kdylanspencer

[kdylanspencer]

Sometimes family feels like love, comfort, and a safety net wrapped in razor wire.

#family #Did someone say therapy #fantasy vs. reality #perception vs. reality #dysfunctional #dysfunctional family #why #is it just me #black sheep #writing as therapy

[kdylanspencer]

Forgotten Lyrics

“Hate in your heart will consume you too”

It gets in your bones, turns everything to ash

Sometimes you can smell it

Burning up the air around you

taking all the breath you have

leaving nothing left of you

nothing you recognize or can comprehend

My core belief has always been

that the reason we’re here is

“To love one another, take care of each other”

I’m not feeling that, and it makes me falter

I have failed and so has she

On so many levels

She is unreachable, unapologetic…

I face the blame alone because she is unwilling to share it.

She wants everything easy and all the attention

But doesn’t want to do any of the learning, giving, growing…

The hard work of maintaining and working through.

Choices were made, some of them bad, all of them hard

I miss my daughter, but I don’t regret the choice to protect what she wouldn’t or couldn’t.

And here we are again, right back where we started…Almost.

With new players, and a remixed lyric with no honor or respect for the layers of history or the concept of truth

Repeating the same mistake and inventing new ones.

I have hit the wall of endurance. I’m done doing backflips and parkours.

“I’m letting go…cause I can’t do this on my own…

Jesus, take the wheel”

You have chosen to build a wall between us

And now you’re putting one between them

This wall cannot stand.

Eventually two men will emerge

And build a bridge

And a river of truth will flow

What will you do then?

“Where are you now…can you hear me?”

~ K. Dylan Spencer

*lyrics from the following songs:

“Just the Two of Us” Song by Will Smith, Songwriters: William Salter / Ralph Mac Donald / William Harrison Withers Jr.

“Message of Love” Song by The Pretenders, Songwriters: Chrissie Hynde

“Jesus, Take the Wheel” Song by Carrie Underwood, Songwriters: Hillary Lindsey / Brett James / Gordie Sampson

“Papa, Can You Hear Me?” Song by Barbra Streisand, Songwriters: שרים אלדד / Legrand, Michel Jean / Bergman, Alan / Bergman, Marilyn

#writing #back in the saddle #song lyrics #brothers #it's been awhile #it's been a long while #shaking off the rust #creative writing #poem #feelings #musicismagic #music is magic #a work in progress

[kdylanspencer]

Writing incoming...eventually.

Aside from looking at all the beautiful art, I came here to work on my writing and get back in the habit. It's been quite awhile since I've written, since before I got sick. I'm better now and my brain is not complete mush anymore. The goal is to start posting something every Thursday. Sometimes it will be part of a story, sometimes a writing exercise...to get back in the swing of things. Wish me well.

#recovery #writing #goals #iusedtobegoodatthis