#wow i'm great at remembering to post things on the right day lmao

[rebelcaptain4life]

6x03 isn't up for me yet so let's complete my 6x02 recap that I never posted!

DADDY COP 2.0 FT CHOIR HECK YES

Ha that 100 in the title card is cute!

And ofc ABC will never miss an opportunity for some extremely in your face Disney product placement.

Nooo Henryyy (coincidentally, a Canadian airline went bankrupt last week and haunted all their ops less than 48hrs after announcing it 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️. They really need to make some rule to stop airlines from stranding people by basically not giving any time between bankruptcy announcement and shutdown)

RANDY AND CHASTITY?!!!

Actually really great idea to have a wedding as episode 100 so you can get so many guest stars back for the special occasion.

Bruhh how are they supposed to get more catering, flowers, etc in ONE DAY?!

OF COURSE IT'S OSCARRER

Ma'am why didn't you immediately take your poor fur baby to the vet?

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! MONICA!!??? AGAIN?! FFS

Chenford being passive aggressive while Angela watches LOL

"no, ladies first" Tim are you scareddd 😂

I don't get the Hammer?? He'd rather 100% go to jail in a fight rather than just give them the ring and make a run for it???

"I have to look good in a dress tmrw, nobody cares what you look like" LMAO

Dude just destroyed his own apartment, too

EXCUSE ME TIM

DOWN ON ONE KNEE

HOLDING A RING OUT?!!

KDJDJDJDHDNRNDNFDBBBD

I love Harper & Lopez 😂

The... The florist just sold their flowers to someone else the day before a wedding just cuz they wouldn't answer the phone?? Don't they usually have a contract or something and yk take it directly to the venue???

NOT THE CAKE TOO what kind of awful vendors did these guys get stuck with for their wedding 😭

CELINA CASUALLY BRINGING UP CHENFORD WEDDING

"why not, your so good together" everyone can see it even though they've only officially been dating for a few months 😭

I love the way this scene is cut between the convos.

Yes Lucy you are projecting!!! Please acknowledge your own feelings instead of telling Tim he's not acknowledging his own 😭

"I need to show Harper what I'm capable of" "by baking a cake?" Aaron stole the words right out of my mouth

"or he's gonna say something that will make you want to kill him and he wants witnesses" NYLA LMAO

LIE DETECTOR TEST HAHAHA

Wow Lucy you didn't have to sit that close 👀👀👀

FIRST ON SCREEN I LOVE YOU LFG

Tim didn't you think to maybe test out the lie detector first???

Ok so on my first watch, I was really annoyed that basically everything was on Tim for their argument and his hesitancy about Lucy being detective. But after sitting with it for a week and remembering the end of s5, where we see Lucy be super excited, and he's obviously being supportive but he's clearly very stressed about it (couch scene. in that ep with Isabel), I get it. Tim does need to work through.

We had the opportunity to see chenford walk into a wedding TOGETHER for once but nooooo (ughhh Tim looks s goooodddddd) Lucy's like "oh hey :D wait no I'm still mad at you :(" :((((

Omg CELINA?! LOOKS AMAZING?!!! It's always so funny seeing the girlies out of uniform for the first time cuz they're like half the size XD

SLAY LUNA!!!! Awww Grey

I LOVE BAILEY'S DRESS

I'm crying the vows are so sweet 😭😭😭😭

Ah so the dancing was intentionally really awkward. Good job, James

Noooo Aaronnnn I thought you were going for her cheek djdsfj;aj;a;jak

CELINA RU INSANE THE ENTIRE SQUAD IS TWO STEPS AWAY WHY DIDN'T YOU CALL FOR BACKUP WHILE YOU GOT CHANGED?!!!

Um this scene is perfection?! Alicia Keys?! The no-words asking to dance? How Lucy immediately moves SO CLOSE. Lucy wearing THE RING!!!! I love how they always talk super softly about super important things while dancing at weddings 🥺🥺🥺

I LOVE YOU NUMBER TWO AND A KISS WE'RE WINNING!!!

Tim not wanting to let go but being forced to by Aaron!

LMAO Aaron "everyone was so worried, but I told them it's fine, you're solid". Love how everyone just casually talks about Chenford

CELINA WHY DIDN'T YOU CALL SOONER?! LIKE ON THE DRIVE THERE?!!

Damn everyone comes prepared with go bags?!

nooooo siriiii

Overall, great episode!!

#I know no one cares but me #But when you watch something alone #You just need to scream into the void sometimes #chenford #the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen #eric winter #melissa o’neil #nathan fillion #john nolan #bailan #jenna dewan #bailey nune #nyla harper #mekia cox #angela lopez #tru valentino #aaron thorsen #celina juarez #alyssa diaz #richard t jones #wade grey #lisseth chavez #rebelcaptain watches the rookie #the rookie 6x02 #the rookie 100 #the rookie spoilers

[ghostintheheadset]

watchmojo's top five headphones_haver fics of 2023 (not clickbait)

I'm looking at my 2023 stats on ao3 and fandom disparities are really funny to me lmao, my main fandom at the moment is fe3h, and of the 22 fics I posted this year, 19 of them were fe3h.

All three of the non-fe3h fics are my top three most kudos'ed fics of the year:

It goes without saying ofc that these numbers don't really matter, if I was only doing this for the kudos I'd be writing m/m genshin fic, and it's not really surprising why the numbers are the way they are- both my Pokemon and Zelda fics were posted within a few months of the game coming, and gwitch is also relatively new and I was writing for far and away the most popular ship. Meanwhile, 3h is now past the 4 year mark, and largely m/m dominated while the majority of my fics are f/f. While I would certainly enjoy all my fics getting popular, seeing the numbers like this makes it easy to remember that engagement isn't a metric of quality.

(In that vein, Falling is probably the fic I spent the least amount of time on this year, being impulse-written in about 2 hours. Sometimes niche fics you pour your heart and soul into can't reach the same level of popularity as wider-appeal stories you wrote much more quickly, and that's okay)

That said, though, I am happy with the fics that made top 2. There's something satisfying about my first and last fics of the year being the most popular, and I am very happy with how the both of them turned out. They're both representative of the themes I like writing about and are both wholesome yuri, so I think they "belong" in the top 5 as much as any fic could be said to.

Numbers 4 and 5 are kind of a surprise to me- Pegasus Knight Dysphoria is a gen fic about a trans girl and Someday is an f/f rarepair. Of the 19 (wow) 3h fics I've written over 2023, these are not the two I'd expect to break into the top 5, but it's a pleasant surprise that they did!

Anyway, none of that actually matters beyond being mildly interesting to me specifically. Onward to 2024:

According to my stats page, I posted 126k words of fic in 2023, which averaged out to a little over 10k words a month or about 345 words a day. Not bad! Looking to get those numbers up next year though. If I don't, then that'll be okay, but 126k is the Word Count To Beat if possible.

I would also like to do some more fandom events! Apparently there's a FE rarepair week happening literally right now that I wasn't aware of until yesterday. Hoooopefully I'll be able to see more of that kind of thing now that I'm here, as they've always been a lot of fun when I could participate. I'm not leaving 3h just yet, but I would like to branch out a bit more- I definitely have more gwitch fics lined up, and I'd like to also branch out a bit and write for some other fandoms I haven't gotten around to yet.

Big writing goal is to finish Together We Ride, and also work on it more consistently. I was putting off starting it for a while because I wanted to "wait for a good time", but I realized if I kept that up it would never get started. Considering I started it in April and there's currently 7 chapters, it was in fact "not a good time", but! I am committed to seeing it through in the upcoming year.

That's about it I think. It's been lovely writing fic over the past year (and a great way to unwind from the Grad School Stress), and I'm very much looking forward to exploring more next year.

(might do a roundup later today of some fics from this year I really liked we'll see)

#ramblings

[theageofsims]

Sometimes I just like to make posts like this because as much as I've spent years fleshing William out in my story, he wouldn't have even existed if Harrison didn't take this role in The Age of Adaline.

2015 was a big year for Harrison -- The Force Awakens brought him back to the Star Wars universe as everybody's favorite space smuggler: Han Solo. Nobody even cared about The Age of Adaline -- but I did, lmao.

I actually forget which order they came out in. They both were released in 2015, but Harrison had that major plane crash and then he also got injured on the set of The Force Awakens when the door to the Millennium Falcon fell down on top of him. He was able to do all the promotions for The Force Awakens, but he didn't do any for The Age of Adaline. He was pretty banged up -- I don't remember which injuries went where, but I think he broke his leg and he shattered his pelvis and God only knows what else.

At least there's the making of The Age of Adaline on the Blu-ray / DVD so it was nice to see him talking about the movie while he was in his "William Jones" clothes and goatee and all, but I did miss him going on Late Night (especially stopping by Conan -- I LOVE Conan).

Anyway, I really enjoyed his role in the movie. He was only in the 3rd act of the movie and I didn't expect very much -- but there was this one scene in the beginning of his scenes that struck me in some kind of way (not the first time it's happened -- this man been striking me down for years now no bullshit), and then a few scenes later I was sitting in my movie seat completely… taken. Something about something he did -- this 'one' thing he did in the middle of this one scene that sent me spiraling down through all the films of his I've seen and I was like wow… HARRISON REALLY BE OUT THERE KNOCKIN' A BITCH DEAD… how dare he do this?!

Seriously this one moment he gave me this like, I don't even know -- he gave me this Indiana Jones vibe from my most favorite Indy movie (Temple of Doom) and then he shot me straight to Dr. Richard Kimble (in The Fugitive) and I was like… he bullshittin'. He ain't real right now.

My mom was sitting next to me at the movies (I no longer can drag the few friends I have to go see a movie with Harrison in it… so I drag my mother. I honestly do. And she goes to all of them since 2011… AGAINST her will. Harrison ain't shit to her -- but she's mad about Daniel Craig… which worked out great because in 2011 Harrison and Daniel did Cowboys & Aliens -- but ANYWAY… lmao moving on)… like as neutral as can be while I was breathing hard -- very hard.

I can't remember, but I try to think sometimes if I started making William before I had a chance to get the blu-ray and take screencaps (I always look at photos when I'm trying to create my favorite characters from things)… but I think I might of, he just needed a lot of work in the earlier days.

But yeah -- there's not much to William in the movie, but he really struck me in a certain way and then of course I didn't think my Age of Sims story would go this far, but it has. I try to pace it so that I can write a much as I can for it. I named this blog the way I did because of the movie/William as well -- but anyway. I guess until I make another random ass post about HF/his characters in some capacity! lmao.

