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Sugary Sweet SMAU | LN4 x Piastri! Reader

AN: This plays kind of between the first and second part but also after it (?) I am cunfused myself but i had fun making it

WAG.Newsf1

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Is the papaya golden boy off market? Lando Norris was seen being cozy with a mysterious woman in Monaco. Do we have a new WAG in the paddock?

User1: Maybe just one of his flings? 🤷‍♀️

User2: I feel like I have seen her before

User3: wait a sec... Oscar in the likes?! What do you know???

Landonorris

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Lil Silverstone photo dump 🏆💋📸

Oscarpiastri: good weekend, congrats mate 👍

McLaren: good job Lando🏆2️⃣

User2: What in the soft launch is this?

User3: Lando Norizz has a girlfriend??

Oliviapiastri.pvt

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Lil weekend recap😊 I am so proud of you Lan❤

Landonorris: Thanks, love ❤

Oscarpiastri: disgusting 😑

-> Oliviapiastri.pvt: shut up, Osc

Carlossisnz55: I can not believe Landito has got himself a girlfriend. I feel like a proud dad 🥲

McLaren

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Race Weekend🧡🧡🧡 feat. our fav intern

Landonorris: we love her🧡🧡

-> Oscarpiastri: we all know you do, Lando

-> landonorris: hater 😒

-> Oliviapiastri.pvt: don't be mean, Oscar Jack Piastri, or I'll tell mom!!

User1: she is so pretty 😍

User2: are her and Oscar siblings?

-> User3: I think they are twins

Oliviapiastri.pvt

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Monaco is nice to me even when my exams are not :)

Landonorris: You are going to do well! Don't worry about it, love!

Oscarpiastri: Did he threw you in the water? If yes, are there videos of it?

-> Oliviapiastri.pvt: He did but no there are no vidoes.

Oscarpiastri

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Starting war as someone dumed me to spend time with my teammate!

tagged: Oliviapiastr.pvt, Landonorris

User1: WTF! When did this happen?

USer2: Oscar is pissed he had to thrid wheel

Landonorris: I actually dont mind but your sister... go and hide mate. i dont want to look for a new teammate

Oliviapiastri.pvt: OSCAR JACK PIASTRI!! WHAT THE FUCK!?

Landonorris

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Thank you @Oscarpiastri now i can finally post her and brag about my stunning and smart girlfriend <3

Oscarpiastri: Fuck, what have i done?

Oliviapiastri.pvt: Love you, Lan <3

User3: She is so pretty! OMG

User4: they look so happy together

Oliviapiastri.pvt

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little weekend photo dump. featuring me trying to study, Lando trying to make food and him getting me a butterfly for my pump

Landonorris: My smart and pretty girl

Oscarpiastri: This is kind of cute, i have to admitt

User6: You are diabetic?

-> Oliviapiastri.pvt: Yes, I am

User7: How can little Lando Norris pull a girl that is not only pretty but also fucking smart?

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Sugary sweet pt. 2 | LN4 x Piastri! Reader

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Part 1

Lando and Olivia had been a couple for almost two months before the fans found out about it. Once they did, did they destroy twitter with edits of them. Calling them the cutes couple. While Olivia was not too happy to be in the spotlight that the relationship with Lando brought with it, was Lando over the moon to be able to show his girlfriend to the world and brag about how smart and pretty she was. Oscar just teased his twin about the spotlight and her new WAG status.

It was his home race when they walked into the paddock hand in hand. Lando was beaming with pride while Olivia was trying not to look at all those fand waiting to see Lando. “Everything is going to be fine, love. Just breathe.”, he told her with a kiss to the forehead. After fifteen minutes of Lando sighning stuff and taking Selfies were they finally able to walk to the hospitality. There they met Oscar who again teased his twin for being in the Spotlight. “Seems like you stole Lando’s fand.”, he said and Olivia just hit his arm.

