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Un, Deux, Trois......Soufflé

I thought when I said I would like to do cross training in Food and Beverage I would be very glad. But then I was wrong, working with F&B department is like I am their slave. And so I decided to keep working with them within a month or two, but I could not accept their attitudes to me so I become a rebel person. Which I always gets mad towards what they have done to me. But wait my responsibilities in this cross training are receiving the goods, washing the goods (fruits and veggies), and placing them at their places. Everyday I must deal with many of suppliers during this COVID-19 pandemic, and this job.

The day has came when the Human Resources Department called the associates who will be no longer working with my office. There are a lot of associates being laid off, but they got the compensation as they were being laid off before their working contract came to an end. Honestly I was the lucky one that I am still stand up still here because I earn some money every month and I am still able to keep my family survive. But at the same time I feel like I am not thankful towards what I have now.

Thought I could be moving to another department but instead I kept in Food and Beverage Department as Goods Receiving. It is an experience that very unpleasant!!! Day by day I tried to calm down and hoping that a miracle could happen and showing me the greatest thing, but it has not yet come. Well...on my second thoughts I helped my accounting team to do my usual job as Account Receivables Admin. At first when I do two jobs at the same time and stay in the accounting room I would be very much happier but then I was wrong again...Why oh why when I was thinking that could be a happier it always went wrong. But I always trying my best to do those jobs.

On mid of December 2020 my fellow accounting associates has been chosen to be on cross training at HouseKeeping Department so she hand over her jobs to me instead of to her manager. Well..I was like WTF!!! again?! another job?! but no raise for my earning? Well since it is hard to get a job during pandemic so I will do three jobs at the same time. And still I am hoping for a miracle happen to me!

Shortening the story.....it has been a year I am doing these three jobs but none of them are looking at me and how I struggling with this situation but they do not look to what I have done to the company. I was thinking to resign but then I am not very lucky to get a job but I keep looking and applied to some jobs but no respond for interview invitation.

There are some things that I do not like, first my manager did not help me but he kept torture me by gave instructions to do this and that!! Well...maybe this is a test for me to level up, I kept saying that in the deepest of my heart. Everyday in 2021 my manager forcing me to do this and that and it’s like I am in forced labour that non-stop of working and that is drove me insane by everyday. Everyday I slept like I am being haunted I cannot sleep well I always have lack of sleep, lack of motivation. But i am trying to kick those off of mind but it is like already rooten up in my mind and it cannot be took off. Second the management did not think about the lack of associate will be making associates work more than usual. Third, it has been a year that our salary has been cut and even we do more work than usual we are still unseen by the management. I know the company still on saving and I know I am being ungrateful but this is should on consideration where we need more labours to fill the empty position rather than using the current labours to do another job even though you paid us, but we need rest! we are not the forced labour!

Seriously I hate my work and I hate my manager so much, and I hope I will get a new job thus I could resign from this job even though I do not know if the new job would be delightful or it could be nightmare but let’s hope it will be the best.

#spilled emotions #spilled everything #spilled guts #spilled heart #spilled pages #spilled thoughts

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