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My Father's List Of Character Traits
My Father was a big one for Character in a man he referred to them as traits. These were the most emphasized and important ones to him. A must for any Good man to succeed in life ...
Integrity, Dignity, Responsibility, Love
Reputation, Respect, Strength, Honor
Honesty, Loyalty, Trust, Courage, Valor
Pride, Compassion, Empathy, God, Country
My Mother and Father separated after 33 years of marriage. We were adults then lives and children of our own. Adult children have a harder time excepting situations like this. Always thinking a side needs to be taken. Me I had always been different I could see no side to be taken seeking my answers from God and my heart. As long as they were both happy with their decision then that must be the right one the only one that fit whatever happened somewhere along there path. He would always be my Father as she would always be my Mother I still loved and honored them both just the same.The "dust" among the Family settled and time began to move forward. They remained good friends and he still included her when an event that included family was going on. When my mother needed help with something and called him as a last resort he didn't fail her. He really was decent, caring, loving Man.
Shortly after their divorce my Father began spending his weekends with me and my family. We used to play Cribbage Marathons the whole weekend often not going to bed staying awake the whole weekend. It was our time and we spent it well. Talk, laugh, and love. I remember a conversation, or should I say an explanation, he thought he owed me for the separation ending with divorce.
He'd been drinking looked at me and said, "Lee Ann do you remember when I used to talk about a Man's Character Traits?" My eyes filled with tears, I was just a child then, and I nodded yes. It's a Wall that defends and protects the things he values and loves the most in his life... his family and close friendships which take years to build. Well, these traits are ones that a man needs to hold true to himself once he starts backing away from these personal promises it starts his Wall crumbling and cracking showing flaws. I developed flaws in my own Character. These traits aren't just words they are the mortar that help keep that Wall sturdy and strong these are words you choose to live by. These traits you alone earned as you grew and experienced life. You work hard to get them, but realize early how easy it is to lose them.
They can't be bought because you and your actions determine just how and when they are earned. Somewhere in my past I failed myself, I lied to myself and started believing in my own lies damaging some of the traits I earned and promised to stand by. Although I regret it I can't change it now it's too late. The price was high it cost me a wife, the respect of friends, and now it's going to take time to earn back those traits again." He had tears as he held my hand. I never said anything I didn't need to. He was a bigger man than he ever knew to share what he did with me. He never needed an explanation I was his daughter my love never changed towards that man, my father.
I miss him dearly and from time to time when I pray for a little strength a memory will float in. Thank you God I've always known your with me and you do hear me.
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Are Our "every chance" rides are becoming just that... chance.
I can tell the weather is changing my "every chance" rides are becoming just that... chance. Party and ride comes to mind here lately because the "Party" is each day I'm given a present the most precious gift of all I wake up. Time is a commodity one that can't be purchased a life's resource that goes by so fast one that I put about 1000 miles a month on "Elvis" I cherish each and every mile. The ride is my choice of destinations the house, the road, a "best" ❤️ friend, (you know who you are), or some place yet undiscovered by me. I was given a blessed "true" heart an honest heart with honest love which I regained strength back with "Elvis", (my Trike"), feeling the wind, road, rain, and scenery that holds so many good memories, but also the freedom to do them the choice is mine. I've done for others all my life I'm being rather selfish now and taking the much needed time for me now.
I have my whatever, whenever or just for the hell of it days back from my best friend, David, who wasn't afraid to live when he was alive. I found his pocket fishing pole which is in the trunk now even if I don't use it the memories associated with it are priceless. Even with the pain associated with death if you haven't learned the most valuable lesson yet which is life is meant for living not just existing invite your past to live with you in your future they can and do coexist in harmony if you have the courage to set them free. These precious souls that honored us by sharing, loving, caring, and enjoying our company deserve to be remembered I know the footprints are still fresh and always on my heart bringing a smile to my face when it's one those " I remember when moments..." These aren't just moments shared with family, but the best judges of character... Friends I'm proud he left such a broad "footprint".
When carrying a true heart... one that is caring, honest, and giving... often comes with the risk, a price per-say, of being used because the faith you often grant others outweighs the possibility of deception just because of your "benefit of the doubt" nature you give them the choice, a chance, hopefully it was a wise decision on your part only time will tell. You are genuine in your sharing of a deep understanding in a true belief and desire that your actions are the footprints to be left when your time here physically ends. So I really do try to leave an impression I can live with knowing I gave it my best... gave it my all. But, also to treat people the way I would hope they would treat me because actions do speak louder than words.
A true heart loves honestly and completely. Love being what it is never dies when it becomes hurt, damaged, shattered by life, or bruised it retreats to a place deep inside to heal itself it doesn't fade away, die, stop, or cease to exist it just needs the time to regroup finding a path to mending. Most people don't think of this when things happen only feel the hurt, grief and pain that is so very often mistaken as anger. Yes a little of us dies when life happens, but remember it was the footprints of their actions that trigger the memories and feelings that linger behind mine are the wants that I'm just learning are the deepest part of a real "honest" love you'll ever miss.
To me when you have Honest Love the possibilities are limitless. Just have courage, patience, faith, go forward with an open mind and believe in the unbelievable let "firsts" happen don't question them... go with them.
Left Like Glass Shattered
Security comfort love lived for years sheltered a world that never wanted no needs only kindness harmony love two hearts that cared time valued memories spent God entered leaving just me to continue forward now as one left like glass shattered
Again broken like the past of a son both these memories connect photographs pictures on the floor music that plays tears fall trying to find purpose meaning in a world that changed overnight wondering can I fit in again left like glass shattered
Pretentious moment caught within a smile a hope a glimmer now plagued with words left unspoken to a heart that opened to someone else a place thought shared took a chance the greatest words spoken left like glass shattered
Simple words asked now like how are you hard to trust left in disbelief silence is a safe answer to be shared when lies deception hurt is all that remains here when it comes to actions of last memories things that can't be unseen undone left like glass shattered
The hardest part moving forward is relearning the steps in life needed to dance the courage to take another chance the faith needed to trust someone else the strength to risk saying the greatest words you may ever speak this is what's left when left like glass shattered
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