midnight-sui

[midnight-sui]

some fucking scumbag reported my account and my sh pics were deleted?? what’s the point of normal people going in our tags just to report us? you fucking dumb assholes. i hope you kick a corner with your little toe and it splits in two.

#mentally fucked #tw self destruction #988blr #cvtt!ng #cvtaddict #baby cvts #i want to cvt #i wanna cvt #deep cvts #s3lfharmm #$h h4rm #$elf h4rm #self h@rm #tw selfhate #i wanna kms #s3lf mutilation

[midnight-sui]

i believe from the bottom of my heart i shouldn’t be alive. i shouldn’t be real.

#depressiv #mentally fucked #mentally unstable #tw self destruction #kms #actually mentally ill #i wanna kms #tw depressing stuff #988blr #cvtt!ng #cvtaddict #baby cvts #i want to cvt #sorry for being depressing #tw sui ideation #tw selfhate

[midnight-sui]

tw: sh

"oh no, now I have a bunch scars on my leg from a cat attack :(" says the girl with multiple bar codes on her body lmao

[midnight-sui]

i have no reasons to wake up everyday. actually, the more i do it, the less it makes sense.

please don’t be mad if one day i just don’t wake up at all, like forever. just keep in mind that it’s the best for me.

#tw vent #tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #tw selfhate #depressiv #mentally fucked #mentally unstable #tw self destruction #kms #actually mentally ill #i wanna kms #988blr #sad thoughts #tw sui ideation #tw sucidal ideation #tw self destructive behavior #bipolar 1 #actually bipolar

[midnight-sui]

im sorry mom. i know you deserve better than me.

[midnight-sui]

naps hit different when ur using them to avoid being alive

[midnight-sui]

Sh, masturbate, or sleep? That’s what’s really about…..

[midnight-sui]

another week, another cycle of soul-crushing unhappiness, dissatisfaction and proof that nothing will ever change restarts

#depressiv #mentally unstable #mentally fucked #tw self destruction #kms #i wanna kms #988blr #sorry for being depressing #actually mentally ill

[midnight-sui]

yes, i’m fine

f - fuck this shit

i - i’ll kms

n - nothing will ever change

e - escaping reality with drugs

#988blr #depressiv #mentally unstable #mentally fucked #tw substance abuse #tw self destruction #self h@rm #selfharrrm #kms #tw selfhate #tw self destructive behavior #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressing stuff #tw sucidal ideation

[midnight-sui]

I don't believe in god

Because if there was a god

Why would he force me to live in hell

While I'm still alive

[midnight-sui]

My coping mechanisms may be worse than my actual problems 🙃

[midnight-sui]

when "never trust your feelings past 9pm" becomes "never trust your feelings any time of the day"

#988blr #depressiv #tw sucidal ideation #mentally unstable #mentally fucked #tw substance abuse #tw self destruction #self h@rm #selfharrrm #kms #i wanna kms #actually mentally ill #mentally tired #tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #tw self destructive behavior #tw selfhate

[midnight-sui]

if my blog triggers you, block, don’t report. this is the only place where i can truly talk about my problems without fear and feel like i’m not alone.

20y. diagnosed bipolar type 1 with psychosis + ptsd. undiagnosed ed in recovery. childhood traumas. sh addiction. soulless.

my blog is for venting about my life. i do not encourage anything bad, only for myself.

i have no problem with people interacting with my posts.

dni fetichists, -15 year olds, trolls, mentally healthy people.