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We live in a time where a single missile could demolish an entire city yet I have to pretend like I don't want you by my side

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I hate it when I start on a novel and then I lose track of it but here is the introduction to one that has potential for a continuation.

A colorful and lukewarm October autumn was to embellish the humble town of Dublin, Texas. A drop in heat as craved by its townsfolk who had, in recent months, been subject to its boiling, humid weather, was finally not so warm enough to bake uncooked pinto beans in only 36 minutes. I wish this was a clever hyperbole, but this was in fact a heat which warped the area in such a way that inspired middle school science teachers to assign students to test its heat, using various species of beans and lentils. If the heat had done anything of good to its culprits, it had rendered the conventional oven obsolete, as presented by the High Schools Home Economics teacher. Speaking of High School, on the crispy cusp of teenage-hood, Simon Waller was an 8th grader who saw great opportunity in his academic advancement towards High School. Greatly ambitious in his artistic endeavors, his mother even allowed him to install his own matte white wallpaper in his bedroom, so that instead of using posters like the average teenager, Simon took it upon himself to mural his bedroom walls with his own wacky, eccentric characters. Comic books, manga, newspapers and cartoons was an obsession his mother had hoped to be a phase, but like a gambling addiction at an all you can play casino, Mr. Simon Waller was more than all in. Of course, it was to be expected how prevalent Simon’s characters were on social media, crowding his Pinterest, Tumblr, Facebook, tik tok, YouTube and Instagram pages with illustration after illustration. His bold and signature color palette when blended with his almost abstract usage of shapes somehow came together as the most cohesive an explosion could possibly be. Reckless yet calming, pretentious yet charming, Simon Waller's characters spoke to its niche 400 social media followers in a way that made young Waller feel like he was already making it. 

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And I don't just love you today

I love you tomorrow

I love you in 10 years

I love you until we are elderly

Through sickness and health

For richer and for poor

I love you

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I still love you on the level that I did the day I told you that I loved you.

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It's hard to love yourself when you don't care anymore

And it's hard to care when you have no one

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I love you

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If life were to actually make sense

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Got my new car!!

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Best part of a soul connection is words don't need to be spoken

You can just hold onto each other and exist

In silence

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I guess I've never been one to dampen a person's beliefs

Believing something in and of itself is already an irrational thought process

Albeit, there are dozens of factors each person takes into account when forming their beliefs

But sometimes

Beliefs can help people

They may shield them

Sure, if someone's beliefs impede on someone else's existence

I'm not really for it

But if their beliefs are simply for them

And they are harmless

Who cares about challenging them on it

Because what is the truth?

And what difference does knowing the truth

Or even making a theoretical guess on the truth make?

It doesn't matter in the day to day lives we are living

We are not on a podium preaching to masses who listen in unison

We are isolated in our little social groups

So what's the harm in letting someone live in the world that helps them sleep at night ?

Don't dampen someone's harmless beliefs

I know this Universe is amazingly large

And the unknown vastness that is this existence makes me happy

I love that I don't know

But one thing I do know is that I'm here to experience it

I'm not oblivious to my own skepticism though

But being hopeful

And romantic

And a little bit on the out there side

Is fun

It's knowing that things can be a bit bleek without letting it get to me

But I also know that even at my most pessimistic

I still don't know even a fraction of a fraction of this Universe

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Life Update

I'm getting my car tomorrow

Going to get signed up for uber asap

Going to go on work excursions to save up money for an entire year

Going to lease a self serving car wash

Going to continue writing movies

Going to continue fighting my inner monologue for peace

Going to make enough money to sustain a family

Going to lease another car wash

And then another

And then another

And I will write another screenplay

And another

And another

And not for a second will I not love her

And I will love her

And I will love her

But I will work

And I will write

And I will live in a reality where I don't get to be next to her

But I will love her

No matter where she is

I never loved her to have anything in return

I just love her

And I hope she is happy

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Life Update

There will never be a day where I wake up and I don't love you.

I would wait for you at the end of the world

Maybe I'm a fool

But I don't really care

I love you

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Life Update

Started working on the vomit draft for my screenplay. I should have a new car in the next week or so, so money should be coming in pretty soon as well.

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Life Update

I feel like I have an Angel and a Demon on my shoulder. I have this opportunity to save as much money as I can on a work excursion and invest in a company that can make me a lot of money, or I can choose to spend my time continuing to sharpen up my skills in film and writing. I feel like I'm making this bigger than it has to, because my business I invest in can go towards things like better equipment, having a budget to produce short films and even film school if I want to learn industry standards. The only problem is time. Where do I want to expend my time for the next 2 to 3 years? I need to make sure I set my parameters before indulging in any kind of business partnerships so that I'm not locked down in case I need to pivot.

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Stay in there

I believe in you

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If you're reading this

I miss you

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And that's when I learned that

The best way to write is in poem format

Because by giving every sentence it's own line

Is to give each and every sentence the attention it needs

To make sure

That every word written

Is necessary

And serves the story

And character