braver to talk about what was making he lose his sleep "i've hid about my relationship with y/n for about 7 years, but when we got married, i knew lots of fans would talk about it, so our relationship became public... how could i hide this from my precious wenees? i wanted my fans to know about my family" he felt the tears starting to run on his cheeks "i was so happy when i announced that she was pregnant... i thought wenees would be happy, too, but unfortunately, some of them started to become aggressive towards y/n" he was sobbing, even the interviewer couldn't held her tears, starting to feel guilty by asking him that "some obsessive fans started to stalk her when eunbi turned 5 months old and she started to sing again... and near to our princess' 11 month anniversary, when y/n was coming back from mcountdown, some of those wen..." he corrected himself "those sasaengs collided with her car, they were at a high speed, so it was a huge accident, and she didn't resisted..." he was angry, sad, he couldn't help but cry "i couldn't thank her to be with me, to be the mom of my precious daughter... i couldn't say a last 'i love you'... the last thing we did together as artists was the ain't about you mv... and that morning, the last thing she did before going out was to feed our baby girl, and kiss me..." i miss her so much... please, y/n, come back to me... the police had arrested those girls already, but please... say that you love me one more time" all he could do was cry

the staffs thought about ending the concert without an encore, but he insisted to sing the song he wrote for you, flash, while calming himself when the cameras were off

hoseok saw eunbi, his now one year old daughter sleeping while a staff kept an eye on her, he smiled, his eyes were still red and swollen, his face was puffy, so the baby seemed to notice, even if she was still half asleep when her dad held her tightly in his arms, she managed to grab his nose while smiling with the pacifier still in her mouth, her other hand holding the bunny plushie her mom gave her in the 10 months old birthday

"my sweet eunbi" he cooed "daddy will sing a song for mommy today... will you sing with me?" the baby smiled, her pacifier almost dropping, but wonho put it back in her mouth as soon as he could

he kissed her forehead, and then, started to retouch his makeup and change the jacket, holding eunbi in his arms again, going back to the stage

he grabbed the mic, knowing that they were on air, the first public appearance of his daughter, a beautiful moment, even if it was melancholic

Tonight I am still standing In the middle of nowhere, not knowing how you’re feeling I’m trying to find you because I was the only one who didn’t know When and where it went wrong like a fool I want to turn back time and stop it An endless flash, my love for you

while singing, he meant each one of those words, his love for you would be infinite, he'd never stop loving you, or the huge present you left him — a precious daughter, and photos of the two of you were passing through the big screens behind him, photos of your family, wedding day, honeymoon, selcas... everything he had to remember from you

The day I hugged you for the first time The day that will never come again I repeat the words alone, I love you

all he wanted to do in that moment was for you to be there, to sing with him, both of you holding your daughter, smiling... being a happy family, suddenly, he remembered that day, wishing he could turn back time to the day of your first hug, he wanted to hold you in his arms forever

You shined on me like a lighthouse When I was on my own and lost my way, flash You were shining, flash Will I ever forget you? I miss you You held me like a hero When I was unknown, tired and collapsing, flash You were warm, flash Will I ever find you again? I miss you

you were his light, when someone broke him, when he got into those scandals, when he couldn't go back to his fans, you were the one there, you were his flash, helping him to find the way back home, to give him the love he deserves

You left me and I’m the only one here I call you but there’s no answer, what else can I do? I thought I cared for you more than anything But it was my mistake, how hard was it for you? Come back to me please, give me one more chance Shine on me beautifully like you’ve always did I know bae gone be the last time This is how I’m feeling If I can see you one last time, one love

he was calling you even now, his mind was wandering back to all the memories he had with you, his one and only love, but you weren't going to answer him, you couldn't just come back from the dead

The day I let you go from my arms The day that will never come again I repeat these words alone, I want to see you

suddenly, hoseok felt guilty again while singing this part, he shouldn't let you go from his arms that morning, he should've faked being sick, or anything he could just for you to be home and live a little more

You’ve given me so much I still have more to give you back We can’t stop like this If I have one more chance

he wanted to do all he could for you, but you wouldn't be there to see it, and he would never be able to give back all the love and support you gave him, so he was doing his best to be happy for you even tho he's broken, he needed to be strong for his daughter

You left me and I’m the only one here I call you but there’s no answer, what else can I do? The shining flash, yeah Now I can be your destiny Like I’m your everything? If you’re in my arms, I won’t let you go The flash will be shining on us I’m waiting for the day you smile again

he felt the tears teasing his eyes again, but he held them back this time, ending the song with a smile, playing with the baby in his arms, hearing eunbi's loud laugh, filling his heart with some joy, finally, and he truly smiled, laughing with her

"y/n, i love you! thank you for giving me everything!" was the last thing he shouted before ending the concert

even when you're not there anymore, he felt as if he was being the most loved man in the earth by you and your daughter

#monsta x imagines #monsta x scenarios #monsta x x reader #monsta x fluff #monsta x angst #monsta x wonho #wonho #wonho angst #wonho fluff #wonho scenarios #wonho imagines #wonho x reader

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jeontaehui · 3 years

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TAEHEE WITH WAYV

kun kunhee

taehee’s true aegyo only shows when she talks to kun.

she would call him ‘kun gege‘ or ‘kunnie kun kun’ when she’s feeling it lol

taehee Loves kun’s cooking !!! every time the neos would separate into groups during an activity that involved cooking, she’d beg to be in the same group as him.

(nct world ep. 8) “oppa, your food is to die for.”

kun looks at taehee very fondly, like how a dad would watch his child.

he thinks taehee can be a bit out of hand sometimes, but 98% of the time they’re together, kun looks like he’d spoil taehee without her having to ask him.

(180403 vlive) “kun-ge,” taehee skips in her steps as kun turns his head to acknowledge her, “hmm?” “if ten oppa asked you to cut me in half, would you?” she asks him expectantly, and without missing a beat, he replies, “no”. triumphantly, taehee turns to the back to stick out her tongue at ten, “see, you’re the only person—“ “i don’t want to have two of you around,” kun cuts her off with a playful smirk, which turns to a laugh as soon as taehee lets out a gasp. she continued to ramble about how she trusted him, how she felt betrayed. “i’m just kidding,” kun says as he put his arm around taehee’s shoulders, pulling her close before ruffling her hair.

although they’re not a very popular duo or not seen together quite often, taehee absolutely missed kun and his playfulness (and maybe his cooking too).

iconic moment (uncut take #1 | 2020 yearparty behind scene #2) “hello,” they respectfully greeted, with taehee clinging to kun’s side. “i’m here with taehee,” kun starts, “and even if we aren’t in a scene together, we’re hanging out.”

“i missed kun oppa,” taehee pouts, “kun gege.” this immediately made kun smile, it was clear how kun adored taehee like she was his own child. “really?” and taehee nods in response. “it’s been like, what, two years? since i’ve last seen you. moments with you are like, a breath of fresh air,” kun softly laughs at the comparison as he shakes his head at her dramatics. “you’re just making stuff up, aren’t you?”

“i’m not! i swear!”

“are you sure it’s not my cooking that you missed?”

“well... maybe that too.”

song happier by marshmellow ft. bastille

ten tnt / tenhee

taehee likes to think of ten as her twin, but then he would always shoot down the idea.

(n’-75) “we’re like twins, right?” taehee tells ten before throwing a chip into her mouth. “yeah, but you’re the annoying one and everyone likes me.”

their videos on nct’s dance channel are literally Divine !!!!!! nctzens especially went wild when taehee performed with ten on ‘hit the stage’.

the dirty jokes ..... don’t even get me started. ten would make one remark and it immediately becomes dirty when he makes eye contact with taehee (ft. mark sometimes). if taehee was about to break out laughing, she’d go “UGH I HATE YOU!”

but even if they’re like this with each other, ten and taehee care about each other a whole lot :(

(nct world ep. 3) taehee strained her wrist while attempting to do jump over the vault. though she was able to balance herself quickly, she looked as if she were about to fall; at this split second, ten took a worried step forward, afraid that she’d slip to the ground. later, when taehee comes back with a wrist guard around her hand, ten takes a concerned look at her and asks if she was okay.

taehee also caught a cold while they were preparing for ‘90’s love’ and ten kept insisting he’d make her something to help her feel better.

ten would never admit it but taehee is his baby, anything or anyone that’s bothering her will have to go through him first >:(

iconic moment (jcc ep. 25) “ten, i don’t think it’s supposed to work that way,” taehee giggles at him as he stood a foot away from her while mixing his self-made cookie dough. “no, you wait for it. it’s gonna work,” ten insists while pointing the wooden spoon menacingly at taehee, but this just made the girl smile wider.

she secretly slides the jar of white sugar towards her and scoops up a spoonful, before moving carefully towards ten. “i don’t even think you added sugar,” she mumbles, but his body moves to block her and she bumps into his back with another step. “HEY!” she laughs at how protective ten was getting over his cookie dough, and his stirring becoming more and more aggressive as she tries to put sugar in it, “i’m going to place some so it has a taste!”

ten protests that he already did a while ago while taehee maneuvered her way around him laughing. ten knew what she was trying to do and so he bumped his hip against hers to stop her from getting any nearer. “this is going to spill! ten, stop!,” taehee tries to hold in her giggles, ten was being too cute. “and you’re going to clean it up when it does,” he bites back.

taehee resumes to finding ways to get sugar into the mix while ten resists, causing a very entertained mark to fill the studio with laughter. after a few minutes of trying, taehee sighs and puts back the sugar in the jar, "wow, i never knew baking could be so tiring.”

turns out, ten’s cookies didn’t come out that well and taehee’s expression said it all. “i told you so.”

song positions by ariana grande

winwin winhee

when winwin was promoting with wayv, he and taehee would send each other messages asking about their days or if they had plans for anything. since both units were busy, they really never do this and it’s only rare that they message each other, let alone call each other.

that’s why taehee was very happy when she saw winwin again for resonance :(

if taehee was chill about her love for winwin before, now she’d just poke his cheeks every once in a while.

(uncut take #1 | 2020 yearparty behind scene #1) taehee watches from the side as three or four members corner winwin to gush over him, making her give a disapproving shake of the head to the camera. “everyone, winwin hyungie is like a baby,” she nods. “babies won’t like it if you bother them too much, so you have to be subtle with your affection.” taehee gives a playful smirk to the camera, “that’s why winwin hyungie likes me.”

winwin, on the other hand, thinks that taehee changed very much the last time he saw her. from being childish and innocent, she became matured and confident. this is how winwin felt time really flew.

(uncut take #1 | 2020 yearparty behind scene #1) “winwin gege~,” taehee whines, seeing how it would roll off her tongue. “did i say that right? ‘winwin gege’?,” she looks to see that winwin already had a fond smile on his face. “you are so cute,” he pouts, “jeon taehee, you are really too cute.”

iconic moment (201106 twitter blueroom live) “winwin hyung, who is your favorite member here in 90’s love?,” haechan asks from his left. and as everyone appeals to him, including mark who touches his ear out of affection, he already had one person in mind. “jeon taehee.”

song left to right by marteen

lucas luhee

a very very very very chaotic duo.

if you watch compilation videos of the funniest moments from empathy era, the iconic clip of lucas and taehee saying something else instead of ‘yadom’ (nasal spray) would always be included. they had to cut out that part from the live later, and members had to tell them what ‘야동’ actually meant in the next live.

taehee would try to teach lucas some korean before, but then that’s just her talking in korean with an english accent.

(180712 vlive) “why are you so tall?,” taehee raises her eyebrow at him. “why are you so short?,” lucas laughs.

taehee threw a pick-up line at mark during that same live, and lucas asked her why wasn’t she like that to him too. “lucas, don’t laugh but,” taehee tells him, “even if you’re as tall as a tree, i’ll still see you as a big baby. i’m not lying.”

and so jungwoo and taehee’s snacking tradition was actually jungwoo, taehee, and lucas’ snacking tradition.

for taehee, it’s so satisfying to watch lucas eat especially if he’s enjoying it so much. lucas actually admitted that the food that taehee carried in her bag would eventually go to his stomach. it became a habit for taehee to carry some in her bag even if lucas wasn’t promoting with her anymore.

iconic moment (uncut take #14 | ‘resonance’ mv behind the scene) “yo lucas,” taehee greets as she was pulled into a friendly bro hug. when she pulls away, she quicklt takes a look at lucas’ gorgeous features and steps back, “woah, you’re seriously so handsome.” lucas turns shy at her compliment and rubs the back of his neck, “you too.”

taehee raises her eyebrows in amusement, smirking as she says, “i’m handsome too?” lucas thinks for a moment before nodding yes, “you can be handsome too.”

“okay czennies, meet two very handsome people. hello!”

song rather be by clean bandit (ft. jess glynne)

xiaojun xiaohee

out of all the ‘99 boys, she’d want to get to know xiaojun more the most.

they’re not awkward with each other, they’re just shy to approach each other and start a conversation.

(sun & moon ep. 2) “taehee-ssi told me the other day she really liked xiaojun hyung’s voice out of the blue,” the said girl eyes haechan carefully, suddenly feeling nervous at what he’s going to pull. “i told her she should tell you herself, why is she telling me? she said she was shy,” when he had said this, a chorus of ‘ohh’s’ came from the rest of the bunch, except for taehee. she had a threatening smile on her face directed at the one and only lee haechan, so he decides to prod her further, “taehee-ssi, perhaps you’d like a guesting on awsaz?”

unknowingly though, xiaojun soon becomes one of the causes of taehee’s smiles or laughter whenever they’re filming together.

(nct world ep. 2) “taehee, fighting!,” he cheers as taehee stepped forward to arm wrestle. the latter quickly turns around to give him a salute as she winks.

(201120 vlive) “xiaojun comes home and he talks about taehee too,” kun shares, “they hang out a lot.” doyoung snickers, “he fell for her too? taehee tells us how funny you guys are in your dorms, but she only ever talked about xiaojun.”

so yes ,,, they are very shy around each other but as far as we know !!! they’re really good friends who want to be closer to each other.

iconic moment (uncut take #14 | ‘resonance’ mv behind the scene) “you guys have pets in your dorm, right?,” taehee asks him as she leaned back, her arms supporting her from behind. “yes, we have three. the dog is bella and we have two cats named leon and louis,” taehee’s eyes widened, though she admits she feels jealous to have their pets around.

“i would keep my dog with me but they won’t let me.”

“oh really? what’s the name?”

“her name is 뚱이, and she’s a lhasa apso.”

“ahh,” xiaojun nods, “does she pee on your carpet?”

taehee throws her head back slightly as she laughs at the question, bringing a hand to her mouth to hide her growing smile. “do your pets pee on your carpet?” xiaojun shrugs, “well, sometimes,” he nods off disappointingly, causing taehee to giggle. “but we love them,” xiaojun sighs, and his eyes see taehee’s wide smile as she agrees with him. “that’s right, we love them.”

song i really like you by carly rae jepsen

hendery deryhee

taehee finds hendery SO funny, i swear.

like he can literally just smile and nod she’d bust her lungs out from laughing

nctzens found it cute when taehee and hendery monitored each other while they were shooting for the ‘misfit’ track vid.

(misfit track video behind the scene) “ooo hendery is good. he looks cool.”

taehee watched the awsaz episode of winwin and jisung ,,, firstly because of those two.

but then hendery and haechan were so funny too she may have shed a tear from laughing.

a fan asked in those video call fansigns if taehee has watched any of wayv’s videos and she laughed, saying that she watched the one where they acted as disney princesses.

“hendery is so funny, really,” she smiled. “I CAN SHOW YOU THE WORLD!!!!”

they became really close during resonance era and talk about games, their pets, and already have some inside jokes between the two of them.

like a member would just say ‘cabbage’ and we already have the two of them smiling to each other from across the room !!! or they’d make eye contact when looking at the mirror and taehee would just bust out laughing.

iconic moment (201106 twitter blueroom live) “you’re really, really, really, really handsome,” yuta starts with utmost sincerity, “hendery.” the latter brings a hand to his face, his face warming up at the compliment as he sighs contently. this comical reaction causes taehee to burst into a fit of laughter, one you could hear off-cam.

later, when it was time for the ‘90’s love’ unit to take charge of the live, taehee giggles out of the blue, trying to keep her laughs in. “why?,” mark asks as he glances at her. “i’m sorry i just,” she pauses. surely, she was thinking about the funny things hendery pulled when they were doing the live before them. “i just keep thinking about how funny hendery was. i’m sorry, i’ll just eat my fries,” she says the last part quickly, throwing a french fry in her mouth as she bites back a smile.

song love story by taylor swift (disco lines ft. cassidi remix)

yangyang yanghee

taehee finds yangyang SO cute, precious, and tiny.

whenever yangyang is speaking, we’d see taehee in the corner of the frame smiling.

she’s all over the yangyang vocalist agenda !!!!!!

(uncut #16 | ‘90’s love’ recording behind) “this is yangyang’s voice, isn’t it?,” taehee beams as she hears the younger’s voice through her headphones. “i really like his voice.”

yangyang’s such a smiley baby around taehee, partially because she told him he was very cute when he smiles.

fans find it so endearing when taehee calls yangyang “yangyangie” as if she’s talking to a baby :(

(201022 weibo live) “taehee noona and i play games when she comes here,” yangyang tells renjun. “and then she’ll hangout with the pets later,” he and renjun laugh at this. typical taehee.

taehee would buy drinks from the vending machine for sungchan since he’s the maknae in ‘90’s love’ but !!!! she makes a special exception for yangyang.

just a little bit more and he’s up taehee’s baby list ^ ^

iconic moment (uncut take #8 | ‘90′s love’ mv behind) “today is yangyang’s birthday!,” taehee chirps as she held the camera, making sure she and yangyang were both in the frame. “you’re like, 21 now, right?,” yangyang nods, “how are you feeling today?”

“i feel happy right now since you guys like prepared a cake and stuff and sang ‘happy birthday’ to me awhile ago,” taehee smiles at this. “so i’ll continue to work hard with you guys as we wrap up filming,” yangyang finishes as he beams at her, the latter mirroring his expression.