#blurb

[tim-lucy]

WOW. That anon is way outta line! SO rude to send messages like that and they know it too if not they would of messaged you direct not on ANON and then saying it's not meant to be rude?? Don't ever stop posting all the posts you make, seriously they make you happy and that's the best part enjoying the episode so much you just can't wait to post. Your edits are gorgeous too and you come up with great parallels to post! I don't get people like that anon saying you post everything and then there's nothing left to post? Just cause you've posted it doesn't mean they can't? There's plenty of people who will reblog scenes over and over again happens all the time! Not to mention you could do a scene your way e.g 540px and they might do it the smaller way or the other way around or even smaller text, different fonts/colouring the list goes on to what you can do to make it different!

DON'T EVER FEEL GUILTY FOR LOVING YOUR SHOW SO MUCH YOU POST YOUR AMAZING EDITS RIGHT AWAY! <3

AWWWWW THANK YOU FOR THIS NICE MESSAGE YOU'RE AN ACTUAL ANGEL I HOPE YOUR DAY IS GOING AMAZING!! :')

Years ago, we were begging for more people to gif chenford when it was just a handful of us!! I remember begging stydia giffers "HEY LET ME CONVERT YOU" LOLOL and now I'm giffing chenford too much??? That's low-key beautiful! I'm happy there are so many of us now!!

But I think it's important to remember that we're making these little moving pictures for fun! Working 60 hours a week requires so much scheduling and perfection that I like to have a place where I'm just CHAOTIC!!! GIFGIFGIFGIF!! Typos??? MY BEST FRIEND LMAO

But @ that other anon, I want to reiterate again to please don't feel like you can't make something just because it's already been giffed! I mean, I definitely wouldn't purposely recreate the exact same thing someone else made, but scenes are scenes! Parallels are parallels! The more the merrier!

I think we should all make a pact to reblog alllllll the chenford things (PSSST I TRACK #USERTIMLUCY) no matter how many gif sets are out there :') They are a ship that will go down in tv history and they deserve all the love. If too many gifs are a problem, I think it's a lovely one to have, especially considering where we started 🥹

#ask #anonymous #the rookie #chenford

[deathbxnny]

Hi there! So im glad you’re back for a bit rn. I have so many things i wanna say but i’ll just make it to three

1. So how are you rn? Have you been taking care of yourself?

2. Yanqing villain arc made me tear up a bit like wow he is now pushed to the edge. Jingyuan will not be having a good time nor the readers who requested yanqing angst if you think about it. Also the next High Cloud Quintet request is honestly adorable, a fresh air from the sea of angst Yanqing keeps getting.

3. If you dont mind me asking, what is the status on “What lies beyond the painting”? The last thing you said about it is that its nearly finished and ready to be out. If it still needs time then take your time. Dont push yourself as we can all wait

Hope you are doing well bxnny, remember to take care of yourself and hope you have a great day/night

- Flower Anon 🌸

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Hello there, Flower anon!

I hope all is going well with you!

1.) I'm honestly not doing all too well. My mental health is taking a strong dip right now, as I'm very unhappy with where I am right now in life... but I'm somewhat managing to exist.

2.) Yeah, you're the second person who told me they cried and I hope that meant you liked it alot LMAO. But yeah, they were quite the new ideas and fun to write.

3) Don't worry, I'll get the next chapter out soon! I have a draft written up, so I'll post it as soon as I'm done with the requests!

I hope this answers all your questions and have a good day/night yourself!<33

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#bxnny-talks

[hard-core-super-star]

I think I sent the last ask and forgot to make it anonymous, I'm going to faint right now. about comfort, do you say about writing something small and quick or is it about some fluff? 🤔

well, looking at the bright side is looking at my side, after all, a star has to shine so- “unless” lmao. unless what? don't be shy finish the sentence.

are you defending me from the reference you made that I didn't get? Kejskakwk there's a whole conspiracy behind this 119% and now I understand it, but I didn't expect it to be something random, I thought it had to do with your age.

RIGHT? even the dialogues between themselves are incredible. NO RUBIX, EVEN THEN YOU CANNOT TAKE THE PHONES!!! but I completely agree, Children shouldn't have access to the phone at such a young age, but I think what's even worse is children who at that age have already developed an addiction.

It took me a while to learn that there wasn't just one Robin in the bat-family lmao. but yes, if it makes sense then I will continue to love them the same, even though I am called a “fake fan” by a certain someone-

It's really cool that you just go after the poorly written part of the shows and throw rocks at them and then just rant about it. It's not a complaint, I'm for it whatever you call it. Firestorm! wow, I'm really bad with names too, jesus. Oh yeah- I see it, but hey, it can still be given to you, but by yourself. you can write after all. I don't remember who they are 😭😭 the thing about them being irrelevant is real apparently (I'm literally almost asleep writing this, there's probably something that doesn't make any sense, now let's see if I have enough strength to answer the next one)

– 🌟

you definitely sent it on anon so don't worry about it. and if you ever do forget, i’ll just delete it and pretend it never happened. i respect your decision to stay anonymous and mysterious. honestly, it's a bit of both. writing fluff can be incredibly therapeutic for me and writing those short headcanon sets makes me feel better about going so many days without posting a full fic. i still take forever to write the headcanon sets though which doesn't leave me with the greatest feeling in the world but oh well.

alskdkdk that's an excellent way to put it, i approve. in the words of my favorite star,”nuh-uh, no way.” two can play the game of unfinished sentences. the only difference is my unfinished sentences are still obvious so 👀

i was trying to help you feel better about not getting it and i think i succeeded. it's also not completely random, to be fair. i have a strong attachment to the song because i was born on a 19 [i’ll keep the month a secret for now because it's fun] which means that yes, it does also have to do with my age ‘cause i’m nineteen [call me. that's a reference to the song lmao] unrelated but i have 19 tattooed on me but in roman numeral version because i could.

i truly don't know how they came up with such amazing lines and this is making me want to replay the game ‘cause it’s been a WHILE since the last time i played it. fine 🙄 i won't take their phones. i’ll just silently judge them instead. exactly!!! it's concerning and i don't care how hypocritical it makes me sound.

skskjdjdjs i want to judge but i get it lmao. damn, that certain someone sounds like a cool person with a great sense of judgement 👀

i think it's just hard for me to turn off my writer brain sometimes so when i see something not done the way I think it should be done, i start trying to rewrite it in my head. sometimes that leads to fics, other times i just rant a lot. akdkkdksj it’s okay, they're genuinely not that important, in my opinion. they should have just focused on idk, giving caitlin a real storyline instead of adding new characters every other episode. [i thought your sentences made sense, don't worry. i’m also half-asleep writing this so bear with me and my tendency to skip over grammar mistakes when i’m tired 😶]

#rubix replies #🌟

[cyberstudious]

september 19th, 2019 | today I spent some time studying in the new engineering building & it was v nice (~˘▾˘)~

#studyblr #study inspo #studyspo #study motivation #study inspiration #op #wow i'm great at remembering to post things on the right day lmao

[supernovafics]

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐈𝐃𝐀𝐘𝐒 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐀 𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐇

pairing: dylan o’brien x best friend fem!reader

summary: in which dylan has been your best friend for as long as you could remember. your busy lives and schedules may have pushed both of your lives in vastly different directions as you’d gotten older, but somehow you two would always be led back to your hometown, and each other, during the holidays. however, one moment causes all of that to change. 

warnings: angst (what else is new), some fluffiness, mentions of past trauma (the maze runner incident), existential crises, explicit language

word count: 3.6k words

author’s note: idk why i decided to write something christmas related in the summer but it happened lmao (also i feel like it’s slightly important to mention that this takes place in 2016)

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

The rocks being thrown at your window were not what woke you up. Instead, you had been lying awake for hours; getting little to no sleep was something that you had become used to at this point.

However, on this specific night— or morning, depending on how one looked at it— you were glad that your sleep had been restless once again because it made it easy for you to get out of bed and walk to your window when the rocks began hitting it.

There was really no need for you to push open the curtains and check who was doing the throwing because, of course, it was Dylan. Ever since he moved onto your street in Hermosa Beach in middle school and the two of you easily became friends, he was the only person that would ever wake you up in the middle of the night with the soft pings of rocks, especially on this specific day at this specific time.

You waved at him and gestured that you would be down in a moment. You slipped on a random pair of sweatpants along with a hoodie and then placed the Christmas gift that you bought for him in the pocket. The item was small enough to fit in the not too big pocket of your hoodie; however, it did awkwardly protrude a bit.

All of this was a sort of unspoken tradition that the pair of you had developed over the many years you’d known each other. Meeting at five in the morning on Christmas day, walking to the beach that was only a few blocks away from your respective childhood homes, and exchanging Christmas gifts with each other as you both watched the sunrise. It started when you were in ninth grade, and you hadn't missed a year since, not even when the ending of high school pushed your lives in vastly different directions, especially since Dylan graduated a year before you and was almost immediately thrust into his acting career.

But, it didn't matter that Dylan's career took off, and you eventually decided to go to college in Santa Barbara, because, no matter what, you both would always come back for the holidays.

When you opened your front door and saw Dylan lingering by the sidewalk no more than ten feet away, you were quick to go toward him and pull him in for a tight embrace. It actually hadn't been too long since you’d last seen him, maybe only five or six months, but for some reason, it still felt as if the last time he was in front of you was last December.

"Hey," Dylan breathed out in a short greeting, his arms wounding around your waist.

“Hey to you too," You responded, a small smile gracing your features when you both pulled away, and you looked up at him. "How have you been?"

It was quiet for a few moments as you waited for him to answer the question, but eventually, you were met with no verbal response, and instead, Dylan simply shrugged. The short action made your heart constrict in the most painful way, and it was then that you noticed the light remnants of a scar peeking out from behind his dark hair that covered the majority of his forehead. You were quick to peel your eyes away from the scar and instead cast them down at your Converse-covered feet, but that didn't stop the memories from quickly coming back.

The Maze Runner accident had happened back in March, but to you, and you knew to Dylan as well, it felt as if it was just yesterday, especially considering the fact that he was still dealing with the unavoidable repercussions from it.

"Wanna walk?" You asked, finally looking up at him once again.

Dylan nodded. "Yeah."

A silence that could only be deemed as comfortable lingered between them as the two of you took the five-minute walk to the beach and sat down side by side on one of the random empty benches.

"Merry Christmas, Y/N," Dylan said as he handed a present over to you. The present was messily wrapped, something that was not at all uncommon when receiving gifts from Dylan, and the sight of it made you smile.

Before you unwrapped the gift, you pulled out the one you had for him and handed it over. "Merry Christmas, Dyl."

The nostalgic sound of wrapping paper ripping could be heard as you tore into your gift. A simultaneous shocked and happy yelp emitted from your lips when you held up a Harry Potter t-shirt. But, it wasn't just any Harry Potter t-shirt; it was one with a version of the Goblet of Fire movie poster on it, which was your all-time favorite movie in the series.

"Holy shit."

