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Even If You Don’t: Chapter 33

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i should have quit this thing while it was good lmao

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Mari's POV

"Guys, iHeart is in four months and we still don't have anything," Kaylynn groaned, throwing her head back on the couch cushion behind it.

"It's not like we have to have it done tomorrow," Vanessa shook her head, "But songwriting is still hard."

"Mar," Kenzie sighed, "Do you have any ideas?"

"I... I have something..." I shrugged, "I don't... I don't think I'd use it for iHeart though... And I don't...know if it's good..."

"Everything you write is amazing!" Kaylynn shoved my shoulder lightly, "What do you mean you don't know if it's good?!"

"I mean... I don't know..."

"Well, what's it about?"

"No one," I answered a little too quickly, "I mean nothing. It's about nothing." The three girls looked at each other.

"Calum," they nodded in unison before turning back, finding me rolling my eyes.

"Come on, Mar," Vanessa said, "You've written songs about Cal before."

"Yeah, but... You guys aren't exactly...friends...again..."

"You'd feel the same if it were one of us," Kaylynn reminded me.

"But still!" Kenzie chirped, "That song you wrote when you went home for a while is phenomenal!" I made a small noise of protest, but Kaylynn cut me off.

"You're trying really hard to avoid us hearing it," she pointed out, "So what gives?" I looked at them for a moment before sighing.

"I wrote it when you guys went out after our last show in Sydney," I said softly, looking down at my hands.

"You mean the night he..." Vanessa trailed off quietly.

"Yeah..." I barely nodded. I reached down for the bag at my feet, pulling my songbook out and continuing as I flipped through the pages to find it. "You all went out and I was back in me and Kay's hotel room and it was really quiet and I just... I wanted to write... So I did..." I said. I held my book out for one of them to take, and Kenzie grabbed it to hold on her lap so she, Vanessa, and Kaylynn could read the words. "Sorry some of the ink is messed up," I whispered, "I was still crying when I wrote it..."

It was silent for a couple minutes until they finished reading.

"These lyrics are beautiful, Mar," Vanessa commented softly, and I felt the corner of my mouth twitch.

"Do you have music for this?" Kenzie wondered, handing me my book back.

"Kind of," I nodded, "Just what I was able to do on some crappy piano app on my phone and then my keyboard when I was at my mom's."

"Can we hear it?" she asked carefully.

"Uh..." I looked around to see if there was a keyboard in the room, spotting one sitting in the corner with the guitars and basses, "Yeah... Sure..." We got up and Kaylynn helped me move the keyboard away from the mess so I could sit down on the stool by the window.

I turned the instrument on and played some random pieces to make sure everything was in order and doing what it was supposed to. I put my book on the stand for the sheet music and inhaled deeply before beginning to play the song's intro.

Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street Faster than the wind, passionate as sin, ending so suddenly Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you're already flying through the free fall Like the colors in autumn, so bright just before they lose it all

Losing him was blue like I'd never known Missing him was dark grey – all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met But loving him was red, loving him was red

Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong

Losing him was blue like I'd never known Missing him was dark grey – all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met But loving him was red, oh red, burning red

Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes Tell myself it's time now – gotta let go But moving on from him is impossible when I still see it all in my head in burning red Loving him was red

Oh, losing him was blue like I'd never known Missing him was dark grey – all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met 'Cause loving him was red, yeah, yeah, red We're burning red

And that's why he's spinnin' 'round in my head Comes back to me burning red, yeah, yeah

His love was like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street

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Song used: "Red" by Taylor Swift

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Even If You Don’t: Chapter 32

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Mari's POV

"What the fuck, Mari?" Michael asked the moment he, Luke, and Ashton popped onto my phone screen.

"Do you guys like it?" I smiled innocently as the other girls came around to the back of the couch to join me on Facetime.

"It's, uh..." Ashton trailed off, "It's...new..."

"Yeah..." Luke nodded slowly, "It's... It's different than I was expecting... You're, uh... You guys are working on...expanding your sound..."

"They're certainly doing something," Michael snorted, whining when Ashton elbowed him in the ribs.

"You don't like it?" Kenzie frowned, and the rest of us had to hold in our laughter because we knew she was just trying to break Ashton – since Calum wasn't in the frame, he didn't need to conceal his amused grin.

"No! That's not it at all!" the brunette said quickly, "You guys sound incredible! I... I really liked the, uh... The... The note Mar held was amazing!"

"What about the lyrics?" Kaylynn wondered, "Do you think they're good? We worked really hard on 'em."

"The lyrics, yeah..." Luke chimed in again, "The lyrics are... They're something else... You, uh... You don't hear lyrics like that very often..."

"Yeah, maybe there's a reason for that," Michael mumbled, only earning himself another shove from Ashton.

"I guess Mikey's not a fan," I sighed.

"He'll come around," Ashton shook his head rapidly, glaring at the guitarist before turning back to us.

"So you and Luke like it so far, right?" Kenzie asked. Luke and Ashton looked at each other for a moment before Vanessa decided to put them out of their misery.

"They're really drowning on dry land here, guys," she giggled, "Can't we end their suffering now?"

"What?" both boys asked simultaneously while Michael just cocked an eyebrow.

"It's not meant to be a legit song," I assured them with a smile, "We were just messing around before writing something for iHeart." They all sighed in relief, making the rest of us laugh loudly.

"It's really bad, guys," Luke breathed, shaking his head.

"It's not bad," Ashton interjected, "Like, it's a catchy song – it's just different from your normal stuff."

"But would you listen to it if we did decide to release it for real?" Kenzie asked.

"Ash would listen to you read the encyclopedia if you told him to," Kaylynn snickered, "I hardly think he's a reliable source to ask about this."

"I resent that," Ashton frowned, making us laugh again.

"Thanks for trying not to hurt our feelings, guys," I told them.

"Except Michael," Vanessa snorted softly.

"I wasn't gonna lie!" he rolled his eyes.

I just smiled again, "We'll talk to you guys later, okay?" They each nodded and I was about to end the call when Ashton stopped me.

"Hey, Mar," he said, "When you see Cal again, tell him his stuff should be there late next week."

"Thanks, Ash."

"Oh, and-"

"I will bug him every day about the shipping until he pays you back," I smirked lightly when Calum rolled his eyes.

"God bless you," Ashton sighed dramatically, "May your happiness be full and your crops be plentiful." I couldn't help but laugh loudly in response.

"Goodbye, Ashton," I told him. He teasingly blew me a kiss before I finally ended the call.

"He's so cute," Kenzie breathed out softly. We all groaned lightly before deciding to leave the studio for the day, knowing we weren't going to come up with anything for iHeart by trying to force it out of ourselves.

~

Calum's POV; 2:23am

Mari and I had hung out at her place for a while after getting back from the studio. When it came time for dinner, we went out to her favorite restaurant – she insisted I'd love it, and she wasn't wrong – and then went to see a movie.

When we got back a little after 11pm, Mari was already falling asleep. Instead of forcing herself to stay away until I went to bed like she usually did, she simply lazily kissed me goodnight and dragged herself into her bedroom while I just watched her with a smile.

It wasn't until nearly 2:30am that I decided to go to bed myself, turning off the television and making sure the front door was locked before quietly heading into Mari's room. I went into the bathroom to brush my teeth, rubbing my eyes slightly.

"Calum!" I heard Mari call out, causing me to turn the faucet off for a moment.

"What, Mar?" I replied, receiving no answer. I simply shrugged it off, turning the water back on to rinse off the toothbrush when I heard her say my name again.

"Cal..." she said a little softer, followed by a gasp.

It was then that I rushed out of the bathroom, finding Mari sitting straight up on the bed. The lamp on her nightstand was now on and I could see her cheeks glistening slightly.

She was breathing heavily, but her expression softened the moment her eyes found mine. She let out a deep sigh of relief as I hurried to the bed, climbing back up beside her. She instantly flung herself onto me, hugging me tightly.

What's wrong, baby girl?" I asked, rubbing her back gently.

"Bad dream," she mumbled into my neck. I kissed her skin for a few minutes until she calmed down before speaking again.

"You wanna go for a drive?" I asked her.

"But it's 2:30," she replied with a slight sniffle, pushing herself up to look at me.

"Perfect time to go for a drive," I grinned, kissing her nose. All she did was nod, prompting me to get up, take her hand, and bring her with me.

I didn't bother putting a shirt on and neither of us cared about getting shoes; I just grabbed my car keys on the way out the door.

I opened the passenger door for Mari and let her get in before going around to the driver's side and sitting down myself. I looked over at her after starting the engine, finding her seatbelt already on and her feet perched up in the seat with the rest of her body. I couldn't keep myself from smiling – not that I wanted to anyway – making her give me a look.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" she asked with a shy grin.

"Just love you," I answered, making her blush as I pulled my own seatbelt across my torso. She reached for my hand after I was done buckling up, bringing it over and holding it on her lap. "Where to, princess?" I asked her as she rubbed my skin with her thumb.

"Hmm..." she hummed in content, "Wherever you wanna take me." I chuckled lightly, bringing her hand up so I could kiss the back of it before finally pulling out of the apartment building's parking lot and just taking Mari on a drive around town.

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Even If You Don’t: Chapter 31

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Mari's POV; Four days later

London

"Ash, I'm not moving here permanently," Calum said into his phone as he walked out of my bedroom.