“you’re so cute, you know that, right?,” taehee coos as she focuses the camera to yangyang (who smiles shyly at the compliment), before placing herself back in frame. “i only got to play games with yangyang a few times because chenle invited me, but now that we’re all spending time together, i think yangyang’s a very cute dongsaeng.” at this, they both giggle and taehee raises her fist for a fist bump. “i know,” yangyang says as he bumps his fist against hers, taehee laughing at this cute ball of sunshine.

song timber by pitbull (ft. ke$ha)

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yelenayena · 3 years

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Chemistry

Pairing: Pieck Finger x fem!reader

Genre: Romance

Warning: None (YAY✨), modern AU

Fun fact: Nanaba is an ex-girlfriend of Miche

Summary: You have an affair with Pieck, while she has an on-off relationship with Porco. You feel so jealous when she came to Colt’s party with him. Even so, you can't let them ruin your mood, and Thank God It's Friday, everything is possible when you are at the party on Friday night 🌚 ✨

A/N: I am a PokkoPiku shipper, but I also like her as a lesbian, but I don't like PikuLena ship bc Yelena is ours 😔 so that's why I made this story, I hope you like it 💜✨ I’m sorry if my writing is bad, still learning to write a story in English

Pieck looked at the picture that you sent on iMessage. She closed the app when Porco got behind the wheel. He turned his head and winked at Pieck who sat next to him on the passenger seat. He turned the engine on and he drove to Colt’s place.

“Let’s go, beauty,” said Porco, he opened the door for Pieck as they arrived at Colt’s place. “We're gonna have fun tonight,” he continued.

Pieck didn't reply but gave him a little smile. They both come inside, the house already crowded with people who joined the party. Porco held Pieck’s hand, he brought Pieck to their friends and joined them.

You saw them just come in, and your heart was pounding immediately. You felt jealous in your heart as you saw her in his arms and smiled at him. You rolled your eyes and tried to ignore that shitty couple. You smiled when you heard Connie’s silly stories, but deep inside your head, you can't get rid of Pieck’s face in your mind. You thought she wouldn't come with Porco, but maybe she had been together with him again. You felt sick of their on-off relationship.

You and Pieck were just friends. You have known her since the first year in college, as you both entered the same club in the university, Archery Club. She already had an on-off relationship with Porco at that time, but she knew you like girls, and she wanted to test her sexual orientation. So she often texted and called you whenever she needed someone to talk to until you both found chemistry. Sometimes you wish she would end her relationship with Porco and start dating you, but every time you think you're gonna get her, she‘s back to him instead.

You wish you could hate her, but you like her so much, Pieck is the woman you've always dreamed of. She’s beautiful, warm, and kind, and she has a very beautiful smile. The moments when you spent with her are the magical ones. You are just her secret affair, but you can't ignore her every time she needs you.

You let out a long sigh. Tonight is Colt’s party, you think that you should've had fun. Don't let your negative thoughts affect your mood here. You saw everyone you know has come to this party.

Everybody seems so fabulous, and they look so happy dancing or chit-chatting with their partner. It was so pitiful you just drink alone, even Oluo is dancing with Petra now. And, ugh! You just saw Pieck kissing Porco, you glanced away quickly and searched for something entertaining like watching Sasha’s silly dance with Niccolo. You gulped your beer and chuckled watching them.

“They're a hilarious couple, but they seemed to have each other. I mean, the girl likes to eat, the boy likes to cook. What's better than that? They really match as a couple.”

Someone talked to you. You turned your head, there's a small and tall blonde smiling at you. Your eyes narrowed, trying to see if you recognize the figure standing in front of you.

“They're one of my fave couples in this world,” you replied, ignoring the fact that you don't know her. It's a party, after all, you can talk to anybody if you want, even to strangers.

She smiled, “oh, I'm Nanaba by the way.”

“I’m-” before you can finish your words, she interrupted you.

“I know you, you're Y/N.”

You stared at her in confusion, “how did you-”

“Hange. We're both friends. Before I came here, she knew that I was keeping an eye on you, so she challenged me if I dared to greet you. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable.”

“No, don't worry, being alone sucks. I was like a kitten who got lost in this crowd.”

“Not true, you looked so cute when you were alone.”

You smiled when you heard her teased you. “So, how did you know Hange?”

And your conversation continued with her story about how she can be friends with Hange, Levi, and Miche. She’s a fourth-year student, just like Levi, Hange, and Miche, in the Culinary Science program, in a different university as you, but she's a friend of Hange and friends and a senior of Eren and friends in high school.

You think that she's cool, she looks calm, but when she talks, you know that she’s pretty funny and has a good personality. She has an average build for her height, maybe around five feet seven inches. She had blue eyes and short blonde hair, which was parted slightly to the right with short bangs and an undercut. Her appearance was very good. She looks like an androgynous supermodel.

She touched your arm to protect you from the others who went crazy and wild while they were dancing around you. At that moment, you and she looked at each other. She gave you a beautiful smile, you feel better now when she's around you. And it makes you feel that you want to know more about her.

“Do you know her? I think she keeps glancing this way,” said Nanaba while you both laughed after she told you about the silly story of Miche in high school.

“Who?” you asked.

“That girl over there, the one who wore a yellow blouse and was embraced by her boyfriend. Her face looked jealous. Eww, She has a boyfriend, but she keeps glancing at others, I feel sorry for her boyfriend,” she explained.

You know who it is, what she meant was Pieck. Pieck was indeed staring at you, but when you glanced at her, she glanced away immediately. “Just ignore her,” you said.

Nanaba looked nonchalant then she continued her hilarious stories about her and her friends. You both acted like you were old friends. She can make you forget your sadness. You two look like you enjoyed having the time together at the party.

The longer you talked, the closer she got to you until her arms touched yours. You guys were so captivated by this magical moment that you didn't even realize her bodies were closing in. You reached your consciousness when someone grabbed your hand.

It was Pieck who held your hand. “We need to talk, ” she said.

“For what?” you asked.

“Please, I'm begging you,” she pleaded.

“But-”

“It’s okay,” said Nanaba. “Go ahead and talk to her.”

You sighed then followed Pieck from behind. You turned your head back and looked at Nanaba. You moved your lips to give her a sign to wait for you there. She nodded and smiled at you.

Pieck brought you to the powder room. She placed your body on the sink and kissed your lips. “C’mon, ” she said when she stopped. She looked at you, “touch me like the way you used to,” she said before she continued to kiss you.

She always knows how to turn you on. This is how she got you wrapped around her, but you also enjoyed it and she tasted so good. You pulled her body and placed her on the sink. You kissed her back. She looked satisfied and replied to every move you made for her. When you kissed her neck, she writhed and gasped.

You continued to run your hand through Pieck’s hair while kissing her upper body. All the memories about you and her hit your head. When she gave you a beautiful smile on the first night you spent with her.

Your hand on her back now, hiding under her blouse to touch her soft skin. Your memories showed her figure when she always said your name when she let you touch her more deeply.

You know how to make her satisfied. You know her sensitive spot on her body. She once told you that she likes the way you touched her, something that she can’t get in her boyfriend. Of course, you're a girl, she's a girl. Who can understand better about girls? Obviously, girls themselves. Just like Katy Perry says in ‘I Kiss a Girl’, “Us girls, we are so magical. Soft skin, red lips, so kissable. Hard to resist, so touchable, too good to deny it.”

Besides, sometimes guys are too focused on how to make themselves satisfied rather than make their girls satisfied. And even some guys see girls as a tool to satisfy their appetites. That's why Pieck can't let you go.

You stop kissing her, “but I'm not your toy anymore.” Then you pulled her body and left her there alone in the powder room.

It is a hard decision, you still like her, but you've done being her toy. You'd tired waiting for her, whereas she always lets her boyfriend touch her like the way you used to. Now, it's time to cut her ties and open a new chapter. Plus, you found new chemistry in someone else.

If you read a manga of AOT comedy spin-off, Attack on Titan: Junior High by Saki Nakagawa (they an Isayama’s junior in college), the author made Nanaba seem to have a crush on Miche ambiguously. And many fans pair her with Miche, I like MikeNana ship as well, but just like Pieck, I also like her as a lesbian👩‍❤️‍👩💜

By the way, this story inspired by Hayley Kiyoko - Curious MV ✨

#attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #aot #snk #fanfic #aot au #pieck finger #pieck x you #pieck x reader #pieck fanart #modern au #aot fanfiction #snk fanfiction #nanaba #fanart #snk fandom #romance #pieck x y/n #pieck supremacy

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Top 20 Songs of 2020

Okay y’all, here’s my top kpop songs of 2020 list for this year (finally, good lord this year felt like an eternity). These are the 20 songs that I felt really made an impact on me this year and why 💕

Starting from last to first, here we go!

20. Dr. Bebe, Pentagon - this song deserved so much better tbh the music video was everything, their acting was excellent and the vocals were *chefs kiss* i also loved the dark, creepy vixx -reminiscent vibes

19. Back Door, Stray Kids - Ok like objectively i know that God’s Menu was like their piece de resistance this year, but Back Door was just so fun and had a great bass line and the choreo was SO good

18. Cry For Me, Twice - this literally JUST came out like two seconds ago but let me tell you cry for me has legit been stuck in my head from the SECOND i heard it just ask my sister she’s this close to killing me next time i sing the chorus

17. Red Sun, Dreamcatcher - Let’s be real, dreamcatcher’s entire studio album was perfect from start to finish, and red sun was a standout among that perfection for me like from the magical mystical instrumental to dami’s absolutely earth-shattering rap line, just absolute gold my dude

16. Kick It, NCT 127 - This was a very polarizing song for a lot of people i feel, but for me the concept was literally executed to perfection. It had so much potential to be cheesy and gimmicky, but it totally wasn’t and i think it’s because nct 127 committed SO wholeheartedly to the concept

15. So Bad, StayC - THIS song. I actually already had my list all written out when i discovered so bad by stayc and i literally had to reconsider my ENTIRE existence. They are so so good with such a talented production team backing them and they’ve literally just debuted.

14. Dun Dun, Everglow - A lot of people really hated this song, and don’t get me wrong i had my own issues with the line and screen time distribution for sure, but you can’t deny it’s a total banger

13. Nonstop, Oh My Girl - This is the kind of song that i never really expected to fall in love with. It’s bubbly and cute and quite like youthful, but oh my girl honestly pull that concept off so well and they had me immediately hypnotized

12. Be In Love, Itzy - 2020 was the year of bailey eating her own words aka the year of me falling in love with itzy. when itzy debuted i seriously thought if they stuck with their concept i probably wouldn’t ever be into their music but lmao. they showed me. anyway this b side is seriously underrated and it really shows the girls vocal talents off, especially lia and yuna

11. Love Killa, Monsta X - hyungwon. that’s it that’s the post . . . jk but for real, visuals popped off. love killa was exactly what i’ve been wanting from mx for the past year or so. they hit the nail right on the head with the this one.

10. Secret Story of the Swan, izone - my relationship with izone is basically like my relationship with itzy part 2. I always appreciated them for their talents and having a very recognizeable sound but i could never get into their music. then SSOTS happened, and to be honest it STILL gets stuck in my head at random times

9. Phobia, Stray Kids - i LOVE this b side. for a while i thought it might replace Voices as my favourite skz track, but it just didn’t have the longevity that voices does. that said, it’s still such a good song with an important message did i mention that i love stray kids

8. La Di Da, Everglow - i have said it before and i’ll say it again: no one is doing it like everglow. this song came so out of the blue and blindsided so many people with how unexpectedly different it was, all while being a certified banger. the line distribution is aMAZING, you get to hear each member’s unique flavor, the straight 80’s vibe is immaculate, the styling is God-tier, just . . . everything. i LOVE this comeback

7. Eternally, TXT - if you know me, you know i love a good beat switch-up (i mean, my ult group is stray kids for crying out loud) and ladies. this song is the switch up to end all switch ups. txt somehow managed to combine two completely different tracks, each of which would have been A+ songs all on their own, and somehow make something a million times better. listening to eternally is a whole experience in and of itself and i haven’t heard anything that could compare to it to this day

6. Girls, Nature - UGH. WHAT an underappreciated masterpiece. girls by nature does everything that other companies are so afraid to do with their girl groups: a strictly dark, horror concept, a haunting melodic line with no need for a rap breakdown because it stands on its own as is, a visual concept that does not sexualize the girls in any way but instead tells a story of a person at the mercy of the one they love. it’s e v e r y t h i n g. Not to mention the song has one of the best pre choruses i’ve EVER heard.

5. Wannabe, Itzy - Let’s be honest, you knew this was going to be here. Everyone and their grandma was learning ryujins shoulder move. this was literally the summer of itzy’s wannabe. This is actually the comeback that got me onboard the itzy train and now i’m barreling down the mountain going 200mph and can’t find the breaks

4. I Can’t Stop Me, Twice - I think onces really had no idea where this comeback was gonna go. after more and more got such mixed responses from fans, we all weren’t really sure what direction the company was going to take twice in next. personally, i’m SO happy they went for the retro synth 80’s vibe concept. it was current enough to fish in non fans and keep new onces engaged but they also added their own unique twice spice to it, and i’ve been playing it on repeat for weeks also stan risky risky wiggy wiggi

3. Oh My God, G Idle - Ahhhh, yes. another polarizing song from gidle. omg for me was exactly what i needed from gidle. They’d been playing around with the darker concepts but had never fully committed to the potential that i saw in their music, but with omg we finally got the see them go full out with it, and i don’t think ANYONE could have done it better. The drop while empty was somehow so satisfying, the visials in the mv were visceral and witchy and to think that soyeon wrote and produced such a masterpiece. all i can say is bravo

2. Daisy, Pentagon - if this song doesn’t hold a very special place in your universe heart then buddy i think it’s time to throw the whole heart away. daisy, on top of being the first song to earn pentagon a well deserved music show win, was so emotionally moving from the lyrics to the mv to the choreo. you don’t need to know korean to feel exactly what the writer is feeling when hui sings that chorus, and that my friend is true artistry.

1. Answer, Ateez - Bet you were expecting a stray kids song. answer though has had my whole entire heart body and soul from the second it came out all the way back in january. for it to last a whole year as my favourite song of 2020 really speaks volumes as to how incredibly talented ateez and their production team are. Over the course of this absolute shit year, this song really inspired me to push forward, to keep working toward my goals and to keep believing in myself, and i think that’s a pretty amazing feat for one single song.

Anyway y’all sorry for the unnecessarily long post. I’ve just been compiling this list for months and was really excited to share. If any of my followers or just anyone who reads through this wants to share their own list, id love to see what songs impacted you this year! Happy New Years’ yall!

#bailey yodels #bailey yodels for an unnecessarily long time #kpop #top 20 #2020

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THE CHOSEN ONE-RATED R

2nd part of Jackson Wang’s fanfic - UNEXPECTED SITUATION.

OTHER PARTS.

PART I. CONFLICTS

“Yup! There is one who I think can do the role and of course I read all the profile of each production staff including their skills and interests. So trust me. She will be the right choice.” Jackson said.

“ ok! I will trust your choice and decision Jackson since this is your MV. So who will be your model.” the director said.

“ I chose Lee Y/N ! Jackson said. Then all other staff stared at her and Y/N was shocked and the other staff smiled at her and may of them saying that she can do it.

“ I chose her because I saw in her profile that she is good at dancing and she is also beautiful to wear the costume.” Jackson said and he smiled at Y/N .

“ Mworago? Seriously are you sure?” Y/N said and everyone in her team cheered for her and Y/N walked closely to Jackson.

“ Yup! I am confident you can do the role because it also needs dancing in the MV. So everyone here do you believe that Y/N can do it?” Jackson asked the other staff and they said YES and Y/N smiled at Jackson and to the staff.

“OMG! I will be the lead model and dancer for Jackson’s MV dream came true for!” Y/N thought.

“ See, we believe in you Y/N , we can do this!” Jackson said. To her and Y/N blushed and smiled to each other.

“ I do believe too and I know Jackson and you will not disappoint me. So do your best Y/N!” the director said.

“ Thanks director, I will do my best and I will prove that I am worth it to be chosen by Jackson.” Y/N said and smiled. The suddenly her colleague tell something.

“ Mr. Jackson! Y/N really likes you and you are her bias in GOT7. You made the right choice.” her colleague said.

“ OMO! Someone spilled out my secret to Jackson aish!” Y/N thought.

“ ha! Bingo! I knew it she is my fan haha!” Jackson thought. Then Y/N covered her face in embarrassment but the staff including the director and Jackson they laughed at her.

“ It’s ok Y/N haha ! I am glad you support me and GOT7 and thank you for that Y/N . You should now get change and do the scene later.” Jackson said and smiled at Y/N . Then she was brought in to the dressing room to change clothes and have some make-up to her for the MV. Then after few minutes she wore a beautiful traditional dress and Jackson saw Y/N .

“ Wow! Y/N is really beautiful in that dress she will be my princess in this music video” Jackson thought. Y/N saw Jackson’s reaction and she blushed.

“ OMO! He’s really handsome! I have to do this perfectly so that they will not be disappointed to me “Y/N thought. Then they started the 2nd scene were a woman will be rising from the grave.

“ So Y/N , you will be lifted because the scene will be likely Jackson will help you to rise from the grave and be with him forever. So just try to have a sad and a loving expression to him ok? “ the director said to Y/N and she nodded.

“ and ACTION!” the director said. Then Y/N was lifted and after she was risen from the grave there’s a scene where Jackson and Y/N will dance and when she was slightly lifted by Jackson she perfectly dance gracefully and when they hugged each other and Y/N had a love-longing expression.

“ I really love this feeling hugging Y/N and it feels so right and its true love.” Jackson thought and he slightly kissed Y/N in the head while they are still hugging.

“ gosh! His scent is addictive and it feels so good to be hugged by him and he kissed me in my head oh my!”Y/N thought.

“ CUT! Good job the both of you and Y/N didn’t disappoint me she really followed my instructions and thank you for your cooperation and for Jackson you had a great decision to choose Y/N and congratulations for your comeback and we will support you Jackson.” the director said.

