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sorry about the blood loss. do you uh. want it back *holds out my red dripping hands awkwardly*

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saying “can u not” to inanimate objects that are just following the laws of physics but in, like, inconvenient ways

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Mads' answers from last weekend from the Como Comic con gave me anxiety. Like, what do you mean "we can still film season 4 in the next 2-3 years but if it doesn't happen until then, then we have to say goodbye to it"

My man, let me stay delulu. You are playing dumb because you and Hugh will announce it this week in Chicago right? Right???

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Mads and Hugh have the opportunity to do this very funny thing and heal all my mental illnesses by announcing season 4

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Girls will be like “oh I’m just running some quick errands” and then spend all day in the wetlands appreciating the unique flora and fauna

#the best kind of errands tbh

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"Kill them with kindness" wrong. 10 PLAGUES OF EGYPT!🩸🩸🩸🐸🐸🐸🪰🪰🪰🐅🐅🐅🐂🐂🐂🥵🥵🥵⛈️⛈️⛈️ 🦗🦗🦗 🌑🌑🌑🪦🪦🪦

#give me plagues not kindness

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Look, we joke a lot, but really, "you were born evil, wretched, worse than the scum of the earth, and it took killing a god to make you salvageable, so now you'd better be grateful to that god and thank him 10,000 times a day for it and fill your thoughts with him 24/7 and abide by the letter of his every word, lest you suffer unimaginable torture for all of eternity" is a truly horrendous thing to believe about yourself and other people

#catholic sweep 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

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misread classical anthropology as classical anthropophagy. going to bed!!!

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Tag Game: Vaguely Summarized WIP (Round 2!)

I've been tagged by @gummybugg! First time I did this was with The Legend of Orian Goldeneye here, and now I get to do it again! :D

@chronicallydragons your tag game has spread and come nearly full circle

Rules: summarize your WIP in 15 2-5 word bullet points (as if you were trying to summarize it in 15 seconds)

For The Watcher and the Thief:

🗡️AMAB (all magicians are bitches)

✨lovely lovely curse

😵‍💫magic resistance can't save you now

🥷*mission impossible theme*

🔥this is fine

🪢attempted strangulation

💎glowy gemstones are surprisingly valuable

✨oh look another magician

🗡️OH SHIT ANOTHER MAGICIAN

🏃fucking RUN

😓the consequences of my actions

🥲everything's resolved, right?

😡WRONG

🥷*mission impossible remix*

🧊get frozen in stasis, idiot

Gently tagging @late-to-the-fandom @phoenixradiant @writingphoenix @illarian-rambling @thethistlegirl and open tag! :D

#it’s the attempted strangulation for me #vaguely summarized wip #tag game

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On my worst days, nostalgia hangs over my body like dead weight. I carry it with me everywhere, close my eyes when it whispers in my ear and I think this must be what rotting feels like.

Nothing will ever feel like home the way that it did back then. There are pieces of you buried in your childhood, things you did not- could not carry with you into adulthood. And you can’t ever go back.

Sometimes I feel the first warm, unsteady breath of spring and I’m staring at the promise of new flowers through the eyes of a pre-teen girl who so easily forgets the bite of winter. Who can’t fathom that there are entire years of frost ahead of her. And I can’t ever go back.

What is nostalgia, if not the quiet grieving over the loss of something you did not know you could lose?

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hey i did a little redesign of my book cover because i didn’t like the way the blurb was written before… how do you like it now?

check out my book, THE SILVER BIRDS, if you’re into sapphic dark fantasy with witches, monsters, spooky deaths, and a whole cast of grey characters!

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alecto the first

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The Silver Birds got mentioned in an Instagram reel by amivireads about sapphic books with beautiful covers! I tried to post a link but it wouldn’t work :/

OMG I SAW IT!! thank you so much for letting me know! Sapphic book covers truly are the prettiest 👀💖

even now, 7 months after the publication of THE SILVER BIRDS, I still can’t believe people read and know my book lmao my brain just can’t comprehend

my author dream came true yet i feel like i must write and publish 10 more books for it to be real… can anyone else relate??

#asks #ask #tsb #the silver birds #author dream #indie books #indie author #dark fantasy #wlw books #queer books #lgbt books #sapphic books #queer romance #bookblr #writeblr #writers on tumblr #writers supporting writers #authors supporting authors #lgbt romance #queer fantasy #sapphic fantasy #sapphic romance #writerscorner

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DESCENT TO THE VALLEY / AN ELEGY: LATE SUMMER'S BLEEDING OUT, ryn selene

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an elegy dedicated to death in the summertime.

july ended kneeling by the bedside wondering if i was praying right. it was the season when sunbleached memories plagued:

down by the creek, signs of god. saltwater fingers trapped in a sharkbite snarl. crane your neck. i’ll demonstrate. creation myth, horror flick. the killer’s weak to the impulse. matching scars: his collarbone, my hip. aching jaws and unzipped jeans in the backyard. stumbling through boyhood, eternal collapsing omen. all the lies my sister never told me.slow rain turned flashflood. sunburnt hands, feverish dreams. drowning in misguided love. violence cycling over. stop pulling your punches. this is our way to heaven. life grew wider, / inevitable, / in the wrong place.

unfinished summers stretch into days spent waiting for a sign. stained letters deemed holy text. frenzied whispers echoing along empty backroads and highways. the still silence of our truck. passenger side chainsmoking wishing time would erase.

final destination: the desert. my own private holy land.

i search for my god. / i find him at a grave. / he recites psalm 139:7. / outgrown resentment, has he scratched that itch yet? / this eden of mine robs me of love and devotion. / am i in the right place? / i miss the silence. / i miss a god who would listen. / this isn’t the heaven i wanted, i believe it does not want me either. / this desert is vast. / take me out of eden, i miss my god. / the only thing worth saving is death. / what if i’m the apple instead?

was it worth it?

tags: @geryone @hauntedwoman @hangsawoman

#poetry

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me, wrapping my arms around myself: i know it’s scary. i know. just keep being brave for a little while longer. i’m here with you.

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at least there are pansies and fairies and faggots and dykes and transsexuals on this earth. thank god.

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"what do you do in spare time" i yearn and i dream about a life where im loved and nothings ever wrong and it takes up all of my evenings and weekends doing that