We had been back in London for a couple hours now, only just arriving back at my apartment when Calum's phone started ringing. He had obviously told the band he was staying with me for the next six months before we left Indianapolis, and Ashton apparently had a few choice things to say about the last-minute planning of it all but was only able to get ahold of his bandmate after we got home.

"I told you why already, Ashton-" I could just tell Calum was rolling his eyes, making me laugh softly. "-I'm staying with Mar until the iHeart Awards. ... I'm not asking you to send me all of my belongings. ... I'll be back for a couple weeks during Christmas anyway; I just need you to send some clothes, my guitar, and my journals! ... Well, then you can yell at me then. ..." He sighed sharply, "Yes, Ashton, I will pay you back for shipping. ... Are you gonna send my stuff or not? ... Thank you. ... Yeah, I'll talk to you guys later. ... Bye." He sighed again, a little more softly this time, stuffing his phone back into his pocket and coming into the kitchen where I was.

"Is Ash mothering you again?" I snickered, making him frown.

"I didn't realize I was moving out of my parent's house just to move in with another mum," he grumbled, cracking a smile when I giggled again. I walked over to him, wrapping my arms around his neck.

"He cares about you, Cal," I reminded him while his own arms wrapped around my waist.

"I know," he sighed again, kissing my forehead, "He can just be a bit much sometimes."

"Kinda like you when I caught that cold on tour?" I grinned.

"That's different," he pouted, "You were sick; I didn't want it to get worse."

"You were still mothering me, Cal," I giggled.

"Fine," he rolled his eyes, "But at least it wasn't as bad as when Kenz lost her voice."

"Jesus," I laughed again, "I thought Ash was actually going to burn the place down."

"Pretty sure he would've if it hadn't been for the fact that it was in Sydney and his mum was there to calm him down."

"God bless Anne," I sighed, only to let out a sharp shriek when I felt Calum's fingers start poking at my sides.

"C-C-Cal! Stop!" I begged through my involuntary laughter.

"Ah, what's the magic word?" he shook his head. I huffed lightly, not wanting to admit defeat but knowing I had to – he was a lot stronger than me and I wouldn't be able to fight him off.

I quickly moved my arms from around his neck and let my hands slide to his cheeks, pulling his face to mine. I felt him smile as he kissed me, finally stopping the tickling. When I pulled away, I watched his eyes flutter open and he looked at me with a fond expression.

"I love you," Calum told me, and I couldn't keep the grin off my own face.

"Pretty sure you've said that a hundred times since you woke up this morning," I commented.

"Have to make up for all the times I was too afraid to say it," he replied, only making my smile get bigger.

"I love you too," I said softly, earning myself another bright grin as he kissed me again.

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Calum's POV; The next morning

"Cal, you'll be fine," Mari assured me with a roll of her eyes as we walked side-by-side down the long hallway to the room the rest of Lost and Found was waiting in.

Mari had gotten a text from Kenzie that they were going into the studio to write some new songs. She asked me if I wanted to tag along – and I did, but I was still a bit nervous about it. Mari's bandmates and I hadn't seen or spoken to each other since I randomly showed up that day I was looking for Mari, and I had a sinking feeling that it wasn't going to go well this time either despite the fact that Mari had forgiven me for what I did.

"I don't know..." I mumbled, "They were really mad..."

"Are you cheating on me with one of them?" she asked calmly, taking me by surprise.

"W-What?" I shook my head in disbelief – where did that even come from?

"Are you in a relationship with any of them?"

"Of course not!" I exclaimed softly, "Why would you thi-"

"Then why are you so worried?" she shook her own head and I felt her hand squeeze mine, "Why are you so worried what they think?"

"Because they're your best friends," I grumbled, "I don't want them to hate me... If you had to pick between me and them, I know you'd pick them..."

"But I don't have to pick, Cal," she smiled gently, "So please stop being nervous."

"Okay," I exhaled sharply, "You're right; I can do this." I heard a soft giggle beside me, letting my body relax as Mari tugged me into the room.

"Hey, guys!" she beamed, making her friends look up.

"Mari!" they cheered in unison, "We've missed you!" She let go of my hand to hug her bandmates while I just stood in the doorway.

"Calum," Kaylynn nodded, but her voice was monotone.

"Kay," Mari warned with a slight smile on her face, "You promised."

"I'm being nice!" she defended.

"Yeah," Kenzie agreed before looking over at me, "Just gonna take a while to get used to having you around again." I swallowed lightly but nodded in agreement – I can't imagine how they must have felt having to watch Mari go through the break up, only to have the person who did it to her back in her life.

"So," Mari chirped, coming back over to me as she spoke to the girls, "What are we thinking about writing today?" She took my hand and pulled me over to the couch, making me sit down before taking her own seat on my lap. I looked at her with a small grin, barely noticing the other girls watching out of the corner of my eye.

"We're not sure yet," Vanessa sighed, "Geoff said we need at least one new song before iHeart, but we haven't been able to come up with anything."

"Well, we have ideas of what we'd like to do," Kenzie interjected, "We just don't know which would be better for the show."

"How about we don't focus on iHeart right now?" Mari suggested.

"But we have to get something written for it," she shook her head.

"I know," she nodded, "But it's a lot harder to write a song when you're stressing yourself out over it." I let out a breath of agreement, making Mari glance at me since she was the only one close enough to hear it.

"You mean write a practice song?" Kaylynn asked curiously.

"Something like that," she shrugged, "And if we like it enough, we can release it later."

"So what are you thinking then?"

"Well... Older people are always complaining that 'songs these days have no meaning' and 'the lyrics are just a bunch of gibberish'," Mari shook her head, a smile beginning to form on her face, "So let's just give them what they expect to hear."

"You mean like, Blank Space style?" Kenzie grinned.

"Crazier," she perked up, "Let's make ourselves into the psycho bitches people seem to think we are!"

"I could get into this," Kaylynn snickered.

"I'm definitely in," Vanessa giggled.

~

Two hours later

"Okay," Kenzie plopped back down in her seat, a guitar now on her lap, "Are we ready to put it all together?"

"Hope it sounds good," Vanessa said as she finished tuning her own guitar.

"I hope it feels good!" Mari announced. I couldn't help but groan involuntarily as I was looking at my phone, earning a chorus of laughs.

"If you think the 5SOS references are bad when you're here, you should see her when you're not," Kenzie mentioned, making me look at them.

"You all know not to say 'sounds good' around me!" my girlfriend frowned, "It's a reflex that haunts me every day; I wish I could control it, but I can't!"

"Now you're just being dramatic," I snorted softly.

"You haven't seen dramatic yet, Calum," Vanessa shook her head with a smile. Mari simply rolled her eyes and began playing the song, making the girls laugh again as she was silently telling them the conversation was over.

[Kenzie]

I screen saved all the photos from your family vacations I checked out all your Spotify recommendations I followed you on Twitter and Instagram too Is there anywhere else I can find you?

[Vanessa, Kaylynn]

Every 15 minutes, I'm refreshing your page Refreshing your page, refreshing your page Every 15 minutes, I'm refreshing your page Refreshing your page, refreshing your page

[Kenzie, Vanessa, Kaylynn]

It was love at first sight, except you tried to ignore me You were playing hard to get Now I wanna be your girlfriend, but you can't ignore me 'Cause I found you on the internet

Now I always know who you're with, where you are, and what you're doing I just wish it was me that you were pursuing And the funny thing is, you haven't got a clue That I've got a crush on you

[Kaylynn]

I get notified you've posted on Facebook Sure enough, there's a new photo on your wall Within a few minutes, I see some blonde chick liked it I bet that she's your late night booty call

[Vanessa]

You send out a tweet that today was a great day But how it could be without me there? I bet it's 'cause you're sleeping with that blonde chick on Facebook The one with the bleached, peroxide hair

[Kenzie, Kaylynn]

Every 15 minutes, I'm refreshing your page Refreshing your page, refreshing your page Every 15 minutes, I'm refreshing your page Refreshing your page, refreshing your page

[Kenzie, Vanessa, Kaylynn]

It was love at first sight, except you tried to ignore me Tried to ignore me, tried to ignore me So I found you online and now you can't ignore me You can't ignore me, you can't ignore me

Now I always know who you're with, where you are, and what you're doing I just wish it was me that you were pursuing And the funny thing is, you haven't got a clue That I've got a crush on you

I watched Mari quickly pull out her phone and toss it to me. I caught it and unlocked it, already knowing what she wanted me to do. I opened her camera and started recording her just before she started singing her part of the song.

[Mari]

You'll never know the pain I feel as I watch you from afar I can't deny that my love is real I even know who your friends of friends of friends are

I never knew how love could hurt until I put you on my Google alert Every post, every tweet; It's so hard to see that it's not about me Not about me

[Kenzie, Vanessa, Kaylynn]

It was love at first sight, except you tried to ignore me Tried to ignore me, tried to ignore me So I found you online and now you can't ignore me You can't ignore me, you can't ignore me

Now, I always know who you're with, where you are, and what you're doing I just wish it was me that you were pursuing And the funny thing is, you haven't got a clue That I've got a crush on you

[Mari]

Oh crap, you just blocked me from viewing your Facebook Crap, you just blocked me from your Twitter too You sent me an email to leave you alone

Well, guess what... I still like you

The song ended and the girls immediately busted out laughing.