After their final scene, the staff are all happy that they successfully did the MV without any mistakes in one take. Then Y/N and Jackson smiled at each other and everyone congratulated and complimented Y/N for her performance in the MV.

“ I am happy Y/N , that I really choose you and I really bet the music video will come out great because of our chemistry.” Jackson said to her and Y/N blushed.

“Thank you for choosing me Jackson and I able to showcase my dancing skills in the MV and it was an honor for me to be your lead model and dancer in your music video today.” Y/N said.

“ No problem Y/N ! also thanks to you we had no problems in filming the MV by the way, can you join us in the dinner party?” Jackson asked.

“ I am afraid to say that I will not join the dinner. I have to go home and I have to do something at home. But really thank you Jackson for today!”Y/N said. Then Jackson pouted and Y/N laughed.

“ I am really sorry Jackson oppa! I have to go now.” Y/N said.

“ ok Y/N ! I hope we can see again each other” Jackson said.

“ I hope so too but if you want to see me. We can plan it. I have to go now for real bye!” Y/N said. Then she waved good bye to Jackson as she went to the dressing room to change her clothes and ready to go home. But then…

“ I have to talk to her! I want to spent time with her! Oh! wait I have an idea!” Jackson said and he went to the staff.

“ Guys, I have to postpone the dinner for tonight. We can do it when my is already released is it ok? I have some plans tonight.” Jackson said and everyone agreed then after he already change clothes he able to follow Y/N until in her condo unit building. Then when Y/N already went inside the building Jackson followed her and suddenly someone called Y/N .

Y/N : Yoboseyo! Nuguseyo? ( hello, who is this?)

Jackson: You will know who I am if you turn around.

Then after that Y/N turned around and she was shocked it was Jackson who have her phone number and followed her.

“ What? Really! Jackson oppa? How did you know my phone number and I thought you have a dinner party?” Y/N said.

“ Y/N can we just talk in your condo unit? Someone might saw us.” Jackson said.

“ oh! I forgot, sure let’s go!” Y/N said. They wen to the elevator and Y/N was silent and Jackson is eyeing her and he laughed.

“ Hey Y/N ! relax why did you look so shy and nervous now? “ Jackson asked and smiled at her.

“ I don’t know. I just didn’t expect you will follow me here and also I don’t have food in the condo unit.” Y/N said.

“ Oh! I see haha! I can order food for us this will be our celebration I think.” Jackson said.

“ Are you sure Jackson oppa?” Y/N said and smiled at him and Jackson nodded.

“ It’s my treat because we did a great job in filming the music video.” Jackson said. And they reached Y/N‘s condo unit and then Jackson followed her inside the condo unit and then Jackson notice that Y/N has merchandises of them including their albums.

“Woah! You are really an ahgase(IGOT7) all the albums and the poster you have it.” Jackson said.

“ Yup! I am really a huge fan of GOT7 especially you, Jackson oppa! I have a pillow that has a face on you and there is one big pillow in my bedroom that looks like a human-size and the picture in the pillow is that you are shirtless and I hug them while I sleep. It felt comfortable.” Y/N said and blushed while she tell her secret to Jackson.

“Ooh! I see that you really like me huh!?” Jackson said and came close to Y/N and smirked at her and Y/N can’t stare him.

“ my gosh! Jackson came closer to me and he just smirked for goodness sake! That smirk is sexy though. It’s hard to resist ugh!” Y/N thought.

“ Umm… of course I am! You are sexy, hot and handsome. But can you just order first? I am hungry and I have to change first my clothes be right back Jackson oppa!” Y/N said.

“ oh! Right Me too. I am hungry for you.” Jackson said.

“ what did you say Jackson oppa?” Y/N asked.

“ Aish! Why did I say that! This damn hormones!” Jackson thought.

“ Nothing Y/N ! I will just order food now. Don’t worry!” Jackson said. Then Y/N went to her bedroom and change her clothes and Jackson saw Y/N in a comfortable clothes like sleeveless shirt and shorts.

“ Wow! Y/N is really beautiful and sexy! She is doing something to me.” Jackson thought. Then the food arrived and Jackson cut off his thoughts and went to receive the food.

“ Gosh! I can’t believe it my bias from GOT7, Jackson Wang is here!” Y/N thought. Then while they eat their dinner.

“ Jackson oppa, how did you know my phone number? Are you also the one who sent text messages to me?” Y/N asked.

“ Remember I am the one who check all the profile and I became interested to you and I saw that you are a K-pop fan and I became curious who is your favorite K-pop boy group and now I see that you are my fan.” Jackson said and he smiled at Y/N .

“ Oh! I see, Thanks for selecting me to help you in the MV making it was a great opportunity for me to see you in person closely and work with you.” Y/N said and Jackson smiled at her as she continued to eat an ice cream dessert and had an ice cream in her upper lip and Jackson saw it.

“ Y/N don’t move.” Jackson said.

“ Why? Is there something on my face?” Y/N thought. Then Jackson went closer to her and she was shocked that Jackson kissed her.

“ OMG! He kissed me! Jackson Wang is kissing me right now!” Y/N thought. Then she responded to the kiss and they made-out until they are breathless and Jackson hovered Y/N and they pulled away from the kiss.

“ Jackson oppa! Why did you kiss me like that? I don’t understand!” Y/N said.

“ Honestly, when I saw your profile and select you to be one of the staff. I really find you beautiful and also I think that day I should have choose you in the first place and I liked you when I first saw you especially when we hugged each other in the MV making I really feel the love between us. I love you Y/N ! can we do it?” Jackson said and Y/N blushed.

“ I love you too Jackson oppa! But I want you to know I am still a virgin and you will be my first.” said and didn’t stared at Jackson and he lifts Y/N‘s chin and.

“ Y/N its ok!. I will be gentle to you and it will be an honor for me to be your first and this will not be just one night stand remember that!” Jackson said and he kissed Y/N‘s neck and she moaned and he left a hickey to Y/N and Jackson stopped.

“ I already marked you as mine, don’t forget that Y/N! “ Jackson said and Y/N nodded and he took off his clothes and she also took off her clothes.

“ My gosh! That bod! I will finally feel them on me” Y/N thought and Jackson kissed Y/N hard and she tried to fight for tongue dominance but Jackson won and while they are still kissing, Jackson’s hand went to Y/N ‘s back and he skillfully undo her bra and they stop kissing. But Y/N tried to cover himself but Jackson shove her hands away.

“ Don’t be insecure my Y/N , you are just beautiful and sexy.” Jackson said and Y/N blushed at his words and he went to Y/N ‘s breast and he licked it and sucked it.

“ UGH! AH! AH! AH! Feel so good!” Y/N moaned.

“ I know this is new to you. But I bet you will like it.” Jackson whispered and he licked Y/N‘s earlobe.

“ Fuck shit! He is definitely an expert gosh!” Y/N thought and Jackson move his fingers faster.

“ AAAH! JACKSON OPPA! FUCK! UGH!” Y/N moaned and Jackson smirked at her as he saw that Y/N is enjoying it.

“ You know Y/N , I really like how you moan my name its hot!” Jackson said.

“ He is just really good at this! My gosh!” Y/N thought. Then after few minutes she came in to Jackson’s finger and he licked his fingers.

“ You’re delicious Y/N ! I liked it!” Jackson said and he went to Y/N‘s clit.

“ Oh my! He is down there! He’s gonna eat me out! Good luck to me!” Y/N thought. Then her thoughts were cut off when Jackson licked and sucked her clit.

“ Oh shit! Jackson oppa! OMO! UGH! AH! MORE! “ Y/N moaned and while he suck her clit he also inserts a finger and moves his finger in and out of her as he continues to eat Y/N, she moaned non-stop. Then Y/N cum to his mouth and he stopped.

“ I bet you’re now tired Y/N, but this is just the start my baby.” Jackson said. Then he removes his boxers and Y/N was shocked because of his size.

“ Oh my! How will fit that to me!” Y/N thought and Jackson smirked as he saw her reaction.

“ Aren’t you staring that much Y/N ? don’t worry this will fit you and I am sure that you will enjoy this moment with me. This will be painful to you and you can hold on to me and I will gentle first and if you want me to move just tell me ok? So are you ready for the real adventure Y/N?” Jackson asked her.

“ Ne!I am ready for you Jackson oppa!” Y/N said.

“ I love you Y/N! “ Jackson said.

“ I love you too Jackson oppa!” Y/N said and Jackson leaned over to her and he slowly inserts his cock to Y/N .

“ AAAH! UGH! UGH! AH! JACKSON OPPA! IT HURTS! SHIT!” Y/N said.

“ Don’t worry Y/N will be able to adjust in just few minutes.” Jackson said and Y/N held onto Jackson’s biceps and he kissed Y/N to distract her from the pain and then in few minutes.

“ Jackson oppa! You can move!” Y/N said and Jackson thrust his cock to Y/N in a slow and gentle way at first and she completely adjusted to Jackson’s size.

“ Jackson oppa! You can go faster and harder!”Y/N said.

“ Are you sure Y/N ? don’t blame me tomorrow if you will not be able to walk tomorrow.” Jackson said and smirked.

“I don’t care Jackson oppa! I JUST WANT YOU SO BAD! SO GO FASTER AND HARDER!” Y/N said and Jackson smirked and he thrust his cock to Y/N very fast and hard and she held onto Jackson’s biceps and broad back. Then he went to Y/N ‘s breast and he sucks again so that the pleasurable experience for her will increase.

“UGH! AH! AH! UGH! JACKSON OPPA! FEEL SO GOOD! MORE!” Y/N moaned.

“FUCK! YOU ARE SO TIGHT Y/N ! I LOVE THIS SO MUCH!” Jackson said. Then his thrusts became more harder and rougher that made Y/N moaned louder.

“ FUCK! JACKSON OPPA! YOU ARE SO GOOD THIS! UGH! AH!” Y/N said and because Jackson had an amazing stamina, it made Y/N more crazy and got tired of the moaning.

“ JACKSON OPPA! I’M CUMMING! UGH! UGH! AH!” Y/N said.

“ WAIT FOR ME Y/N ! I AM CLOSE TOO!” Jackson said and in few thrusts they cum and he collapsed on top of Y/N .

“ Jackson just took my virginity, he is my first and has good stamina gosh! “ Y/N thought. Then Jackson laid beside Y/N .

“ You know Y/N ! I am glad we did this !” Jackson said.

“ I know but gosh! You had a lot of stamina and you made me tired but it was mind-blowing one and I can’t deny you are really hot!” Y/N said.

“ Haha! I am sorry about that! I made you tired and also you are sexy and hot Y/N !” Jackson said and Y/N blushed.

“ Aww! Thank you my hottie Jackson oppa! But we should sleep and rest I am really tired from moaning your name this night.” Y/N said.

“ Ok! Good night and dream of me. I love you so much Y/N ! “ Jackson said.

“ Good night and I love you too so much Jackson oppa!” Y/N said and they hug each other as they sleep and rest.

THE NEXT DAY

Jackson was the first one to wake up and he kissed Y/N to wake her up and she woke up.

“ Good morning Y/N, how’s your sleep?” Jackson asked.

“ Good morning too Jackson oppa! My sleep is very deep and I dreamed that we still had sex haha!” Y/N said and they both laughed.

“ Ooh! It seems Y/N really likes what I did last night huh!? you want it now Y/N ? “ Jackson asked and smirked at her.

“ No thank you Jackson oppa! Let’s just eat breakfast and I think I feel I am sore down there.” Y/N said.

“Oh ok! Haha! I’ll help you walk by carrying you is that ok, Y/N ? “ Jackson asked.

“ Arasseo! Jackson oppa!” Y/N said and smiled at Jackson and he carried Y/N until they reached the kitchen and Jackson cooked breakfast for them and they eat their breakfast and while they having breakfast someone called both of them and they excused themselves to answer their phone call.

PHONE CONVERSATION OF Y/N

Y/N : Yoboseyo! Jaerin- ah!

Jaerin: Y/N ! how’s the MV making, who was the solo artist?

Y/N : You will not believe it! It’s my bias Jackson Wang. He is handsome and hot!

Jaerin: OMO! You’re so lucky to see him closely in person!

Y/N: Yup! I became lucky and I bet the MV will come out great.

Jaerin: Why do you think of that Y/N ?

Y/N : Honestly, a sudden situation happened in filming the MV because the model of the MV don’t cooperate and guess what Jackson did!

Jaerin: What did he do? He change the model?

Y/N : Yup and guess what who is the chosen one?

Jaerin: I have no idea, just spill it out Y/N !

Y/N : Jackson chose me as his model and dancer for the MV of 100 ways.

Jaerin: OMO! Is it true? I will watch the MV and congratulations Y/N for being the successful fan haha!

Y/N : You should wait for the MV release and also I want to tell that last night me and Jackson are together until now.

Jaerin: Mworago? He spent the night with you? Did something happened between the two of you last night?

Y/N : I am afraid to tell you that something happened between the two of us and and we had sex but he told me that It will not be a one-night stand because he had love at first-sight to me and I believe in him.

Jaerin: OMG! I will support you and Jackson and congratulations all your dreams came true! But I think I interrupt the two of you, sorry about that haha! I have to go also. Annyeong take care Y/N! I hope you have a long lasting relationship to Jackson.

Y/N : Ne! Thanks Jaerin! Take care also! Annyeong!

END OF Y/N‘S CONVERSATION.

CONVERSATION OF JACKSON….

Jackson: Yoboseyo? Hey Mark hyung!!

Mark: Jackson! How’s the filming of the music video did it go smoothly?

Jackson: At first it was not because one of my model, Meixiang don’t cooperate but I had to change the model but after that it went smoothly so I really bet the MV will be come out great and if the MV is released tell me your comments okay?

Mark: Don’t worry I will tell you my comments. But where are you now?

Jackson: I am here at my girlfriend’s condo unit.

Mark: Mwo? In your girlfriend’s house? It looks like you have something to reveal Jackson spill it out.

Jackson: Her name is Y/N , honestly she is a production staff and after Meixiang didn’t cooperate as my model I chose her because I think that she fits in the role and she have dancing skills and I find her beautiful and has a good personality when we did the last and final scene where we hugged each other and I feel pure love to Y/N. (Jackson didn’t know that had already finished with the call ) .

Mark: Wow! Love at first sight do exist. Don’t worry I not tell the other members about you and Y/N and I support the both of you and I hope you will have a happy relationship. I have to go Annyeong!

Jackson: Arasseo! Annyeong! Take care too hyung!

Then after their conversation they continued to eat their breakfast.

“ I heard your words Jackson oppa, I am really happy and I got giddy when you said that you feel pure love to me” Y/N said and smiled at Jackson.

“ That is the truth Y/N , especially you when we hugged each other for the MV and I don’t want to let you go. I love you Y/N ” Jackson said.

“ I love you more Jackson oppa!” Y/N said. Then they smiled at each other and after they finish their breakfast…

“ Y/N I really want you now! I can’t control my hormones whenever I think last night it lingers in to my mind and you also said earlier that you had wet dream of me haha!” Jackson said and he smirked and laughed.

“ OMO! You are really a horny beast, aren’t you? Fine! Since I am drooling over your sexy body Jackson oppa!” Y/N said. Then Jackson kissed passionately ans they went for more rounds in one day. Then they had a happy relationship until they announced they will get married in the debut date of GOT7 to celebrate both occasion and then after 4 years of their marriage life they had twin girls and they name Minjae and Mirae and they became happy family.

I HOPE YOU LIKE MY SMUT FANFICTION FOR JACKSON OPPA! :)

#jackson wang #got7 #jacksonwang #jackson wang smut #got7 smut

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My review/thoughts on MOTS7!

This album blew me away in terms of the lyrics, sound composition, EVERYTHING in fact so I figured that I would write a little review of it! Listening to every past BTS album brings me acutely to a period of my life when it was first released so I’m curious to see what memories I’ll forever associate with MOTS7

Interlude: Shadow- From the moment the MV was dropped I was speechless by this masterpiece. It sets the tone for this album so incredibly well by setting up the parallels between fighting your shadows and being engulfed by them. This constant battle I feel is central to the album as a whole. The alternation between Yoongi’s whispered beginning of “I wanna be a rapstar” “I wanna be king” to the Agust D esque switch of flow at the end almost seems as though his shadow is talking back to him. It is as though he realises that he cannot escape it but must embrace it to emerge from it. And also his INSANE flow and fluidity of rap is just something else, this song was made for Suga.

Black Swan- This has got to be one of my favourite songs from the album, I was hooked by the dark, almost classical intrumentals paired with the urgency of the vocals and rap. I feel as though this is one of the most introspective songs the boys have ever written, with the analogy of the dancer’s first death working to illustrate how art is all consuming for the creator. The pulsing beat underneath the vocals and rap served as a reminder of how important it is for artists to have something that literally makes their heart beat. It’s rare when songs make you truly analyse not only the lyrics but your relation to them and Black Swan 100% did that for me.

Filter- This had me HOOKED from the first few strings and the smooth Latin beat made me imagine listening to this whist walking through a bustling city at sunset. Jimin’s vocal range and siren like vocals make this song alluring and addictive in a way that no other singer could have done. The lyrics are playful and confident yet simultaneously deep. Jimin realises how attractive his various sides are to millions around the world and he owns that, yet he’s also aware that what people see is mostly akin to a filter, not reality in itself.

My Time- I’m so proud of Jungkook for experimenting and creating different sounds for each of his solo tracks and My Time is no exception. His beautiful airy vocals echo and blend perfectly with the lowkey beat. The lyrics hit hard when you realise that Jungkook’ s time scale of life has been directly opposite to that of his peers. He’s grown up on airplanes while they took the subway and you get a sense of yearning from his voice, a yearning for maybe the childhood and things he missed out on. Yet there’s a sense of assertion, that he owns his time has been different and accepts his fate.

Louder than bombs- I 100% understand why Namjoon cried writing this song. It so perfectly encapsulates the sense of fear and desperation that arises from uncertainty in one’s position in life. Troye did such a great job helping the boys with this song because it sounds sonically like the pair of them together. Even though this song is one of the darker numbers on the album it is offset by the small hints of hope. Namjoon’s mantra that he’s going to “pray for better days” is so striking because often in life that’s all you can do when you’re breaking- hope that things will change and the majority of the time they do, so you need to keep that fire of hope alive in you.