"It's the original merch that was sold when the movie came out," Dylan told you. He hadn't opened his gift yet, and instead, he was playing with the green bow placed on top of it; he always liked to see your reaction first.

You looked at Dylan and then back down at the shirt as you processed his words. "Wow, double holy shit. I would put it on if it wasn't freezing right now."

Dylan laughed a bit. "Very understandable."

“Why haven't you opened yours yet? I'm dying to see what you think of it," You said. You were now holding the t-shirt to your chest, genuinely feeling like a little kid on Christmas morning again.

Dylan finally began unwrapping your gift to him, and when all of the paper was peeled off, there was a square box. "Aw, a plain white box. Thank you so much. This is what I've always wanted."

You rolled your eyes and playfully bumped him with your shoulder. "Ha ha. Please save all of these bad jokes for your stand-up act; I can't wait to boo you off the stage along with everyone else."

"So, what I'm hearing is you don't think that becoming a comedian is going to be the next best career move for me?" Dylan asked. He attempted to make the question sound as serious as possible, but there was a joking undertone to his words.

You bit back your laughter. "Please just open the box already so I don't have to hurt your feelings by truthfully answering that question."

"Okay, we'll circle back to that topic later," Dylan smiled and then finally opened the white box to reveal a slightly faded baseball. When he picked it up, he ran his thumb over the black signature written on it. "Now it's my turn to say holy shit."

You could feel yourself smiling at his awestruck reaction, and you wondered if that was what you looked like when you saw the Harry Potter shirt. The baseball was signed by one of the players of the New York Mets that had been Dylan's favorite player when he was younger, and he'd even caught a ball hit by him when he went to a game before he moved to California.

"I've had this idea for years, but I could never find a baseball signed by him," You began explaining, the excitement clear in your voice. "But, last month, someone named Paul Todd posted this on eBay and I immediately bought it. God bless that old man. It's completely authentic and everything."

Dylan was quiet for a few moments as he simply looked at the baseball in his hands, a small joyful smile on his face, and it made you happy to see him so genuinely elated with the present.

"This just made my gift look like shit," He finally said, a light laugh falling from his lips.

"I have always been the superior gift giver. I think that's my hidden talent," You responded with a playful smirk.

Dylan placed the baseball back in its box and then looked at you. "Next year you will receive the best gift ever from me. It will completely top everything that you have ever given me."

"You're saying that as if I should feel upset about receiving a trip to Italy as a Christmas gift."

"A trip to Italy?"

"In my strong opinion, that would be the best gift ever," You said with a smile and then looked down at the t-shirt, which was now in your lap. "But, anyway, I don't think this gift is shit. I'm in love with this shirt already."

Dylan let out a joking, overexaggerated sigh in relief. "Phew, okay, since you think this gift is great, that means I don't have to do the trip to Italy next year."

"What? Did I say I like this t-shirt? I hate it! Harry Potter actually su— Fuck, I can't say this with a straight face," You laughed, and Dylan was quick to join in with you.

The joking statements leading up to the laughter hadn't even been the funniest things ever, but it didn't matter because this was probably the hardest you had laughed in a while, and you were both glad and unsurprised that it was with one of your favorite people in the entire world.

You missed joking around and laughing with him. You missed simply being with him.

Eventually, the laughter died off, but there was still a smile planted firmly on your face. You looked ahead at the darkness in front of you and the ocean that looked completely black; it was still kind of early, so the sun hadn't begun to rise just yet. Your back pressed against the wooden bench, and you let out a small sigh, your head finding Dylan's shoulder as you leaned against him.

"How have you been?" You asked him, your words coming out both soft and slightly quiet, and before the mood became too serious with your question that was nothing but serious, you attempted to lighten it. "And please no shrugs as a response this time. I don't wanna get a headache due to my head bouncing off your shoulder."

Dylan let out a breath of a laugh at your final statements but refrained from answering the question for a few moments.  

After what felt like forever, he sighed and ran a hand through his dark hair. "I honestly don't know. My mind has felt so fucked lately, thinking about everything. I swear I've been feeling every feeling known to man these past months."

"What are you feeling right now? In this moment?"

"I'm really happy with you. This is probably the only normal and familiar thing I've experienced in a while. But, of course, there's still that confused feeling in the back of my mind revolving around everything else." He paused for a brief moment before continuing, his next words came out quieter. "I don't even know if I want to go back to acting."

You lifted your head off his shoulder and looked at him as you pulled his hand into yours and gave it a light, reassuring squeeze.

"No matter what you decide. I'll be right there to support you," You told him and then added a "bro" at the end of her sentence along with a small smile. Whenever things became too deep in a conversation you two were having, one of you would always throw a "bro" or "dude" in there to bring some playfulness to the mood.

The corners of Dylan's perked up a bit. "So, you'll support me when I decide to become a comedian?"

You were unable to stifle your light laughter. "Yes, fine, fuck it. I'll be the loudest one laughing at all of your shows."

Dylan squeezed your hand back because he knew exactly how reluctantly true your words were. "Don't worry, I promise not to put you through that."

"Thank you."

"So, how have you been?"

"No."

"Oh, come on," Dylan said as he playfully poked your side. "I'm not gonna be the only one exposing my feelings."

You sighed and then hesitantly nodded. "Okay, okay."

The truth was you had been far from good lately. Your life was moving, but for some reason, you felt like you weren’t moving with it.

You felt stuck.

Stuck in a confusing mindset where you had absolutely no idea what you wanted to do with your life. You thought that identity crises usually happened in high school, but apparently, yours had come five years late. But, you knew that this delayed identity crisis had been your own doing because you had convinced herself that you would figure everything out once you were in college; and you were both lucky and smart enough to receive a full ride to UCSB.

And although you were finishing up your Master's degree in Creative Writing and had a TA job at the university with the department, which was the reason behind why you could even pay for the Master's program, something in your "should be great" life simply did not feel right.

However, you felt absolutely terrified to say any of that out loud because admitting it would only finally make that statement a wholehearted truth, instead of just a spiraling thought in your mind. And even though Dylan was your best friend and you knew you could tell him anything and not receive any sort of judgment, it still felt hard to let the words leave your lips.

You thought about the way to perfectly word everything, but nothing felt right. You pulled your hand away from Dylan's and covered your face as you let out an exasperated breath. "I can't figure how to say it all."

Dylan placed an arm around you and then mimicked the same question you had asked him not too long ago. "What are you feeling right now? In this moment?"

You would have both laughed and smiled at the fact that he was using your exact words if the current circumstances were different.

"Scared," You finally said, your voice barely above a whisper. "I don't know what the fuck I wanna do anymore, and actually, I don't think I really ever did. I only went to college because of the scholarship, and I convinced myself that I would figure my life out when I got there. And for a while, things felt right because I found creative writing and genuinely enjoyed it, but something doesn't feel right anymore. And I actually do like school. Because it's stable, and I am doing things, even if it's taking a dumbass test. But, it's about to be over soon, and I have no idea what I'm gonna do."

Your words were coming out like vomit, and nothing could stop it because finally, everything you had been feeling for so long was out of your head and put into the open.

"And don't get me wrong, I do love to write, but I don't know, I just can't see myself doing it for the rest of my life," You admitted and then let your next words come out quietly. "Honestly, I can't see myself doing anything. I'm so unhappy here."

You did not say it aloud, but you didn't think you were ever fully content there. Aside from Dylan and your parents, you never truly liked California. You had grown up there all your life, and although there were millions of people that adored the state, you felt the exact way someone from a state like Wyoming probably felt.

Dylan did not verbally respond to your long confession at first; instead, he simply pulled your confused and stressed self in for a hug, and you let out the simultaneous sigh and breath that you had been metaphorically holding in for years at this point.

"Maybe you should take a break," Dylan finally said; his arms were still around you, an action that made you feel completely comforted. "Right after high school, you went straight to college, and I don't think you've ever really taken a break to really think about what you actually want. Like, maybe, it's becoming a zookeeper."

Your laugh was slightly muffled by the fact that your face was pressed into the warmth of Dylan's chest. "Zookeeper?"

"I don't know," He laughed too. "You said you would support me in whatever the fuck I decide to do, and I'll do the exact same for you."

Somehow a smile found its way on your face. "A zookeeper and a comedian. What a fucking dream team."

Another laugh fell from Dylan's lips. "The best fucking dream team."

"But, honestly, I wish I could've known sooner that this is how you've been feeling. I would've been telling you to slow down so long ago, but you seemed content with everything," Dylan told you and gave you another light squeeze. "Please take a break and don't stress yourself out over the future when your next semester is over. Just relax for the first time. You can even come stay with me in LA for a little bit if that's where you wanna take your break. I'll be here for you, Y/N. Always."

Something about his words hit you hard. The wholehearted honesty and sincerity behind his statement shouldn't have surprised you, but it did. And the worry he had for you resembled the same concern you had for him when the accident happened. You two were best friends, so it should not have been a shock that you would worry about each other, but still, in that moment and for you, it was shocking because it felt like so much more than just that.

"Me too," You whispered, finally responding to his previous statement.

The long embrace came to an end with you being the one to pull away; however, you did not pull away far enough for you both to become completely detached from one another. Dylan's arms were still around your waist, and yours were still around the nape of his neck, and your faces were dangerously close. Your hand somehow took on a mind of its own as it reached around and cupped Dylan's cheek. The miniscule confusion and tickle of panic that began to prick at the back of your mind because of the action were not enough to make you pull away.

The slight way that Dylan leaned into your soft touch was the catalyst for you to take the leap and lean in the tiniest bit to close the small distance between the two of you, your lips almost too easily finding his. The inward sigh of contentment you emitted when Dylan almost immediately kissed you back made you realize that kissing him was the one thing currently happening in your life that actually felt right.

Later, when thinking back to that specific moment, you would wonder if that "rightness" had always been there between you both.

However, that right feeling, which was both comfortable and familiar, was quickly replaced with dread and angst, at least on your part. Your mind was beginning to fully catch up with your actions, and it immediately told you that the current action was both bad and stupid, and there were many, many reasons that proved that.

Maybe there were moments where a younger, and even present-day, you did want more to happen between you and Dylan, but you would always push that thought away because you knew that your and Dylan's friendship was so much more valuable.

And then it was the fact that your lives were nothing alike. Even though you were immensely confused about where your life was going, you could say for certain that it wasn't going in the same direction as Dylan's; an acting career that he genuinely loved and enjoyed too much to truly give up. Something deep down told you that, and you could feel the truthfulness behind the thought. The holidays were the only time your lives would truly intersect.

You abruptly pulled away, not just from the kiss but from Dylan's body entirely, moving to the edge of the bench you were on. Your hands covered your face in nothing but pure embarrassment and regret, and you wished that you could take back the last minute and a half of your life. And you also absolutely hated that you couldn't help but notice how much colder your body felt now that it was away from Dylan's.