"That was so good!" Kenzie cheered, "We're definitely recording and releasing it for real!"

"I say we get some secondary opinions though," Mari snickered, coming back to me.

I handed her phone back to her as she plopped down beside me. I glanced at her screen, watching her open her messages and compose a new one. She sent the video in a group text to Ashton, Michael, and Luke, along with a message: Part of the new song we're working on so far!!! What do you guys think?

"They are gonna be so confused," I couldn't help but chuckle.

this ending suuuuuucks but what else is neeeeeeeeew

song used: "Crush" by Taryn Southern

and if u don't know what "Blank Space style" means: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e-ORhEE9VVg

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Even If You Don’t: Chapter 30

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I KNOW IT'S 11PM BUT BETTER LATE THAN NEVER AM I RIGHT LMAO

Mari's POV; 3:45pm

I was in the middle of moving the cookies I'd baked off of the cookie sheet once they'd finally cooled while Calum had gone upstairs to get Asher washed up so we could decorate them. I took the plate of cookies to the dining room table and while I was digging through the pantry to get the icing and sprinkles and everything, I heard the front door open and then close – and I'd be lying if I said my heart didn't skip a beat.

Since my mom had been at work, she obviously didn't know Calum had flown in to see me. I knew her feelings about him changed after the breakup – she seemed even more upset than me at times – so I didn't know how she'd react to finding out he was here. But it wasn't like I could exactly avoid it.

"I smell cookies," my mom said, walking into the room.

"I would hope so," I mentioned, closing the pantry door with my foot and bringing everything over to the table. Mom put her keys down on the counter and hung her purse on the barstool.

"You and Asher make them?" she asked.

"No, I made them while he was napping," I answered, "But he just woke up, so he is gonna help decorate some."

"You not get him out of bed yet?" she asked. She finally looked over at the table, tilting her head in surprise. "Wow, Mar," she let out a soft laugh, "Baking for the neighborhood today, are we?"

"I... No... You know..." I cleared my throat, "We've got a fourth person staying for a couple days..."

"What?" she furrowed her eyebrows, "Mom didn't mention-"

"It's not Grandma, Mom..." I told her, only confusing her even more.

"Then who would be staying for a couple days?" she wondered. But I didn't get the chance to respond before we heard footsteps coming down the stairs.

"I'm gonna make a pink cookie with lots of spwinkles for Mommy!" Asher announced, bouncing on Calum's hip.

I heard my boyfriend chuckle in response, "That's very nice of you, bud; I'm sure Mummy will really love it!" Calum turned the corner after stepping off the staircase, only to freeze the moment he reached the threshold and noticed my mom standing there.

My mom glanced at Calum for a moment before cocking an eyebrow at me while I just scrunched my face up in nervousness. I had no idea what to say, or any idea how she'd react, but Asher was the first to speak.

"Mommy, look!" he smiled widely, "Calum hewe!" The toddler hugged Calum's neck tightly, and I noticed my mom's body relax a bit.

"Yeah, Ashy – I can see that..." she acknowledged her son but her eyes never left the person holding him, "Why...?" Both Calum and I started to speak, but Asher beat us to it.

"He say sowwy to me and Mawi," he informed her.

"I did..." Calum finally spoke, a bashful smile on his face, "And it's suddenly occurred to me that there's a third person I need to apologize to..."

I watched on nervously, unaware of what was going on in my mom's head right now and honestly a bit scared of what she was going to say to him. But of all the scenarios that played out in my head within the span of 10 seconds, none of them were what actually happened.

"Well, if Asher forgave you, I think I'd look pretty ridiculous if I still held a grudge," Mom said.

I couldn't help but snort softly, "You should have seen him when Cal got here then." My mom simply shot Calum a smile, making him breathe a small sigh of relief, before speaking again.

"So what's this I hear about lots of sprinkles?" she wondered.

Asher frowned, "It 'posed to be a s'pwise." Calum and I laughed again as he brought Asher over to the table, setting him in his highchair while I put a cookie, frosting tube, and jar of sprinkles on its table.

"Okay, okay," Mom put her hands up in surrender, "I won't come back in here until you're done with it." She then looked at Calum and I. "No food fights this time," she ordered, walking out of the room.

"We cleaned it up!"

"Michael started it!" the both of us shouted at the same time, hearing her laugh as she sat down on the living room couch to watch TV.

~

Calum's POV; 8:00pm

Mari and I were sitting on the couch while Lori was giving Asher his bath and putting him to bed. I perked up as my phone started ringing with the tone I'd set for Facetime. I pulled it out of my pocket, finding Ashton's name on the screen.

"I'm about to get yelled at for leaving so suddenly," I groaned, only making Mari giggle. I answered the call and Ashton popped up on the screen, but didn't even have the chance to say 'hello' before I heard Michael's voice.

"Please tell us it's true!" he exclaimed, poking his head into frame. Ashton simply adjusted his phone so that he, Michael, and Luke could all be in the shot as they spoke to me.

"What?" I asked, furrowing my eyebrows. It was obvious to me that they'd just woken up, so I knew they'd had no idea about me and Mari. Or did they?

"We just got on Twitter and saw you and Mari trending!" Luke chirped, "What happened? Is that why you left? Are you with Mari?" Mari giggled at all the questions, crawling over to me and resting her chin on my shoulder so they could finally see her.

"Hi, guys," she grinned.

"Mari!" all three of them shouted simultaneously, making us both laugh that time.

"Are you guys back together?!" Ashton asked excitedly. She looked at me curiously for a moment before turning back to the boys.

"Unless I blacked out and this is all a dream, yeah," she nodded.

I chuckled under my breath, propping my foot up on the coffee table so I could rest my forearm on my knee. I put my other hand on Mari's thigh, tugging on her so her legs overlapped mine. She repositioned herself to do so comfortably, wiggling her arms around my waist and loosely hugging me as she laid her head on my shoulder.

"So you guys are good again?" Luke wondered hopefully. I felt Mari nod, making me turn to kiss her head, then feeling her smile into my shirt.

"Thank God!" Michael shouted, "I was getting so sick of Cal's moping!" I rolled my eyes in response while the girl beside me just giggled again.

"You guys know I love you more than anything, but Cal and I have a lot to catch up on, so..." she said. All three of them instantly groaned.

"Gross," Ashton shook his head, "We didn't need to know that."

"Use protection, kids!" Luke insisted.

"Goodbye," Mari rolled her eyes that time, the arm on top of my stomach moving to end the Facetime call. "They're children," she grumbled, returning her arm to where it had been while I just set my phone on the couch cushion beside us, "How do they survive on their own?"

"They don't," I laughed lightly again, pressing another kiss to her forehead.

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Hi can u reccomend any calum fics other than even if you dont

i really don’t read full fics tbh but @pretendtobepunkrock has a really good frat boy cal series!!! 

http://pretendtobepunkrock.tumblr.com/post/149036440410/greek-week-prologue

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Even If You Don’t: Masterlist

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Chapter 22

Chapter 23

Chapter 24

Chapter 25

Chapter 26

Chapter 27

Chapter 28

Chapter 29

Chapter 30

Chapter 31

Chapter 32

Chapter 33

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When will the next update be?

fuck if i know tbh 

i post chapters as i finish them 😅😅

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This is so good please update!!

thank u friend 💜

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I love this story omg!!! And I usually don’t like the ones where the girl is famous too but this is so good

she keeps herself in check ;) 

thank you!!! i’m glad you like it so far!!!!

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When was the last time this was updated and are you still updating??

last update was monday, and yes just slowly 

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Even If You Don’t: Chapter 29

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IM SO SORRY THIS TOOK LIKE 67 YEARS

Calum’s POV

“Mawi?” we heard a small voice come from the hallway, “Who hewe?” I could feel Mari tense up slightly as she moved away from me before her brother saw us kissing, but I don’t think anything could have prepared me for his reaction to seeing me there. Asher took one look at me before narrowing his eyes and crossing his arms over his chest. “Mawi,” he stated, looking up at his sister, “Calum go home.” Mari snorted softly while I just sighed in defeat.

“I don’t think that’s gonna happen just yet, bud,” she told him, both of us curious as to what his reaction to hearing that would be.

“No,” he frowned, stomping his little foot in protest, “Calum go home.”

“Asher,” she warned gently, “You know we don’t talk to people like that.” His frown grew even more, causing her to sigh. “Go sit, Ashy,” she pointed to the couch, “I think you and Cal need to talk.” He crossed his arms even tighter, shaking his head. “You can either be a big boy and go yourself or I can carry you over there,” she said sternly so he knew she was being serious, “But you’re going to sit on that couch.” Asher, apparently realizing he wasn’t going to win, treaded over to the couch. He climbed up and laid down while I just watched nervously.

My heart felt like it was going to come up through my throat. I didn’t know why I was so scared to talk to him – especially after how scared I’d been to talk to Mari – but all I knew was that I was.

When Asher wasn’t looking, Mari pressed a quick kiss to my cheek before putting her hands on my back and nudging me into the room. As my feet managed to carry me to the couch, Mari slipped into the kitchen to give her brother and I a moment alone – though, I knew she’d still be listening.

I kneeled down beside the couch where Asher was, but before I could even open my mouth to say anything, he huffed lightly, turning so his back was facing me. I sighed softly – there was no way to ease into this, so I just had to do it.