ON- On is a certified bop and its so INTENSE with the drum beats in the beginning. This song is going to be amazing in concerts with its anthemic rhythm and the lyrics “bring the pain on” and “can’t hold me down cos I’m a fighter” are so empowering. I feel this song embraces the pain and hardship with the confidence of the rap and vocals coming together to say- bad things will happen but we’ll emerge stronger and surge ON.

UGH!- Even from the title I could tell that this queen was going to sit with her sisters Ddaeng and Cypher. I’m so incredibly proud of our rapline they SNAPPED, like the flow, the wordplay the artistry?? The gunshots immediately grabbed my attention and the build up the chorus which hits like a gut punch is EVERYTHING. The way they discuss anger is so pertinent, with the rise of social media people unleash their anger on whoever they choose whilst hiding behind a screen on anonymity. Anger, like they say, is necessary but only when it can be used as a motivator for justice. Petty cowardly anger, like that which is directed towards BTS, can only lead to pain and that is what our rapline so masterfully condemns.

Zero O Clock- This is my new healing song, the acoustic guitar and soothing vocals are like a warm hug. The chorus is so uplifting and assuring, just hearing the gentle refrain of “and you’re gonna be happy” is so comforting. This reminds me of curling up on a winter’s day and finding comfort in small things and happy memories regardless of the storm that rages outside. The way that BTS never tell you meaningless words like “don’t be sad”, instead they assure you that sadness will not last forever and that the metaphorical spring will brighten your life once more.

Inner Child- Tae’s solo track radiates innocence and I am so in love with it. The way that he accepts his past and the hard times he went through and instead of allowing himself to dwell on it, he looks to the future. The refrain “we gon change” is going to be so uplifting at concerts. Even though our boys bring us so much joy we have to remember they’ve been through so many trials in the past. It’s comforting to know that I’ve gone through struggles alongside him and we can both move on whilst still recognising that our scars are the reason we are here now and that they prove we are alive and capable of healing.

Friends- One of my favourites from this album hands down. This makes me so inexplicably happy. It reminds of walking home hands intertwined with your best friend after school, late night conversations and inside jokes that make you double over whilst still containing that deep and powerful love you share with your soulmate alone. And isn’t that just vmin encapsulated? I can’t wait to see they perform this live, the Stay! Hey! part makes me so nostalgic and makes me want to reassure them that they’ll always have each other and the cheers of us, their ARMY. The part where they acknowledge their relationship as soulmates made me BAWL, their bond is one of such purity and rarity and I’m honoured to even witness it.

Moon- Another one of my all time favourites from this album. This could be the soundtrack for a slice of life anime and it is so bright and cheery, like Jin himself. His sweet vocals and the beat fits the spring season so well and the lyrics made me so soft. The way he uses the metaphor of him being the moon and circling us, his precious earth made me realise even more how much his man ADORES us. How could anyone sleep on Jin?? He’s songwriting is so pure and his presence gives me such comfort and hope, you’re so much more than just a moon Jin. You’re our one and only moon.

Respect- Namgi you geniuses! The wordplay, playful banter and topic matter are so unique in this song that I knew that it could only be made for the two of them. Respect I feel at the foundation of all relationships, can you ever have a healthy and mutual relationship with anyone or thing if you don’t respect them? With their distinctive rap that blends and flows so well with each other Namgi discuss the concept of respect and what it really means in the modern world when people place a veneer over their actions and words so as to disguise whether or not they truly respect you. As artists all I feel Bangtan want is people to respect them, not idolise them, but respect their artistry and work and sadly in an world where people hold numerous prejudices this is hard. Kudos to them for exploring this topic in a way that is simultaneously light with the satori at the end but still very thought provoking.

We are Bulletproof: The Eternal- I was 100% expecting this song to be a hardcore hip hop track so imagine my surprise to find a song that made its way into my BTS songs I can’t listen to casually because they mean too much to me and will make me bawl in public tracklist. The gorgeously haunting melody, the angelic vocals and intensely emotional rap has me in tears. When they sing “We were only seven” and “But we have you all now” I lost it. The memories I have of BTS who were my second family for the majority of my youth, the times we spent together, the music that was the soundtrack to my life. The way they adore us and find comfort and hope from us... this song really made me believe that I’m going to love them forever and vice versa. It makes me less scared to go on the rollercoaster that is life knowing that I will always have Bangtan beside me.

Outro:Ego- I saw a post that said Namjoon looks up to his Persona, Yoongi’s Shadow looks down on him but Hobi is the only one who is at the same level as, and looks his Ego right in the eye. I feel this song is such a wonderful upbeat positive track that is so Hoseok?? The way that he accepts his fate and looks forward and is confident and happy in the person he is now? This is going to be amazing at all the summer concerts and it just radiates such joy and never fails to make me dance. The perfect ending to an album that chronicles the ups and downs of BTS’s relationship with their career and selves and ultimately ends on such a bright note of hope and happiness.

#MOTS7 review #bts

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is chanbaek real?do u think there are any proofs regarding chanbaek??plzzz dont ignore

To answer your first question. There is no doubt in my mind and soul that Chanbaek is real. There are just so many signs and moments. So prepare for a very long post of a Chanbaek analysis. Enjoy (;

Let’s start by seeing their secret way of saying “I Love You.” They use it in a hidden way. And let me tell you how sneaky of them...but I love it! The true language of Chanbaek: Sign Language

EVIDENCE

Chanyeol being boyfriend material and sharing his clothes. Ugh...I live for these moments. And we could tell when Baekhyun does where his clothes. Plus a bonus on Baekhyun letting Chanyeol borrow his sweater during an awards show.

Their couple rings *clears throat* I’m sorry I meant wedding rings

The songs they wrote for each other.

Have you noticed that Chanyeol’s songs always tend to mention - angel, lights, and sky?

Which color describes Baekhyun? - Sky

Heaven is a good example of that. He’s mentioning an angel that has fallen in love with another human being. Baekhyun is obviously the angel. I mean come on…

Baekhyun said that he’s self conscious of his back because his shoulders blades are very prominent and that makes him feel embarrassed. Chanyeol said that it makes him look like an angel who lost his wings after coming to Earth. Now, Baekhyun proudly shows it.

Lucky was written by Chanyeol and Baekhyun. The songs is about being thankful for being born at the same time/place as your soulmate.

Moon written by Chanyeol and EXO-L. The song is once again an angel, sky…

But why did Chanyeol add “Cucumber bean paste soup” at the end? Who hates Cucumber more than anything? Baekhyun. Oh, and he knew right away that it was about him.

With You

Written by Chanyeol for Baekhyun.

It’s about how you’re able to shine brightly because of your lover and you start resembling each other. He said that he wrote the song while observing Baekhyun and the people he loves. (Yeah...um...can’t be more obvious than that). It’s Baekhyun’s favorite song on the album, as well.

THEY KEEP STARING AT EACH OTHER DURING SING FOR YOU PROMOTIONS ON STAGE. OH AND EVEN THE MV HAD CHANBAEK MOMENTS AND THEIR POSTERS AS WELL!

Oh, and please let’s not forget that everyone and I mean everyone has heard of CHANBAEK. Even the members - xiumin (staring at baek looking at chanyeol, the banner, the banana) kai (wanting them to complete the heart), sehun (literally pushing chan to baek at airport, seeing them flirt in japan also caught on camera) suho (touching chan to not touch baek at the airport)

THEY WON BEST COUPLE ON NATIONAL TELEVISION AND WERE VOTED THE MOST ON WE GOT MARRIED!

The way they look at each other with stars in their eyes. We’ve all seen those stares.

Apparently Tumblr has a limit 🙄 Only ten pictures?! Whatever.

LET’S CONTINUE!

Chanyeol is so boyfriend material to Baekhyun. Let’s be honest. Chanyeol doesn’t go out without mentioning Baekhyun. For example, in that show survival of the jungle he randomly commented on how a very special member of his thought of him before he left. I already betted my money that that member was going to be Baekhyun. And of course, I was right. He mentioned that Baekhyun made him a chili paste. You could see him get so shy.

There was also a chinese show they attended and Baekhyun was chosen to drink a very sour drink that wasn’t very pleasing. Chanyeol willingly chose to drink 6 cups of the sour drink that nobody wanted to drink. And he only gave 3 cups to Baekhyun. I bet if he could he would have drank all of them for his baby, but the game consisted of each member to drink at least a couple times. How sweet!

Oh and oh my god! Remember that time when it was a full-on concert they were up in stage and everything when Baekhyun realized his shoe was untied. Weird...he went down to tie them, but Chanyeol was close and spotted the incident and quickly kneeled down in front of everyone and tied them.

Their obvious jealousy for each other.

The baekxing incident where they were at an awards show and Baekhyun of course, can’t keep still and decided to play around with Yixing’s pants - he had holes and so Baekhyun put in his fingers. Chanyeol was close lol and saw everything. Once Baek gave him a look Chanyeol’s face is very mad…? He grabs a cup and aims it at Baekhyun, of course, bAEK GET Shocked and Chanyeol did it once more lol

When baek touched hongbins’ chest yeah chanyeol didn’t look too happy

BH’S INSTA LIVE ; come on! It’s basically Chanbaek’s personal account.

THEIR SECRET DATES: their secret but no so secret motorcycle rides and what about that secret date in Barcelona?

THEIR AWKWARDNESS IN PUBLIC

We all know that Chanyeol and Baekhyun tend to be more shy in public. They would rather avoid each other than proclaim their undying love for each other. Well, in public at least.

UNEXPLAINABLE MOMENTS; so many, so many! What about that time when they were in ko ko bop promotions and Chanyeol and Baekhyun could be seen sharing air kisses with each other or that indirect air kiss in knowing bros.

LET’S NOT FORGET THEY TOOK CARE OF BABY TWINS! I could see them as parents! Omg, the feels!

#baekyeolpositivevibes #answered #chanbaek is real babies

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Kate!! 7!! The MV! Like watching it was like: they look so good, jk nipple!, tae face tattoo, jin rocker hair, rapline killing it, drums!, jimin hop, jk bridge!!!, dance break!, JIMIN BODY ROLLS!! It was so so good! And then the album!! What are your favourite tracks so far? The vmin duet killed me, shattered me to pieces. THEY SANG THAT THEY WERE SOULMATES. And namgi talking back and forth with yoongi being heavily autotuned and namjoon not being. UGH!!! was so good!! ....

... I also love how rapline solos all have their own distinct flair to it? Like it all sounds like them? But the vocal line solos came out of fucking left field? Like none of them sound anything like wings or ly?? Jin having a song that was not a ballad for once, singing about how much he loves us? JK going full rnb, with the killer vocals? Tae being the indie pop coming of age song I always deserved?....

... But man Jimin's killed me, I went full feral. The latin undertones, singing about how HE CAN BE ANYTHING WE LIKE? The sass! The spice! The way I was not expecting his solo to be my new fav thot song a la move?? But like I can't even imagine what the live is going to be, just know it's going to kill me dead. Happy first comeback to the both of us!!

HELLO!!!! 7!!!!!!!! THE MV!!!!!! i’m screaming it was not until my second and third watch that i realized Just How Much i had missed during my FIRST watch bc of jungkook’s nipple sjghkjshdjkf it was like i saw that and my brain just short-circuited and went no thoughts head jk nipple,,, jipple if u will. and if i see ONE MORE slowed down gif of jimin’s body roll i WILL call the POLICE. i have been THREATENED by all seven of them. that slow low walk namjoon does when he first comes in....tHE BRIDGE?? THE DANCE BREAK??? yoongi fuckgin....ATE the choreo?? what the Fuck. emo boyfriend of my teenage dreams jin??? everything is too too much. i’ve watched it 5000 times i will watch it 5000 more.

SO, this is subject to change, but my favorite tracks so far are: - filter (so many thots....head incredibly.....full....never been fuller....)- my time (oh jaaayyy kaaaayyyyyy 🤘🏼😩 he just...Knows what i Need out of a bop)- ON (just too fucking good start to finish)- UGH! (never has a song made me go zero to feral so fast in my LIFE) - we are bulletproof : the eternal (i literally started weeping the moment it started i just Knew)- the rest of the album

i love it all SO much. a more perfect album does not exist. there is not a single thing i would change (except having home on the album square tf up, bang pd). vocal line i know ????? tae’s is so so wonderful and jinnie’s....🥺🤧 such a refreshing change of pace for him and i love suffering, so! VMIN!!! PROD. JIMIN!!!!!! filter live is going to be...too much for me lmao. his little “okay” and “yes” ...... 🥴 i can’t even listen to it without feeling my blood immediately rush to my head and then jimin’s going to,, presumably...dance......to it....hm. gonna have to live my best life and knock some shit off my bucket listen before may bc i will not be surviving that whole Situation ! yeehaw baybee !! happy first comeback to us!!!!!!!

#anonymous #answered

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My Evolution in Stanning Jaebeom / GOT7

Ever since yesterday? Was it yesterday? I’ve lost track of time...I’ve been hugging my body pillow and rolling around in bed squealing and moaning “Jaebeom-ah”. I’ve literally accomplished nothing, the dishes are still in the sink, the cat has been destroying everything and I don’t even care... I’m a fucking mess. Did I even eat anything? Thank god I didn’t have work, tomorrow however is going to be a challenge. How am I suppose to go back into society like this? His oh delicious body, that darn belly button and happy trail with his damn gorgeous face keep replaying in my head. *sigh*

When did I become so fucking thirsty for this man? When did the admiration and love for him turn into this? Like yeah, I’ve always been a huge fan, his smile always brighten my day. Don’t get me started with his eyes... his voice, oh god but like I can still partly function after hours of calming down. But this, I don’t even know what to do with myself. Every time I look at him now, even when he’s acting all cute, I’m lusting for him. Like shit sis, a picture of him just sitting there at a fan sign has me all hot and bothered. Wtf?

A part of me is screaming, “girl, pull yourself together! He ain’t even know you exist.” But like I know and but I just can’t stop. It’s just crazy to think back when I first saw him during the dream high/bounce era, I thought he was cute. It was so innocent. When he debuted again with GOT7, I was excited to see and get to know him & the others. Of course, he became my bias but it was pure admiration of who he is and how talented he was.

Was it during the Just Right era that I found him to be more attractive than usual? I think that sounds about right, that scene with him in the car...And then came MAD’s If You Do, boy did my heart fluttered. I remember replaying Tic Tic Tok over and over just to hear his sexy voice. That song did things to me especially his “내 맘이 너를 원해 나와 같기를 바래, 나에게 너를 맡겨 You know you like it, baby”. Seriously? I replayed that part so many time I felt sorry for the rewind button.

Looking back now, he was the joy of my life, something to look forward to after school. I struggled a lot during that time but GOT7 was my light through it all and still is.

When Fly came out, I was absolutely in love with it. His voice starting it was heaven to my ears and he looked so damn fine...(maybe this was when the thirst slowly started?) I remember singing along so much that even now when it comes on randomly on my iTunes that I just instinctively singalong.

Oh boy and then Hard Carry. The whole Turbulence album is one of my all-time favorites. 니꿈꿔 (Dreamin’) was on repeat for the longest time, like his voice is so clear and delicious. I still squeal when it comes on and singalong like the fangirl I am...

The beginning of DefSoul. This boy was already out to destroy me...I should have seen it coming. His voice is really divine though. I remember being nervous to click on Bad Habit because that little inner voice knew he was going to wreck me. And oh god, he sure delivered. Don’t get me wrong I love everyone in GOT7 but hearing just Jaebeom’s voice is just absolutely heavenly. Holic is still being played every night before I head to bed. I guess 2016 was when the thirst began.

Next was the Arrival album, it’s another of my favorites, just like Turbulence, I can listen to the whole album on repeat and I did lol... Paradise & Go Higher were played back to back A LOT. Never Ever was always playing on my desktop when I was doing things and I’m not gonna lie I always stared at Jaebeom’s parts because I have issues...

Then holy shit, JJ Project made a comeback! Verse 2, dear lord, I remember being so sad because I couldn’t afford the album when it first came out. My paycheck wasn’t gonna be there for another week. I cursed at myself for going out to eat a few days before with some girlfriends... When I finally got it, I was so ecstatic. That album was absolutely the best. Fade Away was played so many time, I really can’t get enough of him.

7 for 7 *sigh* I swear my heart melted for this album. It was so soft. I listened to it a lot at night. Jaebeom’s vocals in You Are is one of my favorites. I’m not even gonna talk about the two mv for You Are & Teenager. It was just all squealing, singing along, and staring. 2017 was my holy grail, being blessed with 4x the Jaebeom was heaven and boy did I needed it that year.

Ah, 2018, it started with DefSoul blessing us with 5 tracks. I still can’t decide which one is my favorite between Think of You, Channel & Don’t Touch Me.

His mullet also made a debut which honestly, at this point, I’m already so whipped for him nothing he does will disappoint me or turn me off. I actually liked it and I’m usually not a fan of mullets *shrugs*

Eyes On You was a nice album, I enjoyed it. I was low-key jealous of Hyolyn...Look’s mv was played too many times, I really missed them. I was so busy in 2018 that this was the first time I saw them since their Teenager mv. I usually watch their V-Live & Web Series but life is cruel lol...

I actually missed a lot in 2018, I still need to catch up on everything I missed. But thanks to me being so busy, I delayed buying Present: You which turned out to be a blessing for my wallet. I ended up buying the repackaged album instead.

Miracle was full of emotions, and all the sub unit’s and solos were awesome~ Not Jaebeom related but King was one of my favorites. Sunrise *sigh* his voice really makes my heart yearn for him, 1:31AM especially. That 2Jae should make a debut already... Think About It made my heart hurt for some reason, idk this whole album had me in a weird headspace.

I realize I didn’t mention the Japanese albums but I do have 2 of them (I Won’t Let You Go & Moriagatteyo) and bought 3 tracks (My Swagger, Turn Up & The New Era). Their Japanese promotions are hard for me to follow and keep track of, not because I don’t like it but I don’t even know they’re promoting it until like it’s over.