"Oh my God. I'm sorry. Fuck. That kiss— it was a mistake. I'm really sorry." Your words came out rushed and fumbled, and it probably did not make much sense, but you just hoped that there was at least a little bit of coherency with them.

As much as you wanted to look at Dylan, you refused to do so because you knew that you would only see the regret you were feeling written clear across his face.

"Hey, it's okay, Y/N. Everything's fine. Don't worry," You heard him say but could hear the uncertainty in his voice as if he really didn't know if everything truly was fine. And you knew that it wasn’t. It really wasn’t.

The holidays were the only time your lives would truly intersect, and you had just completely ruined that.

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

let me know your thoughts <3

((((already potentially thinking about doing a part 2 to this….. but idk…))))

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[batarangsoundsdumb]

guess fucking what? my inbox is so fucking full right now i'm unloading all of this shit in one post.

For the 11th gotham memes: gothamites react to bruce being jacked in a tiktok he made with kids, like super yoked, ripped as hell

fucking hilarious thanks. i think i did it in one meme post, but i genuinely don't remember which one

i dunno which of the batfam would do this but one time i was sleeping over at a friends house and ended up on the floor bc the bed was so very small and i just stayed there because the rug was soft

that's a drunk jason move i don't know what to tell you

tim and jason are "i listen to pop punk" solidarity. whenever jason highjacks the batmobile theyll go on long ass car rides blaring mcr and paramore and then never talk about it again

as they should!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tim: no jason it's my turn using the aux cord i gotta put on my jams jason: don't you dare put on weird shit tim: don't worry, you're gonna love this *plays fearless (taylor's version)

hear me out hear me out, red hood stans 🤝 nightwing stans t h i g h s

holy shit yes.

SNL au: Bruce breaks character when pretending to superman and says something like "I'm not superman! You've seen his gps!! It's from 2001!!!" @sabeanybabe

superman flies past the snl building the next day just to say 'actually it's from 2005, i'm not a heathen'

does your back hurt from carrying the batfam fandom

it hurts more from the exotic rock collection i keep in my backpack, but thanks for the concern.

I love your posts by why would you always leave the best parts in the tags?

as a treat for the people that check the tags ;) (and also because i'm committed to the short post aesthetic)

somehow your playlist was everything i never knew i needed. i mean it. this is my new favorite playlist.

and don't you dare get a new favourite playlist!

babe ur stoner tim playlist is exactly too perfect, earth is literally blessed by ur existence

babe thanks so much! i love my stoner tim playlist because it's just my usual playlist but people think it's an artistic choice that i put taylor swift and britney spears in there, when it's just what i unironically like listening to

JANDKSKDK BILLY RAY CYRUS ON THE STONER TIM PLAYLIST I LOVE IT IT

again it's not even an ironic choice, i know every single word and i genuinely like the song

The last chapter of Fundamentals of Casework has me crying at work. Thanks I love it @dudelookitsalesbian

oh babe, i'm sorry, but also, not sorry i love chapter 4 so much it's my lovechild with the 'mental illness' tag

soooo....stumbled on your tumblr by some stroke of fate??? read your DC fanfic first. which is PHENOMENAL btw. then found all the batmemes; the funniest thing EVER bc everyone forgets about regular old gothamites. kept scrolling and your blog pops up as recommended. clicked on the ao3 for shits and giggles and waddaya know?!?!? it's YOU!!! you're LEGEND!!!! ever seen that meme? it's a video of a cat that got into a baseball field and the two announcers get really invested in his escape attempt and start giving a play by play of the cat instead of the game. memeable moment: "GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!"

i seriously think about this ask every single day and it's so fucking funny to me that i've never seen the meme you're referencing, but i still find myself going 'GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!' whenever i see something funny. but wow i'm glad you liked this steaming pile of garbage

Fav dc character overall? And fav batfamily character?

don't ask me to pick between the loves of my life, but i can tell you i've cried about every single batfamily member and also wally west (my beloved)

What's your opinion on fans having a problem with batfam being "too big"? And some even claim that batfam is just "Bruce Alfred Dick Damian" and the rest of them are just "friends and allies" (source: reddit) Personally, I like batfam because of this reason but idk

stupid. a family can never be too big. i'm not that big a fan of like huge batfam stuff with everybody from every single universe, because as much as it's funny for bruce to have like 30 kids, it just feels a little too OOC for me.

This is the best tag I've seen involving the batfam, thanks for thinking of it

This is canon now @nctxrejects

lmao yeah i think at that point alfred has had to sit through like at least a dozen coming out talks and just has a pride flag collection in the attic that he pulls out whenever a kid comes out

idk why batfam hits different as compared to any other superhero family

bc it's found family and usually the other superhero families are almost all genetically related in one way or another

I don't know if you watch the umbrella academy but I saw your last post about batcest and saw the similarities. But the thing is (although I think it's weird) in TUA, they addressed it by saying "they were raised as weapons, not siblings" or something along those lines, which is simply not the case with batfam.

yeah i watched tua but i also thought it was ridiculous and they still treated each other as siblings so i didn't like the luthor/allison thing, and am glad they stopped doing that shit bc it fucking sucked.

Hot take: Batcest shippers are the same people who believe adopted siblings are not actual siblings

smoking hot take: batcest shippers are the people who watch 'my sister got stuck in the washing machine' porn

Duke was adopted by Bruce?

not technically no, but do i, tumblr user batarangsoundsdumb, look like i care?

True story but I had to change my freaking name because it used to be "Damien" and most people would go "OH LIKE DAMIAN WAYNE" like please I'm just tryna live

true story, but i don't actually think of damian when i hear the name damian, literally the first thing that pops up is damian darkh like bruh what?

apparently dc comics company supported comic stores by giving out new titles and stuff during the beginning of the pandemic to help them run and I just think that's wholesome

ah yeah that's so fucking cool, still don't like dc, the company, because this world is a capitalist hellhole and we're all owned by warner brothers or disney with no in between.

ayo looking at tumblr head canons and finding out bruce is actually a terrible father is a punch in the gut

lmao yes, in like 50% of comics bruce is a terrible father and it gives me whiplash

oooh I just saw the jason todd vs winter soldier post and the real question is: batman vs iron man

while iron man has like hundreds of cases of armor, batman could throw out an emp and have the guy dropping out of the sky in 2 seconds.

dickfast = fastdick = quickdick = quickie

magnum hot take

hey bata(?) just thought I'd let you know I have copied the obnoxious emoji and Billy Ray post for use on simping men going forth

thank you 😘🌷 (@spacebarsidecar)

why would you do that to your followers???? i get why i did it, but why would you???

what is scarecrow made the nightwing funko pop himself, like those diy-ers that paint over other ones

oh god no, horrible take, horrible take, that's a disgusting thought oh no

I see your HC that Bruce and Oliver fucked and raise you this: Dick and Roy ALSO fucked

yes they did and it was a horrible moment for jason to find out dick has fucked both of his best friends

"at this rate bruce adds like 1 child to his family every decade or so" Duke is introduced in 2013, Damian as Damian, not as an unnamed child, in 2006. And he is already 14 years old, Robins rarely remain Robins after 16 😬 It looks like a new Robin and Batkid will appear in a couple of years

i mean i can't wait? but somebody will probably die first tho, we're due for another major character death. my money's on either cass or duke this time.

BRO you're so right all of your Bruce's ex headcanons are amazing but they aren't ships, that's kinda wild. Like I don't want any peeks into how their relationship was I just want to see everyone make fun of them

lmao YES it's just i love bruce being a slut, like good for him.

I am in love with your posts your honour thank you

omg thanks are we like,, gonna kiss now?

The justice league needs to have a meeting to discuss how many of their members/partners have slept with bruce. Because through a combination of cannon & fannon (if DC wasn’t homophobic) we have AT LEAST: 1) clark 2) lois 3) oliver 4) dinah 5) john

Thats not counting villains or random civilians @dudelookitsalesbian

yes yes yes, they'll have a yearly meeting about how many of their collective exes could be out for revenge and batman's list just keeps getting longer.

tim was like "i'm drake now" and everyone was like ahh so your fursona is a dragon and tim was like pffffft no. ducks.

and what about it?

when steph's fighting livewire and she zaps her with lighting and nothing happens and then they both just. stand there awkwardly for a second and talk. yeah i couldn't stop laughing at that batgirl steph is the BEST

oh yeah that was fucking hilarious and i think it would be so cool and sexy of dc to give steph a little comic series,,, as a treat

Hi I absolutely adore all of yours "Bruce and Oliver very badly pretending they didn't fuck each other" memes

lmao i do too

I need you to know that “Bruce Wayne had frosted tips” is one of my favorite Bruce takes of all time it’s so galaxy brained. you’re right and you should say it

he also painted his hair blonde once when he was travelling and in conclusion, this is why he's being blackmailed by the gotham gazette.

you know my thing about gordon being branded as the only good cop in gotham is its a load of shit like arguably he's a good person and not working to screw people over or anything but the fact that he also works w. batman makes him a shit cop. like yea batman is better than the mob but its still illegal its still an abuse of power he just not making bank

babe, all cops are bad cops. (but yeah youre absolutely right, working with vigilantes makes you a shit cop, but also working against vigilantes just makes you an asshole cop yanno?)

ruh roh i think i’m about to add “so not yeehaw” every time i don’t like something

that's a very good vocabulary upgrade

somehow i feel like steph already knew. like babs obviously knew but i feel like bruce got high/drunk in front of steph and started telling his boarding school stories and steph was just like “oh you fucked up i’m never gonna forget this”

steph and bruce have weird uncle/rebellious niece dynamic and they just hang out sometimes and bruce will be like 'i once broke my arm when i tripped over a hedge when i was drunk so oliver drove me to the hospital on an electric scooter' and steph will just have to sit there with that knowledge in her head.

Hello I just wanted to tell you you are So right in all your steph opinions bc she is, in fact amazing and I think that's very sexy of you. Ps. Your Bruce/Oliver fic is hilarious

babe, thank you so much and yes steph is amazing and i love her and she deserves the world and she's the best member of the batfam hands down. also thanks

In Supersons we see a couple of kids that are implied to be Damian and Jon's children and the boy has laser eyes and can fly, so I asume he's not adopted. The girl, who calls Bruce grandpa, can also fly, btw. So it's canon (probably by accident) that Jon can have kids and he must have married one of Bruce's kids. (I'm hoping for Damian, mostly because any other of his children would be waaaaaaaaaaaaay too old.) @artemisa97

lmao that was probably an accident seeing as jon is a 17 year old superhero in the year 3000 (by the jonas brothers)

You know, I'm a die hard fan of your memes, but I gotta say one thing: if Gothamites actually took gas mask everywhere with them, then the Scarecrow would just be a weird dude in a weird costume, and not a villain oh so scary. DC really should just takes notes from you.

bold of you to assume there's no gothamite anti-maskers

How does it feel being the funniest person on this app?

horrible, next question.

