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TW: VENT/RANT

sh, su!c!d3, m3nt@l hosp, attachment issues??, me being petty

ok so i went to the mental hospital got out like a little less than a month ago... i called my crush (his code name is cookie/brownie) while i was there (he is also my friend and i rllly trust him he is like an actually sweet teen anyways) and he didnt answer but uhm anyways i was at school for one day, my first day back and he left the next day for like a week and 1/2 or sum to vacation and so uhm when he got back, it was rlly awkward like we werent talking like at all and so uhm its rlly been getting to me so i like uhm kinda wrote him a note today and gave it to him it said 'are you mad at me?' omfg im so petty......................... and at the end of class he handed me the note and said 'next time you can talk to me with your mouth' not in a mean way or anything but yeah uhm then i kinda started sobbing for like an hour heh... uhm so i went and talked to my fav staff at the school (shes similar to a school counseler shes chill) and i talked to her abt how i thought he was mad at me and didnt wanna be friend anymore and shit like that also i think he likes my friend.......... anyways (he knows i like him he dont like me)

uhm yeah so i let her call him down and we uh talked.. i was sobbing i looked so fucking ugly omgggg anyways uhm he wasnt mad at me or anything and i said i just felt like whenever i talk to him i feel like im bothering him and he said i wasnt bothering him and that i can talk to him uhm and like he noticed we were talking less and stuff but yea. and i asked if he was like weirded out and stuff bc i had to go to the hospital or like smth like that like he knows abt my mental health, suicide attempts and cutting and shit but like you never know...

bro i kept saying im sorry to him while sobbing

anyways he was getting up to leave and he said i hope you feel better and my fucking dumbass said "wait me??" and then (weel call her butterfly) butterfly was like 'well he wasnt saying it to me.' lmaooo so i just gotta trust that he isnt mad or anything its just so hard like anxiety is a fucking bitchhhh espc social anxiety omfg and my attachment issues dont get me started-

if you took the time to read this, thank you <3 i just need a place to let it all out bc nowhere else is safe anymore.

feel free to comment and talk to me <3

but like honestly i love him. he's like the only person i've ever loved romantically.

#self h@rm #suic!de #mentally fucked #actually mentally ill #cvtt!ng #cvtting addict #i wanna die #crushcore #crushing #crush imagines #crush rant #i love him so much #middle school #high school

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was good cuh lmao naurrrr

i have to lose 25kg yall got me ded im 130lbs rnnnn

ima be an actual stick help

#th1nsp1ration #b0dych3x #deathspo #light as a feather #pro for me not for thee #st4rv1ng #i wanna lose weight

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my dash is SO DRY lately soooo ->

REBLOG IF UR AN ACTIVE EDBLR BLOG AS OF: APRIL 2024

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CHAT THIS IS URGENT AF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OKAY SO...

do you think my crush would get weirded out if i like hugged him...?

we're friends not super close but like close in a diferent way yk like he knows my stuff...... but like idk should i make myself sob and then try to hug him or just be not crying helpp i know one of his love languages is physical touch but idk how he would react like he knows i like him heLPPPPPPPPPPPP

i just really wanna hug him >:((

#babygirl things #this is a girlblog #selfshipping #finn wolfhard #crushcore #love #cupidcore #crushing #love letters

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planning a fast today!!!!!!

wish me luck

#of notes= how many kg i have to lose!!!

#b0dych3x #deathspo #th1nsp1ration #light as a feather #pro for me not for thee #st4rv1ng #i wanna be tiny

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no bc holy fucking SHIT!!!??!

DAMN BRO REALITY REALLY HIT

after tmrw im deadass going to starve like WTF IS THIS IM SO FAT JESUSSSSSS

drink water <3

#th1nsp1ration #b0dych3x #deathspo #light as a feather #pro for me not for thee #st4rv1ng #this is a girlblog

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excuse me, sir?

#this is a girlblog #babygirl things

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no bc gaslighting myself into thinking he will like me once i'm skinny >>>>>>>>>>

bro what even is gaslighting? lmao never heard of it.

#th1nsp1ration #b0dych3x #deathspo #ed behaviour tw #light as a feather #pro for me not for thee #st4rv1ng

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Only reblog this if you can and will lose the weight. No excuses. You are in control.

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my biggest th!n$p0 rn

OMFG BROOOO

i wanna look like that next to him <33333333

#th1nsp1ration #deathspo #light as a feather #ed behaviour tw #pro for me not for thee #b0dych3x #this is a girlblog #st4rv1ng

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help my dad just body shamed me

i wish they knew how hard i restricted today

i really am trying

just wait, in a few months he'll be so fucking sorry

he'll feel so bad for ever doubting me

this will be me in like 6 more months just wait maybe 8

i REFUSE to be fat

i WILL be skinny

#th1nsp1ration #light as a feather #ed behaviour tw #pro for me not for thee #st4rv1ng #deathspo #b0dych3x #this is a girlblog #anor3c1a #4narex1a

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however many notes this gets is how many pounds i have to lose before 6/26/2024 <3 thx lovelies

or my bday, nov 16

feel free to comment motivation, meanspo, tips or just anything rly :)

im going on vacation with some other girls, and im not tryna be fat on the beach!!! >o<

not my pic shoutout to owner comment for removal <3 thx ly baby

#th1nsp1ration #tw ed diet #ed disorder #ed vent #this is a girlblog #ed not sheeren #@n@ tips #4n0r3xia

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hey everyone, i was just wondering if there are any requests for moodboards or just photo dumps of people/things you would like me to make?

thank you!

<3

#finn wolfhard #grunge #babygirl things #boris pavlikovsky #tw ed diet #th1nsp1ration #ed meals #moodboard #retro aesthetic #a e s t h e t i c

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i luv this man so much <3

#finn wolfhard #babygirl things #boris pavlikovsky #trevor spengler #miles fairchild #my boy <3 #i love him so much #celebrityblogger

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erm yes please im so fucking fat

Repost to loose 10kgs 🎀🦋

#th1nsp1ration #tw ed diet #thinspø #babygirl things

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repost to have a flat stomach by the end of the month

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I’ve lost 10 pounds in 4 days

🌸🍄reblog so it can happen to you too!🍄🌸