“C’mon, Asher,” I pleaded, “You can’t ignore me forever.”

“You made Mawi cwy,” he stated. I began chewing on my inner cheek, finally sitting cross-legged on the floor beside him.

“I know, bud,” I said softly, “And I’m sure I’ll spend the rest of my life trying to make up for all those tears. But, you know, Mari forgave me for everything… And now, I just wanted to tell you that I’m sorry too.” It was silent for a moment before I watched Asher turn back so he was facing me again.

“Why you say sowwy to me?” he mumbled curiously.

“Because I know how much you love her and how you had to listen to her cry since she got home,” I told him, “And I know how hard that must have been on you because I have a big sister too.”

“You do?”

“I do,” I smiled slightly before letting it fade, “And I know how mad I get at people when they make her cry and it makes me even more mad when they don’t tell her they’re sorry for doing it. But I told your sister I was sorry, so I’m hoping her little brother forgives me like she did.”

“Mawi fowgive you?” he asked. I simply hummed in response.

Asher then pushed himself up and crawled off the side of the couch, climbing onto the floor beside my knee. He stepped into the open space in my lap and hugged me.

“I fowgive you too,” he assured me. I let out a small sigh of relief and hugged him back.

It didn’t take long for me to feel Asher’s grip on me loosen, and I thought he was going to let go, but he didn’t. Instead, I just heard soft snoring in my ear. I chuckled softly, carefully lifting him up before I stood up myself, only to lie down on the couch with him on my chest. He stirred a bit, but only until he made himself comfortable and went back to sleep.

When Mari hadn’t heard anything, she finally came out from around the corner, smiling at her brother and I. She plopped down on the adjacent couch, grabbing the remote and turning on the TV. I was starting to doze off myself when I suddenly heard what sounded an awful lot like a camera shutter going off.

“Mar,” I murmured, unable to keep myself from grinning, “What are you doing?”

“Nothin’” she replied innocently. I instantly took my phone out of my pocket to find a notification that Mari had tweeted a photo.

“‘Nothing’, huh?” I smiled, turning my phone after opening it so she could watch what she’d just posted pop up on the screen.

It was the photo of Asher and I with the caption ‘Hard to believe that my brother was refusing to speak to him right before this’, already receiving hundreds of interactions – gaining even more after I’d retweeted it myself.

“Nothing... Something... Who cares?” she shrugged, putting her phone back in her pocket as I did the same with mine. It was silent again for a moment. “He really loves you, you know,” Mari told me. I looked up at her to find she was already smiling fondly at Asher as he slept on top of me. “After we left for Australia – before everything that happened – and I would talk to him on the phone before he went to bed, he would always ask if you were coming with me when I came back to visit.”

I couldn’t help but chuckle softly, “Could’ve fooled me.”

“Well, he loves me more,” she snickered, “You’re just gonna have to get used to it.” I let out another laugh as I exhaled, smiling slightly. We both looked back at the TV, neither of us speaking for a moment, before I found myself looking back over at her.

“Hey, princess,” I said, causing her to return her gaze to me, “I love you.” Mari didn’t say anything – she just looked down at her lap and smiled, probably hoping I wouldn’t notice her cheeks turn red.

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Even If You Don’t: Chapter 28

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Calum’s POV

One week later; 12:45pm

The moment the plane landed on the tarmac in Indianapolis, I thought I was going to throw up. There was no guarantee that Mari would be at home or that Lori wouldn’t refuse to tell me where she was or that she would even let me see her at all.

After deboarding, I called an Uber for the 25-minute ride to Mari’s house and just listened to the driver talk – occasionally adding to the conversation here and there but I was mainly silent. I thanked the woman as she pulled up to the curb to let me out, both of us giving each other a goodbye. I closed the car door and listened to her pull away while I took a deep breath and walked to the porch.

I stood in front of the door for a moment, finding myself unable to move. I’d obviously been here during tour, but I just couldn’t make myself knock. There was a different feeling now. Now, I was afraid someone would slam the door in my face before I could even say a single word – not that I would blame them if they did – but I just needed to talk to Mari and I was terrified she wouldn’t let me.

~

Mari’s POV; 1:10pm

I suddenly began to hear frantic knocking on the front door, making my eyes widen. I had only just put Asher down for his nap 15 minutes ago and I was not going to be happy if he was woken up. I threw my blanket off of my legs and quietly raced downstairs to look through the peephole, but whoever was there was covering it. I rolled my eyes and cracked the door open, my heart immediately skipping a beat.

“Calum?” I murmured, opening the door all the way, “What are you… How did you know I was here?”

“I made Kaylynn tell me,” he said, “She wasn’t happy about it, but she still told me.”

“Why are you here?” I whispered.

“I made a mistake, Mar,” he shook his head, a desperate tone in his voice, “I never wanted this to be an on-tour thing that ended after the last show.” And it almost hurt to hear him use my nickname again…

Almost.

“Then why did you say it was over?” my voice cracked, my eyes welling up with tears. He moved his hands as if he was going to wipe my cheeks, but he forced his arms to stay at his side, probably thinking that I wouldn’t want him to touch me – which wasn’t entirely untrue.

“Because I just… I’ve never done well with long distance and I didn’t want you to feel like it was your fault… I didn’t want you to feel guilty for living so far away whenever I told you I miss you…” he answered, looking down at his feet, “I wasn’t thinking about how ending it would have made you feel or what we could have done to make it work. If it makes you feel any better, I’ve been miserable since the moment the words left my mouth. No one will talk to me unless it’s to tell me how stupid I am – my mum, especially.” I was silent for a moment, eyeing him carefully, as I took in how genuinely sorry he really was – although, I was quite pleased to hear that even Joy was giving him a hard time.

“Makes me feel a little better,” I said softly. He looked back up at me after chuckling softly. “Do you… Do you wanna come in?” I asked him. He swallowed, barely nodding his head. I moved out of the way so he could come in, quietly closing the door. However, when I turned around to face him again, Calum couldn’t hold himself back.

“I’m in love with you,” he blurted out, his eyes immediately shutting tightly. My breathing hitched and I just stared at him. When I still didn’t speak after a few seconds, it was clear he was starting to get nervous. “Mari, please say something,” he muttered, his eyes still closed.

But that was the problem; I wasn’t sure what to say. So I just did the first thing that came to my mind.

Calum’s POV

To say I was shocked to feel Mari’s hands on my cheeks and her lips on mine was an understatement. My eyes shot open before fluttering back closed, my hands finding her hips and pulling her against me. We both let out sighs of relief, smiling when the other’s grip tightened at the same time.

When she pulled away to breathe, I rested my forehead on hers. Her right arm slid around my neck while her left hand remained on my face, her thumb stroking my cheekbone.

“I’m in love with you too, Cal,” Mari whispered, making me let out another deep breath.

“Am?” I murmured, “As in still?” She chuckled quietly, nodding her head.

“You’re a complete asshole and I hate you for what you did,” she shrugged, pressing a kiss to my nose, “But yeah – still.”

“A complete asshole who’s really, really sorry,” I nodded in agreement, “And is also really, really hoping you’ll forgive him.”

“I forgive you, Cal,” she told me, making me smile lightly. Her grip on my neck then tightened and my smile dropped again. “But if you ever do something like that again-” She spoke with a threatening tone. “-I’ll be on the first red-eye flight back to Sydney to kick your ass.” I couldn’t help but laugh under my breath.

“Kaylynn said the same thing when she told me you came back home,” I told her, “Except she said she was going to kill me.”

“I guess the question now is which one of us are you more afraid of?” I pretended to think about it for a moment.

“I think I’m pretty terrified of both of you equally,” I answered.

“You should be,” she mumbled, pressing her lips back to mine. I couldn’t keep myself from smiling – which ultimately shortened the kiss, but I was too happy she hadn’t kicked me out of her house to care.

When we pulled away again, I felt her start twirling the ends of my hair with her fingertips. I pressed a kiss to her forehead, moving back to find a puzzled look on her face that made me tilt my head.

“Did you not come here with anything?” Mari asked, finally realizing I would have had to Uber here and that I didn’t show up with any bags.

“No…” I said shyly, “To be honest, I really didn’t think you were going to forgive me.”

“So does that mean you’re going home today too?” she bit her inner cheek.

“You know, the band doesn’t have anything scheduled appearance-wise until the iHeart Awards in April…” I pointed out, “And I could always have the boys send some stuff to London… Luke and I can write together on Skype… Plane tickets can be refunded…”

“You’re gonna live with me until April?” she raised her eyebrows, obviously a little skeptical.

“If you’ll have me,” I mumbled.

“What about when you have to go home again?” her voice cracked involuntarily.

“My home is wherever you are, baby girl,” I said firmly, tightening my hold on her, “Even if I can’t be with you physically, I’m always right here-” I brought my hand up, gently poking the skin above her heart.

“Calum Hood, you are the cheesiest person I’ve ever met,” she said with a light blush on her cheeks, making me grin widely.

“I love you, princess,” I said just before my lips were back on hers.

“I love you too, Cal,” she whispered between kisses, and I was so grateful I finally had her back.

