I took my daughter out with me yesterday on an assignment. It was mostly walking around looking for holly trees to photograph in good light. She picked cattails for her secret hideout. As we cut through the field behind our house, I realized how thankful I am to have such a creative, pure soul in my house.
Cooped up in the house for several days over Christmas with a sick kid and sub-zero temperatures causes one to play with what is available. I’ve never seriously given any thought to infrared films like Kodak Aerochrome, but the look does have a certain charm. I think I may experiment more with digital facsimiles of the film stock. If anything, it is interesting to see my lush southern landscape in a totally different way.
Lately, I've tried to rediscover the joy of making photographs. I tried a folder 645 rangefinder (that ended up being defective) and an assortment of digital cameras. But honestly, I've enjoyed the photos coming out of my phone.
My old iPhone 6 was barely hanging on, so I broke down and bought a new phone. Always a guy on a budget, I chose a Google Pixel 6a. I'm still getting used to the UI, but the cameras and image processing are decent. I might even say I like some of the images it produces.
I often return to the playground at my daughter’s school when I’m out making photographs. I think about her future. I wonder why the government cares so little about our children’s education and wellbeing. I’m thankful that my daughters have a stable home life, with food on the table, and plenty of hugs and kisses. Not every kid does.
Against my better judgement, I bought a film camera again. I have to say I’m pretty rusty on the old processes. There were chemicals spilled, developing times disregarded, and only partially developed negatives. But that is why you use old expired film before burning the golden stuff.
Honestly, I miss the joy of making photos. There is something so cathartic about looking through a rangefinder and hoping that you nailed focus. The unknowing is appealing. It is a huge pain to make photos without autofocus, and post-processing is a slog. But there are several newish tools that make it easier and faster (namely “scanning” with a DSLR and a macro and using Negative Lab Pro in Lightroom).
It won’t be my primary means of image making, but I can already feel a little bit of that naive joy coming back.