Once the boys had to leave for media duties could Olivia leave to go to the engineers. She was more comfortable there. Being surrounded by data and statistics was were she was in her element. It was also where she talked the most, aside when she was with her family or close friends. Zack walked up to check in on the young girl when he saw her carefully listening to Oscar’s engineer. “Where do you think could the car improve?”, the engineer asked the girl. It was a tricky question, as they expected a precise answer and not only the basics, as she was coming close to her graduation. But with an unknown confidence, at least to Zack, did the girl answer. Even going into detail behind her statement. To say that everyone was more than happy with her work was an understatement. Not only was everyone impressed by how well thought through her statements were but also how quickly she picked up different part of the work. “Good job, how about you sit with me during the race?”, Oscar’s engineer offered and the girl gladly accepted. It was not often that interns were allowed to be at the pitlane.

Right before the race did Lando searched his girlfriend down. A worried look on his face. Jon was following the boy with a small smile on his face. This was a side of Lando he had not seen before. Sure Lando was caring and loving toward his family but this was a new level. Lando finally found Olivia standing with Oscar and his engineer. “There you are! I was looking for you!”, Lando exclaimed, making the girl worry about why he had been this eager to find her right before he had to be in the car. “Is everything okay, Lan?”, she quietly asked, as all eyes were now on them. “You are getting low. I came to make sure you are eating something before it gets too low.”, Lando explained and handed her the snack he had stolen from the hospitality. Heat rushed to her cheeks as she checked her levels on her own again and found that he was indeed right. With a small thank you did she took the snack out of his hand. “How did you knew that?”, Oscar asked his teammate with a teasing smirk. “I have her blood sugar levels synchronised to my phone.”, Lando said like it was obvious. He wanted to be able to take care of her and prevent her from dropping way too low again. “You do?”, Olivia asked him surprised. “Of course. I know how you get distracted and forget to check them.”, Lando explained, pulling her close to him, kissing her head. “As cute as this is, you need to get ready, Lando.”, Jon told him. Kissing the girl one more time Lando left to get ready.

“You got Lando wrapped around your finger pretty well.”, Oscar teased while getting ready. “I had no idea he had my blood sugar on his phone. I don’t even know how or when he did it.”, Olivia told her brother, still blushing. “I like that he takes care of you. Gives me more free time.”, “Shut up and don’t crash.”, Olivia said before taking seat in the pit lane. Her nerves were a bit high as she sat down, feeling like she was not supposed to be there. But as soon as the race started did those thoughts disappear and her focus was on the race and how the car was holding up. She learned a lot, watching from the pitlane as everyone included her in the decisions, explaining them to her. It made her feel like a part of the team. The race ended with her twin in P5 while Lando got his first home podium. “You should go and see Lando when he gets out of the car.”, Zack said and walked her to the barriers with him. Somehow did she end up right next to Lando’s family, that she was going to meet after the race. “Oh it's you. Lando talks a lot about you. It is so nice to finally meet you.”, Adam, Lando’s dad, said with a wide smile and pulled the shy girl into a tight hug. “It is also nice to meet you.”, she said. They did a bit of small talk before Lando pulled up next to the other two on the podium. Once he got out of the car was everyone cheering for him. Running toward them Lando was firstly hugged by the team before making his way to his family and girlfriend. Reaching over the barrier to hug her he carefully buried his head in her neck, careful not to hit her with his helmet. “I am so proud of you, Lan.”, she said, just loud enough for him to hear her over all the noise. Once she had kissed his helmet did Lando hug his family, who was watching them with a smile.

On the podium did Lando look down at her with the wide smile she fell in love with. She loved watching him full of joy as he stood on the podium of his home race, something that has always been extremely important to him. She was just happy to be there to witness this. While Lando was doing his media duties did Olivia took one last look at the data and statistics to kill the waiting time. Suddenly the smell of champagne and sweat hit her as arms wrapped around her waist. Lando was back. “There you are, love.”, he whispered, kissing her neck. With a small smile on her face did she turn around to look at him. “I am proud of you, Lan. You did an amazing job.”, she told him, making him beam in pride. “My family wants to get dinner together as soon as we are out of here. So how about I take a quick shower and then do a few pictures with the team and then we can go? Do you have clothes to change here or do you want to go to the hotel before we meet with my family?”, Lando offered as he knew that she would not want to sit in a restaurant in McLaren clothes. “I’ll go to the hotel with Osc.”, she said and Lando promised to pick her up as soon as he was finished.