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Even If You Don’t: Chapter 27

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Michael’s POV

“Can we just have one day where you’re not moping around and feeling sorry for yourself?” Ashton huffed in the middle of another one of Calum’s tangents about how he didn’t want to go out for the fifth weekend in a row.

“I’m allowed to mope, Ashton,” Calum reminded him.

Luke snorted softly, “Mari has more of a reason to mope than you do but she’s not.”

“How do you know that?” he replied.

“They’ve been in the studio pretty much since they got home,” he answered harshly, “But I wouldn’t expect you to know that since you spend all your time in bed bitching about how sad you are.” Not wanting to hear another one of Calum’s excuses, Luke stood up abruptly and left the room. Unfortunately for him, however, he wasn’t able to get away that easily.

“You would be sad if you broke up with your girlfriend too, Luke!” Calum called after him.

“At least Luke doesn’t break up with people without a damn reason,” Ashton spat, leaving as well. Calum grumbled under his breath, looking at me.

“You gonna get pissy with me too?” he asked.

I was silent for a moment, trying to think of what I wanted to say. Well… Actually, I knew what I wanted to say – I just knew it wouldn’t be helpful to any of us to say it. It hurt to know how much Mari was still hurting over the breakup – we still texted every day, of course – and as much as I wanted to cuss Calum out for everything he was putting her through, it wasn’t going to help the situation at all.

“Cal,” I sighed, “The distance thing… It was temporary. That girl could be your forever. And you’re willing to just throw it all away because she lives in another country? This might be the stupidest thing you’ve ever done. For someone claiming to be in love with the girl, you’re pretty shit at showing it.” I walked away before he had the chance to respond, letting him make the decision on his own.

~

Calum’s POV

Three days later; London

I knew the boys weren’t going to be pleased to find out I’d left without any warning – though, I did leave a note telling them I’d be back soon – but I knew I had to go find Mari. I knew everyone meant well in their lectures with me about what I did – and I knew they were right as well – I guess I just didn’t want to admit it. But I knew that I had to make it right with Mari – I had to do it because I loved her.

My sister picked me up from the airport and took me straight to the recording studio – Kaylynn had tweeted about being there today. She didn’t say anything to me the whole ride, which I wasn’t too surprised about – both her and my parents hadn’t really wanted to speak to me since they found out what happened through the boys.

Mali parked out front and we both went in – she finally told me she needed to talk to someone whose name I didn’t catch. She went her own way after waving to a girl at the front desk while I went up to the girl sitting beside her.

“Where can I find Lost and Found?” I asked her, earning myself a dirty look – and I instantly knew she was a friend of Mari’s. When I realized she wasn’t going to tell me anything, my jaw tightened. “Listen,” I grumbled, “I don’t know you and you don’t know me and my business is not with you, so I need you to do your job and tell me where the band is so I can apologize to the people I need to apologize to.” She looked at me again for a moment before muttered a ‘B’ to me. I snapped back with a harsh ‘thank you’ before heading in the direction of studio B.

As I was walking toward the door, I could hear Mari’s voice singing. My heart was beating so hard, I honestly thought I was going to throw up as I then heard her stop and Kenzie speak.

“Can you play the second verse and pre-chorus again, Will?” she asked the producer, “I think I know what Mari’s going for, but I just need to hear it again.”

“Sure thing, Kenz,” Will replied, hitting play on what was obviously a recording. I sighed softly, realizing Mari wasn’t actually there – at least not that I knew of – but stopped at the door, wanting to hear what was only something I could assume Mari had written.

You were a vision in the morning when the light came through I know I’ve only felt religion when I’ve lied with you You said you’ll never be forgiven ‘til your boys are too And I’m still waking every morning but it’s not with you

You’re dripping like a saturated sunrise You’re spilling like an overflowing sink You’re ripped at every edge, but you’re a masterpiece And now you’re tearing through the pages and the ink

I leaned up against the wall, not even paying attention to Will and Kenzie’s exchanges anymore. I could hear the strain in Mari’s voice and I knew it was because of me – I knew that verse was about me. And I was sure she wouldn’t want to see me, but I knew I had to see her.

The moment I stepped into the doorway, Kenzie immediately stopped singing and laughed bitterly.

“Absolutely not,” she stated, causing Kaylynn, Vanessa, and Will to look over – while Mari was nowhere to be found. Vanessa simply rolled her eyes, resting back on the couch she was sitting on, but it seemed like Kaylynn was the most upset to see me there. She got up from her spot beside Vanessa, marched over, and backed me out of the room so I was standing in the middle of the hallway.

Kaylynn’s POV

“What the hell do you think you’re doing here?” I spat, crossing my arms and leaning against the door frame.

“Heard you guys were in the studio today,” Calum swallowed nervously.

“Oh, you still follow me on Twitter?” I laughed bitterly, “Surprised you didn’t block all of us after we left Sydney.”

“I need to talk to Mari.”

“Well, Mari’s not here – wasn’t feeling up to it,” I replied monotonously, “She hasn’t felt like doing much of anything since we got home now that I think about it. She did write a kick-ass song though, so I guess that’s something decent that came out of this.”

“Kaylynn-“

“You broke my best friend’s heart, Hood,” I growled, “You think we’re just going to let you come back and do it all over again? You ruined her. You became so much more than just her celebrity crush and the fact that you could just tear her down like that? You were very convincing though; You had all of us fooled with the way you looked at her – like she put the stars in the sky, I seem to recall hearing you tell the boys during soundcheck one day.”

“I swear, Kaylynn…” he choked, “I swear to God, none of that was fake. I never should have broken up with her because of something so stupid. I need to see her, Kay, please. Even if she doesn’t forgive me, I just need her to know I love her.”

I froze at the confession; I should have known that’s why he was here. If the last six months really didn’t mean anything to him, why would he have flown to London and be begging to see Mari now? Of course he was in love with her; He wouldn’t be doing all this if he wasn’t.

I let out a breath, walking over to the table in the room. I grabbed a pen and a piece of paper, going back to where Calum was still stood at the door. I scribbled a couple things down and shoved it into Calum’s chest.

“If you don’t fix this and she calls me later to yell at me for telling you where she is, I’m going to fly back to Sydney and kill you myself,” I warned him.

“Thank you,” Calum let out a deep breath, taking the paper and running back down the hallway.

Calum’s POV

I quickly found Mali as she was walking toward another room, grabbing her forearm and dragging her along with me.

“Calum!” she exclaimed, huffing when I didn’t respond. She simply sighed and got into the driver’s seat of her car as I sat shotgun. “Where are we going?” Mali asked as she started the car, understandably annoyed I forced her back outside. It wasn’t until then that I looked down at the paper Kaylynn had given me and read it.

Indianapolis

“The airport,” I murmured, realizing Mari had gone back home.

“Cal,” my sister groaned, but pulled onto the street anyway, “We were just there!”

“Mali, please,” I pouted, making her roll her eyes.

“If she forgives you and you screw up this big again, call an Uber the next time you come back to London to beg for her forgiveness,” she stated. I smiled slightly, knowing she was still taking me back to the airport.

~

An hour later, Mali dropped me off at the airport. I thanked her profusely, to which she only replied with ‘Just make sure you fix it, Calum; I actually like her’ – which was certainly something considering my sister never really liked any of the girls I’ve dated before.

I ran inside the building, making a beeline to the first information desk I saw. The woman sitting there clearly looked confused as I was practically shoving people to get to her.

“Hello, sir…” she said slowly when I reached her, “Welcome to London City Airport. What can I do for you?”

“I need to get on a flight Indianapolis like, right now,” I breathed heavily from running, leaning onto the desk.

“I’m sorry, sir, but the last flight left ten minutes ago,” she said apologetically, “I can get you a ticket for the next one, but that won’t be for another week.

“Are you sure there are no other options?” I begged, desperate to see Mari at this point.

“You could try connecting flights,” she shook her head, looking at her computer as she typed, “But it looks like it’ll still take you about a week to get to where you actually need.”

“Okay,” I sighed, putting my face in my palms so my voice was slightly muffled, “I’ll just take the earliest Indianapolis one you have.”

I paid the woman for my ticket and she told me when to be back at the airport next week. I stalked back outside, calling myself an Uber – I didn’t really want to force Mali to turn around and come back as she was already annoyed with me for making her drive two hours to and from the airport that day, and I returned to my sister’s place about an hour later – much to her surprise.

“Cal, what are you doing here?” she asked, cocking an eyebrow at me.

“Next flight to Indianapolis isn’t for another week,” I mumbled. Mali sighed, moving out of the way and allowing me to walk into her apartment.

“You’re an idiot, Calum,” she told me.

“I know,” I swallowed, “I’ve been hearing it a lot over the past few weeks.”

“Yeah, well, you haven’t been hearing it from me,” she stated, crossing her arms, “Did you really think this was going to go over smoothly? Did you think everyone was going to sympathize with your reasoning for breaking up with Mari? Did you think Mari wouldn’t have given long-distance a shot either?”

“Mali…”

“No, Calum! I’m not gonna baby you about this the way everyone else has!” she exclaimed, “Every time I saw you and Mari together, you were both so happy – I’ve never seen you that happy with someone you were dating before! What made you think that was going to change just because she lived 11,000 miles away?!”

“I don’t know, Mali,” I sighed, “I don’t do well with long-distance – you know that.”

