maitaiwiththecorpses

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

i made some promises (specifically to @hazellevessque.) idk if i regret them. send help am having an existential crisis

I Had To Study His Eyes- April 27th, 2024

Fearful lives and mournful lights

always helping, never condescending

With joy in the corners, tucked away all night

Carinae nebula in the darkest sky

“come take me away” 

Make everything right

Deathful glare, cross them not

Endearing smiles, 

Cosmonaut

Adaptation, Darwin’s pride, 

I swallow before I apologize

A note then a chord,

discordant ‘fore war

Ascension to godhood only to pull you down

Try me with your fears, 

I promise I won’t drown. 

(for @whysaber-toothed - they're green, actually)

#try me with your fears i promise i wont drown #prev tags #LMAOOOO I didn’t think it would get that reaction #that’s so funny #just a lil something #just a thing

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

i made some promises (specifically to @hazellevessque.) idk if i regret them. send help am having an existential crisis

I Had To Study His Eyes- April 27th, 2024

Fearful lives and mournful lights

always helping, never condescending

With joy in the corners, tucked away all night

Carinae nebula in the darkest sky

“come take me away” 

Make everything right

Deathful glare, cross them not

Endearing smiles, 

Cosmonaut

Adaptation, Darwin’s pride, 

I swallow before I apologize

A note then a chord,

discordant ‘fore war

Ascension to godhood only to pull you down

Try me with your fears, 

I promise I won’t drown. 

(for @whysaber-toothed - they're green, actually)

#original poem #poem #hahaha im back on my shit #NONE OF YOU will understand this #and that's what makes it my agent of chaos #poetry #poets on tumblr #writer and poets #back on my shit

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

have a fucking day,

im not well

I Don’t Blame You (Talk To Me In Tongues)- April 27th 2024

Talking to you I never know what I’ll get

A truth bomb about me, something I don’t know or get

I feel like I’ve been lied to forever and yet 

I’m wrong all of a sudden, in joy I forget

How strange it must be to look into a poem that’s a mirror of your actions and not understand a word

It must be deafeningly quiet to read something written in your honor

So nonchalantly pious like scars in saltwater

Like the heartbreaks that came from the words you pulled my way

All of the pain that I scrubbed away

And babe, I hate to say it, but you’re reading this the wrong way. 

This one’s a song set to notes and chords that swell and mourn 

I don’t know why but with you I’m forlorn 

I’ve got one eye shut and the other at a squint “is it over yet?” I whisper, arranging a funeral when we didn’t even meet

I’m recovering from a heartbreak that hasn’t happened yet 

And I’m ready for the day that you happen to forget. 

I’ve steeled myself to it- it all happens in time

And I promise I won’t scream

And I definitely won’t cry

And did I tell you about the time when the ones I loved most,

Went behind my back and disguised me as the worst

I never told a soul what went on that day

And I wish I could tell you, but I am so afraid. 

I will not betray them as I did you in my dreams 

But look at me shaking and ask me like what this seems.

I’m so confused with this twine

I ask questions all the time

And I’m waiting for a demand, some expectation of some kind

I cannot live up to want you want

If what you want you never say

And if what you want isn’t me, 

I can’t go on like this another day

I don’t know if I’m doing it right or if the spirals take you from sleep

If all the poking and prodding is real,

I don’t think I need to be. 

And sometimes it’d be nice to disappear

Away from view and analysis

No one’s taken the time to think about me

What do you have to say about this? 

Tell me about my struggles and what they look like to you

Diagnose me with an illness to which there is no cure

“I wish upon a star,” please, someone write something about this mule

This girl who won’t stop pleading

Till she gets the truth.

I asked for one thing, and yet it’s millions of words strung together on a bracelet that’s too big

Why is this not over yEt? 

TeLl mE why

Or doN't. 

I won’t blAme you if you forget. 

