bunnyandbearsworld

[bunnyandbearsworld]

Do you ever think of someone had complete control of your choices, what you wear, what you do, what you eat, everything, that you would just melt into that person? Because I want that. I R E A L L Y want that.

#mental illness #mental health #obssesive #obsessive love #actually obsessive

[bunnyandbearsworld]

Alter Intro

𝙱𝙰𝚂𝙸𝙲 𝙸𝙽𝙵𝙾

ℕ𝕒𝕞𝕖: Sprout

𝔽𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕟𝕒𝕞𝕖: ??

ℕ𝕚𝕔𝕜𝕟𝕒𝕞𝕖(𝕤): ??

𝔸𝕘𝕖: 21

𝕊𝕖𝕩𝕦𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕪: Homosexual

ℝ𝕠𝕞𝕒𝕟𝕥𝕚𝕔 𝕒𝕥𝕥𝕣𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟: Homoromantic

𝕊𝕥𝕒𝕥𝕦𝕤: Likes someone

ℝ𝕠𝕝𝕖: trauma holder

𝔾𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣: male

ℙ𝕣𝕠𝕟𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕤: he/him/it

𝙿𝙷𝚈𝚂𝙸𝙲𝙰𝙻 𝙰𝙿𝙿𝙴𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙽𝙲𝙴

ℍ𝕒𝕚𝕣 𝕔𝕠𝕝𝕠𝕦𝕣: blonde and green

𝔼𝕪𝕖 𝕔𝕠𝕝𝕠𝕦𝕣: green

ℍ𝕖𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥: 5'5"

𝕎𝕖𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥: 130lb

ℂ𝕝𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕤: ??

𝕊𝕡𝕖𝕔𝕚𝕖𝕤: Fae

𝙿𝙴𝚁𝚂𝙾𝙽𝙰𝙻𝙸𝚃𝚈

ℙ𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕠𝕟𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕪 𝕥𝕪𝕡𝕖:

𝕃𝕚𝕜𝕖𝕤: My Plants, warm socks in cold weather, rain, dark clouds, water on glass, my fireplace, hugs

𝔻𝕚𝕤𝕝𝕚𝕜𝕖𝕤: thunder, loud yelling, slamming, sharp pain

𝔸𝕤𝕜 𝕥𝕠 𝕗𝕣𝕠𝕟𝕥: if you need to speak of course

𝔻𝕞 𝕗𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕝𝕪: yes

𝕋𝕣𝕦𝕤𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘: no

𝕋𝕣𝕦𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕓𝕝𝕖: yes

𝕃𝕚𝕜𝕒𝕓𝕝𝕖: yes

𝕋𝕒𝕥𝕥𝕠𝕠𝕤: none

ℙ𝕚𝕖𝕣𝕔𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤: ears

𝕊𝕔𝕒𝕣𝕤: ...a lot, but that's personal

ℙ𝕠𝕤𝕥𝕚𝕧𝕖 𝕥𝕣𝕚𝕘𝕘𝕖𝕣𝕤: Rain on glass, taking care of plants

ℕ𝕖𝕘𝕒𝕧𝕥𝕚𝕧𝕖 𝕥𝕣𝕚𝕘𝕘𝕖𝕣𝕤: yelling or sharp pain

𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃𝙰𝙻 𝙷𝙴𝙰𝙻𝚃𝙷

𝕄𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕒𝕝 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕥𝕙:

𝔻𝕚𝕤𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕤:

ℙ𝕙𝕠𝕓𝕚𝕒𝕤:

𝔸𝕕𝕕𝕚𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤:

𝕊𝕞𝕠𝕜𝕖𝕣: yes

𝔻𝕣𝕚𝕟𝕜𝕖𝕣: yes

𝙴𝚇𝚃𝚁𝙰

𝔽𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕓𝕒𝕟𝕕: Mozart and Vivaldi

𝔽𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕔𝕠𝕝𝕠𝕦𝕣: Green and yellow

𝔽𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕒𝕟𝕚𝕞𝕒𝕝: frogs

𝔽𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕗--𝕕: cucumber salad

ℙ𝕠𝕤 𝕥𝕣𝕚𝕘𝕘𝕖𝕣 𝕤𝕠𝕟𝕘: Blue Lips- Regina Spector

𝔽𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕠 𝕕𝕠: Take care of plants

𝔼𝕩𝕥𝕣𝕒:

#alter interactions #alter post #did alter

[bunnyandbearsworld]

What is so special?