Olivia’s nerves were quite tense as they walked into the restaurants. She could feel herself get a shaky and her hands getting sweaty. The anxiety was raising up inside of her. Lando squeezed her hand as he noticed how tense she was. “They are going to love you. Don’t worry, love.”, he promised her and she tried to calm herself down. Once they had made they way through the Restaurant did they found his family sitting in a corner chatting already. “Lando, there you are!”, his mother exclaimed and went to hug her son and introduce herself to the young girl. “I am so happy that my son has found you. He told me so much about you.”, she told Olivia, who blushes like crazy. Sitting out they did some more small talk before a waited came to take their order. Just as the waited left did something start to beep quite loudly. Wanting to sink into the floor Olivia pulled out her phone. “I am sorry.”, she apologized and looked on the screen. 65 mg/dL dropping down, it read. Looking at her phone as well, Lando cursed at her under his breath. Before she had the chance to react did he call a waited, asking for a orange Juice as quick as possible. “What’s going on?”, Adam asked, confused and worries by his sons actions. “My blood sugar is a bit low.”, Olivia told them, feeling a little ashamed to admit it. It was nothing she liked people to know about and it was not the impression she wanted to make. “Oh, is there anything you need?”, Ciska asked, worried for the young girl. “It should be fine with the Juice but thank you.”.

It did get back to normal after the food came and she had the Juice but she was still feeling a little had about making everyone worry. So once they were back in Lando’s car was she apologizing to him. “Love, stop this. It is not your fault. No one is even slightly mad at you. My parents love and already care a lot for you. That’s why they were worrying about you. Your diabetes is nothing to be ashamed about.”, Lando promised her and pulled her in for a kiss at a red light.

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Sugary sweet | LN4 x Piastri!Reader

Words: 2420

Warnings: diabetes, passing out, hospital

Note: I am not diabetic myself but one of my close family members is, so I wrote this off of how it is for them. I do know that it can be different for everyone and please tell me if I got something completely wrong 🙏

Part 2

Lando theoretically knew that it was wrong to have a crush on his teammates sister. He knew that he should not hope for her to be at every race. He knew that it could destroy the friendship he had build with the young Aussi. But Lando could not help but admire Olivia Piastri, the twin sister of his teammate Oscar Piastri. The young girl was an engineering student and did an internship at McLaren, following their engineers and learning directly from them. The first time Lando met the young girl was at testing in Bahrain, where he also found out that she was Oscar’s sister. Both Piastri twins were rather quiet and introverted but Oscar was the more extroverted one even if not by much. Olivia only seemed to really talk when it was about the car and the engineering side of it. She barely chatted with others but instead watched what was happening around her. He mostly sees her when she is shadowing Andrew Jarvis or Will Joseph at race weekends. He tried to make conversation with her but always got interrupted by eighter an engineer, his coach or Oscar.

The Miami GP was the first time Lando got the chance to really talk to the young girl. It was a shitty race for both drivers and the mood in the garage was not too good. Everyone tried to figure out a way to improve the car for the next race in about twenty days. “How is the team treading you?”, Lando asked Olivia as he joined her to take a look at the data. Confused did the girl turn her head to the brit, looking at him with wide eyes. “Are you talking to me?”, she asked, her voice quiet. “Yeah, there is no one else here. So how is everyone treading you?”, Lando joked and repeated his question while leaning against the counter. “Good…everyone is nice to me.”, the girl admitted with flustered cheeks. “Good to hear that. What do you say to the data?”, “The wear on the tire is a bit much and the aerodynamics are also not too good.”, she said quietly. Looking at the data and recalling the race Lando agreed completely with her. They talked a little more about the car and data before Lando lead the conversation a little bit more to personal stuff. To her own surprise did Olivia felt pretty comfortable talking to Lando. Sure she also felt pretty flustered every time he looked at her but she just hoped he would not notice that. “Liv! Where are you?”, Oscar’s voice interrupted the two as he walked up to them. “I am here, Osc.”, the girl told her brother who looked his teammate up and down, trying to see what he was planning. “We are supposed to eat together, remember?”, he told his sister who nodded. Saying goodbye to the brit the twins left.

