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[my-daily-life95]

February 12, 2024

Hello. It's been a while. Life at the moment hasn't been to bad. The people from Guatemala arrive today for the work program that the hotel I work has. I'm excited to see some of them who are returning. It will be a bitch to make the task sheets once their done with their training. Oh well.

I started this year with a second job. I was working at my local Macy's. It was only temporary and sadly I'm not working there anymore. I used the second job to see if I could do it. I can but I wasn't able to get a set schedule at the hotel. I even begged my boss man for a set schedule but I was denied. He said that the other two coordinators constantly ask for days off. It's a lie. Only the morning one ask for days off or straight up cancels. I thought about leaving the hotel I currently work in. I don't know. Not a lot of places pay $20.50 an hour starting. I saw a position to clean rooms at a super fancy resort for $23 per hour. I should have applied but I wanted my current place to be the last I clean rooms in. From a housekeeper to coordinator to a housekeeper again? I don't know... I don't think I can clean rooms any more.

Sometimes I don't know what to do with myself.

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[my-daily-life95]

November 28, 2023

Man, the year is almost over! So here I am posting some of my favorite journaling spreads I had done. I probably post more later on. The journal I have been currently using is by the brand exceed. I got it at Walmart. The paper is a lot thicker then the moleskine and leuchtturm. I like it. I was sitting in my car at work when I took these pictures. I like seeing the pages get filled with all my memories!

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Late night thoughts

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[my-daily-life95]

November 26. 2023

I really like seeing what other people carry around in their bags. I'm not sure why. I just know that I like seeing what little things they carry and what type of bag one will use. So here I am making another post of what I carry in my bag! I have a good number of bags and today I'm using this mini Vans backpack. It first belonged to my sister and I believe she got it at Ross.

This small bag carries quite a bit of stuff. I mostly carry a lot of stuff. Do I need most of this? No but I still carry it around. The picture with the pouches is from the bigger pocket and the other is from the one zip pocket in the front.

I also empty out the little pouches I carry. Most of the items I have I bought at Miniso. That store carries so many cute things!

I do wish I was able to carry my journal with me but I can't. This little bag doesn't have enough room for it. I think next time I'll show a bit of my journal. I don't think it's weird that most of my items are cute. One of my coworkers asked if I was ashamed that as a woman nearing her 30s carries "kid" stuff. There's no harm in it. All these little things bring me joy. If it brings joy why get rid of it? Im pretty sure that even when I'm 80 ill still carry around cute stuff. Oh well!

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[my-daily-life95]

November 11, 2023

I decided to post a picture of myself. I haven't been feeling beautiful lately, until yesterday when I looked in the mirror. I felt really cute even though I was ready for bed. Sometimes it's hard for a gal who's over 300 pounds to feel cute but I felt cute. I still feel cute. So here I am posting a picture of myself. ☺️

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[my-daily-life95]

November 7, 2023

So I went on vacation recently. I saw Hoizer live in San Diego and in LA. It was my fist time in San Diego and we stayed at the Omni next door to Petco Park. We were up on the 21st floor and the view to me was fantastic!

I thought San Diego was going to be as bad as LA but it wasn't. The city felt really chilled out compare to LA where everything feels like it's in a rush. I always get a sense of awe when I'm in a bigger city. Especially looking at such tall buildings. I find them fascinating.

Before the concert we went to the San Diego Zoo.

I have never been there but it was way bigger then the zoo near me. We didn't do the safari park since we didn't have enough time to. We did so much walking around and saw many animals that the zoo here didn't have. It was really cool. We made plans to bring our whole family here next year. I think they will like it.

The day of the concert my little sisters went to Petco Park at 8 am to wait in line. There was no assign seating so it was a free for all to get to the barricade. I showed up at 11 am after cleaning up the mess they made at the hotel.

We waited in line for so long. My body was aching at the end but it was worth it. We got up right to the barricade and I saw Madison Cunningham and Hoizer live! It was really amazing! Both of them gave me goosebumps!