And now we’re in 2019! Starting off with more DefSoul because he’s so sweet and amazing. I thought it was hard to pick a favorite before with vol.2 but vol.3 is just too hard. I just love the whole damn thing too much. His voice is so addicting and his English has improved so much it’s driving me crazy.

When I thought it couldn’t get any better, Jus2 makes a debut. Ugh, he’s really doing too much. The whole Focus album is just sinful. Every time I listen to it, all I do is have unholy thoughts. That body roll/wave whatever in Focus on Me had me swooning and his mullet is gone and he’s back with that fuckboi haircut looking so god damn good. I was watching the special for Focus on vLive and I didn’t realize it then but it was one of the times I was truly happy and enjoying myself this year. Just watching him talk about when he wrote the songs and explaining them made me so happy.

SpinningTop: Between Security & Insecurity, it’s been out for 2 months now? And I still don’t own it which makes so sad lol... There’s nothing but dust & lint in my clutch. Eclipse *sigh* I’ve been playing it on repeat and I’m sure my neighbors are sick of it. I feel like I’m burning holes in him when I watch him. Oh god, and the astronaut video, I never loved him more. Is it wrong that I want to be his fingers...not to be nasty or anything...

Lol, anyway, I haven’t listened to the rest of the album yet because I want to hear it together on the cd cause I’m weird like that. It’s killing me, I really wanna hear what Page is like. Their spoiler video was a fucking tease. They literally didn’t give any lmao...I totally wasn’t staring at his legs the whole time. Why am I like this??

The World Tour, the thing that started this whole rant. They are gonna be here in California again and once again I can’t afford the tickets. Looking now, the ones in LA that I want are $805-227, the ones I want in Oakland are sold out but I would settle for the $407-342 ones...but I don’t have that kind of money plus my car is in repairs *cries*.

But I probably would die if I went because look at him... All these fan photos and videos of him are enough to bury me in the ground. The shirtless video and pictures are really what did me in. I didn’t realize I was so fucking thirsty for him. I knew I was thirsty but not this thirsty. I never knew I could feel this way for someone that I know is unobtainable.

It’s been 7 years since he’s debuted, 5 years with GOT7 and it’s been the best 7 years of my life. Watching him continue to improve and become the man he is today has been truly a blessing. Even though, I’m a hot mess over here being a thirsty ass...my feelings did start out pure and innocent. Those feelings are still there and just evolved into something more. He just does things to me but can you blame me? He knows what he’s doing...

But seriously, looking back from the very beginning to now, I am grateful for everything he has done. All the joy and happiness he brought me throughout these years are worth the suffering.

Thank you, Jaebeom-ah for everything, even if your popularity fades one day, you’ll always be my number one.

#got7 #lim jaebeom #jaebeom #super long rant #so thirsty #the apple of my eye

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ofwolvesandbutterflies · 6 years

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something hurts..

Stray Kid’s Hyunjin x Reader

Genre: fluff

personaltrainer!AU

A/N: Based off that one part from the ‘I am YOU’ mv when hyunjin is lowkey rapping and puts one part of his shoulder as if it hurts. also because i’m a swimmer and I fuck up my shoulder all the time.

As a trainer, I get people coming to me all the time, complaining about the most random - and sometimes questionable - things hurting.

“Hey __, my thighs hurt.”

“__, my calves are burning in a pit of fiery hell, please help.”

“I don’t know why, but like __, I swear my wrist feels like its going to fall off.”

“My shins. I’ve been icing for a couple days, but they still hurt like hell.”

“Imma be straight up, I have no idea why, but my butt hurts.”

Most of the time though, since I work under varying entertainment companies, I get a worrying amount of idols, especially younger ones, coming to me after their practices with insane amounts of strain on their muscles.

It’s kind of scary, really how much stress they undergo at such a young age. As an athlete during high school myself, I understood the horrendous odds an individual has to go against when it comes to balancing school and extracurricular activities, but what they have to go through... it’s ridiculous.

Then again, I have to give them credit. They do it because they want to. They do it because they want to prove to themselves and to others that they’re worth it, that they made it and that they could do it. However, that doesn’t change the fact I disagree with the amount of stress and responsibility they place on themselves to succeed.

It hurts me even more to see Hyunjin in my office, pain clearly etched on his beautiful features and determination still burning strong in his eyes.

The first time I met Hyunjin was during my first month under JYP entertainment. I had just started to pack up for the day and back then, I was naive enough to think that idols and trainees - like me - clocked in at 9 o’clock out at 5:45 pm, 6:30 pm at the latest.

How wrong I had been.

It had been around 6 that Hyunjin limped in, aided by one of the other trainees I recognized as Chan.

“Hey __,” Chan offered me a brief, worried smile. I had met Chan just a couple days before; he had overdone something and come to me, teeth gritting. “Hyunjin went too hard on a part of choreo and fucked himself up.”

“Chan I didn- she’s probably busy-”

“Nonsense,” I smiled at the boy. “There’s no one else here.”

Pushing my hair out of my face, I shot Chan a reassuring smile and approached them. Picking up Hyunjin’s other arm, I loped my arm around his lithe body. He continued to protest, but once I had my limb wrapped around his frame, his body relaxed readily into the extra support. I smiled sadly. It was the most difficult to work with the ones that wouldn’t admit they needed help.

With Chan’s help, we lowered the male onto the bed, the protests dying on his lips when he hissed.

“Alright Chan, I can take it from here.” The older male nodded at me and clapped Hyunjin on the shoulder, saying nothing. He left the room frowning.

For a moment, everything was silent as I sized the male up. Hyunjin was tall, taller than me, slim, obviously very fit, and extremely good looking. His eyes were downcast, his whole body posture seemed defeated. It looked as if he were expecting me to scold him.

Part of me wanted to. If Chan hadn’t brought him, I knew by his body language and the words he had said earlier that he wouldn’t have come. I wanted to chastise the boy, tell him to stay in tune with his body, take a break and stretch when he needed it... but I knew it wasn’t the time and that he wouldn’t have listened anyways.

“Hey Hyunjin,” I started softly. His dark eyes slowly, shyly made their way up to mine.

“Hi.”

“What’s wrong?” I asked lightly. “How’d you fuck yourself up?”

“Chan was just... over exaggerating,” he mumbled, staring at his worn out vans. “I’m fine.”

“Yes, I’m sure,” I snorted, crossing my arms in disbelief. “That’s why it took both you and Chan to get you over here. I bet that’s also why you were limping.”

At my accusations, the attractive male ducked his head, retreating even further into this shell of shame.

“Yeah. Exactly. I’m fine.”

Heaving a sigh, I took in everything about the way he was seated on the medical bed. Though his posture was slouched, his arms were placed on either side of his lap to hold him up and he was quite obviously putting the majority of his weight on his left leg.

“Alright tough guy,” I cracked my knuckles and took a couple steps closer to him, smirking playfully when he noticeably flinched. “You don’t want to tell me what’s up, that’s fine.”

He peeked up at me from underneath his bangs and I nearly melted at the sight. He was truly angelic.

Pulling up a chair beside him, I sat and cocked my head.

“You know... I wanted to become an Olympic swimmer when I was younger,” I started, noticing the way he leaned towards me ever so slightly. “I wasn’t always the fastest, I sometimes messed up, and I continued to train. In fact, I still swim now... but I’d be lying if I told you I was an Olympian at one time in my life. I didn’t make it that far, I didn’t get to be my childhood dream...”

Out of the corner of my eyes, I saw Hyunjin’s eyes narrow. Shrugging to myself, I let out a long breath.

“But even though I’m not doing what I envisioned doing as a kid, I enjoy the simple job I have now.”

“Why’s that? Why settle for this when you could have been an Olympian?” The sound of Hyunjin’s voice startled me, but I turned towards him with a kind smile.

“Because what I’m doing now... it’s ultimately helping others continue on towards their dream.” A light of understanding clicked on in his eyes and I continued. “Often times when people come to me, they’re upset, they’re disappointed with themselves. But I’m here to remind them it’s just a speed bump, not a broken bridge. That they’re here as a reminder to take better care of themselves.

“Watching those same people debut, they’re overjoyed. They’re glowing. And knowing I was a small part in the long process it took them to get there... I get a sense to peacefulness. In a minuscule way, I know I helped someone bring joy to thousands of others.”

The room was quiet for a moment. It was a nice silence. No part of it was awkward as the male meditated on my words. Finally, Hyunjin exhaled lowly, eyes still drawn downward.

“I.. I think I hurt the back area of my right thigh.”

Every so slowly, his gaze raised to meet mine. A shy smile spread over his lips.

“When I was younger, I also wanted to be an Olympic swimmer.”

There was something that intrigued me about Hyunjin.

He was hard working, always persistent, and never ceased to put forth his best effort... unless it came to simple things like taking care of himself. He’d wake up hours earlier than the other members to get to school and stayed up the latest practicing.

I didn’t know what it was they pushed him so hard. After all, everyone in this profession had the burning drive to do well. But his drive was pushed to an even larger extreme.

Whether it be because of my growing affection and worry for the blooming idol, or because of the unwillingness in his visits to admit to his need for help... My ever increasing want to take care of him continued to expand.

Within the following months, I got to knowing the other members well also. Whether it be because of hurting muscles or because of someone getting hurt or just because I gave them lollipops and snuck them unhealthy snacks, seeing them always became the highlight of my day. Still though, as much as I enjoyed all of Stray Kid’s company, it still saddened me when they came by for something other than a social or snack visit.

“Hey __,” a couple of familiar voices called. Sighing, I turned around to see Minho and Woojin, both holding up a sheepish looking Hyunjin between them.

“How’d you fuck yourself up this time, Hyunjin?”

“For some reason, he decided it was a good idea to get to practice late and skip stretching,” Minho snorted, rolling his eyes.

“Hyunjin...”

“Ooh, Hyunjin, __’s mad now,” Woojin laughed, using is free hand to poke the younger member.

“You guys, I think I’m feeling better, we can go now.” Glancing at his band mates jokingly, the guilty boy chuckled, ducking his head.

“Alright boys, put him on the bed,” I sighed, massaging my temples.

They complied, purposely dropping him on the surface. The injured boy hissed in return. I could’ve sworn on their way out, one of them snickered “Oooh.. he’s in trouble.”

“Hyunjin,” I began, narrowing my eyes at him. The boy let out an over exaggerated sigh at the patronizing tone I used, head dropping once his members left, smile still stretched across his lips. “Last time you came, I thought I told you to remember to ALWAYS stretch.”

“I know you did,” he mumbled, peeking at me from underneath his eyelashes. His childish aegyo begged me not to scold him. I still did.

“Hyunjin, your comeback is coming up soon and out of nowhere, you decide to hurt yourself?! I know you’re worried about looking good, I know you’re worried about staying on top of your school work and your idol work and always performing flawlessly, but... Ugh! I’m not supposed to be seeing you here a couple weeks before your comeback! You’re not supposed to be hurting yourself!”

“...are you done?” He had his affected leg stretched out across the bed and the other pulled up to his chest. With his chin rested on his knee, he watched as I paced about the room, amused expression sitting pleasantly on his face.

Frustrated with my favorite and least favorite visitor, I threw my hands ups in the air and covered my eyes, groaning loudly.

“...Yeah.”

“I swear, __. You care more about my injuries than I do.” He leaned back on his hands, face relaxed and eyes crinkled into crescent moons.

Narrowing my eyes, I flicked his forehead.

“Of course I do, dumb dumb. If you ignore your injuries, they’ll only get worse,” I spoke, frowning. I approached his leg, already knowing which area hurt from the countless times he’d been in here. “That and it’s part of my job.”

He hummed, gaze heavy on me, watching closely as I put his leg in various positions. I had only lifted it a little bit when he flinched, a sharp hiss erupting from his mouth. My frown only deepened.

“Why don’t you take care of yourself, Hyunjinnie?” I murmured while setting his leg back down. “You’re making me sad.”

His eyes finally left me, settling on the floor in front of him. Something not quite a whisper fell from his lips, spoken too quietly for me to understand.

“Because I like it when you take care of me.”

“Hwang Hyunjin!” I yelled, stalking across the near empty practice room. My angered call sent the male scrambling to his feet, a pained look not very well hidden behind his gorgeous brown eyes.

I had gotten texts from both Chan and Woojin, begging me to check to see if Hyunjin was still practicing. I had fallen asleep in my office, my collegiate studying boring me more than usual. By the time I woke up, it was 2 in the morning, the frantic texts from Chan and Woojin having been sent a couple hours earlier.

Had all my energy not been focused on my least favorite idol, I’d have noticed the full moon hanging over the light-polluted city of Seoul and the way the horizon started fade into a lighter color in the window behind him.

“__! Uh, how’d you know I was in here?” Hyunjin’s eyes followed mine to his leg, checking in all the regular places. Strange, I thought. His legs looked fine.

“I got a text from Chan and Woojin,” I huffed, stomping across the floor to meet him halfway. “Like can you try not to worry people once in a while?”

“No,” he snickered, trying to shrug and failing when a sharp pain jolted through his right shoulder. “I just - ah shit - naturally attract worry to myself.”

“Oh, Hyunjin... It’s your shoulder now?” A sigh escaped my lips and my glare softened. I wrapped an arm around his waist, frown deepening when I felt him crumpling into my side. “What am I going to do with you?”

“Watch me mess up time after and time, fix me, and help me back up like you always do?” He chuckled lightly, leaning his head on my shoulder as he sat down on the couch. I rounded the couch, fingers trailing down his finely built limb before lifting it gingerly.

“Right,” I snorted jokingly. “It honestly seems like you get hurt just to see me.”

I had expected him to laugh alongside with me after I said that, but my laughter was met with silence. His arm went rigid in my hand and the beautiful, vastly talented boy I had grown so very fond of went quiet. Astounded, I glanced towards him in the mirror.

A light pink was dusted over his cheeks and his eyes were drawn down towards his shoes. Never before had silence between us been heavy, or awkward. Never before this. The tension in the air grew and I began to regret my words.

Finally, fed up with the silence and the blush appearing on my cheeks, my lips parted to apologize right as he spoke as well.

“I’m kidding-”

“What if I did?”

His words effectively stopped my train of thought. A storm of butterflies began up in my stomach and my heartbeat increased steadily.

“P-pardon?”

Hyunjin’s eyes raised to meet mine in the mirror. A small smile overtook his lips.

“What if I did? Would you believe me if I told you that the truthful and honest reason I didn’t make the effort to take good care of myself was to have a good reason to see you?”

My lips parted in shock.

“That-that... You know you could just come by to each lunch and study... right? I wouldn’t have minded. You.. You didn’t have to take less care of yourself to come see me.”

A sheepish smile crossed his face.

“Well... that’s also true.. But I have your undivided attention more when I’m suffering.”

Placing his arm back at his side, I stepped over the couch to sit next to him and cupped his face gently.

“Silly boy,” I chided, pressing a kiss to the tip of his nose. “It doesn’t matter if you’re hurt or not, you’ll always have my undivided attention.”

And with that, Hwang Hyunjin smiled brighter than I had ever seen him smile before, brighter than the joy I had seen on his face when he debuted.

“__...” A familiar, comforting voice called from the door way to my office. A smile traced it’s way across my lips; I already knew who it was.

“What is it this time, Hyunjin?”

“Something hurts, __.”

“Yeah?” I saved my essay, closed the computer, and spun around to see my favorite idol. Thankfully this time, he was uninjured. “What hurts?”

The taller boy crouched forward and braced himself up on the arms on my revolving chair. Without warning, Hyunjin leaned forward, nose brushing past mine, smile mere millimeters away. A rush of heat burned at my cheeks when he bent down to press a soft, quick kiss to my lips.

“Nothing anymore.”

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maximilliandelirium · 6 years

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somebody out there hates you

a/n: hhhh i wrote this in a pre-nanowrimo mania. wanted to post to ao3 but it’s acting weird so i thought i’d throw it up on the blog for now. notice me senpai fills me with joy, so i was inspired to make *~art~* the setting is anime japan so nothing is accurate and the points don’t matter (pssst! support me on ko-fi!)

Summary: Suzuki joins an anti-cafe out of curiosity and begins to re-evaluate his relationship with Yamato. Suzuki/Yamato (Idol Senpai/Rocker Senpai)

Suzuki didn’t go online that evening intending to join an anti-Suzuki fan café. He usually didn’t dwell on his haters at all. But tonight, curiosity got the better of him. He’d been trawling the net after a long practice when he stumbled across a link to the anti-site. (Suzuki liked to Google himself; so what?) When he followed it, he realized he couldn’t read any of the message boards without an account.

That’s a good thing, I guess, he thought. He didn’t really want to see what people were saying about him. He decided to forget about it and do his homework instead.

At least, that was what he tried to do. He kept thinking about it as he struggled over his assigned reading. What did they talk about? Did they make fun of his hair? His personality? Maybe they picked apart his lyrics. The longer he thought about it, the more he wanted to know.

Suzuki tossed his book aside and re-opened his laptop. He hadn’t closed the browser window. The link was still there. Yamato was always telling him to consider his weaknesses so he could improve. This could be beneficial. If Suzuki tried understanding where these people were coming from, he might be able to win them over, or at least get better at what he did.

It didn’t take much to make an account. He had to create a new email—he didn’t want his regular one linked to the site. After that, he spent half an hour trying to come up with a screen name. It was imperative that no one know who he really was. His usual handle—“SuzuStar”—would give him away like a shot. Suzuki was also disappointed to discover that “YamatoFan#1” was taken. Eventually, he settled on “notafan1234.”

Never having been on an anti-site before, Suzuki wasn’t sure what to expect. He was surprised by how plain it was. The header image was just the name of the page in bright red letters, along with a picture of his face with a “no” sign superimposed on it. He scrolled through the list of threads.

Break Suzuki’s new MV!

New Anti-Suzuki Memes

Worst Lyrics Poll (CLOSED)

Suzuki kept scrolling, horrified and fascinated. He found a thread titled “Important question for Yamato fans—should he be friends w/ Suzuki?” He clicked on it. He jumped when he saw the selfie he and Yamato had taken at the school festival. The original poster had written a caption beneath it.