“Mari deserved that explanation, Cal! She deserved more than you telling her that the distance was too much! She deserved the chance to try to make it work rather than you just not giving her the option!”

“I know, okay?!” I threw my arms up, “I know I fucked up! I know I’m an asshole! I know! But as much as you and me and everyone else wishes I could, I can’t go back and change it! I can’t go back in time and stop myself from breaking her heart, and I don’t even know if flying all the way to Indianapolis is going to make it all better, but I’m trying, okay?! Because as hard as it is for you and Mum and everyone else to believe, nobody hates me right now more than I do!” I ended my rant by throwing myself onto the couch, putting my hands on my face and breathing in and out slowly to calm myself down. I heard Mali sigh to herself before feeling the seat dip as she sat next to me.

“You’re an idiot,” she repeated in a whisper.

I only laughed dryly, “Tell me something I don’t know.” I wasn’t expecting to get an answer, but Mali started talking again.

“Nothing’s gonna make everyone forget what happened, Cal,” she told me, “But I know Mari… And I know that she’s the most forgiving person there is… So if she forgives you, then that’s the only person’s opinion on the situation that you need to care about.” I removed my hands from my face to look at her, finding her already looking at me.

“Thanks, Mali,” I said, my voice hardly even coming out. She barely smiled, wrapping her arm around my neck and pulling me into her for a hug.

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Even If You Don’t: Chapter 26

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Mari’s POV; Three weeks later

After nearly a month of being back in London, I couldn’t say I’d been feeling any better. My mind would always wander to Calum – what was he doing, who was he with, did he miss me as much as I missed him? I would mentally reprimand myself every time I wondered if he was broken up about me – he broke up with me; why would he do that if he cared about me?

It seemed like the only thing that could keep my mind away from Calum was being in the studio – though, I wouldn’t be the last to admit I was still distracted. The girls and I had written some pretty good songs. Well… They did… I was never much help anymore with everything that had been going on in my personal life…

“Mari,” I heard Kaylynn sing softly, knocking me out of another trance, “You okay?”

“Fine,” I nodded.

“You sure?” she questioned, “You’re not really yourself lately. You usually have 17 songs written when we come to the studio.”

“I don’t have 17 songs written, Kay,” I rolled my eyes, making them laugh.

“Fine, but you usually have at least one.” It was silent for a moment – the girls looking at me with curious and worried expressions – before I finally spoke again.

“I think I’m gonna go home for a while,” I said softly.

“Okay,” Kenzie nodded, “We’ll come by when-”

“No,” I cut her off, “I mean… Home…”

“Oh,” they said in unison as Vanessa continued, “Well, just text one of us when you land.”

“I’ll try to come back soon.”

“Don’t worry about it, Mar,” Kenzie shook her head, pulling me into a hug, “You stay for as long as you need.”

“We’ll try to talk to you every day,” Vanessa assured me, “We’re only 5 hours ahead, so I’m sure we’ll be awake at the same time a lot.”

“You guys are the best,” I murmured, hugging her as well before moving to hug Kaylynn.

“We’ll try to have a song written by the time you come back,” Kenzie added, “I mean, we’re not as talented as you are, but we’ll try.”

“Shut up,” I giggled under my breath, all of us saying ‘goodbye’ before I grabbed my things and headed back to my apartment.

~

16 hours later

I’d texted my mom before my flight departed asking if she’d come get me from the airport. After a few minutes of ‘Yes, Mom, I’m coming home’, ‘No, Mom, everything’s fine’, and ‘I just wanted to spend more time with the family’, she agreed to meet me at my gate.

It was about 4pm when I landed in Indy, so I was a bit tired with my body still being on London time, but I was happy to be back in my first home city. My mom was waiting exactly where she said she’d be – right at the gate with open arms. I happily dropped my carry-on bag so I could hug her, breathing in deeply as she hugged me back tightly.

“If you need to cry, that’s okay,” she told me, rubbing my back slightly.

“I’m not gonna cry in the middle of the airport, Mom,” I stifled a laugh.

“People cry in airports all the time! They’ll just think you’re happy to see me!” she insisted. I laughed again – a genuine one that time – and squeezed her a bit.

“I’ve been crying for three weeks,” I said, “I need a break.” She smiled sadly – I’d obviously told her everything about what happened with Calum.

“Well then, how about you and I go pick Ashy up from your grandma’s and we’ll go out and do something?” Mom suggested, letting go of me.

“Like what?” I asked, walking with her to baggage claim to wait for my suitcase.

“We could go to the mall,” she shrugged, “Or the zoo or something.”

“I say we save a trip to the zoo for tomorrow,” I replied, “It’ll be too close to closing by the time we get there anyway.”

“Good point,” she laughed, “Still want to go to the mall?”

“Do we really want to take Ashy to the mall?”

“You know what? I’ll see if Grandma will watch him for a couple more hours,” she said, making me laugh. Mom went to call my grandmother while I patiently waited for my suitcase to show up.

It only took a couple minutes before I noticed it coming around the corner, pulling it off the carousel when it got to me. I took the handle out and rolled it behind me as I made my way back to my mom. I talked to my grandma for a couple minutes – who gave me the usual ‘I heard what happened with you and Calum, honey, are you okay?’ spiel – before we hung up and my mom and I set off for the Circle Centre Mall.

~

Two hours later

Mom pulled into the driveway and we got our bags out of the trunk before we made our way to the front door. I unlocked it since Mom insisted on carrying my suitcase, clearly knowing what was waiting for me as soon as I opened the door.

“Mawi!” Asher cheered, running to me, “Mawi home!” I quickly put my bags down before he made it to me, picking him up and holding him on my hip.

“Hey, bud,” I grinned, hugging him about as tightly as he was hugging me, “I’ve missed you.”

“I miss you, Mawi,” he said, “You bwing candy?”

“Is that the only reason you like when I come home?” I pouted, “Because I bring you candy from London?”

“Not our fault English candy is better than American,” I heard my grandmother say, making me look up. I smiled as she came over to hug me. “Hi, sweetheart,” she said, “How are you feeling?”

“I’m good,” I nodded, “Glad to be home for a while.”

“Well, we’re glad to have you home,” Mom said.

“Candy?” Asher asked again, making us all laugh.

“Have you eaten dinner yet?” I asked. He frowned, instantly giving me my answer. I laughed again, pulling his shirt down slightly as I went on, “How about we go out to eat? My treat.”

“Mari,” Mom shook her head – she hated when I paid for everybody.

“I make my own money now, I pay my own bills – I decide how to spend it!” I announced, putting Asher back on his feet.

“This is what I don’t miss when you’re in London,” she sighed with a smile on her face. I smiled innocently, going to where my suitcase and our shopping bags were so I could take them upstairs.

“Figure out where you guys want to go!” I sang over my shoulder, hearing Mom and Grandma chuckle softly as I lugged everything up the staircase.

~

Three hours later; 9:30pm

I was sitting with Asher in his room, rocking him lightly to get him to go to sleep. We’d been talking about whatever he could think of – usually about everything he’d done since I’d last been home – until the question I was dreading came up.

“Mawi, where Calum?” he asked. I paused for a moment, feeling my chest get tighter. I knew how much Asher adored Calum and I really wasn’t looking forward to how he would react to hearing he’d never see him again.

“Calum’s not here,” I answered, hoping my voice didn’t waver too much, “We broke up.”

“Why?” he pouted. I took a deep breath and let it out slowly.

“He didn’t want me anymore…” I swallowed. I felt Asher reposition himself slightly so he was sitting on my lap facing me. He laid his head on my chest and cuddled up to me even more so than he had been before.

“I always want you, Mawi,” he murmured. I couldn’t keep myself from grinning.

“I always want you too, Ashy,” I replied, kissing the top of his head.

It was silent for a few minutes after that until I started hearing soft snoring coming from the little boy on top of me. I chuckled softly – honestly thankful that I didn’t have to sing Beside You to him to get him to go to sleep – as I carefully stood up and laid him down on his bed. I pulled his blanket over him and leaned down to kiss his forehead, then quietly moving across the room so I could go back to my own, leaving the door open a crack so I would hear when he woke up later.

~

One hour later

I wasn’t exactly sure how long it had been since I’d put Asher to bed when I started hearing crying coming from his room. It brought me back to reality – the reality that I was upset with myself for still crying over Calum – and I quickly wiped my face before getting off of my bed. I figured he’d just had a nightmare, but when I found my mom already sitting with him – him on her lap and her hugging him tightly – I knew it was something a lot more than just another bad dream. I quickly hid around the corner before they noticed I was there so I could listen in.

“Ashy,” Mom sighed, rubbing his back, “It’s not your fault she’s feeling sad.”

“But can’t make her stop crying!” Asher frowned, his bright green eyes filling up with tears, “Want Mawi to stop crying!” My heart dropped as I listened to him cry into Mom’s shirt – I hadn’t even realized he’d been hearing me this whole time – but I felt so lucky to have someone who just wanted me to be happy.

And it was at that point that I’d finally had the inspiration to finish a song I’d been working on since I boarded the flight to Indy.

I quietly hurried back to my room, grabbing my song book and my phone from both their spots. I then threw on a hoodie since it was October and headed outside so I wouldn’t disturb my mom as she tried to get Asher to go back to sleep.