The next day we went to the Best Western Hollywood Plaza Inn to catch the LA concert. We could have stayed a bit more in San Diego but we had booked two days of Disney in between. I have been to Disney before in middle school for a choir concert. It was my first time going to California Adventures. I enjoyed California Adventures more since Disneyland was full of children. I kept accidentally bumping into children at Disneyland but not in California. It was a lot of fun and I wished we took my youngest brother with us.

We stayed about a five minute walking distance from the Hollywood Bowl. Thank God we did. Parking seemed like such a bitch and the traffic was horrible! Still I spent this second show enjoying it without my phone out. I took only one video and very few photos. There was assigned seating this time so we showed up to get in line two hours before it started. Again I had so much fun! This vacation brought me a lot of anxiety before it started but I'm glad I went.

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[my-daily-life95]

August 26, 2023

It's been a bit since I last made a journaling post on here. I kinda lost motivation to write anything on here and in my physical journal. It's a little sad since I miss it. A few times I pulled up this app or even my journal yet nothing happened. No words would come out. I'm in a journaling slump. Though right now I am writing. It's an improvement.

Anyways a small update on my life. Hurricane Hilary came and went. Where I live there are still road closers from it. I had to work on the Sunday it hit. I have never seen so much rain fall in such a short time. I was scared for that bit. I thought I would have to sleep at work. By 8 pm it calmed down and I decided to go home. I only worked six hours that day but I was anxious. I said fuck work and went home. There was so much water and a few fallen trees from the wind. There were also a lot of cops driving around since the line for 911 was down. I have lived in a desert my whole life and I honestly was scared of the Hurricane.

I wrote a letter to a friend of mine that I have "know" for a few years. We used to send letters pretty often when we were younger. We stopped talking for a few years but they reached out. Now we talk on a regular basis which is nice. I'm too much of a coward to reach out to people and I told them so in the letter. I never met this person face to face before. We met off Wattpad when we were in high school. They live on the other side of the country. We talked about meeting hopefully sometime next year. It will be nice to properly meet them. I hope I can meet them.

I have two job interviews this upcoming Thursday. I'm still looking for a second job. I'm really hoping one of them will hire me. I really do need that extra income. I can't keep relaying on loans. I'm going to do my best! I have to do my best. Show those people that I'm good at what I do! I got this!!

I builded a book shelf for my youngest sister. It was a struggle. Nothing was cooperating with me. I have builded plenty of furniture by myself and this one book shelf frustrated me to the ends of the Earth. Still the book shelf was built and it looks good. I don't know where my sister bought it from since the box was extremely beat up. No instructions but all the parts were there. Oh well.

Ah this is a bit TMI but I have a yeast infection at the moment. Man it's not fun at all. It's the second time I have had one. Luckily this one isn't as severe as the first one. The first one was bad bad. This one is ok just mostly itchy. I know it's due to my poor lifestyle of no exercise and bad eating habits. I just can't seem to motivate myself to do anything at the moment. I literally spend my days off laying in bed watching tiktok, reading the same fanfic over and over, or playing Tears of the Kingdom. How the hell was I able to do a whole workout routine before? I remember I had specific days I worked out and now I can't even get out of bed. Hell, I even used to do one dance a day since I'm always listening to music. I still listen to music but now I just move my head instead of dance. Oh well. I know my happy ass will just randomly start doing it again. It's a cycle I'm pretty sure of it. A terrible cycle for sure.

I think that's it for updates right now. I had today off and like stated before I spent it in bed. My bed really is comfy. I did just wash the sheets. Also the room has been cold recently so it makes me want to get off even less. God, I'm a mess. Anyways here's a picture from the day before Hurricane Hilary hit. It looked apocalyptic to me.