“How is your sugar? You seem a bit sweaty.”, Oscar asked his sister as soon as they were out of hearing from Lando. “I am fine. A bit high but I am going to correct once we are in the car.”, Olivia told her brother after scanning the small sensor that was hidden by her papaya shirt, with her phone. “How high?”, “232 mg/dL. But like I said I am going to correct it as soon as we are in the car.”, she told her brother but he was not satisfied. “That is pretty high. Why did you not correct it earlier?”, “Osc, my pump broke and I have to correct manually so I had not the time to do so. I am fine, stop worrying.”, the girl told her older brother by twenty minutes. Grumbling something Oscar accepted the answer and lead his sister out of the paddock. He had tried to get her to tell the team about her diabetes but the girl refused. She hated it when people asked her questions about it or treated her different. She also did not want to appear weak, as it was hard enough for a girl in this industry. Being disabled would not help to be taken as serious as a man, so she kept it to herself. It worked out well for now. No one knew, aside form Oscar of course.

As the race in Imola was cancelled due to flooding did McLaren call every one into the factory to try and solve the problems from Miami. The engineers worked their asses off to try and find solutions. Olivia was there the entire time, helping the engineers and learning from their work. They worked for hours on end when Olivia forgot to check up on her sugar levels. She already knew she was low. The fogginess in her brain and the feeling of being dizzy told her that she was in fact very low. But she could not go right now. They were going over the data with Lando and Zack right now. She tried to listen to what everyone was saying when her vision got cloudy. Right as she wanted to say something to Lando did her speech give up. “Lan…”, was all she got out before passing out. Panicked the brit caught her before she could hit her head on the floor. “What the fuck?”, Zack asked and ordered someone to get Oscar as well as calling an ambulance. Laying her down Lando kept her head in his lap, trying to wake her up. “Did she say anything about being not well?”, Zack asked the engineers she had been following. “No, everything was fine. She seemed tired but we all are so we thought nothing about it. Plus you know how quiet she is.”, one told Zack who nodded. Not long after did a panicked Oscar ran into the room. “What happened?”, he asked and kneeled down next to his sister and Lando. “She just passed out.”, Lando told his teammate, nodding Oscar asked, “Where is her phone?”. Looking around Zack found it on the table behind them. Handing it to Oscar, everyone watched the Aussi as he unlocked it and held it against her arm. A beep appeared before Oscar cursed. “What is going on, Oscar?”, Lando asked, worried about the girl he was holding onto his lap. “My sister is diabetic. Her blood sugar dropped very low, that’s why she is passed out.”, Oscar explained and Lando as well as everyone else was quite shocked to learn this. “Why has she not said a word about it?”, Zack asked the Aussi right as the paramedics walked in. “She wants to be taken seriously and worried that she would not be seen as serious if anyone knew about this.”, he explained and then explained to the paramedics what was going on. They gave her an emergency glucose shot and checked her sugars while waiting for the glucose to work. After about fifteen long minutes did Olivia regain her consciousness. “It is okay. Everything is fine.”, Oscar told his sister as she was still disorientated and unable to form words. Together with Oscar did the paramedics took her to the nearest hospital to monitor her and make sure she does not drop this low again. Lando followed them close behind as he could not stop worrying about the girl. “You like her.”, Zack noticed as his young driver was about to get into his car. “Who?”, “Olivia, you like her.”, Zack repeated. Looking at his boss the brit was unsure what to say. “Go and see her. OH, and Lando, tell her.”, Zack laughed before returning into the factory.

Oscar was not surprised to see Lando walking into his sister’s hospital room. She was asleep and stable right now. Her sugar level slowly getting higher. “How is she doing?”, Lando carefully asked. “She is doing fine. Her sugar is getting higher. Come sit down, she should wake up in a bit.”, Oscar said and patted the chair next to his. “I still don’t understand how this happened.”, Lando admitted, blaming himself for not noticing anything. “She most likely forgot to eat anything while working as well as checking her levels. So she slowly got lower and lower.”, Oscar explained, knowing how focused his sister could get. The two were living together as they went together to boarding school and then also moved together after. “And how did she not notice anything earlier or someone else?”, “She can get very low and still function some times, so it is very hard to tell from the outside. Especially if you don’t know. She most likely knew that she was low but thought she could make it a bit longer.”, “How low was she?”, Lando asked, curious. He did not knew a lot about diabetes but wanted to learn as much as he could. Thinking Oscar said, “Under fifty for sure. Her sensor just said low so it had to be below that. I would guess around 30. Maybe a little lower or higher.”.

