cynicism-and-idealism

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Chaos shows us the cracks.

#cynicism #on life #on the universe #chaos #trickster #cracks

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Gender isn't real and I'm not entirely convinced I am either.

#agender #non binary #gender #on reality #just a concept #not a great one even #no gender only amorphous blob

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I feel like there's this idea that by a certain age you should be focused on creating new...new thoughts, new art, new music, "innovative" and undiscovered... At least in the tech world especially, which could arguably be said to be ubiquitous with modern Western culture, but I stray to a side quest.

This leads to dismissal of what very well could be unique ideas or applications, but it's so easy to write them off because surely at this point in our history, someone already has considered this, has this idea, this knowledge, walked this path.

And yet, the revelation of a circular block of wood fitting into a circular shaped hole is still of value to the growing child, no matter how frequently this knowledge has been learned and shared before.

#learn it anyway #speak it anyway #on life #cynicism #on being human #on the universe #wisdom #knowledge #tech #ethics

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And you tried to change, didn’t you? Closed your mouth more. Tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake… You can’t make homes out of human beings. Someone should have already told you that. And if he wants to leave, then let him leave. You are terrifying, and strange, and beautiful. Something not everyone knows how to love.

Warsan Shire - 'For Women Who Are Difficult To Love'

#on life #on relationships #cynicism #on love

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Virginia Woolf, in a diary entry dated 5 November 1931

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To my insecurities:

The truth is, every time I'm my genuine, authentic self...

Every time I stick to my values...

Every choice I make that is in line with what my heart is telling me...

...I win. My life gets better. My world becomes brighter. I'm happier, things are easier, and my path stays clear.

I just need to remember that. The evidence is there. There's ample historical precedent both ways.

#on life #idealism #on being human #authenticity #kindness #honesty #integrity #wisdom

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I'm all the times I have been, all the spaces I have occupied, all the measurements.

I'm all the versions of me, together.

I'm also all the times I have not been, and the versions that could have been and were not. I remember them too.

I am endless potential and stunning actuality.

Why limit myself to the now?

WAIT YOU’RE 63???? I thought you were like 40

I'm that too. And 12.

#on being human #universe #idealism #neil gaiman #time isn't real

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If I believed in gods I’d worship the god of the valley The farmland god She who is rich in soil The god with the power And strength and grace To bend land, water, and sun Into life itself Life pulled forth from seed And thus to feed us From the bosom of the earth That’s the god I’d worship If I believed in gods

(for Robert Ramming, Turtle Island Farmer)

James Lee Jobe

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…she felt no interruption between the earth and her body as if the same sap and rhythm ran through both simultaneously, gold, green, watery, or fiery when you touched the core.

Anaïs Nin

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Hey. Come sit with me. Let's chat.

How intentionally present, intentionally aware, "mindful" are you of your everyday, routine activities? Are you putting intention towards "being present" in every part of your day? Or just the things that seem like they should be meaningful? Are you just as "present" when you're unloading groceries as you are having dinner with your family? How about when you're washing dishes? Or taking out the trash?

What about when you're washing your hair?

Do you put intentional thought and awareness into washing your hair? Each step of the process, what you're doing, the connection of your hands, your nails, the feeling of your hair, the feeling of your scalp, the feeling of the water, the action of cleansing, of revitalizing, the smell of the soaps, the difference in your hair from dry to wet, from dirty to clean, from shampooed to conditioned.

Washing your hair, cleaning yourself, this routine you perform... is it just a routine? Is it an absent-minded necessity or is it a ritual filled with intention? Are you kind to yourself, as you wash your hair? Slow, gentle, considerate? Or are you perfunctory, rough, impatient? Are you "being present" in this activity with yourself, or are you distracted by thoughts of the day, of work, of chores, of life, of others?

So, how do you wash your hair?

As you think about that, consider also...

How would you wash the hair of another person?

When you wash your child's hair, how "mindfully" are you doing it? How "present" are you in this relational moment with this tiny human? Ask yourself, again, is this a ritual filled with intention? Are you being kind, considerate, gentle? Or are you being impatient, rough, distracted? How aware are you of how your child is responding to having their hair washed? Are they relaxed, or are they tense? Are they "being present" in the moment?

How do they feel to you?

Now, consider...

How would you wash the hair of a friend?

How would you wash the hair of a lover?

How would you wash the hair of a parent?

How would you wash the hair of a stranger?

Does your relationship with that person change how you would wash their hair? Does your relationship with that person change where your focus, your awareness might be? Would you be more cautious, withdrawn, hurried with the stranger? Perhaps more confident, sensual, soft, slow with the lover? How aware and reactive would you be to their experience, their body, their reactions and energy?

Does your relationship with yourself, in regards to that person have influence?

Does your relationship with yourself, and your relationship with the activity impact how you wash your own hair?

We do not exist in a vacuum, and every action is influenced by relationships. Relationships with our environment, with our activity, with other people, with our culture, with our world, with ourselves... Whether you are intentionally aware, intentionally "mindful" of these relationships or not, they exist, and they have impact, influence. It can be very easy to fall into the complacency of routine, of time, of repetitiveness, and we may find we have lost intentional awareness around relationality.

Be intentional about your relationships, your interactions, your existence, in all things.

You can start with simply washing your hair.

#on life #on being human #on relationships #Bruce Fertman #Grace Of Sense #hair washing #being mindful #intentional #being present #relating #thought exercise #systems thinking #dsrp

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Sarah Jean Alexander, from "Hide on you"

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the silence inside my bones has a roar

that is dragging it’s nails down

the light of the day, clawing

at the way it cannot

quite escape and it cannot

be quelled.

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It happens surprisingly fast, the way your shadow leaves you. All day you’ve been linked by the light, but now that darkness gathers the world in a great black tide, your shadow joins the sea of all other shadows. If you stand here long enough, you, too, will forget your lines and merge with the tall grass and old trees, with the crows and the flooding river—all these pieces of the world that daylight has broken into objects of singular loneliness. It happens surprisingly fast, the drawing in of your shadow, and standing in the field, you become the field, and standing in the night, you are gathered by night, Invisible birds sing to the memory of light but then even those separate songs fade, tiny drops of ink in an infinite spilling.

Rosemerry Wahtola Trommer - Still Life at Dusk,' Poetry of Presence: An Anthology of Mindfulness Poems, 2017)

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akhira

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"When I speak of poetry I am not thinking of it as a genre. Poetry is an awareness of the world, a particular way of relating to reality. So poetry becomes a philosophy to guide a man throughout his life…. [With poetry, one] is capable of going beyond the limitations of coherent logic, and conveying the deep complexity and truth of the impalpable connections and hidden phenomena of life."

— Andrei Tarkovsky, Sculpting in Time

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Night ✨Gown

Just want to paint all the translucent things~