I can't listen to Green Day or Billy Joel without thinking of your post about how Bruce got arrested at a Billy Joel concert @nightwings-kid

yeah that's your mistake, i on the other hand can't enjoy billy joel without thinking about the glee rendition of 'uptown girl'

I've FINALLY been watching the Batman animated series and I gotta say, after watching "the gray ghost" I am CONVINCED that Batman is a closeted super hero geek who was 100% freaking out the first time he met Superman and is just REALLY good at hiding it.

superman: so what do you do in your free time? batman, thinking about the superman fanfiction he's writing on the batcomputer: i have no free time

bruce and oliver be like boyfriends to co-workers 401k (do the justice leagues get 401ks??? not that bruce and ollie would need them, but-)

lmao yes just 400 thousand words of bruce realising 'oh dip oliver is such a fucking dumbass' (also i don't know what a 401 k is but i assume they don't?)

Gothamites would totally boo superman as he saves Gotham while batman is out. @meenje

he's like 'okay think about that next time you want to be saved from an alien octopus'

I just took long break from dc comics and I come back to see ric grayson ??

i think it's very cool and sexy of dc to see dick and just think 'you know what? let's just give him a traumatic brain injury' and then didn't develop his character in any real way

SPEAKING OF RIC GRAYSON, gothamites making confused memes out of ric grayson is much needed

'dick grayson is my taxi driver? can anyone explain what the fuck happened he looks like an italian plumber?'

i hate to say it but batfam are def "marvel characters" in that sense they are characters who are human but become superheroes unlike most dc characters who are gods trying to be human maybe this is why I like batfam

fair enough

#this is only like half of it #but at least you can get like a few answers #yanno fuck it #bataranswers #ask #asks #anon

[tuiyla]

thank you for taking the time to indulge on all of my thoughts!! you're def right in mentioning to another anon that the 4x08 piano scene deserves an analysis, bc WOW LOL.

i don’t condone how Q/S treat each other here, but what’s interesting is that each of them almost need that brutal honesty calling out their shit, and they’re one of the only ppl who can give that to each other. i headcanon that this piano scene plays even the smallest role in S leaving Kentucky and Q leaving her professor bf, because they have the power to hurt each other but they also have the power to get through to each other in ways no one else really can. at the end of the day, they hear each other - in their own bitchy, blunt language LOL.

also, hope you’re having a safe and happy holiday season! thanks for all your great analyses.

-Quinntana anon

Hi again Quinntana anon, I love that you even signed this lol.

Of course I indulge them, thank you for the same! What's the point of Glee if not remembering all the times Naya and Dianna were the strongest actors on the show.

I completely agree with your assessment. A while back there was a post on the Glee subreddit (oof) that Santana bringing up Beth in this convo was the "worst thing ever done on Glee". And I mean, I could get into why that's kinda bs and not even a top 10 worst thing Santana's ever done, much less others, but the point is that as much of a low blow it is from Santana, that is their dynamic. And like you, I don't condone it, but it does make for good TV and it just makes their relationship so compelling.

It's so amusing to me that Santana's over here, genuinely concerned by a new girl and trying to point it out to Quinn only for Q to turn around and be like "oh yeah, you're just jealous because I'm better than you and also you're an insecure little bitch haha (❁´◡`❁)" Lmao who does that? Lucy Quinn Fabray apparently. And Santana's not half shocked about it, of course she can match her right away. But that's what's so interesting that they do feed worst impulses but, like you say, need each other's honesty.

Who else would tell Quinn that she's going the rabbit hole of defining herself by a man again? Certainly not her Yale buddies. And who else would give Santana a reality check so brutal about Louisville? Not Brittany, who nudges Santana when needed but would never ever call her "a scared little girl". I think you're so right about them influencing one another. Santana is the only ch who Quinn talks about the gross prof with and I'd bet Quinn was the first (maybe only) person to confront Santana about Louisville. And when we next see them in Naked and Santana mentions New York being more her speed, I always found Quinn's expression there very interesting. It's a small moment but it's telling of how much attention Quinn pays to her. (Yes it's just Dianna yet again doing the writers' work for them, yes I can still read into it lol.)

It's too small to even screencap so here's Love Song instead aka a god tier trio.

I think it all betrays the comfort they feel with each other - why else would Santana's first reaction after the 4x08 slaps be "Quinn always was a genius slapper"? She's not even mad. They just know they can call each other out in such raw ways and still fall back into an old dynamic because, for all their rivalries, they don't have to prove anything to each other. They're so interesting in their pre-existing friendship and the power struggle yet Glee only ever gave us scraps. Cowards.

Here's an incredible promo for 4x08 though! I can't even be mad at the catfight aspect of it because it's too funny.

Always happy to hear from you Quinntana anon, I hope you're having a great time this holiday season. I'm safe and happy! Happy camper.

Here's a question for you: what would be your favourite Quinntana scene and why?

#quinntana #glee #quinn fabray #santana lopez #glee asks #i need a quinntana asks tag lol #quinntana anon #quinntana asks #my thoughts #anon #ask #anonymous

[hey-there-juliet]

Random Drabble Day (2/23)

Summary: First off, let me just say that this is more like a one-shot than a drabble because I'm a wordy bitch and I cannot control myself 😅

That said, I always had a hard time imagining Julie writing some of the Perfect Harmony's lyrics about herself, so I thought why not make this just another song that Luke and Julie wrote together? This is set somewhere between Finally Free and Edge of Great, in that week when Ray was stress-eating. This is supposed to fit back into the show at the end, so it might seem like a cliffhanger, but it's not.

Quick shout out to @jamestkirkish for betaing this for me! I love you and you are amazing! Any remaining mistakes are my own. And to the fabulous Sloan, for helping me out with Luke's handwriting! Enjoy 🧡

Fandom: Julie and the Phantoms

Relationship: Juke 💜

in the great scheme of life and ghosts

No matter how many times Luke insisted that she had been snooping through his things, Julie knew for a fact that she had done no such thing. In reality, she had simply been cleaning the studio when she came across it.

For three ghosts who didn't eat and could barely even touch anything most of the time, the boys sure knew how to make a mess. Every morning Julie would walk into the studio to find the chairs or coffee table rearranged, at least one of the rugs was always askew, and the clothes... the clothes were everywhere, and the worst part was: they reeked. 

And so every morning before leaving for school Julie would shoot them a stern look and tell them to pick up after themselves. Which they did - when she got back home, things were mostly in their rightful place. Still, every weekend Julie would make sure to take a moment away from homework and rehearsal to tidy the place up to perfection, just like her mom liked it. She'd dust off the furniture, water the plants, sweep the floor, and even vacuum the whole place. One Saturday when she was home alone (her dad photographing a wedding, and Carlos at a friend's house), she even went through the trouble of washing all of the guys' old clothes. 

Somehow, and she didn't even want to think about how that worked, the clothes didn't stink when they were actually wearing them, but at any other moment when they made no contact with their skin? Yeah... not good. So she washed them all (three times, using every trick and product she had). She washed them a fourth time for good measure and, by the time she was finished, any traces of twenty-five year old mold was gone, and so was the smell.

So no, she was not snooping - no matter what Luke said - when she came across the crumpled paper ball between the couch and the low cabinet, just behind a big vase her mom had gotten from tía Victoria.

Julie sighed, making a mental note to tell Luke to put his discarded ideas in the bin (again) if he didn't want them anymore, when one scribbled and wrinkled word caught her attention: Perfect Ha-

She bit her lip, staring down at the teasing word. Perfect what? Was it lyrics? Maybe half formed ideas? Doodles? Julie knew Luke liked to doodle in the margins of his notebook whenever he got stuck trying to come up with the next best piece of lyric or melody. She also knew she should probably just leave it alone, put it with his stuff to ask him later if he wanted to keep it, or put it in the garbage. Except the more she glanced down at that damn word, the stronger she felt it pull her towards uncovering whatever else the crumpled paper ball was hiding. 

In the end, the pull was too strong. She'd just take a quick look, make sure it wasn't anything important before she threw it away. And, she reasoned with herself, trying to squish the guilt that was making itself known in the pit of her stomach: Luke had gotten rid of it, so he clearly didn't care much for whatever was in there. 

Not able to resist any longer, Julie carefully unfolded the paper, slowly making her way towards the piano and using its surface as a table to help smooth the page over.

Luke's (horrendous) handwriting covered it with the bare bones of a song, random lines were scribbled in the margins with a couple of doodles for company, and even a little note from their bassist - ‘Reggie was here ;)’.

It took her a minute before the chicken scratches became words, and then Julie's breath left her in a rush, as the guilty feeling in her stomach turned into butterflies and flew away with her imagination. 

It was a song, parts of one, anyway, and - more importantly - it was a love song.

Unprompted, her own words came back to her, "Wow, Luke! I didn't know you were such a romantic." Quickly followed by Alex's short reply, "He's not."

She knew now who Unsaid Emily was really about, but these new words were clearly about a different kind of love. The romantic kind, and Julie couldn't help letting herself believe - just for a moment - that the song might be about her.

Before she could let herself be carried away in a daydream, there was a - now familiar - shift in the air, a sound almost like static, the only thing letting her know of a ghost's appearance. Without a thought, she crumpled the page again and shoved the paper ball in her pocket for later inspection. 

"Hey, Julie!" Reggie's cheerful greeting sounded across the studio from where he had poofed in, and soon - with his "help," bless him - Julie was finished with her weekend clean up. 

As if summoned by the end of her chores, Luke poofed in, ready to rehearse. Alex soon followed; and by the time Julie retired for the night, the song had been almost forgotten where it hid inside her pocket. 

Almost.

***

After getting ready for the night, Julie settled on her bed with the wrinkled page and her dreambox. She read over the words again and again, imagining they were about her.

Step into my world, 

Bittersweet love story about a girl 

Shook me to the core 

Voice like an angel, 

I've never heard before, 

- 

You and me together, it's more than chemistry 

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Love me as I am 

I hold your music 

Here inside my hands 

- 

You are my brightest burning star 

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We create Perfect Harmony.

And unless Luke had been singing with another girl, there didn't seem to be many options on who it could be about, right?

From the beginning, Julie had felt something connecting her to him; to all of them, in different ways. But Luke had been the one to give her a little piece of his soul right after meeting her when he let her use Bright to earn back her spot in the music program. Seeing his passion reflecting back on her, the way he treated music like she used to, made her miss it more than anything for the first time in almost a year. It made her miss the way it felt to use music to connect with her mom.