Ugh. I don’t get why Yamato wastes his time with this guy. They don’t have anything in common.

A user named MerryPip added, Lol same. Yamato actually has talent.

Suzuki frowned.

They probably just hang out because they go to the same school, someone else said. Yamato doesn’t want to be mean.

Tbh, SuzuYama shippers make me sick.

Yamato shouldn’t keep feeding them by hanging out with him.

They only do it for fanservice. I bet it’s in their contracts.

Suzuki hadn’t been planning on responding to anyone, but the last comment had sent him over the edge. They had no right to question his friendship with Yamato. They didn’t know anything about him. He typed, Maybe Yamato and Suzuki are friends because they get along and like to hang out.

A response appeared in no time. As if, Lonelygrrl said. Suzuki is too much of a ditz to get along with Yamato. He totally cramps his style. Yamato is just humoring him because the fans like it.

Blood rushed to Yamato’s face. His fingers flew to the keys. That’s not true! How do you know Yamato is just pretending? You don’t have any proof. You’re just making stuff up!

The backlash was swift and immediate. A gallery of photos flooded the thread with red outlines drawn around Yamato’s eyes and mouth, along with whole paragraphs explaining why his smile was faked, or how he couldn’t stand to actually touch Suzuki.

His hand is just hovering here, Lonelygrrl wrote. All their selfies are faked. Their managers get together and tell them where to go. Like playdates.

Suzuki slammed the laptop closed. He sat back, fuming. When his head cooled, Suzuki reached for his phone. He wanted to ask Yamato about this. (Yamato was saved in his contacts as “Yama heart eyes emoji, guitar emoji.”)

Did u know there’s a whole website that hates me? Suzuki texted.

Yamato answered quickly: No, but I’m not surprised. There’s always haters. You find one?

Yeah. I made an account.

WTF why?

I wanted to see what they were saying.

Delete it. That’s a waste of time.

A waste of time. That’s what the anti-fans had said Yamato was doing by being Suzuki’s friend. He wanted to tell Yamato about it. But it had made him nervous. What if they were right? What if Yamato was only pretending to be friends with him? They’d become closer through school performances. Was that the only reason Yamato continued to hang out with him?

Suzuki texted back: Ur right. They’re just mean.

Don’t let it get to you. Some people have to be negative for no reason.

Suzuki put the phone aside. He wouldn’t go back on the site. He’d just forget about it. Yamato was his friend and that was that. It wouldn’t do him any good to second guess it. Suzuki opened the laptop one last time to close the browser. There were a few more replies.

Jesus, when will trolls learn not to come in here? MerryPip complained. Do. Not. Feed. The. Trolls.

I’m not a troll, Suzuki thought, closing the window. He would delete the account tomorrow. Right now, he needed to get back to work.

The next morning was rough. Suzuki hadn’t realized how much time had passed last night while he’d been reading the message boards, and by the time he completed his homework, it was 2AM. He shuffled into class, yawning.

“Late night?” Reiji asked as Suzuki walked past.

“It took me two hours to finish the reading.”

“Me, too!” Takeru said. “And when I finished, it felt like I didn’t understand it at all.” He looked over at Ren. “What did you think?”

Ren lifted his head slightly. “Huh? I didn’t finish. I fell asleep halfway through.”

“You’re kidding. We have a quiz on it today.”

“I can probably get a good enough grade with what I know.”

Suzuki spotted Yamato sitting on the windowsill. He had his guitar balanced in his lap and he was strumming it idly. The things Suzuki had read last night started to seep into his mind. He pushed them away. I’m not going to think about it.

“Yama-kun!” Suzuki called.

Yamato glanced up and smiled. It looked real. Relief washed over Suzuki as he walked over. Yamato continued plucking on the strings.

“Hey,” he said. “You look beat. What’s up?”

“I got distracted by the internet last night and did all my homework late.” Suzuki blushed. Yamato liked to tease him for being irresponsible sometimes. “But I did get it done!”

“Oh yeah. That site you texted me about. I hope you didn’t talk to anyone.”

Suzuki laughed nervously. “No. Why would I?”

“They’re trying to get a rise out of people. Starting an argument is just what they want.”

He laughed again, this time more forced.

Yamato tilted his head to the side. “You okay?”

“Yeah. It’s all good.” Suzuki waved a hand. “Let’s stop talking about it. Do you still want to go shopping today after class?”

“Sure. Just remember to change before we go out. I don’t want to get chased by your crazy fans again.”

“I wouldn’t forget,” Suzuki said. He winked and stuck his tongue out. “Are you sure you don’t like the exercise?”

“I’m sure.”

Yamato met him in front of the school after classes let out. No matter how many times they went out in public together, Yamato never stopped staring at Suzuki’s outfit. Suzuki didn’t understand why he rolled his eyes every time he saw it.

“What’s the matter? This is what I always wear,” he said.

“I know. That’s the problem. We’re getting you some new civilian clothes today.” Yamato grabbed the hem of Suzuki’s t-shirt and gave it a tug. “How many of these do you own?”

“A few.”

“You’re supposed to be in disguise. Why would you wear a shirt with your own face on it?”

“Because,” Suzuki said, lifting his index finger, “no one would ever suspect I’d wear my own merchandise. This face distracts them from looking at mine.”

“If you say so.” Yamato let go.

They walked into town, then took the train to the best shopping district. Though Yamato and Suzuki bought their clothes at different stores, they agreed that this part of the city had the best shops. The only problem was that it was crowded. Just getting off the train was a nightmare. Suzuki almost lost his hat.

“Is it just me or are there more people here today than usual?” he asked, squashing it back on his head.

“I think you’re right. There must be a promotion going on.” Yamato stretched to see over the crowd. “That one you like isn’t as busy. Let’s go to that one first.”

They pressed through the crowd. Suzuki bumped into a woman carrying a dozen bags and made her drop all of them. He spent a few minutes helping her pick them up while bowing and apologizing. She gave him a dirty look. He wondered if she would’ve been as mad if she knew who he was.

Or could she be one of the anti-fans?

Suzuki hadn’t thought about it before, but those names online had real people behind them. They could’ve been from his own school. It was scary to think about. There might be some in this crowd. Suzuki readjusted his mask and sunglasses, making sure his face was completely hidden.

“Suzu—!” Yamato cut himself off as he came jogging over. They’d gotten separated. “I turned around and you weren’t behind me.”

“Sorry. It’s hard to stick together in all this.”

Yamato sighed and looked around. Then he grabbed Suzuki’s hand. “Come on,” he said. “We need to get you a new shirt.”

The changing room was cold. Suzuki quickly pulled on one of the shirts he’d brought in. It was a purple galaxy print. There were three mirrors placed in the corner of the stall, giving him a rounded view. He was pretty satisfied with his appearance. Suzuki had often been told he had a good face. And his rigorous dance practices kept him in good shape. Yet…

Earlier, while Yamato was going through leather jackets, Suzuki had pulled up the anti-café on his phone. He needed to know if they knew where he was. His fans tended to track his movements. His haters might do the same thing.

Though there wasn’t anything about where he physically was, but there was a new thread: “Is Suzuki actually handsome? Yes/No?” He knew he shouldn’t read it. It didn’t matter what a handful of bitter people on the internet thought. But the urge was too strong.

It’s supposed to be his major selling point, but I’m a girl and I think he’s kind of lame.

His hair color looks so fake and not in a good way.

Didn’t he gain weight recently? No one’s gonna stick around if he keeps putting on the pounds XD

Imo he’s kind of short.

I’m 178 centimeters! That’s above average! Suzuki was shorter than Yamato, but that didn’t mean he was tiny. He remembered what Yamato had said about not engaging them. He wanted to set them straight.

The school festival selfie had reappeared. Suzuki had been proud of it at the time. His and Yamato’s costumes were perfectly coordinated, they’d posed in front of the best decorations in the classroom, and they’d gotten a perfect angle. This site didn’t seem to agree.

Look at this lame-ass Star Sailor costume.

I stg Suzuki drags Yamato into his weird interests all the time.

is it supposed to be funny? Who are they trying to appeal to?

It had taken every ounce of Suzuki’s self-control not to go off on them. Star Sailor was one of his great loves. It was one of Yamato’s as well. That was the whole reason they had coordinated their cosplays.

Unable to stomach any more, he had turned off the screen, gathered a few shirts and gone into the dressing room. He examined himself in the mirror. He still looked fine. Suzuki plucked a strand of hair. Was it too yellow?

He took off the galaxy shirt and pinched his stomach. Suzuki wasn’t as muscular as boys like Makoto or Katsuo, but he had a lithe figure. Nothing seemed to have changed. Sometimes Suzuki’s manager warned him not to indulge his sweet tooth too much. Maybe he should start taking that message more to heart. He felt a pang of loss just considering skipping the cakes at the school’s café.

Suzuki shook his head. He was letting the anti-site get to him.

When he emerged from the dressing room, he spotted Yamato coming over, his arms weighed down with jackets and black jeans. He eyed Suzuki’s pile.

“Did you find anything good?” he asked.

“I like this one.” Suzuki pointed at the galaxy shirt. “What do you think?”

Yamato shrugged. “You look good in everything.”

“Aw, Yama-kun, you’re so sweet!” Suzuki said in an over-the-top cutesy voice. He shimmied his shoulders for extra effect.

Yamato rolled his eyes and gave Suzuki a light smack on the arm. He disappeared behind the curtain. Suzuki put away the clothes he didn’t want while he waited. He wondered if Yamato had hate sites, too. It didn’t seem possible. Yamato was so handsome and talented; it was hard to imagine a bunch of people getting together just to make fun of him.

Suzuki pulled out his phone again. He went through his pictures until he found another selfie he’d taken with Yamato. It was from the last time Yamato had hung out at his house. Suzuki hadn’t made it public. He didn’t know why. It was a good picture. There wasn’t anything scandalous or illegal in it.

He supposed he hadn’t wanted to share it because it felt more personal than the others. They were both in sweatshirts and pajama pants, their faces lit up by the blue light from Suzuki’s TV. Suzuki was leaning heavily on Yamato, who was grinning at the camera. Suzuki was smiling fondly up at Yamato.

If those jerks online could see this picture, they’d realize Yamato wasn’t faking his feelings of friendship. Suzuki couldn’t post it, though. This picture was just for him and Yamato, no one else. He sighed and closed the photo gallery.

Yamato came out of the dressing room. “I’m ready if you are,” he said.

“Are you buying anything?” Suzuki asked as he headed for the counter.

Yamato shook his head. “I’m going to shop around a bit more. Do you want to get some bubble tea after the next stop?”

“Only if we go to that one place next to the arcade.”

“Okay, but you’re not dragging me into another DDR competition.”

Suzuki put his arm around Yamato’s shoulders. “Come on, you’re not that bad. You almost beat me last time.”

Yamato shook his head. He copied Suzuki’s gesture, linking them closer together. He gave Suzuki’s back a pat. “I’ll leave the dancing to the trained idol. Some other time. Now go, it’s your turn.” He nudged Suzuki forward.

Suzuki reluctantly let go of Yamato. He brought his shirts to the girl working the cash register. She smiled at him.

“You and your friend are cute,” she said as she rung him up.

“Thanks! I try.”

She giggled. “Have a nice day.”

“Did you flirt your way to a discount?” Yamato asked.

Suzuki’s eyes widened behind his sunglasses. “You can do that?”

“No, idiot.” Yamato took Suzuki’s hand again. “Maybe you could, but I wouldn’t. I hope she didn’t recognize you.”

“She didn’t. If she had, she would’ve asked for an autograph.”

They could never get a seat by the windows, otherwise their combined fans would fill the restaurant. Suzuki was half thankful for the privacy it afforded them, but they had to sit in a dim corner where there wasn’t much space. One of Yamato’s legs rested against one of his own.

“What kind did you get?” Suzuki asked.

Yamato glanced up from his phone. “Honeydew. You wanna try it?”

“Sure.” Suzuki took a sip from Yamato’s bubble tea. They had never worried about germs. The tea was perfectly sweet and mellow. He passed it back, a smile on his lips.

“You know, that’s the first time you smiled this afternoon,” Yamato said. “It feels like you’ve been gloomy ever since we left school.”

“Really?” He hadn’t noticed. “I guess I’m just tired. We’re already talking about the next comeback.”

“They should let you have a break. I’ve been talking to my agency about a vacation.” Yamato lowered his phone and met Suzuki’s eyes. “We could go somewhere. Hawai’i maybe. I’ve always wanted to do a shark tour.”

Suzuki shuddered. “That’s scary!”

“They put you in a cage. It’s not dangerous.”

“You can do that. I want to get a tan.”

Yamato knocked his leg against Suzuki’s. “But you’d want to go? With me?”

“Of course.”

Yamato’s eyes lit up. He smiled. “Awesome. We can get it cleared with your manager. There’s a little while before our next break. We could go then if your team says it’s okay.”

Hawai’I with Yamato. Suzuki imagined what it might be like. Sun, sand, and the ocean. Swimsuits. Sleeping in. Hawai’ian food. He sighed wistfully. Ever since he had first seen travel programs for it on TV, he’d always wanted to go. The best part might be going with Yamato. They could run around together as much as they wanted. They’d have their own hotel room.

“Will you ask your manager about it?” Yamato said, pressing Suzuki’s leg again. He was chewing on the corner of his lip.

“I will. I’ll text her now.” Suzuki fished his phone from his jacket pocket. He braced his leg against Yamato’s. He took comfort in the pressure. Yamato was strong. It felt good to lean on him.

Some of the other guys invited them to karaoke after school that weekend. It was Hajime’s idea apparently, which meant he’d roped in Soujiro, who was bringing the twins, and so on and so on. Things usually turned out this way. If someone mentioned a party, everyone ended up unofficially invited. Ikemen wasn’t a small school, but word spread quickly, and the upperclassmen were all connected by a web of association.

Suzuki didn’t remember who specifically asked him and Yamato if they wanted to tag along. It might’ve been Ai. Anyway, they showed up at the karaoke place after everyone else had already arrived thanks to an unexpected fangirl sighting.

“You guys are late,” Tokiya said.

“We just got chased halfway across the city,” Yamato said, tossing his jacket onto one of the couches. “Give us a break.”

Suzuki removed his mask, sunglasses, and hat. He took stock of the group. Ai had brought Tokiya and Ryuu, but Kurou was nowhere to be seen, meaning there’d be a fight later. (Ryuu and Tokiya always fought.) Soujiro and the twins were there, wearing casual clothes for once. Yuu and Baa had shown up as well. Suzuki would never get over the goat head. Takeru was there, probably having heard about the outing through word of mouth.

“Sorry, we ordered food without you,” he said.

“It’s fine. We can get something later.”

Suzuki settled in beside Yamato. He had asked his manager about the vacation. She hadn’t gotten back to him yet. He was starting to get nervous. Running from their fans earlier had only made Suzuki want it more. After this comeback. If the single does well, then I earned it. She can’t say no.

The other third-years had already lined up a decent list of songs. They must have been feeling nostalgic, since most of the music was from the 80s and 90s. Takeru, being Takeru, shared some of his food with Yamato and Suzuki while Hajime launched into a heart-felt ballad at the top of his lungs.

It was times like these that made Suzuki wish he wasn’t an idol. Being a senior in high school wasn’t easy, but there was so much more freedom. You definitely didn’t get hate comments. You could hang out with whoever you wanted. You didn’t get chased when you went outside. He could never just quit though. He loved music. He loved performing. But it was nice to just be with friends and not on a stage.

Yamato nudged him with his elbow. “Are you going to sing?”

“Obviously!” Suzuki hopped up. “I wonder if they have one of your songs on the machine.”

“Ooh, do it!” Ai said.

Yamato looked embarrassed. “Come on…”

“What?” Suzuki scrolled through the song list. “Are you scared I’m gonna ruin it? I’ll let you cover one of mine?”

“You should do a duet,” Hajime said. “Give us the collab everyone’s been waiting for!”

Takeru nodded in agreement and Ai applauded. “Yeah!” he said. “Do that!”

Yamato got up and walked over to the screen, picking up a microphone for himself. “Pick something we both know. One that’s in my range.”

Suzuki kept scrolling. They had a couple of his songs, as well as a few of Yama’s, but none of them were duets. Then he spotted something. He let out a cry of excitement.

“Yama! The Star Sailor duet! From the musical.” He grabbed Yamato’s upper arm and squeezed it insistently. “Remember? The part where Selena hears Damian join her from offstage, and then he comes down from the ceiling?” He shook Yamato’s arm for emphasis. “Let’s do this one. Please?”

“Wait, you’ve seen the Star Sailor musical?” Ryuu asked with a smirk.

Yamato blushed. “It’s good,” he muttered. To Suzuki, he said, “You really want to do this one? It’s kind of…”

“I know all the words,” Suzuki said proudly. “I could sing it without looking at the screen.”

Yamato still looked hesitant. An upsetting thought reared its ugly head. Suzuki remembered the discussion in the anti-café, about their Star Sailor cosplay. I stg Suzuki drags Yamato into his weird interests all the time. Suzuki’s heart sank. What if Yama really was only going along with it to humor him? Liking a sparkly and romantic mahou shojo wasn’t Yamato’s style. And he probably hadn’t wanted to broadcast any interest in it.

“Um, we don’t have to,” Suzuki said. He reached out to scroll down the list again. “There’s probably another song we can both sing in here.”

“No,” Yamato blurted, color still high in his cheeks. “I want to do this one.”

“Are you sure?”

Yamato nodded. “You can have Selena’s part. The notes are too high for me.”

Relief washed over Suzuki. He might be humoring you again, a mean voice whispered in the back of his head. He tried to ignore it. As long as he got to sing with Yamato, he didn’t really care. He pressed play.

They might have been in a random karaoke room, surrounded by classmates, but Suzuki poured his heart into the performance. He loved the Star Sailor musical. He thought it was hopelessly romantic. Especially the part where Damian appeared. Suzuki started the duet and Yamato jumped in after a few bars. His voice was perfect for the song. It was like he really was Damian.

