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I hate the agony that i feel in my own body i just want to rip my skin off

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I hate the question where do you see yourself in 5 years like bro fucking dead next question thanks

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do i masturbate or self harm? these are life’s greatest questions.

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I need to get better

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I really wish my mom would have had an abortion rather than make me have to reverse 17 years of trauma but I guess you don’t always get what you want.

#i dont wanna be here #fuck my life #twsh #sh vent #tw #tw abuse #tw depressing stuff #narcissisticabuserecovery

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I feel like I’m drowning again. I’m falling back into old, bad habits, losing motivation to do anything again and my self esteem has gone completely out the window. I’m not sure how to survive this time.

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trying so, so desperately to heal my trauma.

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you hate the way you look.

You feel like you’re slowly fading into nothing.

You feeling like no one understands you. 

You feel like you cant talk to/ trust anyone.

You hate food.

you’ve ever been called fat by a family member or friend.

You want to disappear.

You want all of the fat on your body to just melt off.

Your embarrassed of your weight.

Currently fasting.

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Why the fuck can’t I be happy?

I fucking hate it when you tell someone abut your depression and they respond with “just exercise more” or “Get out of the house more”. Its a lot harder than that. I try every damn day to make sure everyone thinks im perfectly happy when in reality I want to die. I work out and run all the time, not because i want to but because my eating disorder and dysphoria. And I can’t say anything to them because they always get offended and frustrated, well fuck you. Im sorry my mental health isn't up to your standards and you think you know how to ‘cure’ me. I can’t be cured, just give the fuck up. If you can’t handle my issues gtfo of my life. Even when im having a great day I look at myself and realize how fucking fat and dysphoric i always am. Before you tell me that my depression makes YOUR life hard, think about how hard it makes MINE. If you think my depression makes your life to hard, get out of my life and go fuck yourself.

#vent #bulimia #mia #ana #depression #ed #pro recovery #depression vent #anxiety #mental breakdown

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this is not oc! didn’t expect anyone to see it lol. creds to ed_memes_acct on reddit

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you hate the way you look.

You feel like you’re slowly fading into nothing.

You feeling like no one understands you. 

You feel like you cant talk to/ trust anyone.

You hate food.

you’ve ever been called fat by a family member or friend.

You want to disappear.

You want all of the fat on your body to just melt off.

Your embarrassed of your weight.

Currently fasting.