After they spent a whole weekend finishing each other's songs and working on new ones, getting to know each other's inner workings - the part of them that bled out feelings into paper to create beautiful melodies, Julie knew she was a goner. Finding out he'd been the one to write the words that shaped her taste in rock certainly didn't help. Like he'd been helping her find her way to music long before they even met.

Her crush on him had been inevitable from the start, and while falling for him was probably one of the worst things she could’ve done, it was too late to stop it. She'd been free falling for a while, and hopefully she'd land in his arms soon enough. Reading over his words again gave Julie a warm fluttering in her stomach that made her think he was more than ready to catch her once she reached the ground. 

Carefully folding the piece of paper, she put it inside her dreambox, then placed the box back on the shelf.

***

The following week went by without any hiccups. Every once in a while, Julie would remember Luke's song and a familiar warmth would fill her up, leaving a soft smile on her lips and glazed eyes staring off at nothing. Just as often, Flynn would have to shake her out of her daydreams.

She didn't think much would come of it until her dad decided to throw the band a party so he could film them and post their video on YouTube. Which was fine. Amazing, even. It was most certainly great! Until Luke came to the school, staring at her with his stupid, beautiful, awed eyes, and with his soft, perfect smile, saying things that made her combust and melt, all at the same time.

"I think you make me a better writer." 

    "I think we make each other better."

Calling Nick 'Luke' was bad enough, but slipping into a complete musical sequence as she danced with him? "Goner" didn't even begin to describe her. 

Like the other times they'd written together, the lyrics flowed through her, finishing the song he'd started with the same ease as one would take a breath.

Julie knew that whatever was going on between her and Luke couldn't happen or, if it did, it couldn't last. In fact, in the great scheme of life and ghosts, she didn't know much, but what she did know was that - be it in life or in death - love was constant. 

He didn't need to have a heartbeat or to be able to touch her for her to love him. He was just as real to her as the next person, and whether it would hurt in the long run or not, it didn't matter. 

She knew Flynn was only looking out for her, but that ship had sailed, and Julie was already so lost in his ocean eyes that avoiding eye contact wasn't going to bring it back. She would entertain her though, even knowing it wouldn't work. Just like the tide, eventually he'd pull her right back in.

She could love him just as he was, for however long they had together, and especially after that.

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End notes: I hope you guys enjoyed it! And, if you'll notice, at the beginning it kind of gives off the impression that Luke eventually finds out about the song and Julie tells him how she found it. Which may or may not lead you to believe that they're in a relationship. I guess it all depends on interpretation though ;)

Oh, also! Shout out to the chaos squad folks that guessed right! You guys are no fun :( /j lmao

#RDD #23 by 23 challenge #fanfic #mine #jatp #jatp fic #julie and the phantoms #julie molina #luke patterson #juke #jukebox #julie x luke #fic recs

[lutiaskokopelli]

(directed at you, not the characters) so i found tfs today and have now read the whole comic and all the lore explanations and can i just say... wow. everything about it is absolutely amazing. i may just not have been looking in the right places, but i’ve never seen a fan-story quite like this one. i’ve read plenty of fan-comics and seen plenty of ask blogs, of course, but none that merge the two like this. and boy, is this done well. i can tell how much effort you must have put into crafting this plot, and love the balance of humour and seriousness you’ve found. the way you draw the action scenes (and everything else) is stunning, and your characterisation is fantastic. i could gush about this for pages and pages but it would ultimately boil down to: tfs is great and thank you so much for making it. and by the way, this is all from someone who usually doesn’t read/like self-insert type things. maybe i’ll have to give them another go, if they can be as great as this one. anyway, i hope youre having a fantastic day/night, and remember to stay hydrated!

After so long, finally I can answer. I’m so sorry your wholesome ask stayed in my inbox for so long, the past week was kinda hectic and I absolutely wanted to take time to answer you properly :’)

Anyway, that being said... Thank you. So, so much! First off, reading all the lore posts as well as the comic itself takes some dedication! I know I posted a few links in the AO3 version of the comic, but apart from the two must-read rule posts I gave separate links for, I didn't really expect readers to be like me and binge-read the entirety of the blog besides just the story itself, haha.

Thanks for your compliments on the comic! I doubt TFS is as unique as you think -- ask blogs with a plot are far more common than I initially thought (if you’re familiar with the Henry Stickmin games, then I highly recommend that you also take a look at Ending the Cycle), and the base concept of TFS is based off any of the countless Nuzlocke fanfics/comics that have been made in the Pokémon fandom. But as far as I know, it's the only one of its kind in the Hollow Knight fandom at least! Its concept and writing is not to everyone's taste, as is any story in general, but I'm glad and extremely thankful that it can still bring joy, laughs and feelz to so many readers.

The effort is in it, true, but I'll maintain that what makes the core of TFS' "talent/uniqueness"(?), besides just me being passionate and dedicated, is most of all a whole lot of experience -- especially when it comes to finding the right balance between humor and angst/seriousness. I've written stories online for a bit more than a decade by now, counting at least four full-fledged, so-long-and-plot-heavy-they-could-have-ten-seasons-and-a-movie-on-Netflix stories, of which TFS is the fourth and last to date (also out of those four, only the first was completed, whoops (and even then I wanted to rewrite it but the remastered version only covered the first half of the series). TFS is still ongoing, and the other two were just too plot-heavy even for me to handle lmao). So all that to say, I had all that time to figure out exactly what ambience I want for my stories, experiment here and there (especially in writing, in many of my older fanfics I would write some specific chapters by adding some rules or trying new things such as writing from an unexpected POV and such), until I found the balance I wanted -- and the best ways to break it every now and then, just to throw off my readers. Don't get too comfy in there, a few times in the past I had some readers tell me that my writing made them literally fall off their chairs :p

Funny story, I have a lot more confidence in my writing than in my drawing skills for some reason, even while English isn't even my native language xD Probably because it's hard to spot anatomy errors in writing, haha. But thanks! I'm starting to like my drawing style and I'm seeing my progress every now and then, so with that and the fact that drawing characters doing funny and/or epic stuff is highly satisfying, I'm having a blast writing/drawing TFS!

And lastly, I feel you a LOT on the "I'm someone who usually doesn't read/like self-insert type things", as I used to be / still kinda am one myself! Then again, it's just hard for me to find stuff I can read/watch and enjoy without having my inner critic go around and spot out every trope in general, of which the “self-insert” genre is just one out of so many. Seeing a trope that is done well and/or in a surprising way is incredibly satisfying to read, that's when you have me cheering; but when it’s used “raw” with little to no self-awareness of it being a trope and how this trope can be used, it becomes frustrating, or even infuriating at times, especially when it renders the story predictable. (Worst case scenario has both: tropes are used badly and at such consistent rate that just by seeing one small hint, one split-second later you've already predicted exactly what is going to happen if this trope too follows the same bad writing logic as the previous ones, and then when it lands exactly as predicted it's just the worst. I don't want to throw any punches for gratuitous violence, but... The one event when this exact scenario happened wasn't a fanfiction/fancomic. It was the SU movie, at the very least up until the last fifteen minutes or so.)

TL;DR, Tropes Are Tools, they aren't inherently good or bad to use -- the way they are used is what makes them work or fail in a given context. Self-Inserts are notoriously bad because 90% if not all self-insert stories come from a self-indulgent story about yourself by definition, and I’d be hypocritical if I dared pretend that TFS didn’t start like one as well (at the very least, my other heavily meta fanstory Learn When to Quit is even more heavily Self-Insert based due to its plot and themes). Sadly, a majority of the authors of those stories want to keep the self-indulgent part (or don’t have the heart to remove it, it’s usually the latter) without adding any twist to it, or by adding twists to it that only make it even more self-indulgent, I guess.

I think that what would make both of my Self-Insert-character-turned-OCs work ("work” being a subjective term, very little things in fiction can work for every single reader on the planet), is that I was able to separate them from myself early enough and turn them into actual characters who can sometimes or oftentimes disagree with me as a person -- it’s usually easier to be less lenient on what insane stuff is thrown at a character if that character isn’t you personally, after all (despite how I pacifistic I am in nature and how I’d never dare do any of the things I do to my characters to actual people. I only ever have bad stuff happen to my characters because the plot needs it and (sometimes) because a point needs to be made). Once the Self-Insert-character-turned-OC is given the exact same treatment as any other character in the story, and now that they don’t take all the spotlight, it leaves enough space for what I actually want to talk about within those stories. Short version: if the Self-Insert character is treated like a random NPC with a “somewhat unusual backstory” instead of like “the One who knows everything about this world’s past, present and future and has the Infinite Benevolence to Solve Every Problem”, it gives more space for the other NPCs to exist and interact on equal terms, and it gives more space for actual plot stuff to occur normally. To me, the biggest trait an author needs to tone down the most in a Self-Insert character is just how much knowledge they have over the world they’re in. If the SI character knows everything about the videogame and has too little too many “lucky guesses” regarding headcanons the author has that occur in the story but didn’t show up in the game, you know you’re doing something wrong -- there’s no room for error, therefore no room for proper plot, if the SI character knows so much they can play detective and predict everything. My two takes to solve this “omniscient SI character” problem are to either 1) have the SI character be relatively new to the fandom -- they know the basics, but can still remember stuff wrong or don’t know everything to every detail; it helps a lot when the fandom’s canon content, like in Hollow Knight, is vague enough to let a lot of room for interpretation, because in that case, even if the SI character were to know “everything” regarding the fandom canon, what if they just so happened to have interpreted a few things the wrong way just because they weren’t on the “right” side of the fandom’s debate? The other option, which is a bit less appealing to me but not too uninteresting either: 2) the videogame’s world is uncannily close to what is depicted in the videogame the SI character knows, but too little too different to have the SI character assume things based on the videogame they know, only to make fatal mistakes. I used this in my Undertale fanfic Learn When to Quit because the simple fact of trying to implement functioning laws of physics out of a videogame where NPCs have videogame stats and having turn-based fights is bound to create quite a few discrepancies with the “100% canon videogame lore”; luckily, the Uncanny Valley effect was exactly what I was going for in this fanfic.

To the factual “SI character has played the game and therefore knows everything about this videogame world’s past, present and future” trait of the SI character, I’d also like to add the thankfully often tackled well (to an extent) moral trait of the, let’s say, “hard truth” that is at the core of these SI stories: ”the videogame and its characters are actually real." It’s a simple sentence to say, but usually has very deep and harsh consequences morality-wise within the stories: unintentional(?) voyeurism is the one that is probably common to every fandom subject to Self-Insert stories. Now, I’d have little to say about this one because at least half of the SI stories I know do tackle it according to the author’s level of maturity (I obviously won’t expect a 13-year-old author writing their first fanfic to write essays about existential crisis material); but the one criticism I usually keep in mind is that in most cases, only one or two characters will ever discuss the topic in-depth, while the other characters either aren’t aware of this Hard Truth, ignore the topic, or in the worst cases, somehow, use this Hard Truth in some way to be mean to SI character so that the other NPC can support them. (Just throwing a wild guess as to the identity of the two characters who will talk most about this Hard Truth: Self-Insert character and the one Videogame NPC the author happens to have chosen as their favorite character. Heck, I’m calling myself out right now because TFS starts out basically with that lmao, what with Player being the obvious one and Quirrel being my favorite HK character xD (as well as an “asker favorite”, quoting one asker in person word for word).)