After what felt like an eternity for Lando, did Olivia woke up. “Where am I?”, she groaned and sat up a little, now noticing the brunette sitting next to her brother. “In the hospital. You passed out from being low. Again.”, Oscar kind of scolded her, but the truth was that he was always worried about her and her wellbeing. Nodding the young girl tried to remember what happened exactly. “Please tell me I did not pass out in front of Zack and all engineers? Please, Osc.”, she whined, remembering where she was and what she had been doing as she passed out. “I am sorry but you did. I am going to get you some food and a nurse.”, he claimed and left his teammate and sister alone to talk. “You freaked me out, Pastry.”, Lando stated, making the girl blush. “I am sorry. I did not plan this.”, she mumbled, feeling a lot more shy as she was alone with Lando. “I think you also freaked out everyone else. But how are you feeling?”, Lando said and sat down next to her, where Oscar used to sit. “I am better. I should have taken care of my sugar level earlier. It is embarrassing to end up in the hospital because of this. Even more passing out in front of my boss. Do you think Zack will fire me?”, she now panicked. Chuckling at her panic Lando took her hand in his and calmed her down, “Zack wont fire you. No one is going to take you less serious now. Everything is good, love.”. Heat rushed into her cheeks as she heard that nickname. “Thank you, Lando.”, she whispered and looked at him. His eyes were beautiful as well as the little smirk he wore on his lips. “Do you like what you see, love?”, Lando teased her, leaning closer. As she turned her head to avoid his piercing look did his warm, big hand cup her cheek. Turning her head to him. Tension grew as they both slowly leaned into each other. Like magnets. Lando did the last step and closed the gap between them. Connecting their lips in a kiss. Slow at first to give her the chance to back out. To his surprise did she not back out but instead grabbed his shirt, pulling him closer. His hand was in her hair by now, holding her close to him. “What the actual fuck!?”, someone yelled, making the two jump apart. Lando almost fell off the chair as he turned to the door. There stood Oscar. A tray with food in his hand and a giggling nurse behind him. “Osc…I…we…”, Olivia stuttered completely flustered. Lando on the other hand tried his best not to giggle. The girl he had the biggest crush on just kissed him back so his ego was a little blown up. “I think I need to bleach my eyes out.”, Oscar stated dramatically as he put down the food next to his sister on the table. To everyone’s luck did the nurse intertwine, “Miss Piastri how are you feeling? I assume better?”, “Yeah…I feel better.”, Olivia said and bit her lip to try not to blush even more. “I am glad to hear this. We are going to check your sugar level one last time before we let you go.”, the nurse said and tested the sugar level one more time. It was almost completely back to normal. “Okay, we are going to keep you for about an other hour and then you are free to go home.”, the nurse said and left the three alone.

The hour was the longest in Olivia’s life. To say that it was awkward to sit in the room with your crush, who just kissed you and your brother who walked into said kiss when they were teammates was not the most fun. In hopes of help did she even text her mother. But due to the time difference did she not answer her. “Can we please address this? Or I am dropping again due to anxiety.”, Olivia finally said. Both boys looked at each other before looking at her. “Do you have serious intentions with my sister?”, Oscar asked Lando. It was not what Olivia had expected Oscar to say but it was a start. “I do. I really like her.”, Lando told him, in a tone Olivia did not knew from him. it was very serious and not a hint of sassiness in it. letting out a very long and overly dramatic sigh did Oscar say, “Fine. I will not say anything against this if my sister really likes you, what I think as she kissed you, but the moment you hurt her will I push you into the wall with my car. Now if you excuse me. I still need to bleach my eyes.”. With a kiss on the forehead did Oscar left Olivia alone with Lando. “So we both like each other. How about I take you out on a date? We can go out as soon as you are free to go.”, Lando said excited. Smiling a little Olivia took his hand telling him, “I would love to go on a date with you but I think I don’t have the energy to go out right now. How about we stay in and maybe watch a movie or something like that? Or game?”, “You game?”, Lando asked surprised. Feeling a little shy again she admitted, “A little but not on stream or anything.”.