If Yamato had seemed uncomfortable before, he had shaken it off. He sang with confidence, turning to face Suzuki and holding out his hand. A thrill went through Suzuki as he took it. Yamato even twirled him under his arm. They could have been onstage. Suzuki had no trouble imagining Yamato in the top hat and mask (seeing as he’d worn the costume before). He also had no trouble seeing why Yamato’s fans left strings of hearts in the comments on his selfie posts.

Suzuki was starting to feel lightheaded. It might’ve been because the room was hot, or all his breath was going into the duet, but at the same time, he knew that wasn’t the real reason. Yamato drew him in a step closer. They were reaching the end of the song.

In the musical, Selena and Damian ended their duet by putting their foreheads together, eyes closed. Then, just before the stage lights dimmed, they would kiss. It was cheated, covered by strategic hand placement, but Suzuki squealed every time. Now, as his head came to rest against Yamato’s, he had a crazy idea.

What if Yamato kissed him?

Suzuki’s heart started to pound. Yamato’s face was so close to his. It would take just a tiny movement for their lips to touch. Even though the actors usually closed their eyes, Yamato was looking straight at him, and Suzuki couldn’t tear his gaze away. He’d forgotten everyone in the room. They might as well have been alone.

Then, the last note of the song faded. Yamato stepped back. Suzuki released a breath he hadn’t realized he’d been holding. Yamato’s hand was still in his. Suzuki was shaking. All around them, the other third-years applauded. Someone whistled.

Suzuki came back to himself just in time. He raised his and Yama’s hands between them and swept into a low bow. “Thank you, thank you,” he said. “We’ll be here all week.”

“You guys were great!” Tokiya said. “It was just like seeing the actual musical. Right, Ryuu?”

Ryuu shrugged. “Don’t ask me. I’ve never watched Star Sailor live.”

“Oh really? Then what was that about telling Kurou how much you liked the actress that played Queen Pyrite?”

Ryuu’s mouth opened and shut indignantly. He turned away to hide the blush that had spread across his face. “Shut up, Tokiya.”

Yamato insisted on walking Suzuki home. None of their fans appeared, so it was an uneventful journey, but Suzuki’s heart hadn’t stopped racing. Yamato was at his side, keeping pace and chatting about his plans for a new song. Suzuki only half-registered the words he was saying. The rest of his mind was occupied with the ups and downs of his voice, his smile, the way the streetlights made his hair glow.

Suzuki remembered how Yamato had held his hand earlier and while they were shopping and wished Yamato would do it again. It had felt nice. He was tempted to bridge the distance between them, to reach out and mesh their fingers. Suzuki put his hands in his pockets instead.

Could friends hold hands whenever? He didn’t think there was anything weird about it, but most of the people he saw holding hands were couples. He could ask Yamato, but that seemed awkward. Why was he even getting the urge to hold hands in the first place?

“Suzuki?” Yamato had somehow ended up behind him. His brow was furrowed in concern. “Isn’t this your place?”

Suzuki looked back. He’d kept walking past his house. “Oh,” he said, grinning sheepishly. “Sorry, I was distracted. Thinking about stuff.” He jogged back.

“You’re such an airhead,” Yamato said warmly. He ground his knuckles against the sides of Suzuki’s head, not hard enough to hurt. “What would you do without me?”

Suzuki laughed, swatting Yamato’s hands away. “Mean! That’s it, we’re rivals now.”

Yamato smirked. “I couldn’t be your rival. I’d crush you, and I don’t have the heart to do that. It’d be like kicking a puppy.”

“Woof!” Suzuki’s chest grew arm as Yamato burst into a fit of giggles.

Yamato took off his cap and mussed his hair. “Go on, your mom’s probably worried you got kidnapped by a crazy fan.”

“Text me when you get home,” Suzuki said.

“Will do. See you at school.”

Suzuki watched Yamato go until he vanished around a street corner.

Yamato texted him about twenty minutes later to let him know he’d arrived home safely. Suzuki tried to do his homework, but his thoughts were a jumble. He couldn’t concentrate. After an hour of struggling, he took a bath and changed for bed. If he couldn’t do his homework, he’d go to sleep now and wake up early to finish. And yet…

Suzuki lay on his back, staring at the ceiling. What had happened tonight was different from how things usually went between him and Yamato. He remembered the light, fluttery feeling in his chest when Yamato had held his hand, and how it had doubled when their foreheads were together. He remembered looking into Yamato’s eyes as they’d sung the Star Sailor duet at the karaoke place.

Friends didn’t react that way. Suzuki knew that. A friend didn’t set your heart racing just by touching you. They didn’t spawn butterflies in your stomach. Suzuki was starting to tremble just thinking about it. Heat burned up his neck to his ears.

If he was being honest with himself, he had imagined kissing Yamato before. It was impossible not to. There was a whole legion of fans who thought they should be a couple. Suzuki had never missed an opportunity to please them. He thought it was actually rather sweet. Yamato had laughed at first, but in general had approached the whole thing with good humor. With that sort of thing going on, it was hard not to imagine what it might be like if they actually were together.

Yamato seemed like he’d be a good kisser. He’d probably kissed lots of girls. Had he ever kissed another boy before? Probably not. Suzuki touched his lips. He had faked kisses with girls for MVs, but had never done it seriously. Yamato might laugh at his inexperience.

But he might also smile as he kissed him. He might hold Suzuki to him in a firm embrace, stroking his hair. He might also push Suzuki against a wall and kiss him fiercely, channeling the energy of his music into Suzuki until they were both breathless.

Suzuki opened his eyes. He hadn’t realized he’d closed them. He took a deep breath in, then let it out. His imagination usually didn’t go that far. Suzuki felt a little uncomfortable. It was probably wrong for him to think of Yamato like that, but now that he’d started he couldn’t stop.

He pictured being able to hold hands with Yamato all the time, not just in a crowd, kisses before class, cuddling with each other while they watched movies… His heart surged. The thought of being with Yamato as more than a friend had made him so happy he couldn’t want anything else.

Suzuki wasn’t stupid. Maybe somewhat naive at times, but not stupid. He knew what he was experiencing. He loved Yamato. He had been loving Yamato for a long time now. Why shouldn’t he? Yamato was so artistic and brilliant and kind. It was just now occurring to him that his feelings ran over the edges of platonic affection into something else.

At the same time, Suzuki knew he couldn’t tell him. Yamato couldn’t possibly return his feelings. Even if he did, they couldn’t date without it being plastered over every magazine cover and celebrity news website. He thought of the message boards on the anti-Suzuki site. Those people would riot if Suzuki even hinted at the idea of loving Yamato. They might even go so far as to threaten him. And, worst of all, what if they were right? What if Yamato was only his friend because he had to be?

Suzuki didn’t want to believe it. He refused to. But the seeds of doubt had been sown. If he confessed to Yamato, and what those people online said was true, then he’d just humiliate himself. They’d never be able to hang out again. Suzuki feared that the most. He’d rather hold these feelings inside rather than run the risk of losing Yamato’s friendship.

He rolled over and buried his face in his pillow. If he stayed like this long enough, maybe he would smother himself and never have to think of it again. He lifted his head eventually. It got too uncomfortable.

“I’ll just keep going like everything’s the same,” Suzuki said out loud. “He’ll never find out and we’ll keep being friends. I won’t have to give him up.”

Still, the resolution filled him with pain. He would never have that relationship with Yamato. It wasn’t going to be easy. Yamato would only have to touch him to send ripples of longing through Suzuki. He would have to train himself not to react, not to reciprocate where it wasn’t wanted.

He got up and found his MP3 player in his backpack. He put his earbuds in. Suzuki had every single album Yamato had released. He started with the first one, for nostalgia’s sake. As he listened, he imagined Yamato was singing just for him.

Pretending everything was normal was a lot harder than Suzuki realized. Yamato was everywhere. They were in class together all day, ate together during lunch, and even hung out after school. Suzuki didn’t want to stop hanging out with him; that would just make Yamato suspicious. But it was getting more and more difficult to focus on history and science when they studied together.

They were at Yamato’s apartment that afternoon. Yamato lived alone, which Suzuki used to think was a good thing, since there was no one to bother them if they decided to stay up all night watching anime. Now, he desperately wished there was someone to ward away his thoughts of kissing Yamato.

Yamato ran his fingers through his hair. He looked frustrated. “I’m not getting it,” he said. “What about you?”

Suzuki shook his head. He hadn’t even been trying. The whole study session was turning out to be counterproductive. How do people with crushes survive?

“Do you want to take a break and play Mario Kart?”

Suzuki shoved his notebook aside. “Absolutely.”

Hopefully, a game would keep his mind off of contemplating the feel of Yamato’s lips against his. He settled into Yamato’s couch, controller in hand. They weren’t competitive with each other in any area except Mario Kart. Soon, he’d want to strangle Yamato instead of make-out with him.

The plan worked, for a little while. Suzuki got swept up in the races, he and Yamato resorting to cheating by bumping into each other in real life and trying to wrestle the controllers out of each other’s hands. It was just like how things had been before. Suzuki relaxed.

However, things took a turn when Yamato hit him with a shell, right before Suzuki was about to win Rainbow Road. Bowser dashed across the finish line while Princess Peach was still spinning out. Suzuki threw down his controller and started pummeling Yamato lightly with his fists.

“I hate you! I hate you, I hate you, I hate you!”

“I’m just playing the game,” Yamato laughed.

“That was my win, you cheater!”

“Shells are a part of the game. You hit me with a blue shell a couple tracks ago. How is this any different?” Yamato grabbed Suzuki’s wrists. “You still got second place.”

“I should’ve been first,” Suzuki said. “I did the shortcut and everything.” He struggled against Yamato’s hold. “Let me go. I’m not done beating you up.”

Yamato pushed him backwards, pinning him to the couch. He hovered over Suzuki. “Oh yeah? I’d like to see you try. When you were hitting me, it felt like being stung by a mosquito.”

Suzuki went red. He tried to break free, but Yamato was strong. He went redder as he became more aware of their position. What was this, a scene out of a shojo manga?

“Okay, okay,” he said hastily. “You win. Fair and square. Can you get off me?”

Yamato let go. He leaned back. Suzuki lay there for a second longer, trying to catch his breath. Had he actually been wanting Yamato to kiss him like that? To just lean down and…

Suzuki shook his head. He had to get out of here before he did something stupid. He sat up. “Um, I should probably head home. I promised Mom I’d eat dinner with her tonight. She says she barely gets to see me.”

“Oh.” Yamato sounded disappointed. “It’s still early.”

Suzuki coughed. “Yeah. I said I’d help her cook, too.”

“Alright. I’ll walk you.” Yamato started to get up.

“Ah, no thanks!” Suzuki squeaked. He winced at the sound of his own voice. What was wrong with him? “I can make it on my own. I have my disguise and everything.”

“Are you sure?”

Suzuki nodded. He gathered his notebook and school things as quickly as possible. “I’ll see you at school tomorrow! Good luck on the physics homework.”

Yamato followed him to the door. “Text me when you get home?”

“Sure!” Suzuki chirped (too brightly, he realized). Then, before he could embarrass himself any further, he rushed out the door.

Suzuki made good on his word to help his mother make dinner. She’d been surprised to see him home so early, but glad to spend time with him as well. Suzuki’s schedule was so hectic that they rarely ate dinner together, let alone cooked together. He wasn’t as good as Souma in the kitchen, but he managed.

A part of him wanted to tell her about Yamato. He had a good opportunity to when she asked how he was doing. In the end, he said Yamato was doing fine and left it at that. He didn’t want to bother his mom with that kind of thing. (Truth be told, he was embarrassed to mention having a crush in the first place.)

After dinner, he holed himself up in his room. Suzuki knew it was the last thing he needed right now, but he logged back onto the anti-café. No one had banned him yet. Suzuki hadn’t commented since that first time, so they’d probably forgotten he was there.

It was full of the usual hatred and vitriol. Suzuki picked a thread railing against his and Yamato’s relationship. He scrolled through it for a while, his heart sinking lower and lower until it reached the Earth’s core. They despised the idea of him and Yamato together, whether they were friends or dating.

It can never happen, Suzuki thought. His fans might turn on him.

Suzuki finally closed the thread. Then, because he had no one else to turn to, he texted Jae. Jae was currently in South Korea, visiting family and the other members of his group. Suzuki hoped he wasn’t too busy.

Hey sunbae, Suzuki wrote, do you ever get hate comments?

It didn’t take long for Jae to text back. oh totally. happens all the time.

How do you deal with them?

i try to ignore it. block out the haters

It was good advice. A no-brainer, honestly, if only Suzuki could follow it. have you ever found a whole site that hates you? an anti café?

man don’t tell me you have one of those. you’re a ray of sunshine! how could anyone make a whole anti-café devoted to you?

Idk either. It’s really been getting me down. What should I do?

Jae spent a long time typing. Suzuki watched the little ellipses dance while he waited. Eventually, Jae wrote back, you can always block the site or their comments. it’s nothing to be ashamed of. you don’t owe them anything tbh. if they’re not actually sending you constructive criticism, if all they’re doing is trying to tear you down, then kick ‘em to the curb ㅋㅋㅋ seriously tho, don’t read that stuff. it breaks my heart that anyone could be so mean to my hoobae

T^T you’re the best jae-sunbae, Suzuki replied.

i try 😉 is there anything else i can help with?

Suzuki hesitated. He could trust Jae with anything. But could he trust him with this? Maybe if he was vague, Jae wouldn’t realize who Suzuki was talking about. He took a deep breath and wrote, yeah. Have you ever had a crush on someone who’s like, your friend?

are we talking about yama?

Suzuki nearly dropped his phone. He typed a response with trembling fingers. Haha nooooooo where did you get that idea? I’m talking hypothetically.

sure, ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°), Jae replied. so in this hypothetical situation, is the crusher a j-idol and the crushee a rockstar?

(^◇^；) no…

suzuki literally everyone on the planet thinks you guys are dating. even my mom thinks so.

Suzuki huffed. That doesn’t make it true! he typed. Answer my question: did you ever have a crush on a friend, yes/no?

Again, it took a while for Jae to reply. yep! didn’t work out but hey! it was someone else in the music scene. you know how it is. not that you should get discouraged! you and yamato would be super cute together.

Suzuki blushed. He thought for a while about what he should say. He typed out, do you really think so? what if a lot of people got mad?

you shouldn’t care about what other people think. it’s your personal life.

What if, hypothetically, it’s just one-sided and I ruin our whole friendship?

i doubt it would ruin your friendship, Jae wrote. i’m 99.9% sure yama likes you. have you seen how he looks in your selfies? heart eyes <3

Suzuki’s blush deepened. No way. Jae was just trying to make him feel better. Then again, the duet in the karaoke room gave him a sliver of hope. But that was a performance. They were acting like Damian and Selena.

What about the other 1%? Suzuki wrote.

you doubt my judgment?? look, even if he doesn’t feel that way about you, your friendship won’t tank just because of a little crush. not if it’s real and i think it is.

Okay. Thanks again, sunbae <3 I’ll let you get back to whatever you were doing.

anytime! it’s good to be home, but i miss everyone over there TT take care of yourself!

Suzuki locked his phone screen and lay down. Talking to Jae had helped, but he still couldn’t bring himself to confess to Yamato. He didn’t understand how Jae could be so confident when his own crush hadn’t worked out. He knew just as well as Suzuki how hard it was for idols to date normally.

Even if Yamato liked me back, I’d get flayed alive. Probably by my manager, too. His manager still hadn’t given him the green light on the vacation. Suzuki was starting to think that was her way of saying no. It might be better if he didn’t go. Hawai’i was a romantic place, right? What if Suzuki got carried away and blurted his feelings? It would defeat the purpose of a relaxing getaway.

I should tell Yamato I can’t come with. Suzuki would do it tomorrow, at school. He’d rip the band-aid off, so to speak, and get it over with. Hopefully Yamato wouldn’t be too disappointed.

Suzuki didn’t get a chance to tell Yamato the next day, because Yamato was suddenly super busy. He was on the phone with someone before class started, and he spent every break scribbling in his notebook. He disappeared during lunch before Suzuki could even ask if they were going to eat together. It wasn’t that strange, really. 3-A was full of students with irregular schedules. For example, Takahiro had taken off for some part-time job earlier.

However, Yamato wasn’t there the next day either, so Suzuki couldn’t tell him then, either. And then Suzuki had to skip a day to spend it in a recording studio. He considered texting Yamato about it, but he would rather tell him in person. It seemed a bit too important not to discuss face-to-face.

Suzuki finally got a chance when he and Yamato both arrived late in the school day. He guessed Yamato must have been recording something as well. He was dressed down from his usual leather jacket and had left out a few piercings. He only did that when he had an early morning session.

“Are you free to walk home today, Yama?” Suzuki asked as they jogged up the stairs to 3-A. “There’s something I need to talk to you about.”

“Today’s no good.”

“What about tomorrow morning?”

Yamato shook his head. “Busy. Sorry.”

Suzuki paused. “What’s going on? Are you prepping a new release?”

Yamato didn’t answer. He just kept going. Suzuki stared at his retreating back. What was the big secret? Yamato usually shared any and all details about his projects. He’d been talking about a new song after karaoke. Were the two related, or was this another thing altogether?

What if I made him uncomfortable? Suzuki thought, gripped by terror. Or what if Jae was trying to be helpful and told him I have a crush on him? He knew he was jumping to conclusions. Yamato was busy; that was all. Even so, he felt nervous. Why hadn’t Yamato answered him?

Suzuki investigated Yamato’s fansites. He wasn’t making special appearances anywhere. There were no concert announcements. Not even a rumor of an album release. So what was he doing? He hadn’t walked home with Suzuki or asked him over for a while. They didn’t even have lunch together anymore.

A sick, heavy dread settled in Suzuki’s stomach as he logged onto the anti-café. It got worse. The café was overjoyed.

No suzuyama sightings lately! He finally dropped him!

Heard rumors from school that they’re split up.

Maybe S*zuki will take a hint and stop clinging to Yamato like a puppy

It’d be like kicking a puppy. Suzuki’s mouth went dry. He tossed his phone into his backpack. Did Yamato really see him as a dog, stupidly following him everywhere? He’d played along with the joke that time, but now it stung.