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[my-daily-life95]

May 11, 2023

It's been awhile since I made a post. I was sick a few days ago but I'm feeling so much better now! My grandmother is going back to Mexico in two weeks. We bought so many things for my little cousins back home. I really hope the clothes fit. My grandmother still feels like a stranger to me. I only lived with her for three weeks so far and the last time I was in Mexico was when I was ten. It's hard to talk to her but she's my grandmother. For those three weeks we struggled to find foods she could eat since everything made her sick. I think she still enjoyed her visit. Oh! I have another job interview this upcoming Tuesday. It's for a grocery store close by to where I currently work. I'm not going to quit my current job. I just really want to get a second one since need a bit more money. I'm going to go to two Hoizer concerts towards the end of the year and every little bit helps. Also my car is going to shit and that's expensive. Financially I'm stressed but I guess that's life for ya. Eh, I'll survive somehow so it should be ok. My world hasn't imploded on itself so no need for me to stress too much. Oh I decided to do another what's in my bag!

I'm currently carrying around this cute DKNY mini backpack that I got at Ross months ago. It has three zipper pockets and I live it!! I got it on sale too so I was extremely pleased.

These are the keychains I'm currently using. I bought the Cinnamonroll one at Miniso for my birthday, the Panda one was a gift from my little sisters that I got a year ago, and I recently bought this space dude from bath and body works. It currently holds the champagne apple and honey hand sanitizer.

This is what I'm currently carrying on the inside of my bag. If you haven't guess just by looking I really like Cinnamonroll. It's not a lot but my bag does get extremely full from it. It's all just so cute!! Today has been chill even at work where I'm currently writing this entry. Just watching the clock tick by till I get to go home.

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[my-daily-life95]

April 10, 2023

The heat is back. My fat ass doesn't like the heat. Well I guess I don't hate it as much as the cold. I still hate getting all sweaty. I also hate when my skin burns from the heat of the sun. Though that burn is welcome when I leave a really cold place. I really hate being cold. I do enjoy wearing shorts and tank tops. I have never been self conscious of my arms or legs. With the heat, I can wear more dress. The really pretty floral ones that I really like. I don't think dresses suit me but I'll still be wearing them. Lord, knows my dresses need more love. It's still not extremely hot or humid like it is in summer. It's the type of heat where you can still wear a sweater and not really be too uncomfortable. A bit sweaty, maybe. The heat has just begun. I'm not looking forward to this summer. I'm going to fully melt. Not looking forwards to it.

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[my-daily-life95]

March 29, 2023

Oh dear God! A few days ago I found a scale at work that we can lend out to the guest. I was curious of how much I weighed and I honestly didn't like what I saw. I currently weigh a little over 320lbs. This has been the heaviest I have ever been. So this morning I did a light work out before work. I gained 10lbs since I got this promotion. I'm mostly sit in a desk all day when I work now. Before I would be on my feet all day climbing up and down stairs. I really need to change my lifestyle. Specifically since I'll be going to two Hoizer concerts at the end of this year (San Diego and LA). I want to be at my best!!

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[my-daily-life95]

February 14, 2023

I decorated my journal entry today in my new journal. Well I guess it's not so new anymore. I think it looks really cute! I don't do this often since it takes too long. It was definitely hard to do in a tinier journal. I didn't want to do a full valentine's spread. I was feeling mushrooms and butterflies. I did add a pic of Wei Wuxian and Lan Zhan from MDZS but maybe I should have done Xie Lian and Hua Cheng for the butterflies. I printed that from my little canon ivy printer. I just wanted to share this cute spread. I feel really proud of it. I like it even more I have filled it up with actual words. It's really cute! I really like it. It was fun to do while I listened to my "Nearly 30 and somewhat thriving playlist". It was fun and surprisingly therapeutic to plan where I will put the stickers. It was nice.

