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My own hell

I’m a danger to myself…. the lyrics sung by FFDP that is how I feel rightnow, I’m going crazy all I want to do is hurt myself but I can’t because I have been trying to stop and have been getting better at it but tonight/today just fucking set me off. I feel like I’m being choked but here are no hands around my neck and I am slowly being strangled a little more every day. I am the loneliness i…

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Psycho

Into the bottom I will go I feel the daylight choking Into the vile I become I am forever changing In the cold eternal light I am the ember fading Every scar we try to hide I am the fake you made me Psycho, let go I am the warm embracing Psycho, frightful I am the rupture raging -Breaking Benjamin

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It’s been a while.

It’s been almost four years since I have posted anything in this blog, to be honest I had almost completely forgotten I ever even had this. Life has been really crazy for me… I am finally dating a decent guy and I have a really great and steady job and I even moved out of the batshit crazy place I was living. So much has happened and now as I’m writing this all I can think of is how the fuck did…

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I’m so excited for the new album!

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Inhale….Exhale. One day at a time, eventually i will get to where im going. this life so far that i have lived has kept me down and hasnt shown me anything amazing that i need to do. everyday is a challenge to just make it through the day

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Issues

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#Acryforhelp #alone #depressed #Disgusting #Disorders #dreams #givingup #God #issues #miserable #stayalive #trying

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Single,lonely,and miserable

Every time something good in my life happens something super shitty tends to follow. I’m getting really sick of it. When will this nightmare be over… I am so done with this, and I’m serious this time. I like sex, so what?!? I can still have that without a relationship. If you ask me love is stupid and overrated and I will never experience it and you know what I really don’t care. ALRIGHT I take…

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#alone #assholes #depressed #done #dreams #givingup #guys #Hate #ihateallguys #jerks #love #miserable #relationships #sex #single #slut #whore

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scared

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thinking about all of the guys from my past who have abused me, took advantage of me and used me….and praying to God that you aren’t just like them

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Things nobody likes to hear from a stranger… Married premieres tonight at 10p on FX. 

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I can't stop. No matter how hard I try I cannot stop destroying my body

#cutter #blood #imamess #depression #fuck #sex #haunting #scars

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Falling

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I have the urge to harm myself, i do everynight but there is something even more provoking me to do it tonight. With every cut to my wrist, the deeper the wound the darker the blood, it makes me feel worse and worse. When i stand infront of a mirror and look at myself all i see is one fucked up girl. She has bruises all over her arms and scars cover her body. She feels overweight and disgusting,…

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Fuck

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My depression is kicking in again. The cutting, not eating and doing nothing a day. Its happening all over again and I’m losing control fast

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#cutting #depression #fuckme #pleaseno

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I hate who i have become

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