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[lyrishadow]

Im tired let's play a game of can I type. Effort and life reflection below line

Im going to make pts see how I go.

1. I fainted last thursday. That may not be a big deal to some but the last time I fainted before that was over 20 yrs ago. I'm not currently sick, just having issues breathing now and then from.the cold. But y'all I fainted sitting on the bed so it was fine. Not dramatic. I wish to know why. My gp is at a loss became bloods are perfect.

2. It's my 2nd Pride and I have still not gotten myself a flag.

I'm more convinced this year. Of who I am. Even if looking at things right now feels like I. Just joined a most awesome club only to find the clubhouse is closed. I can't even comprehend the mentality on any level of people in power n stuff in us.

I've lost a few friends. I haven't /can't mention to my weird family any of this. Maybe my aunt.. I've told one RL friend who I trust.

3. I'm trying to legit find a way to write and earn money. I'm scared. Last time I go published [ short story] was back when Supernatural came out. I dudnt watch it but my story coincidently had siblings. It was a Christian publication and my original story had no reference to God... the editor (a friend ar the time) told me to make it different. It became one of the major criticisms and I was a bit mad.. since then... I've bee. Scared.

I've posted on Ao3 my fan fics etc but none of them have any kind of following. *i* as a writer don't. So yeah. Two things I have my poetry and my education. I have a bachelors in theology.. I can use that and make comment on current situations using a site like medium. Alternatively or as well as I can [self]publish a book of poetry. Right now my poetry is mostly

On instagram. QR code attached. Or find writer_jaks. This was a long post 📫 and now done.

#lyris real life #poet #writer #pride month

[lyrishadow]

Not asleep. It's 6.30am on a dialysis day. I've taken often to just listening to hubs sleep to make sure he's ok.

I am a bit Wired.pretty sure im cruising for bit of a break. I've never been much good at pretending good things.ķ0

I do know this too will pass.

#lyris real life

[lyrishadow]

Reblog if it’s okay for your mutuals to tag you in random stuff they think you’ll like

#mass effect #swtor #anything like that

[lyrishadow]

MEBB 23 Artist sign up

To sign up as an artist, please read the snippets through, I used dividers so it’s easy to see what number belongs to what snippet, but as a rule, the number is above the text. then chose two you’d like to do art for, and as always the reason I ask you to chose two, is because I can’t promise you the one you want, so I need a little wiggle room in form of a second choice. if there really only is…

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#mass effect big bang #artist sign up #mebb #signal boost #dang it missed writing again

[lyrishadow]

Ever have weeks where you don't like yourself?

Or alternatively think that you could have done better making friends?

Like what disability is it that I can't keep friends? Or attract ones who use me

... why do I feel so useless and broken?

[lyrishadow]

Um.

Errrrrm.

Not reading.

If you see this you’re legally obligated to reblog and tag with the book you’re currently reading

#im not reading im writing. any spare brain goes into characters etc

[lyrishadow]

Hubby is in hospital. My head feels like mush. Ugh.

[lyrishadow]

“Letting go doesn’t mean that you don’t care about someone anymore. It’s just realizing that the only person you really have control over is yourself.”

— Deborah Reber

[lyrishadow]

He's awesome, xðđ

thank you to everyone who voted on my 2nd swtor companions poll! 🥰 there were 2 character winners, first up we have torian, next we will do vector.

#swtor art #torian cadera #chaosandwonder #not my art

[lyrishadow]

Dear person reading this post,

This is to let you know that just because we don't know all the answers does not mean you are alone in your fight. Whatever you are going through, no matter how isolated or silent, no matter how broken you feel, you are not alone in this world. Keep fighting.

#not alone #no matter what

[lyrishadow]

[lyrishadow]

Floating face down in a blank word document file, while not physically possible, is nevertheless a tangible authorial state.

#had to repost

[lyrishadow]

not naming names but some of you are genuinely really good people and i hope that you get everything your heart wants and needs

#lovely #very true

[lyrishadow]

Last injection in knee out of 3 today.

Hopefully now I can start building strength again. Not fall over as much and generally get on with things... until it fails again.

Im hoping it works in my favour. For a change.

#health #lyris real life

[lyrishadow]

you can start learning anything you always wanted at any point in your life. & how nice it is to remember that

#100% true

[lyrishadow]

Where is the current debate on AI art and chatgpt?

[lyrishadow]

I sleep with my door closed for a good reason: I'm paranoid. I have ptsd and startle easily.. when I was younger I had someone stalking me [more or less] who liked to creepily watch me sleep. So. Door closed and locks are also a thing.

wait people sleep with their doors closed????

#closed #i haveptsd