I am not special, I'm just easy to use, and I get scared and I'm pathetic....

What about that makes me special?

I like pain, is that it?

My tolerance?

My love?

Is that what makes me special?

-🌱

#mental health #did system #did alter #alter post #mental illness #actually mentally ill #system stuff

[bunnyandbearsworld]

I'm good....right?

I do what I'm told....I don't get in the way....why does no one see me?

Was I that good at being quiet? Am I so invisible that even my own birthday is about someone else?

Why?? I thought I was good....

I trained myself for so long....I guess it doesn't matter

#mental illness #actually mentally ill #mental health #did system #system stuff #depression #family #fear

[bunnyandbearsworld]

What does it feel like to be okay?

[bunnyandbearsworld]

No it's their fault, they claimed to love me and you and they left! THEY FUCKING LEFT, and they will tell STRANGERS ON THE FUCKING INTERNET, but they won't talk to us and they spin the fucking story to make us look bad, they FUCKING CHEATED, and then left us for the man they cheated on us with, he treats them like crap and yes me and my partner did have issues but we were getting through them on our own and they acted like us talking to them(also our partner) was a fucking issue and that it irritated them. They actively attached themselves to the deepest and most fragile parts of me and then ripped away from me...after betraying me. They had sexual contact with my partner(which they initiated) and said later that they were forced but they were checked in on repeatedly to make sure they were comfortable. My partner now has a FEAR of initiating ANY intimacy, even non sexual and they leave all of this out to get pity, as well as they actively convinced me that I should leave my partner and when I changed my mind they basically began ignoring me

#mental illness #actually mentally ill #mental health #did system #system stuff #toxic relationship #toxic people #they broke me #dont believe everyone

[bunnyandbearsworld]

I'm slowly losing my mind, I need to feel his hands, his arms. I need to hear his voice, his heart beat.....give him back to me, he is so far away, why am I here...I'm so far away

#obsessive love #actually mentally ill #mental illness #actually obsessive #obssesive #obssesion #mental health

[bunnyandbearsworld]

Do you ever feel like all you want to do is do things to help others, especially the one, no matter what all I want to do is make him smile,

My King

My Lover

My Partner

My GOD

#obsessive love #did system #mental health #actually obsessive #fp bpd

[bunnyandbearsworld]

I want to be his kink.....only his

[bunnyandbearsworld]

Do you ever want someone to just choke the fuck out of you. Because I do, I really really do, it makes me feel like the world stops spinning and I can just, be me for a few seconds.

#actually mentally ill #mental illness #obsessive love #mental health #pain is temporary #pain is pleasure

[bunnyandbearsworld]

OH MY GOD being in a system is so strange. Having a conversation and the comments from the fucking PEANUT GALLERY.

Our mother: how did you sleep?

Random man(as I was about to say "good"): Tell her we slept like absolute shit

THATS MY MOM, I always tell her okay, because I don't want to explain nightmares. 😅

- Peppermint

#system stuff #mental illness #traumagenic system #did system

[bunnyandbearsworld]

You didn't ruin anything....I'm just scared I'm useless...again

[bunnyandbearsworld]

What makes me so boring, everything that I say is either uninteresting or completely wrong, all I wanna do is talk....I just want someone to care about my words, I want to be able to help, but I can't anymore....with

anything

[bunnyandbearsworld]

I need to be broken, I want to be broken.... Break me

Tear me apart

Make me nothing

My skin is porcelain

Break it

Break me open and hold my heart in your hands

Or maybe you already do

#actually mentally ill #obsessive love #mental illness #🌑

[bunnyandbearsworld]

Why should I defend myself if no matter what you won't believe me, I'm so done with being scared that I'm gonna lose people because of mistakes I made, all I want is to feel like the love I feel is giving back to me, but no. Instead I'm alone because no trusts me, no even you.

[bunnyandbearsworld]

I need you to love me the way I love you I LIVE for you, for your love, your touch, your voice is all I want to hear.

#🌑 #obsessive love #actually mentally ill #mental health #mental illness

[bunnyandbearsworld]

I am NOTHING to my family, they say they care but all she wants is to control my life, how I feel, who I AM. How is that love?

Peppermint

#did system #system stuff