Part 2

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Loosing you broke me | MV1 X Leclerc! Sister reader

Word count: 2961

Genre: hurt/Angst, comfort, a bit fluff

Tw: self-harming, death and attempted suicide

Max Verstappen and Charles Leclerc did not get along. At all. The rivalry between the two boys was too big. Ever since they started karting against each other have they tried to outdrive the other one. The fights would often lead to one forcing the other off the track, even after the race had ended. Their parents both tried sitting them down and talk to them but nothing helped. Nothing except one thing, Juliett Leclerc. The little sister of Charles Leclerc. The little girl had everyone wrapped around her little finger. Especially her big brother, Charlie. Only for her would he calm his hate towards the Dutch boy, who was equally wrapped around her finger, if not more.

As the boys grew older did Hevé brought the little girl along to almost every race, even if it was just to maintain the peace on track. Over the time did the little Leclerc grew into liking the blond boy her brother stood on the podium with. The two found many shared interests and would disappear for hours after the race. Making their fathers and her brothers come looking for them. Hevé would gently lecture little Juliette in France while Jos would straight up yell angry words in Dutch at the boy. Each time Juliette would see the man would she glare as much as a seven-year-old could at the grown man.

Max and Juliette only grew closer. To the despite of her brothers. All three of them, even Arthur. Juliette was the calmness Max needed after a yelling from his dad and he was the confidence she needed when she once again felt like the world was too big for her and the urge to hide was getting big. Both of their mothers could see the changes in their kids when they were together. It seemed like their ware the puzzle piece the other one needed, even at their young age of sixteen and fifteen, where they officially became a couple.

The day of the Japanese Grand Prix was the supposed to be the best day of Juliette’s life. She and her brothers had travelled along with Jules to watch him race. It was not the first time they would see him race but it was still special. The four Leclerc’s watched as the young Frenchman crashed into the crane. “Jules!,” Juliette screamed and held onto Charles as they watched as the marshals tried to safe Jules. Holding onto his sister Charles prayed for his godfather’s life.

It was Pascale who called Max after the crash. He had of course seen it on TV and worried about his girlfriend as he knew how close she was to the Frenchman. “You need to come to her, Max. She is not doing good.,” were the worried words of Pascale that made the young Dutch book the next flight to see his girlfriend. He had to fight almost an hour with his father until he was allowed to go but that was worth it.

Max had expected almost everything but not this. Not seeing his girlfriend almost lifeless on the bed in her hotel room. The lights out and the curtains close. There was no light in this room nor in her eyes when she turned her head to face him. Without saying a word did he took off his shoes and got into bed with her, holding her tightly. Slowly did she start to cry. She had not cried since she saw Jules crash. She had just been sitting at the hospital or laying in her room. Charles tried to comfort her but could not do much as he did not feel a lot better. It was Max who finally got her to eat something as well as taking a shower. With gentle words and a lot of patience did he help her to detangle her mess of hair before braiding for her. For the rest of the year did Max took her with him to the F3 races. At first was everyone worried that it would be bad for Juliette to be at races again, but it helped her. Or so it seemed. She was okay for a while. She was cheering for Max when he stood on the podium, and she was there when he got the call to drive for Torro Rosso for the next season.

It all went bad when Jules passed. After months of coma did, he finally passed in July of twenty fifteen. It was truly devastating for the entire Formula one community. But even more for his family and friends. Once again was Max there to hold the young girl in his arms as she cried her heart out. Jules was her fourth brother. He was there the day she learned how to walk or for her first day of school but now was he gone. She would never see his smile again. After Jules’ death did everyone believed to never see the only Leclerc daughter smile again. Even with Max by her side. She was only a shadow of herself. Max still took her traveling with him to races while she did her school online. But even that did nothing to help her. In October did she had to stop traveling with Max as Jos thought she was distracting Max too much. So, she went back home.

In this time being apart did she really fell into a dark hole. No one could reach her. Everything felt like it was suffocating her. Like she could not breathe anymore. The only little dose of dopamine she felt was when she took the little blade she had hid in the drawer of her nightstand and cut the skin of her thigh. The pain made her fell better for a short time. The blood showed her that she was alive. Every time she was sitting at the dinner table and her mother would ask her how she was feeling that day, with that worried look on her face, could Juliette dig her fingers against the fresh wound and say the same words. “I am fine.” But she was not. Slowly the blade did not only dance across her thighs but also her arms. No one ever saw them. She was smart enough to wear clothes to always hide them from her family and Max was gone racing, so he also could not see them. It was her best hidden secret.