If you’d like, I can give a few more details on each story separately so you can have more down-to-earth examples to the theoretical stuff I’ve said so far, and to contrast how two Self-Insert stories can tackle things in a variety of ways and have plots that are nothing alike despite the original concept ”Player gets stuck inside Videogame world against their will" being exactly the same to the letter:

For the Undertale fanfic Learn When to Quit, I’ve mostly been trying (emphasis on “trying”) to do a Deconstruction of your classic "player gets trapped inside videogame” story, by focusing on how the Player’s world interacts with the Videogame’s world. Where most of these stories will go “hehe and now Self-Insert plays with the characters and saves the world and then everybody is happy, Self-Insert doesn’t miss reality all that much after all”, LWtQ chooses the different take to at least have the Self-Insert character still try to contact her family and wish to go home, and on the other side the player’s family is actually depicted trying to look for their missing child. As it turns out, the player character was kidnapped by a character from the videogame, and since the player disappeared suddenly and against their will: the player has reasons to want to go home and be apprehensive towards the videogame world (and the Uncanny Valley effect I talked about earlier only enhances the SI character’s distress and distrust over the videogame’s world and inhabitants, which by itself generates a sub-plot that isn’t just your typical cheap quiproquo because the readers themselves are led to question whether or not they can trust the videogame world); the family and friends are insanely worried, therefore the police is involved and tries to investigate; and the videogame character who kidnapped the player in the first place is overwhelmed because they didn’t anticipate many of the consequences to their actions, due to their limited knowledge of how the player’s world works. I won’t pretend that LWtQ is the only fic that ever did/will do that, but out of all the fanfics I’ve ever read so far, there’s only two others I can remember that gave some screen time to the SI character’s relatives/friends in a similar situation, if at all. And on top of that: the story focuses not on just one (1) SI character; sure, only one ends up in the videogame world, but there’s still a dozen who all interact and know each other as well as the SI character who disappeared, and each of these player characters have their own families and friends and have their own separate lives apart from the videogame. Throughout the story, many characters from both the player’s world and the videogame’s world are eventually destined to face the same Hard Truth (”the videogame and its characters are actually real" / “In another world, our universe is just a videogame and the reason why we have a genocidal human problem is because the ones who play the game are kids who have no idea what they’re doing”), truth to which they all react in vastly different ways-- all of which are (hopefully) reactions real people would have if they were in the respective characters’ situation.

In TFS, I put a lot less thought behind the whole SI problem, namely because I had far less ambitions on this comic than I did on LWtQ -- heck, it just started as a parody with little to no plot besides my notes on how the original playthrough went, the only reason I started this comic was because I wanted to draw a comic but didn’t want to bother with a complex plot, for a change. So I guess that what makes the SI character work anyway is the fact that I was able relatively fast to shift the focus of the story on other characters besides just the Player, through the excuse of letting the readers interact with some other NPCs as well, without the Player being present or even aware of it. The Hard Truth “the videogame and its characters are actually real” is only known by one side (Player and the readers/askers) and isn’t shared by the bugs (yet?), so it isn’t given as much focus as, simply, the interactions between characters and the readers, and between the characters themselves. On top of that, this Hard Truth isn’t even applied the same way as in the UT fanfic: in LWtQ, the fact that players played Undertale had actual consequences in the LWtQ version of the Underground (aka killing a random pixelated NPC on your PC actually kills a real monster in the LWtQ version of the Underground), and on top of that a number of Undertale characters already know that the videogame exists as soon as the fanfic starts -- hence lots of meta talks, angst and many, many moral/existential crises (as well as memes, of course. Always.); in TFS, Hallownest is just Hallownest and the videogame is just a videogame, and both exist within the same multiverse simply because of the stupid reason “What is a coincidence among the infinity of the multiverse?” (the bad math transcription would be “what is zero times infinity? Depending on the infinity you choose, I guess it can give you a probability of 100%”). It doesn’t mean that TFS won’t also have the Hallownest bugs also learn about the videogame and possibly have some existential crisis material to some extent, especially given the asks Quirrel has been getting; but it just isn’t nearly as much the core of the plot as it was in LWtQ. In TFS, the core of the plot is... wait, sorry, what plot again? (oh yeah right there’s a lot of questions to answer, but that’s just backstory and worldbuilding, that’s not a plot)

Anyway I kept adding digression to digression because I wanted to tackle every point you made, and I’m so sorry that the end turned into an essay about Self-Insert stories fjkdlsmqjgklmjgksdqlm

But the core of the message is a big THANK YOU! TFS may be great because of my hard work and past experiences with other stories that came before it, but it wouldn't be even half as great if I didn't have all of you guys backing me up with constant asks, most of which renew both my interest in making the story and my capability to jump off any opportunity to bring out new plot ideas within minutes! TFS is my first real ask blog, so with your wholesome participation combined with my experience as the plotter type of author (read "I will not write a single line of text in this fanfic before I haven't first figured out to the letter how the plot goes from start to end" type of author), it's bound to be an interesting cocktail! I've been learning to plot faster, more efficiently, and to accept to delete at least some ideas if they happen to become obsolete. All in all, I see this as some great teamwork! And for that, I want to send y'all a big applause and a ton of thank-yous <3

#the5thsave #asks #ask

[mod2amaryllis]

I'm sure you've received this question a hundred times but do you have some tips for training a deaf puppy? Thank you and sorry to bother you

OK YEAH SO definitely don’t consider training to be an area of expertise but Goose turned out decent so here are some things:

first thing: make sure you’re prioritizing just like, approaching it as A Puppy, and puppies are hard as a baseline. find a class to join for basics if your dog does well in a class setting (my area had a free puppy class option that worked great for Goose, look into it, but I DO think this is something worth spending money on if you have to). then my most recommended puppy literature is: Social, Civil, and Savvy: Training & Socializing Puppies to Become the Best Possible Dogs. it’s almost impossible for me to pay attention to nonfiction books and a lot of dog training books are really crunchy technical, but this book is super short, lots of pictures, big text, straightforward. I had an easy time absorbing it and the stuff works. awesome awesome training guide. also a good podcast is Drinking From the Toilet, which has had specific puppy and deaf training eps

AND BLANKET STATEMENT: socializing is just in general the most important thing for a puppy. like exposing them to new things. expose them to all types of people, all types of animals, all types of situations, all types of floors rooms buildings grass discomforts yadda yadda yadda this is JUST as important for a deaf puppy. blanket ass statement.

NOW FOR SOME DEAF DOG SPECIFIC STUFF

general stuff before I share personal observations: resources I turned to the most were probably Deaf Dogs Rock (awesome equipment recs, so many anecdotes from owners w/ specific advice) and Keller’s Cause (neat little training videos)

ok now personal experience

in the context of training it was helpful for me to think of deafness more as just another attribute as opposed to a disability. like how being a mini aussie makes her creepy-smart, being deaf makes her: not hear (obviously), highly observant, potentially more confident in situations that might intimidate hearing dogs, easily startled, dependent on passive training as opposed to command training. basically it’s not a hurdle. it forces you to be creative and work within her attributes. just like with literally any other dog.

obviously you will use signing. I don’t use ASL, I come up with whatever is intuitive for Goose and me. early training feels like you need 3 hands cuz you’re giving treats, you’re signaling “good job,” you’re signing commands, you’re maybe holding a leash, it’s a lot. so my signs had to be with 1 hand, they had to be intuitive, they had to be distinct from one another to avoid confusion. a few examples: SIT is a closed fist (I feel like most people already do this with their dogs); TOUCH is two fingers offered; LAY DOWN is those two fingers being lowered to the floor; SPEAK is a hand being opened rapidly. I have more but you get the picture. I actually have a notebook where I’d doodle commands as I went cuz I was literally just flying by the seat of my pants lmao

passive training has been clutch. this is kennel training, car training, leash training, basically establishing her life routine (idk if it’s actually called passive training??? i’m sure it all falls under “”””socializing”””” but that’s such a huge umbrella). these areas can be difficult to settle into but they really are essential. I don’t have car advice cuz my dogs drive w/ me to work every day and are fine so IDK WHOOPS but:

leash training: with goose being deaf it was weird because the trainer I worked with was heavily reliant on voice commands. so I put a LOT of time into the loose-leash game, which is walking on a leash in the house, and every few steps, you give the dog a treat AT YOUR SIDE. like hold your hand right by your leg. basically the idea is to teach your dog it’s cool and fun to stay by your side and check in with you every now and then. Goose still pulls on her leash but in a manageable way, and she knows to check back with me. also definitely rec a halter. this one’s my favorite.

kennel/sleep training (gonna spend a lot of time on this one cuz it was/is the worst thing about Goose): listen. this one will be hard. this one’s gonna suck. you will be SO tempted to just let them in your bed but you really, REALLY should not. letting them in the bed can foster separation anxiety especially with a deaf dog who’s probably gonna become your shadow. kennels instill confidence by giving a dog their own space, and if ever there’s an emergency when they need to go in the kennel, it’ll help them feel safe. like there’s so many reasons to kennel train. you gotta do it.

so...as a baby, Goose like almost killed me with sleep deprivation. we initially didn’t think we’d keep her (haha hubris) so she slept out of the bedroom. And Screamed. the ultimate solution was bringing her kennel in the bedroom next to Joanie’s kennel, and we’re pretty sure the reason that solved it is because she could wake up and SEE that there was another dog there. now she loves her kennel. shoots in there every night demanding her pb kong. BUT YEAH LISTEN if you DON’T HAVE some comforting visual/kinetic reassurance there, this could be a problem for a deaf puppy. AND. AND. the problem hasn’t gone away completely. Goose wakes us up at 5:30 am every single morning and probably will for the rest of her life because THAT is her routine and she is immune to our angry tired yelling. the simple act of us going to her kennel reinforces the behavior. we’re not jerks about it cuz we love her and understand how dog brains work. This Could Happen To You. Heads Up.

POSSIBLE SOLUTIONS: big sister dog like Joanie, worked for us; a floor fan creating vibrations, seemed to help her as a very young kiddo; being at least IN VIEW of you sleeping, like having the kennel riiiiight next to the bed, even within arm’s reach so you can reassure the puppy you’re still there. just...both in personal experience and in my research, I saw it a lot that sleeping is a big issue. cuz they can’t hear you, it’s dark, they don’t know if you’re still there, and committing to STILL attempting kennel training is the harder thing to do, but I really, really encourage you to try.