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[my-daily-life95]

February 10, 2023

I started to do some hard-core thinking after I saw a tiktok of a woman saying she liked being alone and that she liked the idea of being in a relationship. She said she hadn't gone to seek someone romantically in her whole life. I had some of the same thoughts she had so I went to the comment section. I saw so many people telling her to look up aroace. I think I might also be that. I know I have said in the past that I have had crushes on some people *cough mainly my coworkers cough*. I do think their cute/beautiful but I don't think I'll enjoy being in an actual relationship with them. I like the idea of being in a relationship but I never really put an effort into being in one. I have been in a few actual first dates but it never extended into a second. I remember not enjoying being in it. Now those people were fine except for one who creeped me out. I had some good conversations with some but to be in an actual romantic relationship with them was a no. I have never really lusted after someone before either. I have masturbated before but I haven't had sex with someone else. I definitely can't picture myself sleeping with someone else at all. I'm good just taking care of my needs on my own. I don't really need someone else for that. I used to think I was bisexual but I'm not sure. Maybe I still am. Maybe I fall under a completely different label? Maybe I don't really need a label? I don't know. Feelings are weird that's for sure. I'm still doing some hard-core thinking. I'll probably think about this all day. Maybe not? Regardless of what my final thoughts will be I'll just continue to be me.

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[my-daily-life95]

January 31, 2023

I woke up to the sound of gun shots this morning. It happened around three in the morning. It has been a really long time since I have heard gun shots that wasn't new years. The neighborhood I live in isn't the greatest but it has become peaceful as the years go by. Before there was a lot of gang violence. I remembered seeing cop cars constantly drive by when I played outside and being ushered inside when there was loud yelling outside. Regardless of the violence I still enjoyed my childhood there.

I finished my little exceed journal a few days ago. It took me a little over a year to finish it. It was the first mini journal I have ever filled and it was interesting to use. I loved the size it since it was easier to carry around. I did get a bit frustrated when I wanted to paste some larger pieces of paper that I didn't want to cut. I liked that it was easy to fill a page and I felt less pressure to fill up the page with one entry. I'm now using a larger exceed journal. I put so many stickers on it already. I might post some pictures of my old journal on here later.

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[my-daily-life95]

December 18, 2022

I always put my Spotify wrap in my physical journals. I been doing so for the last four years. Even though I don't have those old journals anymore or the screen shots of my previous Spotify wrap, I'll just start all over. I'll post it here as well!

I use Spotify a lot. I mostly listen to music and podcast while I'm at work. I really love listening to music. I shouldn't have my ear buds in all day but I just can't blast my music while at work. Even on the days I open I can play my music in a low volume. I made so many Playlist depending on my mood, what I'm reading, where I am and who I'm with. I listen to music from all over the world but the majority is kpop and Latin. I can't live without music. I even have my whole collection of cds in my car since I can't connect my phone to it. Even now as I write this I'm listening to "New Gold" by Gorillaz. I love music!

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[my-daily-life95]

December 1, 2022

Currently on my lunch on my first afternoon/night shift. I'm training on how to be a coordinator at night as well. It's so far an interesting experience. Time has been going by a lot slower then I expected. It's also a tad boring to be honest. After the housekeepers all come in at the end of the day time just seems to slow down a lot more. Currently the woman I'm training with and I are decorating the office for Christmas. The decorating is fun but other then that there's not much else to do. I'll have to make myself some coffee later that's for sure. I also haven't worked this late in a long time. Eight years or so since I last did a night shift. I'm usually in bed around this time well getting ready for bed. I'm asleep by 8:30. The latest is around 9:30. I won't be home till around 12. I left my house pretty early to make sure I arrive on time. I stopped at my favorite Starbucks and began to write a journal entry. It was me mostly complaining about the coffee i ordered. I panicked when it was my turn and i ordered a nitro cold brew with vanilla. I dont like vanilla. It could have been worse. I still finished it since it was $5 I didn't want to go to waste. Lunch wasn't good at all so I'll be stopping by In N Out on the way home since I hadn't eaten since 8 in the morning. I have to pack a lunch tomorrow.

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[my-daily-life95]

The beauty of the paper journal is subtle. If you write when you need to, sometimes with some colors. If you tape in things from around. if you draw when you want, even if it's only rarely. Each of these things is small. Perhaps functional, perhaps as a distraction, they are all fine until they're left behind. The beauty of the paper journal is the concentrated and wonderful artifact it becomes.