~

One and a half hours later

Once I’d finished the song to my standards, I unlocked my phone and opened the voice recorder app. Since I still couldn’t manage to play a guitar and I didn’t have a keyboard or piano, I had to sing it acapella and hope I didn’t mess up and have to redo it too many times.

Your little brother never tells you, but he loves you so You said your mother only smiled on her TV show You’re only happy when your sorry head is filled with dope I hope you make it to the day you’re 28-years-old

You’re dripping like a saturated sunrise You’re spilling like an overflowing sink You’re ripped at every edge, but you’re a masterpiece And now you’re tearing through the pages and the ink

Everything is blue; his pills, his hands, his jeans And now I’m covered in the colors, pulled apart at the seams And it’s blue, and it’s blue

Everything is grey; his hair, his smoke, his dreams And now he’s so devoid of color; he don’t know what it means And he’s blue, and he’s blue

You were a vision in the morning when the light came through I know I’ve only felt religion when I’ve lied with you You said you’ll never be forgiven ‘til your boys are too And I’m still waking every morning, but it’s not with you

You’re dripping like a saturated sunrise You’re spilling like an overflowing sink You’re ripped at every edge, but you’re a masterpiece And now you’re tearing through the pages and the ink

Everything is blue; his pills, his hands, his jeans And now I’m covered in the colors, pulled apart at the seams And it’s blue, and it’s blue

Everything is grey; his hair, his smoke, his dreams And now he’s so devoid of color; he don’t know what it means And he’s blue, and he’s blue

You were red and you liked me ‘cause I was blue But you touched me and suddenly I was a lilac sky And you decided purple just wasn’t for you

Everything is blue; his pills, his hands, his jeans And now I’m covered in the colors, pulled apart at the seams And it’s blue, and it’s blue

Everything is grey; his hair, his smoke, his dreams And now he’s so devoid of color; he don’t know what it means And he’s blue, and he’s blue

Everything is blue, everything is blue Everything is blue, everything is blue

I listened to the recording to make sure it was good enough before I sent Kenzie – because I knew that, even though it was 3am back in London, she would still be awake – the audio file along with a quick ‘Came up with this on the flight here and worked all night on it. Hopefully we can use it for the album??’ message. A few minutes later – exactly the amount of time it would have taken her to listen to the audio – she texted me back.

I couldn’t help but laugh softly and we texted for a few more minutes before I told her I was going to bed, already walking back into the house and locking the door behind me. She replied with a goodnight message and I plugged my phone into the charger, put it on my nightstand, and I was asleep within a couple minutes of lying down.

Song used: “Colors” by Halsey

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Even If You Don’t: Chapter 25

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Mari’s POV; 9am

I woke up the next morning the sun shining directly on my face. I groaned quietly, rolling onto my other side, opening my eyes to find Kaylynn watching TV.

“Morning, sunshine,” she giggled at my less-than-amused expression.

“Tell the sunshine to go away,” I whined, burying half of my face in the pillow.

“I don’t think I can do that, sorry,” she smiled, getting up and going to the window, “But I can close the curtain.”

“I’m already awake,” I sighed, “I might as well just pack.”

“Already done,” Kaylynn informed me, “Your sweats are on the bathroom counter with your toiletry bag, so all you have to pack is that and your pajamas.” I smiled slightly.

“Thanks, Kay,” I murmured, dragging myself out of bed and into the bathroom to get ready for the day.

I brushed my teeth, changed into my other clothes, and went back into the room. Kaylynn had turned the TV off and made both of our beds, ready to go get Kenzie and Vanessa to go to the boys’ house.

“You sure you still want to go?” Kaylynn asked, “We can just hang around here until we have to head to the airport.

“I’m sure,” I nodded, “I still have to kick Mikey’s ass in GTA one more time.”

“That’s my girl,” she beamed, holding her hand up for a high-five.

I grinned lightly again and we met the other two girls in the hallway after making sure we had everything we’d brought with us. Kaylynn had called Bryan after I went into the bathroom, so he was already waiting for us when we got outside.

Once we made it to the boys’ house, we didn’t even get to knock on the door before Ashton was pulling it open.

“Hey, guys!” he smiled brightly – way too chipper for 9:30am in my opinion, but hey, that was Ashton for you. “Come in!” he ushered us inside, “Guys! They’re here!”

“Wow,” Kaylynn nodded as she looked around, “It’s cleaner this time around.”

“Yeah, well, Ash made us clean when we got back from shows all week,” Luke said, coming into the room with Calum following behind him like a lost puppy. We made eye contact for a brief moment, but quickly looked away when the blonde started talking again. “Mike’s waiting for you downstairs, Mari,” he looked at me, “Said he’s looking forward to kicking your ass in GTA.”

“In his dreams,” I rolled my eyes. I tightly gripped the hoodie in my hands, holding it out to Calum. “Here, Cal...” I said softly, “Figured you’d want this back.” He barely nodded, taking it from me before I hurried downstairs.

I trotted to the main room of the basement where Michael was sitting on the floor in front of the TV, already playing Grand Theft Auto V. He had propped himself up against the couch, a second controller sitting beside him.

“Hi, Mikey,” I said softly, going around the back of the couch so I didn’t walk in front of him.

“Mari!” he beamed, pausing the game and waiting for me to sit down so he could hug me tightly. Michael ended his current game and switched to multiplayer so I could join in.

~

About 30 minutes of in-game horseplay and Michael's terrible jokes later, he apparently decided to get serious.

“We know what happened last night, kitten,” Michael told me as we continued playing the game. I let out a breathy laugh.

“I should have known Kay was gonna tell you,” I replied.

“How do you know Cal didn’t?”

“Because I know him,” I murmured.

“It’s okay to be upset about it, you know?” he said thoughtfully, “It was a really shitty reason to end it.”

“I know, but if he couldn’t handle the distance, I don’t want to make him stay with me,” I shrugged, “Maybe we just weren’t meant to be.”

“Like you believe that,” he nudged me. I laughed lightly again, laying my head on his shoulder.

“I don’t,” I confirmed, “But I’ll get over it. I don’t want to talk about that anyway. I’d rather talk about how many times I’m gonna kick your ass in the next six hours.”

“Oh, I love talking about dreams!” he sighed dramatically. I elbowed his side, picking my head up to look at him.

“Alright then, what do you say we make this a little more interesting, Clifford?” I proposed.

“How so, Duncan?” he returned with a small smirk.

“We turn away from the TV and try to kill each other without looking,” I said, “Whoever loses buys pizza for everyone for lunch.”

“Oh, you are so on,” he snickered. We put our characters in the same room and switched weapons to only our fists, then spun around so we were no longer facing the TV just as everyone else was coming down the stairs.

“What are you guys doing?” Kenzie asked with a small giggle.

“Mari’s buying lunch!” Michael chirped.

“Loser’s buying lunch,” I reminded him, rolling my eyes.

“Isn’t that what I said?” he smirked again, earning himself a shove.

“Here’s how it’s gonna work, Mikey,” I announced, “This is gonna be a clean game – that means no one will tell us where our characters are, no weapons except for hands, and if you put any one of your fingers near my controller, I’m gonna snap it in half.”

Michael gasped dramatically, “I can’t believe you don’t trust me, kitten.”

“I’d trust you with my life, Mikey,” I stated, “I just don’t trust you when we’re playing video games.”

He paused for a moment before nodding, “Fair enough. You ready for this, Duncan?”

“Born ready, Clifford,” I grinned slyly, “Okay, someone count us down.” Vanessa happily took initiative.

“3... 2... 1... Go!” she squeaked.

It was only about 7 minutes later that a winner was declared. Everyone started cheering as Michael and I snapped our heads back to the TV, finding the ‘WASTED’ screen over his character.

“Yeah!” I shouted happily, throwing my arms up.

Michael threw his arms around my waist and tackled me to the ground, lying on top of me. He started tickling my sides to make me laugh, but I didn’t mind, honestly; I knew I needed a good laugh after what had happened yesterday.

Calum’s POV

Since I was standing behind everyone, I got lucky in that no one noticed how tight my jaw was getting. Mari and Michael had been best friends pretty much since the moment we all met, but the way her face scrunched up in the same way that it did when she was with me made me jealous beyond all reason.

I knew it was my fault – and boy, did I hate myself for it – but that was the thing about me; No matter how badly I wanted to fix things, I was incredibly stubborn. And no matter how jealous I was now was going to make me admit to anyone else that I was wrong.

~

Mari’s POV; 10:30pm

Calum wouldn’t stop staring at me the entire time we were waiting in the airport terminal and I found myself desperate for our plane to start boarding so I didn’t have to deal with it anymore. His gaze made me feel so self-conscious and small that I just wanted to curl into a ball and disappear.

Finally, like God was speaking down from the heavens himself, the woman over the airport intercom announced that our flight to London was finally boarding.

I let out a small sigh of relief, quickly grabbing the peppermint hot chocolate from Starbucks that Michael insisted to buy for me off the table as we all stood up. After making sure we all had our carry-ons, the boys followed us to the gate entrance, all of them except for Calum having prominent pouts on their faces.

“Don’t be strangers, okay?” Michael hugged the other girls, “If you’re ever back in Sydney, we’ll take care of you.”

“My mum’s dog would take better care of me than you would,” Kaylynn shot him a glare, shoving his shoulder. I let out a breath as I giggled softly, keeping my head down but still knowing everyone had looked at me.