#no one fucking talk to me #like dont even look in my direction pls #its just #im so exhausted #i cant deal rn #i can feel myself going back into the Depressive SlumpTM #poems and poetry #love poem #original poem #poem #poetry #poets on tumblr #writers on tumblr #writers and poets

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

"mat! mat! is this about anyone??" NOOO. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT. STFU.

The Italics Were What I Said- April 24th, 2024

I talked about us today, in a way no one’s ears had heard before

Not the cat’s cry, or the gossip passed around like hors d'oeuvres,

An angry simmer of screenshots and quotes

other girls and stabbing metaphors

But at the end of the day, 

You think you can use me for whatever you like, but mind you,

Mind you, my dear,

I’m a woman in the 21st century,

And at the end of the day, 

When all had gone gray, 

And you’re just “Jared”

You’re gonna want to pray

That this doesn't go viral, 

That your life doesn’t go to shit

Because my tongue is filled with venom

I’m tired of your apathetic shit

Come back at my funeral pyre. 

#hello??? you can’t do this to me i’m in public #IM SORRY I PROMISE ILL POST A LOVEY DOVEY ONE SOON

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

I hate it here is for all the girlies who grew up reading books as a precocious child and dreamt of worlds that exist only in a sophisticated imagination, for the girls who live in delusions

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

you think you’re a better kisser than me??? you think you’re a better cuddler? come over here and prove it punk

#this is my love language

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

OK PEOPLE HERES THE DEAL. If this post gets 200 notes, I’ll tell show this poem to the guy it’s about AND ADDITIONALLY make it through on my promise that it went ‘viral’

"mat! mat! is this about anyone??" NOOO. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT. STFU.

The Italics Were What I Said- April 24th, 2024

I talked about us today, in a way no one’s ears had heard before

Not the cat’s cry, or the gossip passed around like hors d'oeuvres,

An angry simmer of screenshots and quotes

other girls and stabbing metaphors

But at the end of the day, 

You think you can use me for whatever you like, but mind you,

Mind you, my dear,

I’m a woman in the 21st century,

And at the end of the day, 

When all had gone gray, 

And you’re just “Jared”

You’re gonna want to pray

That this doesn't go viral, 

That your life doesn’t go to shit

Because my tongue is filled with venom

I’m tired of your apathetic shit

Come back at my funeral pyre. 

#and yes ik 200 notes isn’t viral #but idk #I feel like it would be funny as shit

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

slightly late to the party buuuuut happy lesbian visibility week<333

#I made a straight man listen to chappell roan this week #I consider that a win

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

i hate that last month and a half before school ends when all your teachers start assigning final projects and you don't know which projects to prioritize while still making sure to memorize your lines for theater and try to find a time to film a last second dance project for pe because your pe teacher does that for some reason

#<- prev #i'm doing it w a few friends are we're filming monday #which is like 3 days before the due date #so i have to learn the dance asap lmao #Oh #you’ll be fineeee #I’ve seen you learn more in three days.

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

As the biggest reputation girlie there ever has been I FUCKING AGREE. We’re NOT getting rep tv anytime soon, and i would HATE it if that rerelease was rushed, but also THERES A WHOLE NEW FUCKING ALBUM PEOPLE. THIRTY ONE SONGS. LETS BE SO FR RN

unpopular opinion warning ! ⚠️

some swifties are kind of greedy man — like stop making rep tv references and talking abt rep tv

we already have a new album, what do yall want more?

ive seen so many insta swifties talk abt rep tv, like calm down we just got a new album ☹️

#taylor swift #taylornation #t swift #t swizzle #taylor swizzle #the tortured poets department #ttpd #ts ttpd #rep tv

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

i hate that last month and a half before school ends when all your teachers start assigning final projects and you don't know which projects to prioritize while still making sure to memorize your lines for theater and try to find a time to film a last second dance project for pe because your pe teacher does that for some reason

#BABE #DARLING #AS SOMEONE WHO PASSED THAT DANCE FINAL WOTH FLYING FUCKING COLOURS #go solo #come up with a dance ON THR SPOT (like a lil jig or just vibing to the song) #AND DO IT TO A BANGER #PRACTICE IT ONCE

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

Surprise I got emo and wrote something! (If you think you know what any of these means, you’re probably right but don’t confront me about it)

11pm (I Said Goodnight at 9:28)-April 22nd

“I love you.”