It was before Max’s first formula one race in Monaco when he discovered the horrible way his girlfriend had been coping. He could not believe that he had not noticed anything. “What the fuck is this, Juliette?!”, he asked her and held her arm in his hand. Staring at the fresh wounds all across her forearm. “Nothing.”, she tried to tell him, but he was not having that. Taking her face in his hand he asked her again and the young girl finally broke down. Telling him all about she started and how she felt. He was still angry.-and confused but he was mostly glad that she was telling him that. “Does anyone know? Charles?”, he asked and pulled her into a hug. “No, nobody can know, please. Especially not Charlie!”, she begged, and Max agreed to keep her secret.

After the race did the two sat down and talked about it for a long time. Max wanted her to get help and she slowly opened up to the idea, but she still refused to tell her brothers. “Someone should know, mijn liefje.”, he told her, and she knew that he was right but there was a lot of shame that kept her from telling anyone, from asking for help. “How about you talk to your dad? I can come with you if you like.”, he offered, and she accepted. Not even two days later were the two sitting in her home with her father. Her mother and brothers were gone for the day, so it was the perfect time. With a lot of reassuring and a lot of deep breaths did Juliette manage to finally tell her father about her struggles. Asking him for help. “Mon soleil, I am so sorry you suffer this much. I will help you as much as I can. Thank you for telling me.”, Heve told his daughter and hugged her as they both cried. “I don’t want my brothers to know, please Papa.”, she asked her father and he agreed to keep this from his sons.

After that day did they found her a great therapist who showed her ways to cope without harming herself. It was a slow progress but Juliette got better in coping. Max and her dad were always there when it got hard, helping her to find a way to go without the blade. But just as it got better and she was able to smile again did the next horror news came. Heve had cancer. While everyone worried about him was he only worried about how his little girl would do if he would not make it. Heve met up with Max in secret and asked him to take care of Juliette. To make sure she would not drown in the darkness again. Max promised to try everything he could. The rest of the year did they try to spend it as good as possible. Max got into Red Bull and got his first win. Which was also the time the media took more notice in his private life, discovering the rather private relationship of the two young adults. It was rather harmless as they just dug out pictures of the two being young and in love. The pictures her brothers hated with their heart.

For the rest of the year did Juliette split her time between spending it with Max and spending it at home with her family. The whole family tried to spend as much time possible together as no one could say how long her father still had.

In June of the next year did Heve loose the battle against cancer. Leaving the entire family broken. Max wanted to be there right after Heve passed but could not as he was stuck in a Canada. But the day after did he took the first flight to Monaco to be with his girl as well as the funeral. “What are you doing here?”, Charles asked as he opened the door and found the Dutch standing there. “I am here to be there for your sister. Can I come in now?”, he asked and Charles stepped aside, knowing that it would be for the better. “I am sorry for your loss, Charles.”, Max told the second oldest Leclerc, who just nodded and left. Walking up the stairs Max found his girlfriend in a really bad state. Her eyes were puffy and red from crying and her hair was a mess. “I am so sorry, mijn liefje.”, he whispered before pulling her into his arms. Crying against his chest she let all the emotions go. All the anger of why it had to be her father and not someone else. All the sadness. All the frustration. Everything. Max said nothing but just held her as tight as he could.

While Max and Charles went away racing two weeks later was Juliette not able to leave her bed. Her therapist had tried to call her multiple times but failed. She was alone at home with her oldest brother, Lorenzo. Well, he was mostly distracting himself with work while Juliette was spiralling without him knowing. It only took a short trip from Lorenzo to the store when she finally fall down the cliff. Reaching into her drawer she walked into the bathroom. Filling the tub with water she stepped into the cold water with her clothes still on. Taking a deep breath she closed her eyes before lifting the shiny silver blade up. Watching the blood pour out of her wrists she relaxed at the feeling.