“I think I could out-care a dog, Kaylynn,” he scoffed, turning his attention back to the bassist.

“Don’t be so sure, Mike,” Vanessa chirped, “Cal was a search and rescue dog for half of her life.”

“Cal?” he raised his eyebrows.

“Cal,” Kaylynn interrupted, her tone menacing, “Short for Callie. I would argue it really is a great nickname for a bitch though, wouldn’t you?” Calum swallowed thickly when she looked at him. “Oh, right!” she exclaimed plainly, “Cal is your nickname too! I totally forgot! What are the cha-“

“Kay,” I whispered, making everyone look at me again, “It’s not worth it; Let’s just forget it and go home.” The girls agreed and began walking toward the gate while I remained in my spot. Luke and Ashton hugged me tightly before Michael took his turn.

“Stay in touch, okay?” he mumbled into my ear, “I’m gonna miss playing video games and causing trouble with you.” I let out a genuine laugh that time.

“You've got my gamer tag, Mikey – just text me whenever you wanna play,” I squeezed him lightly before letting go, “And if you’re ever back in London, I don’t mind sharing a bed with you.” I stole a glance at Calum, taking note of how his jaw had tightened, before looking at the other boys. “Thanks for bringing us on tour, guys. It’s a shame it had to come to an end,” I said, my eyes trained on Calum. I stood there for a moment before bending down to pick up my carry-on bag and turning around, walking toward the gate.

“Duncan!” I heard Michael call out. I turned, now walking backwards slowly. “Call me when you get back, yeah?” he told me, “Wanna know you got home safe.” The corner of my mouth twitched into a half-smile.

“Anything for my favorite person, Clifford,” I told him, noticing Calum shift uncomfortably.

“Hey!” Luke pouted, “I was your favorite person three hours ago!”

“Better start being more careful about talking with your hands then, Hemmo,” I shot back, pulling on the bottom of the shirt he had given me to replace mine when he spilled his drink on me at dinner.

He sighed, “I’m not getting that back, am I?”

“Nope,” I smirked, winking at him before turning around again and hurrying to the gate before I missed my flight.

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Even If You Don’t: Chapter 24

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Mari’s POV

I trudged back to the stage where everyone else still was, wiping my eyes the best I could before I got there. I shoved my hands into the pocket of the hoodie I’d stolen from Calum’s suitcase that morning and tried to make it seem like nothing had changed, but I wasn’t sure if I was doing a very good job.

“Mari!” Michael chirped when he noticed I was coming back, “We were thinking about going out to eat to celebrate the last show of the tour! Are you in?”

“I’m kinda tired,” I answered quietly, “I think I’m just gonna go back to the hotel.”

“You’re still gonna come over to our house tomorrow though, right?” he pouted, “I’m gonna miss having an actual challenge when playing video games with someone.” Luke scoffed, but didn’t say anything. My heart started racing when I heard Calum coming up behind me, but I shrugged it off the best I could.

“Yeah, Mikey,” I promised him, “We’re still coming over.” Michael smiled brightly, bouncing over to me and hugging me tightly.

“See you tomorrow, kitten,” he squeezed me lightly as my arms wound around his midsection.

“You’re more of a kitten than I am, Mikey,” I reminded him.

“But like, a bad ass kitten,” he stated, letting go of me. I rolled my eyes, making him laugh. “Do you want me to ask Bryan to drive you back to your hotel?” he asked.

“Nah,” I shook my head, “I’d rather walk.”

“Okay, well, when you get lost, call me,” he snickered, earning himself a slap to the chest from me. “Be careful,” he said seriously, kissing the top of my head lightly, “We’ll have Bryan come by the hotel and bring you over tomorrow.” I simply nodded, hugging Luke and Ashton and telling the girls I’d see them when they got back. I didn’t even so much as glance at Calum as I left, which understandably worried the group, but they clearly decided not to ask about it.

~

Kaylynn’s POV

“Mari, we’re back,” I announced quietly as Kenzie, Vanessa, and I entered the room.

We found her lying on her bed and figured she was already asleep, so Kenzie and Vanessa went across the hall to their own room, not wanting to wake her up. I put my key card on the nightstand, grabbed my pajamas from my suitcase, and went to the bathroom to get ready for bed.

When I came back into the room, I heard a quiet sniffling sound and my heart dropped. Mari was never a person to really cry – especially when she knew there were other people around – so hearing her do it now was a little surprising.

“Mar,” I whispered, sitting on the edge of the bed beside her back. I put my hand on her shoulder, “You okay?”

“No...” she whimpered honestly, but not turning to face me.

“What happened?”

“Y-You know how Cal and I disappeared f-for a minute before we all l-left the venue?” she asked. I was silent, but she could tell I nodded. She obviously didn’t know how to ease into what she had to say, so she just said came out and it. “H-He broke up with m-me.” My jaw practically hit the floor – that was the last thing I would have ever assumed would come out of her mouth in that moment.

“He what?!” I whisper-yelled. Mari finally turned onto her back so she could wipe her eyes with the sleeves of Calum’s hoodie.

“H-He said that he doesn’t th-think we’ll be able to handle b-being 11,000 miles f-from each other all the- all the t-time,” she told me.

“What the fuck?” I whispered to myself before turning my attention back to the girl in front of me.

I could clearly see how hard she was trying to keep herself from falling apart, and that only made me more upset at Calum for doing this to her. Mari was the strongest person I knew and the fact that someone had this much of an effect on her showed me how much she really cared about him.

“It’s okay to cry, Mar,” I said softly, moving so I was completely sitting on the bed now, propped up against the headboard, “It’s only us in here. Just let it out.” Mari’s bottom lip trembled and the waterworks quickly followed. I pulled on her so her head was on my lap and I just let her cry herself to sleep.

10 minutes later, when I was 100% sure that she were asleep and hadn’t just run out of tears, I carefully lifted her head off of my thighs and made sure she at least looked comfortable before I grabbed my keycard and left the room. I knocked quietly on Kenzie and Vanessa’s door and luckily, they weren’t asleep yet.

“Kay, what’s wrong?” Kenzie asked as I barged into the room the second after the door opened.

“I’ll explain in a few,” I said, pulling out my phone to text Michael.

Michael texted back almost immediately.

I scoffed at the message on my screen.

It took Michael a moment to respond, probably confused as to what I meant by that.

~

Michael’s POV

“Emergency meeting with the girls, guys,” I said, walking into the kitchen where Luke and Ashton were. Calum wasn’t there – he was upstairs asleep as far as the rest of us were concerned – so I knew I didn’t have to check to see if he was there beforehand.

“What for?” Ashton asked.

“Don’t know,” I shrugged, “But I told Kay we’d be there in 5.”

“Okay, I’ll go see if Cal’s awake.”

“Cal’s not invited,” I informed them.

“Why not?” Luke cocked an eyebrow.

“I don’t know, but apparently, Mari’s not gonna be there either,” I shook my head, “Kay said to go to Vanessa and Kenzie’s room and be quiet in the hall so we don’t wake her up.” Luke and Ashton glanced at each other for a moment before grabbing their jackets so we could head to the girls’ hotel.

Upon arriving, I texted Kaylynn as promised and she gave me the room number. She met us at the elevator, reminding us not to make a lot of noise as we approached the room. I looked at the door across from the one she was taking us to, wondering why Mari and Calum weren’t in on this ‘emergency meeting’.

“So can we know what’s going on now?” I asked, earning a chorus of agreements from Luke and Ashton as well as Kenzie and Vanessa, who apparently didn’t know what was happening either.

“We have a problem,” Kaylynn informed the group as we all sat on the ends of the two beds, standing in front of us.

“And I’m assuming that problem involves Mari and Calum somehow?” Kenzie wondered.

“Earlier this evening, Calum and Mari disappeared to a dressing room,” the bassist started, “One can only assume that when a couple sneaks into an empty dressing room, they’re going to-“

“Kay!” Vanessa exclaimed, “We don’t want to know what they did!”

“Oh, but you do!” she scoffed, “You see, my dear friends, our young, star-crossed lovers were not doing things that they would be embarrassed of if we were to find out about them – no, no, no. They were in there because he broke up with her.” Everyone’s jaws dropped slightly and we all stared at each other in shock.

“I don’t know what I was expecting to hear,” Ashton said softly, “But that was not it.”

“Calum...broke up with Mari?” I shook my head, trying to wrap my mind around it.

“Why would he do that?” Kenzie whispered.

“Yeah,” Vanessa added, “They seemed so happy.”

“11,000 miles was apparently a deal-breaker for him,” Kaylynn answered.

“So what do we do?” Luke spoke up, “Like... Do we try to make them work it out before you leave or...”

“Won’t that just make them more upset though?” Kenzie wondered, “I mean, now that I think about it, Mari did seem pretty out of it before she came back here earlier. What if forcing them to talk to each other just makes it worse?”

“I think if they really want to work it out, they will,” Kaylynn sighed, “And if they don’t... Well... I guess that’s just it.”

“I agree,” Ashton nodded solemnly, “And I think that if Mari doesn’t want to come over tomorrow, then we shouldn’t force her.”

“Agreed,” everyone said simultaneously. The boys and I got up, saying goodbye to the girls and leaving the room to head back home, unsure of what we were going to say to Calum – if we had anything to say to him at all.

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