WOW. ok. fuck off I typed way more than I meant to. wanna hear some funny stuff?

Goose follows us around everywhere. she simply must know what’s goin on. we have beds stationed at every visual corner of the house, like sentry posts, so whatever room we’re in there’s a comfy place for her to sit where she can see us and she takes advantage of it. like she could be sleeping in one room and I’ll get up to brush my teeth, suddenly look down and she’s just teleported already asleep in the nearest bed to me.

sometimes Goose knocks on the door to come inside, and I’ll go to the door to let her in, and at literally the nanosecond before I open the door she dog-shrugs and turns and trots away and there’s nothing I can do. can’t call out to her. I’m bamboozled.

she is so fucking loud. I remember when she was a baby and my sis in law was like “wow so I bet she’s quieter than normal dogs huh” and I laughed like no actually she sounds like a rubber chicken going for that 4 chair turn on the voice, at ALL times.

sometimes I’ll do the speak command and she’ll do this huge windup, like big breath, eyes wide, and then release what is essentially a very little hiccup. but i still have to give her the treat. she doesn’t know the difference, not really.

always delighted to be woken up by you, wiggles her feet and starts licking her lips and looking up at you like “!!!! hello!!! omg!!! wow!!! a delight!!!”

doesn’t know the cats don’t like her. will trot up to Frisk and give what is in her mind a very polite little kiss on her nose before trotting away, oblivious to the offended growl she’s just elicited.

MUST BE PET. HOW ELSE WILL SHE KNOW SHE IS LOVED. MUST BE PET AT ALL TIMES NOW EVERYWHERE PLEASE.

...

realizing i could write a book about how much i love this deaf fucker

#dogs #dog training #deaf dog #goose #m2a #m2answers #long post #holy shit that's a lot lmao sorry #got carried away #i love it when people ask about my animals dude #i'm that parent who's ready to whip out the family album at any given moment #just say the word #like i could talk at length about any of them!!!!! #goose is just the most interesting in a public forum lmao

[saturnsorbits]

I have been meaning to send this for ages. I always talk myself out of it, cause I am afraid it's going to come out as trying to pressure you, so I want to make sure that you know that it's not like that at all. I just really want to tell you how much I love your Before Number One series. ♥

I first discovered it back when you were posting it, can't remember if it was here or on ao3. And I didn't realize it was meant to be a multiparter (cause I usually wait until those are complete before I start them), and I clicked on it.

I'm so so glad I did. I loved everything about it. Let's get this out of the way first, the smut was superb. Reader's personality is great, I personally really enjoy hero!readers, and it was nice seeing one. Love your Bakugo characterization, it's the perfect balance between still rough and 'mean', but more grown up and mature, IMO. Loved the dynamics between them, the friendly banter, the back and forth... and the pining, the very palpable unfulfilled love.

I just went and reread ch1 on ao3 because talking about it made me crave it, and it made me tear up a bit. Bakugo being a stubborn ass (with reasonable concerns, sure, but a stubborn ass regardless) and getting in the way of his own happiness is killing me in several different ways.

And then I forced myself to go to ch2, because I needed a bit of serotonin in my life and I remembered the interview scene from the very beginning was precious. And it was, it made me laugh out loud and I loved it all over again - it was as if it was the first time reading it. And then I read a bit more (surely it couldn't hurt, right?) and I got to the bit in reader's kitchen, and my chest just got so so tight. :( And then I made the mistake to ALMOST make it into the smut again, but I don't think I can handle being sad and turned on at the same time, so I am putting it on hold for now. Because I know what's coming and like. The ending of this chapter made me feel everything and I am not ready for that right now. So I closed out of the tab before I start crying again and took a deep breath, and came back to finish this message lmao.

So yes, in short. I love your story. Been in love with it since I came across it back then and I really wanted to tell you how perfect it is, and how much it has made me feel. I was planning to wait until you finished it (because as I said at the start, I didn't want it to sound like I am trying to put pressure on you to continue the series or anything), but I saw you got an ask about it a few days ago and you said it means a lot to you when people like that story and like. I HAVE FEELINGS ABOUT THAT STORY, OKAY? a lot of them, as you can see.

Thank you, Saturn, for crafting such a beautiful story and sharing it with us. ♥

Oh, wow. Okay. So this made me feel things.

Words can’t explain how much it means to me that you A) Liked the story and B) Took time out of your day to send me this… It’s honestly every writers dream ask and I am every shade of overjoyed! ☺️

Honestly, that little story has been through so much it’s a bit of a relief to know that people enjoy it as much as I do. I do plan on continuing with it - mostly because I just live for the pain in the alternate ending - but Bakugo is fighting me on a few things, so I’m trying to find a work around that doesn’t include writing a hideous amount of updates, but provides him with the right motivation to get him to do what I need him to do. You’re right, he’s a stubborn fucker 🤣

But, I could talk about that all day. What I really want to say is thank you, from the bottom of my heart. It’s comments like this that fuel people and it’s safe to say you’ve made this little gremlin very happy today…

I hope you have the best day imaginable 💕

#I’ve stared at this ask all morning because it just made me feel all warm inside… #It’s an honour that you took time of you day to send this in - I 💕 #And It’s made me want to repost Before Number One again 🤔 #Maybe I’ll do it. #Thanks again; It really does mean A LOT. #saturnspeaks

[doctapuella]

39, 44, and 46 for the music asks!

39. Top 10 favorite songs of all time?

um wow this is unreasonably cruel to ask but i'm going to do my best not to overthink!!!! it's def not going to be of all time but faves right now because suddenly my brain is like "you've never heard songs in your life"

slang - def leppard carpe diem - andy timmons emerald - thin lizzy cherry cherry - danger danger tear it down - def leppard bang a gong (get it on) - t rex so damn pretty (should be against the law) - warrant you could be mine - gnr take me i'm yours - cheap trick hot love - t rex

44. Bands you think are overrated?

idk, i tend not to think in these terms, because i know that people have different tastes and maybe i think someone is overrated but it's just that they're not for me. nothing good can come from me answering this lmao

46. How did you get into your favorite band?

hmmmm well i've got two so:

danger danger was like a total accident. i heard the song "bang bang" on some youtube compilation of "here are some hair metal songs' or something, and i really liked it, and remembered it bc of the repetition. then i heard "naughty naughty" on the radio, and again the repetition caught my brain (i realize that i have now mentioned all 3 songs with repeated titles but i swear they aren't all like that) and later when i got home i looked them up and never looked back. and then i didn't shut up about them for MONTHS and i have all these sad little posts on my blog that nobody saw until morgan got on board lmao. (sad because this was right around the time my mom was dying and i super used the band as a crutch during that time, and it's probably part of why i have such intense protective feelings about them)

def leppard was, like, extremely the opposite. i was super resistant to getting into them for some reason? (maybe i thought they were in that overrated sort of category.) then there was a post going around where it was like "tag with your def leppard song" and literally i was just jealous that everyone had a fave and i didn't know enough lmao. so i begged my local dl queen @shelickedthebeater to tell me what song i should listen to, and she gave me a couple. i loved them. i asked who she thought my fave would be and she didn't know (which never happens) and so i said "well, fuck, i'm gonna get into them just to fuck with you then. tell me what videos to start with" and then once i convinced her i was serious, i spent a whole night binging videos and then the next day binging concerts and then i stopped asking for recs and started clicking on every single thing i could see because i don't know how to do things halfway and now i can barely stop thinking about them because they just do great things to my brain. i've only been into them for a couple months but it's been an intense couple months whoops

#morgan if u read this (which u will bc i tagged u) #i need you to know how intensely happy it makes me that we got each other obsessed w our fave bands #*paul rudd voice* look at us #long post #inbox things #thank you for the questions riff!!!!!!! #even after you sent me into a spiral w that jackyl ask <3

[kachulein]

Oof, I once had a lowkey panik when the post tracker thing had a wrong delivery address on it for some reason adn I was stressed tf out for my poor album on whether I would have to go get it from some far South city sjdhd 💀💀 post offices pls

And yeah, it was such a chill time adn all the games and such were fun will also apologize for all the tag games my dumbass adhd brain forgot to do lmao

Aaa mainly skz and ateez, since those two are the only ones i probably keep up with anymore 😅 I faintly remember skz releasing an album some time ago and having some questionable drama again but that's pretty much it sjshs

Oh my god, I would've panicked as well if that had happened to me- How did it go? Were they able to deliver the album to you despite the wrong address?😭😭

Aww it's fine, tbh, I also forgot tags here and there🤚🏻😭 but yes, it was really cool, we were all just vibing😌

Ooof,, you're right with that!! Stray Kids did release a new album called NOEASY. The title track Thunderous is amazing, it honestly was a "love at first listen" moment for me and the mv with the traditional scenery and props and all was so cool. The whole album is amazing though, I can highly recommend looking into the songs. I especially love Domino, but also songs like Cheese and Ssick are a m a z i n g. They also did unit songs; Bang Chan and Hyunjin with Red Lights, Changbin, Felix, and Minho with Surfin', and Jisung, Seungmin, and Jeongin with Gone Away. Now, I am not kidding when I tell you Red Lights made me her bitch. That song is fantastic. They released an mv for all the unit songs (as well as for Cheese and The View) but holy shit, Red Lights is so dark and edgy👀 and I mean the lyrics too- just, wow.

I mean, this is the thumbnail and if that does already give the vibe of the song away, idk either🤭😂

On another note, Hyunjin also released another choreography video back when he still had his long hair (rip, you'll be deeply missed) and I also love that he's sharing his art with us on Instagram these days!!

As for the drama, I haven't really kept up with that, tbh, so I'm not sure if I have the right incident in mind or whether something else has happened again💀

But on a more positive note, Stray Kids also released the Japanese single Scars and it's really amazing too!! And they're also currently releasing vlogs again🥺👉🏼👈🏼

Anyway, Ateez actually came back with a mini album in September!! They released Zero: Fever Part. 3 with Deja Vu and Eternal Sunshine as the two title tracks. And oh my lord, if I say this is Yeosang's era, I really mean it. The hair?? the crop tops?? and just everything is *chef's kiss*. Seonghwa also has longer hair at the moment and it looks amazing.🤧 Deja Vu is a huge bop, another "love at first listen" moment and Eternal Sunshine is great, too!! They also released the Japanese song Dreamers earlier this year which is also a great song. Mingi is back and glowing as well!!🤧

#oh and btw you reblogged something from me a while ago and said you didn't know who the guy was but need this outfit for one of your oc's #that guy was eric from the boyz #i can highly recommend checking them out if you're interested #they're such an amazing group and are having a comeback with maverick on november 1st^-^ #ask #lovely mooties💞 #littlefallenrebel🖤