“It’ll pass.”

Will it?

Will it though?

Will it pass through my system like the drug that you are,

In through the mouth with ecstasy and longing

Through my bloodstream and coursing through my veins

Stopping to kick me in the liver

And pass right out?

Is that what you’ll do?

Or will you grow on me like a tumour, every little word you say building in me till I can’t think anymore

I’m intoxicated with your smell and your hair

And I’ve mentioned this before- but dude what the hell?

What’s with the philosopher’s enigma being in the palm of your hand, while in the other you stroke my face

And yes I like being called pretty, that’s a nice shot glass to down

But I much rather prefer the days you call me thoughtful and puzzling

When you spend hours trying to solve me only to fail and still call me beautiful

That’s the shit that stays in my system and never ever leaves

So no, it won’t “pass” and no, I won’t “forget”

Because you’ve been tattooed into the inside of my thigh

and for now that high is all I’ll get.

#IDK WHO FLEABAG IS #BUT THANK YOU ITS ABOUT A FLEABAG MAN

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

"mat! mat! is this about anyone??" NOOO. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT. STFU.

The Italics Were What I Said- April 24th, 2024

I talked about us today, in a way no one’s ears had heard before

Not the cat’s cry, or the gossip passed around like hors d'oeuvres,

An angry simmer of screenshots and quotes

other girls and stabbing metaphors

But at the end of the day, 

You think you can use me for whatever you like, but mind you,

Mind you, my dear,

I’m a woman in the 21st century,

And at the end of the day, 

When all had gone gray, 

And you’re just “Jared”

You’re gonna want to pray

That this doesn't go viral, 

That your life doesn’t go to shit

Because my tongue is filled with venom

I’m tired of your apathetic shit

Come back at my funeral pyre. 

#ofc i know who it is #you literally name dropped him #NO I DIDNT YOURE A LIAR

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

"mat! mat! is this about anyone??" NOOO. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT. STFU.

The Italics Were What I Said- April 24th, 2024

I talked about us today, in a way no one’s ears had heard before

Not the cat’s cry, or the gossip passed around like hors d'oeuvres,

An angry simmer of screenshots and quotes

other girls and stabbing metaphors

But at the end of the day, 

You think you can use me for whatever you like, but mind you,

Mind you, my dear,

I’m a woman in the 21st century,

And at the end of the day, 

When all had gone gray, 

And you’re just “Jared”

You’re gonna want to pray

That this doesn't go viral, 

That your life doesn’t go to shit

Because my tongue is filled with venom

I’m tired of your apathetic shit

Come back at my funeral pyre. 

#prev tags #YOU KNOW WHO THIS ONE IS ABOUT #StOP IT #I FEEL IT IN YOUR GAZE

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

"mat! mat! is this about anyone??" NOOO. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT. STFU.

The Italics Were What I Said- April 24th, 2024

I talked about us today, in a way no one’s ears had heard before

Not the cat’s cry, or the gossip passed around like hors d'oeuvres,

An angry simmer of screenshots and quotes

other girls and stabbing metaphors

But at the end of the day, 

You think you can use me for whatever you like, but mind you,

Mind you, my dear,

I’m a woman in the 21st century,

And at the end of the day, 

When all had gone gray, 

And you’re just “Jared”

You’re gonna want to pray

That this doesn't go viral, 

That your life doesn’t go to shit

Because my tongue is filled with venom

I’m tired of your apathetic shit

Come back at my funeral pyre. 

#tumblr poems #original poem #poem #poetry #poets on tumblr #writer and poets #mat lore

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

I LOVE REHASHING THE DRAMA FOUR MONTHS LATER

#mat lore #dramaaaa

[maitaiwiththecorpses]

#good lord #im deceased #this is super sweet