“Romantic troubles?”

Suzuki jumped a foot. Ai was standing right behind him, his quiver slung across his back. He didn’t wait for an invitation to take the empty seat next to Suzuki. Suzuki had thought he’d been alone in this courtyard, but Ai must have had a tracking device implanted in every boy in school.

“I’m not having romantic troubles,” Suzuki lied.

Ai smiled skeptically. “It’s about Yamato, isn’t it?”

Am I really that obvious? Suzuki’s shoulders sagged. “Not you, too.”

“What, is it a secret? Even that nice girl at the café knows.”

Suzuki put his face in his hands. If everyone knew then how could Yamato not? He’s avoiding me, since he realized I’m bad for his image.

Ai patted his knee. “Cheer up! You could do a lot worse than Yamato.”

“Not if he hates me!”

“Why do you think he hates you?”

“He’s been avoiding me,” Suzuki said. “At first, I thought he was working on something, but he wouldn’t tell me anything about it. And don’t say he’s throwing me a surprise party. My birthday isn’t coming up.”

“Hmm, that’s tricky.” Ai rubbed his chin. “He usually shares all his projects with you, right? Maybe he’s seeing someone else?”

Suzuki went cold. He hadn’t considered that possibility. Had Yamato started dating and not told him? No, that couldn’t be. Someone would’ve snapped a picture or started a rumor by now, and the fansites were quiet.

“No.” He shook his head. “He would’ve told me for sure.”

Ai shrugged. “Then he’s probably busy. You shouldn’t get too worked up, Suzuki. Guys like him sometimes have trouble communicating their feelings. He might be focusing so hard that he hasn’t had time to tell you about it. Kurou does the same thing. He gets tunnel-vision when he’s working on a play.”

It made Suzuki feel a little better, but it didn’t inspire confidence. He couldn’t shake the feeling that Yamato was purposefully ducking him.

“Anyway, I’m meeting Sousuke for an archery showdown,” Ai said, standing up. “He’s going to regret challenging me. Are you going to be okay?”

Suzuki nodded. “Thanks for the advice, Ai. Good luck.”

Ai shot him a thumbs-up before he left. Suzuki remained where he was. He didn’t know how long he sat in the courtyard, staring at the flowerbeds. His phone buzzed, snapping him out of it.

It was Yamato. Suzuki had been expecting his manager. His heart thumped rapidly. He opened the message. Hey Suzuki, can you come to the music room?

He was torn. Should he go? Yamato had asked him, but what if it was just to say that they shouldn’t hang out anymore. Or worse, that he didn’t return Suzuki’s feelings, which were apparently so obvious that they could be seen from space? Eventually, Suzuki gathered his courage and went to the music room.

School had finished for the day, so the music room was deserted, except for Yamato and Suzuki. It was quiet. All the clubs were meeting on the other side of Ikemen. Yamato was leaning against the piano, fiddling something. When Suzuki got closer, he realized it was his MP3 player.

“Hey,” Yamato said. He sounded nervous. “Sorry for ghosting you. I was working on an important project.”

A bit of relief crept into Suzuki’s veins. “Really? Why didn’t you just say so?”

Yamato blushed. “Well, uh, it was kind of a surprise. I didn’t know whether it would work out. I, um… here.” He held out the MP3 player. “Listen.”

Suzuki took it. He put an earbud in. There was only one track on the device, untitled. He hit play. A second later, the sound of Yamato’s voice filled his ears. Yamato’s singing voice was wonderful and familiar, but the backing track didn’t sound like his style at all. It sounded more like Suzuki’s music than his, though there was a hint of Yamato there, too. The more Suzuki listened, the more it grew on him. The lyrics were about stars burning bright for centuries, their light stretching across galaxies long after their death, and gazing at the same sky as someone you loved. A lump formed in his throat.

“What do you think?” Yamato asked when Suzuki finished.

“Amazing, like always,” Suzuki said. “Is this going to be on your next album?”

“Actually…” Yamato scuffed the floor. “I was thinking it could be on yours. I wrote it for you to sing, if you want it. I figured it was the least I could do, after you made me that mixtape for my birthday.”

Suzuki couldn’t believe it. Yamato had written him a song. Not just one to listen to, but one to sing. The lump in his throat got bigger. “W-what’s the occasion?” he asked, his voice trembling.

“No reason. I just wanted to do something special, I guess. Do you like it?”

Suzuki nodded vigorously. He couldn’t speak. Before he could stop himself, tears began to flow down his cheeks. I’m so dumb. I thought he was ditching me this whole time, and he was working on a song. For me. He covered his face, but it didn’t stop the noise from escaping. It was like a dam had burst; all of Suzuki’s feelings rushed out in one go.

“What are you crying for?” Yamato asked, gently removing Suzuki’s hands from his face.

Suzuki hiccupped. He was so embarrassed. He hadn’t meant to cry. “I…” he tried to say. “I was afraid you were tired of me.”

Yamato sighed. “I’m not tired of you, Suzu. Have you been paying attention to what those losers online are saying? I told you they’re full of it. Come here.”

He folded Suzuki into his arms. Suzuki let out another involuntary sob. He buried his face in Yamato’s shoulder. It was sturdy and strong. His t-shirt was soft. Yamato alternated between patting his back and rubbing circles.

Eventually, Suzuki cried himself out. He stepped back. Yamato let him go, but he kept his hands on Suzuki’s arms. He was looking at him with concern.

“Are you okay?”

Suzuki nodded and sniffed. “I’ll be fine. I didn’t want it to get to me, but I guess…”

“They’re just bitter and pathetic people who have nothing better to do with their time.” Yamato gathered Suzuki’s hands and held them against his chest. “They’re not real. This is. And any fan of mine who talks that way about you isn’t a real fan. If they can’t love you as much as I do, then that’s their problem.”

Suzuki blinked. He wanted to wipe away a few stray tears, but he didn’t want Yamato to let go of him. “You love me?” he asked, half-stunned.

The realization seemed to come over Yamato at the exact same moment. A blush covered his cheeks. “Did I say that?”

“You did.”

“Well… I mean, of course I do. You’re my best friend.” To Suzuki’s dismay, Yamato dropped his hands. He ran his fingers through his hair, disturbing the spikes. “I thought you already knew that.”

“I do now.” Suzuki smiled, trying to mask his disappointment. I shouldn’t be disappointed at all. Yamato’s friendship is super important to me, too. “I love you, too.”

Yamato blushed deeper. “Alright, alright. Let’s not get carried away.”

Suzuki laughed. This was good. He knew now that Yamato wasn’t going to abandon him. They were still friends. They could continue performing together at school. It would be fun. At least I had a chance to say it to him out loud, even if he doesn’t know how much I really mean it.

Suzuki blocked the anti-café. He had to stop using it to punish himself. Besides, he couldn’t forgive them for leading him to believe Yamato didn’t care about him. He made sure to delete his account too, just in case the urge overpowered him, and he lifted the block.

It’s been fun, he thought. He instantly felt better. Things returned to normal. Suzuki approached his manager with Yamato’s song. He leaned heavily on the idea of marketing it as a collaboration and watched as the yen signs appeared in her eyes. After that, she shocked him by giving him permission to go to Hawai’i.

“If the song does well, we’ll find time for a vacation,” she promised. “I couldn’t answer you before, since there was a lot up in the air, but you deserve some time off.”

“And I can go with Yamato?”

“If your schedules line up, I don’t see why not.”

The next morning, he told Yamato by throwing himself into his arms and shouting, “We’re going to Hawai’i!”

“Your manager said yes?” Yamato said, brightening.

Suzuki nodded. “She said that if the collab works out, then I can go with you. As long as we’re free at the same time. Hawai’i, Yama! Hawai’i!”

Yamato actually swung him around the classroom but stopped short when their homeroom teacher gave them a death-glare. Suzuki let go and jumped back.

“Oops. Sorry, sensei.”

“You’d better concentrate on passing your exams before talking about Hawai’i,” the teacher warned. “And don’t do that again. You could’ve knocked over the desks.”

It didn’t bring Suzuki’s mood down at all. He was walking on air. Later, when his and Yama’s managers called about some kind of music industry party, he agreed to go without hesitation. Yamato was a little more reluctant, but he caved when Suzuki said they could go together.

All in all, life was good. Suzuki still wanted to kiss Yamato. He still wanted to hug him as tightly as possible and tell him how he felt, but he couldn’t bear to mess everything up. Why sabotage a good thing? Yamato clearly only thought of him as a friend.

And that was fine. Everything was fine.

Suzuki enjoyed getting dressed up for public appearances. Yamato didn’t. He always looked uncomfortable in suits. Uncomfortable, yet handsome. Suzuki’s heart felt like it was going to leap out of his chest.

“I hate ties,” Yamato muttered, playing with the end of his.

“Then don’t wear one,” Suzuki said. He stepped forward and undid the knot. “It’s a formal party, but no one will care. See, I think you look just fine without it. Undo a couple buttons, and voila! Rock superstar Yamato is red carpet ready!”

Suzuki might have been mistaken, but Yamato appeared flustered. He turned towards the limousine their managers had arranged to drive them to the event and held open the door for Suzuki.

“After you,” he said.

It was after sunset and traffic was bad. Suzuki checked the time. Unless they learned how to teleport, they were going to be late. Oh well, in that case they’d make an even more striking entrance. Suzuki stretched out, putting his feet up on the seat. They were barely moving.

Yamato, meanwhile, was reading something on his phone. Suzuki didn’t know what it was, but it appeared to be irritating him. He kept frowning. Finally, Yamato tossed the phone into the corner and folded his arms. He huffed, a deep furrow forming between his eyebrows. Suzuki was torn between laughing at his grumpiness and wanting to comfort him.

“What’s up, Yama-kun?” Suzuki asked.

“Oh, it’s…” He stopped, turning pink. “It’s stupid.”

“You did something stupid?” Suzuki knew he sounded a bit too eager, but he couldn’t help it. He was dying to know.

Yamato rolled his eyes. “Yes, actually.”

“Are you going to tell me about it or am I going to have to tickle you for information?” Suzuki wiggled his fingers to demonstrate.

“Don’t!” Yamato pulled his legs up onto the seat, as if to shield himself from Suzuki’s attack. “Jesus, Suzuki we’re in public.”

“No, we’re not. The windows are tinted and the partition’s up. Now tell me what made you so mad.”

Yamato relaxed. He retrieved his phone—which was undamaged—and passed it to Suzuki. Suzuki’s eyes widened. He couldn’t believe what he was seeing: an anti-Yamato fansite. For a few seconds, he just stared at it. Then he began to actually process the words he was looking at.

Yamato’s style totally clashes with Suzuki’s. Don’t know why they’re friends.

Do u remember when he was talking about how “””fake””” Zuzu is? He said in a press conference that ur not a real artist if u don’t write and produce ur own songs. What a snob. Did he ever apologize for that?

Suzuki laughed out loud. He glanced at Yamato. “They have a point. Did you ever apologize to me?”

“It’s not funny.”

“It is!” Suzuki kept scrolling. “This whole time you were telling me not to pay attention to the haters and you didn’t even follow your own advice. Aww, Yama, don’t feel bad. Wait a minute.”

There was a new reply to one of the comments by a user named, “st4rpower826.”

Do you guys ever get tired of talking trash behind the safety of your computer screens? Why don’t you say this stuff to Suzuki’s face and see how he takes it. Last I heard, he and Yamato were still really close. He doesn’t get mad until you insult his friends. If you actually cared about him, you wouldn’t do this.

It had a bunch of negative replies. Suzuki looked at Yamato again. Yamato was chewing on his lip.

“Is this you?” Suzuki asked, pointing at the screen.

“That could be anyone.”

“It’s you! You made an account!” Suzuki grabbed Yamato’s shoulder and shook it. He was laughing uncontrollably now. “You made an account so you could fight with them! Oh my God. That’s my birthday in your username!”

Yamato’s ears were growing steadily redder. “You have to make an account to read the message boards,” he muttered. “You know that. Someone was going to come along and tell them off eventually. Might as well be me.”

“How did you get that username? That’s, like, a prime fandom username. When I went on the anti-Suzuki boards, YamaFan#1 was taken.”

“No one else spelled with a four for the A.”

Suzuki was still giggling. He continued scrolling. “How long did you have this?”

“I went searching for one about me the same night you went on yours. I was curious.” Yamato smiled sheepishly. “I could take all the garbage they spewed about me but when they started throwing you into the mix, I got really upset. So I fought back. Didn’t do much good though.”

“These people say we’re so different, but we actually have lots in common, huh?”

“Yeah…”

“Oh, here’s a familiar one: ‘Suzuki is friends with Yamato for fanservice. Yamato wouldn’t be as popular if people didn’t think he was gay for Suzuki.’ People were saying the same stuff on my anti-site.”

Yamato’s blush had spread down his neck. “They’re crazy.”

“I know.” Suzuki turned the screen off. “You shouldn’t get into fights with people online, even if they are being jerks. We know the truth.”

Yamato nodded. He rubbed the back of his neck. “You know, it was really stupid, but I started to get scared that they might be right. Just for a second. Seeing all that old stuff I said made me wonder if you were still angry with me, and you were pretending not to hate me for the sake of getting along.”

“I don’t hate you, Yama.” Suzuki kneaded Yamato’s shoulder. “I’ve always thought you were cool, even when you were criticizing me. I could never hate you. Do you wanna know why?”

“Sure,” Yamato said, his lips quirking into a smile.

Suzuki kissed him. His heart was pounding a mile a minute, but he had never felt more sure of anything in his life before. The hand on Yamato’s shoulder was steady. When he pulled away, Yamato was staring at him, his eyes huge.

“It’s because I love you,” Suzuki said. And because he couldn’t help it, he winked.

The words were barely out of his mouth before Yamato returned the kiss. It took Suzuki by surprise, almost knocking him backward. He managed to hold himself up by catching hold of Yamato’s other shoulder. The realization that Yamato was kissing him sank in about two seconds later. Suzuki’s imagination had been lacking. Actually kissing Yamato was better than anything he could’ve dreamed up.

Yamato was holding him, one hand braced against the small of Suzuki’s back, the other cupping his chin. His mouth was soft and smooth and warm. Suzuki tasted a hint of lip balm. He leaned into the kiss, following Yamato’s movements. Then, Yamato pulled Suzuki onto his lap. Both hands slid to Suzuki’s hips.

“Suzuki,” Yamato breathed.

“What?”

“I don’t want to go to this party. Do you?”

Suzuki didn’t have to think about it. “No.”

He gave Yamato another lingering kiss as he got off his lap, then went to knock on the partition. It rolled down about halfway. Suzuki held up a hand in apology.

“Sorry,” he said, “but could you take us back to Yamato’s place?”

The next morning was strange. After they’d been dropped off at Yamato’s house, he and Suzuki had spent the rest of the night watching movies and making out. When they were too tired to keep their eyes open a second longer, Yamato let Suzuki borrow a t-shirt and pair of pajama pants, and they had fallen asleep in his room.

Suzuki woke up thinking last night had been a dream. He wasn’t surprised by coming to in Yamato’s room. (They had sleepovers all the time.) What reminded him that it was real was feeling the weight of Yamato’s arm around him. Suzuki bit back a fresh fit of giggles. He couldn’t believe it. He had kissed Yamato last night. Yamato had kissed him back.

Yamato stirred and lifted his head. It seemed to take him a minute as well. Then he smiled. He kissed Suzuki’s cheek. “Good morning,” he said softly.

“Good morning,” Suzuki repeated. He wondered if they could get away with staying in bed all day. Their phones had been blowing up all night, to the point where they’d set them to silent and left them in the living room.

Yamato groped for his alarm clock. “It’s almost noon.”

“My manager is probably going crazy right now because I didn’t show up.” He laughed at that. She was going to kill him later, but there were other things on his mind right now. “Is there anything important going on today?”

“No. There’s just you.” Yamato nestled himself against Suzuki again.

“We can stay in today,” Suzuki suggested. “We’ll play video games and make pancakes.”

“And make out,” Yamato added. He stuck his tongue out and wiggled it around.

Suzuki slapped his hand over Yamato’s mouth, laughing helplessly. “Gross! Don’t do that. You’re not a member of KISS.”

Yamato laughed as well. He let go of Suzuki and rolled out of bed. “Come on. I’ll make you pancakes. I bought blueberries.”

The apartment complex was quiet. Everyone was either sleeping in or out. Suzuki helped Yamato get out the mixing bowl and the skillet. There were, in fact, blueberries in the fridge. (Suzuki may have helped himself to a few before putting some in the batter.) Yamato started a pot of coffee, promising Suzuki that he still had the French vanilla creamer he liked.

�� While they were waiting to flip the first pancake, Suzuki decided to bring up the question that had been on his mind since he’d gotten out of bed. “So… are we boyfriends now?”

To his credit, Yamato wasn’t caught off-guard, though he did hesitate. “I don’t know. I want to be,” he said. “Things are different for us.”

“I’d be fine dating you in secret. Plenty of celebrities do it.”

“Me too, but I don’t know how long we could keep it up. There’s a lot of stress involved.” Yamato did the flip. It was clean. He passed the spatula to Suzuki. “It would definitely make some of our fans happy.”

Suzuki grinned. “Maybe that’s how we should justify it to our managers.”

“Yikes,” Yamato said. “Honestly, I don’t want to think about it right now. I just want to eat and destroy you at Mario Kart again. We can talk about the serious stuff later.”

“Can’t you go easy on me?” Suzuki whined. “I’m your boyfriend.”

“What makes you think I’d go easy on you just because we’re dating now? I never let you win when we were friends and that’s not going to change now.”

“You’re so mean.” Suzuki pulled his eyelid and stuck out his tongue. “Yama-kun’s a bad boyfriend. I’m gonna tell the whole world, so no one will steal you from me.”

Yamato laughed. He put an arm around Suzuki’s waist and brought him in for a kiss. “No one could steal me from you,” he said when they separated. “I love you.”

Suzuki put his head on Yamato’s shoulder. Life was good. The world might as well be limited to this small kitchen. To him and Yamato, and no one else. “Love you, too.”

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