Lorenzo yelled for her multiple times, asking if she was hungry but got no answer. Frustrated with his sister the oldest Leclerc went up the stairs and tried to find the girl. His first try was obviously her room, but no success. Then he heard a noise from the bathroom. Knocking on the door he asked if she was alright. As he still got no answer did he open the door. Revealing the horrible sight of his half passed out sister, covered in her own blood. “Merde! Qu'est-ce que vous avez fait? (Fuck! What have you done?)”, he asked her, rushing to her side. She was still breathing and had pulse. Grabbing the closet towel he applied pressure while calling an ambulance.

In the hospital did they stabilize her and stitched her wrists up. The first person Lorenzo called was their mother, telling her what was going on. Pascale was, rightfully, shocked and booked the first flight home. “Don’t tell, Charlie and Arthur. I don’t want them to know.”, was the first thing Juliett told her big brother when she woke up. “Cheri, why would you do this?”, Lorenzo asked, taking her hand carefully in his. “It is complicated. I just lost it after Papa passed. Did you call Max?”, “I called Maman and I think she told him. They are on their way here. Arthur and Charles are still in Baku.”, he explained and she nodded, asking how the boys did in the race. “Charles won. Max was fifth. But sleep now.”. Hours later did Pascale and Max rush through the hospital doors, waking the young girl. “Liefje, how are you?”, Max wanted to know as soon as he saw his girlfriend. It hurt to see her like this. Pale, bandaged up and hooked up on machines. “I feel tired.”, she whispered, shame of what she has done hitting her. She was ashamed that her brother had seen her like that and now her mother and boyfriend. Tears filled her eyes before she started sobbing. “What is it, cheri?”, Pascale asked her daughter, sitting down on the bed next to her. “I am so sorry. I never wanted it to come so far. I just could not take the pain anymore.”, she sobbed while holding onto her mother. “I know it hurts but this is not the right way.”, Pascale gently told her. Nodding she reached her hand out for Max to take.

After a while did Pascale and Lorenzo gave the couple a bit privacy. “I am really sorry. I just lost control.”, Juliette whispered and held onto Max’s hand like he would disappear if she let go. “I know it hard and I know that you miss him deeply but I need you to fight. If not for yourself then do it for me. I need you. More than you know. Without you would I be lost. So please fight. I will do what I can to help you but I need you to fight. For me, for Jules and for your father. I love you.”, he pleaded, crying as well. The fear of loosing her was the worst fear he had ever known. “I will try. I love you.”, she promised him.

It was still in the hospital when she decided to go into stationary therapy. Max, her mother and oldest brother all supported her a lot in that decision. Charles and Arthur still had no clue but she planned on telling them as it was holding her back from healing. So in summer break, when she was allowed to go home for the weekends did she decided to finally come clean to her other two brothers. With Max present. “What is he doing here? I thought it was going to be a family day?”, Arthur complained when he walked into the living room and saw the Dutch, once again, sitting next to his sister. “I want him here. now please sit down and shut up.”, Juliette asked him. Rolling his eyes he listened to her. “What is going on, mom cheri?”, Charles asked his sister. He feared that she could be pregnant or worse engaged to Max. “There is something I have to tell you.”, she stared only for Arthur to interrupt her. “Are you pregnant?”, “No, now shut up.”, she yelled. Max squeezed her leg, telling her to calm down. “Ignore Arthur, cheri.”, Charles told her and she nodded. “I have been struggling for quite a while now. Like a lot.”, she once again started. A nod from her mother encouraged her to go ahead. “I have been dealing with severe depression as well as self harm.”, “Self harm?”, Charles asked and she slowly lifted her sleeve up. Revealing her arm, that was covered in scars. Some small and white while others were still red and fresh. But the most striking one was the thick vertical one that was still looking rather fresh. “Merde!”, Charles cursed and gently let his fingers run over the scars, not believing they were real until he felt them under his fingertips. “Why have you not said anything?”, Arthus wanted to know. “I was afraid what you would say but I was also extremely ashamed. I did not want anyone to know. Max found out by accident and then talked me into telling dad.”, she explained, covering her arm again. “I am now in therapy. In stationary therapy to be precise.”. The brothers needed a moment to let everything sink in before saying anything. “Can we help in any way?”, Charles asked while Arthus was overwhelmed. “Just not judging me or hating me would be good.”, “Cheri, I could never hate you! You are my baby sister and I will always love you!”, Charles protested and pulled her tightly into his arms.

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